luv_ktv's untold moments

2007-12-25T01:46:00.001+08:00

1 more cross posting..

add mi to ur fb!!! hunks_mail@yahoo.com.sg

2007-12-18T00:03:00.001+08:00

Anonymous : then where is the picture?

me: nt again another anonymous...

2007-12-16T00:21:00.001+08:00

i intend to continue posting in LJ oni.. n stop cross posting onto BS...

sigh, ytday, i mentioned i felt i getting recovering rite? last nite,
mum made "deep fried pork rib". i told her i having cough, cannot eat.
she ask why. i tell her, the oil will stay in the throat n make mi
uncomfy. she jus stormed off, saying dunno y i cant eat.. to appease
her, i took 3 pcs, but comented tat they're too salty (our way of
telling, we ate).. den, 11pm to 1am, i kept coughing every now n den..
she asked whether i saw doc again anot....

how am i supposed to ans that.. she sms mi early evening tat she can
cook if i eating. i reply "cook if u free". thus, she purposely cook
dishes tat i like or can eat... i knw, tat y i force myself to eat the
rib..

ok.. tdy went to sign up starhub corporate line.. n... took pic of a
yandao cutie hahaha... on the pretext of testing hp hwhahha... evil
mi.. den tonite oso went for a dinner gathering,.. met a guy there
who's shorter than mi.. taking his jacket off, revealing his.. small
but tight looking chest (his shirt is tight fitting).. tried flirting
wif him.. but 2 bad, he's quite... closed to it.

2007-12-15T00:32:00.001+08:00

as i mentioned in my earlier blog, my illness realyl made mi.. lose my
logic thinking.. i'm really glad i am recovering.. anyway, today went
to see doc, n tis tiem, was my Tshirt material too thick? for the
first time ever, my regular doc lifted the back of my T to hear the
pulse, and lifted up the front of it to hear pulse @ chest.. he lifted
up, n i... sucked in my tummy (hahah, natural reaction to show abs)
but he din lift up high, just enough to estimate where to place the
stethoscope.

after getting mc, i stayed hme, n later went for work.. many ppl
surprised siazz.. tat i get mc but still went work.. well, i need to
clear some stuff mah.. n luckily i did, cos i helped to solve some
mysteries.. umm, talking abt recovery :)

n i tink the most rewarding part is.. 1 good looking (he's not under
my definition of yandao, and not wat i consider cute) guy from IT..
who's always so friendly and smiling came over to discuss some things
wif mi. wah.. my first time to see him in brown polo.. seems tat he
dun have great chest.. more of avg chest size lol.. but nvm.. cos... i
feel hot whenever he stands close to mi..

2007-12-14T14:34:00.001+08:00

forgive mi.. i'm blabbering nonsense here.. seems tat when i'm sick,
(when it affect my EQ), i usually find no 1 cute or wif sex appeal..
but nw, i'm recovering fast.. jus now in sgboy, saw vincent ng's ad
for Tan studio.. wah...

2007-12-14T11:06:00.001+08:00

haizz... as u all knwo (if u dunno yet, wah liao... even my girl
lol... knows i've been spreading awareness of it), i've been sick for
the past 2 wks.. during these 2 wks.. i've been living like a retarded
person siazz (no offence/pun intended). i forgot a lot of things which
i did/knw b4 i was sick. all 'cos last wk, after takign the med, i
simply dozed off on the bed..

now, even logical thinking, i sometimes oso can get very blur. a good
eg is, ytday a frn showed mi 2 invitation cards. 1 is written in
malay, 1 is written in english and chiense. i read out the malay
words.. to his amusement. den the other card, i trying to do mapping
to see which malay word stand for which chinese/english word. but i
was totally confused..

u knw wat, the chinese and english line were taking up 1 line each.
the malay ver took up 2 lines. but when i read the chn n eng 1, i read
the chiense as the first line of the malay ver, and english as the 2nd
line... oh gosh... wat came over mi??

n it seems tat, a lot of things which i could have anticipated if i nt
sick, i din foresee them.. even at the expense of thinking i shld b
rite... wah liao..

tink i slept 2 much...

2007-12-13T00:08:00.001+08:00

aiyo... confirmed.. teh following factors make a guy a gay magnet..

1: sleeveless top
2: nice face
3: not bad hair
4: arm muscles

i boarded mrt.. it's crowded.. a few other ppl oso boarded.. den i
noticed the middle of the .. sector.. have some space. so i moved in.
unexpectedly, a guy wif the above features was sitting right in front
of mi. RIGHT AFTER THAT, an auntie immediately came over, n stood in
front of mi, facing tat guy.. gosh.. she looked so DESPERATE to be in
front!! even so later..

den, after her, 2 more guys kinda made their way to my place. 1 guy..
was like notice tat muscle guy, n moved over.. at the expense of my
space.. the way he stand, almost din care i was oredi there, jus like
trying to make his way to occupy the best position (mine) but too
late.

soon.. i noticed another guy standing beside tat auntie.. his position
n eye contact, oso told mi he's looking at tat muscle guy..

wah liao.. i immediately felt a gay magnet there..

3 gays (mi included), 1 auntie.. i tink at tis time, the gays r trying
nt to look obvious, n trying to act as str8 as possible.. or as
non-chalent as possible... lol.. i felt, the oni thing left, is to
look casual n normal.. but as i abt to alight, i oso look at the
muscles THINKING TO MYSELF how i gonna achieve them.. den as i moved
to make my way out, those gays oso.. did the same ting.. haizz...

oh ya, tat auntie.. upon reaching the 2nd stn, she dunno which stn she
at, so she lower her head to see... kauzz.. she look like she bend
down to seek tat guy's attention siazz!! cos she din jus bend, she ..
like.. bend den look loook look..

gosh!!!

den i alighted, n went for my haircut.. i found tis salon, when i was
walking past it some time back, den the guy pass mi his namecard.. but
now, i can't recognise him liao hahah.. his skills nt bad.. but tok
kinda soft lah.. tmr, den will see wat my colleagues say.. their side
hor.. cos it's very heartland shop, they do everythign themselves..
i'm used to my auntie hairstylist.. they have ppl for each role..

den tis guy, he take care of styling, spreading of the cover sheets,
coloring, washing of hair, hair treatment... everything... i thot
these ppl usually 20+... but he is actualyl near 30.. my age.. hehe, m
i so honry? he's wearing a black polo.. n i actually feel like seeing
him go topless.. den when everythign finished, he sent mi out.. n i
patted his shoulder..

facebook

2007-12-12T00:17:00.001+08:00

i've gotten facebook acct.. add mi there?

hunks_mail@yahoo.com.sg

oso dunno y i joined.. b part of the vogue? cos.. it's realyl js the vogue..

2007-12-09T13:35:00.001+08:00

Lets101 Quizzes - Myspace Quizzes For Fun

hahaha.. how true can such things be?

2007-12-09T13:11:00.001+08:00

oopps.. had wanted to add text to the analysis posted just now.. but forgot..

got the link from http://glazzal.livejournal.com/790907.html. Thanks glazzal.

"Existing Situation" may be true.. see it from the "making frns" pov..
i knw i'm an introvert who sincerely wishes to make more frns ... and
go out more often.. but sometimes, i'm just too alone and ends up
building up a defence wall as an introvert's protection against any
seemingly offending acts (verbal or action).

"Stress Sources" - i try to be unrestrictive at most times. Sometimes
this seems as a butterfly or flirtatious.. n i oso.. try to overcome
any obstacles that stands in my way to achieve my aims.. the
"overcoming" refers to legitimate n non-hurtful means.. meaning, i dun
wan to hurt any1 in order to achieve my goals.

"Restrained Characteristics" i believe this needs time, as I'm not
someone to open up my heart to people easily.. given family history
and personal history as well.. egocentric n offended easily.. i'm
trying to be much less..

"Actual Problem" hope tis is solved, once i've repaid my debts

the rest.. is up to my frns and visitors to judge :)

2007-12-09T12:58:00.001+08:00

Kevin+Lee took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"In despair and needs relief of some sort. Wants ph..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

2007-12-09T12:23:00.001+08:00

i was reading an article on <a href="http://www.fridae.com/newsfeatures/article.php?articleid=2105&viewarticle=1">fridae</a>... and was realyl amused by this line:

"When Owen's male boss confessed to having issues with women, Joanna offered to counsel him by saying: "Who knows the soul of a straight man better than a lesbian woman?" Hear, hear!"

and ...

" On this particular episode, Ellen interviewed singer James Blunt and asked about his love life:

Ellen: So are you dating anyone right now?
James: No, but I'll give you my number later.
(Ellen gives her audience a bewildered look.)
Ellen: Um, James, I'm gonna have to tell you something about myself later backstage.
(The audience laughs affectionately.)
James: Well, you know, I am actually very effeminate.
(The audience laughs some more and clap their hands.)"

whahahaa...

good one siazz :)

2007-12-07T20:12:00.001+08:00

i'm really sick... usually, it dun bother mi if i get struck wif cough or flu.. cos my immune sys can handle it in 2 wks. but tis time, a fever made it worse. i totally cannot control my illness.. coughed pretty hard at work.. had wanna fight it real hard.. but seems tis time, the fever is "supporting" cough n flu, n my immune sys cannot handle the fever well..

toking abt fever... i think i'm beginning to knw how fever can turn someone into hearing impaired.. cos, at tat time (3am) i felt feverish, i cld feel my rite ear was blocked.. like a huge sound-proof wall was placed between my ear's opening, n... my internal.. membrane? at tat moment, i really duno if i shld wait till morn, or head to 24hr clinic.. i really was at a loss.. n i can't carry on my sleep too. i finally decided to have a bite and take panadol.. the panadol really helped. within 20 mins, my fever subsided, n my hearing was cleared.. phew.. to tink.. in order to let the med flow down smoothly to my body, i sat up, used my pillow as a cushion to lean against the wall, n rested.

speaking abt the hearing-impaired, as i recovered gradually, i felt tat, if i din do anything (or wake up on time to feel the high temperature), my hearing cld b severely impacted, cos i really felt the blocking. i am really truly grateful n... happy tat... my life has always been VERY fortunate manzz..

1) tis time, the fever...

2) den YRS ago, during clubbing, i was dancing on stage (yes.. STAGE) n swirling around a pole.. to focus on my dancing, i closed my eyes to avoid contact wif anyone. a while later, i opened my eyes (i duno y)... n it's actually on time to see an arm coming my way, towards my throat!!!... or any place above the throat area!!! i den adjusted n avoided the arm... wah liao, if not, sure kena accident!!

3) n 1 more thing... oso i consider VERY lucky... but i cant rmb it for now..

ok.. last nite, once again, i felt how lucky / fortunate i was to knw 1 frn.. he always treat mi VERY well, but ALWAYS made it a point NOT to make it obvious.. i asked him out for a movie, he agreed. i dun tink i told him the title. when we met, n he found out i was sick, he offered to get warm drinks for mi for movie.. n he oso said tat he oso wanna get a warm drink himself..

n abt the questions i raised, he offered his suggestions.. whcih i felt very helpful...

first was the "buddy asking abt gf". he said its normal to give tat ans.
2nd, the photo-taking wif female colleague. he oso said jus act blur, like wat my frns commented here.
3rd.. the serious 1, whcih i din mention here.. a newly made frn (AA) who i knew from irc wanna knw mi better, n was VERY VERY straightforward in his words, no blunting, no covering. naked words. but i oni take him as a frn. den he asked his frns to join us. i was keen to knw his frn (BB), n kept toking to BB on msn. den somehow (or shld say unexpectedly), BB told AA i was compatible wif AA. i verified wif BB, and BB said he FELT i was compatible wif AA. i really dunno wat to say... n tis resulted in AA IMMEDIATELY sending mi an sms, saying he wan mi b his bf, n etc. i showed my movie frn (above) the sms. he den advised mi to simply ignore the msgs. i was worried tat AA will nt get it. he said it shld b very obvious oredi, if i dun reply... hope so loh..

ok... den did i mention abt a xmas party org by my proj team at work? they say we need a gift valued @ $10 min, last min (i oni rmb it 24 hrs b4 the party), i oso duno wat to prepare.. den thot of soemthing EVIL... hahah... yrs ago, as xmas gift exchange, i got a "bear bear" towel set. but i've nvr used it. tis towel set got 2 towels in it n in a box. den.. i decided to wrap it up, n pass it off as a gift whahahhaah.... =D

ok.. time for dinner... den med... cya!

2007-12-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

william: Which post did u mention about the guy at the company bus

me: i forgot whcih posts i got write abt him.. but here's 1: http://luvktv.blogspot.com/2007/10/somehow.html

HELP ME... i dun wan to smear a female colleague's name!!

2007-12-05T22:51:00.001+08:00

oh ya!!! at work, there's a male colleague who i took care of ever since he joined. think he trust mi a lot, n folows my advice. but ytday, after company retreat, we walked around to kill time, n he asked if i got a gf b4... wah liao.. i had nothing on my mind... i jus said things like "had a few girls b4.. went out, but nothing else.. din hold hands". den he say "tat;s nt gf mah"... he den say, he asked 'cos he wanna get a xmas gift for gf..

argh... my cover.. gonna poked??

den, durign the retreat, 1 female colleague (i knw her n met her on the streets every nw n den) was all dressed up.. so i took a pic wif her.. wah liao, den today, that photographer (my female lunch buddy) teased mi, saying i took pic wif a ger i like.. wah liao... wat to do?? i dun wan make it a big news n smear her name siazz!!

wat to do?!?!

really, need advice!!! HELP... *sob sob*..

2007-12-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

am i getting from bad to worse? or... it's the usual stages? monday evening, ate too much cokies, den over night got serious.. sore throat.. tues morn, rinsed mouth wif salt water, felt better then. wednesday, heavy flu @ work.. n voice change.. tmr? dunno... feeling a bit.. feverish siazz... :( but i determined not to get mc.. i wanna fight the disease!

sigh.. last nite (tues night) saw tat my online results slip state i completed my course, and is awarded Bachelor of Information Technology. so excited, got my boss to bring the printed copy to HR, oni to hear tat they WANN the hardcopy, the version signed by the Dean den counted.. wah liao.. the version.. need 2 wks to process ok.. n need to pay 20$!!! darn.. blood suckers!
no choice.. my official transcript until next sept den can get.. wah liao, dun wanna wait so long to get pay incr manzz..

ok lah.. my original plan was to inform HR right after knowing tat i completed my course, den.. over 1 mth let them do adj, by jan, shld have the new pay.. haizz..

2007-12-04T23:29:00.001+08:00

it's really very tiring today.. yesteryda, jus b4 i leave office, i ate some cookies.. but end up i kena.. throat infection..

when i got home, i slept at.. 1am cos i was so busy blogging.. but sigh.. a frn actually .. sigh.. nvm..

tdy, i woke up, sore throat even worse.. company got a retreat today.. thot it'll b boring for mi ,cos it's basically eating our time.. nothig much will happen.. other than mingling around.. but it seems.. i'm really nt used to crowds anymore.. i duno why.. within crowds, i tend to diminish into a corner.. dunno which group of ppl to join.. dunno which group welcome mi.. i was even thinking of going home early.. secretly of cos..

but luckily.. things went on fine.. before the event started, i joined my lunch group, n took photo for them. den, when event start n b4 lunch, i joined a china-group.. among them is the guy who wear spec :P not clear enuff? nvm.. i oso forgot how i.. addressed him in my blog. tis china group went to somewhere to rest.. n i took the chance to take their picture.. no intentions watsoever ORIGINALLY.. but after i took the pix n each of them volunteered to take pix, i am suddenly... amused that, i have the china guy's pic =D .. jus nw i look at the pic.. whahah.. the outline of his chest is almost translucent siazz!! umm good loking spec guy. :)

den when lunch started, i .. somehow joined another group.. hehe.. again, the topic is on y i dun eat vege..

den, after lunch, we went to walk walk.. jus as we started walking, hahahaha.... a spec cutie appear from nowhere.. n i waved at him.. den he joined us. tis spec cutie.. i knw him on monday, when i kinda missed the lunch bus. my vietnam frn ask mi join her lunch group, n intro'ed 3 frns, including tis cutie.. wear spec, but his body is lean... almost same attributes as mi.. n i cn say, i chatted the most wif him during tat lunch.

ok.. the cutie joined us for the walking around.. den while toking abt gym, i used the back of my hand to feel his tummy.. i dunno if he felt weird anot lah.. but i joked my tummy is flatter than his =D haha, oh yeah, i was in my specs while walking there siazz... felt so undignified!! later went toilet to put on lens.. hehe.. inside there, spec cutie oso went in.. wah liao.. realyl wish... i have the power... to make my frns pin him down... den i rape him lol...

2007-12-03T23:49:00.001+08:00

wah liao.. believe it? i specially got home early to finish blogging siazz.. cos it's really happening n i dun wna to miss any detail.

this blog is abt the walk for aids.. yes i went there.. wha liao.. these recent blogs, i've been giving away my whereabouts siazz.. although i had always valued my privacy a lot.. duno whether it's due to havign no confidence in my looks, or simply.. dun wan b scared by ppl who look at mi "admirably" on the streets..

in nn time, i took bus to somerset there.. speaking abt tis, i was actually in a light-hearted mood siazz.. but how come.. it seems to have changed.. anyway, got to the registration site soon den jus idled there.. suddenly a gym guy.. fair.. appeared before mi.. after a short while, i chatted up wif him.. i cn feel tat he's str8 siazz.. he dun even knw wats the event abt.. his female frn asked him to come along in case of volunteer shortage, but the number proved overwhelming.. his singlet showed his well-endowed chest, n arms.. but he decided to go to the endpt, as he's not .. perhaps nt keen to join the walk.. maybe he see too many aj folks so.. dun wan to be seen as supporting us..

from den on.. things took a change.. perhaps i was really bored.. n the ppl around mi kept on ... standing darn darn close to mi.. almost as if we are queuing up. i did nt like it, n kept moving around to avoid them.. i tink they see tis action as avoiding them.. n dun wish to be in their "level" group.. den i was there, staring into blank, waiting for time to pass.. n luckily got ppl skating here n there, n i was loking at how they move.. haha.. i din even notice E was there siazz.. can't recognise him in casual wear.. not to mention another guy Aye.. without his make up yesterday, he really look MUCH MORE RUGGered.. maybe he shld shave..

den finally, the walk began... wah liao, got so many sch gers... hahaha... dunno y they there siazz!! lol.. sigh.. after the vollunteer work @ 1-7, den realised wat i shld b expecting @ the walk.. i need to find frns to go wif mi!! if nt, every volunteer has some frns to ... "hi hey, how r u".. den mi.. knw no 1 there.. but 2 bad, 2 last min liao, no 1 go. sigh.. so end up i walking alone..

did the org-er kinda knw i'm quite ready to take pix? cos although i'm not the photographer, he asked mi to take some still, after knwoing i have it wif mi.. so, at the end of the walk, i got busy taking pix.. haha, anyway, i was not in the mood to make new frns n takig photo kept mi busy. moved around ,took photos here n there.. n even took cynthia babe n hossan.. leong (dunno wat description sounds good n creative enuff, so better dun write)

"soon", everythign is over.. had thot of... see whether they got any dinner or not.. or a de-brief.. as i knw, i am more relaxed during such times n can make frns easier.. but 2 bad.. seem nothing else on.. ok loh.. i make my way out.. went to nearest mrt toilet to change.. hahah.. i change, den i realised, my pants r quite below my waist.. once i take off the singlet, the top part of the brief CAN SEE 1..

umm, 1 side issue worth mentioning.. when i got on the bus to go home, a tanned BOY was sitting next to mi. out of boredom, i look his side once a while. u knw wat, he was so nervous n scared siazz.. den when he about to alight, he was putting on his bag, n.. somehow the shirt on the back was lifted up 2 much, n revealed a small area of his tanned back lol..

oh.. tis blog is quite short.. shorter than previous.. tink i continue from here..

den later at nite, a good frn of mine.. got prob wif reln.. his bf 3 days nvr reply his sms n call. he ask mi call the bf, n if got ans, ask him to call my frn back.. i can say i knw wat he wan to do.. so i told him wat i'll do.. he den blasted off at mi, telling nt to act smart aleck n jus call. i told him to calm down so tat he will nt make matters worse.. he den jus disappeared... i knw how he;s feeling.. but den, if i really do so, "call n ask him to call my frn", it really reflects BADLY on my frn!! isn't tis a good intention?! was i even wrong?

den today morn, i asked how was the bf, he said ok... i ask if he wanna knw y i offered those suggestions, den he blasted off at mi again..saying i always ask 2 many questions n assume too much when i knw nothing.. is tis unappreciated good intentions? or did i really do wrong? haizz..

den at work, the nice lokoing tech guy came again to resolve a prob for mi. when he can't, he waited for his snr to fix it.. den his frn walked past us, n he greeted him. the snr den came n we discussed wat cld b the problem.. den i was kinda surprised by wat the snr said siazz... n made some startled.. actions.. hahah.. i tink somehow the tech guy felt weird.. n din.. look at mi anymore.. den later, on way home, i actually saw tat frn of his n tok to him..haha.. i think he was the frn.. but the feeling he gave mi.. he seems not siazz.. although he's the tech guy's frn..

phew.. finished bloggin liao... YAY!!! i got Aye's msn n J's... see if i can get E's..

2007-12-03T21:49:00.001+08:00

to start, think i'm getting sick as i write tis blog.. throat getting sore.. n bit running nose..

ok.. continue where i left off.. but i tink i shld stay truthful in my blog.. shdl nt write oni the gd stuff n avoid blogging the dark side of mi..

toking abt J n E, we were dancing there mah.. when i saw E dancing oso, i turned to face him n continued dancing wif our butts.. i placed my hands on his back n pushed him towards mi, other hand, grabbing J's ass and push toward my butts oso :) so fun!!

ok.. nw the harsh truth of the./.. evening..

i was really focussed on taking pic, n... i'm nt been the party type for quite some time. so i dun tink i knw any1 inside, besides the volunteers. den after making my rounds, i jus stay near the entrance.. as i.. dunno where else to move. later 1 of the org'er found mi n pulled mi to find the rest of the gang.. WOAH.. so they're there!

although i'm there, i'm really very.. or.. i was really very :).. antisocial.. or rather, dun like to mix around much.. tat particular moment, i oni felt it's VERY noisy n i really outta place, other than my role as photographer there.. got a few ppl... try to chat mi up, but i was simply closing the channel.. i din even bother or wish to speak to them, n din even give them any eye contact.. machiam a "sianz place".. sigh, actually J kinda made mi honry tat nite.. n had wanna spend the nite wif him.. i din tell him directly of cos... oni exchanged numbers.. den he went off to eat wif his frns.. again, i jus felt.. his frns... those party-goers.. i dun wan to join them.. rowdy crowd.. n things stopped.. or paused there. den i changed my clothes n was abt to leave.. someone who was.. kinda observing mi there (a volunteer oso) gave mi a light pat on the shoulder n said "u changed ur top ah?".. but hahaah... i simply ignored him.. totally pretended i heard nothing n walked off... IT'S SO BAD AND ANTI-SOCIAL WATEVER WATEVER OF MI RITE??!? lol...

hehe, den once i'm out, i saw a cat finding food... i meowed at it twice, it turned to see if there's any cat around.. i continued walking.. n saw 2 guys in front looking at mi in.. disbelief? tat someone of my image meowed to a cat? hahah...

den later, on way hme, i found myself teasing a... str8 guy who was sitting alone on the staircase at the busstop.. no physical, but merely eye contact lol.. even on the bus, i was looking from time to time whahahah...

anyway, an autopsy, or review of how come i behave lidat will be revealed in my next blog.. coming up soon (depends on how fast i type, how long the tv can distract mi from blogging, etc)..

2007-12-03T01:05:00.001+08:00

after sitex, went straight to mit frns for my voluntary work. it's at 1-7. um.. i was oni expecting us to.. stand outside the place n give handouts, wah end up need to step in to the sauna n... be inside siazz... i had to admit i was scared stiff... to see so many naked guys once again right b4 my eyes!! could not quite settle down for a while, n even got the coordinator worried..

when i got there, one of the coord came to ask mi whether i'll be involved in the show later.. the show.. will be giving "live" demo on how to use condoms... hahah.. can i take tat as a compliment? tat he is very interested to see how i look? :P so buay paiseh!!

den, i was still very nervous... long time din come such place, duno wat's expected of mi, n dunno where to stand. den suddenly got 1 guy come in... he found mi SOOO nervous he tried his best to calm mi down.. ahhaha.. he's good looking lah... n tall enuff.. kept asking mi to relax.. n gave mi a psychological guidance on hwo to calm down.. gave mi drinks oso.. kinda always there to ensure i'm ok.. veyr nice hor?

after drinking, i felt better... den, ANOTHER guy came in.. n GOSH, good figure manz!! ya, he came in topless, n wearing leather pants.. n they r quite flirtatious inside there (1-7 ie).they r open for touches n hugs n kisses.. wah liao, but i oni dare to look at him admirably siazz.. den the good looking 1 (call him J) even encouraged mi to touch him.. n the good body guy (E) oso had no qualms abt ppl touching him.. hahaha.. so generous siazz n frnly... yes, i even sucked his nipples.. n J made E hug mi while i tok E siazz.. so happy but PAISEH.. den as i got more relaxed, i got touchy wif J oso hahah..

den as the demo is abt to start, J brought to mi change.. n kept asking mi to take off my clothes... haha,, ok lah... for fun, i took off loh.. n once i got back into the demo area, immediately got ppl look at mi lol... when J came back, he n E teased mi siazz... lol... hahah.. J n i immediately got VERY touchy wif each other siazz!! he oni in his briefs.. so touchy tat the emcees teased us for being so open hahaha... even got 1 point, J's back was so sweaty... hahah.. he told mi it's getting stuffy, but i guess, he';s getting veli heated up hahahah../.

when the demo is finally over, we all went up to bath... J dragged mi along... hahaha... whahahah... nothign shall be mentioned here.. but it's fun siazz.. seems this is the enjoyable part when... for mi, i knw who i'm bathing wif..

after everything settled, went back down to prepare for next event.. n chatted wif them.. wah liao, seem like really no 1 can guess my age manzz.. but i did knw some guys who can give real lotsa fun siazz!! in terms of conversation lah.. den we proceeded to mox there, where majority changed into sch uniform to suit the theme. wah... J is the rowdy sch boy siazz hwahahah...

but seriously, i nothing much to do there siazz.. cos... every1 is jus standing up n looking tot eh stage area.. even hard for mi to infiltrate in.. or shdl i say, i din try hard enuff to.. go in? i tink 2nd 1 applies more.. cos i was totally not into the atmosphere.. jus knw i want ot take pic.. but.. not quite used to it still ..the environment.. even the fashion show, i was telling myself tat it's not related to my voluntary work ahah.. u knw, when i told myself tis line, i somehow oredi knw myself i'm oni giving an excuse so tat i will nt b so honry to squeeze in n snap some shots.. although i seriousyl... wanna see... those bodies n faces hahaha...

ok ,den later, we went to PLAY... wah.. SUPER FUN SIAZZ.. maybe i'm more used to tis place lah.. when i'm inside i simply went around, searching for "targets" :P got a number shots for ppl wearing for the theme.. n den hor, J n E have not seen the wild n dance side of mi.. when i saw them inside, J danced to mi for a while and stopped. den.. i positioned J so tat he is facing mi.. den i shook my body to the music n danced to him.. had wanted to flirt.. but he danced oso.. n E screamed... i used my butt on E... n den danced in between them.. hot dance ie.. hahaha... J dne blurted out "so wrong.. all tops r dancing"... ahhhaa..

den hor, i tink a number of ppl wan to knw mi.. but more of a 1liner.. wat i am not really used to.. is they bitching in high pitches after a few lines.. it's so BITCHY n so ger..wld prefer a normal ad casual chat conversation... wif wits n humour of cos..

sigh.. can't continue liao.. LATE... 1.04am oredi.. have to continue tmr...

2007-12-02T23:51:00.000+08:00

it's realy a VERY VERY happening wkend... WOW is the word!!

i frankly did not expect my wkend to be this exciting and fulfilling..

saturday noon, made my way to sitex there on the mrt. ahha.. so coincident, when i got a seat in the mrt right after stepping in, i noticed at a corner, got a tall guy (taller than mi ie), wif a cute figure.. as i took 2 more peeks, he n his frn moved to slightly further corner.. hehe.. den when we transited to another train, i,.. purposely stood behind him.. see him better mah..

den the train came.. he... maybe.. dun wan to rush in or wat.. or "courteous", so he stood there, at the door, not wanting to move in yet, so naturally, i moved in, n brushign his arms lol.. once i inside the train, i went to stand at the train connector area there.. n UNEXPECTEDLY, he actually came into this area oso!! i was stunned!! well, i din purpose walk there to follow him, but he moved 1 hor..

wah liao, den once inside, i forgot how many times i look at him liao... face, body, watever.. n his voice is between man n teen hahah.. den later, his frn somehow moved up.. n try to block my view of him.. hahah... i den purposely move up oso.. to keep on seeing him =D

finally, got to tanah merah mrt stop. we all alighted.. n.. he walked out first, so i FOLLOWED, YES FOLLOWED, him.. hehe, so coincident, he oso going sitex n i end up standing behind him.. abt.. 3 metres behind. den he turned around n saw mi standing behind.. he tried to brush his hair n lifted up his arm.. but the opening at the sleeve there was directly in my sight.. he felt so awkward n din brush properly.. den somehow, his frn trying to ... give me a weird stare or something.. n they both turn around n commenting on things they saw behind mi.. but... i was oni 2 happy to see more of him so directly and closely.. =D

finally, he got... so not-used tat he turn to face the front, so tat his back is facing mi.. hhaha.. even when the train came n we went in, he was sitting n i simply stood in front of him wahhahahhaha.... wahhahhaa... looking at him like no 1's biz.... really.. i din even care if anybody else saw mi always gazing at him siazz... so. infatuated wif him..

i even thot he was someone whose blog i've been reading (http://uk.blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EkYSDvAycqQT2yudMdNK) but.. on 2nd/3rd look, no, it's not..

sigh.. at the sitex there, duno wat happened.. my frn was darn easily angry.. he set the meeting time to 3pm, n den changed it to 1pm. i asked him y... he simply say no reason. when i called him to ask, he vented his anger on mi.. anyway, we still met n walked around the hall.. my oni aim was to sign up for starhub while his was to.. look around n.. maybe get some cheap deal.

i originalyl thot, signing up for starhub will take oni a SHORT while.. like 30 mins time (q time, reg time, sales tok time, n signing form time) so i went to the booth oni.. abt 1 hr b4 the time i wanna leave sitex...

I WAS WRONG!!!!

i was even surprised to see the LONG LONG LONG queue!! felt so sianzz.. as i'm not someone who like to queue like no end... but still had to join it. den, few secs later, a... jus a normal slightly better than avg guy from starhub passed a pamphlet to mi. i den ask him some qns abt my plan lah.. cos he's a guy.. YES.

aiyo, i tink my .. eye contact sometimes realy sucks... cos.. in front of mi, is a family of 4 with 2 2-5 yo boys. in a queue, i always ensure there's a space between mi n the front, so tat got moving space for us. den their boy somehow din move when the family advanced in the queue. i was looking at the boy's back.. n REALISED the boy wears a hearing aid.. i was stunned n kept looking.. den the family pulled him forward.. i guess, to them, i was staring in a buay-song (pissed off) manner... anyway, while in the queue, i jus thot of another qn to ask another cute boy who's havign a chat wif his female colleague at the front of the queue. n once i got to tat plc, i immediately asked the qn.. whahaha... was i obvious?

anyway, i was tinking.. shucks.. so long queue, sure boring.. but din expect to have GUYS/BOYS "entertaining" mi from time to time :P.

finalyl, (ya, i been using tis word 3 times ored) i got to the registration counter.. n knw wat, 2 boys r servicing mi =D i told them wat i want to do.. the better looking was "ryan", i think. i told them abt my starhub hp line oso, but my aim was to get maxonline, see if i can get any discount. den somehow, they thot i renewing my hp contract siazz.. i den told them in formal english tat i oni wan sign up maxonline, nt hp.. den they hahah... "oops"... den i added in "dun scare mi lei.." den ryan joked a bit, saying they confused..den i got my.. svc no, n waited for my no to be called.

waited abt 8-10 mins, n i was called.. i went to the counter, wanna get a staff's attention.. but all r busy.. suddenly, a cute boy staff saw my number n asked mi to follow him out of the crowded area. there, he tok to mi... he's TANNED =D..den later, he took mi back to the counter to fill up forms.. his.. hwahhaha.. tone n image dun realyl match siazz.. or he's nervous to deal wif mi?

he wears a biz style watch (analog big size, silvery), has a ring on right hand beside small finger (i rmb tis clearly, cos i murmured to myself "guy left, ger rite" to see if it's a wedding ring. right hand, so shld nt b wedding ring. tanned guy. no specs. abt my height or slightly taller. i expected him to speak in properly english words n tones lah, but his words dun end properly.. very much of a local chinese who can't speak proper english.. den he spelt my name wif an extra "L" (keLvin), n stated date of svc activation as "jan 07". i corrected him of cos.. den, more funny is, after i convinced him i shld nt b charged for installation, since the promo offered "free installation for existing hp user", he somehow oso waived the activation fee.. i am surprised!!! end up i oni pay the subscription fees once it's turned on. no other charges... GOOD RIGHT?!

tis blog getting LLOONNNG. i post new blog to carry on.. i gotta finish blogging for the wkend stuff...

2007-11-30T22:47:00.001+08:00

wah liao.. rmb.. i blogged about.. 1 guy.. who i ... talked to while waiting at a busstop?

today, he n i met on the company lunch bus. wow, he's 1 good looking guy in specs siazz.. today is dress-down day, so he's wearing a long sleeve slightly tight T. n i sat beside him. every nw and then, when he can't realy hear wat i'm saying, he'll lean to my side.. his arms pushed onto mine... lol..

wat am i writing.. lol..

2007-11-30T22:11:00.000+08:00

pluboy: y not to orchard one? keke

mi: u know orchard ah? no lah, tat plc is too crowded.. n perhaps too cruisy for mi.

2007-11-29T21:50:00.001+08:00

haha.. i knw i din blog for some time.. end up oso no comments hahaha... (comment on wat? u ask?.. nothign.. jus used to seeing comments from LJ.. den now suddenly no comments in the email, n find it weird..)

aiyo.. today really tiring siazz.. n i find tat, my life is getting boring siazz.. unless i head for gym, or ask a couple of frns out to chill.. if nt, nothign to write. basically simple life..

today i took off from work to take my relatives (pri sch nephew n niece) to sitex in noon. since morn nothign to do, i went swimming.. got nsf tanning @ swiming pool.. wearing white trunks.. WAH... once in a while i took a look while swiming lah.. den i discovered, besides him, got another SLIGHT chubby fella swiming beside mi.. shoulder a bit broad, duno chest is flabby or sturdy.. tummy is a bit loose. wah liao, i find him cute siazz.. esp so when i look at him, or into his direction, den he scared n duno wat to do next..

but, later, he got off from pool n rested on the spectator seat. he then put on his GLASSES. den i... was in disbelief.. i immediately knew that, if i saw him wif GLASSES in the first place, i'll nvr have taken a 2nd look at him!! den later, the nsf boy oso went off.. i tink.. abt 10-20 later, i went off too.. n u knw wat.. when i went to toilet there, tat nsf boy was bathing/soaping/etc wif the cubicle door open!! but he's got trunks on lah.. wah liao, confirm aj siazz!! but sigh... i'm nvr a person to.. do... wild things in public.. so.. jus keep seeing oni loh..

later i rushed off to the mrt to meet my nephew n niece. in the train, haha, i actually saw a caucasian, placing his mini umbrella on the seat beside him like no1's biz!! i thot caucasians r supposed to have more/better social ettiquette? sigh.. imitating cyber-reporters, i took a pic of him n his stuff wif my hp-cam... when i reached my nephew's plc, den i realise my uncle coming wif us. he drives, so transport is easy. went to sitex there, got a number of faces worth looking :P.. den once in a while, for those who wearing materials tat can show the outline of their chest (read: nipples) honry mi.. will stare at that area innocently... lol..

after the visit, went to sim lim sq there buy psp slim. but wah liao, i was darn tired man!! walk all day in sitex n bugis!! the sales guy there is old beng type. can see... he's kinda treating my nephew n niece as lovable kids hahah...

den finally went to mit a gym buddy for the first time, n den go gym together. i rested my legs sitting on a chair while waiting for him.. TIRED.. well, he's indo-chn.. kinda always ready to smile type.. cheerful.. can chat type. for those machines, he use abt 10-15 kg more than mi.. stronger hor? we kinda shared wat we usually do in gyms lah.. started off wif my treadmill, den played wif his "back-machine", den his inclined-something machine but i oso use this somtimes, my situp. den he need to go for his religious classes liao. but we still went steamroom together.. sat there for some time.. i usually stay there until i'm gaining too much heat den go off. tis time, wif him.. i duno how long we stay liao, so once i feel tat the heat is intense liao, we went off.

wah liao, den u knw wat, as i'm changing my clothes, 1 big size guy jus farted rite in front of mi siazz!!!! kauzz!!!

umm.. it seems that bugis cali is quite empty today lei.. usually.. the time i go is 7+ 8pm. today seem very empty.. but soemone told mi, bugis 6-7 pm crowded, n decided to go RP instead. strange.. if 7 pm is not crowded, i tink in future i go earlier liao.. but depends still, on my work commitments lah..

n.. as i had a gym buddy today, i start to wonder y do i want/need a gym buddy... to 1) gym wif mi (share machines), 2) chat wif mi (while gymming), or 3) help out each other in gym routine?

1) do i really want to use his machine for my gym?
2) we r there to gym, work out. do we wan to chat?
3) if he's stronger than mi, most likely he help mi out in gym.. can i help him back?

or am i tinking too much into it? jus let it b?

oh ya, i oso went gym yesterday.. ie, b4 thur.. den on my way home, wah liao, i saw a .. cute.. fellow.. big size but nt bulky guy walking into train wif his gf siazz.. from the moment he stepped in, i been looking at him from time to time.. wah liao, so cute man!! not the muscle type, but not fat or flabby. all good descriptions of a guy gushed out from my mind to tell mi abt him siazz.. such a nice looking gentleman.. i can oni wish him happiness siazz..

ok.. now i'm home, n jus realised no dinner is prepared.. after 1 whole day out.. thus typing tis blog to rest.. before deciding if i wan go out buy food or mc delivery..

Re:

2007-11-28T00:28:00.001+08:00

i rarely blog abt work, cos i understand.. *or perhaps the culture in tis company is.. jus get the job done, no matter how u do it, or wat it takes.. n it's wat i enjoy learning n doing n "living" there..* tat wat we need is to get the work done.. no pt getting mad or furious over anything, cos in the end, a day still need to pass, n we need cooperation from every1... wat matters is to stay .. frnly n helpful..

but gosh.. today's happenings really made my blood boil..

i'm assigned to complete a new module. tis new module, i havign problem setting it up. this module main-in-charge got 2 persons. AA and BB. I'm not on talking terms wif AA, BB is chattable. BB knws i got prob but cant solve. So AA decided to come in. So I left my computer to them. 30 mins later, i came back, seeing tat no one's at my desk, i supposed everything is ok oredi. BB even email mi, saying a new project has been created so tat i can start on the new module.

i thot, everything was nicely setup, so tat i can start immediately. den, when i proceeded, i realised nothing was actually done, but oni a bare and empty (not sure if either word suffice). i'm really really surprised!!! nothign was done n yet it was left in tat way?? even telling mi to start using in tat manner??!?!?

i'm helping to develop the module, HELPING. n it seems like even after i reported a prob, they simply erased all previous settings and gave mi bare system to "start" with?? in tat case, y on earth do i need AA's help??? it's almost like asking the person who sold u an item to help fix it, the person took a look, did a LITTLE thing, n went off. u thot it's done. u took a look, n realised he took it apart, n asking u how to put things back, and without even making the effort to see if it still works at all...

sigh..

2007-11-25T01:46:00.001+08:00

den.. on thur oso.. the day i given the extra task, my boss gave mi a letter.. telling mi it's P&C of cos.. i really din expect to get any letter. impossible to be pay rise, since i haven given any transcript. but i really worry for the bad things to happen siazz.. in my yrs of work, i oni got 1 letter b4.. n tat's a warning letter, telling mi i have slacked.. well, that time i tink still my treat work as fun attitude.

although, i'm very curious to knw the contents, i made myself wait loh.. til i was outta office, den i read.. it says, to keep up wif market trends, company gave a 10% incre.. 10%.. umm, ok loh..
nt to say i'm surprised lah, cos market really getting better now.. but it does have some effect on mi siazz.. first time getting a pay rise lol.. ya, tis 1 is more prof job.. those past jobs, more of anyone can do it..

================

den last nite, VERY VERY funny!! i had a very weird dream?!? it makes mi wonder if i.. actually had a really violent side whcih i have been suppressing. dreamt tat, i was eating wif a frn at kopi tiam, got 1 old man.. 40+.. eating on the same table.. den suddenly, an argument ensued.. he stood up, grabbed his umbrella (which was put on the table), n pointed at mi.. i snatched it, and pointed back at him, yelling n threatening to hit him.. he backed off, i pursued.. n he ran off..

den another nite, i dreamt, a boy.. teen.. teenager.. was toking to mi, but suddenly he pissed mi off a lot. i shouted "WTF" at him n yelled at him.. i was even tinking in the dream tat, dun tink i'll not lose my anger..."..

WOW...

==================

take it tat i'm slow or wat.. after i watched PF movie, den i realsied men n women's nipple size got diff siazz..

oh ya, anyone knw.. for LJ, how to set the webpage icon to something else? like my BS..

2007-11-24T16:13:00.000+08:00

pluboy: get drenched in the rain wearing white :) .. it's so hot man u know!

me: ya loh!!! but.. i got mention white? anyway, haha, u're right.. white office top.. i wonder how that top looks when it's drenched.. n on mi.. haha... maybe i'll wear tat n get drenched n see hwo it looks lol..

hey, u ever thot of moving to LJ.. tat's livejournal?

2007-11-23T22:07:00.001+08:00

tink i've not blogged for some time..

umm, again, dunno where to start writing..

ok.. yesterday, i was suddenly given an extra task.. duno whether it's in my blood or wat. tis task was given to me by my boss. i was still wondering how i shld reply.. shld i check my list of tasks pending? shld i accept it like nobody;s business? shld i reject, asking him to find someone else?

each option has pros n cons.. i dun need to spell out rite?

in the end, i used my old style. i thot about it for a while (few secs) n, a bit resist-ively asked for the scope. as tis new task is totally new to mi, i made it clear i need to check the scope n see if i can manage. tat means, i accepted it. or shld i accept it immediately? my workload is quite light now.

den later, someone added mi to his msn outta blue. really din expect.. jus tat i knw my msn addy is always in my BS

ok.. then yesteryda, (thursday, ie). i went to gym to chill out.. wah liao!! DAMN CROWDED!!!! wanna use the treadmill, n have to queue up oso!!!! after treadmill done, i went for weights. wah liao.. again loh.. all my machines used up.. walked around the area twice, trying to find a spare machine.. but i felt i was cruising though..

oh ya, while i was walking around, i saw someone relaxing by a machine, so i stepped forward to ask if he done.. "u still need?" i asked, pointing to the machine.. he den like stunned. i asked 2nd time, and 3rd time, rephrasing my line each time. finally he got my meaning.. right now, i tinking if, he really dinno my meaning, or he thot i was asking him something else... uh-hem..

den while i was using another machine, i suddenly got a call.. its my poly pal.. he asked where i was.. n said he's bored.. he does not sound his enthusiastic self.. i can feel he need someone beside him.. he asked mi for movie.. but i jus started my gym.. but sensing that he need a listening ear, i decided to end my gym session, n meet him up. i was real glad i did!!

he really needed a listening ear, and a soulmate siazz.. sigh.. if i was this sensitive to my frn's need, i wun need to trouble over tinking how to rebuild the frnship pal-ship, fag-hag ship wif my other gal pal liao.. who had treasured n given way to mi in many areas, but haha.. i took it for granted.. really granted lol.. now is the payback period..

my pal n i tinking wat to do.. either ktv, or movie.. but he suddenly decided on a 3rd option: something whcih i did not expect siazz..

to get a massage from guy for guy..

the plc pretty much in city area lah, quite accessible. but the owner n masseur both not up to my n pal std siazz.. pal asked if oni got them left there, they say yes... tat means we no choice liao.. i went for my bath, n decided to leave my briefs on while in towel.. shy mah!! the masseur den massaged mi.. can see he's VERY nervous when he started the session.. but as we toked more, he's gettign more relaxed..

i really must say his massage skills are REALLY good. enjoyed every moment of massaging by him manzz.. cool.. Perfect Massage (By Men).. eugene.. he really pressed onto the parts where i could feel the "ooooohhh" sensation!! haha, den when i was facing him during the session, he kept eyeing my erection... whahaha... teased my testes.. since he's not my type, i din touch him at all, although he's in white tight singlet n hot shorts. if i'm keen, i definitely either get touchy, or ask him take off shirt.. lol den he started to "massage" my erection.. wah liao, erection got massage 1 meh? i was tinking siazz!! jus another word to "relax" mi oni.. haha.. i even asked him, if it's ok for mi to shoot.. hahaha.. of cos i knw i can n shld, but jus felt better to ask, since i've not been such places for ages..

hahaha.. an otherwise usual gym evening turned into an erotic night... haha..

2007-11-21T00:31:00.001+08:00

a bad day siazz..

lunch time, the dishes not my liking.. end up eat very little..

den after work, planned to go home... but thot taht i need to bring my contact solution, so better take a cab n decided to wait for 1 hr till 9pm to take cab. but 1 hr to go, n i dun feel like rushing my work, n nothing much to do till 9pm.. decided i will jus take the solution home on public transport..

went to buy supper.. on the way, felt drops of rain coming.. ordered my supper.. i rmb telling the uncle i dun wna bee hoon.. end up they still pack wif bee hoon.. later ask the person to take away kena some unhappy stare..

worse, on way home, starting raining.. thot it's nice to cool down in light rain, but it's getting heavier n heavier.. wanna appear sexy oso cannot.. will b so embarassed in such heavy rain. abt to reach home, n the wind grew STRONGER.. if i dinno the proper way to hold umbrella, the wind sure spoil it 1.. den i'll really b drenched.. n my thin office top wll sure make lotsa ppl (hopefully guys?) take a 2nd lok..

if oni, i stay in offcei for the 1 hr siazz.. can take cab n avoid the rain.. first time in such a predicament!!

2007-11-20T23:54:00.001+08:00

hello william, i mean switch over to LiveJournal (LJ).. cos' it easier to track n reply comments.. a page of blog can become a chatroom lol.. oso, when ppl comments on ur LJ, it sends email to u, n very likely, u can reply to comments directly from the email..

n, somehow, u can oso link to frns...

2007-11-20T23:01:00.001+08:00

How you life your life: Joyfully. "Super. Duper. Flooper."</font></td></tr></table><div align="center"><a href=" http://www.blogthings.com/thesesamestreetpersonalityquiz/">The Sesame Street Personality Quiz</a></div>

2007-11-20T00:18:00.000+08:00

william, ever wanna switch LJ? easier to track comments...

haaha... i like LJ, main reason is easy to track comments..

n welcome back... i tink.. u r back? i haven read ur blog yet (after u posted tat overseas msg).. but THANKS for reading my blog so fast :) hugz..

singapore kids.. more metrosexual mah.. msia side more to.. rural style? i got a msian colleague.. after she went canada for a few mths, her dress sense much better siazz.. b4 tat, so fused with msia style...

2007-11-20T00:15:00.001+08:00

2007-11-19T23:56:00.001+08:00

Re:

2007-11-19T21:22:00.001+08:00

follow up..

2007-11-19T21:21:00.001+08:00

test blog from gmail...

--
Kevin luv_ktv

2007-11-19T12:23:00.001+08:00

lol.. i visited my BS, n kinda find yahoo ads really
anal siazz.. i may switch to using gmail to blog

anyway, i on mc today... diarrhoea.. but i wonder if i
made it up.. morn, got slight diarrhoea. den on bed,
was thinking if i shld go work still.. thot of many
things, finally decided i wil stay hme.

this makes mi wonder where did my passion in the past
go.. when i first started in this job, i SELDOM take
mc. but nw, i take it when i simply felt tat i will b
bored in office, cos nothing rushign for mi to do..
it's like i'm getting stagnant there.. wonder if this
is why, ppl often move on after 2yrs of staying.. i'm
nt sure if it will apply to mi.. if i dun feel myself
learnign something new, or developing, i get bored,
and feel like nothing impt for mi to finish.. see
how... anyway, it's a work day. nothing much to do at
home, makes mi kinda determined to force myself to
office no matter wat reason in future...

den, jus nw i was commenting on a blog, n used the
term "live".. den i thot of LJ.. it's LiveJournal.
kinda implying it's a journal for writing your life..
in plural, it goes "lives".. meaningful, i felt.

den, was at the clinic there, wah liao.... soo many
ppl in queue?!?! must wait 1 hr?!? i wondered wat i
shdl do kill time.. den decided to go other clinic..
whaha.. i think the doc is PLU.. very likely.. but i
dunno wat the cos for the lack of biz!!

oh.. these days, how do doctors usually use their
stethoscope on patients? my usual doc places it on the
shirt i'm wearing, n listens. the other one..
automatically lifts up but nt to uncover the whole
torso, jus to slide his hand n 'scope underneath my
shirt n press it onto my chest to listen.. den my
back.. got any std practice?

lastly, WAH.. as i stepped out of the clinic, 1 tanned
sec boy wif short styled hair in PE top n sch bottoms
walking towards mi.. i look at him twice.. wow.. an
athlete to be.. but i dun wan bother looking 3rd time
lah.. wait i scare him. n den i waited to cross the
road. wah liu... i was tinking.. luckily i WAS NOT ABT
to cross.. got a bus coming siazz!! if the bus horns,
wah liao, so paiseh!! den as the cars from the
direction i was looking at went past liao, i look the
other side, TAT BOY was jus stnading thre, waiting to
cross road oso!! i saw his eyes.. lovely kiddy eyes =D...

__________________________________
Yahoo! Movies - Search movie info and celeb profiles and photos.

http://sg.movies.yahoo.com/

2007-11-18T22:47:00.001+08:00

ppl have been complaining that my posts these days ad
for yahoo for free.. shld i switch to using gmail to
blog?

anyway, today got another briefing for afa
volunteers.. true enuff, i'm not open to new frnship
when ppl just came in. i'll be blocking them from
entering my world.

when i'm not ready, i even block my ears from
listening to them.. cos as the briefing carried on, i
asked a few qns, and the new "frns" were also trying
to answer mi, but i totally blocked them, i did not
look at them, and did not hear what they are trying to
say.. anti-social, did i hear?

i will wan 2 differ, as diff ppl wif diff personality
have their own ways to knowing new folks. walk along
tis line carefully, and things go smoothly. step over
it, and things go awry.

n den, 1 frn asked mi wat is my plan after the
briefing. without thinking, i said go home.. haha, n
den on my way home, i msg'ed him, by rite, we could
have killed the time wif a movie..

__________________________________________________________________
Yahoo! Singapore Answers
Real people. Real questions. Real answers. Share what you know at http://answers.yahoo.com.sg

2007-11-18T00:17:00.001+08:00

i knw i got lotsa things to blog, but can't remember
them all at 1 go..

will update as i rmb each of them..

1) on the bus to work, i heard 933 broadcast an oldie.
or 2.. 1st song was su rei's "jiu gan tam buay bo".
wah liao.. i really duno the hanyu pinyin and the
proper song title, so anyhow write. the song sounded
so impressive, influential, so directly-into-my-heart
(wat u call tis?). duno y, i jus liked the song..

den, other song is "tong nian". it's another
mesmerizing song.. oh my goodness... it simply brings
back soo soo soo many fond memories of childhood
manzz.. 933 was playing sylvia cheung's version. i
tink i nvr heard luo da you's 1. sylvia's is more of a
mum singing her childhood memories to her kids.. felt
so much warmth.. n love.. once i started listening to
it, i simply had to pause watever i was doing..

__________________________________________________________________
Yahoo! Singapore Answers
Real people. Real questions. Real answers. Share what you know at http://answers.yahoo.com.sg

can i add youtube vid?

2007-11-17T22:56:00.001+08:00

this is hilarious!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fl8t5nJp2AQ

__________________________________________________________________
Yahoo! Singapore Answers
Real people. Real questions. Real answers. Share what you know at http://answers.yahoo.com.sg

2007-11-17T10:40:00.001+08:00

Can I say that tis wk is (umm.. suddenly felt so
formal in my choice of words)...

cn i say tat, tis wk has been so darn hectic? ehh,
correct word? it's been a thoroughly busy week lah, nt
exactly exciting wk. really a bit almost cannot tahan
liao.

been staying in office 2 alternative days till 10pm.
it shld b normal, but i nvr felt so tired b4..

umm, did i miss blogging of anythign? nvm.. anyway,
ytday, met up wif my poly frns... wow... it's really a
refreshing meet man!! thot i cn go hme by 10pm.. but
end up, we parted at 12am!! WOW!! tats the power of
long time frns rite? ;) we knew 1 another since
1997... yoo-hoo..

readers of my BS blog shld rmb that, there was 1 time,
i was into MLM. a number of ppl discouraged mi from
joining the crowd. haha, thanks for the advice... u
knw wat, those 2 frns who invited mi to join, they r
now working in proper jobs. i dunno how come they
jumped, n.. not sure if i shld ask ytday, when all of
us r simply overjoyed to meet n chat again.

from wat i cn see, they r both working as admin level
work. 1 had some experience with network n servers, so
working now as IT exec. other frn oni had helpdesk
experience, so working as coordinator.

even another frn who were persuaded by them to join,
also left and found another job. but oso non-IT.

everyone stayed the same, in everything, but diff'ed
oni in the mindset and tinking. jokes, talk style, and
mannerism all remain unchanged. it's so poly frns
gathering once again. it's marvellous!

den, when we decided to leave, i'm too used to taking
taxi oredi... n suggested taking it wif some frns, but
they wanna take night buses instead :). we tried a bus
tat i nvr took b4.. in end, it made a big detour
siazz..

sigh.. such a nice gathering.. long time nvr had that.
will we meet again, probably for the big occasions
coming up? n they still rmb n ok wif my orientation..

__________________________________
Yahoo! Movies - Search movie info and celeb profiles and photos.

http://sg.movies.yahoo.com/

2007-11-15T00:55:00.001+08:00

wah liao, i jus checked my mail.. n gosh, 20+ emails
for mi to read.. some r spam lah.. i tink i better
always blog wat i wan first, den reply comments..

hehe.. today rather interesting.. and exciting!!!

first, same old routine, i taking mrt to work.
normally, i tend to squeeze to the opposite side of
the train, so tat i dun need to move to make space for
boarding ppl. den hor, tis time oso same.. i
squeezed.. but, wat's diff/special tis time, i
suddenly found myself standing right in front of a
poly guy!!! he's taller than mi, has slight beng
feel.. haahah.. the train is very packed, n he's
standin so close to mi siazz.. den beside mi, i later
realised is a lesb couple. lol.. so coincident. u see,
1 lesb couple, n 1 gay who's admiring/looking/enjoying
his view of a .. beng looking guy. i wun say cute
lah.. but duno, ppl usually deem my tea as cuties.

wat's sad n boliao, is tat, 1 ger is standing behind
my beng guy, n looking into my direction. she always
make funny faces.. but i nvr bother to look.. wah,
guess she must b exasperated manz..

den tis beng guy, once in a while, my eyes will roll
up to see him lol.. 1 time, he shut his eyes, other
times, he jus gave an irritated look. but on the
train, wat can he do siazz!! lol..

ok, at work, some things i learnt. even though u've
passed some work u handled b4 to another person, dun
assume he/she will handle them forever. still, take
charge n know the purpose of everything amendment
done..

nex is.. my exp in gym.. i will say no ice-cream
during gym for my eyes. but, when i went to sauna,
it's SOOO different... once again, i'm stunned,
scared, scarred, n sigh.. wat have i done?!?!

in my towels, i was in sauna. i was tinking of leaving
liao. jus den, 1 guy came in.. i'd say, he's not that
cutie pie type of looks, but i jus feel he's nice
looking n kinda cute. i've been looking at him since
he came in. but the more i look, the more he look
back.. i somehow felt something's amiss: he's looking
at mi oso.

wah liao, i suddenly got so stunned!! if he din lok at
mi, i'll continue looking, since it wun lead to
anything. but he's looking at mi, i feel tat he's oso
keen on mi!! n even when i din look, i sensed tat he's
still doing it..sigh.. tell mi wat to do.. i dun wan
lead ppl on.. but like so much to see..

den suddenly, we both decided to leave at the same time..

__________________________________
Yahoo! Movies - Search movie info and celeb profiles and photos.

http://sg.movies.yahoo.com/

2007-11-13T00:34:00.001+08:00

i'm not used to giving my blogs a title, so i wun.. =D

um, where shld i start blogging from?

a number of things have been happening.. i think
interesting stuff lah.. hope i can rmb all to jot
down.

first, is my first journey into LJ.. perhaps it
signifies a change of.. view/life/direction/etc?

heroes, and Resident Evil. these 2 made mi realise i'm
really very much into fantasy.. imagining things.. n
somehow, stories which do not end wif a summary have a
room for us to imagine. tat's wat i like.. heroes, let
me go back to the world of fantasies... charmed oso..
like "projecting my determination to DEFLECT (i learnt
tis word from charmed) an attack" or "forming an air
or something of defence".. like The Incredibles, that
young ger. wah liao, dun get mi started siazz.. umm..
or is there a community here (LJ) which got ppl wif
such interests?? hopefully dun turn into obsession
(gosh, i'm havign problem rememberign these words..
like deflect and obsession).

den ytday, jus b4 i went out for a volunteer briefing
session, i... had another.. fantasy.. lemme refresh..

it's about cops..

ehh.. i really can't rmb the details.. like.. nvm.. i
really forgot.. been tinking for mins..

den, the volunteer ting is.. wah liao, i thot it'll
oni b a 2-hr ting. din expect it to last the whole
day. but it;s interesting still. made mi know some new
frns, and learn more abt myself..

now tat i'm kinda off stress, i am better able to
handle situations and grow my tinking. ok, so i
reached the place.. ok lah.. it's AFA. i was the first
1 there. n kinda had a short conversation wif the
organisers. den i walked around the plc. more ppl came
in, but i'm den thrown into my world... locking
everyone else out of my world.. reading thru the
pamphlets.. i'm standing at the door u knw, but when
ppl came in, outta courtesy, i looked, den continued
reading. i rmb, last yr, at a xmas celeb in a frn hse,
1 aj was soo.. "friendly".. someone came in thru the
door, he's standing 10 metre away n his back was
facing the door, but he still exclaimed "happy new
yr!".. wow.. tat's power...

i prefer a more personal touch n greeting..

anyway, later the briefing started, n i was so
withdrawn from the discussion, i din look at any1. but
later, as the discussion warms up, i started looking
around lah.. n eventually the barrier was smashed.
when the briefing ended, 1 boy asked mi if i got any
plan.. umm, so sudden question.. while i asked another
soft guy to stay around.. cos he's abt to take his bag
n leave, but i sensed tat, he's waiting for someone to
say the "stay" word.

den, a short chat evolved into.... no prize for rite
ans... a dinner. unexpectedly siazz.. den the dinner
was oso.. happening!! once we stepped into the cafe
restaurant (cafe cartel), 1 guy who was on duty to
serve our table, gave a pissed look and attitude. i
was abt to decide not to give the service charge
siazz.. later when he took our orders,

i said politely "r u able to provide better svc?"
his reply: "ya, i'm providing better service"
i den tried telling him wat made mi say these, but he
seriously din get it. anyway, later he apologised lah,
n he made up for the "better svc" by always re-filling
our glasses wif plain water.. hwa lioa!!! so. farnie!!

oh.. i tink in my BS, i mentioned abt the taiwan boy..
hehe, last nite we chatted siazz... wow, taiwan
culture so open? he casually showed mi his closeup
beach picture focussing on face n chest, wif folded
arms. topless some more.. n i offered to take his pic
when i visit him..

umm, tink that's all.. boring to read such long 1s anot??

__________________________________________________________________
Yahoo! Singapore Answers
Real people. Real questions. Real answers. Share what you know at http://answers.yahoo.com.sg

my test on cross posting.. not double posting..

2007-11-11T23:13:00.001+08:00

see if it works..

anyway, chris added me to his list, and I got his
request. Once I accepted it, do I still need to add
him to my friends' list too?

Or just the first step suffice?

__________________________________
Yahoo! Movies - Search movie info and celeb profiles and photos.

http://sg.movies.yahoo.com/

2007-11-11T22:19:00.001+08:00

nae:nope, not double posting.

one thing is... the lj ads! really annoying. but if you switch them off you'll get the default blue interface lar. and you can't customize the html much.

you should turn off the navigation bar; it's ugly. On this page:
http://www.livejournal.com/customize/options.bml

me: not double posting? or did you post in BS?

ummm, r u using Plus account? Or basic? Mine is Plus. If you are too, I wonder if it's better with Basic.

For the navigation bar, it's useful to mi, but i've set it to show only when I view pages. Try again. It should not show for you anymore, unless you requested for it..

2007-11-11T11:55:00.000+08:00

ooh... wif nae's help, i'm seeing how LJ handles comments.. it's sure easier and faster siazz...

nae, u have BS id oso. r u double posting as well?

kevxx, thks... if things go smooth, i may really switch to LJ.. see how first..

2007-11-10T22:21:00.000+08:00

I'm testing LJ now.. Do visit http://smlee4.livejournal.com/ and do anythign you want there, to let me see its capabilities..

Thanks!!

In the meantime, I'll try to post there, and here, until I decide whcih is better.

2007-11-10T16:22:00.000+08:00

does it sound alright to stay home all the way till the day i go back to work? few reasons:

1) din jio frns
2) dun wish to go out
3) save money (true anot? or jus an excuse?)
4) finished some undone business (hahaha, i think usually it's written in other way)
5) umm.. do some unfinished business...

mayb the coming wk, i gonna start planning my outings liao.. n enjoy life.. esp last nite, i was wide awake while on the nite rider trip home. i saw a lot of places i nvr walked to, a lot of thigns i had not experienced yet.

umm, purpose of tis blog is to... grumble again.. yes. my youtube subscribers have usually been guys, cos of the vid contents. and i'm glad i saw a number of vids from these subscribers' subscribed/favourites videos. some were fantastic siaz!! but somhow, the ego in mi, at times, told mi i shld nt subscribe.. ahah.. to have a feel of superiority over them... typical leo character huh? but i still subscribed lah.

den, these days, i started to post renfred's vid from ch8 9pm show. gosh, i tink many many young GIRLS (i presumed) subscribed to my vids siazz!! i was stunned and taken aback... i jus fell a bit odd n weird, so many girls "swarmed" to mi... wahliao... nothing bad, but not used to it.. machiam, u at a party, u wan see n knw the guys, suddenly, gers began walking up to u to chat up wif u... (umm.. haha, my imagination got the better of mi, tellya later), when my purpose is to chat up wif guys..

ok, my imagination: u see.. those shows, when a group of gers suddenly walk up and take up ur time.. den in front of u, u see a gorgi (is gorgeous for short, rite? i heard from my oz pal) walk past. u r so taken up by the gers, u din have the chance to stop him n chat him up... lol...

==============

wah liao, jus a bit of "din-reply-comments" n i kena complaint liao... ok loh..

kevxx: Go LJ Go!! .. switch over!! ,, then you will have lots of comments to reply too!! I;m sure you will prefer LJ to blogspot...

me: ehh... maybe i'll do the switch loh.. test run.. see how... dun like, i blast back at u n demand compensation.. um LJ has an interesting chn definition rite? wat abt BS? 2 bad, it's not BJ.. :P

==============

kevxx: never reply comments this time?

taiwanese boy .. must be really cute, why didn't you just bring them to the clubs and join them?

me: now i reply liao loh.. i had tat idea oso... but i still had to wait for my frns mah.. tat's my main goal.. anyway, 2 short a time to tink tat much siazz.. i'm nt so experienced in picking up boys mah.. unless u, can give so many suggestions..

now tat i'm home, i did tink of sponsoring tat boy, den the other 2 can split the cost among the 3 of them..

umm, actually, if i'm frnly n outgoing enuff, wif my frns who're quite active in night scenes, i can probably get to knw the bosses etc n.. get some priority queue? lol..

=============

nae: How did you know they were not straight?

Thanks for writing about the concert! hehe. That was a good read.

me: ehh, guts? it's in TP area.. a well-known gay spot. the funny ting is, when i mentioned the 2 places, 1 of them (not that boy) said they wanna try places around here.. den i told them, we have the same interests...

oh, i forgot to mention, i screamed till my voice turned hoarse.. sigh, it's jus so natural...

==============

ehh, so where's the anonymous william? r u resting? oh... umm.. ur blog.. later i go read ur review.. haha..

2007-11-10T03:09:00.000+08:00

if u noticed the time tat tis blog was written, u may wonder y i'm still awake.. well, in the nn, i took a nap of 3-4 hrs. so still quite awake.

but some unfortunate stuff happened. a newly-made frn said he's holding a bday celebration at a pub at 1130pm, and said he made reservation. so i decided to attend, since i was wide awake. at 9+, i asked again, and he confirmed the pub is still on. so, 11pm, i made my way there. at 1140, i decided to confirm my presence. he din reply. i reached the place at 1205am. i sms him again. still no reply. i even went inside the pub to ask if any1 made reservation under the name i knew him as. no reservation.

den i sms him my findings, and said i'll be leaving in 10 mins time. den.. some nice stuff happened, which will be mentioned abt my grumbling here, n 20 mins passed. no reply. so i went str8 home.. if it was not for the nice stuff, it's really a wasted trip.

nice stuff: as i stood outside the pub, and staring into blank. a trio of guys came over to ask mi which pubs here offer dancing. 1 was a nice looking boy. it was very sudden. i dunno the programs the pubs there offer tonite, so i said i dunno. den i found them, loitering around the area, clueless abt next step. they oso asked a few other passers-by, but i tink no result. but i duno is whether they dunno how to ask properly, or the passers-by dunno wat they asking, or simply nt frnly enuff to ans.

oh ya, from their way of speaking eng, can know they r chinese speakers.

den they still loitering there, dunno wat to do. den, at tis time, i trying hard to rmb, wat places got dancing, where my buddy n mi went during his holiday here. den i rmb its Play, Taboo, and tantric. so, i went up to them.. wah, they abt to cross the road liao siaz!! as i walked to them, tat boy turned back n saw mi. i waved at him. he look in amazement. den i waved again, he then knw i'm waving at him.

i den tok to them wat the places are. i mentioned 2 places, and den exclaimed tat i specially went over to them cos the boy is nice looking. haaah.. at tat pt, the boy offered a handshake, but i was busy telling them the places to visit, n din do anything.

they den took out a paper n pen, and the boy wrote down the info.

hey, visitors n frns, lemme knw if my understanding is correct:
1) tantric, for asians who want to pick up caucasians, a place for drinking.
2) play, for teens.. aged 16-22, for dancing.
3) taboo, for youngsters, but above 22, for dancing.
4) mox, for working class, for drinking.

after writing, i asked for a handshake, den he volunteered to exchange msn whahahha..

he's in singlet.. his armpit is bushy :P i wonder if, i'm too shy... shld i have asked for a hug instead? he from taiwan, and going back on sunday nn. if nt, i'll tell them abt fabulous events siazz. soon after, they r really gone from sight hahaha..

=============

umm the lady who commented abt the concert, said i din mention anything good abt it. ehh... i tink i shld write something den...

the whole concert really ROCKED with amei!!!!!!!!!!!

i was wif her die-hard fans. once she showed herself, we all jus stood up siazz.. n almost never sat down! her fast songs had everyone wave their neonstix for her, and her ballads had ppl singing along wif her too... funny thing is, tis time, lyrics were shown on tv. it's for fans, or for her to see?! except for guest performers (drumming, big guitar.. or cello), there's not a moment of dullness. everyone was simmply awed by either her power vocals, or emo cords...

screams were abundant. the more emo part came when she sang a rip-off (ren zhen) from her duet wif zhangyusheng. the crowd was not tat familiar wif rip-off ver. but once she switched to the original duet (ai wo de ren, shang wo zui shen), all sang along.

the funny part came when she sang (zhan zai gao gang shang), an aboriginal type of energetic and high power song. cos her male dancers were dressed in only swimwear. i really wonder why siazz..

the hot part was, her male dancers were dressed in professional attired, like doc, biz-man, etc, n they stripped to oni undershirts. den amei appeared, lying seductively on the sofa and flirted wif them.

when the last song finished, she exited. as usual, it's the encore segment. everyone... or our side oni? ie the fans' side.. we stamped the platform heavily, "demanding" her to come out.. at tis point, i think about a handful of crowd starting to leave.. but if they did, they missed out the most valuable part of the performance for sure!!

as we stamped the platform, and shouted for her, the screen asked "do u stil wan some more?" the screaming got louder. den the nex qn "show more energy..." we simply got more excited. the 3rd one "show mi more..." we again screamed n cheered like hell, making it the highest peak for the concert.

n she finalyl re-appeared.. everyone started to go mad.. hahha... the lights were den on, n she started off wif her lovable, but non-hit (ie, it was not promoted as a hit song, but still became 1 of the favourites) slow songs. den she got high, and got everyone, read: EVERYONE SINGLE ONE, to stand up and groove to her songs.

i was all along oni standing n waving to the rhythm. but i felt i need more space, so i stood beside the seats, and jumped n put both hands into the air and cheered for her... it was DARN, superb'ly, unimaginably, super duper wuper, historically high moment. everyone simply enjoyed it!!!

it was defintely the concert of the year. i dun tink anyone else, from any generation, could have done it better... she's the STAR, the ultimate performer for teh stage.

2007-11-09T15:49:00.000+08:00

i'm really v tired.... on wed, i slept @ 4am, and i think woke @ 830am on thur. then slept @ 2am. even though i woke at 1045am on fri, i'm still pretty exhausted.. as in, feeling not-wanna move..

ehh.. i intend to try out livejournal... any objections? or any comments?

===========

newborn - my brother had jus gotten a newborn. wow.. haha, i dun sound happy or excited cos it makes no diff to mi. jus an addition to the family tree. den, yesteryda, when the family visited her (yes, female baby), i felt... many thots running through my brain..

it's a new life, a new life brought into the world.. such an innocent living. sleeping peacefully on the cushion. i'm a buddhist/taoism (supposed to be buddhism, but my frn enlightened me somehow it's taoism). my first impression is, a soul had just been given another living chance, to experience life. i wonder which person joined our family...

new frns - few days ago, in irc, i made some new frns. 1 is a hearing impaired fella. he invited mi to join him for gym. sigh.. i was still at the "onli join goodlookers for gym" mentality. but somehow, they have a group of frns among whom 1 tends to be better looking, haha. later, i decided to join... after the gym, we went to find a frn who's chilling out at his frn's CC somewhere off city.

haha, upon reaching the CC, we walked towards the staircase n we passed a kitchen. in the kitchen was a guy in his thirties. i saw him n vice versa. den as we walk up the stairs, he followed suit. den, when my frn opened the door for us, den i realised he's the owner of the bar... lol... i realyl wonder, if i appeared gay to him earlier on.

den later, HI frn say his frns r joining us... wow.. never did i expect 1 of them to be a good looking guy.. shld i actually say "never expect"?? well, jus din expect a guy to make mi look at him again.. really had a hearty chat there...

================

concert - went for amei concert. it's quite refreshing.. amei is still active in the scene. so her concert by right is held every 3-5 years. but i really stil lwant to say, "so long never went to her concert!!" and this time, still going wif her group of die-hard fans. but tis time, i brought 2 frns along. at least it'll nt b boring for mi. somehow, i'm never on close or good terms with them.. haha.. cut the history off.

i have a lot of mixed feeling here. she's supposed to be the diva or taiwan pop sensation. but her news these days surrounded her mental status. that she is having nervous breakdown, and unable to face crowds. it's her 10th anniversary performance. but i soemhow feel that, it could possibly be her last... after that, she may probably slow down, and take a break and come back later. to re-align her goals, and to cater to general market.

i really feel like tis is the last time i gonna see her on stage. her stardom path has not always been very smooth. other divas, sandy lam, faye wong, etc all left the pop scene gradually as their songs do not fit the generation anymore. but staged performances now and then. i'm beginning to feel teh same for amei..

for the scene these days, it seems like, the hip factor has to be there. not so much about how touching and memorable the song is...
in the past, when i was a kid, goodlookers who cant sing for god's sake were IN.
den, gradually, those can sing live, came out
followed by, those who can sing n dance.
later, sing, dance (move a little), and write their own songs
now, everything had become passe. the IN thing is now the hip factor. it's really the "u can make fashion, u get the throne" kinda thing...

amei is from the older generation. her songs are powerful and influential. but the hip factor does not suit her, as she's more of the sing, dance and perform type.

sigh.. see how things go...

=========

new lease of life? - with my exams over.. n after doing the exam, i'm pretty confident my life will still go on and i'll get a degree, i tink i'm looking forward to a new lease of life. esp when amei concert came out, and it's a totally different type of us. i'm more expressive, more confident, n more knowledge of myself. her concert is telling mi, she's always there for us, and lead a happy and enjoyable life. to mi, it's a break, to relax and then find new direction...

i'm beginning to see my direction in life (not tat clear, but have some ideas), more clear headed abt myself, wat kidna frnds shld exist, etc. i oso knw how to make myself happy n cool. ok.. cut the long story.

wif my degree coming out, i'm expecting a better pay. n i'm kinda financially stabling. wif the sch over, i'm better able to plan my stuff, without worrying abt any pending sch fees. n i'm nt taking life tat seriously.. but still wary of aunties who wanna get fresh..

==============

anyway, these days no comments posted, so nothing to reply..

Thanks for all your well-wishes

2007-11-06T16:39:00.000+08:00

dear all visitors and.. friends,

my exam is finally over.. phew.. thanks for all our well-wishes..

now is the wait for results. If nothign goes wrong, yours truly will be a bachelor.. pun intended

===================

i'm tired... VERY tired... after exam today, i intended to come home n do some work stuff first, and go swim.. but i ended up finding and searching program to use to edit and join videos in the cheapest way possible. since there's no sun for tanning. luckily, some computer experts have made it very easy ahahha.. computer experts.. but in order to test which 1s are the best for mi, i spent the whole nn n evening manzz.. right now, i'm so darn tired.

for the exam, it's my first time to actually read thru the past yr exam papers siazz. in the past, i jus read the notes n memo the points. so when i look at the exam paper, i'll b stunned at the difficulty of the qns, n scratch my head (dun think wayward). but those times were, i knw wat to study n prepare. tis time, totally lost. anyway, after looking thru n understanding the model ans, i foudn it more of a breeze to tackle the qns. but 1 awkward situation happened. its trivial, so i shan't say. wif the exam now over, and a degree pending for me, do i sense a new lease of life, once again?

sigh, when i was studying for exam, i have a to-do list. now, i'm lost.. i even dun wish to go irc n relax myself sexually. wat's more, err.. have i lost/losing interest in SM??? i saw the vid caps of a new video, but i'm nt.. enticed...

===================

chris: sounds like you're having a good time. I have a webcam and will have to connect at some point...;-)

me: i sure did!!!

==================

kevxx: WAH ... win lor .. you on my msn for so long, you never even offer to show me yourself on cam. :(

me: u nvr ask?!?!

2007-11-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

my first day of leave... to prep for exam.. when i woke up, totally dun wish to do anything, at a loss of wat to do, actually.. umm. long story short..

1) morn, wnana find ppl for swim, but din manage.

2) went swim myself.. n was cruised by a bottom.. ahha.. it's such a dark sky.. wanna tan oso can't.. but i did knw, i m ready for exam prep..

3) got home, n went irc to kil time, b4 i go lunch.. used webcam as lure.. got some bad experience as usual..

4) den later, my luck got slightly better.. got a few guys keen on mi.. but mi not on them.. but still exchanged msn.. sigh, msn become a tool for webcam. if see on cam liao, nt happy, exit liao.. pending my deletion move.

5) at 5pm, a chubby fella is really kinda interesting.. he say he got cam oso, got mi to wait for quite a while, but cam still nt working. n worse, his response is SIBEI slow.. in the end, i assured him, i'm ok if he no cam n no pic to show.. but again, he forever say "wait".. i thot he bz, or away from pc, in end, he's still there, watching my cam.. den i made the erection. n he's high ahhaha.. n he sounds real nervous siazz.. i not ready to jo, jus to tease him..

6) sigh.. near 7pm, no 1 interest mi yet. just as i was abt to log off from irc, someone msg abt "seeing an exec wear guy on cam".. haha, i immediately msg him, n viola, we're on msn cam.. but the cam feature nt working properly.. he often exited n stuff. i thot he's not keen anymore. but later, found it's my msn prob, cos i restarted n webcam is working..

he's quite cute hahah.. n really in exec wear.. wat's more, he's dirwectly showing his face in cam.. i was oredi stark naked.. n moved my cam to my face.. sigh.. wat gave mi such courage.. cos it's nvr good to link a NAKED body to a face. den he oso praised mi for my good looks.. but he added "it's oni camfun, so dun matter"..

den i tried kinky stuff, by ordering to do things.. haha.. quite fun, he's obedient! later we jo together.. he "came" first.. but into a rubbish bin, so cant see anything. den i "came" oso.. while i still see him on cam.. haha.. pretty fun.. nice looking chap.. hahaha..luckily i stayed on..

den, after everything, i realise tat.. suddenly my msn got 2 ppl who r keen to knw mi better.. or see mi on cam... suddenly got 2 ppl shower mi wif concern..a bit not used.. 1 guy is realyl interested in mi, n wanna knw mi better.. 1 guy is kinda keen to see my body.. haha..

den jus now, another frn... the one who arrange for callboy, suggested having another session wif that thai, since we both like him ahahahah..

the above concludes, i again did not study at all.. ok, i can declare today as a "relaxing" day..

====================

kevxx:
Maybe he first time mah ... so glances are not enough .. maybe you must initiate and touch him...

And are you getting your lj up? (haha it took me a while to phrase this line)

me: huh? how come took u a while? watz on ur mind??
hey, i did loh.. got hand contact.. maybe next time, i offer my body to be touched "accidentally" haha..

==================

william: i'm the anonymous who will attend the ah-mei concert. :p. Well sometime just lazy to log-in to the account so just click anonymous.

me: ohh.. william ah.. u dun need to login.. but at least sign ur name mah.. to indicate an identity..

umm.. a number of ppl visit my blog.. n some r going to her concert.. shdl i organise to mit them all near concert area, n head for her concert then? ehh... will i paiseh myself?? such big ego..

2007-10-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

nothign to blog.. so, i jus reply comments:

=================

chris: u should get the newest MSN; then you can do sharing folders and share everything...notti pictures as well as non-notti ones.

me: haha.. yes, i have the latest msn, but.. hahah.. not wise to b shared..

===================

anonymous: ooh u attend ah-mei concert as well! I will be there as well.

me: ehhh.. how many anonymous ppl out there?? sign off wif a name lei.. if nt, dunno which anonymous u r..

hehe, nice to knw that my blog visitor oso going her concert, but strange.. dunno who u r.. shld i still say "see u there"? ;)

==================

ah-bong: lol... funny one... lucky u he didnt just come to u and said "wat? gay ah u?" haha

me: whahahaha... wah, u another person to say so directly but so funny sounding. if he say tat, i'll reply "i am, if u wanna touch me"..

======================

kevxx: Mr anonymous must be regretting like crazy now.. i think he so much wanted to touch you lor .. but you never give him the "you are welcome to do anything you like to me" sign.. so he dare not even touch you...

me: wah liao!!!!! "anythign u like"?? make mi sound so despo!!!
but hey, i did keep throwing glances at him loh.. dun tell mi i wink at him?

sorry to mr anonymous mrt commuter

2007-10-29T21:11:00.000+08:00

wow... i'm really lucky today..

first of all, i have to really apologise to the guy.. who was on mrt tis morning... sigh..

i was inside mrt tis morning. packed as usual. i brought my sling bag, n somehow i dun really have the mood to read my papers, so my hands were kinda covering/blocking my privates. so i looked str8-forward. den suddenly, 1 guy in front of mi (he standing perpendicular to mi.. wah long time nvr use TAT word) turned his head to see me. but i was jus looking into his direction. my eye view was jus "finely" looking at his chin.

he look at mi a few times, so i look back 1-2 times. nothign great abt him. avg guy. but again, his response/reaction is quite funny hahah.. cute? perhaps..

den, 1 stop later, the area btwn him n mi is unoccupied. he din move. but we kinda kept exchanging looks.

another stop later, he kinda noticed many ppl wanna get in, SO, he TOOK A BIG STEP in. he;s directly standing in front of mi!! side way still lah. den he's so close tat, his hands were rubbing mine!!! tellya, if i put my hands go, he is VERY VERY prone to touching my private!!

haha, i indeed had that in mind.. see how he react, but .. aiyo, seeing tat so many ppl on train, n duno who's looking where, i dun wan make such a scene siazz.. machiam i so despo n cheap. but my hands are touching his hands, n butt (where the wallet is).

den the next stop, no space to move. but he slightly moved a bit front, n his hands still rubbing mine, but to mi it's an awkward position.. so i placed my hands beside mi. den i think he thot i hinting something. he immediately folded his arms!!

den since he's so near mi... he's always putting his head down. den mi oso slightly down. but every now n den, i use my eyes to look at him. head din move. for a few moments, his head always down, for the next, he put his head up.. machiam "look at mi again if u dare.." ahhaha... it jus makes it even more fun for mi.. i kept looking every now n den.. until he gave up the fight, n looked down again..

he's not gorgeous lah.. jus.. tat.. i enjoy the fun responses and reactions i get from shy guy lol.. or, duno how to block eye-attacks.

ok, y i say, i mus apologise... cos, when i'm reaching my stop, i asked to make way for mi. he den nervously stepped back, giving mi the space i need. but... i atrociously... put my hands beside mi n walked into the space he made, n since he's beside mi, i "conveniently" walked past him, used my arms to BRUSH his chest, n my hands (hanging down) to brush the front of his pants.. i even felt something hard.. not sure if tat's zipper, or.. uh-hem.. but somehow, after i did tat, i seem to notice glances from 2 girls standing near us.. SEEM.. not very sure.. sigh...

very bad of mi hor??

den... another happy thing, during lunch at hawker centre, i ordered 1 plate of chicken rice n 1 pack. no queue there, but the auntie offered to do mine first.. den, u knw.. the plate 1, she even gave mi the drumstick!! so nice hor!!!

haha.. tat's the advantage of looking like a boy whahahah.. n ordering wif manners =D

2007-10-27T23:01:00.000+08:00

i had decided to work aggressively over the wkend for my work.. but for the whole morn, i simply... did not feel like it..

anyway, was supposed to go city there, collect amei tshirt to wear to her concert. den as i walked in the crowded city area, i somehow.. felt there was so much life.. it's such an overwhelming feeling!! like.. there's so much energy in ppl, so much liveliness. i suddenly felt, there's so much hope and much things worth living for..

as i felt it, i somehow, had the impression i was about to commit "uh-hem"..but truly i din have that idea. but, the phrases n tone i had in my mind indeed gave mi that feel. i somehow felt there's still so much worth living for.. but, i somehow lack the fighting spirit tat i once had.. is it due to a report tat i din manage to finish, end up some1 did for mi, and i lost self-confidence due to tat?

den, as i met up the group (fans of amei), a few of them were sitting there to chat. i thot mayb i can chat wif them to ... release stress? but ahahah... i sat there for 30 mins, no 1 chatted wif mi.. it's like, i jus sat down, with no 1 noticing mi siazz.. i was not close .. or maybe even familiar with them.. so i guess no 1 tried toking wif mi.. true.. at times, when they were chatting, i cld somehow join in and give some ideas.. but i simply felt there's no pt.. they have a... way of discussing among themselves.. felt tat if i gave my opinions, i'm kinda spoiling the balance. and in a way, the jokes they cracked, i din really find it amusing..

1 amusing part is, when i "announced" my departure, 1 ger say "leave so early"? i din really knw how to reply siazz.. machiam a silence for a few secs. but i still left.

DEN, at the gym (hahah, everytime after a gym session, do i ALWAYS have something to blog????), at the treadmill, i ran at 10k/hr for 25 mins.. was SO tired.. after the run, as i abt to leave, some guy gave mi a despised look lol.. in the sauna, tis time i'm DARN DARN DARN sure, someone was cruising mi siazz.. but same time, i oso look at ppl. even worse, after sauna, i was sitting beside my locker in towel. a guy took off his shirt n put inside locker, i den looked, look n look.. avg body.. but haha.. nice view to see a naked body.

actualyl, wat's the pt of having security guards there har?

================

kexx: so easy, we are all connected via the internet.. send over msn leh...

me: har.. my msn can't send lei..

2007-10-26T00:45:00.000+08:00

i've just watched Pleasure Factory. with 2 frns, 1 is once in a while will meet. 1 is din meet for yrs. PF seems to be really a porn movie siazz.. watched a lot in my pte room liao.. it's nothing new. it's more of supporting local artiste in his entrance into RA industry in singapore. but true oso, keen to see the 3rd pt in movie screen haha..

i'm surprised.. it's said that, the homo scenes are censored, and oni 1 guy is showing it all.. but 2 guys did, and there're some .. 20 secs of homo scenes still.. wat's really missing is the masturbation scene hahah... n his erected scene.. lol.. but prob is, he's new.. will he really b erected on set?? lemme see if i can get solos..

den today, i was on my company bus to work. still got lotsa seats left. den 1 guy came up n asked if the bus goes to my company, and how much is the fare. 1 LOUD-mouthed cha-bo (not fit to use "lady") said it's for staff transport, and he can take the public bus. wah liao!! so inconsiderate?!?

================

nae: Kay that was... very funny! hahaha. the first part. Was going O.o; sometimes....

Why must you label yourself at all?

I thought you have a stable job? Eek. Money is a big problem.

me: lol.. dun expect anythign kinky to happen to me in public, i'm not into tat
i dun tink i'm labelling, it's more of a known thing? as in, if u wnana attract eye balls, u'll def'ly reveal skin to let ppl "OOOOOh". this is gay action to mi. cos they are trying to seek attention..

===============

kevxx: you very bad lah .. stare until people nervous... and in the end you still never go talk to him.. he must be hoping so hard that you go over and chat with him

me: wah, u tink so highly of mi 1 ah?!? so flattered!!!

=============

kevxx: i wanna see the photos you took...

me: it's in my computer.. how?

2007-10-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

does anyone know wat's happening to mi?

once again, i feel so blur.. and so slow in my tinking.. retarded? perhaps.. losing confidence in myself.. maybe i pressured myself too much? wanted to get results out ASAP, but unable to do so? reproaching myself as a result? getting too involved in thinking of a solution, resulting in unable to think outta box??

suddenly, i feel tat, i'm sometimes pretty creative.. shld i.. after i got my degree, go into design of clothes?? lol..

2007-10-21T22:20:00.000+08:00

2 things to write.. hahaha..

1) i went my frn's plc to kill time.. den hor, i went to queue up at the bus interchange. as i walked, i actually saw a guy at the front of the queue looking at mi, and he's the oni person in queue. he looked at mi once, drop head, den up head again. this time glaring at mi.. den i kept my eyes on him..

these days, do gangsters still give such hard stare? or by now, guys r scared when guys stare at them??

haha. i kept my eyes on him, till i was 3 steps away, den he turned away his gaze. but since i beside him oni, i kept looking at his direction... n kept my eyes on him.. haha. he's been pretty uneasy.. he's wearing black T wif print in front.

den on the bus, he's even cuter, when he stood rite beside the exit of the bus. cos, when he stood there, i conveniently took seat somewhere that can see him easily. n kept my gaze on him. is he 2 nervous? cos, i seem to find him sweating.. but he's really veli nervous lah.. cos, i can see him panting hard.. even tat "scared look"..

oh ya, he's a lean hunk. tough look.

2) even better than morn.. i on way home, den waiting for mrt. when it came, i saw a cutie wif the face, body, height, arms, watever.. a cute dude wif godly body. the door opened, i noticed he was standing on the opposite door, facing the platform door. right hand holding shopping bags, left hand holding on the bar. he was looking innocently to the platform door. his chest VELI obvious, wif "eat gym sleep" on the T. i then stood at the platform door there, n every few secs, i'll turn n look.. haha, i think he somehow felt tat..

den finally, got seats liao.. he din move at all.. so i took the seat right behind mi.. tat's jus right opposite of him!!!

from then on, i glanced at him from top to waist level.. "WOW" is the word to use.. gosh.. a next door nsf guy.. the chest, the eyes, arms, strength exerted, height... WOOOOHHHHH... if i see him in a pub, i'm very likely to approach him siazz..

2007-10-20T14:24:00.000+08:00

wow... a great deal of things to blog!!! hold on to your seat, grab a cuppa, n read on.. i'm serious.. (damn, just realised my script is not wokring!!! my posts are appearing messy!!!):

thur gym

tues, wed, n thur, i've been wanting to gym siazz.. but tues, i had to rush a report n din go. wed, its my pal's last day in singapore, so i decided give him a final treat, n bid him farewell. n finally on thur, i finally got the chance to go!!!!

i have the feeling i've not been there for ages siazz. usually i did the running first den did the arms n legs machines. so tis time i decided to try the legs first. but damn, i think i din warm up, so after 20 pushes, i had to stop. n i went for the running. after tat, saw a number of good lookers siazz.. sighzz... 'cos nothing will happen :) 1 of them is a beng hair style but body is slight bulky.

den, the interesting thing goes on..

when it's time to go steamrm, i went to change inot just towel. got 2 guys in my locker area. when i was down wif oni my undies, i simply dun wan look so gay by giving a full monty, so i wrapped the towel first n pulled down the undies. i looked so weird siazz.. somehow, i noticed 1 guy there also chnaged into his towel.

den when i went for the steamrm, tat towel guy in my locker area oso there. got no seats, so i sat beside him.. somehow, after a while, oni left mi n him. i still beside him. n i somehow observed tat he placed his hands carefully somewhere between us. i duno whether it's near mi or him. i jus sat there to enjoy the heat. i wonder if he's stunned or scared to.. initiate anything. anyway, not looking for any actions still, but jus see wat will he do. after another min, he din do anything, so i went out to take a cooling bath.

surprisingly!!! once i stepped out, tat beng hair guy jus came out of shower in his towel n is walking towards the steamrm/sauna room!! but then, i oso saw nice decent fellow who looks cute wif his neat n short hairstyle. we exchanged looks.

after the bath, i was even wondering, shld i go steam room to check if the beng hair is there?? i dun wan b so despo.. so i headed str8 to sauna. viola!! he's there!! wat's more, another lean (really lean, not bulky type) guy wif considerable chest width but small waist sitting there oso!! haha.. can't keep my eyes of them lol.. anyway, oni got 4 guys inside (mi included), so i think it's alright to glue my eyes on them :)

once they';re gone, i oso went for my bath. tis time, when i came outta cubicle, 1 fair skin muscle dude (nice n clean n good looking face) jus walked out oso.. wif the chest, abs, height... WOW... n guess wat, we went inot steamrm!! inside there, he was moving around in towels and stretching his arms here n there... i was simply looking.. but did i look too fierce? cos i din bother smiling n use a soft glance, i jus kept looking.. anyway, i was not keen to stay there long, so a while later, i went out to take my final bath.

n u knw.. when i came out, the decent hair guy was jus standing outside. he looked once, n head tilted down. den he looked again... haha.. mi, my focus was on mi all along hahaha!!!

a really satisfying nite...

=============================

sex pix

after the gym, i went str8 home.. n before long, hahaha... a frn msn mi.. at 12+.. asking if, as an amateur photographer, i was keen to take pix of him having sex wif a callboy. i was surprised tat he's so open to have such pix taken!! n he even offered tat this can be part of my photography profile, which I am really sincerely grateful for.. frankly, i can't imagine anyone who is so daring to have his sex pictures taken by a 3rd guy..

it simply shows how much he trusts mi!!

and yes, wif this new set of pictures, i knwo how to take erotic photos again :)

anyway, the callboy was a thai. n from wat i knw, he has a webcam to show his physique to potential clients.

and, when i got there, i was expecting to see jus an average guy doing the massage. yes, it's a massage-then-UKnowWhat. but it turned out he does have the body.. fleshy an wif a tattoo.. it jus turns mi on... WOOOh.. while they are doing it, i simply walked around to catch a glimpse of his body in action hahaha.. so nice to see the chest in action, his bum moving back n forth..

the best part is, they r both kneeling, n the thai is given a bj, n he leans back, showing his chest.. n when i saw his nipple, i knew it's time for a shot haha.. n somehow, it showed half his face.. den another posture was, my frn put the thai's arm behind the thai n did a bj too.. the thai was simply high... ohh...

when everythign ended, my frn went for a bath, the thai was cleaning himself up. i dunno which came first.. i went to touch him.. his body, abs, back, ass, and chest n nipples.. haha.. we were both giggling.. den i oso took his whole body pic in nude but his face was of cos covered up.

but during this session, i find myself somehow thinking really 2 much at times, such as "if i look at him too much, wil i give the wrong idea?", "i dun wan take part, i shdl not look".

sigh... tis exp made mi feel like.. heading back into having sex again. i've not done anythign wif guys (including wif my date) at all. din have intimacy for more than 1 yr.. OOHHHH...

n oso, i'm tinking of.. prostituting myself still... to fulfil my urges, n earn money oso.. since most ppl feel i've a better-than-avg looks, n i'm gym'ing, n etc, umm hahaha...

=========================================

extra cash

someone mentioned b4.. is it pluboy?? tat, if u tink hard of something, it comes naturally.. n chris oso mentioned some praising words haha..

well, these days, i'm once again pressed for money.. i've oni about 20$ left for 10 days, n have no idea how i gonna feed myself.. then... tat frn who asked mi to take pic, he actually offered to cover my cab fare, to n fro, if i decided to go... wow... it's really nice to hear tat!! it's past midnite somemore!! n he's not calculative. cos each trip cost 16, to n fro is 32. he gave mi a total of 40$!. so, in fact, i've 6.40 extra... although not much, it certainly help!!

==========================================

top/bottom

after knowing my ex-date, i somehow was sure i'm a top.. AM, that is. but now, after watching the live sex, i am again confused.. cos i do like playing wif muscles, cute face, good body, height does not matter. unless he's exceptionally tall. still i'm not going for anal, unless he's confirmed my bf. and i BELIEVE i can penetrate. so, wat am i?? lol..

==========================================

gayshop salesboy

umm, is it misleading? supposed to mean, a shop for metro-sexual, or gay folks, wif a sales boy who i find cute and... heheh...

was wif my pal shopping there, den tis frnly boy was attending to us.. n he even told us tat, some designs are thot of by them (sales staff) but subjected to approval of cos.. his design (wchih attracted us) is "CAN flirt NO sex".. haha.. pay attention to the word casing.

=========================================

gym buddy (wiliam)
hello william, aiyo, u read my blog wif such serious tones? so defensive siazz anyway, i've posted my charges.. lemme knw how u tink..

========================================

faghag frn

after a darn long time, i finally had the time, n perhaps means to read up on my frns' blogs siazz!!! cos i was using google reader, but it's simply like not for mi siazz.. memory hogging n timestamp seems wrongly read.

n oni after switched to bloglines, n read blogs, dne i finished reading my faghag's blog.. hahah.. true to my expectations, she blasted off at mi abt my posting abt getting her to come my bday party tis yr.. hahaha...

umm, but well, if it seems "the more i write wat i understand abt her, the more things she'll refute back", i guess it's not appropriate to write out at all. guess i'll simply work my way out to re-build our frnship.

anyway, these days, to me, frnship is all about helping out 1 another in times of needy and caring for them as well, such as paying attention to their well-being.

========================

very long rite??? wondered if any1 got enuff time to read..

2007-10-19T17:51:00.000+08:00

a person called william was asking for the charges of the gym..

below are mine: dunno wat diff will there be..

joining fee: 20
processing fee: 98
first and last 0 mth: 89
monthly: 95.23

2007-10-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

seems that, if i reply to comments after a long blog entry, it dun get noticed?

============

kevxx: yes i have an lj.. whether you see in the chinese way or the english way... so you moving to lj?

me: u have? how long oredi? lj.. maybe... there's a possibility :)

=============

nae: aiyoh, must stare so obviously meh?

me: wah liao.. i long time nvr check out guys liao loh.. when see a delectable.. uh-hem.. in front of me.. (delectable dish? haha) it's jus so natural to keep looking..

==============

wiliam: wow... umm, new visitor? or regular to my blog? and, you.. are willing to check out the gym price jus to b my gym buddy?? wah... really surprised n happy n grateful siazz... i need to chk wif my frns.. n the sales ppl.. will post here later.. n i jus subscribed to ur blog..

2007-10-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

somehow.. i'm getting closer wif the newbie in my company lol.. i was quite friendly wif him, n he played wif mi using his oldie round specs lol...

anyway, i realised some things..

1) somehow, it's really easy for mi to chat up wif any guy.. or rather, usually ppl are easy to chat up wif... cos there's a guy in my office, i din notice him initially.

1 nite, i was chatting wif my frn n ex-date in city in gay style, n noticed 1 nice build guy in office wear walked past.. twice.

the next day in office, i saw the office guy n found these 2 guys actually resemble siazz!!

den today, after work, i was waiting for my bus. den i suddenly saw that guy standing behind mi, in gym wear. umm.. i dunno.. den i jus asked if he is oso from my company. den.. he said "hi".. wow.. i'm surprised.. n started a little chat hahah.. n i know him..

2) i mentioned, i attended a dance audition on sat, rite? den i got nervous.. wah liao, jus now in the lift, i thot tat i perhaps can jus flaunt my voice..

well, i can switch from low to high pitch, n perhaps even try a high pitch voice like mariah carey? n exert voice.. ya know.. voice techniques..

looking for a gym buddy... in cali bugis.. anyone?

2007-10-16T01:03:00.000+08:00

2007-10-13T19:44:00.000+08:00

tis period of time, seems to be a self-realisation period.

since national day, i've seeing a indo-chn.. i'm been trying to make things work.. n realised a few things:

1) i'm more of a top.. 90% top. 10% is.. depending on the other guy.. if he wanna try mi as a bottom, well tat's oni 10% of mi being happy..

2) i'm really into both cute faces and tone chest.. ie.. cute face is always a pleasure to look at. for tone chest, i still imagine myself feeling n touching muscles every now and then.. tying them up and.. etc.. lol

3) since i'm a top and into muscles, i wonder, if there's a bottom who's a gym guy..

4) over the last couple of weeks, i'm been staying in office n home to finish my last asgt, and under extreme pressure to do well, in order to pass my last sem. end up, i've become very very introverted once again.

5) wats worse, i experienced a idiot-mentality period. once my asgt is done, i thot i cld relax myself totally n get on wif my life properly. but.. the day after i submitted my asgt, my mind totally went blank. i totally dunno wat i wan to do.. totally not a thinking person. anythign needs to be done? i take 5-10 mins to reach a decision. nothing in my mind was moving. i decided to take mc.. sigh..

the next day, i was still very very blur. n den, after lunch, i was suddenly.. my soul seemed to come back. i was totally full of passion n idea of wat need to be done next!

even i myself was surprised!!

6) it's time for mi to hit the gym again... pretty cliché huh? alright, it's time for mi to go gym again.. not been going for ages..

7) my buddy has coem back from australia, and is now a graduate, a bachelor!! haha.. congrats to him!! n wat's more he's been attached for a yr+.. cool huh? n on thurs, we met in orchard.. went to "aj-frnly" shop to find new clothes. ok, b4 tat, 1 funny incident took plc.. i duno who's cruising who siazz.. i reach the meeting plc earlier, n walked around, n walked past another asian... not exactly cute or handsome or muscle guy.. but jus another guy who.. looked at mi..

as i walked around, i THINK we exchanged glances. jus den... my buddy n his bf arrived n walked over.. i greeted them.. n the next thing, the guy quickly scrammed!!! wahhahaa...

8) having ur buddy beside u is always the best way to kill time.. u knw.. at the bldg, as we took the escalator, 2 gers went to overtake us.. wif an attitude.. my buddy looked at mi.. grinning away... den i was looking at him, when i blurted out "bitch"..

whahahaha.. he's luffing n complaining away y i had to say out tat word!! hahaah.. but i did speak his mind =D

do u believe we actually were in orchard from 8+ till 12??

9) oh ya, on wednesday, i went to audition for 972's singing contest.. but well, kicked out lah.. i realised tat.. i shld have been calmer n chosen a more emotional number to sing..

10) den on fri nite, buddy n bf n mi, met again to club. went to a club tat cost 15$. sigh.. totally boring from 1130pm til 1230? 2nd n 3rd were virtually empty! was even contemplating of napping there.. den later, we decided to dance. oni den i woke up. hahaha.. n.. i wonder if i'm getting better at categorising music haha..

anyway, i realised tat, i dance to pop music, strong beats (err.. not jus "tong tong tong beats, but wif rhythmic sense.. ehh.. hahah..). i even saw tat, when it's those "tong tong tong" music, ppl carried on dancing, while i was slumbering. when it came to rhythmic ones, almost everyone stopped.. but mi was moving to the groove.. n sometimes, for music tat i felt boring, i invented my own moves hahaa.. pretty fun.

11) buddy has been persuading mi to go overseas to settle down.. umm.. shld i?

12) today, i oso went to audition for dance performance.. hahah.. did i hear some gasps?? ya, true.. think 2 high of myself.. but well, everything has a beginning. i at least went over n knw wat r the stds and requirements. n.. realised tat, by asking mi to watch some bodily moves, n follow it, i may have problems learning.. cos i will be very tensed. but if i were to observe.. i cld b calmer n learn faster..

sigh.. darn tired n hungry now.. gotta buy dinner (n maybe see e boy who's cooking it, n clear emails.. etc..

=================

kevxx: yes i have an lj.. whether you see in the chinese way or the english way... so you moving to lj?

me: u have? how long oredi? lj.. maybe... there's a possibility :)

=============

nae: aiyoh, must stare so obviously meh?

me: wah liao.. i long time nvr check out guys liao loh.. when see a delectable.. uh-hem.. in front of me.. (delectable dish? haha) it's jus so natural to keep looking..

2007-10-08T20:36:00.000+08:00

wah liao.. totally not in the mood for work.. did things so slowly siazz.. n even dozed off..

interesting part is... hahah..

1) on the mrt, as i boarded it, i tried squeezing in.. til i was beside a tall.. office guy. when i stood beside him, he turned the other way. it was then i turned to see his face.. but cant see clearly.. but not a smooth face lah.. jus tat.. wah liao, got a ger beside mi.. wah liao..

2) wahaha, when i walked home, i was having my ear piece on. din realise if any1 was behind mi. until i saw a ger taking her puppy for a walk, den i looked slightly behind. den i realised someone. i din bother to see the face. but it's a guy.

wat's interesting is tat, when i reached my blk, i went to open my letterbox. it's too full for mi to clear, so i went for the lift. as i turned to face the lift, WAH! a tall n smart looking guy in singlet n 3/4 inside the lift. he leaned against teh back of the lift. i den hurried in, n realised, he actually din press hard enuff for the lift to accept. but i did say "thanks" still.

haha.. knowing tat i had a god catch, i started to lok at him, his face, his eyes, his singlet.. got a bit of chest hair.. oohhh... he noted my staring, n just kept looking away, but no facial signs of irritance lol... i jus kept looking... hahah..

aiyo, i'm horny lah.. long time din see such singlet guy liao.. if not, i'll probably strike a casual chat.. like "u not cold ah? wear singlet?" hahaha.. chatting reduces the tension between strangers lol.. works for most ppl.. but to introverts n shy ppl, dunno lah.. haha..

=================

kevxx: do you think i have an lj? would you hope that i have an lj???

me: ehh.. y ask mi? who knows if u got 1?!?

PS: if anyone don't have an idea what could "LJ" stand for, feel free but shy to ask your chinese friends :)

dedicated to "the person who love me, and the person who i love"

2007-10-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

http://www.st020.com/playmusic/%7BEF329732-898E-47D8-B1C0-97C7DBD0E564%7D.htm

歌曲:爱我的人和我爱的人演唱者:裘海正
以下为爱我的人和我爱的人歌词

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人
却将你上的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中直到他变冷

爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

2007-10-03T21:18:00.000+08:00

kevxx: A really FABULOUS SUNDAY i must say...

me: umm.. sounds like someone's there oso?? wahliao.. can b quite frightening... someone who know/seen u b4, saw u among the crowd. u thot no 1 knew u, n mis-behaved a bit.. and gotcha!! got u in the act!! hahaha.. evil surprise man!!

kevxx: Do you have an lj?

me: uh-hem....

===================

finally went to work today lol... finally.. ye...

n solved a bug .. programming bug.. work stuff tat is.. asgt time.. again..

2007-10-03T01:22:00.000+08:00

umm.. i intend to move to LJ... any comments? and.. may oso link my vids from youtube to here..

oh ya.. i went to see a doc today.. i chose to go @ a very non-crowding time.

den.. after i registered myself, i saw a .. nsf age chubby walking in, wearing unit singlet.. haha.. i looked at him for a few moments. he saw tat.. den later, after seeing doc, i came out, n look at him too.

later, he went to see doc, n when he came out, i was collecting my med.. n i look at him again.. he oso looked. den.. somehow there was a delay in paying for my med.. so i sat down.. he looked toward mi..

the nurse den called out a name.. "... kevin" but no response from either of us. she den called my name.. i went up.. n clarified if the other kevin is that guy's name.. ahah. when i turned around while askign tis qn.. he was smiling n shook his hands haha...

den after i paid, i went off.. n exchanges glances wif him again..

i den went to buy some buns, n realised, the clinic din give mi my change.. i went back.. n saw him.. exchanged glances again lol. i din notice.. whether he look at mi on his way out.. sigh.. these days, i really.. oni look at ppl, but never see if ppl look at mi..

den later, i got my change.. i went to foodcourt upstairs, bought my lunch.. n.. as i walked off.. i heard a sneeze.. i look into tat direction.. n it's tat guy!! it's only a casual look, so i looked away again. when i realised it's him, my head turned once more.. n he sneezed again.. n we look again.. hahaah..

well.. such cruising is still not my style :)

2007-10-03T00:42:00.000+08:00

sigh.. stress... i am pressured to finish my degree cos, n do well for (at least pass) my assignment.. but.. i duno how other ppl manage it, but they seem to know/understand wat's required for assignment better.. sighzz.. pressure..

2007-10-02T22:45:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NX3UvSZ6NX8

2007-10-01T19:52:00.000+08:00

very very tiring wkend.. i've been up since 8am on saturday, went for my haircut in evening. u know, the usual guy (nothing attractive abt him, except he's a guy) not there, so a ah-lian ger did my hair.. felt so odd siazz...

anyway, it's a happening wkend lah, cos my pal is back.. saturday basically a catchup thing. oso went gym... but gosh, i REALLY REALLY REALLY have to learn how to "stare ni admiration", n dun give wrong signal.. ok, cut long story short.

saturday, i chiong till 4, and got home and rested by 5am. frightening eh? den the next day, i went for class.. hahah.. when the class ended, the cute guy in class n i walked out together.. soon after we stepped out, i put my arms over his shoulder.. hahah.. dunno if he felt weird lah.. after a while, i naturally put it down.. den was telling him abt some theme parties tat happen on sat.. he was.. stunned but luffing hysterically..

den later in the night, i took a bus from 1 terminal to the other.. wah liao, 1 hr trip.. tiring!! esp when i din bring anything along.. jus staring into blank! but my dress style i gues is quite odd.. haizz... a clubbing nite!!!

got 3 incidents at the club:
1) when got to the pub, when my frn n i sat at the bar counter, 1 topless hunk.. non chinese came to sell mi drinks.. peach/orange/kiwi in vodka.. hha.. my frn stayed cool n din touch the drink.. for mi.. sigh.. i was attracted by the flesh =D.. n eventually bought 1 from him.. hahaha.. den later, i cooled down, i thot: wha liao, i shld have.. asked something in return.. like.. ask to touch the chest.. n kiss the lips lol... sigh... 2 long din go such place.. very very.. SHY!!

2) got 2... guys at the bar.. working topless there.. 1 is 1.7+, 1 is 1.6m. both have good figs. wat surprised mi was, when the 1.7+ guy climbed on the bar to fix some settings, 2 gym guys tried pulling down his pants from the front siazz.. he held it back of cos... so pitiful... but well, in the name of fun, who can stop it.,..

3) having 1 cute waiter to serve u is always nice =D somehow, i felt tat i saw him somewhere.. really.. lol.. seeing how he awkwardly look at him, it really is how.. i will treat a ger's eye siaz!!

but well... i'm not in the mood to hook up anyone..

2007-09-29T08:13:00.000+08:00

damn.. shld b doing my assignment still, but ... sigh...

strange.. a few things happened last night.. thot it was another bad... or good?.. sign.

anyway, got 2 things to mention

1) on my way home from work (1), on the mrt, stood a blonde asian.. fit looking. at first, i was standing in front of him.. den, behind him got space, i moved behind. haha.. indeed, standing behind him much better... can see his body shape lol..

2) on my way home from work (2), the mrt arrived.. inside the door, stood a guy in striped office attire.. it's either the work of the top, or his body really is in a goooood shape. cos, it shows the contours of his chest, and a bit of his.. tummy/abs!!

was looking at his chest and tummy, and him, and chest n tummy... door opened, look at him, he walked off... lol

ok.. here comes the funny thing.

my computer is usually left on, no matter when. when i got home ytday, i switched on monitor. but no response. seems like computer is turned off. but the keyboard's indicator light still there?? i switched on the cpu.. no response... i thot: goodness, at tis time, the pc died on mi?? i can't do anything?! over the weekend??

oh well, i decided to go washup n den fix it.

i got my clean set of clothes ready, n put my contact lens case on top, and took the whole bulk on my arms n headed for bathroom. as i walked, suddenly, the case.. slipped off onto the ground.. i was "huh??".. tis has never happened b4... nvm.. i picked it up and went in still.

den, i put on new set of clothes stacked up on a rack, as usual. after a few secs, the clothes suddenly fell, n landed on the toilet bowl!! i was totally stunned!!!! why are all these happening?!?! darn... i den took the clothes for a wash..

while bathing, i was tinking wat i can possibly do for my computer. rush down to buy new cable? exchange cable wif another computer to test out? and possibly spoil my plan for saturday?? den i went back into my room, pulled out the cpu from the corner, unplugged the wire, etc plugged in again, and viola, the pc is up once more..

umm... wat went on?

2007-09-28T22:15:00.001+08:00

somehow, i'm really stressed out, for my assignment, exam, and the pressing feel to grad ASAP. 2 frns have grad'ed. i'm left alone in this journey.

treading tis path alone is not easy.. not in my situation.. haha.. i perhaps shld not b blogging now.. i started class in mid 2003. den due to financial prob, i paused my studies.. (stupid, now i realise) den, 1 yr later, i resumed. a good decision. good as in studies shld b finished asap. n i finally resumed.

but the thing is tat, i skipped a yr of studies, resulting in me forgetting some knowledge learned earlier. any mods tat i gonna take, if it depended on any taken mods, i'll have a hard time understanding it. n these days, its my last mod before grad. i'm really under a lot of pressure, telling myself i have to pass tis module. so much so tat, i dun wan to fail any little or minor form of assessment.

i duno, if i've given myself too much pressure, i am having short-term memory these days...

but today, on my way home from work, i.. told myself.. nothing's the end. it's a module tat i'm taking, and it's an assignment i'm troubling over. as long as i did my assignment to the best of my effort and knowledge, it's the best i could give. and, as long as it's almost correct, passing the assignment shld not b a prob.

jus do my best for assignment, prepare for exam, and b ready for my grad-day...

hahaha...

2007-09-27T22:14:00.000+08:00

gosh.. i muz find back the... determination to start off n finish asgt... been pending so long liao!!

anyway, funny... have u heard of a guy who kena wet dreams at the tender age of 27??

ytday, when i got home from work, i was changing.. n laid on bed.. i made myself erected.. n kinda high.. but decided tat i shld stop, n start my asgt. sigh.. for long time, i failed to start.

den i went to bed.. everything was alright.. (boring? teaser? haha)

den next morn, i woke up but stayed on bed. i closed my eyes.. n was thinking.. or maybe dreaming? of .. some... gay bashing stuff.. shld b dreaming of some gay bashing stuff, cos tat was the topic on my mind. but somehow, i dreamt a str8 guy caught in mass orgy of gay. not as though i'm in tat location, but more of a vidcast. 5 guys were jerking off on their own, n the str8 was leaning naked on the bed. he was den picked up roughly and pushed soemwhere else.. i was wondering wat would happen...

jus den, i shot out... shot, yes.. i din even realise it.. i wet my undies..

wah liao.. at tis age... how come??

==================

chris: Hey, this means you're living a good and kind life. Long may it continue!

me: haha.. thanks mucha :)

=================

pluboy: I'm 4 defintely :L)

me: hey pluboy!! long time no see ur comment!! where u go?? anyway, "4" seems to say u're very very out-going siazz!

pluboy: that's the Law of Attraction at work.. you keep thinking of money, and money will come to you, naturally..

me: lol.. attraction siazz.. :) umm.. will there b more to come?? anyway, i went to ur blog.. n.. SURPRISED to see mine put up there in my full name...

2007-09-23T20:31:00.000+08:00

is this my good luck or wat?

in the past, or perhaps still so even today, whenever i go to neighborhood to buy things, i keep my money in my pants pocket. den, watever change i have, i put inside my pocket still. this has been going on since young. i forgot when was the last time i did tat.

den these days, i'm realise i need to scrimp n save lotsa. i even skipped going lunch wif my colleague to curb my spending. til today, i managed to still have $6 in my wallet for tomorrow, b4 my payday comes.

den u knw, after bathing, in my clean set of clothes, i found a $5 bill in my pocket.. i am really surprised... jus on time!!

personality test

2007-09-22T13:49:00.000+08:00

This is taken from mypaper dated 21/09/2007.

Have you heard of how mooncake festival came about? Some say, it's 'cos Chang-E flew to the moon. Chang-E has a rabbit with her. After Chang-E flew to the moon, whaddya tink will happen?

1) She chose to go back to Earth

2) Bring along her rabbit to roam in other planets.

3) Lead a peaceful life with the rabbit on the moon.

4) To and fro between Earth and Moon, merchandising longevity pill

Make your choice!! It's very accurate for me!!

===================

1) She chose to go back to Earth
You will not want to be lonely. If you are lazing around, you're either on the phone with friends or relatives, or definitely out on the streets chilling out with friends. Lucky you, you are popular among friends, and there are frequent gatherings. You are more than happy.

2) Bring along her rabbit to roam in other planets.
Although you enjoy hanging out with friends, you also want to have personal space. Although you will be happy when friends ask you out, you also enjoy the time being alone. You are not afraid of loneliness, but you do not really enjoy time with friends who do not know you well enough. As this will only make you uncomfortable.

3) Lead a peaceful life with the rabbit on the moon.
You are very fine with being alone, to the extent of hiding yourself up to do so, leaving behind gossips and whatever. Those who know you will understand your intentions. For those who do not, they may feel that you are slightly inclined to autism. What they do not realise is, you truly know how to enjoy the moments of being alone.

4) To and fro between Earth and Moon, merchandising longevity pill.
You like to mix around with people, and no one will forget you for that. You rarely feel alone. Even if you are, you will also find some work to make yourself occupied. So, you are also someone who do not enjoy being alone.

=========

me... i was struggling between 2 and 3. if i see the rabb as someone who i really wish to spend my time with, it's 3. if its a pet, it's 2.

2007-09-22T12:32:00.000+08:00

i'm supposed to do my assignments.. but alas.. i simply cant focus tat much.. sigh..

anyway, these days, i'm very much hooked onto the spiritual topics.. and have been watching hk variety talk shows on youtube. u can search for it using "guaitan". it's very scary at times, but.. FOREVER, i can't detect/see/feel their existence on the screen!!!! it seems very normal to me. even when got a scene, when viewers pointed out that there is a shape, the hosts "ohhhhh".. but i simply "huh?"..

den, recently, i saw an ep, whereby they went taiwan, and asked a 仙姑 (human deity? or human saint) to accompany them. this lady.. was said to have enormous powers, and does not need any talisman or altar to prepare. she has a rank in heaven, and when needed, she can send a troop from heaven to protect herself.

take a look here: vanquishing a skeleton king (after charmed serial drama ended, long time never use this "vanquish" word).

it's really a surprise that, she vanquished it right on the spot.

den another is finding the ghost king.
finishing the video, i had also felt that, she simply felt like vanquishing every spirit she encounters, as though to prove her prowess. i even wondered if, there is any justice for those spirits to seek. like they are not bad in nature, but turned into evil ghosts due to some mishaps. but after hearing her explanation, i find that she's more of a law enforcer for the netherworld, sent by heaven.

when she visited the cave, she was.. kinda accompanied by heavenly troops. and in the end, they caught the ghost king. not the humans, but the heavenly troops. she mentioned in the end that, a lot of viewers thot she vanquishes every spirit she see.

she explains that, if the spirits are good or maligned, she will seek redress for them. but if they are harmful, she'll execute them on the spot. sounds very much like those period dramas, and current police shows, where baddies are caught during an operation, and brought back for justice.

she mentioned that, whenever she brings anyone to any eerie spots, it always loses the scary and eerie feel, cos she's not someone who will play to the tune of commercial viability. she's always there on a police-like operation. sounds like, the exorcists that we see, are more of the private investigators' roles and peace makers. while her role, is more of the police officer.. or executioner.

in another show, visiting jade emperor showed a very very long video of her bringing.. i think her students.. to heaven to visit for the CNY. 1 hour and 20 mins. too long, so.. i jus skipped it after 20 minutes.

after watching these shows, i'm really beginning to be very very much interested in find out more about such stuff. anyone care to join mi? i know there should be many interest groups offering this thing. Where should I start from first?

2007-09-21T21:35:00.000+08:00

lol.. for a long time, i've not posted any.. review of the day statements.. oh.. shld it b self reflection?

funny.. is my inconsistent blogging habits turning ppl away from my blogs??

now, in my last sem of studies. 6th nov 2007 is my exam. after tat... hahaha.. 30th nov is the result day. after which i shld b able to ask for more pay.. i tink more pay come in jan.. but these days, my work seems sooo... little.. nothing much to do.. shld it b good or bad? well... good in sense, i've more time for my own matters.. since i still studying. bad.. as in nothing much to learn anymore.. scope getting stagnant? see how first..

=====

did anyone pay attention to class 95? i jus tuned in recently.. and, yesterday night, i heard something reall really darn hilarious!!

i dunno wat happened.. suddenly, i heard the radio stn making a call to a delivery svc.. fast food tat is. a guy answered, and then the 2 ppl from the stn kept making and made realyl non-sensical statements and qns. such as asking for the menu, and then getting the person to repeat it slowly, and made some non-sensical jokes abt it. n even asked if the wings came wif breasts. and if the guy like breasts.

the guy.. den stated that he like breasts, but not chicken breasts. lol..

and the 2 guys were so irritating that, i pitied the guy who answered the call. finally, the prank call ended, and was touted as the employee of the yr.

i sure support that!!

anyway, he's yee-kang :)

2007-09-18T00:09:00.000+08:00

i'm on mc today.. too tired from the gym i guess.. cos, in morn, in took instant mee @ 1130am, went for class from 1-4pm, or rather 3pm as it ended then. den i went for my gym (finally went for it.. darn time n unexpected hiccups)

umm forgot exactly wat i wanna blog abt.. but i watched lotsa guaitan on youtube. anyway.. jus some grumblings.. duno who wil read.. though

remind mi if i sound too sensitive.

a pal about 10yo my senior, asked mi out for a dinner n movie outing. he was expecting mi to go. den i wanna ask a frn who went out wif us a few times. but he's na. so i asked another frn.. who know us both. i asked the 10yo snr to update me once he's decided on the outing details, he agreed.

the next day, i asked the person. he said to let me decide. i was stunned. my original plan of going gym, followed by movie outing was spoilt. cos, to watch movie on wkend, 1 has to buy the tickets first.. whcih mean, i will need to go. sigh..

and.. as much as i tried to RUSH down, somethign unexpected happened. this pal said he cannot make it due to work... it's usually normal for someone to miss an outing due to work commitment, but somehow, i dun feel this is teh case here.

den, i had to meet the other guy alone. yes alone. n somehow, tis frn is not feeling ok at all, but putting up a strong front. it's hard to strike an interesting chat when he's so protective and defensive of himself... the worst thing is, he really walked in a style tat tells people "i'm matured in my thnking, than you see. don't disturb me"..

2007-09-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

forgot to mention something..

after my dinner.. i was on the way back home.. at a park, i saw 2 ladies sitting on a bench, 1 carrying a puppy jack russell terrier. as i crossed the street, i saw it. n i kept looking at it.. it also looked at mi.. i felt so... felt like it's my late dog, jackie reincarnated.... (i got teary as i walked.. den now as i typed it out, i'm sobbing) i really felt... tat it's looking at mi.. and their reactions are jus so similar!! so beautiful dogs... how i wish.. i can go hug it... i even breathed heavily.

of cos, if he's the chance to be reincarnated as a person, instead of a dog, it's the best.

i'm watching the ch U 10pm show. it's toking abt a guy who lost contact wif his family for 25 yrs since 7. den 1 day, he was walking on the streets, kicked a football wif his trademark style.. the ball was caught by guy2.. who spun the ball like the old days.. it's so touching..

2007-09-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

haha.. these days i've got more time to blog eh? lol...

today, ko, went to bus stop to wait for bus. saw a colleague n tok to him.. he's the VERY quiet n introvert type. but i still try to tok to him. den.. when we r alighting to go mrt there, he said he's in a rush n ran off to mrt. dunno how true it is.. but end up, i still see him waiting for the same mrt. i tink he saw mi oso.. but i really din feel like going up to him again.

so coincidentally, when i transfer train, another colleague/frn was wif mi.. n we chatted a fair bit.. den i went to kbox to claim my points.. i took the lift to kbox.. sometimes, ppl simply do not tink or act considerately (dis dun mena, i tink am considerate all the time, hor). a couple went into the lift. the guy was wondering which flr to press n blocked the way in.. wah liao..he can always jus go in, den press the button again..

hahaha... den at the kbox there.. i got 2 receipts. 1 is in jul. haha.. the ger was not willing to update the points.. but i tok to her nicely.. haha.. can i say flirted? or jus pure.. tok nicely.. n yes, the points updated for tis.. hahah.. but wah liao.. amei's "Forever happy" yong yuan de kuai le was playing siazz.. mesmerized by it. after the points are updated ,i had to go fast.. if not, i'll be very much affected by the groove n momentum..

n i realised tat, i'm very protective abt myself.. dunno.. did i learn it from my faghag? or simply, i'm still introvert by nature, n dun open up tat easily?

2007-09-12T01:39:00.000+08:00

am i starting to make use of ppl? at work, i knw my ex-boss will always try to send me home. so, i was gonna stay until i can take cab.. but i dun wan use my money.. so i asked my ex-boss if she's going home soon.. sigh..

den, last wk, went to ktv.. it's SHIOKING!!! 1 frn there.. demo'ed tat, singing is not oni sing according to the music.. it's also abt singing ur feels/mood/heart out.. it made mi feel tat, his way is truly interpreting the song.. mine is.. sing in subtle manner..

sometimes, i do like to reason/argue wif strangers.. it's about challenging my views wif others. today in the mrt, 1 malay woman squeezed into the train n squeezed my bag.. i pushed my bag forward, rubbing her. she then said "u can actually move in u knwo?" i replied "nope, if u wan, u can move in". she den said "u dun actually have to push". i said "u pushed my bag". she responded "no i did not".. the last 2 lines repeated twice, n i decided to cut it...

den u knw wat.. something odd happened today.

i was preparing to go gym.. so wore my contact lens.. but it's so mafan to wear.. resulting in my eyes turning reddish.

den.. since i din have dinner, i thot of eating at the fd function. but unexpectedly, it has moved to lvl 3.. gosh, decided to jus give it up.. can save some money.

den.. up at the gym, i realised i din bring the padlock.. gosh..

got 2 choices. 1 is to use the $1 locker, or to buy a $5 padlock.. i decided to use the $1 locker.. n u knw wat... just when i'm abt to change, i checked to see if i've got a dollar... it turned out.. i've expended them...

sigh.. end up do nothing n go home..

n... as time pass by, it seems tat.. a slow n steady reln is the way to go.. n.. the first 1 month is the period.. honey moon period.. to see if, after the first impression n crush feel, do u still enjoy each other's company..

once you're comfy wif each other for tat 1 mth, the next 1-2 months is to see whether we feel each other is the rite person.. to recognise n declare as bbr..

once tat stage is over.. it's officially bbr.. ahhaha.. how nice is tis progress..

====================

kevxx: and i find his action totally acceptable, some people are just more friendly, don't think too much.

me: ya he's very frnly n sociable.. why i say so? cos i came out to him.. he's ok wif it.. n he's got a gf hahaha..

2007-09-09T20:21:00.000+08:00

waddeya tink of a couple... bbr ie.. the softer person is often approached by passers-by to ask qns and directions.. n for donations?

3 passers-by have asked the softer person for direction, and 1 asked for donations.

in a bgr, n.. perhaps other bbr, the softer or more-approachable looking person is also likely to be approached rite? i mean, this kind looks friendlier and easier to approach ... =D

2007-09-09T18:42:00.000+08:00

a bad day.. after my classes today, i went home on a bus.. on way home, i prepared some coins inside my pocket. den i wanna move the coins to another pocket.. i heard a "clink" sound. it sounds like a coin dropped off.. it sounded near. i felt around the metal part of my seat.. nothing.. i counted my cash.. a dollar coin is missing... sigh..

den i passed by a mag stall.. saw a mag on amei.. $5.5. i bought it without thinking.. wow... $5.5!! i later thot, it seems a female magazine.. i could have checked with my female collaegues if they bought the mag... goodness mi... still so rash.

den, i thot.. could the coin,... have dropped on the floor, instead of the seat? umm..

next, i went to buy bread.. was takign the money out... den realised tat, for the first time, my wallet had grabbed a movie ticket n also my namecard holder with it.. the ticket dropped out.. the holder, on the verge...

1 last thing.. finalyl, was doing the last part of my asgt.. realised that.. i'm really not those kind to modify my ans when they're almost done.. or maybe i got lazy.. felt it's too complex.. etc.. cos it's theory programming.. i knw it's alwasy good to pick up new knowledge.. that's why.. i wonder.. why i was so resistant to it

2007-09-08T10:28:00.000+08:00

another item to blog..

these days, the TV sometimes broadcast shows that are of low substance. not anything bad, but it's just some shows to keep audience n viewers occupied.

in these shows, talented artistes never appear, as it does not challenge them further..

these shows, use either evergreen artistes to uphold the integrity of the show, or make it simply into a idol drama.

in the end, thsoe talented artistes act in those 3-5 mins script.. to keep their limelight.

bla..

2007-09-06T21:34:00.000+08:00

nothing much to blog.. it's TIME to do my asgt.. but.. cannot resist these vids =D

hot guy in boxer tied-up in bed
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wyfXlDL-pls

Matt Lanter tied up
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bv4pzSeJtZE

James Franco- Tied-Up Oil Rubdown
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AktQuLgDjuE

but funny.. why do the guys in all these movies end up being made fun of, instead of some romantic moves?

and, can anyone tell me their titles??

2007-09-05T23:00:00.001+08:00

having the motivation to do asgt is diff from actualyl doing it.. in my sense..

i knw.. i need to manage my time better.. i had the... intention to do some brushing up for my asgt.. but, i simply can't bring myself to do it still.. maybe adjusting my mood to "i wanna do it.." see how lah..

2007-09-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

i wonder.. is he really making it an office-oni relation? or i'm too sensitive?

got 2 guys.. join the comp for a month+.. or so. 1 guy is tall.. so tall tat i often tease his height. but tis guy.. maybe office hrs he really very str8 thinking n mindset or wat.. when i tok to him in a teasing style (not gay, it's more of how i form my words/lines), he reply in a str8 and proper tone. in a way, yes, he's answering, but certainly more of a str8 and direct reply, seemingly not catching my meaning.

today, we got a yogurt making session. he n another pair got down b4 mi. so i asked who got down first. i got the ans. den he replied "does it matter?" n continued doing hsi things. i felt tat was quite sharp in asking back, why i shot that qn in the first place. it was supposed to be a fun question, but he made it sound as though there has to be a specific and useful purpose.

i felt he's.. drawing lines between us. not sure why.

den, later when we took the same bus after work, he went all teh way to the back and found mi and sat wif mi. there, we chatted quite a bit.. unlike that non-chalent feel he had been giving mi all the while.. strange..

2007-09-01T21:09:00.000+08:00

jus realised the importance of time mgmt... hahaha... really need to thank someone =D

ok.. yes, these days i nvr blog.. cos no time.. n now, i shall reply all comments...

=============
I was here :) -
Hello, and thank you. You're one in a hundred thousand,

me: umm, thanks :)

==============

kevxx:
sob... i could never feel my abs.. only had the layer of fats to feel...

me: u can always start to train up...

===============

kevxx:
so what opinions do you need?

me: wat u think of his actions loh..

===============

savante:
Was gonna ask the exact same question actually :)

me: a few guesses going on.. but well, we never knwo..

================

nae:
haha, from your blog i'm getting the impression that guys cannot talk to each other unless they're interested! really ah?

me: i've a feeling tat u're an anime fan =D well, guys can tok to 1 another of cos.. but it's more to conversational chat... when he volunteered his various direct contacts, does it still feel it's a mere casual chat?

==============

anyway, now i've got tonnes of emails n blogs to read... wah liao.. how shld i start..

2007-09-01T12:28:00.000+08:00

doing my asgt... is it due to someone, or it's the time that is pushing hard?

anyway, jus wanna say.. prejudice is really still existing. not to say i thot it's gone. but.. i really saw it..

once, on the mrt.. in the morning rush hr.. i boarded the mrt, and an indian (low-income family dressing style, or very casual and..) hubby/wife was standing at the pole tat stood between the 2 doors. they were standing at 1 side of the pole tat is. then, the whole bunch of ppl simply rushed by the other side while boarding, while the couple's side was sooo calm n no-1-going-tat-way. i noticed that.. n i simply walked tat way.

after tat, the rest of the ppl oso came rushing in my way..

until the next stop.

another whole lot was rushing in.. the "leader" of the pack is an Office Lady. haha.. perhaps being a higher class personnel, she was RESISTANT to being too near the indian couple. no matter how hard she tried "moving to the centre of the car", she always ensured she left a safe distance between them and her. i'm unable to see wat's blocking her. but from wat i remembered, they had nothing. jus the 2 standing by each other. n yes, her face said "luckily, i can still stay here".

den ytday, i was dining at the bro stall.. wah.. long time no see them siazz!!!! miss them? not really.. these days, my words can't b tat flirtatious sounding anymore.. anyway, at the stall, at 1 side of the seating lot, a bunch of 8 guys.. malay/chn ppl.. a bit rowdy acting.. was seated n chatting loudly n having.. cream soda i tink.. den, i noticed tat, every1 was crowding at 1 side away from them.. as though putting up an invisible block, differentiating their classes..

but to mi, wat's wrong wif them? they're there wif frns n catching up. wat's the big deal? doesn't any1 else does that?? jus 'cos they appear rowdy, they are avoided like plague? oh, a number of those on other side were old folks.. those neighbourhood folks. i understand. they stil hold a certain stigma towards those rowdy acting groups.

but.. got 1 couple who's in their late 20s/mid 30s sitting there.. n distinctly 1 table away..

u can say tat, the rowdy group came after the folks.. but it's doesn't appear so to mi..

n know wat, the rowdy group, once the majority is gone, the few ones left behind took to a smaller table.. now.. is this not courtesy?

opinions pls!!

2007-08-26T22:45:00.000+08:00

i got class today.. in my class, a total of 6 ppl there. beside mi sat 1 guy. i knw the impt'ce of networking/forming a study group. on my sliding chair, i slided to tat guy.. n told him, i'm trying to form a study group for this class, and asked for his msn.

he said, "oh.. no problem", and gave mi his email addy, name, and contact no immediately. i asked if his email is working.. cos i got someone who gave mi his email, but his email not working.. he den asked for mine, and said, if i din add him, he can add mi.. umm.. i'm stunned actualyl... i was the initiator, and he.. was pretty interested..

i was actaulyl abt to go back to my desk.. den he tried striking up a chat wif mi.. n he actually saw mi in other mods' classes (see, it's plural) n felt i shld b grad'ing soon.. true enuff, its my last sem... but i had to admit, i oni saw him during tat class.. chatted a bit wif him.. end up no time to get others' msns..

umm.. am i missing anything here? I'M NOT TRYING TO HOOK ANYTHIGN UP, BUT jus mere curious...

2007-08-25T17:25:00.001+08:00

i believe i've not blogged for a very very long time.. hha.. time did not help :)

anyway, for my bday, a UK frn bought mi a mag advertised on fridae n i've received it. haha.. tis mag... really... made mi feel so hot siazz.. n horny.. almost wanna subscribe to it.. but i knew its models not always my cuppa, so i checked the past issues.. true.. outta 3 issues, oni the 1 my frn bought suit my taste..

2007-08-15T00:39:00.000+08:00

well... trying to commit to a reln really needs some sacrifice here n there...

oh.. today.. i really have my power n dependable digestive system to thank.. today i had diarrhoea.. b4 tat, i somehow felt my tummy was growing.. bloating.. it's like a thick layer of.. something had formed outside my belly.. even when i breathed deeply, i felt fat.. den.. i realised wat it felt like.. to say "i feel so fat!! muz go diet!!" those lines..

cos i really cant feel my abs anymore.. i cant even force out the outline of 6pax. i simply felt so fat.. felt tat my meta rate... once again.. gone off..

until, i had the much.. anticipated, awaited, detestable, disgusting.. diarrhoea.. first 2 words, cos it seems to always reduce my.. fat feeling, removed all the redundant and excess.. undigested things.. last 2 words, well, who welcomes diarrhoea? besides making bowel removal easier, wat good does it give?

so.. the diarrhoea came.. tis time very bad.. stayed for an hr in washroom, did nothing at work, felt so weak.. even had blood stains.. even after drinking warm water, no help.. took mc..

den.. tonight, i felt.. my tummy is much cleaner.. the extra layer is gone oso... felt i'm back to my skinny self.. n the abs can b felt again!! hahah

2007-08-13T10:48:00.000+08:00

my gym training finally stopped.. not as in stopped going gym.. but i had personal trainign for wks.

well.. 1 thing, the trainer is giving those superficial comments.. hahaha.. n he's very pushy..

at first when he told mi, i've got the genes for gym.. cos when i was exerting my muscles, he saw the veins and said that.. i took it as compliment.. den.. as time passes, he says "wow.. i can oni carry half ur weight!" "u r as strong as arnold" "still going strong!! (when i was struggling with the final few pushes n he was helping mi)" "vry good.. still got lotsa muscles".

well, begin to feel his.. commercial pushing. den wat's worse.. when he was asking mi to sign up for additional classes, he mentioned, if i dun have credit card, i can always apply for 1.. it takes oni days to process.. n theer's a bank nearby, n i can apply for it thre.. wha liao.. push until so siong..

2007-08-11T10:26:00.001+08:00

enjoyed my national day totally... but i shan't say how... =D or why =D +D

jus wanna comment something i saw on tv..

on ghost whisperer, a guy had died in a fire, but he won't leave.. he found someone (melinda, of cos) who he can speak through. he found his living wife through her, and shared his thoughts with her.

she thought he was always busy with work, never had the time to be with her.

the truth, he wanted to be with her everyday and night, and although he's busy with work, he actually working hard for their future..

umm.. nvm.. sound so plain n boring when i wrote it here..

den, mel's hubby.. told her he's going for a card game on friday, seemingly to have totally forgotten abt their anniversary. but she was really hoping he can remember, without her reminding..

den, on the day itself, she bought him a gift that he liked. he appreciated it, n told her he's rushing for the card game n asked her to bring him his coat from the closet (i chose this word haahah).

when she opened the closet, she saw a present. she unwrapped it.. n oh... did she see a memory..

when they first met yrs back, it was over a damaged red umbrella. den their relation started.

and in the closet, in the wrapped present, stands the red umbrella..

oh.... tat's jus the kinda thing i'll do for my.. loved ones.. ohh.. unexpectedly nice surprises.. that will make them touched.. unspoken things that have been done in the background.... leaving them surprised..

i was really weeping at these 2 scenes.. esp when 1 follows the other.. has my emotions really opened up? so tat i care more for ppl's unspoken feels? take note of their.. emotions? hehe.. time will tell..

================

n, sigh.. i was too persistent last nite.. tinking tat a frn merely dun wan b a 3rd person... but i did nt feel other things.. luckily, tis morn, i msg him n got things rite again... :)

2007-08-09T08:48:00.000+08:00

umm.. time to blog?

phew... finalyl finsihed the first asgt for this sem... wah liao.. although i've oni 1 mod to take tis sem, most of my frns oredi grad last sem.. making mi almost forgetting tat i still got 1 sem to go.. so, when it's time to do asgt, i was slacking.. i promised myself to plan my time, so tat i wun rush asgt last min.. but failed.. we were given 2 weeks to prep for asgt, but i oni started 4 days before asgt due date... super?

anyway, for my company, 2 new staff came in.. 1 is a fat ger (jus a desc, nothing else). 1 is a new guy.. the fat ger.. will take over some of my stuff.. watever. den.. heheheheheeh.. the new guy coming in on 13 aug.. the day i took leave for some "actions" hahah.. i dunno.. this nw guy, i'll b his buddy.. ie i'll take care of him during his first wk or so here.. guy leh.. newbie leh.. i'm TAKING CARE of him leh.. whahaha.. if he's nice looking (cute or yandao ie), eheh, i'll put more heart to him lol.. see how first.. if burly guy.. den... uh-hem...

den ytday off work.. wha liao.. saw a vietnam cute colleague of mine... i took pic wif him during dnd.. wah... hahaah.. in company, he still kinda like not used to mi seeing him.. but ytday, while we waiting bus, he smiled at mi.. n i smiled back.. (y am i nt smiling first??) n i decided i shld go up n tok.. hahah.. n yes i did tat.. his voice is pleasing lah.. :) n i oso sat wif him in the bus. n chatted heartily. he was luffing from time to time.

strange... if a colleague were to come up to mi n tok, will i oso b so welcoming?? or i really still tat introverted? or it's a matter of whether the chat initiator made mi comfy? oh ya, in the bus, i sat wif him, but i left a small gap in between. cos it's gonnna b so weird if i purposely sit close to him.. but few occasions, when he leaned forward to hear mi, his arm did touch mine hehe...

frnly n cheerful =D

==========

kevxx said: you should play along .. maybe you will have some fun... you are disappointing those guys .. they will think you are some stuck up person who thinks that they are not good enuff for you..

my reply: i play along by looking and exchanging glances loh.. n no, i'm still not tat liberal for such fun.. taking tat office gym for eg, i knw tat, at most, i'll flirt wif tat muscle man, make him hard.. but full blown? i'm not sure.. wat's more, i'm still very new to the cruising scene.. n dun wish to.. spoil myself n fall into the cruising world.. it's exciting.. but i dun wan spoil his fun by disclaiming tat i dun do anal... i may b disappointing them, but i'm oni wnana see..

======

chris said: Oh, for goodness' sake, respond to these guys and have hot wild sex in the sauna. You only live once, you know. You need to grab all the sex you can get.

GO FOR IT!!!

my reply: same for kevxx... nope, i'm not gonna do it.. probably not for now.

==========

kevxx said: who who .. show show....

my reply: wat wat wat?

2007-08-06T10:28:00.000+08:00

i'm beginning to understand the phrase "not earning enuff, and learning to spend oredi" more n more..

these days... perhaps i realyl feel tat i dun have to keep such a tight control anymore, so i tend to spend more easily...

n... i learnt a lesson.. dun put too many.. erotic or exposed pic of urself online.. i may b referring to mi.. cos.. a person who i added.. abt 1 yr ago to msn.. eveyrtime put his naked pic in msn, blog or wherever.. yes, he's exhibitionist. but the thing is, he put too many online n too many places liao... in the past, i see his tight chest picture, i will "oooohh".. n jus feel like pressing n kneading.. now i see liao, "oh, ok" is my response. getting very immune to his pix lioa..

umm... will anyone else feel the same abt mine??

anyway, added someone to my msn list from fridae.. quite fast siazz.. he "hearted" mi, i returned, n msg him n "frn'ed" him.. den he added mi in msn n we began chatting.. within 1 single day, we were chatting like no 1 biz.. n yes, of cos he's CUTE.. indo-chn, working in singapore. hahah... saw his frnster, got 79 pix.. some wif his frns.. his lone pic.. some r cute :)... den oso saw 1... he wif frns at a beach, where he posed topless... hahaha.. n we were even toking abt inviting him to my plc.. so he can try home cooked meal... no other agenda included, pls.

2007-08-05T15:17:00.001+08:00

i need to rush my asgt.. n office work.. but i can't resist blogging.. in case, i wun have time in wkday n forgot wat happened..

on saturday, it's a very packed day. cos a lot of events to keep moi bz.. first, went to gym.. the PT.. wah liao.. was kinda late.. or he got lotsa admin things to settle.. so started quite late.. i was in white tank top n practising wif those chest enlarging (lol) machines n tri/biceps stuff.. haha... if anyone's interested, i think it's a cooling ,.. or hotty scene for them?? n gosh.. the PT was in polo T, n his chest muscles SO visible... esp when he demo those chest machines, his nipples r visible.. hunky MAN.

den went to the sauna.. got a beng look guy (not handsome, jus ok.. but i like his attitude) sitting beside mi.. slanting.. so i look at him 2 times.. den he went out.. before long, i went out oso.. n saw him standing at a corner... AGAIN, i simply went to bath myself to rush for my haircut appt..

umm, as a reg client, it's my first tiem to ask my stylist for a discount siazz.. saying it's my bday.. she claimed she gave liao... but gave a further 5$ disc (cheap)..

after tis, went to start my "work" as photographer for sayoni events.. wah liao, i DID NOT EXPECT it's a GER's EVENT!!!! was so taken aback when i saw 100% helpers r gers!!!! took a number of shots.. from a professional view point lah.. but.. well, some guys.. i simply can't find a professional reason to take their pic.. lol... n tis guy particularly is not alright wif mi taking oni HIS pic.. but well, i still "persuaded" him.. after bitching he's the oni 1 i need to persuade to take pic.. cute i dunno.. but attractive is the word =D in singlet some more..

n 1 of them, was the cute bryan.. hahha... i was busy taking pic, n he came up to greet mi.. who says he's unfrnly?? i'm the first to defend him! n he's so readily to let me take his pic!!! cos it's supposed to be for the event, i really wish he allow mi to keep tat pic personally..

den.. after the event (totally boring.. cos most of them r GERS), went for dinner wif the butches (so u know wat kinda gers they r).. along the way, tok to these gers.. jus conversational loh.. n.. to my surprise, i.. made a clickable lesbian frn.. i nvr thot i'd bfrn 1.. really...

the area we having dinner @, is.. expensive living area.. n.. on way back.. u know.. got some ppl bring their pet dogs/puppies for walks. AND, got a caucasian mum bring her pet puppy n her son tagged along. the butches quite frnly wif these cuties (dogs, i mean).. n hor!!!! when tis pet puppy passed by us, everyone (butches n mum) slowed.. n i squatted down to pat the puppy.. pup promptly sat down without being told while i was tickling its neck.. looking at mi lovingly.. its eyes never leaving my gaze... i was stunned... i asked if it's he or she... n, it's a "he"... WOW!! when we walked away, we had a GOOD luff.. fancy meeting a gay puppy!!!!!

cos, of all ladies, the male pup stared into my eyes lovingly!!! i was wondering, if he was saying "hello, kor kor, how r u..." lol.. eh, am i tinking 2 mucha??

ok.. we went back for another sayoni event.. tis time, more guys around.. even got 1 broadcaster... i tink i recognise his voice.. voice nice, looks is cute =D den oso got a cute man..

after the event, i went to take pix for them.. after takignt he cute man wif his frns, i asked to take the man's solo pic..

mi: can i take a pic of u alone?
he: wat's the pic for?
mi: i am the cam man
he: will everyone take a solo pic oso?
mi: ehh... not really lah...
he: hahah.. den it's alright lah.. *gives good n trustworthy (i write it, cos i not gonna say wat reason, but i believe he's stating a fact, not excuse)* den apologise..

n tis last line, he was putting his arm over my shoulder, patting mi, while saying!! gosh!! i was simply melting inside!!! as he walked aaway... i... (being 1 who rather speak my heart out) went up to him again n told him "jus now wat u did really made my day".. he luffed n slightly pushed mi away... hahaha...

den later, i offered to take the cute broadcaster pic.. he say wanna pose wif the cute man.. but when they knw it may be published, they declined... once again, the man put his arm over mi n patted mi... n the other arm was kinda gently punching my other arm.. ooooooohhhh i was simply blushing n so paiseh n felt so enjoyable... the moment he did tat, i was oredi looking down siazz!! totally dun dare to look up at all.. watever he say, i jus agreed...

can i still say it's frnliness? or... social flirting? lol... ohhh... i miss the moment... ohhh...

den later, the whole thing ended... n i was thinking how to get home.. a group (10+) of aj folks were chatting n discussing where to go.. i felt so left out.. but, i mustered a lil courage to ask them where they wanna go..

heheh... i was asking the person nearest to mi, den 1 cute guy.. "dragon".. around him answered my question instead.. n ask for more details.. like where i wanna go.. where i live, n how i arrived earlier.. hehe attentive hor? n he really.. went to check wif his frns on how he can accomodate mi siazz.. den, in the end, i went wif him in his frn's car..

we chatted a bit.. n... from wat i can sense.. he could b interested in mi siazz.. i was supposed to go home lah.. but in end, i decided to join them for a lil outing.. to public ktv.. n he was really attentive to my needs siazz.. when a guy intro himself, he scared i cant hear n repeated the name. funny!! after he put on specs, i cant recog him, n even asked for his name!!! den he kept asking mi to sing songs.. n.. used his fingers to flirt wif mi on my back..

when i was abt to leave, i told him... n when i decided to leave, i went to wave gdbye n took my bag.. he was following mi n seeing me to the door.. he oso asked if i enjoyed my nite.. i said "yes, i did, thanks!"... smiling :)

2007-08-05T02:52:00.000+08:00

some updates...

gd n bad... n surprisingly.. work, sm, ktv, banner, insects

1) my voluntary thing wif OC has been rejected.. implicitly.. i checking wif them to see why so.. cos i do feel i will make a gd listener..

2) at work, my proj is undergoing a re-org. my current leader is going to lead the prod support, n i will stay in devt team, but under a leader who i... cant click, n have prob comm wif.. n she's always so keen to knw mi better (ya know..) i asked my boss if i can stay wif current leader, n he gave a non-political reply: my leader was given a choice - mi or my upperstudy. he chose her (upperstudy).. hahah..

so i took it tt, i cant change.. oh.. well... shall see if this is a gd change of env.. cos.. ytday.. i again, realise n saw the leader n upperstudy's chemistry.. they click well in thinking...

3) haah... in 1 wk, 2 persons contacted mi for sm... 1 is my reg slave.. who we had contemplated on having a session, but due to conflicts, nvr had the chance.. but tis time, we both applied leave liao.. hahah... den 2nd person, i saw his profile somewhere n contacted him.. ya, he looks cute in the pic.. n he's .. nsf whahah.. but i thik more to admin guy.

4) n ytday... in office.. surprising.. the HR ppl email mi, asking if i keen to be the president of the interest group for KTV.. haaha... i agreed promptly. within min, they email to EVERYONE, saying a new IG is formed, and mi is the VP.. suddenly, my name is so well-known siazz..

5) i was working on a search engine.. i really at a loss of how to proceed.. ytday, i decided, to re-do everything.. since i got some time, n i really have to explore.. n u knw, in 2 hrs, i really managed to get a properly screen out!!!! wahahah!!!

a nice beginning for a new era??

6) on wed, a documentary was shown on artscentral.. it was advertising for the showdown between fight ants and termites in the wild, and named it the battle of the century... sounds interesting but cruel..

so i watched it.. wah liao.. it's really an eye-opener!! n it makes mi pity these creatures... u knw.. they r toking abt those giant ants.. living in the wild.. they move around, seeking places to rear their young. den once they found a place, and set up a nest, hordes of ants went off in search of FOOD.

they found a lizard. a few ants crawled over it and its head, the lizard struggled big time, but the ants held on tight. the lizard was simply helpless. it was then carried back to be their food...

next, a centipede was found too... n u knw, it's got those.. needle stuff as protection rite? no fight. the ants, after pinning it down, cut off its spikes 1 by 1. food for yougn again.

den, a beetle bug. its shell can be penetrated by the ants' claws. there was another bug.. a bug tat usually can wave its tail or spit out some venom to kill its predetors.. but alas, the ants r too small to be injured.

lastly, it's the most pitiful.. a spider was caught as well. and it's being dragged to the nest... i can even see its eyes... probably crying "let me go!!!"

outta the ants thing. when the queen bees give birth, they r quite autocratic, as in they dun allow work bees to rear their young. but sooner or later, the queen are overthrown by the workers: they r being stung to death...

sad man...

2007-08-01T21:53:00.000+08:00

wah... it's a really happening tues at the gym manzz!!

so happening, tat i wonder if i shld still keeping looking at ppl..

happened a few times oredi.. when i look at ppl for a while, they somehow thot it was cruising them.. after they left the steamrm, i left a while later n saw them standing at a corner looking into the direction i was walking from..

oh no.... pure admiration (i nvr have action in public) turned into cruising?... siaozz.. haizz.. shld i refrain a bit??