1 more cross posting..

add mi to ur fb!!! hunks_mail@yahoo.com.sg

TQ

Anonymous : then where is the picture?

me: nt again another anonymous...

i intend to continue posting in LJ oni.. n stop cross posting onto BS...

sigh, ytday, i mentioned i felt i getting recovering rite? last nite,
mum made "deep fried pork rib". i told her i having cough, cannot eat.
she ask why. i tell her, the oil will stay in the throat n make mi
uncomfy. she jus stormed off, saying dunno y i cant eat.. to appease
her, i took 3 pcs, but comented tat they're too salty (our way of
telling, we ate).. den, 11pm to 1am, i kept coughing every now n den..
she asked whether i saw doc again anot....

how am i supposed to ans that.. she sms mi early evening tat she can
cook if i eating. i reply "cook if u free". thus, she purposely cook
dishes tat i like or can eat... i knw, tat y i force myself to eat the
rib..

ok.. tdy went to sign up starhub corporate line.. n... took pic of a
yandao cutie hahaha... on the pretext of testing hp hwhahha... evil
mi.. den tonite oso went for a dinner gathering,.. met a guy there
who's shorter than mi.. taking his jacket off, revealing his.. small
but tight looking chest (his shirt is tight fitting).. tried flirting
wif him.. but 2 bad, he's quite... closed to it.

as i mentioned in my earlier blog, my illness realyl made mi.. lose my
logic thinking.. i'm really glad i am recovering.. anyway, today went
to see doc, n tis tiem, was my Tshirt material too thick? for the
first time ever, my regular doc lifted the back of my T to hear the
pulse, and lifted up the front of it to hear pulse @ chest.. he lifted
up, n i... sucked in my tummy (hahah, natural reaction to show abs)
but he din lift up high, just enough to estimate where to place the
stethoscope.

after getting mc, i stayed hme, n later went for work.. many ppl
surprised siazz.. tat i get mc but still went work.. well, i need to
clear some stuff mah.. n luckily i did, cos i helped to solve some
mysteries.. umm, talking abt recovery :)

n i tink the most rewarding part is.. 1 good looking (he's not under
my definition of yandao, and not wat i consider cute) guy from IT..
who's always so friendly and smiling came over to discuss some things
wif mi. wah.. my first time to see him in brown polo.. seems tat he
dun have great chest.. more of avg chest size lol.. but nvm.. cos... i
feel hot whenever he stands close to mi..

forgive mi.. i'm blabbering nonsense here.. seems tat when i'm sick,
(when it affect my EQ), i usually find no 1 cute or wif sex appeal..
but nw, i'm recovering fast.. jus now in sgboy, saw vincent ng's ad
for Tan studio.. wah...

haizz... as u all knwo (if u dunno yet, wah liao... even my girl
lol... knows i've been spreading awareness of it), i've been sick for
the past 2 wks.. during these 2 wks.. i've been living like a retarded
person siazz (no offence/pun intended). i forgot a lot of things which
i did/knw b4 i was sick. all 'cos last wk, after takign the med, i
simply dozed off on the bed..

now, even logical thinking, i sometimes oso can get very blur. a good
eg is, ytday a frn showed mi 2 invitation cards. 1 is written in
malay, 1 is written in english and chiense. i read out the malay
words.. to his amusement. den the other card, i trying to do mapping
to see which malay word stand for which chinese/english word. but i
was totally confused..

u knw wat, the chinese and english line were taking up 1 line each.
the malay ver took up 2 lines. but when i read the chn n eng 1, i read
the chiense as the first line of the malay ver, and english as the 2nd
line... oh gosh... wat came over mi??

n it seems tat, a lot of things which i could have anticipated if i nt
sick, i din foresee them.. even at the expense of thinking i shld b
rite... wah liao..

tink i slept 2 much...

aiyo... confirmed.. teh following factors make a guy a gay magnet..

1: sleeveless top
2: nice face
3: not bad hair
4: arm muscles

i boarded mrt.. it's crowded.. a few other ppl oso boarded.. den i
noticed the middle of the .. sector.. have some space. so i moved in.
unexpectedly, a guy wif the above features was sitting right in front
of mi. RIGHT AFTER THAT, an auntie immediately came over, n stood in
front of mi, facing tat guy.. gosh.. she looked so DESPERATE to be in
front!! even so later..

den, after her, 2 more guys kinda made their way to my place. 1 guy..
was like notice tat muscle guy, n moved over.. at the expense of my
space.. the way he stand, almost din care i was oredi there, jus like
trying to make his way to occupy the best position (mine) but too
late.

soon.. i noticed another guy standing beside tat auntie.. his position
n eye contact, oso told mi he's looking at tat muscle guy..

wah liao.. i immediately felt a gay magnet there..

3 gays (mi included), 1 auntie.. i tink at tis time, the gays r trying
nt to look obvious, n trying to act as str8 as possible.. or as
non-chalent as possible... lol.. i felt, the oni thing left, is to
look casual n normal.. but as i abt to alight, i oso look at the
muscles THINKING TO MYSELF how i gonna achieve them.. den as i moved
to make my way out, those gays oso.. did the same ting.. haizz...

oh ya, tat auntie.. upon reaching the 2nd stn, she dunno which stn she
at, so she lower her head to see... kauzz.. she look like she bend
down to seek tat guy's attention siazz!! cos she din jus bend, she ..
like.. bend den look loook look..

gosh!!!

den i alighted, n went for my haircut.. i found tis salon, when i was
walking past it some time back, den the guy pass mi his namecard.. but
now, i can't recognise him liao hahah.. his skills nt bad.. but tok
kinda soft lah.. tmr, den will see wat my colleagues say.. their side
hor.. cos it's very heartland shop, they do everythign themselves..
i'm used to my auntie hairstylist.. they have ppl for each role..

den tis guy, he take care of styling, spreading of the cover sheets,
coloring, washing of hair, hair treatment... everything... i thot
these ppl usually 20+... but he is actualyl near 30.. my age.. hehe, m
i so honry? he's wearing a black polo.. n i actually feel like seeing
him go topless.. den when everythign finished, he sent mi out.. n i
patted his shoulder..

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i've gotten facebook acct.. add mi there?

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oso dunno y i joined.. b part of the vogue? cos.. it's realyl js the vogue..

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hahaha.. how true can such things be?

oopps.. had wanted to add text to the analysis posted just now.. but forgot..

got the link from http://glazzal.livejournal.com/790907.html. Thanks glazzal.

"Existing Situation" may be true.. see it from the "making frns" pov..
i knw i'm an introvert who sincerely wishes to make more frns ... and
go out more often.. but sometimes, i'm just too alone and ends up
building up a defence wall as an introvert's protection against any
seemingly offending acts (verbal or action).

"Stress Sources" - i try to be unrestrictive at most times. Sometimes
this seems as a butterfly or flirtatious.. n i oso.. try to overcome
any obstacles that stands in my way to achieve my aims.. the
"overcoming" refers to legitimate n non-hurtful means.. meaning, i dun
wan to hurt any1 in order to achieve my goals.

"Restrained Characteristics" i believe this needs time, as I'm not
someone to open up my heart to people easily.. given family history
and personal history as well.. egocentric n offended easily.. i'm
trying to be much less..

"Actual Problem" hope tis is solved, once i've repaid my debts

the rest.. is up to my frns and visitors to judge :)

Kevin+Lee took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "In despair and needs relief of some sort. Wants ph..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

i was reading an article on <a href="http://www.fridae.com/newsfeatures/article.php?articleid=2105&viewarticle=1">fridae</a>... and was realyl amused by this line:

"When Owen's male boss confessed to having issues with women, Joanna offered to counsel him by saying: "Who knows the soul of a straight man better than a lesbian woman?" Hear, hear!"

and ...

" On this particular episode, Ellen interviewed singer James Blunt and asked about his love life:

Ellen: So are you dating anyone right now?
James: No, but I'll give you my number later.
(Ellen gives her audience a bewildered look.)
Ellen: Um, James, I'm gonna have to tell you something about myself later backstage.
(The audience laughs affectionately.)
James: Well, you know, I am actually very effeminate.
(The audience laughs some more and clap their hands.)"

whahahaa...

good one siazz :)

i'm really sick... usually, it dun bother mi if i get struck wif cough or flu.. cos my immune sys can handle it in 2 wks. but tis time, a fever made it worse. i totally cannot control my illness.. coughed pretty hard at work.. had wanna fight it real hard.. but seems tis time, the fever is "supporting" cough n flu, n my immune sys cannot handle the fever well..

toking abt fever... i think i'm beginning to knw how fever can turn someone into hearing impaired.. cos, at tat time (3am) i felt feverish, i cld feel my rite ear was blocked.. like a huge sound-proof wall was placed between my ear's opening, n... my internal.. membrane? at tat moment, i really duno if i shld wait till morn, or head to 24hr clinic.. i really was at a loss.. n i can't carry on my sleep too. i finally decided to have a bite and take panadol.. the panadol really helped. within 20 mins, my fever subsided, n my hearing was cleared.. phew.. to tink.. in order to let the med flow down smoothly to my body, i sat up, used my pillow as a cushion to lean against the wall, n rested.

speaking abt the hearing-impaired, as i recovered gradually, i felt tat, if i din do anything (or wake up on time to feel the high temperature), my hearing cld b severely impacted, cos i really felt the blocking. i am really truly grateful n... happy tat... my life has always been VERY fortunate manzz..

1) tis time, the fever...

2) den YRS ago, during clubbing, i was dancing on stage (yes.. STAGE) n swirling around a pole.. to focus on my dancing, i closed my eyes to avoid contact wif anyone. a while later, i opened my eyes (i duno y)... n it's actually on time to see an arm coming my way, towards my throat!!!... or any place above the throat area!!! i den adjusted n avoided the arm... wah liao, if not, sure kena accident!!

3) n 1 more thing... oso i consider VERY lucky... but i cant rmb it for now..

ok.. last nite, once again, i felt how lucky / fortunate i was to knw 1 frn.. he always treat mi VERY well, but ALWAYS made it a point NOT to make it obvious.. i asked him out for a movie, he agreed. i dun tink i told him the title. when we met, n he found out i was sick, he offered to get warm drinks for mi for movie.. n he oso said tat he oso wanna get a warm drink himself..

n abt the questions i raised, he offered his suggestions.. whcih i felt very helpful...

first was the "buddy asking abt gf". he said its normal to give tat ans.
2nd, the photo-taking wif female colleague. he oso said jus act blur, like wat my frns commented here.
3rd.. the serious 1, whcih i din mention here.. a newly made frn (AA) who i knew from irc wanna knw mi better, n was VERY VERY straightforward in his words, no blunting, no covering. naked words. but i oni take him as a frn. den he asked his frns to join us. i was keen to knw his frn (BB), n kept toking to BB on msn. den somehow (or shld say unexpectedly), BB told AA i was compatible wif AA. i verified wif BB, and BB said he FELT i was compatible wif AA. i really dunno wat to say... n tis resulted in AA IMMEDIATELY sending mi an sms, saying he wan mi b his bf, n etc. i showed my movie frn (above) the sms. he den advised mi to simply ignore the msgs. i was worried tat AA will nt get it. he said it shld b very obvious oredi, if i dun reply... hope so loh..

ok... den did i mention abt a xmas party org by my proj team at work? they say we need a gift valued @ $10 min, last min (i oni rmb it 24 hrs b4 the party), i oso duno wat to prepare.. den thot of soemthing EVIL... hahah... yrs ago, as xmas gift exchange, i got a "bear bear" towel set. but i've nvr used it. tis towel set got 2 towels in it n in a box. den.. i decided to wrap it up, n pass it off as a gift whahahhaah.... =D

ok.. time for dinner... den med... cya!

william: Which post did u mention about the guy at the company bus

me: i forgot whcih posts i got write abt him.. but here's 1: http://luvktv.blogspot.com/2007/10/somehow.html

HELP ME... i dun wan to smear a female colleague's name!!

oh ya!!! at work, there's a male colleague who i took care of ever since he joined. think he trust mi a lot, n folows my advice. but ytday, after company retreat, we walked around to kill time, n he asked if i got a gf b4... wah liao.. i had nothing on my mind... i jus said things like "had a few girls b4.. went out, but nothing else.. din hold hands". den he say "tat;s nt gf mah"... he den say, he asked 'cos he wanna get a xmas gift for gf..

argh... my cover.. gonna poked??

den, durign the retreat, 1 female colleague (i knw her n met her on the streets every nw n den) was all dressed up.. so i took a pic wif her.. wah liao, den today, that photographer (my female lunch buddy) teased mi, saying i took pic wif a ger i like.. wah liao... wat to do?? i dun wan make it a big news n smear her name siazz!!

wat to do?!?!

really, need advice!!! HELP... *sob sob*..

am i getting from bad to worse? or... it's the usual stages? monday evening, ate too much cokies, den over night got serious.. sore throat.. tues morn, rinsed mouth wif salt water, felt better then. wednesday, heavy flu @ work.. n voice change.. tmr? dunno... feeling a bit.. feverish siazz... :( but i determined not to get mc.. i wanna fight the disease!

sigh.. last nite (tues night) saw tat my online results slip state i completed my course, and is awarded Bachelor of Information Technology. so excited, got my boss to bring the printed copy to HR, oni to hear tat they WANN the hardcopy, the version signed by the Dean den counted.. wah liao.. the version.. need 2 wks to process ok.. n need to pay 20$!!! darn.. blood suckers!
 no choice.. my official transcript until next sept den can get.. wah liao, dun wanna wait so long to get pay incr manzz..

ok lah.. my original plan was to inform HR right after knowing tat i completed my course, den.. over 1 mth let them do adj, by jan, shld have the new pay.. haizz..

it's really very tiring today.. yesteryda, jus b4 i leave office, i ate some cookies.. but end up i kena.. throat infection..

when i got home, i slept at.. 1am cos i was so busy blogging.. but sigh.. a frn actually .. sigh.. nvm..

tdy, i woke up, sore throat even worse.. company got a retreat today.. thot it'll b boring for mi ,cos it's basically eating our time.. nothig much will happen.. other than mingling around.. but it seems.. i'm really nt used to crowds anymore.. i duno why.. within crowds, i tend to diminish into a corner.. dunno which group of ppl to join.. dunno which group welcome mi.. i was even thinking of going home early.. secretly of cos..

but luckily.. things went on fine.. before the event started, i joined my lunch group, n took photo for them. den, when event start n b4 lunch, i joined a china-group.. among them is the guy who wear spec :P not clear enuff? nvm.. i oso forgot how i.. addressed him in my blog. tis china group went to somewhere to rest.. n i took the chance to take their picture.. no intentions watsoever ORIGINALLY.. but after i took the pix n each of them volunteered to take pix, i am suddenly... amused that, i have the china guy's pic =D .. jus nw i look at the pic.. whahah.. the outline of his chest is almost translucent siazz!! umm good loking spec guy. :)

den when lunch started, i .. somehow joined another group.. hehe.. again, the topic is on y i dun eat vege..

den, after lunch, we went to walk walk.. jus as we started walking, hahahaha.... a spec cutie appear from nowhere.. n i waved at him.. den he joined us. tis spec cutie.. i knw him on monday, when i kinda missed the lunch bus. my vietnam frn ask mi join her lunch group, n intro'ed 3 frns, including tis cutie.. wear spec, but his body is lean... almost same attributes as mi.. n i cn say, i chatted the most wif him during tat lunch.

ok.. the cutie joined us for the walking around.. den while toking abt gym, i used the back of my hand to feel his tummy.. i dunno if he felt weird anot lah.. but i joked my tummy is flatter than his =D haha, oh yeah, i was in my specs while walking there siazz... felt so undignified!! later went toilet to put on lens.. hehe.. inside there, spec cutie oso went in.. wah liao.. realyl wish... i have the power... to make my frns pin him down... den i rape him lol...

wah liao.. believe it? i specially got home early to finish blogging siazz.. cos it's really happening n i dun wna to miss any detail.

this blog is abt the walk for aids.. yes i went there.. wha liao.. these recent blogs, i've been giving away my whereabouts siazz.. although i had always valued my privacy a lot.. duno whether it's due to havign no confidence in my looks, or simply.. dun wan b scared by ppl who look at mi "admirably" on the streets..

in nn time, i took bus to somerset there.. speaking abt tis, i was actually in a light-hearted mood siazz.. but how come.. it seems to have changed.. anyway, got to the registration site soon den jus idled there.. suddenly a gym guy.. fair.. appeared before mi.. after a short while, i chatted up wif him.. i cn feel tat he's str8 siazz.. he dun even knw wats the event abt.. his female frn asked him to come along in case of volunteer shortage, but the number proved overwhelming.. his singlet showed his well-endowed chest, n arms.. but he decided to go to the endpt, as he's not .. perhaps nt keen to join the walk.. maybe he see too many aj folks so.. dun wan to be seen as supporting us..

from den on.. things took a change.. perhaps i was really bored.. n the ppl around mi kept on ... standing darn darn close to mi.. almost as if we are queuing up.  i did nt like it, n kept moving around to avoid them.. i tink they see tis action as avoiding them.. n dun wish to be in their "level" group.. den i was there, staring into blank, waiting for time to pass.. n luckily got ppl skating here n there, n i was loking at how they move.. haha.. i din even notice E was there siazz.. can't recognise him in casual wear.. not to mention another guy Aye.. without his make up yesterday, he really look MUCH MORE RUGGered.. maybe he shld shave..

den finally, the walk began... wah liao, got so many sch gers... hahaha... dunno y they there siazz!! lol.. sigh.. after the vollunteer work @ 1-7, den realised wat i shld b expecting @ the walk.. i need to find frns to go wif mi!! if nt, every volunteer has some frns to ... "hi hey, how r u".. den mi.. knw no 1 there.. but 2 bad, 2 last min liao, no 1 go. sigh.. so end up i walking alone..

did the org-er kinda knw i'm quite ready to take pix? cos although i'm not the photographer, he asked mi to take some still, after knwoing i have it wif mi.. so, at the end of the walk, i got busy taking pix.. haha, anyway, i was not in the mood to make new frns n takig photo kept mi busy. moved around ,took photos here n there.. n even took cynthia babe n hossan.. leong (dunno wat description sounds good n creative enuff, so better dun write)

"soon", everythign is over.. had thot of... see whether they got any dinner or not.. or a de-brief.. as i knw, i am more relaxed during such times n can make frns easier.. but 2 bad.. seem nothing else on.. ok loh.. i make my way out.. went to nearest mrt toilet to change.. hahah.. i change, den i realised, my pants r quite below my waist.. once i take off the singlet,  the top part of the brief CAN SEE 1..

umm, 1 side issue worth mentioning.. when i got on the bus to go home, a tanned BOY was sitting next to mi. out of boredom, i look his side once a while. u knw wat, he was so nervous n scared siazz.. den when he about to alight, he was putting on his bag, n.. somehow the shirt on the back was lifted up 2 much, n revealed a small area of his tanned back lol..

oh.. tis blog is quite short.. shorter than previous.. tink i continue from here..

den later at nite, a good frn of mine.. got prob wif reln.. his bf 3 days nvr reply his sms n call. he ask mi call the bf, n if got ans, ask him to call my frn back.. i can say i knw wat he wan to do.. so i told him wat i'll do.. he den blasted off at mi, telling nt to act smart aleck n jus call. i told him to calm down so tat he will nt make matters worse.. he den jus disappeared... i knw how he;s feeling.. but den, if i really do so, "call n ask him to call my frn", it really reflects BADLY on my frn!! isn't tis a good intention?! was i even wrong?

den today morn, i asked how was the bf, he said ok... i ask if he wanna knw y i offered those suggestions, den he blasted off at mi again..saying i always ask 2 many questions n assume too much when i knw nothing.. is tis unappreciated good intentions? or did i really do wrong? haizz..

den at work, the nice lokoing tech guy came again to resolve a prob for mi. when he can't, he waited for his snr to fix it.. den his frn walked past us, n he greeted him. the snr den came n we discussed wat cld b the problem.. den i was kinda surprised by wat the snr said siazz... n made some startled.. actions.. hahah.. i tink somehow the tech guy felt weird.. n din.. look at mi anymore.. den later, on way home, i actually saw tat frn of his n tok to him..haha.. i think he was the frn.. but the feeling he gave mi.. he seems not siazz.. although he's the tech guy's frn..

phew.. finished bloggin liao... YAY!!! i got Aye's msn n J's... see if i can get E's..

to start, think i'm getting sick as i write tis blog.. throat getting sore.. n bit running nose..

ok.. continue where i left off.. but i tink i shld stay truthful in my blog.. shdl nt write oni the gd stuff n avoid blogging the dark side of mi..

toking abt J n E, we were dancing there mah.. when i saw E dancing oso, i turned to face him n continued dancing wif our butts.. i placed my hands on his back n pushed him towards mi, other hand, grabbing J's ass and push toward my butts oso :) so fun!!

ok.. nw the harsh truth of the./.. evening..

i was really focussed on taking pic, n... i'm nt been the party type for quite some time. so i dun tink i knw any1 inside, besides the volunteers. den after making my rounds, i jus stay near the entrance.. as i.. dunno where else to move. later 1 of the org'er found mi n pulled mi to find the rest of the gang.. WOAH.. so they're there!

although i'm there, i'm really very.. or.. i was really very :).. antisocial.. or rather, dun like to mix around much.. tat particular moment, i oni felt it's VERY noisy n i really outta place, other than my role as photographer there.. got a few ppl... try to chat mi up, but i was simply closing the channel.. i din even bother or wish to speak to them, n din even give them any eye contact.. machiam a "sianz place".. sigh, actually J kinda made mi honry tat nite.. n had wanna spend the nite wif him.. i din tell him directly of cos... oni exchanged numbers.. den he went off to eat wif his frns.. again, i jus felt.. his frns... those party-goers.. i dun wan to join them.. rowdy crowd.. n things stopped.. or paused there. den i changed my clothes n was abt to leave.. someone who was.. kinda observing mi there (a volunteer oso) gave mi a light pat on the shoulder n said "u changed ur top ah?".. but hahaah... i simply ignored him.. totally pretended i heard nothing n walked off... IT'S SO BAD AND ANTI-SOCIAL WATEVER WATEVER OF MI RITE??!? lol...

hehe, den once i'm out, i saw a cat finding food... i meowed at it twice, it turned to see if there's any cat around.. i continued walking.. n saw 2 guys in front looking at mi in.. disbelief? tat someone of my image meowed to a cat? hahah...

den later, on way hme, i found myself teasing a... str8 guy who was sitting alone on the staircase at the busstop.. no physical, but merely eye contact lol.. even on the bus, i was looking from time to time whahahah...

anyway, an autopsy, or review of how come i behave lidat will be revealed in my next blog..  coming up soon (depends on how fast i type, how long the tv can distract mi from blogging, etc)..

after sitex, went straight to mit frns for my voluntary work. it's at 1-7. um.. i was oni expecting us to.. stand outside the place n give handouts, wah end up need to step in to the sauna n... be inside siazz... i had to admit i was scared stiff... to see so many naked guys once again right b4 my eyes!! could not quite settle down for a while, n even got the coordinator worried..

when i got there, one of the coord came to ask mi whether i'll be involved in the show later.. the show.. will be giving "live" demo on how to use condoms... hahah.. can i take tat as a compliment? tat he is very interested to see how i look? :P so buay paiseh!!

den, i was still very nervous... long time din come such place, duno wat's expected of mi, n dunno where to stand. den suddenly got 1 guy come in... he found mi SOOO nervous he tried his best to calm mi down.. ahhaha.. he's good looking lah... n tall enuff.. kept asking mi to relax.. n gave mi a psychological guidance on hwo to calm down.. gave mi drinks oso.. kinda always there to ensure i'm ok.. veyr nice hor?

after drinking, i felt better... den, ANOTHER guy came in.. n GOSH, good figure manz!! ya, he came in topless, n wearing leather pants.. n they r quite flirtatious inside there (1-7 ie).they r open for touches n hugs n kisses.. wah liao, but i oni dare to look at him admirably siazz.. den the good looking 1 (call him J) even encouraged mi to touch him.. n the good body guy (E) oso had no qualms abt ppl touching him.. hahaha.. so generous siazz n frnly... yes, i even sucked his nipples.. n J made E hug mi while i tok E siazz.. so happy but PAISEH.. den as i got more relaxed, i got touchy wif J oso hahah..

den as the demo is abt to start, J brought to mi change.. n kept asking mi to take off my clothes... haha,, ok lah... for fun, i took off loh.. n once i got back into the demo area, immediately got ppl look at mi lol... when J came back, he n E teased mi siazz... lol... hahah.. J n i immediately got VERY touchy wif each other siazz!! he oni in his briefs.. so touchy tat the emcees teased us for being so open hahaha... even got 1 point, J's back was so sweaty... hahah.. he told mi it's getting stuffy, but i guess, he';s getting veli heated up hahahah../.

when the demo is finally over, we all went up to bath... J dragged mi along... hahaha... whahahah... nothign shall be mentioned here.. but it's fun siazz.. seems this is the enjoyable part when... for mi, i knw who i'm bathing wif..

after everything settled, went back down to prepare for next event.. n chatted wif them.. wah liao, seem like really no 1 can guess my age manzz.. but i did knw some guys who can give real lotsa fun siazz!! in terms of conversation lah.. den we proceeded to mox there, where majority changed into sch uniform to suit the theme. wah... J is the rowdy sch boy siazz hwahahah...

but seriously, i nothing much to do there siazz.. cos... every1 is jus standing up n looking tot eh stage area.. even hard for mi to infiltrate in.. or shdl i say, i din try hard enuff to.. go in? i tink 2nd 1 applies more.. cos i was totally not into the atmosphere.. jus knw i want ot take pic.. but.. not quite used to it still ..the environment.. even the fashion show, i was telling myself tat it's not related to my voluntary work ahah.. u knw, when i told myself tis line, i somehow oredi knw myself i'm oni giving an excuse so tat i will nt b so honry to squeeze in n snap some shots.. although i seriousyl... wanna see... those bodies n faces hahaha...

ok ,den later, we went to PLAY... wah.. SUPER FUN SIAZZ.. maybe i'm more used to tis place lah.. when i'm inside i simply went around, searching for "targets" :P got a number shots for ppl wearing for the theme.. n den hor, J n E have not seen the wild n dance side of mi.. when i saw them inside, J danced to mi for a while and stopped. den.. i positioned J so tat he is facing mi.. den i shook my body to the music n danced to him.. had wanted to flirt.. but he danced oso.. n E screamed... i used my butt on E... n den danced in between them.. hot dance ie.. hahaha... J dne blurted out "so wrong.. all tops r dancing"... ahhhaa..

den hor, i tink a number of ppl wan to knw mi.. but more of a 1liner.. wat i am not really used to.. is they bitching in high pitches after a few lines.. it's so BITCHY n so ger..wld prefer a normal ad casual chat conversation... wif wits n humour of cos..

sigh.. can't continue liao.. LATE... 1.04am oredi.. have to continue tmr...

it's realy a VERY VERY happening wkend... WOW is the word!!

i frankly did not expect my wkend to be this exciting and fulfilling..

saturday noon, made my way to sitex there on the mrt. ahha.. so coincident, when i got a seat in the mrt right after stepping in, i noticed at a corner, got a tall guy (taller than mi ie), wif a cute figure.. as i took 2 more peeks, he n his frn moved to slightly further corner.. hehe.. den when we transited to another train, i,.. purposely stood behind him.. see him better mah..

den the train came.. he... maybe.. dun wan to rush in or wat.. or "courteous", so he stood there, at the door, not wanting to move in yet, so naturally, i moved in, n brushign his arms lol.. once i inside the train, i went to stand at the train connector area there.. n UNEXPECTEDLY, he actually came into this area oso!! i was stunned!! well, i din purpose walk there to follow him, but he moved 1 hor..

wah liao, den once inside, i forgot how many times i look at him liao... face, body, watever.. n his voice is between man n teen hahah.. den later, his frn somehow moved up.. n try to block my view of him.. hahah... i den purposely move up oso.. to keep on seeing him =D

finally, got to tanah merah mrt stop. we all alighted.. n.. he walked out first, so i FOLLOWED, YES FOLLOWED, him.. hehe, so coincident, he oso going sitex n i end up standing behind him.. abt.. 3 metres behind. den he turned around n saw mi standing behind.. he tried to brush his hair n lifted up his arm.. but the opening at the sleeve there was directly in my sight.. he felt so awkward n din brush properly.. den somehow, his frn trying to ... give me a weird stare or something.. n they both turn around n commenting on things they saw behind mi.. but... i was oni 2 happy to see more of him so directly and closely.. =D

finally, he got... so not-used tat he turn to face the front, so tat his back is facing mi.. hhaha.. even when the train came n we went in, he was sitting n i simply stood in front of him wahhahahhaha.... wahhahhaa... looking at him like no 1's biz.... really.. i din even care if anybody else saw mi always gazing at him siazz... so. infatuated wif him..

i even thot he was someone whose blog i've been reading (http://uk.blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-EkYSDvAycqQT2yudMdNK) but.. on 2nd/3rd look, no, it's not..

sigh.. at the sitex there, duno wat happened.. my frn was darn easily angry.. he set the meeting time to 3pm, n den changed it to 1pm. i asked him y... he simply say no reason. when i called him to ask, he vented his anger on mi.. anyway, we still met n walked around the hall.. my oni aim was to sign up for starhub while his was to.. look around n.. maybe get some cheap deal.

i originalyl thot, signing up for starhub will take oni a SHORT while.. like 30 mins time (q time, reg time, sales tok time, n signing form time) so i went to the booth oni.. abt 1 hr b4 the time i wanna leave sitex...

I WAS WRONG!!!!

i was even surprised to see the LONG LONG LONG queue!! felt so sianzz.. as i'm not someone who like to queue like no end... but still had to join it. den, few secs later, a... jus a normal slightly better than avg guy from starhub passed a pamphlet to mi. i den ask him some qns abt my plan lah.. cos he's a guy.. YES.

aiyo, i tink my .. eye contact sometimes realy sucks... cos.. in front of mi, is a family of 4 with 2 2-5 yo boys. in a queue, i always ensure there's a space between mi n the front, so tat got moving space for us. den their boy somehow din move when the family advanced in the queue. i was looking at the boy's back.. n REALISED the boy wears a hearing aid.. i was stunned n kept looking.. den the family pulled him forward.. i guess, to them, i was staring in a buay-song (pissed off) manner... anyway, while in the queue, i jus thot of another qn to ask another cute boy who's havign a chat wif his female colleague at the front of the queue. n once i got to tat plc, i immediately asked the qn.. whahaha... was i obvious?

anyway, i was tinking.. shucks.. so long queue, sure boring.. but din expect to have GUYS/BOYS "entertaining" mi from time to time :P.

finalyl, (ya, i been using tis word 3 times ored) i got to the registration counter.. n knw wat, 2 boys r servicing mi =D i told them wat i want to do.. the better looking was "ryan", i think. i told them abt my starhub hp line oso, but my aim was to get maxonline, see if i can get any discount. den somehow, they thot i renewing my hp contract siazz.. i den told them in formal english tat i oni wan sign up maxonline, nt hp.. den they hahah... "oops"... den i added in "dun scare mi lei.." den ryan joked a bit, saying they confused..den i got my.. svc no, n waited for my no to be called.

waited abt 8-10 mins, n i was called.. i went to the counter, wanna get a staff's attention.. but all r busy.. suddenly, a cute boy staff saw my number n asked mi to follow him out of the crowded area. there, he tok to mi... he's TANNED =D..den later, he took mi back to the counter to fill up forms.. his.. hwahhaha.. tone n image dun realyl match siazz.. or he's nervous to deal wif mi?

he wears a biz style watch (analog big size, silvery), has a ring on right hand beside small finger (i rmb tis clearly, cos i murmured to myself "guy left, ger rite" to see if it's a wedding ring. right hand, so shld nt b wedding ring. tanned guy. no specs. abt my height or slightly taller. i expected him to speak in properly english words n tones lah, but his words dun end properly.. very much of a local chinese who can't speak proper english.. den he spelt my name wif an extra "L" (keLvin), n stated date of svc activation as "jan 07". i corrected him of cos.. den, more funny is, after i convinced him i shld nt b charged for installation, since the promo offered "free installation for existing hp user", he somehow oso waived the activation fee.. i am surprised!!! end up i oni pay the subscription fees once it's turned on. no other charges... GOOD RIGHT?!

tis blog getting LLOONNNG. i post new blog to carry on.. i gotta finish blogging for the wkend stuff...

wah liao.. rmb.. i blogged about.. 1 guy.. who i ... talked to while waiting at a busstop?

today, he n i met on the company lunch bus. wow, he's 1 good looking guy in specs siazz.. today is dress-down day, so he's wearing a long sleeve slightly tight T. n i sat beside him. every nw and then, when he can't realy hear wat i'm saying, he'll lean to my side.. his arms pushed onto mine... lol..

wat am i writing.. lol..

pluboy: y not to orchard one? keke

mi: u know orchard ah? no lah, tat plc is too crowded.. n perhaps too cruisy for mi.

haha.. i knw i din blog for some time.. end up oso no comments hahaha... (comment on wat? u ask?.. nothign.. jus used to seeing comments from LJ.. den now suddenly no comments in the email, n find it weird..)

aiyo.. today really tiring siazz.. n i find tat, my life is getting boring siazz.. unless i head for gym, or ask a couple of frns out to chill.. if nt, nothign to write. basically simple life..

today i took off from work to take my relatives (pri sch nephew n niece) to sitex in noon. since morn nothign to do, i went swimming.. got nsf tanning @ swiming pool.. wearing white trunks.. WAH... once in a while i took a look while swiming lah.. den i discovered, besides him, got another SLIGHT chubby fella swiming beside mi.. shoulder a bit broad, duno chest is flabby or sturdy.. tummy is a bit loose. wah liao, i find him cute siazz.. esp so when i look at him, or into his direction, den he scared n duno wat to do next..

but, later, he got off from pool n rested on the spectator seat. he then put on his GLASSES. den i... was in disbelief.. i immediately knew that, if i saw him wif GLASSES in the first place, i'll nvr have taken a 2nd look at him!! den later, the nsf boy oso went off.. i tink.. abt 10-20 later, i went off too.. n u knw wat.. when i went to toilet there, tat nsf boy was bathing/soaping/etc wif the cubicle door open!! but he's got trunks on lah.. wah liao, confirm aj siazz!! but sigh... i'm nvr a person to.. do... wild things in public.. so.. jus keep seeing oni loh..

later i rushed off to the mrt to meet my nephew n niece. in the train, haha, i actually saw a caucasian, placing his mini umbrella on the seat beside him like no1's biz!! i thot caucasians r supposed to have more/better social ettiquette? sigh.. imitating cyber-reporters, i took a pic of him n his stuff wif my hp-cam... when i reached my nephew's plc, den i realise my uncle coming wif us. he drives, so transport is easy. went to sitex there, got a number of faces worth looking :P.. den once in a while, for those who wearing materials tat can show the outline of their chest (read: nipples) honry mi.. will stare at that area innocently... lol..

after the visit, went to sim lim sq there buy psp slim. but wah liao, i was darn tired man!! walk all day in sitex n bugis!! the sales guy there is old beng type. can see... he's kinda treating my nephew n niece as lovable kids hahah...

den finally went to mit a gym buddy for the first time, n den go gym together. i rested my legs sitting on a chair while waiting for him.. TIRED.. well, he's indo-chn.. kinda always ready to smile type.. cheerful.. can chat type. for those machines, he use abt 10-15 kg more than mi.. stronger hor? we kinda shared wat we usually do in gyms lah.. started off wif my treadmill, den played wif his "back-machine", den his inclined-something machine but i oso use this somtimes, my situp. den he need to go for his religious classes liao. but we still went steamroom together.. sat there for some time.. i usually stay there until i'm gaining too much heat den go off. tis time, wif him.. i duno how long we stay liao, so once i feel tat the heat is intense liao, we went off.

wah liao, den u knw wat, as i'm changing my clothes, 1 big size guy jus farted rite in front of mi siazz!!!! kauzz!!!

umm.. it seems that bugis cali is quite empty today lei.. usually.. the time i go is 7+ 8pm. today seem very empty.. but soemone told mi, bugis 6-7 pm crowded, n decided to go RP instead. strange.. if 7 pm is not crowded, i tink in future i go earlier liao.. but depends still, on my work commitments lah..

n.. as i had a gym buddy today, i start to wonder y do i want/need a gym buddy... to 1) gym wif mi (share machines), 2) chat wif mi (while gymming), or 3) help out each other in gym routine?

1) do i really want to use his machine for my gym?
2) we r there to gym, work out. do we wan to chat?
3) if he's stronger than mi, most likely he help mi out in gym.. can i help him back?

or am i tinking too much into it? jus let it b?

oh ya, i oso went gym yesterday.. ie, b4 thur.. den on my way home, wah liao, i saw a .. cute.. fellow.. big size but nt bulky guy walking into train wif his gf siazz.. from the moment he stepped in, i been looking at him from time to time.. wah liao, so cute man!! not the muscle type, but not fat or flabby. all good descriptions of a guy gushed out from my mind to tell mi abt him siazz.. such a nice looking gentleman.. i can oni wish him happiness siazz..

ok.. now i'm home, n jus realised no dinner is prepared.. after 1 whole day out.. thus typing tis blog to rest.. before deciding if i wan go out buy food or mc delivery..

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i rarely blog abt work, cos i understand.. *or perhaps the culture in tis company is.. jus get the job done, no matter how u do it, or wat it takes.. n it's wat i enjoy learning n doing n "living" there..* tat wat we need is to get the work done.. no pt getting mad or furious over anything, cos in the end, a day still need to pass, n we need cooperation from every1... wat matters is to stay .. frnly n helpful..

but gosh.. today's happenings really made my blood boil..

i'm assigned to complete a new module. tis new module, i havign problem setting it up. this module main-in-charge got 2 persons. AA and BB. I'm not on talking terms wif AA, BB is chattable. BB knws i got prob but cant solve. So AA decided to come in. So I left my computer to them. 30 mins later, i came back, seeing tat no one's at my desk, i supposed everything is ok oredi. BB even email mi, saying a new project has been created so tat i can start on the new module.

i thot, everything was nicely setup, so tat i can start immediately. den, when i proceeded, i realised nothing was actually done, but oni a bare and empty (not sure if either word suffice). i'm really really surprised!!! nothign was done n yet it was left in tat way?? even telling mi to start using in tat manner??!?!?

i'm helping to develop the module, HELPING. n it seems like even after i reported a prob, they simply erased all previous settings and gave mi bare system to "start" with?? in tat case, y on earth do i need AA's help??? it's almost like asking the person who sold u an item to help fix it, the person took a look, did a LITTLE thing, n went off. u thot it's done. u took a look, n realised he took it apart, n asking u how to put things back, and without even making the effort to see if it still works at all...

sigh..

den.. on thur oso.. the day i given the extra task, my boss gave mi a letter.. telling mi it's P&C of cos.. i really din expect to get any letter. impossible to be pay rise, since i haven given any transcript. but i really worry for the bad things to happen siazz.. in my yrs of work, i oni got 1 letter b4.. n tat's a warning letter, telling mi i have slacked.. well, that time i tink still my treat work as fun attitude.

although, i'm very curious to knw the contents, i made myself wait loh.. til i was outta office, den i read.. it says, to keep up wif market trends, company gave a 10% incre.. 10%.. umm, ok loh..
 nt to say i'm surprised lah, cos market really getting better now.. but it does have some effect on mi siazz.. first time getting a pay rise lol.. ya, tis 1 is more prof job.. those past jobs, more of anyone can do it..

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den last nite, VERY VERY funny!! i had a very weird dream?!? it makes mi wonder if i.. actually had a really violent side whcih i have been suppressing.  dreamt tat, i was eating wif a frn at kopi tiam, got 1 old man.. 40+.. eating on the same table.. den suddenly, an argument ensued.. he stood up, grabbed his umbrella (which was put on the table), n pointed at mi.. i snatched it, and pointed back at him, yelling n threatening to hit him.. he backed off, i pursued.. n he ran off..

den another nite, i dreamt, a boy.. teen.. teenager.. was toking to mi, but suddenly he pissed mi off a lot. i shouted "WTF" at him n yelled at him.. i was even tinking in the dream tat, dun tink i'll not lose my anger..."..

WOW...

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take it tat i'm slow or wat.. after i watched PF movie, den i realsied men n women's nipple size got diff siazz..

oh ya, anyone knw.. for LJ, how to set the webpage icon to something else? like my BS..

pluboy: get drenched in the rain wearing white :) .. it's so hot man u know!

me: ya loh!!! but.. i got mention white? anyway, haha, u're right.. white office top.. i wonder how that top looks when it's drenched.. n on mi.. haha... maybe i'll wear tat n get drenched n see hwo it looks lol..

hey, u ever thot of moving to LJ.. tat's livejournal?

tink i've not blogged for some time..

umm, again, dunno where to start writing..

ok.. yesterday, i was suddenly given an extra task.. duno whether it's in my blood or wat. tis task was given to me by my boss. i was still wondering how i shld reply.. shld i check my list of tasks pending? shld i accept it like nobody;s business? shld i reject, asking him to find someone else?

each option has pros n cons.. i dun need to spell out rite?

in the end, i used my old style. i thot about it for a while (few secs) n, a bit resist-ively asked for the scope. as tis new task is totally new to mi, i made it clear i need to check the scope n see if i can manage. tat means, i accepted it. or shld i accept it immediately? my workload is quite light now.

den later, someone added mi to his msn outta blue. really din expect.. jus tat i knw my msn addy is always in my BS

ok.. then yesteryda, (thursday, ie). i went to gym to chill out.. wah liao!! DAMN CROWDED!!!! wanna use the treadmill, n have to queue up oso!!!! after treadmill done, i went for weights. wah liao.. again loh.. all my machines used up.. walked around the area twice, trying to find a spare machine.. but i felt i was cruising though..

oh ya, while i was walking around, i saw someone relaxing by a machine, so i stepped forward to ask if he done.. "u still need?" i asked, pointing to the machine.. he den like stunned. i asked 2nd time, and 3rd time, rephrasing my line each time. finally he got my meaning.. right now, i tinking if, he really dinno my meaning, or he thot i was asking him something else... uh-hem..

den while i was using another machine, i suddenly got a call.. its my poly pal.. he asked where i was.. n said he's bored.. he does not sound his enthusiastic self.. i can feel he need someone beside him.. he asked mi for movie.. but i jus started my gym.. but sensing that he need a listening ear, i decided to end my gym session, n meet him up. i was real glad i did!!

he really needed a listening ear, and a soulmate siazz.. sigh.. if i was this sensitive to my frn's need, i wun need to trouble over tinking how to rebuild the frnship pal-ship, fag-hag ship wif my other gal pal liao.. who had treasured n given way to mi in many areas, but haha.. i took it for granted.. really granted lol.. now is the payback period..

my pal n i tinking wat to do.. either ktv, or movie.. but he suddenly decided on a 3rd option: something whcih i did not expect siazz..

to get a massage from guy for guy..

the plc pretty much in city area lah, quite accessible. but the owner n masseur both not up to my n pal std siazz.. pal asked if oni got them left there, they say yes... tat means we no choice liao.. i went for my bath, n decided to leave my briefs on while in towel.. shy mah!! the masseur den massaged mi.. can see he's VERY nervous when he started the session.. but as we toked more, he's gettign more relaxed..

i really must say his massage skills are REALLY good. enjoyed every moment of massaging by him manzz.. cool.. Perfect Massage (By Men).. eugene.. he really pressed onto the parts where i could feel the "ooooohhh" sensation!! haha, den when i was facing him during the session, he kept eyeing my erection... whahaha... teased my testes..  since he's not my type, i din touch him at all, although he's in white tight singlet n hot shorts. if i'm keen, i definitely either get touchy, or ask him take off shirt.. lol den he started to "massage" my erection.. wah liao, erection got massage 1 meh? i was tinking siazz!! jus another word to "relax" mi oni.. haha.. i even asked him, if it's ok for mi to shoot.. hahaha.. of cos i knw i can n shld, but jus felt better to ask, since i've not been such places for ages..

hahaha.. an otherwise usual gym evening turned into an erotic night... haha..

a bad day siazz..

lunch time, the dishes not my liking.. end up  eat very little..

den after work, planned to go home... but thot taht i need to bring my contact solution, so better take a cab n decided to wait for 1 hr till 9pm to take cab. but 1 hr to go, n i dun feel like rushing my work, n nothing much to do till 9pm.. decided i will jus take the solution home on public transport..

went to buy supper.. on the way, felt drops of rain coming.. ordered my supper.. i rmb telling the uncle i dun wna bee hoon.. end up they still pack wif bee hoon.. later ask the person to take away kena some unhappy stare..

worse, on way home, starting raining.. thot it's nice to cool down in light rain, but it's getting heavier n heavier.. wanna appear sexy oso cannot.. will b so embarassed in such heavy rain. abt to reach home, n the wind grew STRONGER.. if i dinno the proper way to hold umbrella, the wind sure spoil it 1.. den i'll really b drenched.. n my thin office top wll sure make lotsa ppl (hopefully guys?) take a 2nd lok..

if oni, i stay in offcei for the 1 hr siazz.. can take cab n avoid the rain.. first time in such a predicament!!

hello william, i mean switch over to LiveJournal (LJ).. cos' it easier to track n reply comments.. a page of blog can become a chatroom lol.. oso, when ppl comments on ur LJ, it sends email to u, n very likely, u can reply to comments directly from the email..

n, somehow, u can oso link to frns...

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william, ever wanna switch LJ? easier to track comments...

haaha... i like LJ, main reason is easy to track comments..

n welcome back... i tink.. u r back? i haven read ur blog yet (after u posted tat overseas msg).. but THANKS for reading my blog so fast :) hugz..

singapore kids.. more metrosexual mah.. msia side more to.. rural style? i got a msian colleague.. after she went canada for a few mths, her dress sense much better siazz.. b4 tat, so fused with msia style...

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follow up..

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lol.. i visited my BS, n kinda find yahoo ads really
anal siazz.. i may switch to using gmail to blog

anyway, i on mc today... diarrhoea.. but i wonder if i
made it up.. morn, got slight diarrhoea. den on bed,
was thinking if i shld go work still.. thot of many
things, finally decided i wil stay hme.

this makes mi wonder where did my passion in the past
go.. when i first started in this job, i SELDOM take
mc. but nw, i take it when i simply felt tat i will b
bored in office, cos nothing rushign for mi to do..
it's like i'm getting stagnant there.. wonder if this
is why, ppl often move on after 2yrs of staying.. i'm
nt sure if it will apply to mi.. if i dun feel myself
learnign something new, or developing, i get bored,
and feel like nothing impt for mi to finish.. see
how... anyway, it's a work day. nothing much to do at
home, makes mi kinda determined to force myself to
office no matter wat reason in future...

den, jus nw i was commenting on a blog, n used the
term "live".. den i thot of LJ.. it's LiveJournal.
kinda implying it's a journal for writing your life..
in plural, it goes "lives".. meaningful, i felt.

den, was at the clinic there, wah liao.... soo many
ppl in queue?!?! must wait 1 hr?!? i wondered wat i
shdl do kill time.. den decided to go other clinic..
whaha.. i think the doc is PLU.. very likely.. but i
dunno wat the cos for the lack of biz!!

oh.. these days, how do doctors usually use their
stethoscope on patients? my usual doc places it on the
shirt i'm wearing, n listens. the other one..
automatically lifts up but nt to uncover the whole
torso, jus to slide his hand n 'scope underneath my
shirt n press it onto my chest to listen.. den my
back.. got any std practice?

lastly, WAH.. as i stepped out of the clinic, 1 tanned
sec boy wif short styled hair in PE top n sch bottoms
walking towards mi.. i look at him twice.. wow.. an
athlete to be.. but i dun wan bother looking 3rd time
lah.. wait i scare him. n den i waited to cross the
road. wah liu... i was tinking.. luckily i WAS NOT ABT
to cross.. got a bus coming siazz!! if the bus horns,
wah liao, so paiseh!! den as the cars from the
direction i was looking at went past liao, i look the
other side, TAT BOY was jus stnading thre, waiting to
cross road oso!! i saw his eyes.. lovely kiddy eyes =D...

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ppl have been complaining that my posts these days ad
for yahoo for free.. shld i switch to using gmail to
blog?

anyway, today got another briefing for afa
volunteers.. true enuff, i'm not open to new frnship
when ppl just came in. i'll be blocking them from
entering my world.

when i'm not ready, i even block my ears from
listening to them.. cos as the briefing carried on, i
asked a few qns, and the new "frns" were also trying
to answer mi, but i totally blocked them, i did not
look at them, and did not hear what they are trying to
say.. anti-social, did i hear?

i will wan 2 differ, as diff ppl wif diff personality
have their own ways to knowing new folks. walk along
tis line carefully, and things go smoothly. step over
it, and things go awry.

n den, 1 frn asked mi wat is my plan after the
briefing. without thinking, i said go home.. haha, n
den on my way home, i msg'ed him, by rite, we could
have killed the time wif a movie..

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i knw i got lotsa things to blog, but can't remember
them all at 1 go..

will update as i rmb each of them..

1) on the bus to work, i heard 933 broadcast an oldie.
or 2.. 1st song was su rei's "jiu gan tam buay bo".
wah liao.. i really duno the hanyu pinyin and the
proper song title, so anyhow write. the song sounded
so impressive, influential, so directly-into-my-heart
(wat u call tis?). duno y, i jus liked the song..

den, other song is "tong nian". it's another
mesmerizing song.. oh my goodness... it simply brings
back soo soo soo many fond memories of childhood
manzz.. 933 was playing sylvia cheung's version. i
tink i nvr heard luo da you's 1. sylvia's is more of a
mum singing her childhood memories to her kids.. felt
so much warmth.. n love.. once i started listening to
it, i simply had to pause watever i was doing..

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can i add youtube vid?

this is hilarious!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fl8t5nJp2AQ

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Can I say that tis wk is (umm.. suddenly felt so
formal in my choice of words)...

cn i say tat, tis wk has been so darn hectic? ehh,
correct word? it's been a thoroughly busy week lah, nt
exactly exciting wk. really a bit almost cannot tahan
liao.

been staying in office 2 alternative days till 10pm.
it shld b normal, but i nvr felt so tired b4..

umm, did i miss blogging of anythign? nvm.. anyway,
ytday, met up wif my poly frns... wow... it's really a
refreshing meet man!! thot i cn go hme by 10pm.. but
end up, we parted at 12am!! WOW!! tats the power of
long time frns rite? ;) we knew 1 another since
1997... yoo-hoo..

readers of my BS blog shld rmb that, there was 1 time,
i was into MLM. a number of ppl discouraged mi from
joining the crowd. haha, thanks for the advice... u
knw wat, those 2 frns who invited mi to join, they r
now working in proper jobs. i dunno how come they
jumped, n.. not sure if i shld ask ytday, when all of
us r simply overjoyed to meet n chat again.

from wat i cn see, they r both working as admin level
work. 1 had some experience with network n servers, so
working now as IT exec. other frn oni had helpdesk
experience, so working as coordinator.

even another frn who were persuaded by them to join,
also left and found another job. but oso non-IT.

everyone stayed the same, in everything, but diff'ed
oni in the mindset and tinking. jokes, talk style, and
mannerism all remain unchanged. it's so poly frns
gathering once again. it's marvellous!

den, when we decided to leave, i'm too used to taking
taxi oredi... n suggested taking it wif some frns, but
they wanna take night buses instead :). we tried a bus
tat i nvr took b4.. in end, it made a big detour
siazz..

sigh.. such a nice gathering.. long time nvr had that.
will we meet again, probably for the big occasions
coming up? n they still rmb n ok wif my orientation..

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wah liao, i jus checked my mail.. n gosh, 20+ emails
for mi to read.. some r spam lah.. i tink i better
always blog wat i wan first, den reply comments..

hehe.. today rather interesting.. and exciting!!!

first, same old routine, i taking mrt to work.
normally, i tend to squeeze to the opposite side of
the train, so tat i dun need to move to make space for
boarding ppl. den hor, tis time oso same.. i
squeezed.. but, wat's diff/special tis time, i
suddenly found myself standing right in front of a
poly guy!!! he's taller than mi, has slight beng
feel.. haahah.. the train is very packed, n he's
standin so close to mi siazz.. den beside mi, i later
realised is a lesb couple. lol.. so coincident. u see,
1 lesb couple, n 1 gay who's admiring/looking/enjoying
his view of a .. beng looking guy. i wun say cute
lah.. but duno, ppl usually deem my tea as cuties.

wat's sad n boliao, is tat, 1 ger is standing behind
my beng guy, n looking into my direction. she always
make funny faces.. but i nvr bother to look.. wah,
guess she must b exasperated manz..

den tis beng guy, once in a while, my eyes will roll
up to see him lol.. 1 time, he shut his eyes, other
times, he jus gave an irritated look. but on the
train, wat can he do siazz!! lol..

ok, at work, some things i learnt. even though u've
passed some work u handled b4 to another person, dun
assume he/she will handle them forever. still, take
charge n know the purpose of everything amendment
done..

nex is.. my exp in gym.. i will say no ice-cream
during gym for my eyes. but, when i went to sauna,
it's SOOO different... once again, i'm stunned,
scared, scarred, n sigh.. wat have i done?!?!

in my towels, i was in sauna. i was tinking of leaving
liao. jus den, 1 guy came in.. i'd say, he's not that
cutie pie type of looks, but i jus feel he's nice
looking n kinda cute. i've been looking at him since
he came in. but the more i look, the more he look
back.. i somehow felt something's amiss: he's looking
at mi oso.

wah liao, i suddenly got so stunned!! if he din lok at
mi, i'll continue looking, since it wun lead to
anything. but he's looking at mi, i feel tat he's oso
keen on mi!! n even when i din look, i sensed tat he's
still doing it..sigh.. tell mi wat to do.. i dun wan
lead ppl on.. but like so much to see..

den suddenly, we both decided to leave at the same time..

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i'm not used to giving my blogs a title, so i wun.. =D

um, where shld i start blogging from?

a number of things have been happening.. i think
interesting stuff lah.. hope i can rmb all to jot
down.

first, is my first journey into LJ.. perhaps it
signifies a change of.. view/life/direction/etc?

heroes, and Resident Evil. these 2 made mi realise i'm
really very much into fantasy.. imagining things.. n
somehow, stories which do not end wif a summary have a
room for us to imagine. tat's wat i like.. heroes, let
me go back to the world of fantasies... charmed oso..
like "projecting my determination to DEFLECT (i learnt
tis word from charmed) an attack" or "forming an air
or something of defence".. like The Incredibles, that
young ger. wah liao, dun get mi started siazz.. umm..
or is there a community here (LJ) which got ppl wif
such interests?? hopefully dun turn into obsession
(gosh, i'm havign problem rememberign these words..
like deflect and obsession).

den ytday, jus b4 i went out for a volunteer briefing
session, i... had another.. fantasy.. lemme refresh..

it's about cops..

ehh.. i really can't rmb the details.. like.. nvm.. i
really forgot.. been tinking for mins..

den, the volunteer ting is.. wah liao, i thot it'll
oni b a 2-hr ting. din expect it to last the whole
day. but it;s interesting still. made mi know some new
frns, and learn more abt myself..

now tat i'm kinda off stress, i am better able to
handle situations and grow my tinking. ok, so i
reached the place.. ok lah.. it's AFA. i was the first
1 there. n kinda had a short conversation wif the
organisers. den i walked around the plc. more ppl came
in, but i'm den thrown into my world... locking
everyone else out of my world.. reading thru the
pamphlets.. i'm standing at the door u knw, but when
ppl came in, outta courtesy, i looked, den continued
reading. i rmb, last yr, at a xmas celeb in a frn hse,
1 aj was soo.. "friendly".. someone came in thru the
door, he's standing 10 metre away n his back was
facing the door, but he still exclaimed "happy new
yr!".. wow.. tat's power...

i prefer a more personal touch n greeting..

anyway, later the briefing started, n i was so
withdrawn from the discussion, i din look at any1. but
later, as the discussion warms up, i started looking
around lah.. n eventually the barrier was smashed.
when the briefing ended, 1 boy asked mi if i got any
plan.. umm, so sudden question.. while i asked another
soft guy to stay around.. cos he's abt to take his bag
n leave, but i sensed tat, he's waiting for someone to
say the "stay" word.

den, a short chat evolved into.... no prize for rite
ans... a dinner. unexpectedly siazz.. den the dinner
was oso.. happening!! once we stepped into the cafe
restaurant (cafe cartel), 1 guy who was on duty to
serve our table, gave a pissed look and attitude. i
was abt to decide not to give the service charge
siazz.. later when he took our orders,

i said politely "r u able to provide better svc?"
his reply: "ya, i'm providing better service"
i den tried telling him wat made mi say these, but he
seriously din get it. anyway, later he apologised lah,
n he made up for the "better svc" by always re-filling
our glasses wif plain water.. hwa lioa!!! so. farnie!!

oh.. i tink in my BS, i mentioned abt the taiwan boy..
hehe, last nite we chatted siazz... wow, taiwan
culture so open? he casually showed mi his closeup
beach picture focussing on face n chest, wif folded
arms. topless some more.. n i offered to take his pic
when i visit him..

umm, tink that's all.. boring to read such long 1s anot??

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my test on cross posting.. not double posting..

see if it works..

anyway, chris added me to his list, and I got his
request. Once I accepted it, do I still need to add
him to my friends' list too?

Or just the first step suffice?

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nae:nope, not double posting.

one thing is... the lj ads! really annoying. but if you switch them off you'll get the default blue interface lar. and you can't customize the html much.

you should turn off the navigation bar; it's ugly. On this page:
http://www.livejournal.com/customize/options.bml

me: not double posting? or did you post in BS?

ummm, r u using Plus account? Or basic? Mine is Plus. If you are too, I wonder if it's better with Basic.

For the navigation bar, it's useful to mi, but i've set it to show only when I view pages. Try again. It should not show for you anymore, unless you requested for it..

ooh... wif nae's help, i'm seeing how LJ handles comments.. it's sure easier and faster siazz...

nae, u have BS id oso. r u double posting as well?

kevxx, thks... if things go smooth, i may really switch to LJ.. see how first..

I'm testing LJ now.. Do visit http://smlee4.livejournal.com/ and do anythign you want there, to let me see its capabilities..

Thanks!!

In the meantime, I'll try to post there, and here, until I decide whcih is better.

does it sound alright to stay home all the way till the day i go back to work? few reasons:

1) din jio frns
2) dun wish to go out
3) save money (true anot? or jus an excuse?)
4) finished some undone business (hahaha, i think usually it's written in other way)
5) umm.. do some unfinished business...

mayb the coming wk, i gonna start planning my outings liao.. n enjoy life.. esp last nite, i was wide awake while on the nite rider trip home. i saw a lot of places i nvr walked to, a lot of thigns i had not experienced yet.

umm, purpose of tis blog is to... grumble again.. yes. my youtube subscribers have usually been guys, cos of the vid contents. and i'm glad i saw a number of vids from these subscribers' subscribed/favourites videos. some were fantastic siaz!! but somhow, the ego in mi, at times, told mi i shld nt subscribe.. ahah.. to have a feel of superiority over them... typical leo character huh? but i still subscribed lah.

den, these days, i started to post renfred's vid from ch8 9pm show. gosh, i tink many many young GIRLS (i presumed) subscribed to my vids siazz!! i was stunned and taken aback... i jus fell a bit odd n weird, so many girls "swarmed" to mi... wahliao... nothing bad, but not used to it.. machiam, u at a party, u wan see n knw the guys, suddenly, gers began walking up to u to chat up wif u... (umm.. haha, my imagination got the better of mi, tellya later), when my purpose is to chat up wif guys..

ok, my imagination: u see.. those shows, when a group of gers suddenly walk up and take up ur time.. den in front of u, u see a gorgi (is gorgeous for short, rite? i heard from my oz pal) walk past. u r so taken up by the gers, u din have the chance to stop him n chat him up... lol...

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wah liao, jus a bit of "din-reply-comments" n i kena complaint liao... ok loh..

kevxx: Go LJ Go!! .. switch over!! ,, then you will have lots of comments to reply too!! I;m sure you will prefer LJ to blogspot...

me: ehh... maybe i'll do the switch loh.. test run.. see how... dun like, i blast back at u n demand compensation.. um LJ has an interesting chn definition rite? wat abt BS? 2 bad, it's not BJ.. :P

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kevxx: never reply comments this time?

taiwanese boy .. must be really cute, why didn't you just bring them to the clubs and join them?

me: now i reply liao loh.. i had tat idea oso... but i still had to wait for my frns mah.. tat's my main goal.. anyway, 2 short a time to tink tat much siazz.. i'm nt so experienced in picking up boys mah.. unless u, can give so many suggestions..

now tat i'm home, i did tink of sponsoring tat boy, den the other 2 can split the cost among the 3 of them..

umm, actually, if i'm frnly n outgoing enuff, wif my frns who're quite active in night scenes, i can probably get to knw the bosses etc n.. get some priority queue? lol..

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nae: How did you know they were not straight?

Thanks for writing about the concert! hehe. That was a good read.

me: ehh, guts? it's in TP area.. a well-known gay spot. the funny ting is, when i mentioned the 2 places, 1 of them (not that boy) said they wanna try places around here.. den i told them, we have the same interests...

oh, i forgot to mention, i screamed till my voice turned hoarse.. sigh, it's jus so natural...

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ehh, so where's the anonymous william? r u resting? oh... umm.. ur blog.. later i go read ur review.. haha..

if u noticed the time tat tis blog was written, u may wonder y i'm still awake.. well, in the nn, i took a nap of 3-4 hrs. so still quite awake.

but some unfortunate stuff happened. a newly-made frn said he's holding a bday celebration at a pub at 1130pm, and said he made reservation. so i decided to attend, since i was wide awake. at 9+, i asked again, and he confirmed the pub is still on. so, 11pm, i made my way there. at 1140, i decided to confirm my presence. he din reply. i reached the place at 1205am. i sms him again. still no reply. i even went inside the pub to ask if any1 made reservation under the name i knew him as. no reservation.

den i sms him my findings, and said i'll be leaving in 10 mins time. den.. some nice stuff happened, which will be mentioned abt my grumbling here, n 20 mins passed. no reply. so i went str8 home.. if it was not for the nice stuff, it's really a wasted trip.

nice stuff: as i stood outside the pub, and staring into blank. a trio of guys came over to ask mi which pubs here offer dancing. 1 was a nice looking boy. it was very sudden. i dunno the programs the pubs there offer tonite, so i said i dunno. den i found them, loitering around the area, clueless abt next step. they oso asked a few other passers-by, but i tink no result. but i duno is whether they dunno how to ask properly, or the passers-by dunno wat they asking, or simply nt frnly enuff to ans.

oh ya, from their way of speaking eng, can know they r chinese speakers.

den they still loitering there, dunno wat to do. den, at tis time, i trying hard to rmb, wat places got dancing, where my buddy n mi went during his holiday here. den i rmb its Play, Taboo, and tantric. so, i went up to them.. wah, they abt to cross the road liao siaz!! as i walked to them, tat boy turned back n saw mi. i waved at him. he look in amazement. den i waved again, he then knw i'm waving at him.

i den tok to them wat the places are. i mentioned 2 places, and den exclaimed tat i specially went over to them cos the boy is nice looking. haaah.. at tat pt, the boy offered a handshake, but i was busy telling them the places to visit, n din do anything.

they den took out a paper n pen, and the boy wrote down the info.

hey, visitors n frns, lemme knw if my understanding is correct:
1) tantric, for asians who want to pick up caucasians, a place for drinking.
2) play, for teens.. aged 16-22, for dancing.
3) taboo, for youngsters, but above 22, for dancing.
4) mox, for working class, for drinking.

after writing, i asked for a handshake, den he volunteered to exchange msn whahahha..

he's in singlet.. his armpit is bushy :P i wonder if, i'm too shy... shld i have asked for a hug instead? he from taiwan, and going back on sunday nn. if nt, i'll tell them abt fabulous events siazz. soon after, they r really gone from sight hahaha..

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umm the lady who commented abt the concert, said i din mention anything good abt it. ehh... i tink i shld write something den...

the whole concert really ROCKED with amei!!!!!!!!!!!

i was wif her die-hard fans. once she showed herself, we all jus stood up siazz.. n almost never sat down! her fast songs had everyone wave their neonstix for her, and her ballads had ppl singing along wif her too... funny thing is, tis time, lyrics were shown on tv. it's for fans, or for her to see?! except for guest performers (drumming, big guitar.. or cello), there's not a moment of dullness. everyone was simmply awed by either her power vocals, or emo cords...

screams were abundant. the more emo part came when she sang a rip-off (ren zhen) from her duet wif zhangyusheng. the crowd was not tat familiar wif rip-off ver. but once she switched to the original duet (ai wo de ren, shang wo zui shen), all sang along.

the funny part came when she sang (zhan zai gao gang shang), an aboriginal type of energetic and high power song. cos her male dancers were dressed in only swimwear. i really wonder why siazz..

the hot part was, her male dancers were dressed in professional attired, like doc, biz-man, etc, n they stripped to oni undershirts. den amei appeared, lying seductively on the sofa and flirted wif them.

when the last song finished, she exited. as usual, it's the encore segment. everyone... or our side oni? ie the fans' side.. we stamped the platform heavily, "demanding" her to come out.. at tis point, i think about a handful of crowd starting to leave.. but if they did, they missed out the most valuable part of the performance for sure!!

as we stamped the platform, and shouted for her, the screen asked "do u stil wan some more?" the screaming got louder. den the nex qn "show more energy..." we simply got more excited. the 3rd one "show mi more..." we again screamed n cheered like hell, making it the highest peak for the concert.

n she finalyl re-appeared.. everyone started to go mad.. hahha... the lights were den on, n she started off wif her lovable, but non-hit (ie, it was not promoted as a hit song, but still became 1 of the favourites) slow songs. den she got high, and got everyone, read: EVERYONE SINGLE ONE, to stand up and groove to her songs.

i was all along oni standing n waving to the rhythm. but i felt i need more space, so i stood beside the seats, and jumped n put both hands into the air and cheered for her... it was DARN, superb'ly, unimaginably, super duper wuper, historically high moment. everyone simply enjoyed it!!!

it was defintely the concert of the year. i dun tink anyone else, from any generation, could have done it better... she's the STAR, the ultimate performer for teh stage.

i'm really v tired.... on wed, i slept @ 4am, and i think woke @ 830am on thur. then slept @ 2am. even though i woke at 1045am on fri, i'm still pretty exhausted.. as in, feeling not-wanna move..

ehh.. i intend to try out livejournal... any objections? or any comments?

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newborn - my brother had jus gotten a newborn. wow.. haha, i dun sound happy or excited cos it makes no diff to mi. jus an addition to the family tree. den, yesteryda, when the family visited her (yes, female baby), i felt... many thots running through my brain..

it's a new life, a new life brought into the world.. such an innocent living. sleeping peacefully on the cushion. i'm a buddhist/taoism (supposed to be buddhism, but my frn enlightened me somehow it's taoism). my first impression is, a soul had just been given another living chance, to experience life. i wonder which person joined our family...

new frns - few days ago, in irc, i made some new frns. 1 is a hearing impaired fella. he invited mi to join him for gym. sigh.. i was still at the "onli join goodlookers for gym" mentality. but somehow, they have a group of frns among whom 1 tends to be better looking, haha. later, i decided to join... after the gym, we went to find a frn who's chilling out at his frn's CC somewhere off city.

haha, upon reaching the CC, we walked towards the staircase n we passed a kitchen. in the kitchen was a guy in his thirties. i saw him n vice versa. den as we walk up the stairs, he followed suit. den, when my frn opened the door for us, den i realised he's the owner of the bar... lol... i realyl wonder, if i appeared gay to him earlier on.

den later, HI frn say his frns r joining us... wow.. never did i expect 1 of them to be a good looking guy.. shld i actually say "never expect"?? well, jus din expect a guy to make mi look at him again.. really had a hearty chat there...

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concert - went for amei concert. it's quite refreshing.. amei is still active in the scene. so her concert by right is held every 3-5 years. but i really stil lwant to say, "so long never went to her concert!!" and this time, still going wif her group of die-hard fans. but tis time, i brought 2 frns along. at least it'll nt b boring for mi. somehow, i'm never on close or good terms with them.. haha.. cut the history off.

i have a lot of mixed feeling here. she's supposed to be the diva or taiwan pop sensation. but her news these days surrounded her mental status. that she is having nervous breakdown, and unable to face crowds. it's her 10th anniversary performance. but i soemhow feel that, it could possibly be her last... after that, she may probably slow down, and take a break and come back later. to re-align her goals, and to cater to general market.

i really feel like tis is the last time i gonna see her on stage. her stardom path has not always been very smooth. other divas, sandy lam, faye wong, etc all left the pop scene gradually as their songs do not fit the generation anymore. but staged performances now and then. i'm beginning to feel teh same for amei..

for the scene these days, it seems like, the hip factor has to be there. not so much about how touching and memorable the song is...
in the past, when i was a kid, goodlookers who cant sing for god's sake were IN.
den, gradually, those can sing live, came out
followed by, those who can sing n dance.
later, sing, dance (move a little), and write their own songs
now, everything had become passe. the IN thing is now the hip factor. it's really the "u can make fashion, u get the throne" kinda thing...

amei is from the older generation. her songs are powerful and influential. but the hip factor does not suit her, as she's more of the sing, dance and perform type.

sigh.. see how things go...

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new lease of life? - with my exams over.. n after doing the exam, i'm pretty confident my life will still go on and i'll get a degree, i tink i'm looking forward to a new lease of life. esp when amei concert came out, and it's a totally different type of us. i'm more expressive, more confident, n more knowledge of myself. her concert is telling mi, she's always there for us, and lead a happy and enjoyable life. to mi, it's a break, to relax and then find new direction...

i'm beginning to see my direction in life (not tat clear, but have some ideas), more clear headed abt myself, wat kidna frnds shld exist, etc. i oso knw how to make myself happy n cool. ok.. cut the long story.

wif my degree coming out, i'm expecting a better pay. n i'm kinda financially stabling. wif the sch over, i'm better able to plan my stuff, without worrying abt any pending sch fees. n i'm nt taking life tat seriously.. but still wary of aunties who wanna get fresh..

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anyway, these days no comments posted, so nothing to reply..

Thanks for all your well-wishes

dear all visitors and.. friends,

my exam is finally over.. phew.. thanks for all our well-wishes..

now is the wait for results. If nothign goes wrong, yours truly will be a bachelor.. pun intended

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i'm tired... VERY tired... after exam today, i intended to come home n do some work stuff first, and go swim.. but i ended up finding and searching program to use to edit and join videos in the cheapest way possible. since there's no sun for tanning. luckily, some computer experts have made it very easy ahahha.. computer experts.. but in order to test which 1s are the best for mi, i spent the whole nn n evening manzz.. right now, i'm so darn tired.

for the exam, it's my first time to actually read thru the past yr exam papers siazz. in the past, i jus read the notes n memo the points. so when i look at the exam paper, i'll b stunned at the difficulty of the qns, n scratch my head (dun think wayward). but those times were, i knw wat to study n prepare. tis time, totally lost. anyway, after looking thru n understanding the model ans, i foudn it more of a breeze to tackle the qns. but 1 awkward situation happened. its trivial, so i shan't say. wif the exam now over, and a degree pending for me, do i sense a new lease of life, once again?

sigh, when i was studying for exam, i have a to-do list. now, i'm lost.. i even dun wish to go irc n relax myself sexually. wat's more, err.. have i lost/losing interest in SM??? i saw the vid caps of a new video, but i'm nt.. enticed...

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chris: sounds like you're having a good time. I have a webcam and will have to connect at some point...;-)

me: i sure did!!!

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kevxx: WAH ... win lor .. you on my msn for so long, you never even offer to show me yourself on cam. :(

me: u nvr ask?!?!

my first day of leave... to prep for exam.. when i woke up, totally dun wish to do anything, at a loss of wat to do, actually.. umm. long story short..

1) morn, wnana find ppl for swim, but din manage.

2) went swim myself.. n was cruised by a bottom.. ahha.. it's such a dark sky.. wanna tan oso can't.. but i did knw, i m ready for exam prep..

3) got home, n went irc to kil time, b4 i go lunch.. used webcam as lure.. got some bad experience as usual..

4) den later, my luck got slightly better.. got a few guys keen on mi.. but mi not on them.. but still exchanged msn.. sigh, msn become a tool for webcam. if see on cam liao, nt happy, exit liao.. pending my deletion move.

5) at 5pm, a chubby fella is really kinda interesting.. he say he got cam oso, got mi to wait for quite a while, but cam still nt working. n worse, his response is SIBEI slow.. in the end, i assured him, i'm ok if he no cam n no pic to show.. but again, he forever say "wait".. i thot he bz, or away from pc, in end, he's still there, watching my cam.. den i made the erection. n he's high ahhaha.. n he sounds real nervous siazz.. i not ready to jo, jus to tease him..

6) sigh.. near 7pm, no 1 interest mi yet. just as i was abt to log off from irc, someone msg abt "seeing an exec wear guy on cam".. haha, i immediately msg him, n viola, we're on msn cam.. but the cam feature nt working properly.. he often exited n stuff. i thot he's not keen anymore. but later, found it's my msn prob, cos i restarted n webcam is working..

he's quite cute hahah.. n really in exec wear.. wat's more, he's dirwectly showing his face in cam.. i was oredi stark naked.. n moved my cam to my face.. sigh.. wat gave mi such courage.. cos it's nvr good to link a NAKED body to a face. den he oso praised mi for my good looks.. but he added "it's oni camfun, so dun matter"..

den i tried kinky stuff, by ordering to do things.. haha.. quite fun, he's obedient! later we jo together.. he "came" first.. but into a rubbish bin, so cant see anything. den i "came" oso.. while i still see him on cam.. haha.. pretty fun.. nice looking chap.. hahaha..luckily i stayed on..

den, after everything, i realise tat.. suddenly my msn got 2 ppl who r keen to knw mi better.. or see mi on cam... suddenly got 2 ppl shower mi wif concern..a bit not used.. 1 guy is realyl interested in mi, n wanna knw mi better.. 1 guy is kinda keen to see my body.. haha..

den jus now, another frn... the one who arrange for callboy, suggested having another session wif that thai, since we both like him ahahahah..

the above concludes, i again did not study at all.. ok, i can declare today as a "relaxing" day..

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kevxx:
Maybe he first time mah ... so glances are not enough .. maybe you must initiate and touch him...

And are you getting your lj up? (haha it took me a while to phrase this line)

me: huh? how come took u a while? watz on ur mind??
hey, i did loh.. got hand contact.. maybe next time, i offer my body to be touched "accidentally" haha..

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william: i'm the anonymous who will attend the ah-mei concert. :p. Well sometime just lazy to log-in to the account so just click anonymous.

me: ohh.. william ah.. u dun need to login.. but at least sign ur name mah.. to indicate an identity..

umm.. a number of ppl visit my blog.. n some r going to her concert.. shdl i organise to mit them all near concert area, n head for her concert then? ehh... will i paiseh myself?? such big ego..

nothign to blog.. so, i jus reply comments:

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chris: u should get the newest MSN; then you can do sharing folders and share everything...notti pictures as well as non-notti ones.

me: haha.. yes, i have the latest msn, but.. hahah.. not wise to b shared..

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anonymous: ooh u attend ah-mei concert as well! I will be there as well.

me: ehhh.. how many anonymous ppl out there?? sign off wif a name lei.. if nt, dunno which anonymous u r..

hehe, nice to knw that my blog visitor oso going her concert, but strange.. dunno who u r.. shld i still say "see u there"? ;)

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ah-bong: lol... funny one... lucky u he didnt just come to u and said "wat? gay ah u?" haha

me: whahahaha... wah, u another person to say so directly but so funny sounding. if he say tat, i'll reply "i am, if u wanna touch me"..

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kevxx: Mr anonymous must be regretting like crazy now.. i think he so much wanted to touch you lor .. but you never give him the "you are welcome to do anything you like to me" sign.. so he dare not even touch you...

me: wah liao!!!!! "anythign u like"?? make mi sound so despo!!!
but hey, i did keep throwing glances at him loh.. dun tell mi i wink at him?

sorry to mr anonymous mrt commuter

wow... i'm really lucky today..

first of all, i have to really apologise to the guy.. who was on mrt tis morning... sigh..

i was inside mrt tis morning. packed as usual. i brought my sling bag, n somehow i dun really have the mood to read my papers, so my hands were kinda covering/blocking my privates. so i looked str8-forward. den suddenly, 1 guy in front of mi (he standing perpendicular to mi.. wah long time nvr use TAT word) turned his head to see me. but i was jus looking into his direction. my eye view was jus "finely" looking at his chin.

he look at mi a few times, so i look back 1-2 times. nothign great abt him. avg guy. but again, his response/reaction is quite funny hahah.. cute? perhaps..

den, 1 stop later, the area btwn him n mi is unoccupied. he din move. but we kinda kept exchanging looks.

another stop later, he kinda noticed many ppl wanna get in, SO, he TOOK A BIG STEP in. he;s directly standing in front of mi!! side way still lah. den he's so close tat, his hands were rubbing mine!!! tellya, if i put my hands go, he is VERY VERY prone to touching my private!!

haha, i indeed had that in mind.. see how he react, but .. aiyo, seeing tat so many ppl on train, n duno who's looking where, i dun wan make such a scene siazz.. machiam i so despo n cheap. but my hands are touching his hands, n butt (where the wallet is).

den the next stop, no space to move. but he slightly moved a bit front, n his hands still rubbing mine, but to mi it's an awkward position.. so i placed my hands beside mi. den i think he thot i hinting something. he immediately folded his arms!!

den since he's so near mi... he's always putting his head down. den mi oso slightly down. but every now n den, i use my eyes to look at him. head din move. for a few moments, his head always down, for the next, he put his head up.. machiam "look at mi again if u dare.." ahhaha... it jus makes it even more fun for mi.. i kept looking every now n den.. until he gave up the fight, n looked down again..

he's not gorgeous lah.. jus.. tat.. i enjoy the fun responses and reactions i get from shy guy lol.. or, duno how to block eye-attacks.

ok, y i say, i mus apologise... cos, when i'm reaching my stop, i asked to make way for mi. he den nervously stepped back, giving mi the space i need. but... i atrociously... put my hands beside mi n walked into the space he made, n since he's beside mi, i "conveniently" walked past him, used my arms to BRUSH his chest, n my hands (hanging down) to brush the front of his pants.. i even felt something hard.. not sure if tat's zipper, or.. uh-hem.. but somehow, after i did tat, i seem to notice glances from 2 girls standing near us.. SEEM.. not very sure.. sigh...

very bad of mi hor??

den... another happy thing, during lunch at hawker centre, i ordered 1 plate of chicken rice n 1 pack. no queue there, but the auntie offered to do mine first.. den, u knw.. the plate 1, she even gave mi the drumstick!! so nice hor!!!

haha.. tat's the advantage of looking like a boy whahahah.. n ordering wif manners =D

i had decided to work aggressively over the wkend for my work.. but for the whole morn, i simply... did not feel like it..

anyway, was supposed to go city there, collect amei tshirt to wear to her concert. den as i walked in the crowded city area, i somehow.. felt there was so much life.. it's such an overwhelming feeling!! like.. there's so much energy in ppl, so much liveliness. i suddenly felt, there's so much hope and much things worth living for..

as i felt it, i somehow, had the impression i was about to commit "uh-hem"..but truly i din have that idea. but, the phrases n tone i had in my mind indeed gave mi that feel. i somehow felt there's still so much worth living for.. but, i somehow lack the fighting spirit tat i once had.. is it due to a report tat i din manage to finish, end up some1 did for mi, and i lost self-confidence due to tat?

den, as i met up the group (fans of amei), a few of them were sitting there to chat. i thot mayb i can chat wif them to ... release stress? but ahahah... i sat there for 30 mins, no 1 chatted wif mi.. it's like, i jus sat down, with no 1 noticing mi siazz.. i was not close .. or maybe even familiar with them.. so i guess no 1 tried toking wif mi.. true.. at times, when they were chatting, i cld somehow join in and give some ideas.. but i simply felt there's no pt.. they have a... way of discussing among themselves.. felt tat if i gave my opinions, i'm kinda spoiling the balance. and in a way, the jokes they cracked, i din really find it amusing..

1 amusing part is, when i "announced" my departure, 1 ger say "leave so early"? i din really knw how to reply siazz.. machiam a silence for a few secs. but i still left.

DEN, at the gym (hahah, everytime after a gym session, do i ALWAYS have something to blog????), at the treadmill, i ran at 10k/hr for 25 mins.. was SO tired.. after the run, as i abt to leave, some guy gave mi a despised look lol.. in the sauna, tis time i'm DARN DARN DARN sure, someone was cruising mi siazz.. but same time, i oso look at ppl. even worse, after sauna, i was sitting beside my locker in towel. a guy took off his shirt n put inside locker, i den looked, look n look.. avg body.. but haha.. nice view to see a naked body.

actualyl, wat's the pt of having security guards there har?

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kexx: so easy, we are all connected via the internet.. send over msn leh...

me: har.. my msn can't send lei..

i've just watched Pleasure Factory. with 2 frns, 1 is once in a while will meet. 1 is din meet for yrs. PF seems to be really a porn movie siazz.. watched a lot in my pte room liao.. it's nothing new. it's more of supporting local artiste in his entrance into RA industry in singapore. but true oso, keen to see the 3rd pt in movie screen haha..

i'm surprised.. it's said that, the homo scenes are censored, and oni 1 guy is showing it all.. but 2 guys did, and there're some .. 20 secs of homo scenes still.. wat's really missing is the masturbation scene hahah... n his erected scene.. lol.. but prob is, he's new.. will he really b erected on set?? lemme see if i can get solos..

den today, i was on my company bus to work. still got lotsa seats left. den 1 guy came up n asked if the bus goes to my company, and how much is the fare. 1 LOUD-mouthed cha-bo (not fit to use "lady") said it's for staff transport, and he can take the public bus. wah liao!! so inconsiderate?!?

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nae: Kay that was... very funny! hahaha. the first part. Was going O.o; sometimes....

Why must you label yourself at all?

I thought you have a stable job? Eek. Money is a big problem.

me: lol.. dun expect anythign kinky to happen to me in public, i'm not into tat
i dun tink i'm labelling, it's more of a known thing? as in, if u wnana attract eye balls, u'll def'ly reveal skin to let ppl "OOOOOh". this is gay action to mi. cos they are trying to seek attention..

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kevxx: you very bad lah .. stare until people nervous... and in the end you still never go talk to him.. he must be hoping so hard that you go over and chat with him

me: wah, u tink so highly of mi 1 ah?!? so flattered!!!

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kevxx: i wanna see the photos you took...

me: it's in my computer.. how?

does anyone know wat's happening to mi?

once again, i feel so blur.. and so slow in my tinking.. retarded? perhaps.. losing confidence in myself.. maybe i pressured myself too much? wanted to get results out ASAP, but unable to do so? reproaching myself as a result? getting too involved in thinking of a solution, resulting in unable to think outta box??

suddenly, i feel tat, i'm sometimes pretty creative.. shld i.. after i got my degree, go into design of clothes?? lol..