umm.. continuing ytday's blog about the outing.. it was really a good meet up. received a piece of.. i'll strongly recommend it as good news... but it's hurting to a person... (flashback...)
2 yrs ago, i was living in a rented room.. wif my date, of that time. he felt tat, there's insecurity of being a date, instead of a bf, so he left for another guy. i'm alright wif it. i oso knw tat new bf. the whole group of us even went out together.. but soon, they broke up..
all the while, he's not been sharing the rent wif mi.. when i asked him to share the load, he gave an excuse: his shared account wif his grandma was closed down by her, n he dun have money anymore, so he cant pay. i trusted tat his words are the truth.
i was stupid. i actually did not see thru his lies, and believed tat he has no more money. later, alli know is that, he rented the other room, to live wif a new bf. i dunno how he managed to pay the rent for the room. haha, it's any1's guess. *wink*.
ever since he lived wif this new bf, his life seems to have gotten better. even when i left the place, they re still together..
who knows, 2 yrs later, when i met the frn i mentioned in ytday's blog, haha, he let out a clue, by asking mi exactly wat i thot of this person. it's been 2 yrs, since i last mentioned his name. it took mi some time to rmb wat exactly to say.. but i really... dun have much idea wat to say..
Bad? he's not entirely a bad egg
good? nah, he dun fit the bill, not even a percent.
i can oni comment, he's not a good person.
den... this frn told mi news of this person.
wks back, this frn's pal, took his new bf to meet their group. n.. as fate had it, this new bf turned out to be this.. fateful person who had lived wif mi. and, as heaven would make fun of any1 it likes (to punish), this new bf, saw my frn, n "did not recognise" my frn, and introduced himself as "an animal who has DEEEEEP eyebag" whahaha... i hear liao oso... felt exhilerating! almost every1 in the present, other than the pal, knew him in the past, but had see this person as a newly-met guy?! lol...
n, wat's the more luffable part is, or the part whcih calls for a round of applause, is they broke up a VERY short while later! due to a heated arg. i.. feel bad towards the pal, but felt it's kinda well-deserved for that person. can i say its retribution?
i duno wat happened between them.. but i just felt this person jus likes to use his first-time charm to trick kids.. kids who dunno how to think clearly once they kena a misfire by dear cupid. n once the kids are taken in by him, they are his prey as money spinners. spinners who dun mind tiding him over for the period. cos, love is still blind.
as for his "having a new identity", i have oni this in response:
he can't face up to his past, and want to have a new lease of life. but every part of life has its history. if he's unable to face up to history, it's time for him to figure out why he dare not face up to it. did soemthign wrong? did soemthign bad? against his conscience?
being born wif a handsome face is good. but it's not enuff. it gives ppl the first good impression. after tat, u gotta have the character and persnality, and depth within youself to carry on the good impression, or to leave a better impression. if u dun learn ur ways, it takes good karma (ahah, why am i using this term?) to carry on ur good life. or risk losing it...
everyone has their own designated path to take. hope tat his.. wil lead to a good ... i mean, hope his path wil get better..
havign said these, i still can't forgive him for wat he did. i'm usually very soft hearted (any1 disagree?). it takes really a heavy blow to make my heart root its stand.
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den about the movie dreamgirl.. the storyline.. can say is boring.. but it has the good sides n truth in it... to mi, of cos. as it shows how a pop group can break up due to commercial interests, and how the lead singer can be a mere good looker, but not necessarily the better singer among them. see, i din mentioned "best singer"... ehh, nvm.. dunno wat i trying to imply.. or rather how i shld imply..
in the movie, jennifer is the best n most devoted singer in the group. her voice is her talent n is inborne. but she has to be replaced by her team mate who has the looks. singing-wise, ok lah, but jenn is still the winner. i admire her "i knwo my talents n i knw where i stand in the group, n how far i shld be able to move on" knowledge.
n true enuff, when she was ostracised by her team, she was not cool enuff and blurted some hurtful words. but it's not her fault. she had been had.
in the end, she left the group, and left a poor life, but it's a dignity'ed life. when she finally found the person who willingly stage her comeback, she realsied she was wrong in the past n was willing to change. i felt her voice, and felt it inside mi.. whenever she sings, every little punch n vibration n note reaches deep inside mi...
when i saw that, her song, popular in her town, was remixed n released as a popular national song, i saw how injustice was done to the original singer. however, i blif in thes days, the original singers were paid a tribute sum? to recognise their effort...
it seems to be just my story... being so much in love wif singing. but i've no confidence in myself. n she's so emotionally charged whenver she sings... i admire tat...
i'm thinking of getting it's vcd... or maybe ost..
n ya, i dinno she's USA idol dropout. i was surprised tat, someone wif her voice is acting. n during the credit rolling, i thot i missed her part, at teh start, ... den i realised she was specially intro'ed... "And introducing .... Jennifer Hudson"..
cool... hope she can make it this time to the music scene.. a good voice... still needs good songs to accompany it... :)
Friday, February 23, 2007
barbarian dress
Fwd: barbarian dress
Originally uploaded by luv_ktv.
the top guy is a joker l;ah... a comedic TV artiste...
the bottom guy.. supposed to be idolistic artiste.. meaning, they cant have too much exposure of their skin to maintain that youthful n innocent feel.. but he was tricked to show his chest lol..
trapped
hopefully this post of pic turns out good...
umm.. long time since i took the pic.. i like the way the guy is unconscious and lying in the capsule... looks so vulnerable!!!
Monday, February 19, 2007
what do you do when a cute cousin of yours is together with you in your room?
the answer...
Nothing. Just make sure he's comfortable in your room and company.
lol.. tis is wat's happening to me.. my cousin (more than a decade younger than urs truly) is cute, and adorable.. he's in my room. watching a tv program. of cos i had thot of teasing him.. but.. i've seen on tv, how such acts suffer consequences later. i dun wan the same thing to happen to mi.. haha.. imagine... a cousin who's the age of an uncle to him in the same room as him.. i'm bad, yes.
but.. i think, for myself, the little exposure to social outing and gathering has affected mi. cos today, my same-age cousin came over.. den i dunno wat to do how to react. jus pacing up n down my house. finally, when things r more settled, i asked this same-age cousin to sit nearer for a chat..
n.. i duno whether this is a realistic n okay thinking or not.. i intend to.. every yr, go for a holiday somewhere.. for a period.. maybe a week? den every cny, i'll use a new cologne.. n.. perhaps when i reach 30, i'll voluntarily give out red packets to relatives' kids... hehe...
the answer...
Nothing. Just make sure he's comfortable in your room and company.
lol.. tis is wat's happening to me.. my cousin (more than a decade younger than urs truly) is cute, and adorable.. he's in my room. watching a tv program. of cos i had thot of teasing him.. but.. i've seen on tv, how such acts suffer consequences later. i dun wan the same thing to happen to mi.. haha.. imagine... a cousin who's the age of an uncle to him in the same room as him.. i'm bad, yes.
but.. i think, for myself, the little exposure to social outing and gathering has affected mi. cos today, my same-age cousin came over.. den i dunno wat to do how to react. jus pacing up n down my house. finally, when things r more settled, i asked this same-age cousin to sit nearer for a chat..
n.. i duno whether this is a realistic n okay thinking or not.. i intend to.. every yr, go for a holiday somewhere.. for a period.. maybe a week? den every cny, i'll use a new cologne.. n.. perhaps when i reach 30, i'll voluntarily give out red packets to relatives' kids... hehe...
Sunday, February 18, 2007
on the first night of CNY, i finally got some time to blog.. umm.. pix wise.. duno yet..
frns
a lot of acquaintances n frns n pals made mi into wat i am today.. n nw i truly knw wat tis means. so, i'll treasure most of the frnship i have.. n oso had. most, cos some 'ships are passers-by. they are not meant to be long term. some r jus hi-bye type..
a new direction for life
since i joined my company last jul (2006 ie), i've not been going out wif my frns at all.. be it local, or frns who came over. the last time i went out on a weekday.. was during my bday.. or perhaps tat was the most enjoyable time out wif some frns/pals to enjoy the time. after tat, i nvr had time to enjoy this luxury, yes luxury, again.
everyday is abt work n studies n exams. for the whole period. from jul or aug till now. everyday, nonstop. even on wkends, i can't help stop thinking abt how else i can bettter prepare myself for the next (working) day. no life. no movie. no calling frns up for catching up.
no life, cos i nvr go out.. always stay home to prepare myself work.. i knw i was bogged down by studies n work, so i feel it's better to take time to read up work stuff..
no movie.. i forgot when did i last watch movie in cinema siazz.. unless i go back to my "loner" lifestyle.. watching is the same as the next line..
no catching up wif frns... sighzz.. u knw.. i can't even confirm wat time i can leave ofice.. ie i dunno if i can leave office on time, or have to work late due to surprises.. somtimes, we doing soemthign, which i intend to carry on next day. den my upperstudy will say "tis needs to be done tdy"..
tat y i din realy dare to make any arrangement.. until now, i feel as though i'm living in solitude.. for half a yr, nvr ask frns out.. luckily during xmas n ny, a pal invited mi to his parties.. if not, very likely, i spend these 2 days alone at home.. haha.. watching TV.. cos i tried asking other frns join, but they all got plans liao.. even my poly frns..
a new direction for life
n perhaps it's cos i've been living in solitude for half a yr, trying to contact back my frns has proved to be tedious.. i admit tat, since i din tok to them or ask them out for long time, it's alright for them to, not prioritise my outing wif them.. so i can oni keep trying..
at the same time, i wonder if it's a sign for tell mi, i shld move on, n make new frns... well, true, every1 shld make new frns at every opportunity.. even on frnster updates, i can see ppl adding new frns all so often.. but mine, jus S I L E N C E... but as i mentioned earlier, i haven got time to go out at all.. perhaps.. it's a sign for mi to move on, make new frns, have a new lease of life.
easier said than done. if i wan make new frns, i need to either join new outings (gay or not no issue), ask my frns out, join those outings planned by my office frns.. this is the mafan part.. cos joining those outings, mean i cant b my true self.. which means i have to act a bit.. sianzz.. n each of these r.. hard to start.. but i knw i still have to do it..
love / frns
after a long 26 years of living, experimenting, experiencing, thinking, i somehow have come to a conclusion abt myself.. about differenting and separating love n frns.. as a gay, sex is often the priority when we see attractive guys.. personally, as someone who has the looks n body size (fig shall not be mentioned here lol) to attract many ppl, i have to find a way to balance between seeking sex (wif ppl), fulfilling my strong sexual urge, n knowing new frns.. cos if new frns are gay, it's very likely to.. have mutual atrraction.. esp when i've not been going out for a long time. any guy who dresses up n look decent will catch my eye(s). i have to control myself... n i've strong sex urges.. i dun wan to prostitute myself.. like in the past.. i duno how i gonna fulfil them nw, but i will not wanna pro myself anymore.. probably go some... massage n.. relax there? dunno.. or get some call boys?? lol..
n now, i'm more inclined to having frns.. maybe i duno how to.. choose whether a person shld b frn or ons.. but if given a choice, i wil need to learn who shld b frn, who shld b ons guy...
malay movie
i was watching a malay movie from suria jus now..:
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Sepet (Movie)
19-year old Ah Loong is in charge of a stall selling pirated vcds. Contrary to what you might expect someone of his social standing to be, Ah Loong is an incurable romantic with an unlikely hobby - he loves to read and write poetry. Quite content to carry on being the Romeo of the slums, Ah Loong's life takes a sudden turn one day when a 16-year old Malay schoolgirl arrives at his stall in search of Wong Kar-Wai's films.
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i missed the first 18 mins of the show. when i saw it while channel surfing, i oni saw a beng guy doing renovation for a house wif his frns. he was topless when confronted by gangsters... i like him.. n watched on.. den it turned out to be a movie.. i went to suria n read the synopsis.. quite interesting ahha.. n watched on. quite a classical young couple love story.. i never experienced it. but it's quite a sweet feeling.. i wonder y i never had it.. i admit i was stubborn, ignorant, unappreciative, n slow.. but.. i never had anyone nice enough to guide me along.. to tell mi more about life.. or was i 2 slow to even realise it?.. anyway, the sweet feel is real nice..
den towards the end, the guy did something wrong, n the ger din realise the guy had been repenting only in the last 5 mins of the show. the guy was rushign over in his bike to ask the ger not to leave country. the ger den was reading a letter by him. 1 can see tat the guy is really trying hard to make her return..
at tis point, i thot of my last ex... the koala bear.. lol.. is the shadow still dragging my feet? haha... i tried to make a u-turn of the situation, but it din help.. destiny?
anyway, just hope tat tis yr onwards will be my.. "end of bad luck"...
sleep.
frns
a lot of acquaintances n frns n pals made mi into wat i am today.. n nw i truly knw wat tis means. so, i'll treasure most of the frnship i have.. n oso had. most, cos some 'ships are passers-by. they are not meant to be long term. some r jus hi-bye type..
a new direction for life
since i joined my company last jul (2006 ie), i've not been going out wif my frns at all.. be it local, or frns who came over. the last time i went out on a weekday.. was during my bday.. or perhaps tat was the most enjoyable time out wif some frns/pals to enjoy the time. after tat, i nvr had time to enjoy this luxury, yes luxury, again.
everyday is abt work n studies n exams. for the whole period. from jul or aug till now. everyday, nonstop. even on wkends, i can't help stop thinking abt how else i can bettter prepare myself for the next (working) day. no life. no movie. no calling frns up for catching up.
no life, cos i nvr go out.. always stay home to prepare myself work.. i knw i was bogged down by studies n work, so i feel it's better to take time to read up work stuff..
no movie.. i forgot when did i last watch movie in cinema siazz.. unless i go back to my "loner" lifestyle.. watching is the same as the next line..
no catching up wif frns... sighzz.. u knw.. i can't even confirm wat time i can leave ofice.. ie i dunno if i can leave office on time, or have to work late due to surprises.. somtimes, we doing soemthign, which i intend to carry on next day. den my upperstudy will say "tis needs to be done tdy"..
tat y i din realy dare to make any arrangement.. until now, i feel as though i'm living in solitude.. for half a yr, nvr ask frns out.. luckily during xmas n ny, a pal invited mi to his parties.. if not, very likely, i spend these 2 days alone at home.. haha.. watching TV.. cos i tried asking other frns join, but they all got plans liao.. even my poly frns..
a new direction for life
n perhaps it's cos i've been living in solitude for half a yr, trying to contact back my frns has proved to be tedious.. i admit tat, since i din tok to them or ask them out for long time, it's alright for them to, not prioritise my outing wif them.. so i can oni keep trying..
at the same time, i wonder if it's a sign for tell mi, i shld move on, n make new frns... well, true, every1 shld make new frns at every opportunity.. even on frnster updates, i can see ppl adding new frns all so often.. but mine, jus S I L E N C E... but as i mentioned earlier, i haven got time to go out at all.. perhaps.. it's a sign for mi to move on, make new frns, have a new lease of life.
easier said than done. if i wan make new frns, i need to either join new outings (gay or not no issue), ask my frns out, join those outings planned by my office frns.. this is the mafan part.. cos joining those outings, mean i cant b my true self.. which means i have to act a bit.. sianzz.. n each of these r.. hard to start.. but i knw i still have to do it..
love / frns
after a long 26 years of living, experimenting, experiencing, thinking, i somehow have come to a conclusion abt myself.. about differenting and separating love n frns.. as a gay, sex is often the priority when we see attractive guys.. personally, as someone who has the looks n body size (fig shall not be mentioned here lol) to attract many ppl, i have to find a way to balance between seeking sex (wif ppl), fulfilling my strong sexual urge, n knowing new frns.. cos if new frns are gay, it's very likely to.. have mutual atrraction.. esp when i've not been going out for a long time. any guy who dresses up n look decent will catch my eye(s). i have to control myself... n i've strong sex urges.. i dun wan to prostitute myself.. like in the past.. i duno how i gonna fulfil them nw, but i will not wanna pro myself anymore.. probably go some... massage n.. relax there? dunno.. or get some call boys?? lol..
n now, i'm more inclined to having frns.. maybe i duno how to.. choose whether a person shld b frn or ons.. but if given a choice, i wil need to learn who shld b frn, who shld b ons guy...
malay movie
i was watching a malay movie from suria jus now..:
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Sepet (Movie)
19-year old Ah Loong is in charge of a stall selling pirated vcds. Contrary to what you might expect someone of his social standing to be, Ah Loong is an incurable romantic with an unlikely hobby - he loves to read and write poetry. Quite content to carry on being the Romeo of the slums, Ah Loong's life takes a sudden turn one day when a 16-year old Malay schoolgirl arrives at his stall in search of Wong Kar-Wai's films.
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i missed the first 18 mins of the show. when i saw it while channel surfing, i oni saw a beng guy doing renovation for a house wif his frns. he was topless when confronted by gangsters... i like him.. n watched on.. den it turned out to be a movie.. i went to suria n read the synopsis.. quite interesting ahha.. n watched on. quite a classical young couple love story.. i never experienced it. but it's quite a sweet feeling.. i wonder y i never had it.. i admit i was stubborn, ignorant, unappreciative, n slow.. but.. i never had anyone nice enough to guide me along.. to tell mi more about life.. or was i 2 slow to even realise it?.. anyway, the sweet feel is real nice..
den towards the end, the guy did something wrong, n the ger din realise the guy had been repenting only in the last 5 mins of the show. the guy was rushign over in his bike to ask the ger not to leave country. the ger den was reading a letter by him. 1 can see tat the guy is really trying hard to make her return..
at tis point, i thot of my last ex... the koala bear.. lol.. is the shadow still dragging my feet? haha... i tried to make a u-turn of the situation, but it din help.. destiny?
anyway, just hope tat tis yr onwards will be my.. "end of bad luck"...
sleep.
Friday, February 16, 2007
is a ger's 6th sense really very accurate?
cos, at my office, got 1 beng guy who's quite cute.. he's got a gf.. n to mi, the ger is jus "his gf" or "someone who works in the company".
den, got 1 time, on work day, the gf n mi were on the bus for lunch. she passed by mi. but i was jus doing nothing, so din wave at her.. she maybe took note of mi, but din do anything.
den next day, while waiting for bus, mi n the cute beng wre chatting away. my eyes were on her somehow. den i saw her eyes giving mi tat "bochap" look.
n today, after lunch, we were buying something. the guy asked how come i buy the wrapped cracker (gua zi), and for eating in office? i said yes, den he a bit surprised.. den chatted a bit wif him.. the ger den said, ppl like it wat.. why care so much?
den i felt as though we/i ignoring her siazz.. n she was originally walking beside her. den she just walked faster n left us alone siazz...
did she detect something amiss??
cos, at my office, got 1 beng guy who's quite cute.. he's got a gf.. n to mi, the ger is jus "his gf" or "someone who works in the company".
den, got 1 time, on work day, the gf n mi were on the bus for lunch. she passed by mi. but i was jus doing nothing, so din wave at her.. she maybe took note of mi, but din do anything.
den next day, while waiting for bus, mi n the cute beng wre chatting away. my eyes were on her somehow. den i saw her eyes giving mi tat "bochap" look.
n today, after lunch, we were buying something. the guy asked how come i buy the wrapped cracker (gua zi), and for eating in office? i said yes, den he a bit surprised.. den chatted a bit wif him.. the ger den said, ppl like it wat.. why care so much?
den i felt as though we/i ignoring her siazz.. n she was originally walking beside her. den she just walked faster n left us alone siazz...
did she detect something amiss??
Sunday, February 11, 2007
lol.. i mentioned before.. tat ppl learn only thru mistakes n experience..
i watched "turn left, turn right" 2nd time. somehow, the first time i watch it, it's a movie tat talks about how fate plays around with 2 persons' lives. n how coincidence plays a part in life..
today, is 2nd time. the feeling is diff.. it's about how unfortunate the folks are.. how their lives r twisted by fate. how they feel, n how i'll react if it happens to me. i really feel it..
somehow, for mi, my luck wif romance seems to have ended... i gladly accept my fate.. it made mi realise how impt frnship is.. how fragile relns are.. it made mi realise how long r frnship compared to anything else.. n y we shld treasure every frn we make, cos everythign tat happens in our life has a meaning n a purpose. every lil experience, no matter how insignificant or pointless it is, always teach us somethign. it depends on whether we r willing to see wat we can learn from it..
n.. today, interesting things happen oso... luckily, i overcame my fears n went for my plans.. :)
i watched "turn left, turn right" 2nd time. somehow, the first time i watch it, it's a movie tat talks about how fate plays around with 2 persons' lives. n how coincidence plays a part in life..
today, is 2nd time. the feeling is diff.. it's about how unfortunate the folks are.. how their lives r twisted by fate. how they feel, n how i'll react if it happens to me. i really feel it..
somehow, for mi, my luck wif romance seems to have ended... i gladly accept my fate.. it made mi realise how impt frnship is.. how fragile relns are.. it made mi realise how long r frnship compared to anything else.. n y we shld treasure every frn we make, cos everythign tat happens in our life has a meaning n a purpose. every lil experience, no matter how insignificant or pointless it is, always teach us somethign. it depends on whether we r willing to see wat we can learn from it..
n.. today, interesting things happen oso... luckily, i overcame my fears n went for my plans.. :)
Saturday, February 10, 2007
cool... friday was quite a happy day for mi at work... real happy :)
n.. watched another series of videos.. or shld i say, a video that has many short stories?? hehe...
n now, i have another story in mind.. umm... how many have i thot of so far??? how to keep track??
the story goes:
a policeman is patrolling the streets. the street appeared quite ok, normal. then, a guy suddenly runs up to him, tells him of a fight in the lane.. and rushes him to go over to stop the fight. the police den runs with the guy to the scene.
upon reaching an alley, the police only see 3 guys sitting, chatting n smoking away. and they start walking up to him. the police tries to (i dunno how a police normally react.. i anyhow say) warn them to stop.. they dun care.. they walked faster...
the police den starts to retreat.. the guys now run up to him n grab him, n lock his arms n legs... seeing that he can't retaliate... they drag him to a corner... whahaha...
bad mi hor?
n.. watched another series of videos.. or shld i say, a video that has many short stories?? hehe...
n now, i have another story in mind.. umm... how many have i thot of so far??? how to keep track??
the story goes:
a policeman is patrolling the streets. the street appeared quite ok, normal. then, a guy suddenly runs up to him, tells him of a fight in the lane.. and rushes him to go over to stop the fight. the police den runs with the guy to the scene.
upon reaching an alley, the police only see 3 guys sitting, chatting n smoking away. and they start walking up to him. the police tries to (i dunno how a police normally react.. i anyhow say) warn them to stop.. they dun care.. they walked faster...
the police den starts to retreat.. the guys now run up to him n grab him, n lock his arms n legs... seeing that he can't retaliate... they drag him to a corner... whahaha...
bad mi hor?
Sunday, February 04, 2007
hello chris... thanks for ur kind words :)
this scenario makes mi wonder... am i having (too) high expectations of myself? ie, i wan to make everythign perfect.. when things go awry, i feel bad.. or.. could it be caused by "i wanna meet my boss' expectations" mindset? 'cos i mentioned b4, during my confession to her, she told mi, she wanted mi to surpass wat my upperstudy cna do.. but i failed.. yes, i can improve n better the present me, but.. jus felt bad tat i cause them/her to worry abt such thigns..
this scenario makes mi wonder... am i having (too) high expectations of myself? ie, i wan to make everythign perfect.. when things go awry, i feel bad.. or.. could it be caused by "i wanna meet my boss' expectations" mindset? 'cos i mentioned b4, during my confession to her, she told mi, she wanted mi to surpass wat my upperstudy cna do.. but i failed.. yes, i can improve n better the present me, but.. jus felt bad tat i cause them/her to worry abt such thigns..
wah... my first time siazz!! dun think wayward!!
sunday morning, during cny period, my house almost kena burglar-ed siaz!! about 8+ morning, while i still sleeping, i heard the doorbell pressed 3 times.. i thot the usual newspaper vendor came for payment.. n wld leave if no response. so i din bother waking up, as usually mum wld open the door n entertain them. but mum was out for work.
but no loh!!! after no response, i dozed off, n later i heard the doorbell again!! tis tiem, i suspect something is wrong n got up.. i silently left my room n went to see if any1 is still at the void deck. true.. got someone leaning at the corridor. my sis oso came out from her room, n told mi wat happened.. she oso noticed tat the person kept presing the bell. she wondered if the person is an unwelcomed relative of ours, thus she din have further action.
so i monitored him, until he pressed the bell again.. he's a stranger! n wat's more, he even tried to open the main door siazz!!! u knw, conventional flats got the gate, n the door.. gate is locked (phew!) n luckily the main door oso locked!! so his attempts to open door was futile. but he tried opening not jus once, but a few times loh!! so brave! when his identity is confirmed to be stranger, i wanna call the police (my first response lol), but sis said to open door n ask wat he wan.
so i opened door n he said he's there to repair pc.. n i told him we nvr called anyone. he den started looking into our hse.. n said he was here yesterday n was talking to the boss. but i asked him for the name, n he cant give oso. later he even asked for the floor siazz!! when he knw he cant get anything, he left..
we den decided to call police.. nw.. tis is the SAD part...
cos later when police came, i opened the door, the 2 male police saw mi, n greeted mi.. 1 sec later, they saw mi sis, n started asking her instead.. wahhhhh, i really look so kiddy to them meh?!??!? anyway, none r good lookers, so forget abt them..
haha.. later, i started to think back... the burglar mentioned he repair pc.. let's say, if i skilled in taekwondo or karate, n the burglar loooks good, i may jus invite him in... the story follows:
he say he repair pc.. so i let him in. when he's in, but din act yet, i'll look the door first. if he threatens, i'll kick him aside n lock the door. after locking...
scene 1: he dun act yet.
i invite him in n lead him to a room, but he suddenly bring out his knife, den i subdue him n say, "i'm a karate expert, u think u can win mi? i let u in, cos u r cute. nothign here need repair". he surely stunned.. but too bad, no way leave the plc.. den i force him to strip n have fun lol...
scene 2: he threatens mi.
i invite him in, but before i lock the door, he pulls out his knife. so i push/kick him away locks the door n repeat the line above..
wahahaha...
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ok, forget abt the kinky stuff. discussed wif my sis, n realised a few lessons to be learnt:
1) the person is nt smart enuff to say he repair pc. cos we can easily call to chk.
2) we shld always call the authorities to verify his identity. wat's more, he came up without any prior apptmt.
3) when we checking him out, the door shld nt open entirely. shld b ajar...
haha, maybe i was not awake enuff siazz
sunday morning, during cny period, my house almost kena burglar-ed siaz!! about 8+ morning, while i still sleeping, i heard the doorbell pressed 3 times.. i thot the usual newspaper vendor came for payment.. n wld leave if no response. so i din bother waking up, as usually mum wld open the door n entertain them. but mum was out for work.
but no loh!!! after no response, i dozed off, n later i heard the doorbell again!! tis tiem, i suspect something is wrong n got up.. i silently left my room n went to see if any1 is still at the void deck. true.. got someone leaning at the corridor. my sis oso came out from her room, n told mi wat happened.. she oso noticed tat the person kept presing the bell. she wondered if the person is an unwelcomed relative of ours, thus she din have further action.
so i monitored him, until he pressed the bell again.. he's a stranger! n wat's more, he even tried to open the main door siazz!!! u knw, conventional flats got the gate, n the door.. gate is locked (phew!) n luckily the main door oso locked!! so his attempts to open door was futile. but he tried opening not jus once, but a few times loh!! so brave! when his identity is confirmed to be stranger, i wanna call the police (my first response lol), but sis said to open door n ask wat he wan.
so i opened door n he said he's there to repair pc.. n i told him we nvr called anyone. he den started looking into our hse.. n said he was here yesterday n was talking to the boss. but i asked him for the name, n he cant give oso. later he even asked for the floor siazz!! when he knw he cant get anything, he left..
we den decided to call police.. nw.. tis is the SAD part...
cos later when police came, i opened the door, the 2 male police saw mi, n greeted mi.. 1 sec later, they saw mi sis, n started asking her instead.. wahhhhh, i really look so kiddy to them meh?!??!? anyway, none r good lookers, so forget abt them..
haha.. later, i started to think back... the burglar mentioned he repair pc.. let's say, if i skilled in taekwondo or karate, n the burglar loooks good, i may jus invite him in... the story follows:
he say he repair pc.. so i let him in. when he's in, but din act yet, i'll look the door first. if he threatens, i'll kick him aside n lock the door. after locking...
scene 1: he dun act yet.
i invite him in n lead him to a room, but he suddenly bring out his knife, den i subdue him n say, "i'm a karate expert, u think u can win mi? i let u in, cos u r cute. nothign here need repair". he surely stunned.. but too bad, no way leave the plc.. den i force him to strip n have fun lol...
scene 2: he threatens mi.
i invite him in, but before i lock the door, he pulls out his knife. so i push/kick him away locks the door n repeat the line above..
wahahaha...
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ok, forget abt the kinky stuff. discussed wif my sis, n realised a few lessons to be learnt:
1) the person is nt smart enuff to say he repair pc. cos we can easily call to chk.
2) we shld always call the authorities to verify his identity. wat's more, he came up without any prior apptmt.
3) when we checking him out, the door shld nt open entirely. shld b ajar...
haha, maybe i was not awake enuff siazz
Saturday, February 03, 2007
have i not had the luxury of bloggin for a long time, tat's y i got mucho to tell??
anyway, jus watched some shows, proper n improper, n had this thot:
if a crime suspect is being interrogated in a room, and he simply wun confess, will there be someone who asks all other ppl to leave the rm, leaving the main policeman n the suspect alone in the room? the suspect is handcuffed, to the chair, n the police starts to strip him..
if this is not exciting enuff...
in the room of 3 police n 1 suspect, the room is locked. seeing tat the suspect wun confess, they grabbed him off his seat n pushes him to the wall, n ties his arm to both sides of the wall, so tat his arms r wide spread. they den start teasing his body. he retaliates by trying to kick them away. but they grabbed n held on to his legs whle they are in mid air n spread his legs apart as well. n gagged him.
they caressed his legs from sole to kneecap, he den struggled wif his legs. they den used the baton to lightly bump his groin area n shove his testes area. n used it to circle round his chest. he was unzipped n the pte area was "waking up". they continued teasing it wif the baton.
then they tied his legs to the ground, in a spread eagle manner. they den began to lift up his top n caressed his body.. n pulled down his pants...
hahahah.. carry on the fantasy from there!!
anyway, jus watched some shows, proper n improper, n had this thot:
if a crime suspect is being interrogated in a room, and he simply wun confess, will there be someone who asks all other ppl to leave the rm, leaving the main policeman n the suspect alone in the room? the suspect is handcuffed, to the chair, n the police starts to strip him..
if this is not exciting enuff...
in the room of 3 police n 1 suspect, the room is locked. seeing tat the suspect wun confess, they grabbed him off his seat n pushes him to the wall, n ties his arm to both sides of the wall, so tat his arms r wide spread. they den start teasing his body. he retaliates by trying to kick them away. but they grabbed n held on to his legs whle they are in mid air n spread his legs apart as well. n gagged him.
they caressed his legs from sole to kneecap, he den struggled wif his legs. they den used the baton to lightly bump his groin area n shove his testes area. n used it to circle round his chest. he was unzipped n the pte area was "waking up". they continued teasing it wif the baton.
then they tied his legs to the ground, in a spread eagle manner. they den began to lift up his top n caressed his body.. n pulled down his pants...
hahahah.. carry on the fantasy from there!!
as mentioned earlier, i din feel like going gym.. as i bought my lunch, i suddenly thot of wat's happening to my life.. i'm really confused.. or kinda confused.. (it really takes courage to review on urself) in the past, when i applied for jobs, i stated tat my dream is to develop a program that is user frnly n without hiccups.. now, i did.. but just tat, my thinking is not the same as the sup's, so need to change.. i guess i need to get used to it..
another thing is, batch files.. i have not much exp wif it.. but managed to develop a nice file within 1 wk.. i'm impressed.. unfortunately, the boss saw some loop holes in it. i really din expect negative side to take place.. but yes, she alerted mi tat, i shld prepare for it to happen.. tis is perhaps wat we call, QA.. we shld not expect things to flow smoothly n shld b prepared for unexpected scenarios...
n.. tis is causing mi the confusion.. i'm havign conflicts:
1) i wan to produce an almost-flawless.. or rather, flawless system within my scope.
2) i feel disappointed when errors are found
3) i feel great when i manage to resolve errors
4) i become lazy or.. despair when my program meet problem.
5) i want my program to be flawless, but at times, i simply give myself a "never mind, it's alright" response.
6) somehow i feel i'm getting too used to a comfy 9-6 job, n simply wana leave when tiem is up.. or maybe.. cos many ppl r leaving on time, i find it quite odd tat i stayed late.. although i knw i have to finish wat's expected of mi..
sighzzz...
another thing is, batch files.. i have not much exp wif it.. but managed to develop a nice file within 1 wk.. i'm impressed.. unfortunately, the boss saw some loop holes in it. i really din expect negative side to take place.. but yes, she alerted mi tat, i shld prepare for it to happen.. tis is perhaps wat we call, QA.. we shld not expect things to flow smoothly n shld b prepared for unexpected scenarios...
n.. tis is causing mi the confusion.. i'm havign conflicts:
1) i wan to produce an almost-flawless.. or rather, flawless system within my scope.
2) i feel disappointed when errors are found
3) i feel great when i manage to resolve errors
4) i become lazy or.. despair when my program meet problem.
5) i want my program to be flawless, but at times, i simply give myself a "never mind, it's alright" response.
6) somehow i feel i'm getting too used to a comfy 9-6 job, n simply wana leave when tiem is up.. or maybe.. cos many ppl r leaving on time, i find it quite odd tat i stayed late.. although i knw i have to finish wat's expected of mi..
sighzzz...
am i tired out?
i dunno... jus tat these days, i'm again living in solitude.. haha.. when i'm stressed or too occupied with something, i tend to just "forget abt asking frns out.." cos... stress?
but this time, i knw why.. 'cos we sometimes have to rush production on our side.. n i dunno when i cna make it, when i cant. i mentioned that, i helped a nsf pay off his "debts".. tat's a gd example too. cos tat day, my upperstudy (toking abt her.. maybe she really stressed out tis time.. i managed to rmb things she din haha) n i were checking some stuff.. i thot i will finish soon.. but end up working longer... ya, i knw it's expected.. tat y i dunno when i am really free..
and... sigh, ytday, i was so happy tat i had nothing much left to do.. den suddenly my sup came over n said, he wanna change some logic in the program... den later, my boss came over to tok abt other issues, she n i realised tat, the logic can be further improved... i felt i let her down.. n since tat moment, my mind is totally blank.. i dunno if i too tired, stressed out, stunned, or wat.. i really duno wat happened... until tis mornign, i din even feel like going gym..
somehow ,its like "a wk seems to end perfectly, but some hiccups happened.."
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thsee days, i seem to be losing my thinking edge... i dun mean those thinking n planning type... but at least to thnk further at a more matured level.. i duno how to put it, but i cant seem to read what other ppl are doing.. or guess their thoughts.. am i 2 stressed out? umm, maybe i mean, i seem to only do wat is required, not wat can b done further..
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anyway, i was toking abt a movie.. an anime.. which touched my heart.. i din catch thef irst part, cos it was not my intention to watch anime.. the summary as follows:
a (7-8 yo) ger's parents were kidnapped to a magical world, and transformed into pigs in a farm. the ger went into the world as well n tried her best to be employed by the employer of the place. she was den assigned to help out in the bathtub. during her stay there, she made a couple of frns.. n all these were unique in their own ways. 1 lady even thot for her own future. she oso got to know a guy who.. she met before.
thru her innocence n kindness, she managed to give a new lease of life to almost everyone she met. in the end, she managed to do a good deed and the employer decided to give her a chance to save her parents. she needs to find her parents, who have turned into pigs, among the whole... herd of pigs.
n.. ya she did it.. n she is allowed to leave the place wif her parents.. before leaving, she asked if the guy is leaving oso.. the guy says, since they met before, they surely would meet again.. n off she went... back to her world.. the movie ended wif a happy tuned folk music... somehow it struck a chord in me..
i dunno... jus tat these days, i'm again living in solitude.. haha.. when i'm stressed or too occupied with something, i tend to just "forget abt asking frns out.." cos... stress?
but this time, i knw why.. 'cos we sometimes have to rush production on our side.. n i dunno when i cna make it, when i cant. i mentioned that, i helped a nsf pay off his "debts".. tat's a gd example too. cos tat day, my upperstudy (toking abt her.. maybe she really stressed out tis time.. i managed to rmb things she din haha) n i were checking some stuff.. i thot i will finish soon.. but end up working longer... ya, i knw it's expected.. tat y i dunno when i am really free..
and... sigh, ytday, i was so happy tat i had nothing much left to do.. den suddenly my sup came over n said, he wanna change some logic in the program... den later, my boss came over to tok abt other issues, she n i realised tat, the logic can be further improved... i felt i let her down.. n since tat moment, my mind is totally blank.. i dunno if i too tired, stressed out, stunned, or wat.. i really duno wat happened... until tis mornign, i din even feel like going gym..
somehow ,its like "a wk seems to end perfectly, but some hiccups happened.."
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thsee days, i seem to be losing my thinking edge... i dun mean those thinking n planning type... but at least to thnk further at a more matured level.. i duno how to put it, but i cant seem to read what other ppl are doing.. or guess their thoughts.. am i 2 stressed out? umm, maybe i mean, i seem to only do wat is required, not wat can b done further..
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anyway, i was toking abt a movie.. an anime.. which touched my heart.. i din catch thef irst part, cos it was not my intention to watch anime.. the summary as follows:
a (7-8 yo) ger's parents were kidnapped to a magical world, and transformed into pigs in a farm. the ger went into the world as well n tried her best to be employed by the employer of the place. she was den assigned to help out in the bathtub. during her stay there, she made a couple of frns.. n all these were unique in their own ways. 1 lady even thot for her own future. she oso got to know a guy who.. she met before.
thru her innocence n kindness, she managed to give a new lease of life to almost everyone she met. in the end, she managed to do a good deed and the employer decided to give her a chance to save her parents. she needs to find her parents, who have turned into pigs, among the whole... herd of pigs.
n.. ya she did it.. n she is allowed to leave the place wif her parents.. before leaving, she asked if the guy is leaving oso.. the guy says, since they met before, they surely would meet again.. n off she went... back to her world.. the movie ended wif a happy tuned folk music... somehow it struck a chord in me..
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