adam appearing on Fann wong's fashion show... prince charming in white top.. OHHH
Saturday, February 25, 2006
well, yes, once again, i'm proud tat i am finally staying on a job for almost a yr. during tis yr, i learnt a lot abt office attitudes. eg, y it's always good to have a learning attitude. instead of assume "u know it". n tat, although in office, everything is work n "it shld b done", but then, we oso have to depend on reln. simply 'cos it "shld b done" does not mean "it will b done". if u r on good terms wif a person, things will n can b sorted out easier. it's all abt building up of rapport.
n thinking back, it's also an accomplishment, when at times, my gal pal actually ask mi things which i am knwoledge enuff to tell her. 'cos all along, it's been her telling mi stuff, i seldom had the chance to tell her things whcih i know, cos she suually took effort to read up on it. yes i am lazy. including the time, ytday, when she ask mi "y shld she continue her job". well, she's still fast n quick thinker as usual, so, after tlling her my first line, she kinda know wat i tryign to say liao.
n at work, trusting a person's ability n living up to tat trust is utmost important in setting up a friendly n efficient workplace. someone passes a task. it means he has confidence tat u can do it n up to his expectations. if u do it swee swee (nicely), he knwo his trust in u is worthy of his belief in u. he will b able to trust wat u do in future, provided u dun fail his trust/expections. tis will lead to a more efficient n trusting env.
i read from the bk tat, some ppl have no such easy trust on others. they prefer to trust only when those ppl did soemthign to earn it.
however, once tat trust is broken, u can try to amend it. if both parties r working towards to re-building tat trust, soon, things shld b back to normal. however, if 1 party is not cooperating, den a boundary will be there, preventing smooth n efficient work env.
i'm saying these, cos KK dun blif n do wat i say. he doubts my words n abilities. yes, i have tis prob back in the past, but i did try my best to resolve it. now, i ask KK to do somethign, he delay it, and days later, it's not done yet. he's not doign thigns the way i did, or perhaps the way it had been done. until ytday, when the jnr is checkingt he report, den he dived into amending them.
n he was tokign to userB who seem to referrign to my userA case. he ask whether i spoke to userB b4. i said no. he tried arguing wif mi, but i simply told him flat on wat to do. he said, he'll rather wait for sup to b back. i ask him to check wif snr first. he stood up, and sat back, preferrignt o check wif sup. i knwo wat he's thinking: he wants to really check wif sup, n show tat i'm in the wrong, n put mi in bad light.
but later, he called userB back...
he: u rmb speaking to anyone on our side?
userB: ya.. ed
he: any1 else?
userB: i think ben oso
he: u rmb any1 else?
userB: no.. oni these 2
later, he put down the ph n spoke in a better tone to mi, tat somehow our cases cld b the same...
but wat i dun enjoy is, when the sup came back, he heard the whole thing, i told him my story, n he jsu came down onto mi, as tho he wanna eat mi up. he's right in his way, but tat dose not mean i did wrognly. mind him.
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anyway, my blog is not to focus on office stuff. i jus wanna lend my support to the NYP couple. she did nothign wrong. n HE as well. i jus wonder, y is the focus on the ger oni, n not much on the guy. is it due to the conservative mindset tat, gers shld b more decent?
everyone does thigns in the dark. jus a matter of whether it's being exposed anot. it's purely an unfortunate event that, it was spread like wild fire over the internet. n perhaps, as a student, the stereotype is students shld b at a learning age, and sex should not b an option. too bad, her doings on the bed have been exposed, and she has become a victim.
wat's more, TABLOIDS. they have the power of burning down a building with a flame. they wll do anuthing to sensationalise issues. i oso have some vids of myself posing here n there, n prtty erotic as well. but these r never shared wif anyoen, other than ppl i trust. i saw from papers tat she intends to stop schooling, but her parents encourage her to go on.
i'd say, let her rest for a period, and relax for a while. perhaps the boy can join her. let her relax, n come back to school again. it's a very painful experience for her, and she must get over it. no matter how long it takes. put it behind her, n get on her life.
n thinking back, it's also an accomplishment, when at times, my gal pal actually ask mi things which i am knwoledge enuff to tell her. 'cos all along, it's been her telling mi stuff, i seldom had the chance to tell her things whcih i know, cos she suually took effort to read up on it. yes i am lazy. including the time, ytday, when she ask mi "y shld she continue her job". well, she's still fast n quick thinker as usual, so, after tlling her my first line, she kinda know wat i tryign to say liao.
n at work, trusting a person's ability n living up to tat trust is utmost important in setting up a friendly n efficient workplace. someone passes a task. it means he has confidence tat u can do it n up to his expectations. if u do it swee swee (nicely), he knwo his trust in u is worthy of his belief in u. he will b able to trust wat u do in future, provided u dun fail his trust/expections. tis will lead to a more efficient n trusting env.
i read from the bk tat, some ppl have no such easy trust on others. they prefer to trust only when those ppl did soemthign to earn it.
however, once tat trust is broken, u can try to amend it. if both parties r working towards to re-building tat trust, soon, things shld b back to normal. however, if 1 party is not cooperating, den a boundary will be there, preventing smooth n efficient work env.
i'm saying these, cos KK dun blif n do wat i say. he doubts my words n abilities. yes, i have tis prob back in the past, but i did try my best to resolve it. now, i ask KK to do somethign, he delay it, and days later, it's not done yet. he's not doign thigns the way i did, or perhaps the way it had been done. until ytday, when the jnr is checkingt he report, den he dived into amending them.
n he was tokign to userB who seem to referrign to my userA case. he ask whether i spoke to userB b4. i said no. he tried arguing wif mi, but i simply told him flat on wat to do. he said, he'll rather wait for sup to b back. i ask him to check wif snr first. he stood up, and sat back, preferrignt o check wif sup. i knwo wat he's thinking: he wants to really check wif sup, n show tat i'm in the wrong, n put mi in bad light.
but later, he called userB back...
he: u rmb speaking to anyone on our side?
userB: ya.. ed
he: any1 else?
userB: i think ben oso
he: u rmb any1 else?
userB: no.. oni these 2
later, he put down the ph n spoke in a better tone to mi, tat somehow our cases cld b the same...
but wat i dun enjoy is, when the sup came back, he heard the whole thing, i told him my story, n he jsu came down onto mi, as tho he wanna eat mi up. he's right in his way, but tat dose not mean i did wrognly. mind him.
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anyway, my blog is not to focus on office stuff. i jus wanna lend my support to the NYP couple. she did nothign wrong. n HE as well. i jus wonder, y is the focus on the ger oni, n not much on the guy. is it due to the conservative mindset tat, gers shld b more decent?
everyone does thigns in the dark. jus a matter of whether it's being exposed anot. it's purely an unfortunate event that, it was spread like wild fire over the internet. n perhaps, as a student, the stereotype is students shld b at a learning age, and sex should not b an option. too bad, her doings on the bed have been exposed, and she has become a victim.
wat's more, TABLOIDS. they have the power of burning down a building with a flame. they wll do anuthing to sensationalise issues. i oso have some vids of myself posing here n there, n prtty erotic as well. but these r never shared wif anyoen, other than ppl i trust. i saw from papers tat she intends to stop schooling, but her parents encourage her to go on.
i'd say, let her rest for a period, and relax for a while. perhaps the boy can join her. let her relax, n come back to school again. it's a very painful experience for her, and she must get over it. no matter how long it takes. put it behind her, n get on her life.
Sunday, February 19, 2006
replying some blog comments. (oh gosh, long time din check my gal's blog)
"I'm back in the UK, very jetlagged but alive. I'm glad we had the opportunity to shop for your power supply on Saturday"
yep, thx for buying the PSU for mi :)
" OMg then can u at least post some pictures of rain concert leh lets horny togeter "
i wonder who huh>?!?!??! come on, show urself!!! i really dunno who u r..
"You should only resign when you have signed a contract with your new firm. So when you've decided, then sign the contract and only then resign from your current firm."
true, but i told my comp, i need 1 mth notice, so tat i wun sound tat "delayed" to them. in actual fact, i need 45 days. it's a totally diff scenario in the days' diff. i somehow have confidence tat the new comp is sincere in signing mi up, and not to delay the time to join, i have to make a choice. i decide to trust them.
but the singtel, it turned out tat the interview was off...
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seeing tat other countries have riots easily, i am thnking, why does not singapore have any? is it we are too pre-occupied with our work? or the law here is so super? Or we know how to cause a havoc without rioting?
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monday.
sunday was a thoroughly boring and useless day. nothing good n valuable was done at all.basically idling time away. no mood/motivation to read my java oso. den monday, was oso a quite a sucky day. no reason. jus felt... i din enjoy my wkend tat much, n felt i MUZ b back in office again?
"I'm back in the UK, very jetlagged but alive. I'm glad we had the opportunity to shop for your power supply on Saturday"
yep, thx for buying the PSU for mi :)
" OMg then can u at least post some pictures of rain concert leh lets horny togeter "
i wonder who huh>?!?!??! come on, show urself!!! i really dunno who u r..
"You should only resign when you have signed a contract with your new firm. So when you've decided, then sign the contract and only then resign from your current firm."
true, but i told my comp, i need 1 mth notice, so tat i wun sound tat "delayed" to them. in actual fact, i need 45 days. it's a totally diff scenario in the days' diff. i somehow have confidence tat the new comp is sincere in signing mi up, and not to delay the time to join, i have to make a choice. i decide to trust them.
but the singtel, it turned out tat the interview was off...
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seeing tat other countries have riots easily, i am thnking, why does not singapore have any? is it we are too pre-occupied with our work? or the law here is so super? Or we know how to cause a havoc without rioting?
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monday.
sunday was a thoroughly boring and useless day. nothing good n valuable was done at all.basically idling time away. no mood/motivation to read my java oso. den monday, was oso a quite a sucky day. no reason. jus felt... i din enjoy my wkend tat much, n felt i MUZ b back in office again?
Saturday, February 18, 2006
after nt being at my comptuer for some time, seem like i got lotsa things to do...
surprise surprise... a frn who i know during poly days... we r not tat close, but we do meet up as group every now n den.. this frn, she actually read my blog from time to time.. cool...
there's this guy.. his way of speaking is something i din, or never, exprienced b4.. we had a few conversations over the ph. the first 1, he called suddenly, n i din really know wat to tok about. the next time, it was a better try. but somehow, it ended up badly, as he sounded as though he was telling mi wat i shld b doing, wat i had done. the 3rd 1, i simply dun wish to tok much wif him. the conversation ended in minutes. the 4th one, he was about to hang up, when i told him why i was so quiet. we both finalyl chatted quite a lot.. enjoyable chat. n i apologised for sounding harsh earlier on, when i spoke my mind.. it was really enjoyable.. it is discussing topics wif depth. not mere bitching or gossiping, but even sharing our thoughts n ideas on issues. Until now, i din have any such discussions, other than my oz pals.
on our 5th chat on friday, he sounded nervous (well, haha, wat can i epxect?) n dun wan tok 2 much, in case we cant click well, n nothingt tok..
haha.. n i really jialut at directions.. i am a true blue singaporean (i'm born here, i mean) but i actually can miss holland V stop siazz. oh well, my "where is hell shld i b alighting??" mentality got the better of mi. i was thinking, how do i proceed? wah liao.. shld i jus get home n forget abt meeting, or jus./.. bear the hot sun n take another bus? i was really hot in my head. but as i went over to take a return bus, i cooled down, n thot it was jus my luck. but hor, wah wait for bus oso damn long.
hehe, my cool headed'ness paid off. he's not bad looking. quite impressive is my impresion. no other words i know fits better. haha.. it's enjoyable =D
umm.. is there anyone still wearing a watch to tell time? a watch is basically for time telling, but wif a hp, does it still help? i thinking of removing my watch..
guo mei mei has finally shown her face. comparing her "love is a song to you" wif celest's style of singing, both are pulling the high notes wif almost a screeching tone. but y is GMM able to... have a wide fan base, but celest's is shrinking?
final note: sianzz... any way to motivate my self to keep on studying (revising, refreshing my knowledge) java, with burning passion?? i know i shld b doing it, but .. argh.. am i missing something? sighzzz.. too cooped up at home? controlling my budget better?
surprise surprise... a frn who i know during poly days... we r not tat close, but we do meet up as group every now n den.. this frn, she actually read my blog from time to time.. cool...
there's this guy.. his way of speaking is something i din, or never, exprienced b4.. we had a few conversations over the ph. the first 1, he called suddenly, n i din really know wat to tok about. the next time, it was a better try. but somehow, it ended up badly, as he sounded as though he was telling mi wat i shld b doing, wat i had done. the 3rd 1, i simply dun wish to tok much wif him. the conversation ended in minutes. the 4th one, he was about to hang up, when i told him why i was so quiet. we both finalyl chatted quite a lot.. enjoyable chat. n i apologised for sounding harsh earlier on, when i spoke my mind.. it was really enjoyable.. it is discussing topics wif depth. not mere bitching or gossiping, but even sharing our thoughts n ideas on issues. Until now, i din have any such discussions, other than my oz pals.
on our 5th chat on friday, he sounded nervous (well, haha, wat can i epxect?) n dun wan tok 2 much, in case we cant click well, n nothingt tok..
haha.. n i really jialut at directions.. i am a true blue singaporean (i'm born here, i mean) but i actually can miss holland V stop siazz. oh well, my "where is hell shld i b alighting??" mentality got the better of mi. i was thinking, how do i proceed? wah liao.. shld i jus get home n forget abt meeting, or jus./.. bear the hot sun n take another bus? i was really hot in my head. but as i went over to take a return bus, i cooled down, n thot it was jus my luck. but hor, wah wait for bus oso damn long.
hehe, my cool headed'ness paid off. he's not bad looking. quite impressive is my impresion. no other words i know fits better. haha.. it's enjoyable =D
umm.. is there anyone still wearing a watch to tell time? a watch is basically for time telling, but wif a hp, does it still help? i thinking of removing my watch..
guo mei mei has finally shown her face. comparing her "love is a song to you" wif celest's style of singing, both are pulling the high notes wif almost a screeching tone. but y is GMM able to... have a wide fan base, but celest's is shrinking?
final note: sianzz... any way to motivate my self to keep on studying (revising, refreshing my knowledge) java, with burning passion?? i know i shld b doing it, but .. argh.. am i missing something? sighzzz.. too cooped up at home? controlling my budget better?
Thursday, February 16, 2006
i seem to b able to feel whether somethign is going on properly anot...
today, somethign big happened at the helpdesk.. wow...
ok. i took dinner... now i know liao.. at home, i shld take 3 bowls of rice, den soup. this is full course. followed by a drnk, tis full set will make mi real full.
after dine at home, i left my hse. the door not locked. but all the way, soemthing is not right. the traffic change too fast. i have to wait for 2nd round. den when jaywalk, suddenly, i seme like i din check the whole situation properly, ending up, i have to wait. like wrong estimation. as i walk up the stairs, i thot of switching off my mp3 player liao. jus den, i realise something BAD.
i forgot to take my keys!!! i left it at home!!! damn !!
the only way is to go back home to get it. sighzz.. as i walked home, suddenly got a person (seem like guy) wif blonde hair, exercise wear. den funy, on my way after takignt he keys, i saw him again, this time he's walking home..
today, somethign big happened at the helpdesk.. wow...
ok. i took dinner... now i know liao.. at home, i shld take 3 bowls of rice, den soup. this is full course. followed by a drnk, tis full set will make mi real full.
after dine at home, i left my hse. the door not locked. but all the way, soemthing is not right. the traffic change too fast. i have to wait for 2nd round. den when jaywalk, suddenly, i seme like i din check the whole situation properly, ending up, i have to wait. like wrong estimation. as i walk up the stairs, i thot of switching off my mp3 player liao. jus den, i realise something BAD.
i forgot to take my keys!!! i left it at home!!! damn !!
the only way is to go back home to get it. sighzz.. as i walked home, suddenly got a person (seem like guy) wif blonde hair, exercise wear. den funy, on my way after takignt he keys, i saw him again, this time he's walking home..
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
it seems like there is a reason for everything tat's happening to mi.
moving out: i've stayed by myself for almost 2 yrs. during this period, i truly learnt how to fend for myself, n stand up for myself. perhaps, thru this process, i learnt abt being confident? or maybe i am clearer abt my stand now, so i am more confident. these few mths, i am oso able to see things better (not the eye sight), n appreciate things more. like now, i tend not to shout at my mum.
2 reasons. wat';s done is done. shouting n scolding no use. it's jus getting u frustrated n my mum feeling bad. scolding never does anything good. it';s hurts a reln. i'll prefer to stay quiet, n do things the correct way in my view.
and, she is my mum. i dun wan to lose temper at her unnecessarily. having been thru ups n downs, i can put myself in her shoes better. in past, she always do things for us, without asking for payback. to the pt of getting up in midst of night, to ensure the clothes r ready for wearing, n tat, taking care of the family as best she can. but, being a human, n a emotional mum, she too has her tantrums. but my siblings still take her for granted. questioning y she did things w/o telling them.
n yes, being a mum, n mi the youngest child who she always deems mi unable to take care of myself, she will wanna cook my every meal, ensure i have a good dinner. in the past, if soemthing's not right, i;'ll get sensitive, n rant off. now, i jus (learn from my sis) keep quiet, n do wat i need to make things right. n abt the meal thing, to the pt tat, even if i hungry, she readily make a quick meal for mi. i appreciate tat, cos, if my bf is hungry, i sure oso over-react n respond fast like her. wat;'s more, i'm her baby, n the youngest. i rmb, during the CNY reunion dine, she was doing some last min food prep. i ask her to eat first. den when she eat, i saw her utensils not ready, so i took for her.
n last yr, a frn (personal frn, fridae frn) who i thot will b fun if we could b together, had taught mi tat, as long as u knw wat u r doing, dun worry, jus do so. y bother abt ppl's views?
rmb mi toking abt my eyes twitching? i think it's a way of letting mi knw certain thing will happen. n letting mi learn how to deal wif uncertainties of life. i'm not sure how true is my thinking, but it's how i see it.
n, all along, i been working in helpdesk positions. since day 1 of fulltime work, i oni had 1 programming position, whcih i din really work hard for. i take them for granted, n din see the need to fight for the post. den now, after being stuck in various helpdesk jobs for so long, i'm pretty sure where i really wanna go, for now. programming in java, ie. i knw i dun wan to b stuck in helpdesk, cos it's not my personality to b helpless, n b dependent on others. u know, we can oni try out wat has been proven right. i've been stuck in these places for so long tat, i really determined to b a programmer again. this is my motivation. perhaps if this route din happen, i wun b so determined to achieve my dreams.
as programmers, if i see soemthing not right, i have the power to change it. n being in helpdesk, helped in my communications n thinking n analysis. i am better able to speak over the ph.
moving out: i've stayed by myself for almost 2 yrs. during this period, i truly learnt how to fend for myself, n stand up for myself. perhaps, thru this process, i learnt abt being confident? or maybe i am clearer abt my stand now, so i am more confident. these few mths, i am oso able to see things better (not the eye sight), n appreciate things more. like now, i tend not to shout at my mum.
2 reasons. wat';s done is done. shouting n scolding no use. it's jus getting u frustrated n my mum feeling bad. scolding never does anything good. it';s hurts a reln. i'll prefer to stay quiet, n do things the correct way in my view.
and, she is my mum. i dun wan to lose temper at her unnecessarily. having been thru ups n downs, i can put myself in her shoes better. in past, she always do things for us, without asking for payback. to the pt of getting up in midst of night, to ensure the clothes r ready for wearing, n tat, taking care of the family as best she can. but, being a human, n a emotional mum, she too has her tantrums. but my siblings still take her for granted. questioning y she did things w/o telling them.
n yes, being a mum, n mi the youngest child who she always deems mi unable to take care of myself, she will wanna cook my every meal, ensure i have a good dinner. in the past, if soemthing's not right, i;'ll get sensitive, n rant off. now, i jus (learn from my sis) keep quiet, n do wat i need to make things right. n abt the meal thing, to the pt tat, even if i hungry, she readily make a quick meal for mi. i appreciate tat, cos, if my bf is hungry, i sure oso over-react n respond fast like her. wat;'s more, i'm her baby, n the youngest. i rmb, during the CNY reunion dine, she was doing some last min food prep. i ask her to eat first. den when she eat, i saw her utensils not ready, so i took for her.
n last yr, a frn (personal frn, fridae frn) who i thot will b fun if we could b together, had taught mi tat, as long as u knw wat u r doing, dun worry, jus do so. y bother abt ppl's views?
rmb mi toking abt my eyes twitching? i think it's a way of letting mi knw certain thing will happen. n letting mi learn how to deal wif uncertainties of life. i'm not sure how true is my thinking, but it's how i see it.
n, all along, i been working in helpdesk positions. since day 1 of fulltime work, i oni had 1 programming position, whcih i din really work hard for. i take them for granted, n din see the need to fight for the post. den now, after being stuck in various helpdesk jobs for so long, i'm pretty sure where i really wanna go, for now. programming in java, ie. i knw i dun wan to b stuck in helpdesk, cos it's not my personality to b helpless, n b dependent on others. u know, we can oni try out wat has been proven right. i've been stuck in these places for so long tat, i really determined to b a programmer again. this is my motivation. perhaps if this route din happen, i wun b so determined to achieve my dreams.
as programmers, if i see soemthing not right, i have the power to change it. n being in helpdesk, helped in my communications n thinking n analysis. i am better able to speak over the ph.
haha, saw from a fridae pal description, tat he likes someone, n hope time can stop, den he can b wif tat person forever.
how many times, when we r deeply infatuated wif a person, we hope such things will happen.. but it certainly takes much more for it to happen.
ok, back to mi. seem like i have a confident n mature side of mi, who intends to have a proper frnship wif ppl who appeal to urs truly. however, when something good turns out, like we really can click, n keep in touch, i will hope somethign good will result. is this the lonesome side of mi doing tricks? pining for a possible partner to b wif mi?
Or is this the hope of everyone, who is not deeply attached to someone lovingly?
n when the person, does not appear to b tat interested in mi, i start to feel dejected in LTR again. or am i thinking 2 much, n hoping 2 much things to happen in 2 short a time? oh well, i promised myself, i'll take things slowly, n promised him as well. he jus got off a reln... before which he was always cinging on to gers. either we stay as frns, or progress.. see abt it first.
BUT 1 thing i mus change is, when ppl shows some poor or slow response, i shld not b so conclusive n think tat e person is tired of toking to mi... esp when the plc is SO noisy! but overall, i did enjoy my time on VALENTINE DAY!!
HAPPY belated VALENTINE'S DAY!!! ALL HUMANS, LIVING THINGS, N ANYTHING THAT HAS AN EXPIRY DATE!!!
how many times, when we r deeply infatuated wif a person, we hope such things will happen.. but it certainly takes much more for it to happen.
ok, back to mi. seem like i have a confident n mature side of mi, who intends to have a proper frnship wif ppl who appeal to urs truly. however, when something good turns out, like we really can click, n keep in touch, i will hope somethign good will result. is this the lonesome side of mi doing tricks? pining for a possible partner to b wif mi?
Or is this the hope of everyone, who is not deeply attached to someone lovingly?
n when the person, does not appear to b tat interested in mi, i start to feel dejected in LTR again. or am i thinking 2 much, n hoping 2 much things to happen in 2 short a time? oh well, i promised myself, i'll take things slowly, n promised him as well. he jus got off a reln... before which he was always cinging on to gers. either we stay as frns, or progress.. see abt it first.
BUT 1 thing i mus change is, when ppl shows some poor or slow response, i shld not b so conclusive n think tat e person is tired of toking to mi... esp when the plc is SO noisy! but overall, i did enjoy my time on VALENTINE DAY!!
HAPPY belated VALENTINE'S DAY!!! ALL HUMANS, LIVING THINGS, N ANYTHING THAT HAS AN EXPIRY DATE!!!
Monday, February 13, 2006
heh, will it b 2 much to say? jus when i'm having problem deciding where to eat, the jnr coleague n KK stepped in to say, the place n food does not matter. it's jus the few hrs anyway.
well, to mi, it does. the place shld have the ambience tat's conducive for our moods. not necessary romantic or silent, but it shld cater to y we wanna dine. for a simple fare of get together, kopi tiam no prob. for ppl who prefer a relaxed plc to dine n enjoy anything (non sexual), a proper restaurant is good, so tat there will b no unnecessary inconvenience. for catching up, if the person is a veli chinese, den sure kopi tiam is enuff. but if it's ppl who is modern n prefer buzzy area, starbux is perfect.
so for mi, tmr is valentine. i wna things to turn out nicely. i am inot romantic settings n surprises. within my budget stuff. i oni knw local n jap food. he is ok wif jap. n i got 10% disc at ajisen. so go eat there loh. if go foodcourts for jap food, yes it's jap, but the feeling n ambience is diff. at restaurant, still got ppl to serve us haha...
well, to mi, it does. the place shld have the ambience tat's conducive for our moods. not necessary romantic or silent, but it shld cater to y we wanna dine. for a simple fare of get together, kopi tiam no prob. for ppl who prefer a relaxed plc to dine n enjoy anything (non sexual), a proper restaurant is good, so tat there will b no unnecessary inconvenience. for catching up, if the person is a veli chinese, den sure kopi tiam is enuff. but if it's ppl who is modern n prefer buzzy area, starbux is perfect.
so for mi, tmr is valentine. i wna things to turn out nicely. i am inot romantic settings n surprises. within my budget stuff. i oni knw local n jap food. he is ok wif jap. n i got 10% disc at ajisen. so go eat there loh. if go foodcourts for jap food, yes it's jap, but the feeling n ambience is diff. at restaurant, still got ppl to serve us haha...
about work:
went to sign the letter liao luh!! but.. the start date is 22mar. my official last day is 23. but i intend to clear my leave on 22n23. boss say ok. oni scared last min they break promise.
valentine day:
wat's exactly going on?
i had confidence n know wat i am doing when i arrange for apptmts. but today, when i tried to arrange for 1, i got EMOTIOANLLY CHARGED. i am so worried tat the time wud not suit the schedule, n whether i am confident of getting the seat.
i have 1 restaurant in mind. but i'm knocking off at 8pm. the restaurant will b packed (by std timing, let alone 14th feb). packed till i not sure, or even no chance that by 8pm, seats still available. but i know, the dinner mus still go on. i went to the jap restaurant below my office. wah, EX n abnormal menu. but i booked the seat for 2 at 7pm.
it's SO werid n insincere n evil if i ask my date to chop a seat, n wait for mi there. i'm initiating the dinner, n yet ask him wait for mi?? no way.
i den thot of changing the time to lunch instead. wah, i seriously dunno if the time can match. will it b 2 rushing??
for a moment, .... i felt tat, i'm losing control of myself. totally. where is the confident mi?? the confident person who knwo wat he's doing, n y he's doing it? i'm getting too much into the appointment. thinking of planning the appointment, but no confidence of whether i'm setting the correct time or not.
oh well, perhaps it's supposed to b a relaxed n "casual" dinner, but if it's too crowded, it may not be tat enjoyable after all, which is not wat shld happen.
perhaps the fear of doing something not rite is getting inot mi. too much, into mi. it's nice, but definitely not gd in the long run. i will become a crybaby. n a decision-asker, instead of maker.
1 thing i can confirm, i dun think i'm treating it as a mere meal. more to the start of a process to knwo a person better. if i'm emotionally charged, i may think too personally, not able to see the full pic.
as i went to get some water, during the walking, i actually felt the emotional strain. the pressure of acceptance. for a long time, i've not experienced 2 sides of mi. or rather, for the first time. 1 is emotionally charged mi. 1 is the confident mi. i'm waiting for a confirmation sms for timing.
1 side of mi says, is the person alright? shld i call to check? why no reply sms yet?
1 side of mi says, well, i'm waiting for a confirmation sms. wat is there to worry?
went to sign the letter liao luh!! but.. the start date is 22mar. my official last day is 23. but i intend to clear my leave on 22n23. boss say ok. oni scared last min they break promise.
valentine day:
wat's exactly going on?
i had confidence n know wat i am doing when i arrange for apptmts. but today, when i tried to arrange for 1, i got EMOTIOANLLY CHARGED. i am so worried tat the time wud not suit the schedule, n whether i am confident of getting the seat.
i have 1 restaurant in mind. but i'm knocking off at 8pm. the restaurant will b packed (by std timing, let alone 14th feb). packed till i not sure, or even no chance that by 8pm, seats still available. but i know, the dinner mus still go on. i went to the jap restaurant below my office. wah, EX n abnormal menu. but i booked the seat for 2 at 7pm.
it's SO werid n insincere n evil if i ask my date to chop a seat, n wait for mi there. i'm initiating the dinner, n yet ask him wait for mi?? no way.
i den thot of changing the time to lunch instead. wah, i seriously dunno if the time can match. will it b 2 rushing??
for a moment, .... i felt tat, i'm losing control of myself. totally. where is the confident mi?? the confident person who knwo wat he's doing, n y he's doing it? i'm getting too much into the appointment. thinking of planning the appointment, but no confidence of whether i'm setting the correct time or not.
oh well, perhaps it's supposed to b a relaxed n "casual" dinner, but if it's too crowded, it may not be tat enjoyable after all, which is not wat shld happen.
perhaps the fear of doing something not rite is getting inot mi. too much, into mi. it's nice, but definitely not gd in the long run. i will become a crybaby. n a decision-asker, instead of maker.
1 thing i can confirm, i dun think i'm treating it as a mere meal. more to the start of a process to knwo a person better. if i'm emotionally charged, i may think too personally, not able to see the full pic.
as i went to get some water, during the walking, i actually felt the emotional strain. the pressure of acceptance. for a long time, i've not experienced 2 sides of mi. or rather, for the first time. 1 is emotionally charged mi. 1 is the confident mi. i'm waiting for a confirmation sms for timing.
1 side of mi says, is the person alright? shld i call to check? why no reply sms yet?
1 side of mi says, well, i'm waiting for a confirmation sms. wat is there to worry?
Sunday, February 12, 2006
blabbering watever in my mind now... simply 2 free n my mind dun wan b tied down to reading up j2se stuff... (DARN)
sianzz.. err.. dun wan make it into my grumbling page. now, downloaded some j2se ide to try out.
i am 26 tis yr liao. but i'm still living my life in the same old way. dun see any change in it, other than maturity in my mindset n career direction. i am more confident in my language and communication skills. n knw the reason behind many things whcih i din realise... such as finishing my deg course ASAP. in past, i din think much of the adv of obtaining a deg. feeling tat it's jus another lvl of edu. tat y i din feel it's necessary to finish it ASAP, as, to mi, it's jus studying. but now, as i see my finance status clearer (not clearly yet), n felt it's a MUZ to finish in shortest time possible. cos, if i dun fisnih it, it'll b a burden on mi financially.. which i dun wan sustain much longer. i duno if the deg will help mi in future anot, but i jus wanna finish it. haha.. my planning sux huh?
um, my blog is quite messy lah.. not organised in terms of contents, cos 2 much to write, n din have a chance to. like.. last wk, the sat n sun, i totally not at home. accompanying my briton frn here/there for "shopping". den next day, go chalet n relaxed there. den met a frn for dine. everythign is pretty fun. esp now tat i'm more comfortable wif myself (lively, chatty n perhaps havoc), i can give pretty fun chats in the proper manner. den suddenly, tis wk, sat n sun, i nothing to do, other than fixing my pc n reading. wah, big change in lifestyle siazz..
after coming back from australia, n been thru downs, i'm better able to understand why ppl do certain thigns. as in, if ppl like u, they wun hesitate to help u. some ppl may even b eager to help u. somehow, if u understand how emotions work, u will know wat will happen next...
being cool headed most times is nice. but when u meet someone who just give u tat special feeling, u can try ur best, but ur heart n mind will still b in a mess. ur heart tells u, u really wanna him by ur side, n know him better. personally n physically. butur mind tells u, takes things slowly. good things come to those who wait. if he's urs, he can't siam. u have ot take thigns easy, but not sloppy. show tat u treasure him, but not irritate him. haha..
sianzz.. err.. dun wan make it into my grumbling page. now, downloaded some j2se ide to try out.
i am 26 tis yr liao. but i'm still living my life in the same old way. dun see any change in it, other than maturity in my mindset n career direction. i am more confident in my language and communication skills. n knw the reason behind many things whcih i din realise... such as finishing my deg course ASAP. in past, i din think much of the adv of obtaining a deg. feeling tat it's jus another lvl of edu. tat y i din feel it's necessary to finish it ASAP, as, to mi, it's jus studying. but now, as i see my finance status clearer (not clearly yet), n felt it's a MUZ to finish in shortest time possible. cos, if i dun fisnih it, it'll b a burden on mi financially.. which i dun wan sustain much longer. i duno if the deg will help mi in future anot, but i jus wanna finish it. haha.. my planning sux huh?
um, my blog is quite messy lah.. not organised in terms of contents, cos 2 much to write, n din have a chance to. like.. last wk, the sat n sun, i totally not at home. accompanying my briton frn here/there for "shopping". den next day, go chalet n relaxed there. den met a frn for dine. everythign is pretty fun. esp now tat i'm more comfortable wif myself (lively, chatty n perhaps havoc), i can give pretty fun chats in the proper manner. den suddenly, tis wk, sat n sun, i nothing to do, other than fixing my pc n reading. wah, big change in lifestyle siazz..
after coming back from australia, n been thru downs, i'm better able to understand why ppl do certain thigns. as in, if ppl like u, they wun hesitate to help u. some ppl may even b eager to help u. somehow, if u understand how emotions work, u will know wat will happen next...
being cool headed most times is nice. but when u meet someone who just give u tat special feeling, u can try ur best, but ur heart n mind will still b in a mess. ur heart tells u, u really wanna him by ur side, n know him better. personally n physically. butur mind tells u, takes things slowly. good things come to those who wait. if he's urs, he can't siam. u have ot take thigns easy, but not sloppy. show tat u treasure him, but not irritate him. haha..
Saturday, February 11, 2006
Friday, February 10, 2006
(last night) sighzz.. a bit lazy to blog sizz..
(morning) haha, a new refresh mi... a load is off my shoulders now. yes, it's the new job offer. well, we tok over ph last mon, they say ok tat i start in end mar. den for 4 days, they din call mi at all. ytday, i called them, wanna b firm on my stand, tat if they still not ready, i gonna sign on another job. so i called, turned out tat, the start date they not ok, saying tat the proj will b ending by the time i join. den i told them, i actaully need 1 mth notice still. he say "ya ya, 1 mth is ok" n ask when i can join earlier. in end, i confirmed wif my boss, tat my last day is 23rd Mar, but clearing leave on 22 and 23, while i start work in new plc on 23rd mar. phew, still 1 day to rest. n i confirmed... i borrowed a bk on java 1.4, to read on some practical egs. den will borrow exam kit to buck up on my theories. oh ya, will b signing contract on monday.
will tis be a long blog siazz??
watching ch U's campus superstar repeat. i really admire youngsters these days, so many channels for them to explore and express themselves. the world is really changing. but actually, wat (exactly) brings about the change? i admire their courage to sing in public. somehow, i love singing, but dun have the courage to do so in public. no confidence. but when a mike is in hand, i am ready to sing.
i am seeing a big change in my life now. not gonna elab so much. but think abt it. my hp plan will reduce drastically from 70$ a mth to25.20$ a mth. no rental. earning more money. going into my beloved programming lang. i'm changing from a person who pursues relns to someone who treasures frnship, n hope such frnship can last. i am oso not tat defensive abt my opinions, ideas, and comments, whenever soemone tries to overrule them. once my pt has been made, i wun wan to defend further. it's no longer about winning a case, but more to making my pt clearly. a few msn frns, they r still looking and longing for a LTR. they r my age or even older. they hope the person they like will turn out to b their life partner. but is keeping a LTR so hard? or jus gay world? gay world, referring tot he desire for better sex, exciting sex, n perhaps diff partners. n i'm more confident of my abilities, image, n relationship skills. although i still need to buck up. and i have been living independently for almost 2 years. independency helped to develop my survivial skills, individual thinking, nad self-worthness thoughts. Or rather, soem frns made me realise that.
*can any1 tell mi, wat shld i do when, my mum keeps yelling at mi for not willing to help my bro for internet issues, when i am in NO position to help? i cant tell her off. i can oni take it n bear it..*
i've finally worked at a place for almost a year. realised tat the corporate world is really not tat simplistic. trust and communication is utmost important. when i first started on the job, oh well, my attitude was not tat gd, cos i felt cheated. i supposed to be tecnician, solving PC issues hands-on. but ended up in helpdesk, picking phones. den when i accepted my fate, i have probs communicating wif my team. diff expectations n work values. whne they tell mi somethigns, i got defensive. i thot they were trying to make mi look bad.
mths on, i was better able to click wif them. den a new colleague, KK, came in. he is my jnr, n i was glad to guide him along. later on, another new ger came in. i have lotsa bad impressions of the comp, but no 1 for mi to share it wif. so i decided to bfrn tat ger. things turned out GOOD. i clciked wif her, n played wif her. n even cameout to her, due to tis, we can tok abt guys. i dun have to keep my opinions abt gers anymore. i can oso bitch wif her abt office stuff.
but i nvr realise tat, the jnr staff who seem to be on nice terms wif snr, oso have some bad things to tok abt snr. when she suddenly revealed her feelings to mi abt snr, i was stunned. from then on, anything abt KK or snr, i directly shared wif her.
being an experienced staff, i am able to tell them wat to do form my experience. haha, tis is certainly where "mins 2-4 yrs exp" comes in. some things r not tat clear cut, n needs exp to solve them. n having been thru some "acceptance" stage at this place, i can better understand how KK felt. when he evolved from a staff attendignt o customers n interacting directly wif them, to a staff picking up ph calls.
haha.. my, it's really seeing a REAL diff aspect of life.
(morning) haha, a new refresh mi... a load is off my shoulders now. yes, it's the new job offer. well, we tok over ph last mon, they say ok tat i start in end mar. den for 4 days, they din call mi at all. ytday, i called them, wanna b firm on my stand, tat if they still not ready, i gonna sign on another job. so i called, turned out tat, the start date they not ok, saying tat the proj will b ending by the time i join. den i told them, i actaully need 1 mth notice still. he say "ya ya, 1 mth is ok" n ask when i can join earlier. in end, i confirmed wif my boss, tat my last day is 23rd Mar, but clearing leave on 22 and 23, while i start work in new plc on 23rd mar. phew, still 1 day to rest. n i confirmed... i borrowed a bk on java 1.4, to read on some practical egs. den will borrow exam kit to buck up on my theories. oh ya, will b signing contract on monday.
will tis be a long blog siazz??
watching ch U's campus superstar repeat. i really admire youngsters these days, so many channels for them to explore and express themselves. the world is really changing. but actually, wat (exactly) brings about the change? i admire their courage to sing in public. somehow, i love singing, but dun have the courage to do so in public. no confidence. but when a mike is in hand, i am ready to sing.
i am seeing a big change in my life now. not gonna elab so much. but think abt it. my hp plan will reduce drastically from 70$ a mth to25.20$ a mth. no rental. earning more money. going into my beloved programming lang. i'm changing from a person who pursues relns to someone who treasures frnship, n hope such frnship can last. i am oso not tat defensive abt my opinions, ideas, and comments, whenever soemone tries to overrule them. once my pt has been made, i wun wan to defend further. it's no longer about winning a case, but more to making my pt clearly. a few msn frns, they r still looking and longing for a LTR. they r my age or even older. they hope the person they like will turn out to b their life partner. but is keeping a LTR so hard? or jus gay world? gay world, referring tot he desire for better sex, exciting sex, n perhaps diff partners. n i'm more confident of my abilities, image, n relationship skills. although i still need to buck up. and i have been living independently for almost 2 years. independency helped to develop my survivial skills, individual thinking, nad self-worthness thoughts. Or rather, soem frns made me realise that.
*can any1 tell mi, wat shld i do when, my mum keeps yelling at mi for not willing to help my bro for internet issues, when i am in NO position to help? i cant tell her off. i can oni take it n bear it..*
i've finally worked at a place for almost a year. realised tat the corporate world is really not tat simplistic. trust and communication is utmost important. when i first started on the job, oh well, my attitude was not tat gd, cos i felt cheated. i supposed to be tecnician, solving PC issues hands-on. but ended up in helpdesk, picking phones. den when i accepted my fate, i have probs communicating wif my team. diff expectations n work values. whne they tell mi somethigns, i got defensive. i thot they were trying to make mi look bad.
mths on, i was better able to click wif them. den a new colleague, KK, came in. he is my jnr, n i was glad to guide him along. later on, another new ger came in. i have lotsa bad impressions of the comp, but no 1 for mi to share it wif. so i decided to bfrn tat ger. things turned out GOOD. i clciked wif her, n played wif her. n even cameout to her, due to tis, we can tok abt guys. i dun have to keep my opinions abt gers anymore. i can oso bitch wif her abt office stuff.
but i nvr realise tat, the jnr staff who seem to be on nice terms wif snr, oso have some bad things to tok abt snr. when she suddenly revealed her feelings to mi abt snr, i was stunned. from then on, anything abt KK or snr, i directly shared wif her.
being an experienced staff, i am able to tell them wat to do form my experience. haha, tis is certainly where "mins 2-4 yrs exp" comes in. some things r not tat clear cut, n needs exp to solve them. n having been thru some "acceptance" stage at this place, i can better understand how KK felt. when he evolved from a staff attendignt o customers n interacting directly wif them, to a staff picking up ph calls.
haha.. my, it's really seeing a REAL diff aspect of life.
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
not a very ez wk to pass. got confirmation for a new job, but until now haven sign anything yet. i cant wait tat long. i decided. i'll call up the comp. if they haven got the letter ready yet, i'll tell them, i got another offer. if they really prepared to take mi in, they'll wnana sign mi on. haha.. good idea? sighzz.. b4 i thot of it, i almost wnana jus b frank: ask if the contract is ready. if not yet, tell them i'll b looking for other jobs as well. n keep pushing them. but kauzz, tis makes mi sound so despo!!! so i think tat is better... anyway, had a bad experience wif indian bosses. the founder tis new comp is indian prof.
den, back to my life. haha, i cant blif it. but i had to. my gal pal, she jus started work n planning to buy lotsa gadgets n stuff. wow. sure sounded loaded. but, working of cos will get salary. n she dun have any debts (sch fee) to pay off. so when she got money, can spend n buy things. mi? still stuck wif my debts. got ppl ask y i dun take bfast (yes, i dun.. or avoid it). if u have the spare money, u cna of cos eat anything u desire, anytime u free. but i dun. i'm bad at financial planning. i oni know i cant spend too much every mth. i set aside a max of 300$ mthly for my expenditure - INCLUDING buying things to pamper myself. so, at times, even if the cost is oni < 5$, i need to consider it properly.
since skipping bfast dun kill mi, den i dun have to go for it. spend as lil $$ as can for lunch. den enjoy my dinner properly... haha.. strange... ppl say bfast is most impt n dinner shld b l;ightest. for mi, i skip former, n gorge myself for latter. when i really got extra money to spend, perhaps i'll really appreciate fine dining then HA!
umm.. my exorbitant costing hp service plans.. contract ending this 7th mar 06. PHEW!!!!! imagine mi paying a min of 70$ mthly siazz!!! got 2000 min free tok time 300 sms to use. but in fact, i dun use tat much tok time. i think tat';s more for associates' level ppl usage. for mi, starhub 25.20 n m1's plan r sufficient liao. wah... hahah... if things go well, hp bill lower, rental no need, n higher pay... hehe... sounds a good year to mi.. :) but..
how good is starhub's service?? any1 know?? any feedback??? the offer for new sub'ers is GOOD, n delicious. but do i have to suffer bad hp reception? pls, tell mi, pls!! haha.. anyone know?
den, back to my life. haha, i cant blif it. but i had to. my gal pal, she jus started work n planning to buy lotsa gadgets n stuff. wow. sure sounded loaded. but, working of cos will get salary. n she dun have any debts (sch fee) to pay off. so when she got money, can spend n buy things. mi? still stuck wif my debts. got ppl ask y i dun take bfast (yes, i dun.. or avoid it). if u have the spare money, u cna of cos eat anything u desire, anytime u free. but i dun. i'm bad at financial planning. i oni know i cant spend too much every mth. i set aside a max of 300$ mthly for my expenditure - INCLUDING buying things to pamper myself. so, at times, even if the cost is oni < 5$, i need to consider it properly.
since skipping bfast dun kill mi, den i dun have to go for it. spend as lil $$ as can for lunch. den enjoy my dinner properly... haha.. strange... ppl say bfast is most impt n dinner shld b l;ightest. for mi, i skip former, n gorge myself for latter. when i really got extra money to spend, perhaps i'll really appreciate fine dining then HA!
umm.. my exorbitant costing hp service plans.. contract ending this 7th mar 06. PHEW!!!!! imagine mi paying a min of 70$ mthly siazz!!! got 2000 min free tok time 300 sms to use. but in fact, i dun use tat much tok time. i think tat';s more for associates' level ppl usage. for mi, starhub 25.20 n m1's plan r sufficient liao. wah... hahah... if things go well, hp bill lower, rental no need, n higher pay... hehe... sounds a good year to mi.. :) but..
how good is starhub's service?? any1 know?? any feedback??? the offer for new sub'ers is GOOD, n delicious. but do i have to suffer bad hp reception? pls, tell mi, pls!! haha.. anyone know?
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
now i am at a loss. on monday, i called the enw job to confirm tat i wan it n they say will print the contract, n get mi n director sign. i m veli happy.
almost wnaan send out the termination letter. but i knwo it;s not right. shld wait for the new job to b confirmed. but think of it, i ned 45 days. not a 1mth. the new job supposed to start 1 mth time, but i delay it. dun wan explain more, but felt better to terminate first. got 45 day grace to hunt.
but tues liao, no reply from new job yet. i even emailed to the person, reminding him abt the signing of contract. i think sendign that remidner is enuff liao. dun wan to keep pushing. now, i starting to lose confidence in myself. whether i really can get the job anot. i prayed to god tat night of interview, hoping to get the job. my prayers were answered. but will it pull thru?
no pt to keep waiting. n getting the contract ready for signing shld not b so long. so, perhaps on friday, i'll call the new boss again, n see if the contract is ready. strnage, they not in hurry to confirm mi siazz. se wat they say. if the contract is not ready by fri, i will ask if the offer is still on. if things go haywire... i'll take full responsibility of my career still..
almost wnaan send out the termination letter. but i knwo it;s not right. shld wait for the new job to b confirmed. but think of it, i ned 45 days. not a 1mth. the new job supposed to start 1 mth time, but i delay it. dun wan explain more, but felt better to terminate first. got 45 day grace to hunt.
but tues liao, no reply from new job yet. i even emailed to the person, reminding him abt the signing of contract. i think sendign that remidner is enuff liao. dun wan to keep pushing. now, i starting to lose confidence in myself. whether i really can get the job anot. i prayed to god tat night of interview, hoping to get the job. my prayers were answered. but will it pull thru?
no pt to keep waiting. n getting the contract ready for signing shld not b so long. so, perhaps on friday, i'll call the new boss again, n see if the contract is ready. strnage, they not in hurry to confirm mi siazz. se wat they say. if the contract is not ready by fri, i will ask if the offer is still on. if things go haywire... i'll take full responsibility of my career still..
again.. i got lotsa ideas to write.. well, too much things to say, too lil time. esp when i dun have internet to use... sianzz..
1) i'm happy tat li xiao zhou managed to get into the finals!! wah, i rmb, he got 1 time almost kena kick out. tat was when the kiddy host lost least prof pt. den LXZ kena the least pop guy. at tat pt, my gal pal was wif mi, n when he managed to pull thru, i got so excited i hit her wif my bolster! ahha.. from then on, i decided to send 10 sms to support him, so tat less chance of him getting kicked. these days, he 90% of time sure the top scorer 1. but pop level need to improve. but can see tat more n more ppl support him.. from the least pop wks back, now he somewhere in the middle. but hor, the gers seem like soooo god at PR siazz.. everytime, get top 2 in pop votes.
2) i managed to see that, other than PC, i can still engross myself in watching DVD. haha, well, tat's how boliao ppl kill time.. watch anytime, anywhere.
3) over the weeks, esp after coming back from Oz n enjoying NY celeb wif a new found pal, close frn, buddy watever (dunno how to group him yet), i am learning more abt the importance of going out n catching up wif frns. learnt more abt wat's life n enjoying life means. y ppl often meet up n catch up wif frns.. but tat will happen oni when i really financially viable.
now my hp svc plan is 2k mins free tok time, 300 sms. but then, i seldom call out to ppl to chat. rather than calling, y not jus sms or meet up? i will change my hp service plan, intend to go for the more sms n adequate tok time plan.. den sms to stay in touch n gossip wif frns, den tok time, to pick incoming calls. use sms to plan stuff, calling is when it's urgent. anyway, i'm moving back home tis june, so ph tok shld b no prob
4) i've just sent out my termination letter. on monday, the new boss say will print out the proper contract n get director to sign n ask mi sign. they agree READILY to my proposed start date. like no urgency like dat. i'm thinking, if the delayed start date is not ok for them, they will voice out to mi right? wun keep mum, n confirm other ppl.. this may happen lah, but hope they wun do this. n wat's more, the person confirmed mi 1 day after my interview 1 leh. i sent out my term letter fast, as i need 45 days notice. not a 1-mth. the later i send, the later i can start. anyway, i jus hope things will turn out fine for mi. my first time to get a higher pay.
even if *CHOYZZZZ* nothign good turn out, i will still keep applying for new jobs. now i got a 45days grace period to secure a position for mi. if not, i think i'll ask if i can stay longer longer longer... to reach my full 1 yr of svc...
5) i'm trying to control my EQ properly so tat i wun commit the "at the spur of moment" thingy. i wonder if i'm doing well. a frn who my.. new pal intro to mi on NY, i complimented he's "desirable". "hot" is nice, but it's used too much, esp another person tat day commented i am hot. i called tis frn after CNY, den he was going for his gym routine. wnana tok more, but he no time. but he ok for a dinner.
so tis noon, i called him, rej my call. first time, he picked n hang up, 1 sec. 2nd time, he jus rejected. i called him jus now (a 6 hr lag) n he still rej. so i sms him..
"u bz the whole day?"
"yea sori"
"den u free for a dine?"
"not today. sori. another day perhaps?"
"i din mention today, did i?"
**no reply at all**
"gosh, nw u r too busy to even reply sms. u muz b really tied up, man. u free for dine?"
"hi, sorri for not answering u. was in a arg wif someone jus now. i cant confirm my time wif u for thurs. can i let u know again? thx!"
**no reply from mi**
"umm, hope e arg din piss u off 2 much."
haha, did i sound impartial, pissed, firm unhappy but calm, or? i hope i sounded firm, direct, calm, but putting the pt across tat, "hey, i asking u out for dine. dun thnk 2 much, dun assume. rej my call 3 times? r u avoiding mi, or really tat busy? if u really think tt, jus 'cos u r desirable, i will have some ulterior motives for dining wif u, get a good view of ur life."
next day, will tok abt wat i learnt from my current job. yes i still managed to learn things from here. haha, tat's y i getting sianzz here. i cna oni say, they dun have any professionalism.
*time to KO...*
1) i'm happy tat li xiao zhou managed to get into the finals!! wah, i rmb, he got 1 time almost kena kick out. tat was when the kiddy host lost least prof pt. den LXZ kena the least pop guy. at tat pt, my gal pal was wif mi, n when he managed to pull thru, i got so excited i hit her wif my bolster! ahha.. from then on, i decided to send 10 sms to support him, so tat less chance of him getting kicked. these days, he 90% of time sure the top scorer 1. but pop level need to improve. but can see tat more n more ppl support him.. from the least pop wks back, now he somewhere in the middle. but hor, the gers seem like soooo god at PR siazz.. everytime, get top 2 in pop votes.
2) i managed to see that, other than PC, i can still engross myself in watching DVD. haha, well, tat's how boliao ppl kill time.. watch anytime, anywhere.
3) over the weeks, esp after coming back from Oz n enjoying NY celeb wif a new found pal, close frn, buddy watever (dunno how to group him yet), i am learning more abt the importance of going out n catching up wif frns. learnt more abt wat's life n enjoying life means. y ppl often meet up n catch up wif frns.. but tat will happen oni when i really financially viable.
now my hp svc plan is 2k mins free tok time, 300 sms. but then, i seldom call out to ppl to chat. rather than calling, y not jus sms or meet up? i will change my hp service plan, intend to go for the more sms n adequate tok time plan.. den sms to stay in touch n gossip wif frns, den tok time, to pick incoming calls. use sms to plan stuff, calling is when it's urgent. anyway, i'm moving back home tis june, so ph tok shld b no prob
4) i've just sent out my termination letter. on monday, the new boss say will print out the proper contract n get director to sign n ask mi sign. they agree READILY to my proposed start date. like no urgency like dat. i'm thinking, if the delayed start date is not ok for them, they will voice out to mi right? wun keep mum, n confirm other ppl.. this may happen lah, but hope they wun do this. n wat's more, the person confirmed mi 1 day after my interview 1 leh. i sent out my term letter fast, as i need 45 days notice. not a 1-mth. the later i send, the later i can start. anyway, i jus hope things will turn out fine for mi. my first time to get a higher pay.
even if *CHOYZZZZ* nothign good turn out, i will still keep applying for new jobs. now i got a 45days grace period to secure a position for mi. if not, i think i'll ask if i can stay longer longer longer... to reach my full 1 yr of svc...
5) i'm trying to control my EQ properly so tat i wun commit the "at the spur of moment" thingy. i wonder if i'm doing well. a frn who my.. new pal intro to mi on NY, i complimented he's "desirable". "hot" is nice, but it's used too much, esp another person tat day commented i am hot. i called tis frn after CNY, den he was going for his gym routine. wnana tok more, but he no time. but he ok for a dinner.
so tis noon, i called him, rej my call. first time, he picked n hang up, 1 sec. 2nd time, he jus rejected. i called him jus now (a 6 hr lag) n he still rej. so i sms him..
"u bz the whole day?"
"yea sori"
"den u free for a dine?"
"not today. sori. another day perhaps?"
"i din mention today, did i?"
**no reply at all**
"gosh, nw u r too busy to even reply sms. u muz b really tied up, man. u free for dine
"hi, sorri for not answering u. was in a arg wif someone jus now. i cant confirm my time wif u for thurs. can i let u know again? thx!"
**no reply from mi**
"umm, hope e arg din piss u off 2 much."
haha, did i sound impartial, pissed, firm unhappy but calm, or? i hope i sounded firm, direct, calm, but putting the pt across tat, "hey, i asking u out for dine. dun thnk 2 much, dun assume. rej my call 3 times? r u avoiding mi, or really tat busy? if u really think tt, jus 'cos u r desirable, i will have some ulterior motives for dining wif u, get a good view of ur life."
next day, will tok abt wat i learnt from my current job. yes i still managed to learn things from here. haha, tat's y i getting sianzz here. i cna oni say, they dun have any professionalism.
*time to KO...*
Monday, February 06, 2006
today despo housewives again back in action!!
come to think of it, the first work day of the CNY, i got an interview for my java. they told mi by next wk, i can knw results. den on 2nd day, i was confirmed. they even sent email, draft copy of contract, n called mi to tell mi. so fast rite? i am of course happy n excited abt it. den 3rd day, or rather tat same 2nd day, another agency called mi, asking mi interview wif singtel. i was really stunned. 2 interviews together. am i really so lucky in CNY?? the first job is perm job. 2nd is contract job, which required mi nto to discuss abt salary at all.
cos my current contract need mi to give a whopping 45days notice, if not pay a large sum of $$, my family decided tat i shld try to delay start date wif new place. haha.. funny. on saturday, my bro was celeb his bday in a big way (book chalet, even tho he is 29 tis yr liao.. but well, he's getting married tis yr) n i was out wif my frn chris whole day. so din go at all. dinner i settled myself.
den sunday, even the wkly bfast/lunch is gone, cos whole family in chalet. but frankly, i dun see the need for mi to go in the first place. cos he will be celeb wif his frns mah. i go there, duno do wat. other than bio'ing ppl.
den, haha, my uncle (whose son is CUTE) called mi, asking if i wanna go wif them to chalet. haha, well, i duno wat to eat for bfast, lunch n wnana save up oso. was jus wondering hwo to settle my meals.. ask frns out?? den hor, his invitation came at such hr tat i so LUCKY siazz!!! n hor, when i saw his sms, i even thot the time is out for mi liao.. but it's jus on time =D. so i took his car to the chalet n relaxed myself there.. cool.. the SAF chalet.. fantastic!
oh ya, had lunch at swenson. n i admit i behave intimately wif my cousin boy boy. he invited mi to sit wif him, n i shared my food wif him.. haha, i simply felt i am loving towards him.. in this way,my lunch n bfast settled!
i have to call new company monday moprning to confirm my start date. at night, my right eye twitched. den the next morning, i called, wnana see if they ok wif mi start in late mar. wah, they din ask reason, n jus agreed!! i was stunned!!! they din even ask y.. but hor, sigh, to protect myself, i still cant resign yet. cos not yet sign paper.
den tis evening, my other interview, slated for tues 10am, was postponed, as the ger was unwell. wah, 2 things crop up...
shld i stil send my letter? cos i need 45 days to leave properly...
come to think of it, the first work day of the CNY, i got an interview for my java. they told mi by next wk, i can knw results. den on 2nd day, i was confirmed. they even sent email, draft copy of contract, n called mi to tell mi. so fast rite? i am of course happy n excited abt it. den 3rd day, or rather tat same 2nd day, another agency called mi, asking mi interview wif singtel. i was really stunned. 2 interviews together. am i really so lucky in CNY?? the first job is perm job. 2nd is contract job, which required mi nto to discuss abt salary at all.
cos my current contract need mi to give a whopping 45days notice, if not pay a large sum of $$, my family decided tat i shld try to delay start date wif new place. haha.. funny. on saturday, my bro was celeb his bday in a big way (book chalet, even tho he is 29 tis yr liao.. but well, he's getting married tis yr) n i was out wif my frn chris whole day. so din go at all. dinner i settled myself.
den sunday, even the wkly bfast/lunch is gone, cos whole family in chalet. but frankly, i dun see the need for mi to go in the first place. cos he will be celeb wif his frns mah. i go there, duno do wat. other than bio'ing ppl.
den, haha, my uncle (whose son is CUTE) called mi, asking if i wanna go wif them to chalet. haha, well, i duno wat to eat for bfast, lunch n wnana save up oso. was jus wondering hwo to settle my meals.. ask frns out?? den hor, his invitation came at such hr tat i so LUCKY siazz!!! n hor, when i saw his sms, i even thot the time is out for mi liao.. but it's jus on time =D. so i took his car to the chalet n relaxed myself there.. cool.. the SAF chalet.. fantastic!
oh ya, had lunch at swenson. n i admit i behave intimately wif my cousin boy boy. he invited mi to sit wif him, n i shared my food wif him.. haha, i simply felt i am loving towards him.. in this way,my lunch n bfast settled!
i have to call new company monday moprning to confirm my start date. at night, my right eye twitched. den the next morning, i called, wnana see if they ok wif mi start in late mar. wah, they din ask reason, n jus agreed!! i was stunned!!! they din even ask y.. but hor, sigh, to protect myself, i still cant resign yet. cos not yet sign paper.
den tis evening, my other interview, slated for tues 10am, was postponed, as the ger was unwell. wah, 2 things crop up...
shld i stil send my letter? cos i need 45 days to leave properly...
Sunday, February 05, 2006
fnally.. my PC is up and running fine. no need to spend extra on HD mainbod etc. it's not mi to be pessimistic...
on the day my pc is up, i felt excited at the thot of it. but when it did happen, i din jump at all.. i was kinda hungry to respond in a excited way.
i survived 2 weeks without being online. Or specifically, without my comptuer at all. No Tv, no computer, no messing around wif system files. ahah, now, too much things tat r in my mind, forming bits and pieces of news. after my failure at J2SE, i began reading up on PR n workplace reln books. i learnt from them. den i started to feel the goodness of reading books. since den, i been reading a lot...
over CNY, din get to watch my NY countdown vids, but finished watching the korean drama "Full Hose". even at my aunt;s plc, they watching Rain's HK concert, he was flaunting his bod oso. n my aunt "hinted": y now i suddenly so into Rain? since i felt tat those korean dvds jus boliao... haha, i jus said "the show is funny n hilarious mah" hahah...
n serious, he si really showing off his body in the concert n drama. imagine in the first 4 eps of the show, he jus strip off at every possible scene. he was even wearing shorts at times, revealing his muscled thighs. den the concert, he knows he's cool for his body, not voice. so very often, he will strip off his clothes bit by bit n piece by piece.
he will even rip open his white shirt n kneel down, while water is raining on him... haha...
on the day my pc is up, i felt excited at the thot of it. but when it did happen, i din jump at all.. i was kinda hungry to respond in a excited way.
i survived 2 weeks without being online. Or specifically, without my comptuer at all. No Tv, no computer, no messing around wif system files. ahah, now, too much things tat r in my mind, forming bits and pieces of news. after my failure at J2SE, i began reading up on PR n workplace reln books. i learnt from them. den i started to feel the goodness of reading books. since den, i been reading a lot...
over CNY, din get to watch my NY countdown vids, but finished watching the korean drama "Full Hose". even at my aunt;s plc, they watching Rain's HK concert, he was flaunting his bod oso. n my aunt "hinted": y now i suddenly so into Rain? since i felt tat those korean dvds jus boliao... haha, i jus said "the show is funny n hilarious mah" hahah...
n serious, he si really showing off his body in the concert n drama. imagine in the first 4 eps of the show, he jus strip off at every possible scene. he was even wearing shorts at times, revealing his muscled thighs. den the concert, he knows he's cool for his body, not voice. so very often, he will strip off his clothes bit by bit n piece by piece.
he will even rip open his white shirt n kneel down, while water is raining on him... haha...
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
been a long time since i last blogged... all 'cos my pc is down.. really down.. a lot of things have been happening.. good.. n bad? well, i oni rmb the good things though... wanna forget the bad 1s.. yes, i got internet in office, but i dun use it when i'm not working OT (unlike now). i dun blog during office hours, but after.
umm, well, toked to a poly frn.. jus frn lah, but we chatted for 1.5 hrs siazz.. but, come to think of it, we din meet for a yr, thus lotsa things to say. n i'm happy tat, she comented i've become more confident of myself. yes, i agree. i'm more confident of wat i am, my purpose in being alive and kicking. i exude confidence in my dressing (image), opinions (unless ppl intentionally put mi down, n i dun wish to tok back), relationships, n self worth. my 25th yr of living has been a self-realisation yr.
realising tat frnship last longer than LTR,
even if we like someone, it does not mean we have to have physical contact with him, seeing him happy is enuff liao,
n if u take someone as a frn, u'll want the better for him. u wun mind helping him out watever n however u can.
funny. i'm addicted to a new song now. yes, i was addicted to TATU's All About Us, n stuff. now, i can say, if any GUY is to sing "O-Zone"'s "Dragostea Din Tei", i'll most likely melt. ya, this song came out some time back, abt 6 mths. i heard the song on TV, but tat was when it sounded like disco wif some cutie cartoons. i wasn't turned on by tat.
when the singaporean "guo mei mei" sang it, oh-my-gosh is my response.
den, somehow, i heard on radio or some tv channels, the song starting at "nu ma nu ma..", followed by
"Miya-hee
Miya-hoo
Miya-ho
Miya-haha"
i immediately fell for it. it's cute, funky, simple, relaxing, w/o stress.. jus a fast tempo song, giving u no chance to think too much abt wat it's trying to do. ah, ya, its non-english lyrics helped lotsa. in the english lyrics, its meanings are all revealed. but i still prefer the non-eng 1. feeling the music wif its "non-sensical" lyrics made mi feel someone is entertaning mi to appease mi or to accompany mi when i'm down. saying "relax, calm down, everything will be over soon. i'll b here for u".
haha, am i getting 2 engrossed? well, i'm loving it n ... falling for it.. whichever shld come first logically.
oh ya, after reading up on the 2 bks from NLB, i starting to enjoy reading books. to kill time n to improve my general knowledge. not inot those fictious bks. more to general knowledge... psychology, interpreting ppl's behaviour n finding out the best possible response.
is this a lot to write? nothing in mind to bitch abt. letting things take its place slowly n naturally, writing down wat's happening to mi internally...
umm, well, toked to a poly frn.. jus frn lah, but we chatted for 1.5 hrs siazz.. but, come to think of it, we din meet for a yr, thus lotsa things to say. n i'm happy tat, she comented i've become more confident of myself. yes, i agree. i'm more confident of wat i am, my purpose in being alive and kicking. i exude confidence in my dressing (image), opinions (unless ppl intentionally put mi down, n i dun wish to tok back), relationships, n self worth. my 25th yr of living has been a self-realisation yr.
realising tat frnship last longer than LTR,
even if we like someone, it does not mean we have to have physical contact with him, seeing him happy is enuff liao,
n if u take someone as a frn, u'll want the better for him. u wun mind helping him out watever n however u can.
funny. i'm addicted to a new song now. yes, i was addicted to TATU's All About Us, n stuff. now, i can say, if any GUY is to sing "O-Zone"'s "Dragostea Din Tei", i'll most likely melt. ya, this song came out some time back, abt 6 mths. i heard the song on TV, but tat was when it sounded like disco wif some cutie cartoons. i wasn't turned on by tat.
when the singaporean "guo mei mei" sang it, oh-my-gosh is my response.
den, somehow, i heard on radio or some tv channels, the song starting at "nu ma nu ma..", followed by
"Miya-hee
Miya-hoo
Miya-ho
Miya-haha"
i immediately fell for it. it's cute, funky, simple, relaxing, w/o stress.. jus a fast tempo song, giving u no chance to think too much abt wat it's trying to do. ah, ya, its non-english lyrics helped lotsa. in the english lyrics, its meanings are all revealed. but i still prefer the non-eng 1. feeling the music wif its "non-sensical" lyrics made mi feel someone is entertaning mi to appease mi or to accompany mi when i'm down. saying "relax, calm down, everything will be over soon. i'll b here for u".
haha, am i getting 2 engrossed? well, i'm loving it n ... falling for it.. whichever shld come first logically.
oh ya, after reading up on the 2 bks from NLB, i starting to enjoy reading books. to kill time n to improve my general knowledge. not inot those fictious bks. more to general knowledge... psychology, interpreting ppl's behaviour n finding out the best possible response.
is this a lot to write? nothing in mind to bitch abt. letting things take its place slowly n naturally, writing down wat's happening to mi internally...
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
checking the diff n choosing between k608i n z520i... whcih is better?
wat can i blog? tired of grumbling abt work.. anythign else worth toking?
oh.. firstly, CONGRATzzzz to my gal pal for finding job so fast... i thnk ur peers will jealous liao.. haha... we r in SIMILAR field, so jus ask if u need my help in anything..
at work, as long we knw the focal pt of a person, we will understand y did tat guy say such things. *wah.. loads of things to blog.. but everything jus bit by bit*
wed, supposed to meet someone for sm fun.. n thru meet my crush for ktv. haha, wah, now i so openly call him my crush.. so bei paiseh.. so i think need to still gof or haircut b4 CNY. wah, need to spend extra $.. hehe, but i dun think he knw abt it.. but then, the wed sm changed to sat. so wednesday extra time. but haircut stil a MUZ!
my office suddenly say, due to some training going on, need to work earlier again. har?? den my haircut how? cant go in morning liao?? sianzz.. i ask the snr n sup. know wat? guess their ans?
snr - "den dun get haircut loh". she not joking tone leh. she is seriously suggesting tat i dun get haircut. wah liao. wat attitude!??!?! if our boss say this to her, she sure flare up in our face 1!!! den i told her, today not much things to do in morning anyway. she say she scared thigns crop up.
sup - "nvm, i call the boss to check out" n the boss agreed tat no need start so early.
den snr say "wah, they really so stingy ah, dun wan give OT pay"... wah liao.. wat an attitutde!! as tho i die die muz work like dat!!! there's nothing to do wat!! wat pt i go work so early?? she jus wan to show tat she's right siazz.. damn right!!
got 1 time, a person removed symantec program badly, n she was trying HARD to resolve it. seeing this, i suggested askign the person to install n remove properly. she insisted the person is not free n veli mafan. ok loh. den when she still fail, she say need to get the person to install againliao..
den ytday, we having meeting but sup stil lwanna mi take calls. so i missed parts of the meeting. tis morning, jnr ask y i dunno wat went on in ytday meeting. n den, i dunno which happened first... anyway. i was asking her to ans a call, she was doing 1 thing oni. den she later came my plc, n doubted wat i was trying to do for a user siazz.. as tho i duno wat i doing, n shifting respon.. GOSH... when i telling her the case, she jump to conclusion abt wat can b done. as tho i dunno.damn it.
anyway, abt my self, after confirming tat i can work from nn, i called salon. damn, the stylist wokring from 2pm onwards........ wah laiozzzzzzzz..... how??? if not gonna meet my crush, i dun bother getting hairdone so fast... ok... somehow i arrange wif jnr tat wed, i do morning, so tat i cna do hair after work. haha, snr is like unhappy like dat.. as tho.. i treat work like my plc.. suka suka change time.
so, tmr haricut n thur ktv decided liao. ahah, jus now chatted wif him.. had a nice chat again LOL.. hope we both comfy wif each other's presence.. i've not been closign his msn chat since sunday...
wat can i blog? tired of grumbling abt work.. anythign else worth toking?
oh.. firstly, CONGRATzzzz to my gal pal for finding job so fast... i thnk ur peers will jealous liao.. haha... we r in SIMILAR field, so jus ask if u need my help in anything..
at work, as long we knw the focal pt of a person, we will understand y did tat guy say such things. *wah.. loads of things to blog.. but everything jus bit by bit*
wed, supposed to meet someone for sm fun.. n thru meet my crush for ktv. haha, wah, now i so openly call him my crush.. so bei paiseh.. so i think need to still gof or haircut b4 CNY. wah, need to spend extra $.. hehe, but i dun think he knw abt it.. but then, the wed sm changed to sat. so wednesday extra time. but haircut stil a MUZ!
my office suddenly say, due to some training going on, need to work earlier again. har?? den my haircut how? cant go in morning liao?? sianzz.. i ask the snr n sup. know wat? guess their ans?
snr - "den dun get haircut loh". she not joking tone leh. she is seriously suggesting tat i dun get haircut. wah liao. wat attitude!??!?! if our boss say this to her, she sure flare up in our face 1!!! den i told her, today not much things to do in morning anyway. she say she scared thigns crop up.
sup - "nvm, i call the boss to check out" n the boss agreed tat no need start so early.
den snr say "wah, they really so stingy ah, dun wan give OT pay"... wah liao.. wat an attitutde!! as tho i die die muz work like dat!!! there's nothing to do wat!! wat pt i go work so early?? she jus wan to show tat she's right siazz.. damn right!!
got 1 time, a person removed symantec program badly, n she was trying HARD to resolve it. seeing this, i suggested askign the person to install n remove properly. she insisted the person is not free n veli mafan. ok loh. den when she still fail, she say need to get the person to install againliao..
den ytday, we having meeting but sup stil lwanna mi take calls. so i missed parts of the meeting. tis morning, jnr ask y i dunno wat went on in ytday meeting. n den, i dunno which happened first... anyway. i was asking her to ans a call, she was doing 1 thing oni. den she later came my plc, n doubted wat i was trying to do for a user siazz.. as tho i duno wat i doing, n shifting respon.. GOSH... when i telling her the case, she jump to conclusion abt wat can b done. as tho i dunno.damn it.
anyway, abt my self, after confirming tat i can work from nn, i called salon. damn, the stylist wokring from 2pm onwards........ wah laiozzzzzzzz..... how??? if not gonna meet my crush, i dun bother getting hairdone so fast... ok... somehow i arrange wif jnr tat wed, i do morning, so tat i cna do hair after work. haha, snr is like unhappy like dat.. as tho.. i treat work like my plc.. suka suka change time.
so, tmr haricut n thur ktv decided liao. ahah, jus now chatted wif him.. had a nice chat again LOL.. hope we both comfy wif each other's presence.. i've not been closign his msn chat since sunday...
Saturday, January 21, 2006
is it normal for people to head-dive into a relation, when they feel a thing for that guy?
Somtimes, due to a surge of emotions towards a person, we will want something to happen
btwn ourself, and that person. But after it happened, will we be happy wif the outcome?
no 1 knows, and it will always be a challenge of wat we dare to try.
finally, i'm working in a place for about a year. I understand what it means by Experience Counts. and know why is it important to be relaxed n click wif ur colleagues. haha, while reading the Trust and Betrayal book, i will wana change it to "understand what it means by having ppl to trust u, ask for ur opinion, and belif in ur experience n knowledge when u tell them ur opinion" ahah. sounds so formal n theory. but tis still isn't the plc i wanna... develop my career path in.
umm.. a review of the wk. not bad, pretty much enjoyed it. din really spend mucho $$ but enjoyed myself still. tis is called "lifestyle of a thrifty person". sat, went for swim n got a tanline. but i dun really knw if tis is nice tan, cos when i lok into mirror, my torso stil llook fair to mi. whenj swimming, saw a gorgeous boy (these days, i been wanting to use "gorgeous" to describe ppl who look immensely atrractive n young.. i still prefer "young" to "boyish") changing in poolside. den i saw him coming into the water. nice chest for his body size. gave him a good look 2 times, he "shy" n turned head away.
when i was home (family side) to bath, i realise... it's really good to have a flat to urself. cos, no 1 at home, i din close the bathrm door n towel left somewhere in rm. i done liao, so left the bathrm to take towel. i feel like there is lotsa freedom. freedom tat i loved at tat instant. no restriction, no 1 to control how u live, not afraid of being seen by public n kena reported.
den i watched te korean dvd - "Full House". wah the actor really LOVE to flaunt every part of his body at anytime of the day siazzz... but tat is wat viewers like mah.. haha. but i dun buy 1, or go crazy over him. i take the dvd from my sis n watch! finally, i had dinner wif my gal pal. quite a nice day to spend.
on sunday, focus is on catching up wif a rabbit hhha.. i purposely wore a singlet to meet him ahaha. tried to make some sxual jokes, but he evaded it. den went wif him to shop around. haha, got him to checkotu some jeans. he den showed mi how he looked. w/o 2nd thot, i lifted his shirt at his back. i duno exactly wat i "checking/looking out" for, or maybe jus wanna see more skin? haha, oh well, his briefs not obviously sticking out type. kept toking rot all the way. supposed to leave for appt by 830, but stayed on wif him much later to accompany him.. haha..
den i got home n a surprise awaited mi. the 830 appt let me meet a good looking dude haha.. for a session LOL. he was all smiles siazz.. does tat mean he's trying to look cheerful, approachable, etc?
den, had a chat wif the msn crush. sighzzzzzz, he's sensing his reln is ending liao, cos 2 much factors are affecting it. tried consoling n asking how i can help. he din need anyt... anyway, meetign him tis wk for ktv..
"like him, tell him lah!!" isn't expressing interest in his body already telling him i am fond of him? was planning for haircut after CNY. but now, i think.. i need it ealier liao...
Somtimes, due to a surge of emotions towards a person, we will want something to happen
btwn ourself, and that person. But after it happened, will we be happy wif the outcome?
no 1 knows, and it will always be a challenge of wat we dare to try.
finally, i'm working in a place for about a year. I understand what it means by Experience Counts. and know why is it important to be relaxed n click wif ur colleagues. haha, while reading the Trust and Betrayal book, i will wana change it to "understand what it means by having ppl to trust u, ask for ur opinion, and belif in ur experience n knowledge when u tell them ur opinion" ahah. sounds so formal n theory. but tis still isn't the plc i wanna... develop my career path in.
umm.. a review of the wk. not bad, pretty much enjoyed it. din really spend mucho $$ but enjoyed myself still. tis is called "lifestyle of a thrifty person". sat, went for swim n got a tanline. but i dun really knw if tis is nice tan, cos when i lok into mirror, my torso stil llook fair to mi. whenj swimming, saw a gorgeous boy (these days, i been wanting to use "gorgeous" to describe ppl who look immensely atrractive n young.. i still prefer "young" to "boyish") changing in poolside. den i saw him coming into the water. nice chest for his body size. gave him a good look 2 times, he "shy" n turned head away.
when i was home (family side) to bath, i realise... it's really good to have a flat to urself. cos, no 1 at home, i din close the bathrm door n towel left somewhere in rm. i done liao, so left the bathrm to take towel. i feel like there is lotsa freedom. freedom tat i loved at tat instant. no restriction, no 1 to control how u live, not afraid of being seen by public n kena reported.
den i watched te korean dvd - "Full House". wah the actor really LOVE to flaunt every part of his body at anytime of the day siazzz... but tat is wat viewers like mah.. haha. but i dun buy 1, or go crazy over him. i take the dvd from my sis n watch! finally, i had dinner wif my gal pal. quite a nice day to spend.
on sunday, focus is on catching up wif a rabbit hhha.. i purposely wore a singlet to meet him ahaha. tried to make some sxual jokes, but he evaded it. den went wif him to shop around. haha, got him to checkotu some jeans. he den showed mi how he looked. w/o 2nd thot, i lifted his shirt at his back. i duno exactly wat i "checking/looking out" for, or maybe jus wanna see more skin? haha, oh well, his briefs not obviously sticking out type. kept toking rot all the way. supposed to leave for appt by 830, but stayed on wif him much later to accompany him.. haha..
den i got home n a surprise awaited mi. the 830 appt let me meet a good looking dude haha.. for a session LOL. he was all smiles siazz.. does tat mean he's trying to look cheerful, approachable, etc?
den, had a chat wif the msn crush. sighzzzzzz, he's sensing his reln is ending liao, cos 2 much factors are affecting it. tried consoling n asking how i can help. he din need anyt... anyway, meetign him tis wk for ktv..
"like him, tell him lah!!" isn't expressing interest in his body already telling him i am fond of him? was planning for haircut after CNY. but now, i think.. i need it ealier liao...
Thursday, January 19, 2006
haha, well enuff abt bitching in my office lah.. went to pay my sch fees. a dude attended to mi. blondie yandao, or cutie? he brought mi to the rite person to ans my queries. den while i waiting for an ans, he sat down, n i looked at him. later, jus b4 i left, i looked again haha.
somehow, i felt pretty heart warming n happy when i get a funny msg from an msn guy. it's my crush i guess.. ahha, at my age, ye man. nothing much happen. jus glad n happy to b a frn, consoling pal to him. although we cant b together (he's attached, n i hope it wun fall apart easily), i'm happy to share to his joys n woes, n b there when he need mi. do i sound pitiful??
anyway, few days back, i had asked abt him a painful exp. today, he seem better. he thx mi, 2 times. n gave mi a hug haha. he ask mi how was my day. den he changed his msn pic to a topless 1. tat sure turn mi siazz.. i ask him switch to a clothes pic. he ask mi y. i told hin... "haha.. cos i cant focus doing other stuff if u have those kinda pic in ur msn" he smashed mi ahhaha.. n i pretended i was dead hahah..
it's jus a pretty normal chat, but our style n manner made it fun n.. i enjoyed it. although i really have to control my thots... dun mention those outrageous 1s..
somehow, i felt pretty heart warming n happy when i get a funny msg from an msn guy. it's my crush i guess.. ahha, at my age, ye man. nothing much happen. jus glad n happy to b a frn, consoling pal to him. although we cant b together (he's attached, n i hope it wun fall apart easily), i'm happy to share to his joys n woes, n b there when he need mi. do i sound pitiful??
anyway, few days back, i had asked abt him a painful exp. today, he seem better. he thx mi, 2 times. n gave mi a hug haha. he ask mi how was my day. den he changed his msn pic to a topless 1. tat sure turn mi siazz.. i ask him switch to a clothes pic. he ask mi y. i told hin... "haha.. cos i cant focus doing other stuff if u have those kinda pic in ur msn" he smashed mi ahhaha.. n i pretended i was dead hahah..
it's jus a pretty normal chat, but our style n manner made it fun n.. i enjoyed it. although i really have to control my thots... dun mention those outrageous 1s..
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
time is wed 9.53am. can i finish updating my blog, hunt for jobs, n read my papers?
ytday was quite a fun day, in a -ve way. when i q'ed for my bus at 1230, i was the first in the q, n den 4 ppl joined in. later on, 2 30+yo chinese nationals ladies simply jumped the q by entering from the front of the q. i stared at them. they bochap. i went up.
mi "r u q'ing for the bus or another?"
they "q'ing"
mi "then can u join the q?"
(1 lady began moving)
bitch "oh, dun worry, we wun board the bus first, we'll let u"
i moved back to my position n pointed to the proper entry "tis is the way to enter teh q"
bitch "oh, u can enter there if u wan, i can enter here wat, it's not ur biz"
mi "if u wanna kick up a fuss, i cant do anything. excuse mi, i need to board the bus"
bitch "oh, dun worry, i let u board first"
true enuff, i boarded first, den they boarded, followed by the 4 ppl.
sia suay their own citizens.
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den at work, wah liao, tis time, the snr went 2 far, n i retaliated. i was asking abt a DVD drv whcih i wanna get for my aunt in oz. den she put mi down 1 time, saying dvds r now veli std format liao, can jus buy. ok loh.. she claim tat, fine. wah kauzz, den later when she came backt o office, she wanna 2nd round. she said, buy dvd drv for wat siazz.. to prep for future? wah liao, den might as well ask ppl to buy coffins first loh.. prep mah. tis time, i din hesitate to put her down. until she diam diam.
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den on way home, got a boy who seem to peep at mi siazz. when he sat down, he oso looked at mi from time to time. haha, i din bother much. cos, wat can happen between us leh? i dun mind keep looking at pretty boys/guys, but nothing will happen unless we initiate something.
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den tis morning (wed), i thot i shld q up early for the bank, so tat i can exp something new. haha, the bank open 830, i q outside the bank 750. no diff. den at 830, the door opened, the ppl rushed in. hahah!! first time i felt i was so KS!!! really like those cheapo sale, n ppl rush in at the first min!! haha!! BUT, it appeared tat i q in the wrong side. shld go to remittance counter instead... :-/
ytday was quite a fun day, in a -ve way. when i q'ed for my bus at 1230, i was the first in the q, n den 4 ppl joined in. later on, 2 30+yo chinese nationals ladies simply jumped the q by entering from the front of the q. i stared at them. they bochap. i went up.
mi "r u q'ing for the bus or another?"
they "q'ing"
mi "then can u join the q?"
(1 lady began moving)
bitch "oh, dun worry, we wun board the bus first, we'll let u"
i moved back to my position n pointed to the proper entry "tis is the way to enter teh q"
bitch "oh, u can enter there if u wan, i can enter here wat, it's not ur biz"
mi "if u wanna kick up a fuss, i cant do anything. excuse mi, i need to board the bus"
bitch "oh, dun worry, i let u board first"
true enuff, i boarded first, den they boarded, followed by the 4 ppl.
sia suay their own citizens.
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den at work, wah liao, tis time, the snr went 2 far, n i retaliated. i was asking abt a DVD drv whcih i wanna get for my aunt in oz. den she put mi down 1 time, saying dvds r now veli std format liao, can jus buy. ok loh.. she claim tat, fine. wah kauzz, den later when she came backt o office, she wanna 2nd round. she said, buy dvd drv for wat siazz.. to prep for future? wah liao, den might as well ask ppl to buy coffins first loh.. prep mah. tis time, i din hesitate to put her down. until she diam diam.
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den on way home, got a boy who seem to peep at mi siazz. when he sat down, he oso looked at mi from time to time. haha, i din bother much. cos, wat can happen between us leh? i dun mind keep looking at pretty boys/guys, but nothing will happen unless we initiate something.
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YEAH!!! liu xiao zhou is the 1st runner up in prof scoring, and the top in popularity voting!!!!! YE!!!!!!!! KEEP IT UP!!! if any1 saw my blog, n decided to vote for him 2, THX U!!!!!!!!!
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den tis morning (wed), i thot i shld q up early for the bank, so tat i can exp something new. haha, the bank open 830, i q outside the bank 750. no diff. den at 830, the door opened, the ppl rushed in. hahah!! first time i felt i was so KS!!! really like those cheapo sale, n ppl rush in at the first min!! haha!! BUT, it appeared tat i q in the wrong side. shld go to remittance counter instead... :-/
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Monday, January 16, 2006
actaully.. do i really need to many email addies?? 1 for gossipign wif frns, 1 for formal communication, 1 for junk msgs/forum notiz, 1 for online group msg exchange. do i really need these many addys?? now, i not sure liao. b4 my pacnet died, i use 1 acct to receive joke msgs from frns n to keep in touch wif ppl who dun have msn or fridae email. formal communication is as wat the category says. ie, to send formal mails to any1. den the junk n group is still needed. but wif the rising popularity of msn, n using fridae to tok wif ppl, do i need those 2 singnet acct? let's say, msn let us have instant chat. den email we can use it for ppl who dun have msn, or not online. but email, take so long to reply. might as well use sms. hehe.. given a choice, i'll still wan both singnet accts, but practically, the gossip 1, i dun need anymore.. cos msn much faster...
over dinner, i thot of my 25th yr of living. yes, as said b4, it's my self-realisation yr. other than this, to be calculative, i'm still in my 25th yr of living. my bday is 28/07. which mean a prediction of mine still has 6 mths to come true. am i being hopeful of a fruitful reln? perhaps.. now, i'm clearer abt myself, n better able to see my actions and their conssequences... umm, do i sound veli laychey in order to be in a smooth reln? dunno... i am not used to meeting ppl in a big group unless i knw the ppl WELL. so i end up meeting 1-2 ppl at 1 go oni. 'cos it's 1-2 ppl, usually, i'll need to call up the same 1-2 ppl if i go out. so group outing in tis case is out liao. as i seldom knw ppl in a group. den perhaps i wanna save money for now, i often stay home, costing my social life, becoming pretty much of a loner. being a loner means i may not have the proper chance to communicate wif ppl, so my comm skills may not b good.. hahah, am i giving a long story, jus to say abt my views for a proper reln?? haha... umm... jus take it as tok cock loh... cos i not sure wat i trying to say oso.
umm, sch superstar. cool. i oso wish i ahve the chance to sing on stage, but i lack the coruage in my voice. i dunno wat songs suit mi.
over dinner, i thot of my 25th yr of living. yes, as said b4, it's my self-realisation yr. other than this, to be calculative, i'm still in my 25th yr of living. my bday is 28/07. which mean a prediction of mine still has 6 mths to come true. am i being hopeful of a fruitful reln? perhaps.. now, i'm clearer abt myself, n better able to see my actions and their conssequences... umm, do i sound veli laychey in order to be in a smooth reln? dunno... i am not used to meeting ppl in a big group unless i knw the ppl WELL. so i end up meeting 1-2 ppl at 1 go oni. 'cos it's 1-2 ppl, usually, i'll need to call up the same 1-2 ppl if i go out. so group outing in tis case is out liao. as i seldom knw ppl in a group. den perhaps i wanna save money for now, i often stay home, costing my social life, becoming pretty much of a loner. being a loner means i may not have the proper chance to communicate wif ppl, so my comm skills may not b good.. hahah, am i giving a long story, jus to say abt my views for a proper reln?? haha... umm... jus take it as tok cock loh... cos i not sure wat i trying to say oso.
umm, sch superstar. cool. i oso wish i ahve the chance to sing on stage, but i lack the coruage in my voice. i dunno wat songs suit mi.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
somehow, wat i can conclude abt ytday is, a time lag case.
my first time to be on bed till 4+am n stil lawake, n woke at 7am n slept again, still 11+ den wake up. i totally blur, n dunno wat to do. time wise like all wrong. totally blur like dunno wat to do to kill time. even paiseh'ed myself, as in, i so lost abt wat to do, tat i got HONRY, REAL TIME HONRY. paiseh, as in.. if anyone were to show interest in meeting up, i'll be onzz enuff to invite him over. perhaps just to vent my sexual needs... luckily i still sober enuff to reject the "challenge" to jo in staircase. "challenge", cos it's a stupid 1. how i define stupid? dun ask mi. perhaps not my style, or jus not a gd env to start wif.
but i felt bad at night. i used my gal pal's method to pian jiak a supper from a heartlander. he has tried to ask mi out for dinner/supper a number of times liao, but i often declined. den tis time, i asked if he can treat mi for supper.. he's ok. haha. pian jiak, cos i knw i cant click wfi him. ask him out, more to jus have someone foot my bill oni.
n jus met someone from fridae. haha, jus 1 conclusion: u think u r smart, but i'm not stupid 2 :)
my first time to be on bed till 4+am n stil lawake, n woke at 7am n slept again, still 11+ den wake up. i totally blur, n dunno wat to do. time wise like all wrong. totally blur like dunno wat to do to kill time. even paiseh'ed myself, as in, i so lost abt wat to do, tat i got HONRY, REAL TIME HONRY. paiseh, as in.. if anyone were to show interest in meeting up, i'll be onzz enuff to invite him over. perhaps just to vent my sexual needs... luckily i still sober enuff to reject the "challenge" to jo in staircase. "challenge", cos it's a stupid 1. how i define stupid? dun ask mi. perhaps not my style, or jus not a gd env to start wif.
but i felt bad at night. i used my gal pal's method to pian jiak a supper from a heartlander. he has tried to ask mi out for dinner/supper a number of times liao, but i often declined. den tis time, i asked if he can treat mi for supper.. he's ok. haha. pian jiak, cos i knw i cant click wfi him. ask him out, more to jus have someone foot my bill oni.
n jus met someone from fridae. haha, jus 1 conclusion: u think u r smart, but i'm not stupid 2 :)
Saturday, January 14, 2006
wat's wrong wif mi today?
last night, i was on irc, finding ppl. no luck, n exp some back slashing oso. eg, a person chated wif mi, n i showed him my fridae pix. he say i wear sunglasses on those pic. wan mi send w/o glasses 1. i din send, n ask his pix in return, he insist those pic nto clear enuff n wan mi send him my proper face pix. i din reply him at all.
den since no result, i went to bed. but i jus wanna play wif myself.. DIY ie. from 2+ till 3+am, i was making miself high.. till 4am. din feel like sleeping yet. dozed off a while til 6, woke 7,8 10, n finally 11+. woke up, no idea wat to do. watched some taiwan NY countdown performenace for my amei. den.. went for lunch.
den someone from fridae msg mi, n we end up toking in msn. in msn, we tok abt sex. he sound pretty keen, n i thot have someone coming over. but he has a apptmt n cant come. but he suggested mi going over, n dared mi to jo wif him in staircase. after jo, we can part. i told him it's not my style. he say i dun dare at all. oh well..
tis day.. can say the time is worst spent. nothing done at all. i dunno hwo come. perhaps i'm tired? or ... dunno..
n i wonder if it's gd news. feel horny for 24 hrs. den jus now, a person from fridae suddenly call mi. as tho i know him well enuff siazz!!! stunned n surprised mi wif his call SUDDENLY. i at a loss of wat to say, n he jus kept on toking... our first time to tok leh. i jus kept quiet n replied wif 1 liner. but, at least, it made mi not honry anymore LOL...
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been thru tis wasteful day, i knw/understand y some ppl feel tat it's boring to stay home...
last night, i was on irc, finding ppl. no luck, n exp some back slashing oso. eg, a person chated wif mi, n i showed him my fridae pix. he say i wear sunglasses on those pic. wan mi send w/o glasses 1. i din send, n ask his pix in return, he insist those pic nto clear enuff n wan mi send him my proper face pix. i din reply him at all.
den since no result, i went to bed. but i jus wanna play wif myself.. DIY ie. from 2+ till 3+am, i was making miself high.. till 4am. din feel like sleeping yet. dozed off a while til 6, woke 7,8 10, n finally 11+. woke up, no idea wat to do. watched some taiwan NY countdown performenace for my amei. den.. went for lunch.
den someone from fridae msg mi, n we end up toking in msn. in msn, we tok abt sex. he sound pretty keen, n i thot have someone coming over. but he has a apptmt n cant come. but he suggested mi going over, n dared mi to jo wif him in staircase. after jo, we can part. i told him it's not my style. he say i dun dare at all. oh well..
tis day.. can say the time is worst spent. nothing done at all. i dunno hwo come. perhaps i'm tired? or ... dunno..
n i wonder if it's gd news. feel horny for 24 hrs. den jus now, a person from fridae suddenly call mi. as tho i know him well enuff siazz!!! stunned n surprised mi wif his call SUDDENLY. i at a loss of wat to say, n he jus kept on toking... our first time to tok leh. i jus kept quiet n replied wif 1 liner. but, at least, it made mi not honry anymore LOL...
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been thru tis wasteful day, i knw/understand y some ppl feel tat it's boring to stay home...
Friday, January 13, 2006
both happy n sad to say, during my trip to oz, i learnt tat having multiple faces is somehow the natural way of life. natural, as in nurtured, not innate.. was i confusing?
my definition: it's the normal way to survive in the world. wif diff ppl, u assume diff way fo toking, lvl of understanding n communications. n wif diff ppl, u oso behave diff'ly. if it sounds chim, well, u have to exp it.
happy is tat, thru the trip, i learnt that it's jus the way to make living easier. within urself, u may not liek to spend time wif someone, but soemhow u have to pass time this way. ya, kinda like cannot-click type of frns.
sad is that, this is happening to mi, n i have to hide some facts/knwledge inside myself. if too much facts is made known, it HURTS. *OUCH*. now, everything is based on need-to-know, instead of tell all..
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jus now, on ch 8, there was a touching scene.
a lady is determined to be a big star. she tried all means n ways n even unscrupulous means to hit the headlines. she even caused chaos in the family, n moved out, making her mum furious, on the verge of slapping her, for her loss of dignity
then, there was news tat, her movie flopped big time. her new movie had very little viewers. she din blif it. she went to watch it. true enuff, very few spectators (is there another more appropriate word??). some ppl were there to enjoy 2-party time. some there dozing off.
at last the movie finished. lady got up n abt to leave, when she saw her mum. her mum immediately commended her acting skills r tremendous n she has watched for 5 times. everytime she watch, she observed/learnt something new. the lady wept, and left the cinema in a huff. mum chased after her, n commented that, the director muz b very badly-skilled, causing the lack of viewership. the lady heard these, n broke down... they made up...
well, wat to say... parental love is always the greatest...
my definition: it's the normal way to survive in the world. wif diff ppl, u assume diff way fo toking, lvl of understanding n communications. n wif diff ppl, u oso behave diff'ly. if it sounds chim, well, u have to exp it.
happy is tat, thru the trip, i learnt that it's jus the way to make living easier. within urself, u may not liek to spend time wif someone, but soemhow u have to pass time this way. ya, kinda like cannot-click type of frns.
sad is that, this is happening to mi, n i have to hide some facts/knwledge inside myself. if too much facts is made known, it HURTS. *OUCH*. now, everything is based on need-to-know, instead of tell all..
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jus now, on ch 8, there was a touching scene.
a lady is determined to be a big star. she tried all means n ways n even unscrupulous means to hit the headlines. she even caused chaos in the family, n moved out, making her mum furious, on the verge of slapping her, for her loss of dignity
then, there was news tat, her movie flopped big time. her new movie had very little viewers. she din blif it. she went to watch it. true enuff, very few spectators (is there another more appropriate word??). some ppl were there to enjoy 2-party time. some there dozing off.
at last the movie finished. lady got up n abt to leave, when she saw her mum. her mum immediately commended her acting skills r tremendous n she has watched for 5 times. everytime she watch, she observed/learnt something new. the lady wept, and left the cinema in a huff. mum chased after her, n commented that, the director muz b very badly-skilled, causing the lack of viewership. the lady heard these, n broke down... they made up...
well, wat to say... parental love is always the greatest...
Thursday, January 12, 2006
dunno wat's wif today. the first bad day of the yr.
last night, i slept at 1am, but fell asleep oni abt 130+am. morning, i woke at near 6am, den slept some more. next thing i knw, it's 7.37am. i woke up and rushed for work. i knw i recv a few sms. i din check at all, cos i was jus dormant n resting on the bus. den i entered office, n the new gal say "y nvr reply my sms?". i stepped into my cubicle, n my sup say "u late again. next time u late, can u pls inform at least 1 of us? we dunno who is doing night support n duno who to contact". i oni smilingly "orh orh".
i thot someone stepped on his back. later i thot over it n realised tat, it's jus his work commitment sense getting over-sensitive. everythign almost fine. an agency contact mi, saying that she got opening for helpdesk job.
i asked her, if my resume is seeking helpdesk or programmer job.
she said programmer.
i "In this case, i wld oni be looking at programmer job"
she "but the openings i have at hand r those tat require exp"
i "in tis case, can u keep a lookout for mi, n let mi knw if there is any such positions open?"
she "oh, ok loh, can, thx bye bye"
den, workload is really VERY relaxing. i was almost on the verge of dozing off.
later, i KO on time, n hurried to taek the bus. crowded, but by stroke of luck, i got a seat within mins. but, the trip took 30 mins more than expected. i planned to buy herbal tea to cool my body down. but the shop is not open. den i go library to search for my book, "Trust and betrayal...". i had wanna find it since monday, but no luck at all. today, i used 40 mins to search for shelves. NO LUCK STILL. wat's wrong?? i cant' find it?!? i am exhausted.
den i made my way home. the dinner? leftovers of vege, half eaten fish, few pieces of sour chicken, n a few pieces of beancurd. can i satify my hunger wif these? dun think so. i cook instant mee. mum say "still got chiken wat". i told her, "jus eating those meat wun make mi full"
cooked the mee n ate it. oso asked my mum for a loan for my studies. half a mth's grace more oni. oh ya, n worse, my mp3 player no batt. i change the batt, but dun seem to work oso. did it become faulty, due to rain?
den wondering if i shld take more dinner. but come to think of it, i dun wan spend too much money. still need to buy thsoe lil lil things... which cost money.. i cant anyhow spend liao...
last night, i slept at 1am, but fell asleep oni abt 130+am. morning, i woke at near 6am, den slept some more. next thing i knw, it's 7.37am. i woke up and rushed for work. i knw i recv a few sms. i din check at all, cos i was jus dormant n resting on the bus. den i entered office, n the new gal say "y nvr reply my sms?". i stepped into my cubicle, n my sup say "u late again. next time u late, can u pls inform at least 1 of us? we dunno who is doing night support n duno who to contact". i oni smilingly "orh orh".
i thot someone stepped on his back. later i thot over it n realised tat, it's jus his work commitment sense getting over-sensitive. everythign almost fine. an agency contact mi, saying that she got opening for helpdesk job.
i asked her, if my resume is seeking helpdesk or programmer job.
she said programmer.
i "In this case, i wld oni be looking at programmer job"
she "but the openings i have at hand r those tat require exp"
i "in tis case, can u keep a lookout for mi, n let mi knw if there is any such positions open?"
she "oh, ok loh, can, thx bye bye"
den, workload is really VERY relaxing. i was almost on the verge of dozing off.
later, i KO on time, n hurried to taek the bus. crowded, but by stroke of luck, i got a seat within mins. but, the trip took 30 mins more than expected. i planned to buy herbal tea to cool my body down. but the shop is not open. den i go library to search for my book, "Trust and betrayal...". i had wanna find it since monday, but no luck at all. today, i used 40 mins to search for shelves. NO LUCK STILL. wat's wrong?? i cant' find it?!? i am exhausted.
den i made my way home. the dinner? leftovers of vege, half eaten fish, few pieces of sour chicken, n a few pieces of beancurd. can i satify my hunger wif these? dun think so. i cook instant mee. mum say "still got chiken wat". i told her, "jus eating those meat wun make mi full"
cooked the mee n ate it. oso asked my mum for a loan for my studies. half a mth's grace more oni. oh ya, n worse, my mp3 player no batt. i change the batt, but dun seem to work oso. did it become faulty, due to rain?
den wondering if i shld take more dinner. but come to think of it, i dun wan spend too much money. still need to buy thsoe lil lil things... which cost money.. i cant anyhow spend liao...
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
on sunday, the charity show for "Ren Ci" was shown. Usual "death-defying" stunts were performed. "" 'cos... i dun really categories them as death defying. more to weather u r seasoned to take them on anot. if u fail, the bungee jumping rope is there for u.
wat touched mi tat day was, when Rayson Tan and his wife LP were tasked to move along a few pairs of ropes hanging in mid air, they really did their best to perform well.
They were moving on the slippery ropes. LP is scared of heights (no point for MCS to lie abt this correct?) but willing to push her limits to raise funds. The act is like this. Both are moving on their own lines. But there is no railings or balancing pole for them to carry. the oni choice is to depend on their chemistry n sense of balance, support and trust. 'Cos they have to lean towards each other to gain balance.
LP is scared of ht, so she lean more towards RT. and her legs r shaking , or trembling. HARD. RT's line is almost not moving at all. It's really about mutual trust and support.
Too bad, when they are about to finish, I cna hear audience n ppl jus shouting, or yelling "reaching, reaching!!! quick, last 2 steps oni!!"
kauzz, do they know how much anxiety such yelling of excitement can cause ppl??!?! if the person is damn tired, it can boost the morale. but the person is SCARED STIFF!! mentally, LP maybe prepared to fnish n dun think too much. but the sudden shouting? it can jus disrupt her concentration n determination to not divert her thots n attention, but wah liao, they jus keep shouting.
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by a stroke of luck, my office lent mi a laptop wif WLAN connection to test some software. haha, i sms my gal pal immediately to tell her. ehhe... 1 thing whcih i find funny is, everytime she is better-informed than mi. den tis time, for WLAN access, she ask mi where can she surf WLAN even if she got laptop. heeh, maybe she really outta singapore too long, dinno mc got WLAN..
den hor... ytday, our laptop vendor came over... still so charming as ever. if he use back his beng hairstyle, even more droolsome.
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it's tuesday. last night, singnet acct done up. i think my acct can surf (ask my mum if bro can surf, she dun dare ask). now oni left the webcam to buy (discounted rate of 40$), activate the Album service, antiV, antispam. tmr the WLAN tech guy will go my plc to install the modem. haha... ya, i m thinking of en-acting those vid scenes LOL... if the person is not bad looking lah... n hor, use the laptop to test the WLAN surfing ahha.. cant wait for tmr...
n knw wat? after my pacnet email disabled, i try using gmail n yahoo smtp. but both cant config. yahoo got error msg. but i din boher to read up. den ytday (monday), alas, my singnet email got liao, but my room is using scv, get error when using singnet smtp. laiozz.. end up realise tat i can config my mail such way tat, yahoo can send out email for mi... phew but liewzzz
wat touched mi tat day was, when Rayson Tan and his wife LP were tasked to move along a few pairs of ropes hanging in mid air, they really did their best to perform well.
They were moving on the slippery ropes. LP is scared of heights (no point for MCS to lie abt this correct?) but willing to push her limits to raise funds. The act is like this. Both are moving on their own lines. But there is no railings or balancing pole for them to carry. the oni choice is to depend on their chemistry n sense of balance, support and trust. 'Cos they have to lean towards each other to gain balance.
LP is scared of ht, so she lean more towards RT. and her legs r shaking , or trembling. HARD. RT's line is almost not moving at all. It's really about mutual trust and support.
Too bad, when they are about to finish, I cna hear audience n ppl jus shouting, or yelling "reaching, reaching!!! quick, last 2 steps oni!!"
kauzz, do they know how much anxiety such yelling of excitement can cause ppl??!?! if the person is damn tired, it can boost the morale. but the person is SCARED STIFF!! mentally, LP maybe prepared to fnish n dun think too much. but the sudden shouting? it can jus disrupt her concentration n determination to not divert her thots n attention, but wah liao, they jus keep shouting.
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by a stroke of luck, my office lent mi a laptop wif WLAN connection to test some software. haha, i sms my gal pal immediately to tell her. ehhe... 1 thing whcih i find funny is, everytime she is better-informed than mi. den tis time, for WLAN access, she ask mi where can she surf WLAN even if she got laptop. heeh, maybe she really outta singapore too long, dinno mc got WLAN..
den hor... ytday, our laptop vendor came over... still so charming as ever. if he use back his beng hairstyle, even more droolsome.
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it's tuesday. last night, singnet acct done up. i think my acct can surf (ask my mum if bro can surf, she dun dare ask). now oni left the webcam to buy (discounted rate of 40$), activate the Album service, antiV, antispam. tmr the WLAN tech guy will go my plc to install the modem. haha... ya, i m thinking of en-acting those vid scenes LOL... if the person is not bad looking lah... n hor, use the laptop to test the WLAN surfing ahha.. cant wait for tmr...
n knw wat? after my pacnet email disabled, i try using gmail n yahoo smtp. but both cant config. yahoo got error msg. but i din boher to read up. den ytday (monday), alas, my singnet email got liao, but my room is using scv, get error when using singnet smtp. laiozz.. end up realise tat i can config my mail such way tat, yahoo can send out email for mi... phew but liewzzz
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Another excerpt from "Trust and Betrayal". btw, i need to returnt he book by tmr siazz.. almost finishing half of the book oni..
"If we are pre-occupied with a frantic search for certainty and predictability, it may prevent us from understanding the complexity of dynamic relationships at work. For example, in conversations with co-workers, these individuals may have little tolerance or patience for difference with others. They may come across as self-righteous, speaking in absolutes and thinking in simplistic, black-or-white, good-or-bad terms. People who don't understand or disagree with the points they are hearing may react with a verbal attack. For these people, life is a battle to be won, and the goal is being right and winning at all costs.
"People with this approach have a simple capacity to trust and may have a limited ability to deal with the uncertainty of new situations. For example, when facilitating a team meeting, they may come across as domineering: "May way is the right way". They may have difficulty leading a dialogue session that lacks a formal structure."
I took this excerpt, as it matches my snr's character.
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perhaps having lived for 25 years, n growing more matured n having more confidence, I'm ready to put a face to my blog... :)
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n.. from the way i wrapped my sup's gift, n my frns', i seem to willingly take the time to b innovative n give present wrapping a new lease of life.. or fresher breathe.. instead of the normal sq box wif scotch tape visibly all over the paper.. advertising my services on sgboy...
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i'm experiencing it again: i'm home, so any thot or ... thot comes to my mind, i'll blog it down. veli free hor? ya, clearing those forum msgs, den later apply jobs. i haven't even taken the snaps of adam gorgeous yet (err.. wat's a fabulous word for a guy tat starts wif A??)
ok, i went for lunch downstairs, n brought my pack of nougat wif mi. haha, the guys there was surprised tat i bought something for them siazz. den chatted up wif the young bro. he was kinda nervous (like mi). hehe, alright lah, had a cute, or blur looking, guy sitting wif mi thru'out lunch =D. when i was finding seat, he even invited mi to sit beside mi, saying "scared i eat u up meh"... haha shld i reply "i dun mind. or mayb we can enjoy each other's meat lah"
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sighz, had wanna spend my wkend applying jobs.. but end up clearing forums threads n pix, n watching vids. but 1 thing happy is, after doing some exciting things, n watching vids, i actually had a shocking jo experience: the shots reached my shoulder again!!! for a long time, i've not had such a great distance for jo liao!!! LOL...
n hor, being independent let mi think as an outsider a lot. now, even my sis sometimes oso may not knw why something has to ahppen. like my mum called her frns to bitch, or complain, about the happenings at work. my sis said to mi "dunno why she always have so much thigns to say abt her work" i replied "complain abt work mah".
my sis dun seem to udnerstand that, mum could have grumbles abt her work, but telling us is jus tellign a 3rd party. if she tells her colleague abt it, they may understand the story better n jokes abt it.
but at least, i am almost on par with my sis' reasoning. we discussed abt the usefulness of the terrorism mock tests, n stuff... haha...
"If we are pre-occupied with a frantic search for certainty and predictability, it may prevent us from understanding the complexity of dynamic relationships at work. For example, in conversations with co-workers, these individuals may have little tolerance or patience for difference with others. They may come across as self-righteous, speaking in absolutes and thinking in simplistic, black-or-white, good-or-bad terms. People who don't understand or disagree with the points they are hearing may react with a verbal attack. For these people, life is a battle to be won, and the goal is being right and winning at all costs.
"People with this approach have a simple capacity to trust and may have a limited ability to deal with the uncertainty of new situations. For example, when facilitating a team meeting, they may come across as domineering: "May way is the right way". They may have difficulty leading a dialogue session that lacks a formal structure."
I took this excerpt, as it matches my snr's character.
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perhaps having lived for 25 years, n growing more matured n having more confidence, I'm ready to put a face to my blog... :)
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n.. from the way i wrapped my sup's gift, n my frns', i seem to willingly take the time to b innovative n give present wrapping a new lease of life.. or fresher breathe.. instead of the normal sq box wif scotch tape visibly all over the paper.. advertising my services on sgboy...
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i'm experiencing it again: i'm home, so any thot or ... thot comes to my mind, i'll blog it down. veli free hor? ya, clearing those forum msgs, den later apply jobs. i haven't even taken the snaps of adam gorgeous yet (err.. wat's a fabulous word for a guy tat starts wif A??)
ok, i went for lunch downstairs, n brought my pack of nougat wif mi. haha, the guys there was surprised tat i bought something for them siazz. den chatted up wif the young bro. he was kinda nervous (like mi). hehe, alright lah, had a cute, or blur looking, guy sitting wif mi thru'out lunch =D. when i was finding seat, he even invited mi to sit beside mi, saying "scared i eat u up meh"... haha shld i reply "i dun mind. or mayb we can enjoy each other's meat lah"
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sighz, had wanna spend my wkend applying jobs.. but end up clearing forums threads n pix, n watching vids. but 1 thing happy is, after doing some exciting things, n watching vids, i actually had a shocking jo experience: the shots reached my shoulder again!!! for a long time, i've not had such a great distance for jo liao!!! LOL...
n hor, being independent let mi think as an outsider a lot. now, even my sis sometimes oso may not knw why something has to ahppen. like my mum called her frns to bitch, or complain, about the happenings at work. my sis said to mi "dunno why she always have so much thigns to say abt her work" i replied "complain abt work mah".
my sis dun seem to udnerstand that, mum could have grumbles abt her work, but telling us is jus tellign a 3rd party. if she tells her colleague abt it, they may understand the story better n jokes abt it.
but at least, i am almost on par with my sis' reasoning. we discussed abt the usefulness of the terrorism mock tests, n stuff... haha...
Saturday, January 07, 2006
not enuff water, muz spray a bit more to add special effects... i think any guys present is bound to get an erection.. at such a treat for the eyes... imagine, good body, prtty face, well trained arms, drool-inducing chest n 6 pax, in white pants tat's bound to b translucent when it's wet, revealing other parts of the body tat's supposed to be covered up, n legs apread wide apart. gosh... gosh gosh... if his hands r tied to the chair he's sitting... oh my...
2 cool n sizzling hot pix!!!! HOTTEST EVER!! BURINING HOT!!! IT'S SCALDING!!! cool wet looks, faucet pouring water down his face, while he trying to wipe his face. umm, in tis a/c room, topless, wif room temp (read: a/c'ed water) pouring down his chest, in white pants, i really wonder if any guys can resist his ever strong seductive power, tat oozes from his person.
this is the result of the snaps wif the photographer. supposed to show his manly side... tuff side. top left, i feel he's seducing. top mid, using flowing water as effect, showing his manly cool n sexy hot appeal. top right, a series of thumbnails. bot left, cheeky expression - did he jus bath? LOL. mid bot, his cool face. bot rite, exasperating feel...
Friday, January 06, 2006
tired of bitching abt office happenings, since everyday it's happening... around the same guy.
but it really feels nice to have someone in ur office whom u can speak your mind to. moreover, i've come out to her. it makes things easier to tok :) no qualms abt discusing yandaoz/cuties.
umm.. this is the first wkend of the yr 2006 tat i'm spending. for 05 xmas, i was wif my pals, enjoying life. for the crossing over into 06, i was wif another frn, enjoying my time. now, the first normal wkend of the yr, i'm spending it alone. in my room. nothing sad, nothing wrong. but just the.. group partying feel tat i've been having and enjoying for the past 2 weeks still lingers in me. It's a big change of mood/feel.
But come on, I can't be partying at night/day long. I still have my expenses to take care of. wat's more, job hunting, uploading of pix... ahaha, feel like i'm back to my usual style of living.
plan tmr: go bank get my dbs atm card, take bfast, go swim, go lunch, den come home :)
the new ger, who i came out to, confided in me. i can relate to her emotions. she's open abt herself. she says she does not lie, n i trust her for tat. realised tat, when we r in relns, we may b overwhelmed by our emotions tat we dun have time to reflect on wat we r actually looking for. if there is a break, it may b good to do some self reflection. u can see things clearer. u mature.
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i've just watched superhost. liu xiao zhou is good n performing well. Li Peng seems to catch the gis of hosting and is catching up with him. It seems to me, Li Peng is kinda following how Liu xiao zhou did it. scheming? or i sensitive? anyway, next week, i am prepared to vote for my LXZ hahaa... i dun wan see him out.
but it really feels nice to have someone in ur office whom u can speak your mind to. moreover, i've come out to her. it makes things easier to tok :) no qualms abt discusing yandaoz/cuties.
umm.. this is the first wkend of the yr 2006 tat i'm spending. for 05 xmas, i was wif my pals, enjoying life. for the crossing over into 06, i was wif another frn, enjoying my time. now, the first normal wkend of the yr, i'm spending it alone. in my room. nothing sad, nothing wrong. but just the.. group partying feel tat i've been having and enjoying for the past 2 weeks still lingers in me. It's a big change of mood/feel.
But come on, I can't be partying at night/day long. I still have my expenses to take care of. wat's more, job hunting, uploading of pix... ahaha, feel like i'm back to my usual style of living.
plan tmr: go bank get my dbs atm card, take bfast, go swim, go lunch, den come home :)
the new ger, who i came out to, confided in me. i can relate to her emotions. she's open abt herself. she says she does not lie, n i trust her for tat. realised tat, when we r in relns, we may b overwhelmed by our emotions tat we dun have time to reflect on wat we r actually looking for. if there is a break, it may b good to do some self reflection. u can see things clearer. u mature.
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i've just watched superhost. liu xiao zhou is good n performing well. Li Peng seems to catch the gis of hosting and is catching up with him. It seems to me, Li Peng is kinda following how Liu xiao zhou did it. scheming? or i sensitive? anyway, next week, i am prepared to vote for my LXZ hahaa... i dun wan see him out.
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
forgot to post tis. these days we do OT at times. when i told her, i forgot to bring the info abt my OT timing. she say i shld get a notebook (read: pen n paper) to jot down when i do my OT, if not how to claim $$? gosh, we r in IT age, n we r IT ppl. talk abt notebook? when u have usb drv to store the info? when she forgot her timing, she oni paiseh. when i din take note, she is so critical. oh well. n guess wat, today, she herself forgot to bring her notebook along, leaving it at home. haha
haha... been having not a veli good time at work. OBVIOUS politics, untrusting colleagues.
politics: the nougats, i buy at $AUD20 (S$24.8). colleague ask mi buy for them. i bought 1 pack. sell them S$30 (AUD$23). they complain too ex, n ask if i got bargain anot. even ask mi try DFS shop. den snr ask mi buy nougats n nuts for her. nougats i forgot abt it, nuts i din buy. she seem unhappy. den KK oso show attitude from time to time. i have to be firm wif him siazz.. sianzz...
untrusting: for a long time, jnr din stand behind mi to "teach" mi how to troubleshoot case liao. den on the day i collected the nougat $ from her, when i troubleshoot a case tat takes some time, she stood behind mi again, telling mi wat to do. i ask her y she behind mi, she say "nothing, jus looking oni". SIAOZ. for a long time, such thigns din happen. wah liao.......
den KK haha... again tried to put mi down. well, if thigns get worse, i dun mind playing word games wif him. he even said things like "when cowboys get to u..." i changed it to "cowgers".
nothing much else to tok. livign my life the way i wanna it to be. no regrets, no holding back.
last yr, i had my fair share of good and bad times. it may not b as serious as others, but it's certainly some down time for mi. I have come to realise tat, frns indeed r more impt and they r the ones to stand by u when ugly things happen. in the past, i din treasure frns tat much, n take as granted. n i kinda have some expectations of new frns. now i take things easily. eg, soem frns may keep asking mi some things which i told them b4. well, they keeping asking, i simply keep telling. it simply tells mi how much effort they take to rmb my info.
thus, frns/pals, dun b surprised if i treat u in a much better way these days. independency really made mi grew up n mature.
tiem to find new job...
the book tat i reading now, "Trust and Betrayal in the workplace", has this para:
If we are constantly preoccupied with our own problems, we may be totally unaware of the impact of our behaviour and actions on others. If we are fostering an attitude that the world is treating us poorly, we rarely feel for the pain we cause others. People with a low capacity to trust in them may feel victimised by their circumstances. They may come across as needy and emotionally draining on their co-workers. Their preoccupation with themselves causes them to be unaware of their actions.
This paragraph was true for me. Until I discovered it's much easier and better to live in happiness, and think that no one out there means harm to you. This is naive, of course. But it does make you think and feel positive.
haha... been having not a veli good time at work. OBVIOUS politics, untrusting colleagues.
politics: the nougats, i buy at $AUD20 (S$24.8). colleague ask mi buy for them. i bought 1 pack. sell them S$30 (AUD$23). they complain too ex, n ask if i got bargain anot. even ask mi try DFS shop. den snr ask mi buy nougats n nuts for her. nougats i forgot abt it, nuts i din buy. she seem unhappy. den KK oso show attitude from time to time. i have to be firm wif him siazz.. sianzz...
untrusting: for a long time, jnr din stand behind mi to "teach" mi how to troubleshoot case liao. den on the day i collected the nougat $ from her, when i troubleshoot a case tat takes some time, she stood behind mi again, telling mi wat to do. i ask her y she behind mi, she say "nothing, jus looking oni". SIAOZ. for a long time, such thigns din happen. wah liao.......
den KK haha... again tried to put mi down. well, if thigns get worse, i dun mind playing word games wif him. he even said things like "when cowboys get to u..." i changed it to "cowgers".
nothing much else to tok. livign my life the way i wanna it to be. no regrets, no holding back.
last yr, i had my fair share of good and bad times. it may not b as serious as others, but it's certainly some down time for mi. I have come to realise tat, frns indeed r more impt and they r the ones to stand by u when ugly things happen. in the past, i din treasure frns tat much, n take as granted. n i kinda have some expectations of new frns. now i take things easily. eg, soem frns may keep asking mi some things which i told them b4. well, they keeping asking, i simply keep telling. it simply tells mi how much effort they take to rmb my info.
thus, frns/pals, dun b surprised if i treat u in a much better way these days. independency really made mi grew up n mature.
tiem to find new job...
the book tat i reading now, "Trust and Betrayal in the workplace", has this para:
If we are constantly preoccupied with our own problems, we may be totally unaware of the impact of our behaviour and actions on others. If we are fostering an attitude that the world is treating us poorly, we rarely feel for the pain we cause others. People with a low capacity to trust in them may feel victimised by their circumstances. They may come across as needy and emotionally draining on their co-workers. Their preoccupation with themselves causes them to be unaware of their actions.
This paragraph was true for me. Until I discovered it's much easier and better to live in happiness, and think that no one out there means harm to you. This is naive, of course. But it does make you think and feel positive.
after the celebs, we went to shop around, n i got to know of a cool n 21st century single mum. she is cooln modern thinking. she stays in contact wif her ex hub. has a smart boy a decade younger than mi, spots blonde hair, spouts vulgarity like no 1's biz, n direct n frank abt ppl.
in summary, i reach home 3+pm on sunday, rested n slept from 4-5pm to 8pm. my gal pal called me to claim back her lugg from mi. haha.. had so much fun wif her siazz... ahahaha.. i dun think i blogged tis yet: over msn, whenever i tok to her,she has tis bochap n nonetheless attitude, tat leaves mi no topic to chat wif her. but when she's relaxed, we can chat hell lot. n she wanna dupe mi to send her home. LOL. i not gonna fall for her trap!!
tiring siazz.. n next morning stil went for mac bfast. met a new guy for mac bfast. he is perhaps of a quiet type. so we din really click properly. but i guided him on roller blading, n he oso wanna help in singing oso. umm, not a nice face or perhaps even person, but alright lah. at hi-bi frn. got home, wondering wat else to do. suddenly rmb lotsa backdated things to clear siazz.. blog, pix, cam. siao. clear till 4pm feel sleepy n tired. woke at 8pm n forced myself up to iron office clothes.
came home from dinner, n tried my best to clear the pix n PC chores. wah liao, if someone keeps suaning u, does it reflect a unbalan mentality on him? cos watever i say to him, he always reply in a sarcastic manner. or is he taking sarcacism as jovial attitude? he is cool n good wif words as well.
ahahha, jus had to comment, it's fun n free to live by ur own.
den for the first work day of the new yr, i gave out the presents to the office ppl. hhha, for my sup's gift, while unpacking the cologne bundle given to mi on my 21st bday a few days back, i saw a toilette bottle. check wif my frn n realised it's still usable cos it dun expire. ahha, my gift is now available freely!! i gave it to my sup.
kuazz, knw wat the snr say? "tis brand very common 1 wat. go everywhere oso got ppl buy n use ler. "
b4 the gift was unwrapped: "wah give so small present?? meet the budget anot??"
comeon, its the thot tat counts. she often initiates buying bday present for colleagues. for gers, she knw tat giving voucher is betr. for guys, she prefer buying tops, cos hard to buy. now i buy the cologne, she say such tings. gosh, it;s the thot tat counts... it's not suka-suka buy 1 ok? gave it some thots 1. anyway she dun read my blog 1, so it's jus grumbling here.
den she ask wat food i eat in oz. "u got tell them dun put tau gay anot?" i replied "oz ppl dun have tau gay 1" she remain in silence.
den i bought chocolate to office to share. "hey, dun eat 2 much choco ah, later get mc again"
when i dozed off near ko time, "u ok anot? later dun fall asleep siazz"
for her above comments, i reply when i can think of a proper ans. if not, i jus discard her wilful thots.
n this morning, KK saw my choco bag n commented "it look like kopi beans"
i said "not really"
he "umm, i mean tat is my own opinion tat it look like kopi bean lah"
i "yap, n tat is my own opinion tat it does not"
he "umm, but it sounded like u r saying 'nope, u r wrong'. as tho there is right n wrong opinion"
i "well, it depends on how u interpret it"
he "ya, u got a pt there"
haha, 1 funny thign is, i was not able to do some work over the wkend. i told the snr, she wonder y i din do it in office. did she forget wat time she passed the work to us? n wat time WE had to leave the office? anyway, i continued my work. KK had his done abt 40%. in office, i started mine almost from scratch. i finished 95% before lunch. he was still on his 45% b4 he went for lunch. when i came back, he's done almost 90% oso. haha, feel as tho he really trying hard to appear as diligent. to mi, he is appearing as he-is-as-gd-as-mi.
the jnr came back from holiday. n jnr n kk din lunch together. i think they r starting to spread...
if i summarise my impresson of my colleagues, do i sound analytical n great? or over-confident of myself n braggart?
sup: he knws his stuff n knw when to push
snr: she knw his tech stuff, but she dun rmb things well. often imposes her ideas on us
jnr: a very impatient person who cant b inactive for a while. easily stressed up?
KK: a person who is keen on leaving a good impression on ppl who can help in his career.
in summary, i reach home 3+pm on sunday, rested n slept from 4-5pm to 8pm. my gal pal called me to claim back her lugg from mi. haha.. had so much fun wif her siazz... ahahaha.. i dun think i blogged tis yet: over msn, whenever i tok to her,she has tis bochap n nonetheless attitude, tat leaves mi no topic to chat wif her. but when she's relaxed, we can chat hell lot. n she wanna dupe mi to send her home. LOL. i not gonna fall for her trap!!
tiring siazz.. n next morning stil went for mac bfast. met a new guy for mac bfast. he is perhaps of a quiet type. so we din really click properly. but i guided him on roller blading, n he oso wanna help in singing oso. umm, not a nice face or perhaps even person, but alright lah. at hi-bi frn. got home, wondering wat else to do. suddenly rmb lotsa backdated things to clear siazz.. blog, pix, cam. siao. clear till 4pm feel sleepy n tired. woke at 8pm n forced myself up to iron office clothes.
came home from dinner, n tried my best to clear the pix n PC chores. wah liao, if someone keeps suaning u, does it reflect a unbalan mentality on him? cos watever i say to him, he always reply in a sarcastic manner. or is he taking sarcacism as jovial attitude? he is cool n good wif words as well.
ahahha, jus had to comment, it's fun n free to live by ur own.
den for the first work day of the new yr, i gave out the presents to the office ppl. hhha, for my sup's gift, while unpacking the cologne bundle given to mi on my 21st bday a few days back, i saw a toilette bottle. check wif my frn n realised it's still usable cos it dun expire. ahha, my gift is now available freely!! i gave it to my sup.
kuazz, knw wat the snr say? "tis brand very common 1 wat. go everywhere oso got ppl buy n use ler. "
b4 the gift was unwrapped: "wah give so small present?? meet the budget anot??"
comeon, its the thot tat counts. she often initiates buying bday present for colleagues. for gers, she knw tat giving voucher is betr. for guys, she prefer buying tops, cos hard to buy. now i buy the cologne, she say such tings. gosh, it;s the thot tat counts... it's not suka-suka buy 1 ok? gave it some thots 1. anyway she dun read my blog 1, so it's jus grumbling here.
den she ask wat food i eat in oz. "u got tell them dun put tau gay anot?" i replied "oz ppl dun have tau gay 1" she remain in silence.
den i bought chocolate to office to share. "hey, dun eat 2 much choco ah, later get mc again"
when i dozed off near ko time, "u ok anot? later dun fall asleep siazz"
for her above comments, i reply when i can think of a proper ans. if not, i jus discard her wilful thots.
n this morning, KK saw my choco bag n commented "it look like kopi beans"
i said "not really"
he "umm, i mean tat is my own opinion tat it look like kopi bean lah"
i "yap, n tat is my own opinion tat it does not"
he "umm, but it sounded like u r saying 'nope, u r wrong'. as tho there is right n wrong opinion"
i "well, it depends on how u interpret it"
he "ya, u got a pt there"
haha, 1 funny thign is, i was not able to do some work over the wkend. i told the snr, she wonder y i din do it in office. did she forget wat time she passed the work to us? n wat time WE had to leave the office? anyway, i continued my work. KK had his done abt 40%. in office, i started mine almost from scratch. i finished 95% before lunch. he was still on his 45% b4 he went for lunch. when i came back, he's done almost 90% oso. haha, feel as tho he really trying hard to appear as diligent. to mi, he is appearing as he-is-as-gd-as-mi.
the jnr came back from holiday. n jnr n kk din lunch together. i think they r starting to spread...
if i summarise my impresson of my colleagues, do i sound analytical n great? or over-confident of myself n braggart?
sup: he knws his stuff n knw when to push
snr: she knw his tech stuff, but she dun rmb things well. often imposes her ideas on us
jnr: a very impatient person who cant b inactive for a while. easily stressed up?
KK: a person who is keen on leaving a good impression on ppl who can help in his career.
Monday, January 02, 2006
down to last few days oni...
after the party, i got home abt 2am. dun wan bath, jus slept. tmr stil lmuz wake at 8am to go bank get atm card. but ALAS!! i woke at 9am, n skipped the atm totally. i need to prepare for a day out for the coutndown. i wonder if it'll be boring, cos oni mi n a frn. this frn, i seldom tok, but he's charismatic n heklpful n resourceful. so we met n proceeded on the gym, sauna n swimming n jaccuzzi. it was awesome!!!! it's a totally diff NYE tat i usually had!!!
ya, at times, i did see my frn peeping n ogling mi when i work out... but i'm alright wif it. ahah, but i have a funy idea (read: fantasy) when we inside sauna. we all jus wear a towel inside 1 right? we sitting there open leg, leaving the corners of the towel loose so we can cover the pte well. but wat if we made some small moves, n the cover reveal a bit?n ppl opposite us can see inside liao... when ig ot in, someone was lying face down on the bench. naked. if he's facing up in towel, hehe..... i guess tis is the commonest reason for thigna happening around there.
after tat, his 2 KID frns (16-17 yo oni) came over to look for him. they wearing low cut attire, so i was look at their cute faces n peeping into their shirts hahahah... but oh well, they sound so juvenile n immmature i dunno wat to tok to them. anyway, they keep toking among themeselves tat i have no space to move into. according to my frn, the taller guy is more proper mannered. the shorter 1 is not gd. i find the shorter guy way cuter. a REAL CUTIE. got 1 time, cutie joking abt letting my frn enter him, i voiced out "u mind 3some?" my frn luffed his head off, n the cutie simply said "spare my butt" haha...
den we went off to join his beng frns in chinatown there. haah.. from him, i know some of the ppl there.. jus know oni lah.. 1 beng wif GI hair, 1 lian, 1 kiddy beng. hahaha... finding the GI beng cute, (his ations, not his body/face), i wnana take pic of him. he was surprised. i told him i wanan capture the GI hair hahaha... had 1.5 glass of beer there, until i was all red in my face. den later, my frn bring mi to tantric. met an attractive guy there... he's a Nus student, tutoring as partime job. he even thot i was his student hahah... had gin tonic. really getting dizzy. the nuz guy seem to b potato-inclined tho.. b4 i left, i told him in his ear, he's desirable hahah...
finally made our way to a hotal room booked by his frn. 2 married couples n 2 single str8 guys. haah... my frn went havoc n teased the singles. haha, made the whole plce rock. together wif his frn, they turned the place upside down. i captured lotsa shots. including a striptease scene hahaha... never had this load of teasing fun in my life. 25 is my golden yr. n i really find that, it's much more worth the effort to know a frn than to try a reln wif him, and end up possibly severing frnship when things turn awry. when the reln hurts too much, it's time to stop n not look back. if it hurts to look back, i'll choose to erase tat part of my memory.
n i did learn to take his easy n cool, no longer tat serious n afraid of things. probably 'cos i know how to fend for myself n so,i can take things easily n not scared of being bullied.
n it's strange tat, for frnship, u can ensure his bad ways n look at his good sides. but when it comes to reln, an oops n the reln cld b done. at least this is wat i experienced...
have i really grown much more confident of myself? cos i intend to put a link to my pix... all of them.. those family-oriented types, to be placed in my blog. so tat ppl can see mi. the pix i took in australia, i'm proud of how i look. i'm confident of my mannerism n image tat i know, if someone does not appreciate, there r some who do. n reading some "trust at workplace" books oso helped mi in handling office relns...
i'm no longer affected by criticism or how negatively ppl may see mi, cos i know how n wat i am. altho i dun have many friends ot hang out wif, i do know some who r nice ppl. they may be sexaully attracted to mi, but when i need help ,i can call them n they r ready.
as for the NY party, when my frn's frn was pretty sober, he's normal. when he's drunk, he gets wild n kinky. hahah. when he's kinky, he feel like harlem Yu. n i actually had my lens on for 26 hrs long LOL.. did i break my personal record?
after the party, i got home abt 2am. dun wan bath, jus slept. tmr stil lmuz wake at 8am to go bank get atm card. but ALAS!! i woke at 9am, n skipped the atm totally. i need to prepare for a day out for the coutndown. i wonder if it'll be boring, cos oni mi n a frn. this frn, i seldom tok, but he's charismatic n heklpful n resourceful. so we met n proceeded on the gym, sauna n swimming n jaccuzzi. it was awesome!!!! it's a totally diff NYE tat i usually had!!!
ya, at times, i did see my frn peeping n ogling mi when i work out... but i'm alright wif it. ahah, but i have a funy idea (read: fantasy) when we inside sauna. we all jus wear a towel inside 1 right? we sitting there open leg, leaving the corners of the towel loose so we can cover the pte well. but wat if we made some small moves, n the cover reveal a bit?n ppl opposite us can see inside liao... when ig ot in, someone was lying face down on the bench. naked. if he's facing up in towel, hehe..... i guess tis is the commonest reason for thigna happening around there.
after tat, his 2 KID frns (16-17 yo oni) came over to look for him. they wearing low cut attire, so i was look at their cute faces n peeping into their shirts hahahah... but oh well, they sound so juvenile n immmature i dunno wat to tok to them. anyway, they keep toking among themeselves tat i have no space to move into. according to my frn, the taller guy is more proper mannered. the shorter 1 is not gd. i find the shorter guy way cuter. a REAL CUTIE. got 1 time, cutie joking abt letting my frn enter him, i voiced out "u mind 3some?" my frn luffed his head off, n the cutie simply said "spare my butt" haha...
den we went off to join his beng frns in chinatown there. haah.. from him, i know some of the ppl there.. jus know oni lah.. 1 beng wif GI hair, 1 lian, 1 kiddy beng. hahaha... finding the GI beng cute, (his ations, not his body/face), i wnana take pic of him. he was surprised. i told him i wanan capture the GI hair hahaha... had 1.5 glass of beer there, until i was all red in my face. den later, my frn bring mi to tantric. met an attractive guy there... he's a Nus student, tutoring as partime job. he even thot i was his student hahah... had gin tonic. really getting dizzy. the nuz guy seem to b potato-inclined tho.. b4 i left, i told him in his ear, he's desirable hahah...
finally made our way to a hotal room booked by his frn. 2 married couples n 2 single str8 guys. haah... my frn went havoc n teased the singles. haha, made the whole plce rock. together wif his frn, they turned the place upside down. i captured lotsa shots. including a striptease scene hahaha... never had this load of teasing fun in my life. 25 is my golden yr. n i really find that, it's much more worth the effort to know a frn than to try a reln wif him, and end up possibly severing frnship when things turn awry. when the reln hurts too much, it's time to stop n not look back. if it hurts to look back, i'll choose to erase tat part of my memory.
n i did learn to take his easy n cool, no longer tat serious n afraid of things. probably 'cos i know how to fend for myself n so,i can take things easily n not scared of being bullied.
n it's strange tat, for frnship, u can ensure his bad ways n look at his good sides. but when it comes to reln, an oops n the reln cld b done. at least this is wat i experienced...
have i really grown much more confident of myself? cos i intend to put a link to my pix... all of them.. those family-oriented types, to be placed in my blog. so tat ppl can see mi. the pix i took in australia, i'm proud of how i look. i'm confident of my mannerism n image tat i know, if someone does not appreciate, there r some who do. n reading some "trust at workplace" books oso helped mi in handling office relns...
i'm no longer affected by criticism or how negatively ppl may see mi, cos i know how n wat i am. altho i dun have many friends ot hang out wif, i do know some who r nice ppl. they may be sexaully attracted to mi, but when i need help ,i can call them n they r ready.
as for the NY party, when my frn's frn was pretty sober, he's normal. when he's drunk, he gets wild n kinky. hahah. when he's kinky, he feel like harlem Yu. n i actually had my lens on for 26 hrs long LOL.. did i break my personal record?
when i got home from airport, i unpacked my things.. wow... i am PROUD!!!! chatting n gossipping abt stuff... n bunking over my family there, i slept at 1am. next day i had tang yuen. traditional type. sighzz.. i was wondering if i shld still go for my sec frns outing tat day. cos i really broke. was considering hard. but i still went, cos i'm finding it hard to go out, catch up wif frns. since got this chance to catch up wif many ppl, might as well go join.
wat piss mi off slightly is, a sec frn, he was walking up the escalator. i waved at him.other ppl saw mi, he din. n wat's more, his gaze is just in my diretion. i told him this n he said, maybe he's sleeping. alright. den in the cinema (we watching narnia), (this reminds mi of something on the way home), he was holding a BAG of popcorns. so i wnana get some (i even asked him first). first time, i took a lil. 2nd time, he say "nvm, whole bag give u" i told himi dun need but he jus left it on my lap. i took a lil, kept it on my lap, for 5 mins, he din touch at all. i return back to him, he continued munching.
i still rmb, during our prev lunch gathering b4 xmas, i used my cam to take pix, cos it carries XXX pix, i told them it has pte pix. they were curious abt it n wanan see. but i teasingly rejected all. he's the oni 1 who utttered nothing. den later, i using my blue tooth, n 1 guy wanan check it out. i teased tat it's PTE oso, den this sec frn say "i think u're getting paranoid". wonder who deserves tis line more.
n den the xmas bbq, he oso tis attitude. even during our bbq, the group wanna us go start fire first. i asked if he know how to start fire, he say "of course LAH!" in a defensive tone. when he starting the bbq, he ask "how come all bits n pieces 1"? i smiled. den the gang came down n surprised y the fire din start. they den commented the charcoal was put in wrongly... n surprised tat the big ones not used at all...
next few days r all working days... which i really... unahppy abt KK. jus a few things to blog as summary.
1) he dun followup his cases
2) tell him to edit some things, he take his own sweet time n dun blif it
3) slacker.
4) let him knw a better way to do things, he scorned.
5) a case pending for days, he din call back. until the person called, he den admited to not calling yet. den i toking to that person. n he picked a call meant for mi. he wannna transfer the cal to mi. GOSH.
got 1 time, i back from lunch. he said "i'm so full" i wana say "full of urself, or food?" to sia sway him. but well, i dun wan things to turn out badly.
until friday.. den some excitment came. ppl ask mi over for some sm pte party. got a kid who prtty interested in it, but have attitude. i tok to him over phone.. he.. kinda exagg tis n tat.. self praise to the skies.. say he veli handsome, n many ppl into him. n even got sex dates every now n den alright.. i've seen trhu these oredi. but i really hope some more ppl will coem, i tookt he time to persuade him to go, since he had bad experience. but it turned out... he's either despo for proper sex, or he's really keen on mi... but i'm not.
cos... when he arrived but i nto there to welcome him, he shouted "y u so quiet? jus now on the phone u so much to say?". i just paid him back in his attitude. n he left pretty early, although he kept wanting to come my place. int he party, the slave was of a good build n shape. nice body. 2 bad he's not into nipple licking, if not i'd have cummed onto him. after the session, had some alcoholic drnks. wah, liao... i drink till i drwosy siazz..
umm, btw, i'm really thankful tat, although i'm not into such kinky n strong M&S stuff, the other 2 masters wilingly let mi join in n play a part.. ie, i din do much things, but they dun mind letting mi play wif their slaves...
oh.. abt the movies.. am i getting touched easily these days? but contrlling myself well still? cos i was watching choco factory movie in plane home, the shwo is abt a poor kid who hopes to visit the factory. his family tried to help him by buying the sweets. time n again, he was dsiappointed. as usual, ppl who got the sweets first r those undeserving of it. even whent he grandpa was dismissed at work, the money was used for the choco. for his dreams... cool... i was weeping within myself. it somehow reflected on my childhood, when i was so poor n knw a shit thing abt everything.
den next mov is narnia. i saw how the boys n guys (the elder bro, peter look so charming like the prince charles) grow up n treat each other. they r so young, impulsive n i can guess wat's going on in their minds. i've been thru it myself. i know the reason behind their doings... their purposes...
wat piss mi off slightly is, a sec frn, he was walking up the escalator. i waved at him.other ppl saw mi, he din. n wat's more, his gaze is just in my diretion. i told him this n he said, maybe he's sleeping. alright. den in the cinema (we watching narnia), (this reminds mi of something on the way home), he was holding a BAG of popcorns. so i wnana get some (i even asked him first). first time, i took a lil. 2nd time, he say "nvm, whole bag give u" i told himi dun need but he jus left it on my lap. i took a lil, kept it on my lap, for 5 mins, he din touch at all. i return back to him, he continued munching.
i still rmb, during our prev lunch gathering b4 xmas, i used my cam to take pix, cos it carries XXX pix, i told them it has pte pix. they were curious abt it n wanan see. but i teasingly rejected all. he's the oni 1 who utttered nothing. den later, i using my blue tooth, n 1 guy wanan check it out. i teased tat it's PTE oso, den this sec frn say "i think u're getting paranoid". wonder who deserves tis line more.
n den the xmas bbq, he oso tis attitude. even during our bbq, the group wanna us go start fire first. i asked if he know how to start fire, he say "of course LAH!" in a defensive tone. when he starting the bbq, he ask "how come all bits n pieces 1"? i smiled. den the gang came down n surprised y the fire din start. they den commented the charcoal was put in wrongly... n surprised tat the big ones not used at all...
next few days r all working days... which i really... unahppy abt KK. jus a few things to blog as summary.
1) he dun followup his cases
2) tell him to edit some things, he take his own sweet time n dun blif it
3) slacker.
4) let him knw a better way to do things, he scorned.
5) a case pending for days, he din call back. until the person called, he den admited to not calling yet. den i toking to that person. n he picked a call meant for mi. he wannna transfer the cal to mi. GOSH.
got 1 time, i back from lunch. he said "i'm so full" i wana say "full of urself, or food?" to sia sway him. but well, i dun wan things to turn out badly.
until friday.. den some excitment came. ppl ask mi over for some sm pte party. got a kid who prtty interested in it, but have attitude. i tok to him over phone.. he.. kinda exagg tis n tat.. self praise to the skies.. say he veli handsome, n many ppl into him. n even got sex dates every now n den alright.. i've seen trhu these oredi. but i really hope some more ppl will coem, i tookt he time to persuade him to go, since he had bad experience. but it turned out... he's either despo for proper sex, or he's really keen on mi... but i'm not.
cos... when he arrived but i nto there to welcome him, he shouted "y u so quiet? jus now on the phone u so much to say?". i just paid him back in his attitude. n he left pretty early, although he kept wanting to come my place. int he party, the slave was of a good build n shape. nice body. 2 bad he's not into nipple licking, if not i'd have cummed onto him. after the session, had some alcoholic drnks. wah, liao... i drink till i drwosy siazz..
umm, btw, i'm really thankful tat, although i'm not into such kinky n strong M&S stuff, the other 2 masters wilingly let mi join in n play a part.. ie, i din do much things, but they dun mind letting mi play wif their slaves...
oh.. abt the movies.. am i getting touched easily these days? but contrlling myself well still? cos i was watching choco factory movie in plane home, the shwo is abt a poor kid who hopes to visit the factory. his family tried to help him by buying the sweets. time n again, he was dsiappointed. as usual, ppl who got the sweets first r those undeserving of it. even whent he grandpa was dismissed at work, the money was used for the choco. for his dreams... cool... i was weeping within myself. it somehow reflected on my childhood, when i was so poor n knw a shit thing abt everything.
den next mov is narnia. i saw how the boys n guys (the elder bro, peter look so charming like the prince charles) grow up n treat each other. they r so young, impulsive n i can guess wat's going on in their minds. i've been thru it myself. i know the reason behind their doings... their purposes...
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