MC looks radiant!

haha, well enuff abt bitching in my office lah.. went to pay my sch fees. a dude attended to mi. blondie yandao, or cutie? he brought mi to the rite person to ans my queries. den while i waiting for an ans, he sat down, n i looked at him. later, jus b4 i left, i looked again haha.

somehow, i felt pretty heart warming n happy when i get a funny msg from an msn guy. it's my crush i guess.. ahha, at my age, ye man. nothing much happen. jus glad n happy to b a frn, consoling pal to him. although we cant b together (he's attached, n i hope it wun fall apart easily), i'm happy to share to his joys n woes, n b there when he need mi. do i sound pitiful??

anyway, few days back, i had asked abt him a painful exp. today, he seem better. he thx mi, 2 times. n gave mi a hug haha. he ask mi how was my day. den he changed his msn pic to a topless 1. tat sure turn mi siazz.. i ask him switch to a clothes pic. he ask mi y. i told hin... "haha.. cos i cant focus doing other stuff if u have those kinda pic in ur msn" he smashed mi ahhaha.. n i pretended i was dead hahah..

it's jus a pretty normal chat, but our style n manner made it fun n.. i enjoyed it. although i really have to control my thots... dun mention those outrageous 1s..

i hereby declare that I have signed the petition against XX

time is wed 9.53am. can i finish updating my blog, hunt for jobs, n read my papers?

ytday was quite a fun day, in a -ve way. when i q'ed for my bus at 1230, i was the first in the q, n den 4 ppl joined in. later on, 2 30+yo chinese nationals ladies simply jumped the q by entering from the front of the q. i stared at them. they bochap. i went up.
mi "r u q'ing for the bus or another?"
they "q'ing"
mi "then can u join the q?"
(1 lady began moving)
bitch "oh, dun worry, we wun board the bus first, we'll let u"
i moved back to my position n pointed to the proper entry "tis is the way to enter teh q"
bitch "oh, u can enter there if u wan, i can enter here wat, it's not ur biz"
mi "if u wanna kick up a fuss, i cant do anything. excuse mi, i need to board the bus"
bitch "oh, dun worry, i let u board first"

true enuff, i boarded first, den they boarded, followed by the 4 ppl.

sia suay their own citizens.

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den at work, wah liao, tis time, the snr went 2 far, n i retaliated. i was asking abt a DVD drv whcih i wanna get for my aunt in oz. den she put mi down 1 time, saying dvds r now veli std format liao, can jus buy. ok loh.. she claim tat, fine. wah kauzz, den later when she came backt o office, she wanna 2nd round. she said, buy dvd drv for wat siazz.. to prep for future? wah liao, den might as well ask ppl to buy coffins first loh.. prep mah. tis time, i din hesitate to put her down. until she diam diam.

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den on way home, got a boy who seem to peep at mi siazz. when he sat down, he oso looked at mi from time to time. haha, i din bother much. cos, wat can happen between us leh? i dun mind keep looking at pretty boys/guys, but nothing will happen unless we initiate something.

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YEAH!!! liu xiao zhou is the 1st runner up in prof scoring, and the top in popularity voting!!!!! YE!!!!!!!! KEEP IT UP!!! if any1 saw my blog, n decided to vote for him 2, THX U!!!!!!!!!

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den tis morning (wed), i thot i shld q up early for the bank, so tat i can exp something new. haha, the bank open 830, i q outside the bank 750. no diff. den at 830, the door opened, the ppl rushed in. hahah!! first time i felt i was so KS!!! really like those cheapo sale, n ppl rush in at the first min!! haha!! BUT, it appeared tat i q in the wrong side. shld go to remittance counter instead... :-/

PLS DUN LET LIU XIAO ZHOU LEAVE THE STAGE DISAPPOINTED...

actaully.. do i really need to many email addies?? 1 for gossipign wif frns, 1 for formal communication, 1 for junk msgs/forum notiz, 1 for online group msg exchange. do i really need these many addys?? now, i not sure liao. b4 my pacnet died, i use 1 acct to receive joke msgs from frns n to keep in touch wif ppl who dun have msn or fridae email. formal communication is as wat the category says. ie, to send formal mails to any1. den the junk n group is still needed. but wif the rising popularity of msn, n using fridae to tok wif ppl, do i need those 2 singnet acct? let's say, msn let us have instant chat. den email we can use it for ppl who dun have msn, or not online. but email, take so long to reply. might as well use sms. hehe.. given a choice, i'll still wan both singnet accts, but practically, the gossip 1, i dun need anymore.. cos msn much faster...

over dinner, i thot of my 25th yr of living. yes, as said b4, it's my self-realisation yr. other than this, to be calculative, i'm still in my 25th yr of living. my bday is 28/07. which mean a prediction of mine still has 6 mths to come true. am i being hopeful of a fruitful reln? perhaps.. now, i'm clearer abt myself, n better able to see my actions and their conssequences... umm, do i sound veli laychey in order to be in a smooth reln? dunno... i am not used to meeting ppl in a big group unless i knw the ppl WELL. so i end up meeting 1-2 ppl at 1 go oni. 'cos it's 1-2 ppl, usually, i'll need to call up the same 1-2 ppl if i go out. so group outing in tis case is out liao. as i seldom knw ppl in a group. den perhaps i wanna save money for now, i often stay home, costing my social life, becoming pretty much of a loner. being a loner means i may not have the proper chance to communicate wif ppl, so my comm skills may not b good.. hahah, am i giving a long story, jus to say abt my views for a proper reln?? haha... umm... jus take it as tok cock loh... cos i not sure wat i trying to say oso.

umm, sch superstar. cool. i oso wish i ahve the chance to sing on stage, but i lack the coruage in my voice. i dunno wat songs suit mi.

i wish him good luck... in his contention for super host.

kenji looks good at certain angles..

this guy wearing tie 1, looks honest haha wat else i wanna say??

this cool dude.. cute? i duno, yandao? i cant say tat.. so, i'll say he's cool looking dude :) n married liao

a casualty covered wif blood in a mock terrorism attack. ahah, quite a good stunt. the person lying there, wif the shirt torn,revealing his chest, but certain areas not exposed still

somehow, wat i can conclude abt ytday is, a time lag case.

my first time to be on bed till 4+am n stil lawake, n woke at 7am n slept again, still 11+ den wake up. i totally blur, n dunno wat to do. time wise like all wrong. totally blur like dunno wat to do to kill time. even paiseh'ed myself, as in, i so lost abt wat to do, tat i got HONRY, REAL TIME HONRY. paiseh, as in.. if anyone were to show interest in meeting up, i'll be onzz enuff to invite him over. perhaps just to vent my sexual needs... luckily i still sober enuff to reject the "challenge" to jo in staircase. "challenge", cos it's a stupid 1. how i define stupid? dun ask mi. perhaps not my style, or jus not a gd env to start wif.

but i felt bad at night. i used my gal pal's method to pian jiak a supper from a heartlander. he has tried to ask mi out for dinner/supper a number of times liao, but i often declined. den tis time, i asked if he can treat mi for supper.. he's ok. haha. pian jiak, cos i knw i cant click wfi him. ask him out, more to jus have someone foot my bill oni.

n jus met someone from fridae. haha, jus 1 conclusion: u think u r smart, but i'm not stupid 2 :)

wat's wrong wif mi today?

last night, i was on irc, finding ppl. no luck, n exp some back slashing oso. eg, a person chated wif mi, n i showed him my fridae pix. he say i wear sunglasses on those pic. wan mi send w/o glasses 1. i din send, n ask his pix in return, he insist those pic nto clear enuff n wan mi send him my proper face pix. i din reply him at all.

den since no result, i went to bed. but i jus wanna play wif myself.. DIY ie. from 2+ till 3+am, i was making miself high.. till 4am. din feel like sleeping yet. dozed off a while til 6, woke 7,8 10, n finally 11+. woke up, no idea wat to do. watched some taiwan NY countdown performenace for my amei. den.. went for lunch.

den someone from fridae msg mi, n we end up toking in msn. in msn, we tok abt sex. he sound pretty keen, n i thot have someone coming over. but he has a apptmt n cant come. but he suggested mi going over, n dared mi to jo wif him in staircase. after jo, we can part. i told him it's not my style. he say i dun dare at all. oh well..

tis day.. can say the time is worst spent. nothing done at all. i dunno hwo come. perhaps i'm tired? or ... dunno..

n i wonder if it's gd news. feel horny for 24 hrs. den jus now, a person from fridae suddenly call mi. as tho i know him well enuff siazz!!! stunned n surprised mi wif his call SUDDENLY. i at a loss of wat to say, n he jus kept on toking... our first time to tok leh. i jus kept quiet n replied wif 1 liner. but, at least, it made mi not honry anymore LOL...

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been thru tis wasteful day, i knw/understand y some ppl feel tat it's boring to stay home...

both happy n sad to say, during my trip to oz, i learnt tat having multiple faces is somehow the natural way of life. natural, as in nurtured, not innate.. was i confusing?

my definition: it's the normal way to survive in the world. wif diff ppl, u assume diff way fo toking, lvl of understanding n communications. n wif diff ppl, u oso behave diff'ly. if it sounds chim, well, u have to exp it.

happy is tat, thru the trip, i learnt that it's jus the way to make living easier. within urself, u may not liek to spend time wif someone, but soemhow u have to pass time this way. ya, kinda like cannot-click type of frns.

sad is that, this is happening to mi, n i have to hide some facts/knwledge inside myself. if too much facts is made known, it HURTS. *OUCH*. now, everything is based on need-to-know, instead of tell all..

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jus now, on ch 8, there was a touching scene.
a lady is determined to be a big star. she tried all means n ways n even unscrupulous means to hit the headlines. she even caused chaos in the family, n moved out, making her mum furious, on the verge of slapping her, for her loss of dignity
then, there was news tat, her movie flopped big time. her new movie had very little viewers. she din blif it. she went to watch it. true enuff, very few spectators (is there another more appropriate word??). some ppl were there to enjoy 2-party time. some there dozing off.

at last the movie finished. lady got up n abt to leave, when she saw her mum. her mum immediately commended her acting skills r tremendous n she has watched for 5 times. everytime she watch, she observed/learnt something new. the lady wept, and left the cinema in a huff. mum chased after her, n commented that, the director muz b very badly-skilled, causing the lack of viewership. the lady heard these, n broke down... they made up...

well, wat to say... parental love is always the greatest...

dunno wat's wif today. the first bad day of the yr.

last night, i slept at 1am, but fell asleep oni abt 130+am. morning, i woke at near 6am, den slept some more. next thing i knw, it's 7.37am. i woke up and rushed for work. i knw i recv a few sms. i din check at all, cos i was jus dormant n resting on the bus. den i entered office, n the new gal say "y nvr reply my sms?". i stepped into my cubicle, n my sup say "u late again. next time u late, can u pls inform at least 1 of us? we dunno who is doing night support n duno who to contact". i oni smilingly "orh orh".

i thot someone stepped on his back. later i thot over it n realised tat, it's jus his work commitment sense getting over-sensitive. everythign almost fine. an agency contact mi, saying that she got opening for helpdesk job.
i asked her, if my resume is seeking helpdesk or programmer job.
she said programmer.
i "In this case, i wld oni be looking at programmer job"
she "but the openings i have at hand r those tat require exp"
i "in tis case, can u keep a lookout for mi, n let mi knw if there is any such positions open?"
she "oh, ok loh, can, thx bye bye"

den, workload is really VERY relaxing. i was almost on the verge of dozing off.

later, i KO on time, n hurried to taek the bus. crowded, but by stroke of luck, i got a seat within mins. but, the trip took 30 mins more than expected. i planned to buy herbal tea to cool my body down. but the shop is not open. den i go library to search for my book, "Trust and betrayal...". i had wanna find it since monday, but no luck at all. today, i used 40 mins to search for shelves. NO LUCK STILL. wat's wrong?? i cant' find it?!? i am exhausted.

den i made my way home. the dinner? leftovers of vege, half eaten fish, few pieces of sour chicken, n a few pieces of beancurd. can i satify my hunger wif these? dun think so. i cook instant mee. mum say "still got chiken wat". i told her, "jus eating those meat wun make mi full"

cooked the mee n ate it. oso asked my mum for a loan for my studies. half a mth's grace more oni. oh ya, n worse, my mp3 player no batt. i change the batt, but dun seem to work oso. did it become faulty, due to rain?

den wondering if i shld take more dinner. but come to think of it, i dun wan spend too much money. still need to buy thsoe lil lil things... which cost money.. i cant anyhow spend liao...

on sunday, the charity show for "Ren Ci" was shown. Usual "death-defying" stunts were performed. "" 'cos... i dun really categories them as death defying. more to weather u r seasoned to take them on anot. if u fail, the bungee jumping rope is there for u.

wat touched mi tat day was, when Rayson Tan and his wife LP were tasked to move along a few pairs of ropes hanging in mid air, they really did their best to perform well.

They were moving on the slippery ropes. LP is scared of heights (no point for MCS to lie abt this correct?) but willing to push her limits to raise funds. The act is like this. Both are moving on their own lines. But there is no railings or balancing pole for them to carry. the oni choice is to depend on their chemistry n sense of balance, support and trust. 'Cos they have to lean towards each other to gain balance.

LP is scared of ht, so she lean more towards RT. and her legs r shaking , or trembling. HARD. RT's line is almost not moving at all. It's really about mutual trust and support.

Too bad, when they are about to finish, I cna hear audience n ppl jus shouting, or yelling "reaching, reaching!!! quick, last 2 steps oni!!"

kauzz, do they know how much anxiety such yelling of excitement can cause ppl??!?! if the person is damn tired, it can boost the morale. but the person is SCARED STIFF!! mentally, LP maybe prepared to fnish n dun think too much. but the sudden shouting? it can jus disrupt her concentration n determination to not divert her thots n attention, but wah liao, they jus keep shouting.

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by a stroke of luck, my office lent mi a laptop wif WLAN connection to test some software. haha, i sms my gal pal immediately to tell her. ehhe... 1 thing whcih i find funny is, everytime she is better-informed than mi. den tis time, for WLAN access, she ask mi where can she surf WLAN even if she got laptop. heeh, maybe she really outta singapore too long, dinno mc got WLAN..

den hor... ytday, our laptop vendor came over... still so charming as ever. if he use back his beng hairstyle, even more droolsome.

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it's tuesday. last night, singnet acct done up. i think my acct can surf (ask my mum if bro can surf, she dun dare ask). now oni left the webcam to buy (discounted rate of 40$), activate the Album service, antiV, antispam. tmr the WLAN tech guy will go my plc to install the modem. haha... ya, i m thinking of en-acting those vid scenes LOL... if the person is not bad looking lah... n hor, use the laptop to test the WLAN surfing ahha.. cant wait for tmr...

n knw wat? after my pacnet email disabled, i try using gmail n yahoo smtp. but both cant config. yahoo got error msg. but i din boher to read up. den ytday (monday), alas, my singnet email got liao, but my room is using scv, get error when using singnet smtp. laiozz.. end up realise tat i can config my mail such way tat, yahoo can send out email for mi... phew but liewzzz

the skirt was floating in the air.. sexy hor? n see how tight his body is, in 2nd pic? HOT

Another excerpt from "Trust and Betrayal". btw, i need to returnt he book by tmr siazz.. almost finishing half of the book oni..

"If we are pre-occupied with a frantic search for certainty and predictability, it may prevent us from understanding the complexity of dynamic relationships at work. For example, in conversations with co-workers, these individuals may have little tolerance or patience for difference with others. They may come across as self-righteous, speaking in absolutes and thinking in simplistic, black-or-white, good-or-bad terms. People who don't understand or disagree with the points they are hearing may react with a verbal attack. For these people, life is a battle to be won, and the goal is being right and winning at all costs.

"People with this approach have a simple capacity to trust and may have a limited ability to deal with the uncertainty of new situations. For example, when facilitating a team meeting, they may come across as domineering: "May way is the right way". They may have difficulty leading a dialogue session that lacks a formal structure."

I took this excerpt, as it matches my snr's character.

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perhaps having lived for 25 years, n growing more matured n having more confidence, I'm ready to put a face to my blog... :)

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n.. from the way i wrapped my sup's gift, n my frns', i seem to willingly take the time to b innovative n give present wrapping a new lease of life.. or fresher breathe.. instead of the normal sq box wif scotch tape visibly all over the paper.. advertising my services on sgboy...

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i'm experiencing it again: i'm home, so any thot or ... thot comes to my mind, i'll blog it down. veli free hor? ya, clearing those forum msgs, den later apply jobs. i haven't even taken the snaps of adam gorgeous yet (err.. wat's a fabulous word for a guy tat starts wif A??)

ok, i went for lunch downstairs, n brought my pack of nougat wif mi. haha, the guys there was surprised tat i bought something for them siazz. den chatted up wif the young bro. he was kinda nervous (like mi). hehe, alright lah, had a cute, or blur looking, guy sitting wif mi thru'out lunch =D. when i was finding seat, he even invited mi to sit beside mi, saying "scared i eat u up meh"... haha shld i reply "i dun mind. or mayb we can enjoy each other's meat lah"

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sighz, had wanna spend my wkend applying jobs.. but end up clearing forums threads n pix, n watching vids. but 1 thing happy is, after doing some exciting things, n watching vids, i actually had a shocking jo experience: the shots reached my shoulder again!!! for a long time, i've not had such a great distance for jo liao!!! LOL...

n hor, being independent let mi think as an outsider a lot. now, even my sis sometimes oso may not knw why something has to ahppen. like my mum called her frns to bitch, or complain, about the happenings at work. my sis said to mi "dunno why she always have so much thigns to say abt her work" i replied "complain abt work mah".

my sis dun seem to udnerstand that, mum could have grumbles abt her work, but telling us is jus tellign a 3rd party. if she tells her colleague abt it, they may understand the story better n jokes abt it.

but at least, i am almost on par with my sis' reasoning. we discussed abt the usefulness of the terrorism mock tests, n stuff... haha...

not enuff water, muz spray a bit more to add special effects... i think any guys present is bound to get an erection.. at such a treat for the eyes... imagine, good body, prtty face, well trained arms, drool-inducing chest n 6 pax, in white pants tat's bound to b translucent when it's wet, revealing other parts of the body tat's supposed to be covered up, n legs apread wide apart. gosh... gosh gosh... if his hands r tied to the chair he's sitting... oh my...

2 cool n sizzling hot pix!!!! HOTTEST EVER!! BURINING HOT!!! IT'S SCALDING!!! cool wet looks, faucet pouring water down his face, while he trying to wipe his face. umm, in tis a/c room, topless, wif room temp (read: a/c'ed water) pouring down his chest, in white pants, i really wonder if any guys can resist his ever strong seductive power, tat oozes from his person.