haha, saw from a fridae pal description, tat he likes someone, n hope time can stop, den he can b wif tat person forever.

how many times, when we r deeply infatuated wif a person, we hope such things will happen.. but it certainly takes much more for it to happen.

ok, back to mi. seem like i have a confident n mature side of mi, who intends to have a proper frnship wif ppl who appeal to urs truly. however, when something good turns out, like we really can click, n keep in touch, i will hope somethign good will result. is this the lonesome side of mi doing tricks? pining for a possible partner to b wif mi?

Or is this the hope of everyone, who is not deeply attached to someone lovingly?

n when the person, does not appear to b tat interested in mi, i start to feel dejected in LTR again. or am i thinking 2 much, n hoping 2 much things to happen in 2 short a time? oh well, i promised myself, i'll take things slowly, n promised him as well. he jus got off a reln... before which he was always cinging on to gers. either we stay as frns, or progress.. see abt it first.

BUT 1 thing i mus change is, when ppl shows some poor or slow response, i shld not b so conclusive n think tat e person is tired of toking to mi... esp when the plc is SO noisy! but overall, i did enjoy my time on VALENTINE DAY!!

HAPPY belated VALENTINE'S DAY!!! ALL HUMANS, LIVING THINGS, N ANYTHING THAT HAS AN EXPIRY DATE!!!

heh, will it b 2 much to say? jus when i'm having problem deciding where to eat, the jnr coleague n KK stepped in to say, the place n food does not matter. it's jus the few hrs anyway.

well, to mi, it does. the place shld have the ambience tat's conducive for our moods. not necessary romantic or silent, but it shld cater to y we wanna dine. for a simple fare of get together, kopi tiam no prob. for ppl who prefer a relaxed plc to dine n enjoy anything (non sexual), a proper restaurant is good, so tat there will b no unnecessary inconvenience. for catching up, if the person is a veli chinese, den sure kopi tiam is enuff. but if it's ppl who is modern n prefer buzzy area, starbux is perfect.

so for mi, tmr is valentine. i wna things to turn out nicely. i am inot romantic settings n surprises. within my budget stuff. i oni knw local n jap food. he is ok wif jap. n i got 10% disc at ajisen. so go eat there loh. if go foodcourts for jap food, yes it's jap, but the feeling n ambience is diff. at restaurant, still got ppl to serve us haha...

about work:
went to sign the letter liao luh!! but.. the start date is 22mar. my official last day is 23. but i intend to clear my leave on 22n23. boss say ok. oni scared last min they break promise.

valentine day:
wat's exactly going on?

i had confidence n know wat i am doing when i arrange for apptmts. but today, when i tried to arrange for 1, i got EMOTIOANLLY CHARGED. i am so worried tat the time wud not suit the schedule, n whether i am confident of getting the seat.

i have 1 restaurant in mind. but i'm knocking off at 8pm. the restaurant will b packed (by std timing, let alone 14th feb). packed till i not sure, or even no chance that by 8pm, seats still available. but i know, the dinner mus still go on. i went to the jap restaurant below my office. wah, EX n abnormal menu. but i booked the seat for 2 at 7pm.

it's SO werid n insincere n evil if i ask my date to chop a seat, n wait for mi there. i'm initiating the dinner, n yet ask him wait for mi?? no way.

i den thot of changing the time to lunch instead. wah, i seriously dunno if the time can match. will it b 2 rushing??

for a moment, .... i felt tat, i'm losing control of myself. totally. where is the confident mi?? the confident person who knwo wat he's doing, n y he's doing it? i'm getting too much into the appointment. thinking of planning the appointment, but no confidence of whether i'm setting the correct time or not.

oh well, perhaps it's supposed to b a relaxed n "casual" dinner, but if it's too crowded, it may not be tat enjoyable after all, which is not wat shld happen.

perhaps the fear of doing something not rite is getting inot mi. too much, into mi. it's nice, but definitely not gd in the long run. i will become a crybaby. n a decision-asker, instead of maker.

1 thing i can confirm, i dun think i'm treating it as a mere meal. more to the start of a process to knwo a person better. if i'm emotionally charged, i may think too personally, not able to see the full pic.

as i went to get some water, during the walking, i actually felt the emotional strain. the pressure of acceptance. for a long time, i've not experienced 2 sides of mi. or rather, for the first time. 1 is emotionally charged mi. 1 is the confident mi. i'm waiting for a confirmation sms for timing.

1 side of mi says, is the person alright? shld i call to check? why no reply sms yet?
1 side of mi says, well, i'm waiting for a confirmation sms. wat is there to worry?

blabbering watever in my mind now... simply 2 free n my mind dun wan b tied down to reading up j2se stuff... (DARN)

sianzz.. err.. dun wan make it into my grumbling page. now, downloaded some j2se ide to try out.

i am 26 tis yr liao. but i'm still living my life in the same old way. dun see any change in it, other than maturity in my mindset n career direction. i am more confident in my language and communication skills. n knw the reason behind many things whcih i din realise... such as finishing my deg course ASAP. in past, i din think much of the adv of obtaining a deg. feeling tat it's jus another lvl of edu. tat y i din feel it's necessary to finish it ASAP, as, to mi, it's jus studying. but now, as i see my finance status clearer (not clearly yet), n felt it's a MUZ to finish in shortest time possible. cos, if i dun fisnih it, it'll b a burden on mi financially.. which i dun wan sustain much longer. i duno if the deg will help mi in future anot, but i jus wanna finish it. haha.. my planning sux huh?

um, my blog is quite messy lah.. not organised in terms of contents, cos 2 much to write, n din have a chance to. like.. last wk, the sat n sun, i totally not at home. accompanying my briton frn here/there for "shopping". den next day, go chalet n relaxed there. den met a frn for dine. everythign is pretty fun. esp now tat i'm more comfortable wif myself (lively, chatty n perhaps havoc), i can give pretty fun chats in the proper manner. den suddenly, tis wk, sat n sun, i nothing to do, other than fixing my pc n reading. wah, big change in lifestyle siazz..

after coming back from australia, n been thru downs, i'm better able to understand why ppl do certain thigns. as in, if ppl like u, they wun hesitate to help u. some ppl may even b eager to help u. somehow, if u understand how emotions work, u will know wat will happen next...

being cool headed most times is nice. but when u meet someone who just give u tat special feeling, u can try ur best, but ur heart n mind will still b in a mess. ur heart tells u, u really wanna him by ur side, n know him better. personally n physically. butur mind tells u, takes things slowly. good things come to those who wait. if he's urs, he can't siam. u have ot take thigns easy, but not sloppy. show tat u treasure him, but not irritate him. haha..

who is this guy???

i really like tis kinda fig... lean, not tat skinny, nice to touch, good to feel, easy to hug haha

from AFAR, he lok so much like LESLIE!!! haha

he's such a family guy image siazz.. i guess shrot hair, tidy, clear face, nice smile is wat it takes to project tis image?

he's the best looking campus superstar... haha, he can try modelling though.. =D

(last night) sighzz.. a bit lazy to blog sizz..

(morning) haha, a new refresh mi... a load is off my shoulders now. yes, it's the new job offer. well, we tok over ph last mon, they say ok tat i start in end mar. den for 4 days, they din call mi at all. ytday, i called them, wanna b firm on my stand, tat if they still not ready, i gonna sign on another job. so i called, turned out tat, the start date they not ok, saying tat the proj will b ending by the time i join. den i told them, i actaully need 1 mth notice still. he say "ya ya, 1 mth is ok" n ask when i can join earlier. in end, i confirmed wif my boss, tat my last day is 23rd Mar, but clearing leave on 22 and 23, while i start work in new plc on 23rd mar. phew, still 1 day to rest. n i confirmed... i borrowed a bk on java 1.4, to read on some practical egs. den will borrow exam kit to buck up on my theories. oh ya, will b signing contract on monday.

will tis be a long blog siazz??

watching ch U's campus superstar repeat. i really admire youngsters these days, so many channels for them to explore and express themselves. the world is really changing. but actually, wat (exactly) brings about the change? i admire their courage to sing in public. somehow, i love singing, but dun have the courage to do so in public. no confidence. but when a mike is in hand, i am ready to sing.

i am seeing a big change in my life now. not gonna elab so much. but think abt it. my hp plan will reduce drastically from 70$ a mth to25.20$ a mth. no rental. earning more money. going into my beloved programming lang. i'm changing from a person who pursues relns to someone who treasures frnship, n hope such frnship can last. i am oso not tat defensive abt my opinions, ideas, and comments, whenever soemone tries to overrule them. once my pt has been made, i wun wan to defend further. it's no longer about winning a case, but more to making my pt clearly. a few msn frns, they r still looking and longing for a LTR. they r my age or even older. they hope the person they like will turn out to b their life partner. but is keeping a LTR so hard? or jus gay world? gay world, referring tot he desire for better sex, exciting sex, n perhaps diff partners. n i'm more confident of my abilities, image, n relationship skills. although i still need to buck up. and i have been living independently for almost 2 years. independency helped to develop my survivial skills, individual thinking, nad self-worthness thoughts. Or rather, soem frns made me realise that.

*can any1 tell mi, wat shld i do when, my mum keeps yelling at mi for not willing to help my bro for internet issues, when i am in NO position to help? i cant tell her off. i can oni take it n bear it..*

i've finally worked at a place for almost a year. realised tat the corporate world is really not tat simplistic. trust and communication is utmost important. when i first started on the job, oh well, my attitude was not tat gd, cos i felt cheated. i supposed to be tecnician, solving PC issues hands-on. but ended up in helpdesk, picking phones. den when i accepted my fate, i have probs communicating wif my team. diff expectations n work values. whne they tell mi somethigns, i got defensive. i thot they were trying to make mi look bad.

mths on, i was better able to click wif them. den a new colleague, KK, came in. he is my jnr, n i was glad to guide him along. later on, another new ger came in. i have lotsa bad impressions of the comp, but no 1 for mi to share it wif. so i decided to bfrn tat ger. things turned out GOOD. i clciked wif her, n played wif her. n even cameout to her, due to tis, we can tok abt guys. i dun have to keep my opinions abt gers anymore. i can oso bitch wif her abt office stuff.

but i nvr realise tat, the jnr staff who seem to be on nice terms wif snr, oso have some bad things to tok abt snr. when she suddenly revealed her feelings to mi abt snr, i was stunned. from then on, anything abt KK or snr, i directly shared wif her.

being an experienced staff, i am able to tell them wat to do form my experience. haha, tis is certainly where "mins 2-4 yrs exp" comes in. some things r not tat clear cut, n needs exp to solve them. n having been thru some "acceptance" stage at this place, i can better understand how KK felt. when he evolved from a staff attendignt o customers n interacting directly wif them, to a staff picking up ph calls.

haha.. my, it's really seeing a REAL diff aspect of life.

having a bad feeling.. on my way home, 10pm, my left eye twitched. left side normally mean something bad will happen.. i wonder if it links ot my job confirmation... sianzz.. but well, still have to call tmr to check.

not a very ez wk to pass. got confirmation for a new job, but until now haven sign anything yet. i cant wait tat long. i decided. i'll call up the comp. if they haven got the letter ready yet, i'll tell them, i got another offer. if they really prepared to take mi in, they'll wnana sign mi on. haha.. good idea? sighzz.. b4 i thot of it, i almost wnana jus b frank: ask if the contract is ready. if not yet, tell them i'll b looking for other jobs as well. n keep pushing them. but kauzz, tis makes mi sound so despo!!! so i think tat is better... anyway, had a bad experience wif indian bosses. the founder tis new comp is indian prof.

den, back to my life. haha, i cant blif it. but i had to. my gal pal, she jus started work n planning to buy lotsa gadgets n stuff. wow. sure sounded loaded. but, working of cos will get salary. n she dun have any debts (sch fee) to pay off. so when she got money, can spend n buy things. mi? still stuck wif my debts. got ppl ask y i dun take bfast (yes, i dun.. or avoid it). if u have the spare money, u cna of cos eat anything u desire, anytime u free. but i dun. i'm bad at financial planning. i oni know i cant spend too much every mth. i set aside a max of 300$ mthly for my expenditure - INCLUDING buying things to pamper myself. so, at times, even if the cost is oni < 5$, i need to consider it properly.

since skipping bfast dun kill mi, den i dun have to go for it. spend as lil $$ as can for lunch. den enjoy my dinner properly... haha.. strange... ppl say bfast is most impt n dinner shld b l;ightest. for mi, i skip former, n gorge myself for latter. when i really got extra money to spend, perhaps i'll really appreciate fine dining then HA!

umm.. my exorbitant costing hp service plans.. contract ending this 7th mar 06. PHEW!!!!! imagine mi paying a min of 70$ mthly siazz!!! got 2000 min free tok time 300 sms to use. but in fact, i dun use tat much tok time. i think tat';s more for associates' level ppl usage. for mi, starhub 25.20 n m1's plan r sufficient liao. wah... hahah... if things go well, hp bill lower, rental no need, n higher pay... hehe... sounds a good year to mi.. :) but..

how good is starhub's service?? any1 know?? any feedback??? the offer for new sub'ers is GOOD, n delicious. but do i have to suffer bad hp reception? pls, tell mi, pls!! haha.. anyone know?

now i am at a loss. on monday, i called the enw job to confirm tat i wan it n they say will print the contract, n get mi n director sign. i m veli happy.

almost wnaan send out the termination letter. but i knwo it;s not right. shld wait for the new job to b confirmed. but think of it, i ned 45 days. not a 1mth. the new job supposed to start 1 mth time, but i delay it. dun wan explain more, but felt better to terminate first. got 45 day grace to hunt.

but tues liao, no reply from new job yet. i even emailed to the person, reminding him abt the signing of contract. i think sendign that remidner is enuff liao. dun wan to keep pushing. now, i starting to lose confidence in myself. whether i really can get the job anot. i prayed to god tat night of interview, hoping to get the job. my prayers were answered. but will it pull thru?

no pt to keep waiting. n getting the contract ready for signing shld not b so long. so, perhaps on friday, i'll call the new boss again, n see if the contract is ready. strnage, they not in hurry to confirm mi siazz. se wat they say. if the contract is not ready by fri, i will ask if the offer is still on. if things go haywire... i'll take full responsibility of my career still..

again.. i got lotsa ideas to write.. well, too much things to say, too lil time. esp when i dun have internet to use... sianzz..

1) i'm happy tat li xiao zhou managed to get into the finals!! wah, i rmb, he got 1 time almost kena kick out. tat was when the kiddy host lost least prof pt. den LXZ kena the least pop guy. at tat pt, my gal pal was wif mi, n when he managed to pull thru, i got so excited i hit her wif my bolster! ahha.. from then on, i decided to send 10 sms to support him, so tat less chance of him getting kicked. these days, he 90% of time sure the top scorer 1. but pop level need to improve. but can see tat more n more ppl support him.. from the least pop wks back, now he somewhere in the middle. but hor, the gers seem like soooo god at PR siazz.. everytime, get top 2 in pop votes.

2) i managed to see that, other than PC, i can still engross myself in watching DVD. haha, well, tat's how boliao ppl kill time.. watch anytime, anywhere.

3) over the weeks, esp after coming back from Oz n enjoying NY celeb wif a new found pal, close frn, buddy watever (dunno how to group him yet), i am learning more abt the importance of going out n catching up wif frns. learnt more abt wat's life n enjoying life means. y ppl often meet up n catch up wif frns.. but tat will happen oni when i really financially viable.

now my hp svc plan is 2k mins free tok time, 300 sms. but then, i seldom call out to ppl to chat. rather than calling, y not jus sms or meet up? i will change my hp service plan, intend to go for the more sms n adequate tok time plan.. den sms to stay in touch n gossip wif frns, den tok time, to pick incoming calls. use sms to plan stuff, calling is when it's urgent. anyway, i'm moving back home tis june, so ph tok shld b no prob

4) i've just sent out my termination letter. on monday, the new boss say will print out the proper contract n get director to sign n ask mi sign. they agree READILY to my proposed start date. like no urgency like dat. i'm thinking, if the delayed start date is not ok for them, they will voice out to mi right? wun keep mum, n confirm other ppl.. this may happen lah, but hope they wun do this. n wat's more, the person confirmed mi 1 day after my interview 1 leh. i sent out my term letter fast, as i need 45 days notice. not a 1-mth. the later i send, the later i can start. anyway, i jus hope things will turn out fine for mi. my first time to get a higher pay.

even if *CHOYZZZZ* nothign good turn out, i will still keep applying for new jobs. now i got a 45days grace period to secure a position for mi. if not, i think i'll ask if i can stay longer longer longer... to reach my full 1 yr of svc...

5) i'm trying to control my EQ properly so tat i wun commit the "at the spur of moment" thingy. i wonder if i'm doing well. a frn who my.. new pal intro to mi on NY, i complimented he's "desirable". "hot" is nice, but it's used too much, esp another person tat day commented i am hot. i called tis frn after CNY, den he was going for his gym routine. wnana tok more, but he no time. but he ok for a dinner.

so tis noon, i called him, rej my call. first time, he picked n hang up, 1 sec. 2nd time, he jus rejected. i called him jus now (a 6 hr lag) n he still rej. so i sms him..

"u bz the whole day?"
"yea sori"
"den u free for a dine?"
"not today. sori. another day perhaps?"
"i din mention today, did i?"
**no reply at all**
"gosh, nw u r too busy to even reply sms. u muz b really tied up, man. u free for dine ?"
"hi, sorri for not answering u. was in a arg wif someone jus now. i cant confirm my time wif u for thurs. can i let u know again? thx!"
**no reply from mi**
"umm, hope e arg din piss u off 2 much."

haha, did i sound impartial, pissed, firm unhappy but calm, or? i hope i sounded firm, direct, calm, but putting the pt across tat, "hey, i asking u out for dine. dun thnk 2 much, dun assume. rej my call 3 times? r u avoiding mi, or really tat busy? if u really think tt, jus 'cos u r desirable, i will have some ulterior motives for dining wif u, get a good view of ur life."

next day, will tok abt wat i learnt from my current job. yes i still managed to learn things from here. haha, tat's y i getting sianzz here. i cna oni say, they dun have any professionalism.

*time to KO...*

today despo housewives again back in action!!

come to think of it, the first work day of the CNY, i got an interview for my java. they told mi by next wk, i can knw results. den on 2nd day, i was confirmed. they even sent email, draft copy of contract, n called mi to tell mi. so fast rite? i am of course happy n excited abt it. den 3rd day, or rather tat same 2nd day, another agency called mi, asking mi interview wif singtel. i was really stunned. 2 interviews together. am i really so lucky in CNY?? the first job is perm job. 2nd is contract job, which required mi nto to discuss abt salary at all.

cos my current contract need mi to give a whopping 45days notice, if not pay a large sum of $$, my family decided tat i shld try to delay start date wif new place. haha.. funny. on saturday, my bro was celeb his bday in a big way (book chalet, even tho he is 29 tis yr liao.. but well, he's getting married tis yr) n i was out wif my frn chris whole day. so din go at all. dinner i settled myself.

den sunday, even the wkly bfast/lunch is gone, cos whole family in chalet. but frankly, i dun see the need for mi to go in the first place. cos he will be celeb wif his frns mah. i go there, duno do wat. other than bio'ing ppl.

den, haha, my uncle (whose son is CUTE) called mi, asking if i wanna go wif them to chalet. haha, well, i duno wat to eat for bfast, lunch n wnana save up oso. was jus wondering hwo to settle my meals.. ask frns out?? den hor, his invitation came at such hr tat i so LUCKY siazz!!! n hor, when i saw his sms, i even thot the time is out for mi liao.. but it's jus on time =D. so i took his car to the chalet n relaxed myself there.. cool.. the SAF chalet.. fantastic!

oh ya, had lunch at swenson. n i admit i behave intimately wif my cousin boy boy. he invited mi to sit wif him, n i shared my food wif him.. haha, i simply felt i am loving towards him.. in this way,my lunch n bfast settled!

i have to call new company monday moprning to confirm my start date. at night, my right eye twitched. den the next morning, i called, wnana see if they ok wif mi start in late mar. wah, they din ask reason, n jus agreed!! i was stunned!!! they din even ask y.. but hor, sigh, to protect myself, i still cant resign yet. cos not yet sign paper.

den tis evening, my other interview, slated for tues 10am, was postponed, as the ger was unwell. wah, 2 things crop up...

shld i stil send my letter? cos i need 45 days to leave properly...

fnally.. my PC is up and running fine. no need to spend extra on HD mainbod etc. it's not mi to be pessimistic...

on the day my pc is up, i felt excited at the thot of it. but when it did happen, i din jump at all.. i was kinda hungry to respond in a excited way.

i survived 2 weeks without being online. Or specifically, without my comptuer at all. No Tv, no computer, no messing around wif system files. ahah, now, too much things tat r in my mind, forming bits and pieces of news. after my failure at J2SE, i began reading up on PR n workplace reln books. i learnt from them. den i started to feel the goodness of reading books. since den, i been reading a lot...

over CNY, din get to watch my NY countdown vids, but finished watching the korean drama "Full Hose". even at my aunt;s plc, they watching Rain's HK concert, he was flaunting his bod oso. n my aunt "hinted": y now i suddenly so into Rain? since i felt tat those korean dvds jus boliao... haha, i jus said "the show is funny n hilarious mah" hahah...

n serious, he si really showing off his body in the concert n drama. imagine in the first 4 eps of the show, he jus strip off at every possible scene. he was even wearing shorts at times, revealing his muscled thighs. den the concert, he knows he's cool for his body, not voice. so very often, he will strip off his clothes bit by bit n piece by piece.

he will even rip open his white shirt n kneel down, while water is raining on him... haha...

been a long time since i last blogged... all 'cos my pc is down.. really down.. a lot of things have been happening.. good.. n bad? well, i oni rmb the good things though... wanna forget the bad 1s.. yes, i got internet in office, but i dun use it when i'm not working OT (unlike now). i dun blog during office hours, but after.

umm, well, toked to a poly frn.. jus frn lah, but we chatted for 1.5 hrs siazz.. but, come to think of it, we din meet for a yr, thus lotsa things to say. n i'm happy tat, she comented i've become more confident of myself. yes, i agree. i'm more confident of wat i am, my purpose in being alive and kicking. i exude confidence in my dressing (image), opinions (unless ppl intentionally put mi down, n i dun wish to tok back), relationships, n self worth. my 25th yr of living has been a self-realisation yr.

realising tat frnship last longer than LTR,
even if we like someone, it does not mean we have to have physical contact with him, seeing him happy is enuff liao,
n if u take someone as a frn, u'll want the better for him. u wun mind helping him out watever n however u can.

funny. i'm addicted to a new song now. yes, i was addicted to TATU's All About Us, n stuff. now, i can say, if any GUY is to sing "O-Zone"'s "Dragostea Din Tei", i'll most likely melt. ya, this song came out some time back, abt 6 mths. i heard the song on TV, but tat was when it sounded like disco wif some cutie cartoons. i wasn't turned on by tat.

when the singaporean "guo mei mei" sang it, oh-my-gosh is my response.

den, somehow, i heard on radio or some tv channels, the song starting at "nu ma nu ma..", followed by
"Miya-hee
Miya-hoo
Miya-ho
Miya-haha"
i immediately fell for it. it's cute, funky, simple, relaxing, w/o stress.. jus a fast tempo song, giving u no chance to think too much abt wat it's trying to do. ah, ya, its non-english lyrics helped lotsa. in the english lyrics, its meanings are all revealed. but i still prefer the non-eng 1. feeling the music wif its "non-sensical" lyrics made mi feel someone is entertaning mi to appease mi or to accompany mi when i'm down. saying "relax, calm down, everything will be over soon. i'll b here for u".

haha, am i getting 2 engrossed? well, i'm loving it n ... falling for it.. whichever shld come first logically.

oh ya, after reading up on the 2 bks from NLB, i starting to enjoy reading books. to kill time n to improve my general knowledge. not inot those fictious bks. more to general knowledge... psychology, interpreting ppl's behaviour n finding out the best possible response.

is this a lot to write? nothing in mind to bitch abt. letting things take its place slowly n naturally, writing down wat's happening to mi internally...

checking the diff n choosing between k608i n z520i... whcih is better?

wat can i blog? tired of grumbling abt work.. anythign else worth toking?

oh.. firstly, CONGRATzzzz to my gal pal for finding job so fast... i thnk ur peers will jealous liao.. haha... we r in SIMILAR field, so jus ask if u need my help in anything..

at work, as long we knw the focal pt of a person, we will understand y did tat guy say such things. *wah.. loads of things to blog.. but everything jus bit by bit*

wed, supposed to meet someone for sm fun.. n thru meet my crush for ktv. haha, wah, now i so openly call him my crush.. so bei paiseh.. so i think need to still gof or haircut b4 CNY. wah, need to spend extra $.. hehe, but i dun think he knw abt it.. but then, the wed sm changed to sat. so wednesday extra time. but haircut stil a MUZ!

my office suddenly say, due to some training going on, need to work earlier again. har?? den my haircut how? cant go in morning liao?? sianzz.. i ask the snr n sup. know wat? guess their ans?

snr - "den dun get haircut loh". she not joking tone leh. she is seriously suggesting tat i dun get haircut. wah liao. wat attitude!??!?! if our boss say this to her, she sure flare up in our face 1!!! den i told her, today not much things to do in morning anyway. she say she scared thigns crop up.

sup - "nvm, i call the boss to check out" n the boss agreed tat no need start so early.

den snr say "wah, they really so stingy ah, dun wan give OT pay"... wah liao.. wat an attitutde!! as tho i die die muz work like dat!!! there's nothing to do wat!! wat pt i go work so early?? she jus wan to show tat she's right siazz.. damn right!!

got 1 time, a person removed symantec program badly, n she was trying HARD to resolve it. seeing this, i suggested askign the person to install n remove properly. she insisted the person is not free n veli mafan. ok loh. den when she still fail, she say need to get the person to install againliao..

den ytday, we having meeting but sup stil lwanna mi take calls. so i missed parts of the meeting. tis morning, jnr ask y i dunno wat went on in ytday meeting. n den, i dunno which happened first... anyway. i was asking her to ans a call, she was doing 1 thing oni. den she later came my plc, n doubted wat i was trying to do for a user siazz.. as tho i duno wat i doing, n shifting respon.. GOSH... when i telling her the case, she jump to conclusion abt wat can b done. as tho i dunno.damn it.

anyway, abt my self, after confirming tat i can work from nn, i called salon. damn, the stylist wokring from 2pm onwards........ wah laiozzzzzzzz..... how??? if not gonna meet my crush, i dun bother getting hairdone so fast... ok... somehow i arrange wif jnr tat wed, i do morning, so tat i cna do hair after work. haha, snr is like unhappy like dat.. as tho.. i treat work like my plc.. suka suka change time.

so, tmr haricut n thur ktv decided liao. ahah, jus now chatted wif him.. had a nice chat again LOL.. hope we both comfy wif each other's presence.. i've not been closign his msn chat since sunday...

is it normal for people to head-dive into a relation, when they feel a thing for that guy?

Somtimes, due to a surge of emotions towards a person, we will want something to happen
btwn ourself, and that person. But after it happened, will we be happy wif the outcome?
no 1 knows, and it will always be a challenge of wat we dare to try.

finally, i'm working in a place for about a year. I understand what it means by Experience Counts. and know why is it important to be relaxed n click wif ur colleagues. haha, while reading the Trust and Betrayal book, i will wana change it to "understand what it means by having ppl to trust u, ask for ur opinion, and belif in ur experience n knowledge when u tell them ur opinion" ahah. sounds so formal n theory. but tis still isn't the plc i wanna... develop my career path in.

umm.. a review of the wk. not bad, pretty much enjoyed it. din really spend mucho $$ but enjoyed myself still. tis is called "lifestyle of a thrifty person". sat, went for swim n got a tanline. but i dun really knw if tis is nice tan, cos when i lok into mirror, my torso stil llook fair to mi. whenj swimming, saw a gorgeous boy (these days, i been wanting to use "gorgeous" to describe ppl who look immensely atrractive n young.. i still prefer "young" to "boyish") changing in poolside. den i saw him coming into the water. nice chest for his body size. gave him a good look 2 times, he "shy" n turned head away.

when i was home (family side) to bath, i realise... it's really good to have a flat to urself. cos, no 1 at home, i din close the bathrm door n towel left somewhere in rm. i done liao, so left the bathrm to take towel. i feel like there is lotsa freedom. freedom tat i loved at tat instant. no restriction, no 1 to control how u live, not afraid of being seen by public n kena reported.

den i watched te korean dvd - "Full House". wah the actor really LOVE to flaunt every part of his body at anytime of the day siazzz... but tat is wat viewers like mah.. haha. but i dun buy 1, or go crazy over him. i take the dvd from my sis n watch! finally, i had dinner wif my gal pal. quite a nice day to spend.

on sunday, focus is on catching up wif a rabbit hhha.. i purposely wore a singlet to meet him ahaha. tried to make some sxual jokes, but he evaded it. den went wif him to shop around. haha, got him to checkotu some jeans. he den showed mi how he looked. w/o 2nd thot, i lifted his shirt at his back. i duno exactly wat i "checking/looking out" for, or maybe jus wanna see more skin? haha, oh well, his briefs not obviously sticking out type. kept toking rot all the way. supposed to leave for appt by 830, but stayed on wif him much later to accompany him.. haha..

den i got home n a surprise awaited mi. the 830 appt let me meet a good looking dude haha.. for a session LOL. he was all smiles siazz.. does tat mean he's trying to look cheerful, approachable, etc?

den, had a chat wif the msn crush. sighzzzzzz, he's sensing his reln is ending liao, cos 2 much factors are affecting it. tried consoling n asking how i can help. he din need anyt... anyway, meetign him tis wk for ktv..

"like him, tell him lah!!" isn't expressing interest in his body already telling him i am fond of him? was planning for haircut after CNY. but now, i think.. i need it ealier liao...

i would love/like to play wif tis body... n yes, the pic is censored by mi... i dun wan my blog to become porn