received the comments as usual, and had wanna jus reply to it. cos, suddenly i kinda overwhelmed, n felt like jus replying to it oni, n forget abt blogging today thigns. anyway. maybe i cool myself down a bit first...
last night slept 130am. woke 7am. DAMN SIONG! dun even feel like going work. so drowsy n tired. n lotsa mails not cleared. GOSH. got to work, but dun wan tok much. jus keep focus on my work. *my god!!! i jus saw a rat strolling past my room!!!! sighz, do i sound sick if i wanna take a pic of it? somehwo i feel it look like those kiddy shows, about mouse, and find them cute :) 2nd thing, i missed 30 mins of my Despo wive show!!! KAUZ!!!*
den near lunch time, finalyl, i ask the new tmep guy, if he wnana lunch together. i thot my sup say he's 33 yo. but he's oni 25 lah. after lunch, i again went into monday blues. almost no mood to work. on way home, haah, got a blur looking office guy sitting. i just went to stand beside him, looking whenever i am able to. he noticed it. i think even those whose eye direction is towards mi, oso noticed it siazz. i was tinking, oh well, a nice loking dude :) to answer a comment, i do sound flirtatious in my blog, but it jus for the fun of it. for the excitement. maybe 'cos my LTRs never work, so i jus wanna get it some other ways. ONS, well, i jus wnana find ppl to enjoy myself. it's the me now. i have high sex drive. i oso look for ppl to settle down, but i dun wan b in hurry. but b4 this someone can b found, i still have to find my enjoyment somehow, somewhere.
when i got back in family, dinner was again a disappointment. cant blame my mum for buying dinner late, as she working oso. but, i jus find it ODD tat she bought nasi lemak. she can cok much better, wif with more dishes too! she bought fish, wings, ikan bilis (with a lil sauce). oh, when i reached family, i got a fright! my dog was weeping!!!! there are lines of dark shades starting from his eyes!!!! my goish. i really felt so bad!! later, it seem so hungry, i took my share of wings to give him. den later, jus wanna rush home to read the comments.
i think this is all for today.
Monday, May 09, 2005
sunday post. kinda scared what comment will be posted tmr. this morning, went to aunt's place to fix pc. kauzz, i so de not used to taking mrt, tat i dunno where to stand or how to stand. got a handful of nice loking dudes, but i think i gave them the wrong stare. den went wif a frn to dinner. wah liao, the service there not good at all siaz. at first, i thot the waiter got AP, but later, realise allof them dun have GA. hehe, confused? Good, Attitude, Problem :)
guess these days i used to getting things done my way. at the dinner there, cos we were shown seats jus below thw TV, some tables were looking at our direction. i immediately asked for a change of seats. ya, i realised all dun have GA here. the ger who i ask if we can switch seats, said we can, but din help us move. her colelague helped.
n, hor, damn it, the charity show, i really kena bluff!! they keep asking to call the 6888 line. i thot it's oni 8$ call. i called 2 times. now the bill is showing $86.8 for the cals made. then the Oz calls i made was $42.77. this month, i incur $330 bil. even my family is stun deo. i think i gonna write a letter to ST to complain abt how they promote the calling. den saw from papers, got ppl color their dogs' hair. n was so proud of it siazz.. .wah alioa... i was thinking, dogs are not fashion accessories. you are fashionable. why must you force your pets to be? If you love them, i believe you treat them as ur family. will u ask ur family to colour their hair?
jus checked. for last thurs/fri sat, the visitor was record low siazz. den at the movies there, house of wax. it's so damn SICK@@ not sickening, but SICK!! fancy showign snipping off fings?? but i did enjoy some parts. haha, 1) when david beckham-look-alike took off his singlet for the ger. 2) when the adventurous n playful guy was waxed, his clothes n jeans kena snipped. seeing the shape of his chest, and the snipping scenes, COOL! n when he sat there "naked", while the wax was sprayed ontio him, HOT! but as a person, i really pity him siazz. cos mus b real painful. gosh! den the joker, tat plump gay? he pressed onto the skin of the waxed guy. when it formed a dent, he tried to smoothen it but end up ripping the skin off, and he tried some more. DISGUSTING!!! n stupid ass. wah, the waxed guy sure pain like hell. the show, more like showing the sick side of te director/scripter.
sighz, i can say tat, all the way, for the whole of the day, i was uneasy. i think it's cos i got 433 mail unread. n i din really bother to clear them up this week. tian ahzz!! n tis wk, i din do any pracs. sighzz, any way to earn extra $$?? shall i try irc?
guess these days i used to getting things done my way. at the dinner there, cos we were shown seats jus below thw TV, some tables were looking at our direction. i immediately asked for a change of seats. ya, i realised all dun have GA here. the ger who i ask if we can switch seats, said we can, but din help us move. her colelague helped.
n, hor, damn it, the charity show, i really kena bluff!! they keep asking to call the 6888 line. i thot it's oni 8$ call. i called 2 times. now the bill is showing $86.8 for the cals made. then the Oz calls i made was $42.77. this month, i incur $330 bil. even my family is stun deo. i think i gonna write a letter to ST to complain abt how they promote the calling. den saw from papers, got ppl color their dogs' hair. n was so proud of it siazz.. .wah alioa... i was thinking, dogs are not fashion accessories. you are fashionable. why must you force your pets to be? If you love them, i believe you treat them as ur family. will u ask ur family to colour their hair?
jus checked. for last thurs/fri sat, the visitor was record low siazz. den at the movies there, house of wax. it's so damn SICK@@ not sickening, but SICK!! fancy showign snipping off fings?? but i did enjoy some parts. haha, 1) when david beckham-look-alike took off his singlet for the ger. 2) when the adventurous n playful guy was waxed, his clothes n jeans kena snipped. seeing the shape of his chest, and the snipping scenes, COOL! n when he sat there "naked", while the wax was sprayed ontio him, HOT! but as a person, i really pity him siazz. cos mus b real painful. gosh! den the joker, tat plump gay? he pressed onto the skin of the waxed guy. when it formed a dent, he tried to smoothen it but end up ripping the skin off, and he tried some more. DISGUSTING!!! n stupid ass. wah, the waxed guy sure pain like hell. the show, more like showing the sick side of te director/scripter.
sighz, i can say tat, all the way, for the whole of the day, i was uneasy. i think it's cos i got 433 mail unread. n i din really bother to clear them up this week. tian ahzz!! n tis wk, i din do any pracs. sighzz, any way to earn extra $$?? shall i try irc?
Saturday, May 07, 2005
returning "tings" in sgboy. somehow, i think tat i pretty much attracted to tops. wondering if wes is 1. LOL. or at least str8 acting. a normal guy, instead of a kiddy guy who toks n behave like he wanna act cute. pounding n pouncing on ppl is another thing =D
haha,, i know how blogspot file names entries liao!! ok, last night, i read ur comment till ur "long face" part, den i went to do research on the BB. den today i visited ur blog b4 i continue reading ur comments. sighzz ,this time, i guess i muz get somethign off my chest.. really... (containing it in my heart still, will jus cause my nose to be irritated more)
no lah... i dun mean so bad 1. cos, u see, we left his hse almost just on time. ya, guess he dun wan mi hungry. but no 1 wanna b late for work. if we go bfast, i dunno how long i need to finish it. i admit tat mornign, i was almost in rush to go work. dun wan delay. if he was saying, buy bfast to office eat, i may agree. but then, when i ask, he say "he can finish in 10 mins. dunno abt mi." tat y i feel he may not have taken note of the timings, and was sarc in my thots. but i din tok sarc to him mah.. dun sound so sad lah... *if u wan, i at most apologise to him in 1 way or other?*
actually, sobz is jus a remark mah. jus a casual remark oni. rmb i was worried wat happen when u din blog for 1 day suddenly? dun b so pissed lah... *huggies* if u dun comment, i think it may be much worse than sobz. something which i dun wan to imagine.
hehe, when u first posted abt "u din really expect to see..", i was happy liaozz. den now, ur "ok lah. i am touched.." dun have tat effect lioa.. more like i pester u to write out tis line. our M/S calling is jus a name loh. cos i not hardcore M/S guy, i call him tat to tease him. SM is sex. LOVE has care/concern/sex in it. wat's more, he's more like frn. thus, i find it ok to reply ur post, n make ur day bright =D
UR samuel is ur close frn, i think he use his kevin to spite u to get a bf soon? or to keep up wif gym training? heeh, my "ya, i love him" is more to joking n playing along wif jnr colleague lah. cos she was saying "he's cute right?" so i played along loh. i still spending time with him. chat in msn, tok on hp etc. if u reduce ur chatting, i think i gonna b affected like wat i wrote above liao loh, den u b so sinful hahaha...
oei.. dun b so mad at mi lei... was still testing water with those replies tat i wrote mah.. i write as i read thru ur comments. if u write simple thots first, den few paras later den write details, i will comment on the simple thots, den reply the details as i reach it. ok lah, i try not to test water anymore... dun b sad n mad at mi lei.. can?
hehe... u din hear meh? fishing is waiting for the fated fish to be hooked =D a saying revolving around a "fisher". ahah, then wat u tell them when they ask u?? wat they tease u for? ahha, subject is u, but u dun wan FEED me with your FOOD meh?? *victory!* wah u... u wan spank mi, jus say so lah. i let u... =P well, u din request for adult, dun mean u dun need an ADULT to control u, right? hahaa.. children oso din request for parents to control :)
i'm working, so i'm not kid. so, i'm an adult, who has no choice but to use cane in order to take a kiddy man in control LOL. or u wan use chain instead? =P ahha, u dun like force ppl, but u wanna tie mi up? err, i thinking of nutritious food loh.. mi 2 skinny. some protein may help develop my body better ahhahaha. u heated up, den u become ur true self ah?? so now, u putting on a mask ah?? LOL. gosh... i think if u heated up, ur sheep clothing will melt...
chemistry? duno... i long time never touch chemicals liao. but i do see sparks haha. if bargain hor, i scared this blog will become RA siazz. oni ppl above 21 can visit liaozz. hhe, when u beside mi, i may hypnotise u, n make u do illegal things!! LOL u know, some things r still illegal in spore :P den when kena caught, u can say u kena hyp, tat y u did these.. ahahha...
nah, i not into cybersex. jus kidding. prefer webcam =P ghost?? cant say like dat lah. so bad of u. u not physically here mah. so can only imagine... imagine... imagine... =D ahha.. besides spirit, maybe u can say i telepathically connect to u haha.. chimz hor? when i read ur comments, i bobian, muz hug u in mind. but in person, if hug u in mind, haha, feel so odd.
for mi, i rmb every moment i blog abt u :) potion making is depends on who needs n who fated to get it mah :). if fate decrees, u'll get it one hehe.. but hopefully it can work on u hahah. nope, ur coy wun go down if i dun blog, but will, if u not in mood to work haha, right? u sure u working hard? hehe, sonce in while, will hear u say u had a splendid meal lei. eeehh, maybe i b the first 1 to check if ur body is toned enuff LOL *blush*
muz burn the extra pounds b4 can tone up body? thot those extra can develop into muscles? ya, i saw the hint. but i seriously dunno how to reply. i dun wan to give any confirmed ans, or hint, or possiblities. read on loh. den maybe u'll get my hint to u oso hehe. cos givign an answer seem like making a commitment. err, i think u din read my old blogs. we broke up jus b4 xmas. or even xmas day itself. he hurt mi 2 much. i see no point in carrying on further. he's the oni 1, i will reject any reconciliation.
ahah, u keep mentioning finals. but ever wonder when is the finals starting?? hahah. ur eyes will be wet when we chat sweetly. plus my surprises, u wun be able to control. n the more surprises i give u, the more tears u let go, haha. err, ok, a bad joke. chikcen = gers. duck = guys. or maybe u prep rice + duck gravy can liao. hahah. wet kiss? haha, never tried tat. how abt a love bite? =P
u wanna free play? but u wanna SM? how many ppl u made it with oredi? every thrust?? thrust with teh tying material or wat?? ya, lawyers will fight for $$. but, will they fight it well? i thnk they may jus anyhow fight. unless they gay frnly? starry night?? haha, how abt snowball? or if despo, by the bushes. if romantic, at the campfire :) the best is, on a quiet beach, inside a tent, enjoy ourselves haha.
ya loh, i often honry loh. i honest n daring enuff to post when i JO n my sexual meets. some ppl JO morning after bath, den at night again. tat is not honry loh. jus enjoying sex loh. *ROFL* ahha.. tanline is meant for showing off. see if u got the chance to see it hahah. in fact, i really kinda proud of it hahah. TANLINE, haha. u dun need to outshine any1. u oredi stand out. tat why we are chatting so long ;)
for movies, wat if i forget, n wear trunks instead?? huh? if i hardon while singing, u pin mi down?? i dinno my singing, or a song, can make ppl into beast siazz ahah. ya mah, as u lick, u drool haha. e more u lick, the more wet my ears get =P haha, i got say anythign abt not together?? i thot soemone wanna hear mi sing Mariah carey's "We belong together"??
hehe, will u compare ur frns wif ur ex? not as in person, but in the way ur ex n frns treat u. ya loh, i keep praising someone of my own accord, but i never hear such praise abt mi... sgihzz....... Dun worry, if anthing wrong happen in kitchen, i will freeze the kitchen, + the cook. den i'll warm or heat up the cook. hha.. this is caled heroine save the beauty =D no prob. i'll wash n clean n scrube all things involved. be it a body, a gun, or cooking utensil.
hehe, if u down, i guess a surprise will make u happier? hehe.. or a warn hug or wonderful kiss. err, did i let out too much of my tactics?? if i am the sinner, i guess there will be more things coming up haha. now we still waiting for both to settle down first. so lemme know if u ready for ur "BIG" day. haha, it's cool to know tat we put a smile on each other's face everyday :)
ur mum tok to u abt work till 2am?? wah arcade games quite Ex to mi, cos i'll spend 50c in 2-5 mins. sighzz.. u dun like to chat??
u stressed over work? no wodner u commented after lunch time. i know my blog will relax u, so, dunno wat to say liao. had wanna say, if u 2 busy, den no need come my site.
oh well, i really dun wan to commit any promises. cos i afraid, if i write tat 2 letter short form down, i will be committing myself to something. but, thsi time i'll be truthful. ur blog, last tiem got say,
i had wanna, or almost wanna, assume or jus directly take tat it's referring to mi. but, i chose to understand it tat it refer to tat guy u have a serious crush on. i was trying hard to take it tat way.
but today, when i read abt ur sweet dream,
i'm really a little unhappy. in the sense, someone close to mi flirting with someone else. like, on the bed, calling someone else's name. realy dun like the feeling. for now, i want to make this statement: i hope u r referring to mi
i knwo this can be wrong n i may scared u off, but i'm a bit emotional now to care abt wat i writing. oh well, nvm abt wat i wrote for the last few paras :) if u dun like it, well, jsu take it i din write tat down :) i'm off to clear my yahoo group mails.
enjoy ur monday :)
haha,, i know how blogspot file names entries liao!! ok, last night, i read ur comment till ur "long face" part, den i went to do research on the BB. den today i visited ur blog b4 i continue reading ur comments. sighzz ,this time, i guess i muz get somethign off my chest.. really... (containing it in my heart still, will jus cause my nose to be irritated more)
no lah... i dun mean so bad 1. cos, u see, we left his hse almost just on time. ya, guess he dun wan mi hungry. but no 1 wanna b late for work. if we go bfast, i dunno how long i need to finish it. i admit tat mornign, i was almost in rush to go work. dun wan delay. if he was saying, buy bfast to office eat, i may agree. but then, when i ask, he say "he can finish in 10 mins. dunno abt mi." tat y i feel he may not have taken note of the timings, and was sarc in my thots. but i din tok sarc to him mah.. dun sound so sad lah... *if u wan, i at most apologise to him in 1 way or other?*
actually, sobz is jus a remark mah. jus a casual remark oni. rmb i was worried wat happen when u din blog for 1 day suddenly? dun b so pissed lah... *huggies* if u dun comment, i think it may be much worse than sobz. something which i dun wan to imagine.
hehe, when u first posted abt "u din really expect to see..", i was happy liaozz. den now, ur "ok lah. i am touched.." dun have tat effect lioa.. more like i pester u to write out tis line. our M/S calling is jus a name loh. cos i not hardcore M/S guy, i call him tat to tease him. SM is sex. LOVE has care/concern/sex in it. wat's more, he's more like frn. thus, i find it ok to reply ur post, n make ur day bright =D
UR samuel is ur close frn, i think he use his kevin to spite u to get a bf soon? or to keep up wif gym training? heeh, my "ya, i love him" is more to joking n playing along wif jnr colleague lah. cos she was saying "he's cute right?" so i played along loh. i still spending time with him. chat in msn, tok on hp etc. if u reduce ur chatting, i think i gonna b affected like wat i wrote above liao loh, den u b so sinful hahaha...
oei.. dun b so mad at mi lei... was still testing water with those replies tat i wrote mah.. i write as i read thru ur comments. if u write simple thots first, den few paras later den write details, i will comment on the simple thots, den reply the details as i reach it. ok lah, i try not to test water anymore... dun b sad n mad at mi lei.. can?
hehe... u din hear meh? fishing is waiting for the fated fish to be hooked =D a saying revolving around a "fisher". ahah, then wat u tell them when they ask u?? wat they tease u for? ahha, subject is u, but u dun wan FEED me with your FOOD meh?? *victory!* wah u... u wan spank mi, jus say so lah. i let u... =P well, u din request for adult, dun mean u dun need an ADULT to control u, right? hahaa.. children oso din request for parents to control :)
i'm working, so i'm not kid. so, i'm an adult, who has no choice but to use cane in order to take a kiddy man in control LOL. or u wan use chain instead? =P ahha, u dun like force ppl, but u wanna tie mi up? err, i thinking of nutritious food loh.. mi 2 skinny. some protein may help develop my body better ahhahaha. u heated up, den u become ur true self ah?? so now, u putting on a mask ah?? LOL. gosh... i think if u heated up, ur sheep clothing will melt...
chemistry? duno... i long time never touch chemicals liao. but i do see sparks haha. if bargain hor, i scared this blog will become RA siazz. oni ppl above 21 can visit liaozz. hhe, when u beside mi, i may hypnotise u, n make u do illegal things!! LOL u know, some things r still illegal in spore :P den when kena caught, u can say u kena hyp, tat y u did these.. ahahha...
nah, i not into cybersex. jus kidding. prefer webcam =P ghost?? cant say like dat lah. so bad of u. u not physically here mah. so can only imagine... imagine... imagine... =D ahha.. besides spirit, maybe u can say i telepathically connect to u haha.. chimz hor? when i read ur comments, i bobian, muz hug u in mind. but in person, if hug u in mind, haha, feel so odd.
for mi, i rmb every moment i blog abt u :) potion making is depends on who needs n who fated to get it mah :). if fate decrees, u'll get it one hehe.. but hopefully it can work on u hahah. nope, ur coy wun go down if i dun blog, but will, if u not in mood to work haha, right? u sure u working hard? hehe, sonce in while, will hear u say u had a splendid meal lei. eeehh, maybe i b the first 1 to check if ur body is toned enuff LOL *blush*
muz burn the extra pounds b4 can tone up body? thot those extra can develop into muscles? ya, i saw the hint. but i seriously dunno how to reply. i dun wan to give any confirmed ans, or hint, or possiblities. read on loh. den maybe u'll get my hint to u oso hehe. cos givign an answer seem like making a commitment. err, i think u din read my old blogs. we broke up jus b4 xmas. or even xmas day itself. he hurt mi 2 much. i see no point in carrying on further. he's the oni 1, i will reject any reconciliation.
ahah, u keep mentioning finals. but ever wonder when is the finals starting?? hahah. ur eyes will be wet when we chat sweetly. plus my surprises, u wun be able to control. n the more surprises i give u, the more tears u let go, haha. err, ok, a bad joke. chikcen = gers. duck = guys. or maybe u prep rice + duck gravy can liao. hahah. wet kiss? haha, never tried tat. how abt a love bite? =P
u wanna free play? but u wanna SM? how many ppl u made it with oredi? every thrust?? thrust with teh tying material or wat?? ya, lawyers will fight for $$. but, will they fight it well? i thnk they may jus anyhow fight. unless they gay frnly? starry night?? haha, how abt snowball? or if despo, by the bushes. if romantic, at the campfire :) the best is, on a quiet beach, inside a tent, enjoy ourselves haha.
ya loh, i often honry loh. i honest n daring enuff to post when i JO n my sexual meets. some ppl JO morning after bath, den at night again. tat is not honry loh. jus enjoying sex loh. *ROFL* ahha.. tanline is meant for showing off. see if u got the chance to see it hahah. in fact, i really kinda proud of it hahah. TANLINE, haha. u dun need to outshine any1. u oredi stand out. tat why we are chatting so long ;)
for movies, wat if i forget, n wear trunks instead?? huh? if i hardon while singing, u pin mi down?? i dinno my singing, or a song, can make ppl into beast siazz ahah. ya mah, as u lick, u drool haha. e more u lick, the more wet my ears get =P haha, i got say anythign abt not together?? i thot soemone wanna hear mi sing Mariah carey's "We belong together"??
hehe, will u compare ur frns wif ur ex? not as in person, but in the way ur ex n frns treat u. ya loh, i keep praising someone of my own accord, but i never hear such praise abt mi... sgihzz....... Dun worry, if anthing wrong happen in kitchen, i will freeze the kitchen, + the cook. den i'll warm or heat up the cook. hha.. this is caled heroine save the beauty =D no prob. i'll wash n clean n scrube all things involved. be it a body, a gun, or cooking utensil.
hehe, if u down, i guess a surprise will make u happier? hehe.. or a warn hug or wonderful kiss. err, did i let out too much of my tactics?? if i am the sinner, i guess there will be more things coming up haha. now we still waiting for both to settle down first. so lemme know if u ready for ur "BIG" day. haha, it's cool to know tat we put a smile on each other's face everyday :)
ur mum tok to u abt work till 2am?? wah arcade games quite Ex to mi, cos i'll spend 50c in 2-5 mins. sighzz.. u dun like to chat??
u stressed over work? no wodner u commented after lunch time. i know my blog will relax u, so, dunno wat to say liao. had wanna say, if u 2 busy, den no need come my site.
oh well, i really dun wan to commit any promises. cos i afraid, if i write tat 2 letter short form down, i will be committing myself to something. but, thsi time i'll be truthful. ur blog, last tiem got say,
"For someone special : I miss u when I dun sense u around... Am I in love with u liao??? or I had been in love with u from the start without realising it... "
i had wanna, or almost wanna, assume or jus directly take tat it's referring to mi. but, i chose to understand it tat it refer to tat guy u have a serious crush on. i was trying hard to take it tat way.
but today, when i read abt ur sweet dream,
As I looked at his back, I started to fear that I may lose him for good if I dun make it clear to him. I run up to him, hug him and tell him this " I love u"
i'm really a little unhappy. in the sense, someone close to mi flirting with someone else. like, on the bed, calling someone else's name. realy dun like the feeling. for now, i want to make this statement: i hope u r referring to mi
i knwo this can be wrong n i may scared u off, but i'm a bit emotional now to care abt wat i writing. oh well, nvm abt wat i wrote for the last few paras :) if u dun like it, well, jsu take it i din write tat down :) i'm off to clear my yahoo group mails.
enjoy ur monday :)
Friday, May 06, 2005
haha, i forgot wat i blogged abt ytday. anyway, today got home pretty early on friday. din wanna sing ktv. jus wanna clear my mail, do my pracs. sad to say, every fri, i feel tat the blog will not be read by someone. cos i got home earlier, i dunno wat i wanna do. somehow, i think my PR in offce still need improve a lot.
been there for 1 mth+. den till now, still going for lunch alone. the snr colleague (female) never ask mi to join her for lunch. ya i know she maybe not tat frnly to ask mi to eat wif her, cos she dunno mi yet. but then, when have a snr male colleague around, usually i can still join them for lunch. den today, after our traning (e 3 of us), the 2 actually went for lunch before mi. i was realyl thinking, how come they cant even wait? wel,l unless they got things to discuss among themselves oni... not convenient to let mi know. somehow i think this is really e case. cos got 1 time, we at lunch, they asking each other, how come the sup know soemthing? i really dunno wat they toking abt, n ask "wat's tat something?".
hehe, while writing this blog, i went to irc to fidn ppl tok. ok lah, for sexual fun lah. these days, how come the ppl dun have pix 1?? i posted mine, but 90% dun have pic. 1 even say he's being discreet. den after a long while, someone around my place confirmed he coming over. he's disruptee from army, gonna b a doc. he said he wanna chat oni. ok, i fine with it. he dun wan sex, cos ppl tend to lose contact after sex. he wanna frn.
he came over, we chatted and he asked if i wanna join his frns for pubbing tmr. den somehow, he asked if i honry. i said yes. den he say since i honry, why not do soemthing. well, since he asked for it, why not? we den had some caressing n patting. but later, he dun wan anythign to happen. jus wan mi JO. ok, i did, n he went off at 2.35am. although b4 he came over, he ask if he can stay over here. den later, he msg mi, saying soemthing like, guess we did not match each other's objective. Well, take care.
i den reply him tat, i was beign honest with him all the time. but from wat we chatted, he shld know tat i keep my promise. but since he offered JO, i accepted. i am honny. he cant expect mi to reject it. den this morning, after my OT, i msg if he comfy, lemme know abt the pubbing details. he den say, he not comfy. oh well, fine den. i'm not disturbed. jus tat, some ways ppl react is.. oh well :)
oh ya, last night, i was finding out which BB plan my Oz pal shld get. n while online, my gal pal actually said, i shld setup a chatroom, or msn thingy to tok, since most of my blog these days r more to chatting ahah. wat can i say? this is our way of toking? :) it's open to let ppl read haha. oh ya, toking abt this, 1 time got a tokshow abt the purpsoe n meaning of blog.
the youngsters were disucssing, why muz ppl go online to know frns? and they dun feel good to write ur diaries on internet, to e extent of letting ppl read it.
but, internet has ppl from all walks of life. everyone has their own ways of knowing new frns. voluntary work, clubs, societies, partime work. Internet is 1 of them.
online diaries? if u have frns overseas, how u gona keep in touch? in past, u call to incur DISTANCE TOLL charges. or wait for them to come back n catch up. why not jus blog down? this way, ur frns can read ur ahppening anytime of the day. dun ened to wait both to b free mah.
n let's say, u got soemthing to share wif frns. u wanna repeat the same thing to 4 frns 1 by 1? no 1 has oni 4 frns. so, how many times u gonna repeat it to? lastly, when u start working, u seldom have time to meet old frns. if they go read ur blog, they'll know ur happenings oso.
hehe, tiem to reply comments again!
been there for 1 mth+. den till now, still going for lunch alone. the snr colleague (female) never ask mi to join her for lunch. ya i know she maybe not tat frnly to ask mi to eat wif her, cos she dunno mi yet. but then, when have a snr male colleague around, usually i can still join them for lunch. den today, after our traning (e 3 of us), the 2 actually went for lunch before mi. i was realyl thinking, how come they cant even wait? wel,l unless they got things to discuss among themselves oni... not convenient to let mi know. somehow i think this is really e case. cos got 1 time, we at lunch, they asking each other, how come the sup know soemthing? i really dunno wat they toking abt, n ask "wat's tat something?".
hehe, while writing this blog, i went to irc to fidn ppl tok. ok lah, for sexual fun lah. these days, how come the ppl dun have pix 1?? i posted mine, but 90% dun have pic. 1 even say he's being discreet. den after a long while, someone around my place confirmed he coming over. he's disruptee from army, gonna b a doc. he said he wanna chat oni. ok, i fine with it. he dun wan sex, cos ppl tend to lose contact after sex. he wanna frn.
he came over, we chatted and he asked if i wanna join his frns for pubbing tmr. den somehow, he asked if i honry. i said yes. den he say since i honry, why not do soemthing. well, since he asked for it, why not? we den had some caressing n patting. but later, he dun wan anythign to happen. jus wan mi JO. ok, i did, n he went off at 2.35am. although b4 he came over, he ask if he can stay over here. den later, he msg mi, saying soemthing like, guess we did not match each other's objective. Well, take care.
i den reply him tat, i was beign honest with him all the time. but from wat we chatted, he shld know tat i keep my promise. but since he offered JO, i accepted. i am honny. he cant expect mi to reject it. den this morning, after my OT, i msg if he comfy, lemme know abt the pubbing details. he den say, he not comfy. oh well, fine den. i'm not disturbed. jus tat, some ways ppl react is.. oh well :)
oh ya, last night, i was finding out which BB plan my Oz pal shld get. n while online, my gal pal actually said, i shld setup a chatroom, or msn thingy to tok, since most of my blog these days r more to chatting ahah. wat can i say? this is our way of toking? :) it's open to let ppl read haha. oh ya, toking abt this, 1 time got a tokshow abt the purpsoe n meaning of blog.
the youngsters were disucssing, why muz ppl go online to know frns? and they dun feel good to write ur diaries on internet, to e extent of letting ppl read it.
but, internet has ppl from all walks of life. everyone has their own ways of knowing new frns. voluntary work, clubs, societies, partime work. Internet is 1 of them.
online diaries? if u have frns overseas, how u gona keep in touch? in past, u call to incur DISTANCE TOLL charges. or wait for them to come back n catch up. why not jus blog down? this way, ur frns can read ur ahppening anytime of the day. dun ened to wait both to b free mah.
n let's say, u got soemthing to share wif frns. u wanna repeat the same thing to 4 frns 1 by 1? no 1 has oni 4 frns. so, how many times u gonna repeat it to? lastly, when u start working, u seldom have time to meet old frns. if they go read ur blog, they'll know ur happenings oso.
hehe, tiem to reply comments again!
Thursday, May 05, 2005
finally finished a work day... after having my lens inside my eyes for 24hr+.. i took off lens at 8pm, so 36hrs in all. wah.. so tiring in my eyes. heeh, when i woke up at master's hse, my lens still quite ok. den i went to rinse my hair. find it 2 lay chey to wash it. haah, lazy loh. but if i going home str8 instead of to work, i dun thinki even bother, cos i dun wan look "i din change from ytday image". on way to work, i find tat right now, i really PRETTY particular abt timings. estimate whether, or how long, each action will take, and whether will have enuff time for it anot.
cos master was asking if i wanna bfast. by the time we leave his place, it's like the tmining jus nice for mi to be in office on time. but then, he ask if i wanna eat bfast. i den, was being sarcastic in my thots, but asked him whether he thnk we can finish the bfast on time anot. is it good being so time conscious?
n.. tat aj frn, i mean ex-frn.. shld i sms him wif a stern "wat?" or shld i b firm, n bochap him? i dun mind having him once again as frn, but certainly not go out anymore. more to hi bye frn. will not b tat close to him anymore. cos he hurt mi lotsa wif his way of handling things.
n jus checked my hits counter. wow, got a handful of ppl visit my page regularly. heeh. haha, i really wonder, shld i thank the visitors? cos they are reading my diary. supposedly a pte thing, but they reading it. shld i thank them for visiting, or for reading my blog. or perhaps, their purpose to understand mi more?
i dun think samuel appeared before mi today. *SOBZ :P someone jealous again? ;) * den today had a team meeting. somehow, i find tat, i am able to think n analyse wat they say, n think how i can improve it, but i never wanna speak up. maybe 'cos i not been thru all the processes yet. i still got 1 mth+ for probation. n kauz, when can i arrange for my java class??
finally i got home. by mrt. sometimes, i really wonder if i go the fun choy stall for dinner, am i looking at the stallowners, or i wanna balanced meal? tonight i went again, n the owner was quite jokeful, but kinda stupid joke.
he asked "got things to do ah? these days so late?"
i replied "ya, got thigns"
he den said "big thing, small thing, oso never mind. not my biz. come here eat dinner, den is my biz"
haha, maybe i can start o be frnlier wif them? pat their shoulder kinda things?? LOL... haha, been a long tiem since i JO, i think. after i bathe, n abt to wear new clothes, i actually felt like just JO siazz. wahahah, i thnk my daily life really nothing much to write. nopthign much interesting. gonna reply comments liaozz.
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as i reading ur reply, i got some replies in mind. haha, can i rmb them as i reply? heeh, rmb abt the surprise? i know u 80%-90 wun expect mi to blog. n i really dun wanna spoil ur day sicne i can go online. if i say, when i agree to go master's house, i specifically say "i need to use net when i get inside ur room", will u blif? cos i did say it.
when i wathc those drama, i often see how the guy go overseas, but when saw something nice, buy for gf n surprise her wif it, it can really touch the heart. paying attention to those tiny n trivial details sometimes is warming :)
ur samuel frn is cute ah? haha, but u never thot of dating him? whaha, not whole office lah, jus tat lesb jnr colleague of mine teased, cos i once said "ya, i love him". nope, i went over, really to enjoy a/c. n partly to accompany him loh. cos he;s not local n quite a loner. my place dun have a/c, n family there, a/c spoilt. went there to enjoy a/c n to be wif him. haha, n hor, so funy, i got there, settled myself liao, n he ask mi use net. n i focus so much on blogging tat, we chatted wif a few lines, n he dozed off. ahha.. i so paiseh. last time, i went sentosa coutndown wif him, i oso tok wif him for hours den sleep. haha.
i think i need someoen to fish mi out LOL.. cos i swimming in messy pool 8P (a bespectacled me.. but i think i stick to =P). haha y u cant come between us? so tat u either can b 3rd party, or b a flex LOL. u really jealous ah? if real, den.. i dun write abt him anymore loh. hehe, u write ur comments from ur heart, urself of cos dun feel touching. jus like mi, i do things for my loved ones, i know it will make them happy, but i oni happy, while they are touched.
wah, ur colleague look at u so much to note tat u smiling at PC?? dun they ask y u smile? haha, as i read ur comments, i was stunned tat i kena ur trick abt "other places", but ahah.. wif my INTELLIGENCE, i let ur FOOD enter my mouth cannot meh?? wat u thinking huh?? who's the noti 1 here huh? asking for a spanking issit?? =P dun worry lah, i ok wif long entries here. i oni teasing u :)
aiyo way, i think u really need an ADULT to take u in control siazz.. come, where's my cane?? haha jumping on ppl for fun mah.. haha, quite nice wat :) wat grows longer?? seriously, i dunno. hair? feeling get deeper, blog? ahha, ok u din kick/punch/throw/watever. u oozed her out LOL. ya loh.. FORCED to comment here. see ler u, so bad boy =P
har? u such a big boi, wif gym bod, nothing to offer mi for rewards? maybe a delicious meal? hahaha. ok mah. warm up is to get u into chatting, if u heated up, den u will be more relaxed n more urself right? =P ahah, wat can be bargained for when we in public eyes?? wah liao, push to mi. i where go read halfway n assume? thigns will happen naturally? dunno, if we have the chemistry, maybe ha ve the same thinking hahah...
hahaha... err. how come nothing else will happen when u beside mi? ya, we shld progress into cyber sex ;) by reading ur coments, i can sense as though ur person is beside mi, telling mi all these things, cos our replies, or maybe ur reply is quite personal n real life. almost like jus toking in person. in such case, soemtimes feel like hugging u, in my mind. but hor, i thnk in real life, i may suffocate. cos a hunk is embracing mi!! ya loh, pretty warming to hug someone u like/love as u sleep. but as yrs pass by, will the feeling stay?
umm, wat's the next potion tat i shld prepare? muscle firming potion? or anti-skin fairing? hehe... :) aiyozz, i dun blog, den someone sad, den colelague see a frown, and all wonder wats wrong, den whole coy no mood to work.. den i become sinner of teh century!! NOO!! i dun wan!! haha!! how come u say i into muscle dudes? i'm not turned on by muscles. body builder dun have any magic on mi, but a toned body has.
for ppl who got calories to burn, they can train up for muscles. for mi, i an oni aim for leaner n toned body. sighzz. y u dun qualify for bodygaurd? u dun wanna protect mi or ur bf mei? toking abt surprises, my dec date was down wif cough n flu. i met sent him home n waited for him at his block while he prepare to go out. while he prepare, i went to search for throat soothing sweets n drink. i bought some, n when i gave it to him, he said "tat's quite caring of u" or soemthing like dat.
wah u sure will cry ah? aiyo, i think when i meet u, i gotta prepare a towel for ur tears siazz. n maybe extra top, incase u wet my shoulders haha. hey, u forgot tat, once in while, u'll let go n eat lotsa, den after tat regret as tat oni mean u muz work harder? ur specialty is chiken rice n nasi L? i thot shld b duck rice =P. hainan chick rice hehe i like, but these days, the rice so commercial tat it dun taste good liao. nasi L i oso like haha.. wif ikan bilis, egg, wings, pandan leave fragrance. *tongue lash across lips*
u went london??? i oni been to Oz. huh? i thot u say wanna tied mi up, den ur hands enjoy my body? make love?? wow, a profound term siazz.. how many guys u tricked b4 wif this line? haha is there a lawyer who can help fight a gay case? hahah.. i wonder wat will he say. this lawyer thing, i nothing else to say liao. u oso dun smoke? den, muz change story liao, cannot stormy night, hehe.
huh?? how come i the honry dude?? wat's ur record for kissing time? my tan can stay quite long. till now, i still peeling my skin siazz. n the tan line is OBVIOUS EHHE. dun b 2 anxious for a good bod. good things come to thsoe who wait. ahah, no exactly champion den is winner. the star search, oso not the winner who succeeds mah. haha, jus perform ur best to outshine the others hahah. KAUZZ!!! more clothes mean less lower half clothing?? maybe i wear winter pants =D
family jewels? ????? why is it free ball? wah liao, u relaly evil siazz, i dunnno wat those terms mean lei. hhe, u say 1 mah, i honry when see u, so when sing, i sure get hardon liao hha. oei, i professional singer hor =P how can insult my singing as moaning? or compare it?? LOL *oh... am i dreaming?* u gonna whisper? umm, i think by the time u say out, my ear will be full of ur saliva siazz!! cos u drooling liaoz =P umm, my master oso comment tat someone is gonna b my bf or at least potential. cos we actually say "miss here miss there".
haha, oh gosh. mi 2, i prefer in a reason for everything. mi cute? err, ur way of writing this line sound quite sarc leh. i duno lah, jus tat, tat time, i was down, den he jus str8 away go n find his frns when i calle dhim 10-30 mins later. wah liaoz. at least u b at home, n can come over for mi when i called again. hha, how come i comparing u wif him??
i wun say u day dreaming, but i happy at wat u'll do lah. jus tat, my room here, the cooking stuff duno can meet the needs of a GREAT CHEF anot. speaking abt nixon, ytyda i went to movies mah, n saw tis name somewhere on a movie poster siazz, n i giggled :) ok loh.. i wun write so much abt him liao, today is last time i write details, or even mention his name.
well it's the conection mah. u read my blog, den in morning 10+ u blog own thing. tat time u down, so most probably something happen when u read my blog. tat y maybe i say i pay attention to trivial matters. sometimes perhaps too sensitive. spending the night, i explain above liao.. so not saying more.
if u feeling down, i dun mind offering u my place. i feel good if i manage to comfort u. haha, u feeling down, n end up u cuddle mi?? n wake mi?? but hor, my hair went for coloring b4, u can take the strong smell of hair color? well, meeting wise, leave it fate loh.. dun wan force. if u dun wan, it's ok. i asked it, cos if u really come my place for shelter, tat mean muz meet liao. hheh, ur job not unusual meh? everyday look at PC den smile hahahah.
i think i take DH's "pls" as a common part of conversations. ya hor, these days i seem to take longer time to reply blog oso.. i think this entry gonna b new record again, but not timing wise hehe. umm, somehow i oso dunno wat to comment on ur blog. but wat ur mum tok to u abt? sometimes, going out can mean hanging out wif frns, not really jus play games. i usually have a meal n chat for hours wif my buddies. haha, esp outside OCBC bank haha (gal, rmb?)
cos master was asking if i wanna bfast. by the time we leave his place, it's like the tmining jus nice for mi to be in office on time. but then, he ask if i wanna eat bfast. i den, was being sarcastic in my thots, but asked him whether he thnk we can finish the bfast on time anot. is it good being so time conscious?
n.. tat aj frn, i mean ex-frn.. shld i sms him wif a stern "wat?" or shld i b firm, n bochap him? i dun mind having him once again as frn, but certainly not go out anymore. more to hi bye frn. will not b tat close to him anymore. cos he hurt mi lotsa wif his way of handling things.
n jus checked my hits counter. wow, got a handful of ppl visit my page regularly. heeh. haha, i really wonder, shld i thank the visitors? cos they are reading my diary. supposedly a pte thing, but they reading it. shld i thank them for visiting, or for reading my blog. or perhaps, their purpose to understand mi more?
i dun think samuel appeared before mi today. *SOBZ :P someone jealous again? ;) * den today had a team meeting. somehow, i find tat, i am able to think n analyse wat they say, n think how i can improve it, but i never wanna speak up. maybe 'cos i not been thru all the processes yet. i still got 1 mth+ for probation. n kauz, when can i arrange for my java class??
finally i got home. by mrt. sometimes, i really wonder if i go the fun choy stall for dinner, am i looking at the stallowners, or i wanna balanced meal? tonight i went again, n the owner was quite jokeful, but kinda stupid joke.
he asked "got things to do ah? these days so late?"
i replied "ya, got thigns"
he den said "big thing, small thing, oso never mind. not my biz. come here eat dinner, den is my biz"
haha, maybe i can start o be frnlier wif them? pat their shoulder kinda things?? LOL... haha, been a long tiem since i JO, i think. after i bathe, n abt to wear new clothes, i actually felt like just JO siazz. wahahah, i thnk my daily life really nothing much to write. nopthign much interesting. gonna reply comments liaozz.
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as i reading ur reply, i got some replies in mind. haha, can i rmb them as i reply? heeh, rmb abt the surprise? i know u 80%-90 wun expect mi to blog. n i really dun wanna spoil ur day sicne i can go online. if i say, when i agree to go master's house, i specifically say "i need to use net when i get inside ur room", will u blif? cos i did say it.
when i wathc those drama, i often see how the guy go overseas, but when saw something nice, buy for gf n surprise her wif it, it can really touch the heart. paying attention to those tiny n trivial details sometimes is warming :)
ur samuel frn is cute ah? haha, but u never thot of dating him? whaha, not whole office lah, jus tat lesb jnr colleague of mine teased, cos i once said "ya, i love him". nope, i went over, really to enjoy a/c. n partly to accompany him loh. cos he;s not local n quite a loner. my place dun have a/c, n family there, a/c spoilt. went there to enjoy a/c n to be wif him. haha, n hor, so funy, i got there, settled myself liao, n he ask mi use net. n i focus so much on blogging tat, we chatted wif a few lines, n he dozed off. ahha.. i so paiseh. last time, i went sentosa coutndown wif him, i oso tok wif him for hours den sleep. haha.
i think i need someoen to fish mi out LOL.. cos i swimming in messy pool 8P (a bespectacled me.. but i think i stick to =P). haha y u cant come between us? so tat u either can b 3rd party, or b a flex LOL. u really jealous ah? if real, den.. i dun write abt him anymore loh. hehe, u write ur comments from ur heart, urself of cos dun feel touching. jus like mi, i do things for my loved ones, i know it will make them happy, but i oni happy, while they are touched.
wah, ur colleague look at u so much to note tat u smiling at PC?? dun they ask y u smile? haha, as i read ur comments, i was stunned tat i kena ur trick abt "other places", but ahah.. wif my INTELLIGENCE, i let ur FOOD enter my mouth cannot meh?? wat u thinking huh?? who's the noti 1 here huh? asking for a spanking issit?? =P dun worry lah, i ok wif long entries here. i oni teasing u :)
aiyo way, i think u really need an ADULT to take u in control siazz.. come, where's my cane?? haha jumping on ppl for fun mah.. haha, quite nice wat :) wat grows longer?? seriously, i dunno. hair? feeling get deeper, blog? ahha, ok u din kick/punch/throw/watever. u oozed her out LOL. ya loh.. FORCED to comment here. see ler u, so bad boy =P
har? u such a big boi, wif gym bod, nothing to offer mi for rewards? maybe a delicious meal? hahaha. ok mah. warm up is to get u into chatting, if u heated up, den u will be more relaxed n more urself right? =P ahah, wat can be bargained for when we in public eyes?? wah liao, push to mi. i where go read halfway n assume? thigns will happen naturally? dunno, if we have the chemistry, maybe ha ve the same thinking hahah...
hahaha... err. how come nothing else will happen when u beside mi? ya, we shld progress into cyber sex ;) by reading ur coments, i can sense as though ur person is beside mi, telling mi all these things, cos our replies, or maybe ur reply is quite personal n real life. almost like jus toking in person. in such case, soemtimes feel like hugging u, in my mind. but hor, i thnk in real life, i may suffocate. cos a hunk is embracing mi!! ya loh, pretty warming to hug someone u like/love as u sleep. but as yrs pass by, will the feeling stay?
umm, wat's the next potion tat i shld prepare? muscle firming potion? or anti-skin fairing? hehe... :) aiyozz, i dun blog, den someone sad, den colelague see a frown, and all wonder wats wrong, den whole coy no mood to work.. den i become sinner of teh century!! NOO!! i dun wan!! haha!! how come u say i into muscle dudes? i'm not turned on by muscles. body builder dun have any magic on mi, but a toned body has.
for ppl who got calories to burn, they can train up for muscles. for mi, i an oni aim for leaner n toned body. sighzz. y u dun qualify for bodygaurd? u dun wanna protect mi or ur bf mei? toking abt surprises, my dec date was down wif cough n flu. i met sent him home n waited for him at his block while he prepare to go out. while he prepare, i went to search for throat soothing sweets n drink. i bought some, n when i gave it to him, he said "tat's quite caring of u" or soemthing like dat.
wah u sure will cry ah? aiyo, i think when i meet u, i gotta prepare a towel for ur tears siazz. n maybe extra top, incase u wet my shoulders haha. hey, u forgot tat, once in while, u'll let go n eat lotsa, den after tat regret as tat oni mean u muz work harder? ur specialty is chiken rice n nasi L? i thot shld b duck rice =P. hainan chick rice hehe i like, but these days, the rice so commercial tat it dun taste good liao. nasi L i oso like haha.. wif ikan bilis, egg, wings, pandan leave fragrance. *tongue lash across lips*
u went london??? i oni been to Oz. huh? i thot u say wanna tied mi up, den ur hands enjoy my body? make love?? wow, a profound term siazz.. how many guys u tricked b4 wif this line? haha is there a lawyer who can help fight a gay case? hahah.. i wonder wat will he say. this lawyer thing, i nothing else to say liao. u oso dun smoke? den, muz change story liao, cannot stormy night, hehe.
huh?? how come i the honry dude?? wat's ur record for kissing time? my tan can stay quite long. till now, i still peeling my skin siazz. n the tan line is OBVIOUS EHHE. dun b 2 anxious for a good bod. good things come to thsoe who wait. ahah, no exactly champion den is winner. the star search, oso not the winner who succeeds mah. haha, jus perform ur best to outshine the others hahah. KAUZZ!!! more clothes mean less lower half clothing?? maybe i wear winter pants =D
family jewels? ????? why is it free ball? wah liao, u relaly evil siazz, i dunnno wat those terms mean lei. hhe, u say 1 mah, i honry when see u, so when sing, i sure get hardon liao hha. oei, i professional singer hor =P how can insult my singing as moaning? or compare it?? LOL *oh... am i dreaming?* u gonna whisper? umm, i think by the time u say out, my ear will be full of ur saliva siazz!! cos u drooling liaoz =P umm, my master oso comment tat someone is gonna b my bf or at least potential. cos we actually say "miss here miss there".
haha, oh gosh. mi 2, i prefer in a reason for everything. mi cute? err, ur way of writing this line sound quite sarc leh. i duno lah, jus tat, tat time, i was down, den he jus str8 away go n find his frns when i calle dhim 10-30 mins later. wah liaoz. at least u b at home, n can come over for mi when i called again. hha, how come i comparing u wif him??
i wun say u day dreaming, but i happy at wat u'll do lah. jus tat, my room here, the cooking stuff duno can meet the needs of a GREAT CHEF anot. speaking abt nixon, ytyda i went to movies mah, n saw tis name somewhere on a movie poster siazz, n i giggled :) ok loh.. i wun write so much abt him liao, today is last time i write details, or even mention his name.
well it's the conection mah. u read my blog, den in morning 10+ u blog own thing. tat time u down, so most probably something happen when u read my blog. tat y maybe i say i pay attention to trivial matters. sometimes perhaps too sensitive. spending the night, i explain above liao.. so not saying more.
if u feeling down, i dun mind offering u my place. i feel good if i manage to comfort u. haha, u feeling down, n end up u cuddle mi?? n wake mi?? but hor, my hair went for coloring b4, u can take the strong smell of hair color? well, meeting wise, leave it fate loh.. dun wan force. if u dun wan, it's ok. i asked it, cos if u really come my place for shelter, tat mean muz meet liao. hheh, ur job not unusual meh? everyday look at PC den smile hahahah.
i think i take DH's "pls" as a common part of conversations. ya hor, these days i seem to take longer time to reply blog oso.. i think this entry gonna b new record again, but not timing wise hehe. umm, somehow i oso dunno wat to comment on ur blog. but wat ur mum tok to u abt? sometimes, going out can mean hanging out wif frns, not really jus play games. i usually have a meal n chat for hours wif my buddies. haha, esp outside OCBC bank haha (gal, rmb?)
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
right now in frn's plc. actually dun intend to n dun need to blog. but haah.. dun wanna upset someone's day :) *kauz, this keyboard so hard to use!!*
alright, will keep blog short, cos.. main thing is to reply to comments. been thinking a lot of things while on way to work. flipped my java book to a page tat i stopped at. but den i wasn't reading at all. at most, i oni looked at the page 2 secs, n my mind n eyes drifted somewhere else. drifted to look out of window, and thinking abt the happenings. forgot wat i was thinking, but mostly on reln, wat's written on someone's blog *oops, haven been to tat gal blog for 2 days. will read the archive when got time*, my work, abt the things.. e to-do list which i never got to sit down to finish.
now, the feeling has come to me. the feeling of uncertainty. *umm, will tis blog 2 long instead of short??* everyone wants to be loved, n enjoy the sweetness of relns. same for mi. no 1 may ever wanna to be hurt at all, let alone once again. but eveyrtime when the feeling comes, 1 would most probably cant wait to jmp into it. as the old phrase goes, been there done tat. i had this feeling before. n know the consequences of it. although i oso dun wan be hurt again, but as i mentioned b4, when the feeling comes, u will only know the result if u give it a try. i shall leave it to fate to decide when the one for mi shld appear in front of mi to walk down the path of life, holding my hand. if fate decrees tat, a person appearing before mi oni walks with mi for a few minutes, so be it. take it as it goes. Life is full of lessons to learn.
today, haha, mentioning abt samuel again. haha.. someone got a samuel as close frn, i got samuel as a cute colleague@!!! YIPPE! samuel again came over to help us. i dun think much happened today wif him, cos he oni here half day, den going for roadshows liaoz. haha, i think those ppl visitng roadshows definitely envy mi for having a CUTE colleague like him!! he was there sitting wif mi, saying a user coming over to learn from him over lunch. den i asked, can i join? haha...
den later, my jnr colleague, was transferring a call over to mi. she said it's my lover. i wonder who. i picked the call. it's samuel's voice! ahha, i immediately broke into a hysterical luff! haah, den i sorry to him for breaking into such luff lah :)
my master ask mi for dinner, was wondering if i shld go over to stay for the night. cos wanna enjoy a/c. he oso treated mi tomovies, while i offered to pay for dinner. ahha, somehwo, the dinner was not worth it. small share for the price. watched the show "Kingdom of Heaven". my first commercial historical movie. i dino wat the movie is abt, but master wanna watch. got orlando bloom not bad. from the show, i understand abt warfare. and learn abt caring n protecting loved ones. but i certainly will not opt for history movie again. so GORY!!! heads chopped off, blood splattering, kauz! but somehow, i begin to find tat i start to read into movies.. those tat provide some kinda of lessons 1, i try to see the point, n think (analyse) whether i shdl learn from it.
oh ya, as i typing this blog, tat ex-frn aj of mine called again. i really dunno if i shld answer, or rej. ans is sure no. but rej... wel i can still frn him, but not to extent of going out so often anymore. prefer tis kidna quiet life for now. till someone pulls mi out of this mess? ;)
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wah liao, win liao loh.. dun jealous, but give 1 hard n firm "this would be my last comment". was thinking if shld go to frn hse lah, but 1 imppt thing is, no matter wat, i will try to blog some things, cos hehe, i mentioned above, dun wanna upset a day, if i can. well, the way u write things n describe, sometimes i find it pretty touching. maybe cos i relate n link a lot, and emotional type?
hehe, did u colleagues notice ur good mood and take adv of it? haha, oei entering my life mean knowing mi better lah. which other place u wanna enter?? my mouth? LOL. well, human often have more than 1 side. it's wat make them interesting. as we tok more, we understand each other more oso mah.. haah.. and use up my space here more =D
kids? wah liao, kids can be pretty cute at times. like joshua ang. bounce around? like a ball? =P ahah, FINALLY u admit it's LONG. will try to cut short lah, will try not to tok cock. how can say u forced her out? u oni kicked her out =) but dun worry, her blog i can comment, or msn her. for u, i bobian mus write here.. =D
in fact, to mi, there's nver too much to read/know abt a frn, let alone someone who i am used to reading n rpelying liao. oni scared tat he dun blog, n suddenly make mi worry for nothing haah. dun worry, if i tired, i will sleep more on wkdays haha.. i veli good boi n stay home on wkends 1. ur reply jus come naturally? hehe, r u able to read my mind so well?
u need a hug to warm up, or a caress/fondle?? =P wahah.. how come u oso start to read in the middle n assume my meaning? "cos we seem to click pretty well haha, know each other's history and happenings " mean we click well, know history and happenings. more than chatting? wat u wishing? french kiss or lovers' 12 hrs hug :) click in sex? dunno, need a trial for tis 1. but on fetish, seem quite ok ahah.. i sound like i judging u based on ur sexual answers!
oei, u again read in middle of text. i was saying if we dun progress into anything else, i will sure stay as good frns. but in fact, at times, i do wanna give u a hug when i read ur comments. spell? well i do watch "Charmed" hahaha... dun worry lah, if i can take it, i'll rpely ur blog to make ur new day.
haha. u urself claim ew in "ltr" 1 mah!! stocky fellow? oh well, how u knwo wat type of guys i into? hehe.. beshide a 1.72 gym guy, i will look like those petite ger having a bodyguard for protection LOL. umm, will there b surprises tat dun touch the person? if physical, ya of cos sometimes dun have. but if touching the heart, if sincere enuff, surprises shld reach the heart 1 mah.
train real hard? how come i read tat someone is eating all he can?? wah liao, u sure know how to crack jokes hor? go out/come home wif cookbook. oh ya, n someone is planning to practise his culinery skills tis wkend hor? after learning from the book LOL. imagine urself tying mi beside u? can, of cos. but did i smell precum?? LOL. wah.. i think i on verge of kena rape liaozz. someone wanna bind/handcuff mi so molest mi!! i think i wanna prepare to file a police port... LOL
thunderstorm nite? haha, sorri, i dun smoke 1 haha. actually, i know french kiss is a lasting kiss, but how to make it last? co-habitate?? someone, is a honry dude siazz!! or hunk ;) few days den u lose tan ah? mi is weeks siazz. umm, be careful of ur health. dun go 2 fast in losing wt.
u saw my pic in fridae n sgboy? who say oni u in finals?? go cinema go free-ball mean? cos i singing a emotional track to someone mah, so i'll perhaps b paiseh, cos never tried siging to a person. usually jus imagine n sing. haha, maybe no need to close eyes. i oredi hard-on by the time i start sing haha.
u still contact ryan? wat the diff btwn happy "they think this way" n "encouraging mi"?? cos i never had such experience b4.. usually is see from Tv, frns will encourage frns to go ahead n try. or i'll advise frns. now, ppl telling u tis. now i pretty happe tat they have such good view of mi haha. i think i inot good books of my judges. u lei??
i dun escape from LTR. if soemthing crops up, i wil lwanna see wat went wrong. when i in LTR, i will stop all sex stuff, unless he 100% dun mind. if he hesitate n agree, i'll understand him n decline all sex. wat more, if i dating someone, i will not allow myself to stray n date other guys same time. feel it's unfair.
LTr definitely got LOVE mah. comms impt, trust MUZ b there. both parties, i hope can b truthful loh. dun like "dun speak truth". even if stray a bit, wat's wrong wif confessing? better than i find out myself n qn tat person. n oso be there for each other in needs, n b attentive to moods. like, i usually chatty n bubbly. but 1 day, i turn quiet n cancel my appt. u wanna come. i say dun need. n u decided to go out wif ur frns SINCE I SAY U DUN NEED COME. wah liao, i'll b disappointed 1 loh. i'm down, cant u shwo more concern n drop by?? even a visit will be nice. u can't expect a person to so easily pour outs orrows 1 rite?? haha.. ok.. the moods 1, i was venting my frustz on my dec dating :)
btw, who is yanfang?? a kiddy? wat happened to u early in morning? i suppose u had read my blog. sad wif my comments on samuel? or abt mi spending night at master place? thinking tat a/c is pretext? seriously i dun lie loh. if i din write things clear enuff, u can always ask mi. dun tell mi my blog lost its magic on u?? u shld listen to SYZ's tao wang. i put the link for u when i get home tmr. e song to mi is abt dun give up even in times of troubles.
seriously.. if u wanna hide, my humble room here can be ur shelter. but it mean, we meet EARLIER!! i dun mind even if my beloved has an unusual job. i'll oni b worried sick for him. wat does PLS do?? ya, the show's COOL!! other than charmed, i am watching this show!! YAY, despo house-hubbies!!
gdnite, at 1.34am haha.. NEW RECORD!!
alright, will keep blog short, cos.. main thing is to reply to comments. been thinking a lot of things while on way to work. flipped my java book to a page tat i stopped at. but den i wasn't reading at all. at most, i oni looked at the page 2 secs, n my mind n eyes drifted somewhere else. drifted to look out of window, and thinking abt the happenings. forgot wat i was thinking, but mostly on reln, wat's written on someone's blog *oops, haven been to tat gal blog for 2 days. will read the archive when got time*, my work, abt the things.. e to-do list which i never got to sit down to finish.
now, the feeling has come to me. the feeling of uncertainty. *umm, will tis blog 2 long instead of short??* everyone wants to be loved, n enjoy the sweetness of relns. same for mi. no 1 may ever wanna to be hurt at all, let alone once again. but eveyrtime when the feeling comes, 1 would most probably cant wait to jmp into it. as the old phrase goes, been there done tat. i had this feeling before. n know the consequences of it. although i oso dun wan be hurt again, but as i mentioned b4, when the feeling comes, u will only know the result if u give it a try. i shall leave it to fate to decide when the one for mi shld appear in front of mi to walk down the path of life, holding my hand. if fate decrees tat, a person appearing before mi oni walks with mi for a few minutes, so be it. take it as it goes. Life is full of lessons to learn.
today, haha, mentioning abt samuel again. haha.. someone got a samuel as close frn, i got samuel as a cute colleague@!!! YIPPE! samuel again came over to help us. i dun think much happened today wif him, cos he oni here half day, den going for roadshows liaoz. haha, i think those ppl visitng roadshows definitely envy mi for having a CUTE colleague like him!! he was there sitting wif mi, saying a user coming over to learn from him over lunch. den i asked, can i join? haha...
den later, my jnr colleague, was transferring a call over to mi. she said it's my lover. i wonder who. i picked the call. it's samuel's voice! ahha, i immediately broke into a hysterical luff! haah, den i sorry to him for breaking into such luff lah :)
my master ask mi for dinner, was wondering if i shld go over to stay for the night. cos wanna enjoy a/c. he oso treated mi tomovies, while i offered to pay for dinner. ahha, somehwo, the dinner was not worth it. small share for the price. watched the show "Kingdom of Heaven". my first commercial historical movie. i dino wat the movie is abt, but master wanna watch. got orlando bloom not bad. from the show, i understand abt warfare. and learn abt caring n protecting loved ones. but i certainly will not opt for history movie again. so GORY!!! heads chopped off, blood splattering, kauz! but somehow, i begin to find tat i start to read into movies.. those tat provide some kinda of lessons 1, i try to see the point, n think (analyse) whether i shdl learn from it.
oh ya, as i typing this blog, tat ex-frn aj of mine called again. i really dunno if i shld answer, or rej. ans is sure no. but rej... wel i can still frn him, but not to extent of going out so often anymore. prefer tis kidna quiet life for now. till someone pulls mi out of this mess? ;)
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wah liao, win liao loh.. dun jealous, but give 1 hard n firm "this would be my last comment". was thinking if shld go to frn hse lah, but 1 imppt thing is, no matter wat, i will try to blog some things, cos hehe, i mentioned above, dun wanna upset a day, if i can. well, the way u write things n describe, sometimes i find it pretty touching. maybe cos i relate n link a lot, and emotional type?
hehe, did u colleagues notice ur good mood and take adv of it? haha, oei entering my life mean knowing mi better lah. which other place u wanna enter?? my mouth? LOL. well, human often have more than 1 side. it's wat make them interesting. as we tok more, we understand each other more oso mah.. haah.. and use up my space here more =D
kids? wah liao, kids can be pretty cute at times. like joshua ang. bounce around? like a ball? =P ahah, FINALLY u admit it's LONG. will try to cut short lah, will try not to tok cock. how can say u forced her out? u oni kicked her out =) but dun worry, her blog i can comment, or msn her. for u, i bobian mus write here.. =D
in fact, to mi, there's nver too much to read/know abt a frn, let alone someone who i am used to reading n rpelying liao. oni scared tat he dun blog, n suddenly make mi worry for nothing haah. dun worry, if i tired, i will sleep more on wkdays haha.. i veli good boi n stay home on wkends 1. ur reply jus come naturally? hehe, r u able to read my mind so well?
u need a hug to warm up, or a caress/fondle?? =P wahah.. how come u oso start to read in the middle n assume my meaning? "cos we seem to click pretty well haha, know each other's history and happenings " mean we click well, know history and happenings. more than chatting? wat u wishing? french kiss or lovers' 12 hrs hug :) click in sex? dunno, need a trial for tis 1. but on fetish, seem quite ok ahah.. i sound like i judging u based on ur sexual answers!
oei, u again read in middle of text. i was saying if we dun progress into anything else, i will sure stay as good frns. but in fact, at times, i do wanna give u a hug when i read ur comments. spell? well i do watch "Charmed" hahaha... dun worry lah, if i can take it, i'll rpely ur blog to make ur new day.
haha. u urself claim ew in "ltr" 1 mah!! stocky fellow? oh well, how u knwo wat type of guys i into? hehe.. beshide a 1.72 gym guy, i will look like those petite ger having a bodyguard for protection LOL. umm, will there b surprises tat dun touch the person? if physical, ya of cos sometimes dun have. but if touching the heart, if sincere enuff, surprises shld reach the heart 1 mah.
train real hard? how come i read tat someone is eating all he can?? wah liao, u sure know how to crack jokes hor? go out/come home wif cookbook. oh ya, n someone is planning to practise his culinery skills tis wkend hor? after learning from the book LOL. imagine urself tying mi beside u? can, of cos. but did i smell precum?? LOL. wah.. i think i on verge of kena rape liaozz. someone wanna bind/handcuff mi so molest mi!! i think i wanna prepare to file a police port... LOL
thunderstorm nite? haha, sorri, i dun smoke 1 haha. actually, i know french kiss is a lasting kiss, but how to make it last? co-habitate?? someone, is a honry dude siazz!! or hunk ;) few days den u lose tan ah? mi is weeks siazz. umm, be careful of ur health. dun go 2 fast in losing wt.
u saw my pic in fridae n sgboy? who say oni u in finals?? go cinema go free-ball mean? cos i singing a emotional track to someone mah, so i'll perhaps b paiseh, cos never tried siging to a person. usually jus imagine n sing. haha, maybe no need to close eyes. i oredi hard-on by the time i start sing haha.
u still contact ryan? wat the diff btwn happy "they think this way" n "encouraging mi"?? cos i never had such experience b4.. usually is see from Tv, frns will encourage frns to go ahead n try. or i'll advise frns. now, ppl telling u tis. now i pretty happe tat they have such good view of mi haha. i think i inot good books of my judges. u lei??
i dun escape from LTR. if soemthing crops up, i wil lwanna see wat went wrong. when i in LTR, i will stop all sex stuff, unless he 100% dun mind. if he hesitate n agree, i'll understand him n decline all sex. wat more, if i dating someone, i will not allow myself to stray n date other guys same time. feel it's unfair.
LTr definitely got LOVE mah. comms impt, trust MUZ b there. both parties, i hope can b truthful loh. dun like "dun speak truth". even if stray a bit, wat's wrong wif confessing? better than i find out myself n qn tat person. n oso be there for each other in needs, n b attentive to moods. like, i usually chatty n bubbly. but 1 day, i turn quiet n cancel my appt. u wanna come. i say dun need. n u decided to go out wif ur frns SINCE I SAY U DUN NEED COME. wah liao, i'll b disappointed 1 loh. i'm down, cant u shwo more concern n drop by?? even a visit will be nice. u can't expect a person to so easily pour outs orrows 1 rite?? haha.. ok.. the moods 1, i was venting my frustz on my dec dating :)
btw, who is yanfang?? a kiddy? wat happened to u early in morning? i suppose u had read my blog. sad wif my comments on samuel? or abt mi spending night at master place? thinking tat a/c is pretext? seriously i dun lie loh. if i din write things clear enuff, u can always ask mi. dun tell mi my blog lost its magic on u?? u shld listen to SYZ's tao wang. i put the link for u when i get home tmr. e song to mi is abt dun give up even in times of troubles.
seriously.. if u wanna hide, my humble room here can be ur shelter. but it mean, we meet EARLIER!! i dun mind even if my beloved has an unusual job. i'll oni b worried sick for him. wat does PLS do?? ya, the show's COOL!! other than charmed, i am watching this show!! YAY, despo house-hubbies!!
gdnite, at 1.34am haha.. NEW RECORD!!
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
was watching this sphere show. Pretty interesting.. I like the psycho effect and analysis. But not the sphere story.
den jus realised tat the livign room TV remote has cracked, and the iron for the clothes has committed suicide. these, were caused intentionally? no idea.
over these weeks, i start to realise why i not returning back to my java. i think i'm getting stressed by it. always trying my best to avoid resuming it. abt my not going out, i asked for it. cos, i living on budget, and trying to find time for my studies. whcih i have not been able to commit.
my sunburn getting bad. am i 2 de-hydrated? skin is peeling off on my back, and forearms..
finally a workday is over. samuel has gotten a new haircut. cut his hair thinner. wah make him almost bald. prefer his previous hair. but today, he brought an mp3 player along. hehe, the player was let down, till it reached his crotch. (UN)intentionally, i stared/gazed/looked at tat area, on the "pretext" of checking out his mp3 player ahha.. no bulging at all.. LOL *ehhe, will wes be jealous?*
den today KO liao, the bus was quite packed. den suddenly, i felt 1 malay fat auntie was trying to get close to mi! in the centre (at the middle exit door), she was holding the seat railings with her left hand. i was on her right side holding mine rail. but her position was as though she holding on to hers and mine! so near mi!!
she wanna hold on to mine as well, but i blocked n flicked her fingers off mine. kauz, wat's she trying to do?? den later, inside got space to move in. i went in and she and 1 more auntie followed. tat auntie, maybe was cramped by the malay, tat y she oso standing almost like jus beside mi although her back facing mi. somehow, she keep using her arm to bump mi. n the malay auntie oso.. once again tried to hold my railings. i flicked off her fingers,.. but much later ,i gave up. dun wnana let her take adv of mi and i took another railing.
tmr, i dunno if i'll b blogging anot.. cos may go someone's house to enjoy a/c.
jus now, after i algihted from bus, i ate 1 mug of chry tea n 1 waffle. reached home, took 2 bowls of rice, plus some soup. ahha, first tiem.. or at least long time, never been so full liao!!
counting my money, peeping into the future, i thnk i need to get more money.. partime jobs? perhaps. maybe those partime tutors at tuition agencies... jus an idea.. i got lotsa ideas, but they seldom realise ;) n haha, i just shaved my pubes again!! so smooth now LOL
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ya, u knwo who this part of blog is for :) *gosh.. soemhow, while reading ur comments, i suddenly felt as though, we are pretty close.. but either of us went overseas and now toking using blog. "so near yet so far" is so applicable to us.. somehow, ok, i reading ur comment halfway. somehow, i was in fact touched almost to tears (of joy/happiness/giggles i dunno).
i'm, in fact, not sure if it's cos right now, my close frns are overseas, i seldom go out or contact frns, thus right now pretty touched tat someone is entering my life n knowing mi better bit by bit. i watched this drama long time back. Huang rihua was in it. he was deeply in love wif a ger who contracted some disease and was confined. speaking thru a glass door, they uttered touching lines of how they missed each other. this scene/tory stayed in my mind sicne then. it's touching.
though u dun mind long replies, i will try not to lengthen it 2 much. i was booted out of the audition lah :) ur frns did come ah? i oni know, from time to time, got ppl came my place from urs. eheh touched 'cos i write long reply? ;) but then for other guys, even if i write long replies, i think they'll say "take care" cos they simply dun bother to take the tiem to use emails. been like dat snce day 1.
haha.. she got her own blog, i can reply her wif it mah. if she comment on my blog, it's ok, but i'll reply her on her blog or msn. this is u-n-mi's oni way of toking. somehow, dun wan ppl to chup in 2 much. haha, but if i write this line, will visitors dare to comment?? haha.. i hope they still do..
ahha.. mentioning abt sam means i am attracted to him, but nothign can ever happen 1 lah :) it's office, i duno how to hint, prefer to keep things this way :) ur reply is longer than my blog?? haha.. cool. hehe i know u oni joking abt long blog, tat y i say u teasing my qn hehe. ya loh, it also makes my day when i get to read ur reply. like the "overseas" thign i said above. how come u have all answers in ur brain???
ehe.. we'll know wat happen when we meet up. everytyign need timet o warm up. but hor, we chatted so much, haha will we be used to meeting in person? LOL but i believe, we will get chatty once we manage to warm up hehe, cos we seem to click pretty well haha, know each other's history and happenings haha... umm, even if we dun progress much, we will be close frns haha. may feel a loss somewhere, if the thign is suddenly gone.
not a few days. if u dun blog suddenly for 1 day, i'll b worried. for u, if i dun blog for 1 day, u assume i blog next day ahah. i dun see the need to rush for meetups so i'll leave it to fate. n u oso dun wan meet till u finish ur gym routine? u mean, it's not good to let 3rd party know tarot readings?? err.. now u told a number of ppl liao leizz. i think i know why, i take some tiem to reply. cos it's late into night. n brain almost sleeping liao.. but i try to make an effort to reply =D
haha.. if i dun let u bypass the stages, who else? :) hahaha.. dinno we havign LTR liao *giggles* so u my bf? cyber bf? or date? *wah liao, i always use same old smleys till i sianzz* ya loh.. u oso dun wna tell mi ur stats. yup, ur frns will tag there, and den, will end up jus another comment.. hahah, am i really so good at linking?? now it seem like, u n mi going out, n ur frns saw us, n kept toking abt us.. err, strange linking eheh... oh well, nvm:)
u really cry easily??? u din kena surprises b4? ehhe... i wonder how would a hunk look if he lean onto a short guy's shoulder to cry ek ek ek... huh? cook 1 mroe share mean dine ur place?? cos i heavy eater mah, tat why cook 1 more share. if not, will jus b jus a normal meal instead of a fulfulling 1. coke?? i prefer pepsi twist. coke n pepsi ok, but vanilla will remove the gas, but lemon will increase the taste. my tastebud quite normal lah.. no spicy n no vege, n no exotic dishes, tat all. haha, did i hear someone going out to buy cookbook? :)
oei oei!! handcuff mean, bind my hands so tat i behave myself mah.. wah you, din meet yet n u thinking of tying mi by ur side? ahha.. if kena handcuff, dunno who will noti to who loh =P when u cooking wif love in ur heart/mind, a tasty dish will be whipped up. if add in lusty feel, a tasty n lusty dish will appear LOL. jsu to.. fool around for fun loh, when u going ur thigns. when we meet up, maybe thunderstorm will come, n blood will stain the bedsheet. someone will light up a cigar n smoke away. *GRINS*
ur lips seek mine? wah someone fantasizing orh.... got orgasm? HAHA!! err, wedding ring?? from hello kitty, street design ring, diamond or wat? hehe.. co-habitate mean u be getting my body first. ring will come later.. haha...err haha, wat am i trying to say?? samuel vs sam. samuel has kevin. sam in sydney. how coem someone in sydney can affect u?
wat kinda whitening system u got? wat u mean no good tan? which parts u trainign now? arms chest or tummy? i glad i got a LEAN bod, so LOL.. pretty contented hehe.. n resuming my 30 situps n twice my age pushups daily haaha... u into finals oni mah.. not the champion yet. so still got judges to determine if u pass ;) those irc guys ar ethe models who made it directly. But for you, u joined the competition for a more rounded check. this will help in ensuring a longer lifespan in this LTR-biz HAHA
haha, u dun have to fight, jus push 1 guy away, and he will knock onto something n concuss :D eheh, right now we not even planning to meet. why need to pre-plan wat we gonna do? wah, soemthing gonna happen in cinema?? rmb to remind mi to wear thicker clothes hor :) hehe, knowign boys ok lah, jus dun paedophile oni hahaha..
this is the line tat move mi almost to tears: "it's ur post that mark the start of my day and it's my reply that make me feel the day is completed." haha.. wan mi sing to u tat song ah? *blush*... make mi so paiseh.. ARGH!! wat's tat lick for? LOL.. i'm so seduced n turned on! so u gonna, bochup tat guy?
haha.. u saw mi in sgboy?? dunno yet.. din read any update.
oh, a new guy on the blk: ryan. wat's wif thsoe 3 frns u saw? the tension??
once again, couple outigns is upsetting u... *hugz* u had wanna frns to accompany for meals. wat's wrong with that? wow, n know wat? i broke into an almost hysterical luff at 1.16am. yes the time now. when i read abt ur "Pearlyn and the rest are right in a way" line :)
i'd say take thign slowly. cos i had reln when, we met, chatted, got into LTRs, den maybe due to miscommunications, it din last. 1 found another guy in 2 wks after i knew him. 1 said i was 2 immature for him (in '02 tat 1). 1 simply dun care abt my feelings n bochup mi totally. this last person, i totally no wish to be with him even if he ask mi back. all lasted for at most 1 mth. i choose to relax my pace and tok more first. cos at times, if i have the nubmer, i tend to b 2 aggresive and call to tok quite a lot, with that 02 person. all boils down to communications yes, but only if both parties are willign to give n take..
GDNITE!!!
den jus realised tat the livign room TV remote has cracked, and the iron for the clothes has committed suicide. these, were caused intentionally? no idea.
over these weeks, i start to realise why i not returning back to my java. i think i'm getting stressed by it. always trying my best to avoid resuming it. abt my not going out, i asked for it. cos, i living on budget, and trying to find time for my studies. whcih i have not been able to commit.
my sunburn getting bad. am i 2 de-hydrated? skin is peeling off on my back, and forearms..
finally a workday is over. samuel has gotten a new haircut. cut his hair thinner. wah make him almost bald. prefer his previous hair. but today, he brought an mp3 player along. hehe, the player was let down, till it reached his crotch. (UN)intentionally, i stared/gazed/looked at tat area, on the "pretext" of checking out his mp3 player ahha.. no bulging at all.. LOL *ehhe, will wes be jealous?*
den today KO liao, the bus was quite packed. den suddenly, i felt 1 malay fat auntie was trying to get close to mi! in the centre (at the middle exit door), she was holding the seat railings with her left hand. i was on her right side holding mine rail. but her position was as though she holding on to hers and mine! so near mi!!
she wanna hold on to mine as well, but i blocked n flicked her fingers off mine. kauz, wat's she trying to do?? den later, inside got space to move in. i went in and she and 1 more auntie followed. tat auntie, maybe was cramped by the malay, tat y she oso standing almost like jus beside mi although her back facing mi. somehow, she keep using her arm to bump mi. n the malay auntie oso.. once again tried to hold my railings. i flicked off her fingers,.. but much later ,i gave up. dun wnana let her take adv of mi and i took another railing.
tmr, i dunno if i'll b blogging anot.. cos may go someone's house to enjoy a/c.
jus now, after i algihted from bus, i ate 1 mug of chry tea n 1 waffle. reached home, took 2 bowls of rice, plus some soup. ahha, first tiem.. or at least long time, never been so full liao!!
counting my money, peeping into the future, i thnk i need to get more money.. partime jobs? perhaps. maybe those partime tutors at tuition agencies... jus an idea.. i got lotsa ideas, but they seldom realise ;) n haha, i just shaved my pubes again!! so smooth now LOL
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ya, u knwo who this part of blog is for :) *gosh.. soemhow, while reading ur comments, i suddenly felt as though, we are pretty close.. but either of us went overseas and now toking using blog. "so near yet so far" is so applicable to us.. somehow, ok, i reading ur comment halfway. somehow, i was in fact touched almost to tears (of joy/happiness/giggles i dunno).
i'm, in fact, not sure if it's cos right now, my close frns are overseas, i seldom go out or contact frns, thus right now pretty touched tat someone is entering my life n knowing mi better bit by bit. i watched this drama long time back. Huang rihua was in it. he was deeply in love wif a ger who contracted some disease and was confined. speaking thru a glass door, they uttered touching lines of how they missed each other. this scene/tory stayed in my mind sicne then. it's touching.
though u dun mind long replies, i will try not to lengthen it 2 much. i was booted out of the audition lah :) ur frns did come ah? i oni know, from time to time, got ppl came my place from urs. eheh touched 'cos i write long reply? ;) but then for other guys, even if i write long replies, i think they'll say "take care" cos they simply dun bother to take the tiem to use emails. been like dat snce day 1.
haha.. she got her own blog, i can reply her wif it mah. if she comment on my blog, it's ok, but i'll reply her on her blog or msn. this is u-n-mi's oni way of toking. somehow, dun wan ppl to chup in 2 much. haha, but if i write this line, will visitors dare to comment?? haha.. i hope they still do..
ahha.. mentioning abt sam means i am attracted to him, but nothign can ever happen 1 lah :) it's office, i duno how to hint, prefer to keep things this way :) ur reply is longer than my blog?? haha.. cool. hehe i know u oni joking abt long blog, tat y i say u teasing my qn hehe. ya loh, it also makes my day when i get to read ur reply. like the "overseas" thign i said above. how come u have all answers in ur brain???
ehe.. we'll know wat happen when we meet up. everytyign need timet o warm up. but hor, we chatted so much, haha will we be used to meeting in person? LOL but i believe, we will get chatty once we manage to warm up hehe, cos we seem to click pretty well haha, know each other's history and happenings haha... umm, even if we dun progress much, we will be close frns haha. may feel a loss somewhere, if the thign is suddenly gone.
not a few days. if u dun blog suddenly for 1 day, i'll b worried. for u, if i dun blog for 1 day, u assume i blog next day ahah. i dun see the need to rush for meetups so i'll leave it to fate. n u oso dun wan meet till u finish ur gym routine? u mean, it's not good to let 3rd party know tarot readings?? err.. now u told a number of ppl liao leizz. i think i know why, i take some tiem to reply. cos it's late into night. n brain almost sleeping liao.. but i try to make an effort to reply =D
haha.. if i dun let u bypass the stages, who else? :) hahaha.. dinno we havign LTR liao *giggles* so u my bf? cyber bf? or date? *wah liao, i always use same old smleys till i sianzz* ya loh.. u oso dun wna tell mi ur stats. yup, ur frns will tag there, and den, will end up jus another comment.. hahah, am i really so good at linking?? now it seem like, u n mi going out, n ur frns saw us, n kept toking abt us.. err, strange linking eheh... oh well, nvm:)
u really cry easily??? u din kena surprises b4? ehhe... i wonder how would a hunk look if he lean onto a short guy's shoulder to cry ek ek ek... huh? cook 1 mroe share mean dine ur place?? cos i heavy eater mah, tat why cook 1 more share. if not, will jus b jus a normal meal instead of a fulfulling 1. coke?? i prefer pepsi twist. coke n pepsi ok, but vanilla will remove the gas, but lemon will increase the taste. my tastebud quite normal lah.. no spicy n no vege, n no exotic dishes, tat all. haha, did i hear someone going out to buy cookbook? :)
oei oei!! handcuff mean, bind my hands so tat i behave myself mah.. wah you, din meet yet n u thinking of tying mi by ur side? ahha.. if kena handcuff, dunno who will noti to who loh =P when u cooking wif love in ur heart/mind, a tasty dish will be whipped up. if add in lusty feel, a tasty n lusty dish will appear LOL. jsu to.. fool around for fun loh, when u going ur thigns. when we meet up, maybe thunderstorm will come, n blood will stain the bedsheet. someone will light up a cigar n smoke away. *GRINS*
ur lips seek mine? wah someone fantasizing orh.... got orgasm? HAHA!! err, wedding ring?? from hello kitty, street design ring, diamond or wat? hehe.. co-habitate mean u be getting my body first. ring will come later.. haha...err haha, wat am i trying to say?? samuel vs sam. samuel has kevin. sam in sydney. how coem someone in sydney can affect u?
wat kinda whitening system u got? wat u mean no good tan? which parts u trainign now? arms chest or tummy? i glad i got a LEAN bod, so LOL.. pretty contented hehe.. n resuming my 30 situps n twice my age pushups daily haaha... u into finals oni mah.. not the champion yet. so still got judges to determine if u pass ;) those irc guys ar ethe models who made it directly. But for you, u joined the competition for a more rounded check. this will help in ensuring a longer lifespan in this LTR-biz HAHA
haha, u dun have to fight, jus push 1 guy away, and he will knock onto something n concuss :D eheh, right now we not even planning to meet. why need to pre-plan wat we gonna do? wah, soemthing gonna happen in cinema?? rmb to remind mi to wear thicker clothes hor :) hehe, knowign boys ok lah, jus dun paedophile oni hahaha..
this is the line tat move mi almost to tears: "it's ur post that mark the start of my day and it's my reply that make me feel the day is completed." haha.. wan mi sing to u tat song ah? *blush*... make mi so paiseh.. ARGH!! wat's tat lick for? LOL.. i'm so seduced n turned on! so u gonna, bochup tat guy?
haha.. u saw mi in sgboy?? dunno yet.. din read any update.
oh, a new guy on the blk: ryan. wat's wif thsoe 3 frns u saw? the tension??
once again, couple outigns is upsetting u... *hugz* u had wanna frns to accompany for meals. wat's wrong with that? wow, n know wat? i broke into an almost hysterical luff at 1.16am. yes the time now. when i read abt ur "Pearlyn and the rest are right in a way" line :)
i'd say take thign slowly. cos i had reln when, we met, chatted, got into LTRs, den maybe due to miscommunications, it din last. 1 found another guy in 2 wks after i knew him. 1 said i was 2 immature for him (in '02 tat 1). 1 simply dun care abt my feelings n bochup mi totally. this last person, i totally no wish to be with him even if he ask mi back. all lasted for at most 1 mth. i choose to relax my pace and tok more first. cos at times, if i have the nubmer, i tend to b 2 aggresive and call to tok quite a lot, with that 02 person. all boils down to communications yes, but only if both parties are willign to give n take..
GDNITE!!!
Saturday, April 30, 2005
i not sure if i really reserving it.. jus.. feel like.. toking to u oni here.. here's another linking, which i dunno how applicable it is - REALLY: we are having a cool n nice chat, hearty 1. as if no 1 else around. den someone suddenly jump in to wanna tok with either of us. feel strange loh.. i dunno how i got this feeling oso, but i simply feel this way for now. if u rmb, remind mi some time (how long, u can decide) later to tell u more abt "jump in to tok suddenly" thing.
gal, i seriously not pointing at u in any way. not saying anything bad abt u.
back to u :)... i may b bz wif samuel much later, to strike better rapport perhaps? cos our 2 teams suppose to b on good/close work reln =D but provided, i manage to hold on to this job.
wah, ur "not happy at long blog entry" is to tease my qn ah? but how come, u can write so long reply? i need to read all, reply while thinking. how come u can write ur reply so fast? hehe, mi oso, whenever i read ur comment, a smile will naturally stick to my face. sometimes i oso amused by ur comment, n the way u say it. haha.
"you've got mail" is more abt how the newly evolved means of communications bought 2 ppl together. the loggerhead is to add spice to it. jus like the "turn left/right". they purposely din meet, to add suspense mah. my link here is, we started blogging n commenting AT MY BLOG (",) n ended up chatting so much tat it makes our days/nights. somehow i feel tat, even if we at loggerheads when we meet, we know it's for the spice it gives, not to really get onto each other's nerves and upset moods, agree? =D *sianzz, thinking of inventing some text smileys to use)
y u say we making effort to be together? for mi, leaving to fate dun mean, purposely dun meet up, but dun rush into meeting up. more to when we feel we shld/ready to meet, den go ahead. tarot is for the near future? i guess u right. cos during 04 xmas, someone oso read for mi. my work, it somehow is right. cos it said, the job i gonna have is not my ideal 1, n the person who interview mi is pretty young. it's right. job nature not my ideal 1, but it's something tat i can learn n perhaps advance in. once again, provided i cna make the effort to stay - i am. n the sup, i know him from my HP job. he's below 30.
ur tarot readings for near future, says need time n effort to u n HIM to work. isn't it 2 far into future den? hehe u lemme pass interview n audition, go into finals, so of cos i let u go into finals without anything mah.. anyway, dun see the need to test u anything, cos.. so naturally, we click pretty well. i use this hook ppl up??? i am really hurt by this line =D haha, imitating ur words oni lah :) so far, u e oni 1 who chatted so much wif mi ever.. without even knowing how u look.
having u commenting here oso not bad.. cos i dun have so many ppl toking here. if tok over ur place, may not tat kind of pte space, cos ur frns will all write there, n perhaps chup-in. haha, really some personal space ;) aiyo, u guy, how can b slut? at most ppl can oni name u bustard hahaha. hehe, u dun offer but i secrely help, den more interesting mah :) somehow, i like giving surprised.. pleasant ones, hopefully. i like it when the person din expect it, n feel so happy tat someone did it for him.
errr... i can oni cook instant mee n eggs. if i find a chance to learn cokoing from mum, may try to whip up some dishes :) if not, i dun wan anyone to flush stomach in hospital LOL. if u cooking, haha, u beter make sure u cook 1 more share. not tat i like to eat.. err.. but i can eat a lot, but ya lah, as long my FLAT tummy got space, i can still dump things in :) u know, when eat at family, for bfast, i usually eat 1 mroe serving than anyone. for dinner, from 1 bowl+ of rice, to 2 bowls, now i getting 2 bowls+ n soup as desert. 20 mins later, i get a can of coke to drink on way home.
behave myself when meet? maybe u handcuff mi? =P y no fool ard when u clean? cooking still can play a bit.. unless u mean, when u doing serious thigns, u dun like to play? u make my life fun, cos when i KO, i sure will be amused by ur comemtns, n will read blog. if not these thigns, maybe really become oni mi living in my world. after my 2 pals went Oz, u the oni 1 who i consider pretty close to mi. we got so much to tok, tat i dun think i wan to tok u on msn, or chat on hp. really will prefer to tok face-face. haah reason: i dun wan my hp bill to have flying colour LOL. msn cos we too much to tok. dun think can do it in msn.. haha
e 3 criteria for LTr is quite common for ppl who r serious. toking on hp, useful when the person cannot meet up. ahah, be my side? u wanan marry into my family, or i co-habitate wif u? :P somehow, i'm confusing samuel's blog about "wes" n "him" wif u n his kevin. this samuel is e 1 who keep getting on ur nerves? not really background check, but wanna see who they are loh.. dun wan get 2 mixed up. haha, i cant comment on ur blog mah, muz use my place.. thus, i'm forced :)
mi 2, last tiem go swimming at noon, damn hot sun, till sunburn. will get a non-water soluble sun tan lotion to see how. i wun peel skin, but will itch all over ahah. now tat i got the tanline myself, it really look healthier than if whole body tanned siazz. sexy?? hehe.. maybe.. gym bod + tanline + good tan color... *droolz* haha.. sinc when did i become a gym-bod fan?? well, if u manage to find addy, u can come up. this is oni remark mah. i nvr state my addy anywhere. n oni a few ppl know where i live exactly. if e judges let u win e hse-cleaning AND cooking competition, u;ll receive the clue to my home address LOL
no really control my life, but if soemthign i write may upset u, den i try not to blog it. hehe, ppl wun dare beat gym-bod guy up 1 lah.. 1 punch from u, gone case haha. ya, i'd say leave it to fate... cos even if we declare, but the time is not right, nothign will happen. i blif in it. take it slowly, n as it does :) i hope tis works better. cos i oso dun wan jump into anything yet.
movies? hehe.. haven even meet, no point asking for movies mah. i mean, i was meeting a new guy for movie. din expect anything. met, can talk no prob. now still in contact. he went wif mi for audition today. haha, how u know mi never did anything in cinema? maybe not as hot n erotic as u, but fwe yrs ago, 1 frn did, for fun, insert hand into my pants, briefs, until he heard a lady behind us whisper tat we doing soemthing.
wah, u know a number of BOYS hor? samule, pika.. pika tanned liao, but still go suntan?? wat has BJ got to do with put ppl down?? wah, now lke u really doing prep work to meet mi up siazz.. skali, i e 1 who disappoint how. so scared. i dinno this world got so many kevins... but mine, is inside my IC 1 hor ;) listening to mariah's "We belong together". feel like singing it to someone. can ctrl length 1, but will be so short n bored. i at home reading n posting mah, but u in office.. dunno if too long for u to read/reply anot..
reading ur blog.. on daily basis, do u dine out, or with family? haha, i at first dinno which kevin ur samuel is toking abt. thot he saying mi siazz. maybe he not keen to know ur gym progress, or he comparing ur body to his bf? how come, frn call u, will cry n luff?? so EXTRIM LOL. this blog, got lotsa hidden meaning in the words wif CAPS LOL. if u miss ur HIM, u can give him a call mah, although he not keen in u.. :)
gal, i seriously not pointing at u in any way. not saying anything bad abt u.
back to u :)... i may b bz wif samuel much later, to strike better rapport perhaps? cos our 2 teams suppose to b on good/close work reln =D but provided, i manage to hold on to this job.
wah, ur "not happy at long blog entry" is to tease my qn ah? but how come, u can write so long reply? i need to read all, reply while thinking. how come u can write ur reply so fast? hehe, mi oso, whenever i read ur comment, a smile will naturally stick to my face. sometimes i oso amused by ur comment, n the way u say it. haha.
"you've got mail" is more abt how the newly evolved means of communications bought 2 ppl together. the loggerhead is to add spice to it. jus like the "turn left/right". they purposely din meet, to add suspense mah. my link here is, we started blogging n commenting AT MY BLOG (",) n ended up chatting so much tat it makes our days/nights. somehow i feel tat, even if we at loggerheads when we meet, we know it's for the spice it gives, not to really get onto each other's nerves and upset moods, agree? =D *sianzz, thinking of inventing some text smileys to use)
y u say we making effort to be together? for mi, leaving to fate dun mean, purposely dun meet up, but dun rush into meeting up. more to when we feel we shld/ready to meet, den go ahead. tarot is for the near future? i guess u right. cos during 04 xmas, someone oso read for mi. my work, it somehow is right. cos it said, the job i gonna have is not my ideal 1, n the person who interview mi is pretty young. it's right. job nature not my ideal 1, but it's something tat i can learn n perhaps advance in. once again, provided i cna make the effort to stay - i am. n the sup, i know him from my HP job. he's below 30.
ur tarot readings for near future, says need time n effort to u n HIM to work. isn't it 2 far into future den? hehe u lemme pass interview n audition, go into finals, so of cos i let u go into finals without anything mah.. anyway, dun see the need to test u anything, cos.. so naturally, we click pretty well. i use this hook ppl up??? i am really hurt by this line =D haha, imitating ur words oni lah :) so far, u e oni 1 who chatted so much wif mi ever.. without even knowing how u look.
having u commenting here oso not bad.. cos i dun have so many ppl toking here. if tok over ur place, may not tat kind of pte space, cos ur frns will all write there, n perhaps chup-in. haha, really some personal space ;) aiyo, u guy, how can b slut? at most ppl can oni name u bustard hahaha. hehe, u dun offer but i secrely help, den more interesting mah :) somehow, i like giving surprised.. pleasant ones, hopefully. i like it when the person din expect it, n feel so happy tat someone did it for him.
errr... i can oni cook instant mee n eggs. if i find a chance to learn cokoing from mum, may try to whip up some dishes :) if not, i dun wan anyone to flush stomach in hospital LOL. if u cooking, haha, u beter make sure u cook 1 more share. not tat i like to eat.. err.. but i can eat a lot, but ya lah, as long my FLAT tummy got space, i can still dump things in :) u know, when eat at family, for bfast, i usually eat 1 mroe serving than anyone. for dinner, from 1 bowl+ of rice, to 2 bowls, now i getting 2 bowls+ n soup as desert. 20 mins later, i get a can of coke to drink on way home.
behave myself when meet? maybe u handcuff mi? =P y no fool ard when u clean? cooking still can play a bit.. unless u mean, when u doing serious thigns, u dun like to play? u make my life fun, cos when i KO, i sure will be amused by ur comemtns, n will read blog. if not these thigns, maybe really become oni mi living in my world. after my 2 pals went Oz, u the oni 1 who i consider pretty close to mi. we got so much to tok, tat i dun think i wan to tok u on msn, or chat on hp. really will prefer to tok face-face. haah reason: i dun wan my hp bill to have flying colour LOL. msn cos we too much to tok. dun think can do it in msn.. haha
e 3 criteria for LTr is quite common for ppl who r serious. toking on hp, useful when the person cannot meet up. ahah, be my side? u wanan marry into my family, or i co-habitate wif u? :P somehow, i'm confusing samuel's blog about "wes" n "him" wif u n his kevin. this samuel is e 1 who keep getting on ur nerves? not really background check, but wanna see who they are loh.. dun wan get 2 mixed up. haha, i cant comment on ur blog mah, muz use my place.. thus, i'm forced :)
mi 2, last tiem go swimming at noon, damn hot sun, till sunburn. will get a non-water soluble sun tan lotion to see how. i wun peel skin, but will itch all over ahah. now tat i got the tanline myself, it really look healthier than if whole body tanned siazz. sexy?? hehe.. maybe.. gym bod + tanline + good tan color... *droolz* haha.. sinc when did i become a gym-bod fan?? well, if u manage to find addy, u can come up. this is oni remark mah. i nvr state my addy anywhere. n oni a few ppl know where i live exactly. if e judges let u win e hse-cleaning AND cooking competition, u;ll receive the clue to my home address LOL
no really control my life, but if soemthign i write may upset u, den i try not to blog it. hehe, ppl wun dare beat gym-bod guy up 1 lah.. 1 punch from u, gone case haha. ya, i'd say leave it to fate... cos even if we declare, but the time is not right, nothign will happen. i blif in it. take it slowly, n as it does :) i hope tis works better. cos i oso dun wan jump into anything yet.
movies? hehe.. haven even meet, no point asking for movies mah. i mean, i was meeting a new guy for movie. din expect anything. met, can talk no prob. now still in contact. he went wif mi for audition today. haha, how u know mi never did anything in cinema? maybe not as hot n erotic as u, but fwe yrs ago, 1 frn did, for fun, insert hand into my pants, briefs, until he heard a lady behind us whisper tat we doing soemthing.
wah, u know a number of BOYS hor? samule, pika.. pika tanned liao, but still go suntan?? wat has BJ got to do with put ppl down?? wah, now lke u really doing prep work to meet mi up siazz.. skali, i e 1 who disappoint how. so scared. i dinno this world got so many kevins... but mine, is inside my IC 1 hor ;) listening to mariah's "We belong together". feel like singing it to someone. can ctrl length 1, but will be so short n bored. i at home reading n posting mah, but u in office.. dunno if too long for u to read/reply anot..
reading ur blog.. on daily basis, do u dine out, or with family? haha, i at first dinno which kevin ur samuel is toking abt. thot he saying mi siazz. maybe he not keen to know ur gym progress, or he comparing ur body to his bf? how come, frn call u, will cry n luff?? so EXTRIM LOL. this blog, got lotsa hidden meaning in the words wif CAPS LOL. if u miss ur HIM, u can give him a call mah, although he not keen in u.. :)
ok.. back from audition.. toking abt work ytday, pretty busy. but fun oso.. cos if i busy, i can test my limit. samuel is pitiful. his dept oni got him n his boss working. but occasionally, he still coem over to update us.. den for mi, towards day end, got 1 regular caller, wah iao, i online with him 1 hr+.. until my ear so painful.. n towards day end, i was so famished.. + my brain has been thinking n thinking, till my lunch has been digested.. i was so tired... later samuel came over, n joked wif mi.. saying a guy user is coming over to look for mi... haha.. 2 bad, i 2 tired to joke along...
k.. last nigh stuff i wrote liao... den this morning i went for audition. i thot, can have some frns to accompany mi for it. dinno, they stand outside the hall, at the reception there. luckily oni 1 frn wif mi. waited 2 hrs before my turn. i went in, at first, i thot i shld have no prob, since my voice can make it. when i got in, i sang. upon reaching 2nd line, i started to focus on my singing to get into mood... by shutting my eyes. somehow, jus 1 sec after i close my eyes, i was thanked by judges n "escorted" to exit.
i guess, it's TV, so they dun like ppl to close eyes. n dun give 2nd chance.. although i think, if i brave enuff, i shld ask for 2nd try. 2 bad, emotional songs need focus on getting the feel right. ehe.. next time, i'll sing a happy song, at least no need focus to get feel, jus bounce n sing will do... sighzz... to think when i register for it, i had wanna sing "cant hear". den this audition, i thot shld focus on emotional nubmers, so tat my vocals get recognition, but jus 2 bad. although, while waiting for my turn, i had "cant hear" in my mind... i was even scared tat, later i may sing tis song accidentally.
alright, wat's over is over. got this exp liao, in future, i know where i stand. n cos this time, i somehow got the courage to sing to ppl in public. cos, after audition, i volunteered to sing to my frn who went wif mi :) next time if still got such chance, i will probably join. HAHA.... now, lemme rest first.. den do my wkend routine thigns..
k.. last nigh stuff i wrote liao... den this morning i went for audition. i thot, can have some frns to accompany mi for it. dinno, they stand outside the hall, at the reception there. luckily oni 1 frn wif mi. waited 2 hrs before my turn. i went in, at first, i thot i shld have no prob, since my voice can make it. when i got in, i sang. upon reaching 2nd line, i started to focus on my singing to get into mood... by shutting my eyes. somehow, jus 1 sec after i close my eyes, i was thanked by judges n "escorted" to exit.
i guess, it's TV, so they dun like ppl to close eyes. n dun give 2nd chance.. although i think, if i brave enuff, i shld ask for 2nd try. 2 bad, emotional songs need focus on getting the feel right. ehe.. next time, i'll sing a happy song, at least no need focus to get feel, jus bounce n sing will do... sighzz... to think when i register for it, i had wanna sing "cant hear". den this audition, i thot shld focus on emotional nubmers, so tat my vocals get recognition, but jus 2 bad. although, while waiting for my turn, i had "cant hear" in my mind... i was even scared tat, later i may sing tis song accidentally.
alright, wat's over is over. got this exp liao, in future, i know where i stand. n cos this time, i somehow got the courage to sing to ppl in public. cos, after audition, i volunteered to sing to my frn who went wif mi :) next time if still got such chance, i will probably join. HAHA.... now, lemme rest first.. den do my wkend routine thigns..
Friday, April 29, 2005
i cant seem to find the letter........... did i leave at home n forgot to bring back????????? my................ is it really fated tat, i can never join such competition?
i will blog abt my search for the letter, den later write abt my day.
in the morning, i was oredi.. disappointed tat i din manage to find at home.. msg family tat i going back to find it. after work, i rushed home. in the hope of finding my letter. i search for 1 hr.. high n low.. i cant find it!!! wat's going on ?? wat happened to it?!?!? search again.. nothing. i closed the room door. i felt like weeping/crying. i had wanna give up my search.. go home n watch Ch U.. but i dun wan give up like tat!
the letter muz b somewhere!! impossible to jus MIA like tat! i searched every piece of paper tat i can find in the house... nothign. i searched everywhere liao. is it really fated tat i will never have a chance to sing in competition? i 'm feeling bad. loss of words.. my dreams dashed. i thot of wat happened tat day, when i bring letter home to tell family.
we were looking at Oz pix. i even woke up mum to find the pix, so can see if the letter is mixed inside. nope. not in. afte 2 hours of futile search, i headed home.
but i was too disappointed to walk fast. took my own time. in my own deep thots. mind is humming/singing songs.. but i jus cant sing it out. thinking of wat other sogns to sing. happy is out. sad is not suitable. avg tone is ok. i think i gonna give up my nick luv_ktv. i never succeed in singing, but use it. am i worthy??
i will jus go home n sleep.. wake up on saturday, clear mail, n pass it like normal day. den write my blog after tat, since... tat guy read on monday oni. shld i still sing? dunno.. no point singing anymore. well, life muz go on.. so, din think of dying.
as i got home, i changed into casual, n decided to look through 1 last time. i search my drawer. 1st one, nothing. 2nd 1... i remove all the sm stuff to see clearly.. papers... nope, got a small pack of pix.. i tok it out, got a paper on 1 side. i took it out. flipped open.
IT'S THE LETTER!!! I FOUND IT!!!!!!!!1
i was so exhilerated tat i broke into tears!!! it's tears of happiness!! after much tries, i finally foud it!!! i was really lying my bed, sweaty, n rolling, n crying at the same time!! i thot i look like those, who found tat their exam passed wif flying color at hnr deg level like tat... i oso thanked my jade buddha.. after crying 10 mins, i dun wan waste time, so went to bath.
cool.. i still crying n trying to control it hehe.. i can go liao!!!!
i will blog abt my search for the letter, den later write abt my day.
in the morning, i was oredi.. disappointed tat i din manage to find at home.. msg family tat i going back to find it. after work, i rushed home. in the hope of finding my letter. i search for 1 hr.. high n low.. i cant find it!!! wat's going on ?? wat happened to it?!?!? search again.. nothing. i closed the room door. i felt like weeping/crying. i had wanna give up my search.. go home n watch Ch U.. but i dun wan give up like tat!
the letter muz b somewhere!! impossible to jus MIA like tat! i searched every piece of paper tat i can find in the house... nothign. i searched everywhere liao. is it really fated tat i will never have a chance to sing in competition? i 'm feeling bad. loss of words.. my dreams dashed. i thot of wat happened tat day, when i bring letter home to tell family.
we were looking at Oz pix. i even woke up mum to find the pix, so can see if the letter is mixed inside. nope. not in. afte 2 hours of futile search, i headed home.
but i was too disappointed to walk fast. took my own time. in my own deep thots. mind is humming/singing songs.. but i jus cant sing it out. thinking of wat other sogns to sing. happy is out. sad is not suitable. avg tone is ok. i think i gonna give up my nick luv_ktv. i never succeed in singing, but use it. am i worthy??
i will jus go home n sleep.. wake up on saturday, clear mail, n pass it like normal day. den write my blog after tat, since... tat guy read on monday oni. shld i still sing? dunno.. no point singing anymore. well, life muz go on.. so, din think of dying.
as i got home, i changed into casual, n decided to look through 1 last time. i search my drawer. 1st one, nothing. 2nd 1... i remove all the sm stuff to see clearly.. papers... nope, got a small pack of pix.. i tok it out, got a paper on 1 side. i took it out. flipped open.
IT'S THE LETTER!!! I FOUND IT!!!!!!!!1
i was so exhilerated tat i broke into tears!!! it's tears of happiness!! after much tries, i finally foud it!!! i was really lying my bed, sweaty, n rolling, n crying at the same time!! i thot i look like those, who found tat their exam passed wif flying color at hnr deg level like tat... i oso thanked my jade buddha.. after crying 10 mins, i dun wan waste time, so went to bath.
cool.. i still crying n trying to control it hehe.. i can go liao!!!!
Thursday, April 28, 2005
oei... paiseh paiseh lah.. will make it a point to reply ur comments b4 other net routine, can? but i not bz wif samuel lah.. haha.. not yet.. i not tat social butterfly to be such CLOSE frn wif him yet ;)
hehe.. replying ur comments n blog all at 1 go... will be LOOONNNGGG.. so new blog.. happy? ;) last night, i really.. suddenly pretty tired after sending heart.. was amused at ur reply.. n touched oso. but by the tiem i wanna reply, i oredi dizzy liaozz.. sory lah.. *muax* (flying kiss maybe next time haha)
ehhe.. u addicted to reading n replying my blog :D to blog owner? ehhe.. dunno yet..
u can also say, soemhow i oso looking forward to reading ur blog.. but hey, u diff hor.. u can surf net at work, mi dun have.. i can oni do it when home.. i KO 6+, take dinner n rest at family...8+ 9. reach home after 9. den watch TV, reply sgboy, check my blog stats, update yahoo group, n reply blog. dun even have tiem to do my java pracs.. but now, will sure reply blog first... hehe.. dun wan upset ur day :)
somehow, i oso... like daily routine to read ur blog n reply.. somehow, yesterday, i was oso thinking.. we are like "you've got mail" movie.. tom n meg dunno each other, always loggerheads, but email somehow linked them together.. maybe i'm fantasizing, but if we got fate *too early to say?* we may become living eg of "you've got blog (reply)" hehe... well, leave it to fate haha..
for tarot card reading, i thot if it say -ve stuff, den it mean he not for u? cos soemtimes, even if lotsa efforts n tiem, LTR may not work. haha.. u? u no need interview/audition... str8 away accepted 2 b challenger :D
u oni ask mi to help? err ur other IT frns din comment? haha.. making an offer to someone, dun mean tat someone muz accept *grin*
"fantastic PR" implies ur skills at army mah.. tat time u know how to make urself pop inside.. i write "comercial" cos the word fantastic sound quite insincere to me.. like too keen to praise tat person..
guessing game as in, i was trying to guess who is who mah.. ya, ur samuel n sam pretty confusing.. cos sam may = samuel. u did tok abt hubby n wife mah? rmb about the war thing? hubby return victorious n become tougher n more able to protect.. haha.. like u finish gym n come home like tat ;)
ya, sometimes wat i write here can make ppl quite honry cos.. i write wat i think/want to say.. din hide anything. did i give 2 much info?? heeh theoreiclaly perhaps. but in real life, will it actually happen? cos it's still cyber, n ppl usually 2 shy to post here. tat y, oni few ppl comment till now.. most are readers/audience. oni u r the voice-pver.. making my life quite.. interesting hehe.. really.. :)
cybersx? it lacks the feel. prefer to jus read stories. well, somehow, everyone who yearns to be loved, is looking for the person who understands, cares n clickable. abt calling n toking.. dun think will happen. for u, i dunno. but for mi, when tok on hp, may not possible to b everyday.. *been thinking thinkin of why.. but cant figure out..* sms perhaps.. haha.. but sure will afect work :) but at least blogging can make sure we reply each topic properly.. hehe..
hey.. if we can click, why cant call everyday? i rmb during sec days, we oso caht on hp almost daily.. i enjoy toking to my Oz pals. even though it cost mi bombs *AHH!! i'm shattered to pieces... funny? hehe or cold joke?* ya our blogs are pretty long.. n quite surprising tat we still tok so much. guess we really enjoy our chats heeh.. but// if my blog for u, get 2 long, lemme knw...*hehe, i actually.. willing to modify my style of blogging*
u where got alone most times? either u working, or u wif frns/at home.. quite active mah.. how u got to know sam? i checked samblog05. he in sydney. den samuel seem to like u quite a lot? keep having u in mind.. ya.. right now, i actually starting to do a background check on u LOL.. hehe.. somehow i think we jus manage to click.. evolve from a few liners to forced-to-chat-in-my-blog ;)
how u tanned? u use sun bloc or tan? my master actually use bloc, hoping to protect skin from drying, not knowing bloc is to bloc sun, tan is to get dark. haha.. aiyozz ch u got shows to watch mah.. tues is matchmaking, got cuties to lok at times. thur is guys' makover show. haha.. if u manage to find my addy, u always welcome to clean up my room :D meeting up? thot u not yet ready?
will find letter AFTER writing this blog :) dun wan upset ur day. hhe.. now this is a high priority liao hehe..
err, my JO blog.. jus writing down loh.. as part of my life.. ahahah!!! i thot u starting to wonder why i blogging such thigns, den later u r... hinting something? hehe.. or, u really dun like such things appearing here? having partner not bad loh.. but the partner.. hopefully can b perm n can click.. not jus on bed :) *shouts: any1 of the challengers taking up tis task?*
right now, if i dun read ur blog, i feeel.. the day is not complete. strange feelin oso. u feel something for mi?? thot right from start, like tat liao?? :P :P to mi, every1 dun wish to be hurt in reln.. from the last 1, i oso kinda give up on LTR. dun wish to know ppl in hope of LTR. but for anything, u never knoew unless it happen and u give it a try. if u fear something will happen n u wan to prevent it, u wun know whether it's good or bad. good, of cos happy. i'll jus take it as it goes.. my emotions on LTR is quite normal.. not thinking 2 much. takign it as thigns go.
but if u really decide to b cautious n... wanna pause, i cant stop u. but no matter wat happen, jus take it easy loh.. did u read my blog, abt meeting soemone for movies?
hehe.. we can click pretty well, so my blog is prtty long when tok u.. reading ur tues n so on blog.. haha, workout for 2 more mths? i wonder what's ur stats now.. next time i swim, i will also get some tan lotion.. sighzz n buy a tan thru goggles? sighz $ $ $. pika is... black? or natural tanned?
superstar audition is jus.. queueing up for a chance.. jus need a couple frns to be wif mi oni.. hey, i think i saw ur nixon in sgboy. kencer sounds familiar inside oso. ur monsters.. referring to wat?? LOL.. if i din read wrongly, u mean putting down some PPL :) my holidays.. mostly will be home doing pracs.. unless ppl ask mi out?
ur skye oso got a kevin?
phew... finally finish... from 10pm, till now 1209am... damn long... err.. shld i post less?
hehe.. replying ur comments n blog all at 1 go... will be LOOONNNGGG.. so new blog.. happy? ;) last night, i really.. suddenly pretty tired after sending heart.. was amused at ur reply.. n touched oso. but by the tiem i wanna reply, i oredi dizzy liaozz.. sory lah.. *muax* (flying kiss maybe next time haha)
ehhe.. u addicted to reading n replying my blog :D to blog owner? ehhe.. dunno yet..
u can also say, soemhow i oso looking forward to reading ur blog.. but hey, u diff hor.. u can surf net at work, mi dun have.. i can oni do it when home.. i KO 6+, take dinner n rest at family...8+ 9. reach home after 9. den watch TV, reply sgboy, check my blog stats, update yahoo group, n reply blog. dun even have tiem to do my java pracs.. but now, will sure reply blog first... hehe.. dun wan upset ur day :)
somehow, i oso... like daily routine to read ur blog n reply.. somehow, yesterday, i was oso thinking.. we are like "you've got mail" movie.. tom n meg dunno each other, always loggerheads, but email somehow linked them together.. maybe i'm fantasizing, but if we got fate *too early to say?* we may become living eg of "you've got blog (reply)" hehe... well, leave it to fate haha..
for tarot card reading, i thot if it say -ve stuff, den it mean he not for u? cos soemtimes, even if lotsa efforts n tiem, LTR may not work. haha.. u? u no need interview/audition... str8 away accepted 2 b challenger :D
u oni ask mi to help? err ur other IT frns din comment? haha.. making an offer to someone, dun mean tat someone muz accept *grin*
"fantastic PR" implies ur skills at army mah.. tat time u know how to make urself pop inside.. i write "comercial" cos the word fantastic sound quite insincere to me.. like too keen to praise tat person..
guessing game as in, i was trying to guess who is who mah.. ya, ur samuel n sam pretty confusing.. cos sam may = samuel. u did tok abt hubby n wife mah? rmb about the war thing? hubby return victorious n become tougher n more able to protect.. haha.. like u finish gym n come home like tat ;)
ya, sometimes wat i write here can make ppl quite honry cos.. i write wat i think/want to say.. din hide anything. did i give 2 much info?? heeh theoreiclaly perhaps. but in real life, will it actually happen? cos it's still cyber, n ppl usually 2 shy to post here. tat y, oni few ppl comment till now.. most are readers/audience. oni u r the voice-pver.. making my life quite.. interesting hehe.. really.. :)
cybersx? it lacks the feel. prefer to jus read stories. well, somehow, everyone who yearns to be loved, is looking for the person who understands, cares n clickable. abt calling n toking.. dun think will happen. for u, i dunno. but for mi, when tok on hp, may not possible to b everyday.. *been thinking thinkin of why.. but cant figure out..* sms perhaps.. haha.. but sure will afect work :) but at least blogging can make sure we reply each topic properly.. hehe..
hey.. if we can click, why cant call everyday? i rmb during sec days, we oso caht on hp almost daily.. i enjoy toking to my Oz pals. even though it cost mi bombs *AHH!! i'm shattered to pieces... funny? hehe or cold joke?* ya our blogs are pretty long.. n quite surprising tat we still tok so much. guess we really enjoy our chats heeh.. but// if my blog for u, get 2 long, lemme knw...*hehe, i actually.. willing to modify my style of blogging*
u where got alone most times? either u working, or u wif frns/at home.. quite active mah.. how u got to know sam? i checked samblog05. he in sydney. den samuel seem to like u quite a lot? keep having u in mind.. ya.. right now, i actually starting to do a background check on u LOL.. hehe.. somehow i think we jus manage to click.. evolve from a few liners to forced-to-chat-in-my-blog ;)
how u tanned? u use sun bloc or tan? my master actually use bloc, hoping to protect skin from drying, not knowing bloc is to bloc sun, tan is to get dark. haha.. aiyozz ch u got shows to watch mah.. tues is matchmaking, got cuties to lok at times. thur is guys' makover show. haha.. if u manage to find my addy, u always welcome to clean up my room :D meeting up? thot u not yet ready?
will find letter AFTER writing this blog :) dun wan upset ur day. hhe.. now this is a high priority liao hehe..
err, my JO blog.. jus writing down loh.. as part of my life.. ahahah!!! i thot u starting to wonder why i blogging such thigns, den later u r... hinting something? hehe.. or, u really dun like such things appearing here? having partner not bad loh.. but the partner.. hopefully can b perm n can click.. not jus on bed :) *shouts: any1 of the challengers taking up tis task?*
right now, if i dun read ur blog, i feeel.. the day is not complete. strange feelin oso. u feel something for mi?? thot right from start, like tat liao?? :P :P to mi, every1 dun wish to be hurt in reln.. from the last 1, i oso kinda give up on LTR. dun wish to know ppl in hope of LTR. but for anything, u never knoew unless it happen and u give it a try. if u fear something will happen n u wan to prevent it, u wun know whether it's good or bad. good, of cos happy. i'll jus take it as it goes.. my emotions on LTR is quite normal.. not thinking 2 much. takign it as thigns go.
but if u really decide to b cautious n... wanna pause, i cant stop u. but no matter wat happen, jus take it easy loh.. did u read my blog, abt meeting soemone for movies?
hehe.. we can click pretty well, so my blog is prtty long when tok u.. reading ur tues n so on blog.. haha, workout for 2 more mths? i wonder what's ur stats now.. next time i swim, i will also get some tan lotion.. sighzz n buy a tan thru goggles? sighz $ $ $. pika is... black? or natural tanned?
superstar audition is jus.. queueing up for a chance.. jus need a couple frns to be wif mi oni.. hey, i think i saw ur nixon in sgboy. kencer sounds familiar inside oso. ur monsters.. referring to wat?? LOL.. if i din read wrongly, u mean putting down some PPL :) my holidays.. mostly will be home doing pracs.. unless ppl ask mi out?
ur skye oso got a kevin?
phew... finally finish... from 10pm, till now 1209am... damn long... err.. shld i post less?
today.. nothing much happened.. for lunch, was deciding whether to eat hor fun at far place, or pig organ at neat place. den decided to eat pig organ. went there.. got 1 ger in front of mi ordering. i stood behind. the guy is cooking. the guy saw mi, seem to ask mi for my order. i said "kway chap" he waved n say "wait wait"... i den grinned.. n thot "he not ready to take order, but ask mi?"... later the ger done liao.. n go off.. den the guy still there preparing something... i dunno wat he preparing... no 1 liao, n still din take my order properly... so i jus left.. n bought other things..
den he later came up, asking y i ordered n left. i told him, i dinno he took my order liaozz..
den later ,i sat down.. a 4-seat place. while eating, 1 20+30 guy jus took a seat there without asking... wah liaozz...
work, quite ok lah.. tat samuel... still cute as ever :D but today... haha, i dunno if i wrote tis b4. my jnr colleague, once joked tat (this jnr is lesbo lah.. my guess... n i think it's 90% right... ) samuel's cute. i replied "ya, i love him" she said "oh gosh!" today, he came over n joked as usuall.. but somehow, maybe i 2 sensitive.. he kept toking abt gers.. how good they are.. how chio.. but i not bothered :)
den, a sec frn.. or rather.. ex-frn or jus acquaintance.. he was my pal during sec days.. but now... no more, thoroughly disappointed. he msg mi, asking to meet up.. n called mi oso.. i told him i not free, cos wanna watch TV. but if he wan, can dine at my area. he ok. later he came my place dine.
e strange thing is tat, i ko 7pm. he said he driving. i reached my place near 8. den he jus got there. i feel like... he almost no heart to mit... i called him twice. he picked but no ans. i msg him "if u dun wan mit, gd nite". later he found mi, n we went for dinner. all the while, he was trying to chat. but in my mind, i oredi 2 disappointed tat i simply dun wan tok at all. i was waiting for a chance to tell him off. tell him how disappointed i am. Am, not was. come on, he made mi so disappointed. i dun even wanna tok to him. how to expect mi to tok casual wif him? all the while, i having 1 liner or monotone reply.
this irked him off pretty much. durign dinner, he left in a huff. fien wif mi... wat is he expecting? he treated mi in such way in past, n now, i supposed to be happy to see him?
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hey gal, can we... tok in ur blog? dun wan have so many ppl toking in my blog.. haha.. or maybe i really... reserving this space for him? dunno.. maybe 2 used to toking to him oni in here, or jus wanna tok in ur blog instead..
den he later came up, asking y i ordered n left. i told him, i dinno he took my order liaozz..
den later ,i sat down.. a 4-seat place. while eating, 1 20+30 guy jus took a seat there without asking... wah liaozz...
work, quite ok lah.. tat samuel... still cute as ever :D but today... haha, i dunno if i wrote tis b4. my jnr colleague, once joked tat (this jnr is lesbo lah.. my guess... n i think it's 90% right... ) samuel's cute. i replied "ya, i love him" she said "oh gosh!" today, he came over n joked as usuall.. but somehow, maybe i 2 sensitive.. he kept toking abt gers.. how good they are.. how chio.. but i not bothered :)
den, a sec frn.. or rather.. ex-frn or jus acquaintance.. he was my pal during sec days.. but now... no more, thoroughly disappointed. he msg mi, asking to meet up.. n called mi oso.. i told him i not free, cos wanna watch TV. but if he wan, can dine at my area. he ok. later he came my place dine.
e strange thing is tat, i ko 7pm. he said he driving. i reached my place near 8. den he jus got there. i feel like... he almost no heart to mit... i called him twice. he picked but no ans. i msg him "if u dun wan mit, gd nite". later he found mi, n we went for dinner. all the while, he was trying to chat. but in my mind, i oredi 2 disappointed tat i simply dun wan tok at all. i was waiting for a chance to tell him off. tell him how disappointed i am. Am, not was. come on, he made mi so disappointed. i dun even wanna tok to him. how to expect mi to tok casual wif him? all the while, i having 1 liner or monotone reply.
this irked him off pretty much. durign dinner, he left in a huff. fien wif mi... wat is he expecting? he treated mi in such way in past, n now, i supposed to be happy to see him?
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hey gal, can we... tok in ur blog? dun wan have so many ppl toking in my blog.. haha.. or maybe i really... reserving this space for him? dunno.. maybe 2 used to toking to him oni in here, or jus wanna tok in ur blog instead..
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
gonna sleep soon...
watchign Ch U tat... taiwan idol drama. toking abt young love.. those 20yo ppl.. the guy claim, with the love and strength he gain from her, he can provide for her and they can live happily ever after.. oh... those.. youngsters' visions of love.. who never been thru?
somehow i can say i quite happy today.. other than a few little minor unhappy events.. llke, i queueing for drinks, jus behind 1 guy. den another guy pats his shoulder, start toking, n order b4 mi.. the stall owner oso.. did nothing.. i thot will b first come first serve. den, as i paid for my order, about to put the money on the owner hand, den suddenly felt like i dropped it. ya, his style to check the money. but.. jus.. find it strange. i think next time, i'll drop it on the tray istead liao..
in office, pretty fantastic.. samuel came over.. i forgot the sequence liao.. but whenver he come over, he i n jnr colleague will tok n tease... tis time say "u wanna punish the ger?", when ask him some things tat he find odd, jnr coleague will say soemthing, n i reply "hey, u read my mind!", n on phone, he ask mi, "why so rushing? any1 chasing u?" i reply "i'm chasing u" hehe...
oh ya, he was infantry officer!!! den oso ask him.. abt where he live.. but i say wrongyl.. until "where u live at home?" haha.. but i twisted it to "i was asking which room at home u live in" haha.. quite fun n amusing to tok... n he oso comment on our work faces "1 is stress, 1 is busy, 1 is troubled, mi is amused" LOL..
the thing to be happy is... 2nd sup today, ask if i would like more responsibilities... i told him if given chance, yes. den he ask my snr colleague to give mi some task to do.. haha.. but later, i dunno if i made mistake.. by discussing a mistake in a troubleshootng guide... cos snr colleague shld have seen tat error..
den i went family, bought ice cream.. their biz dun seem good on such warm day.. funny.. how come har? these days.. duno if cos warm, or wat.. i starting to enjoy ice cream.. everytime buyt hose cube ice cream, i'll ask for bread... like those baked bread.. YUMZZ!
at family, there mum not back by 8. sighzz.. if she so busy, she can always get us buy dinner mah.. oh ya, nearly forget.. I FOUND MAYDAY CD!!!! gonna find the letter by tmr... n jus now oso heard n sang the song.. "chun zhen". chose this song cos.. their voice is not matured... voice range match.. n i like the song oso..
n for the audition tis sat, i today sms some ppl.. saying "i going audition tis sat... wanna coem wif mi? find 1 or 2 ppl..." den some ppl actualyl thto i wanna them audition oso!!! WAH!! i oni asking them to go wif mi to queue lah.. n think tat's all.. write some more, will jus b toking crap..
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hey gal... haha.. so does it mean, if guys around u now are shorties.. or avg'ies.. u'll fall for them? LOL
umm, 2.19am?? u dun need sleep? dun over stress urself.. if needed n helpful, think of the good times u had spent with the person u stll love...
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now slightly past 12... suddenyl feel a bit sleepy n tired.. returning hearts.. tmr den carry on ur blog stuff...
watchign Ch U tat... taiwan idol drama. toking abt young love.. those 20yo ppl.. the guy claim, with the love and strength he gain from her, he can provide for her and they can live happily ever after.. oh... those.. youngsters' visions of love.. who never been thru?
somehow i can say i quite happy today.. other than a few little minor unhappy events.. llke, i queueing for drinks, jus behind 1 guy. den another guy pats his shoulder, start toking, n order b4 mi.. the stall owner oso.. did nothing.. i thot will b first come first serve. den, as i paid for my order, about to put the money on the owner hand, den suddenly felt like i dropped it. ya, his style to check the money. but.. jus.. find it strange. i think next time, i'll drop it on the tray istead liao..
in office, pretty fantastic.. samuel came over.. i forgot the sequence liao.. but whenver he come over, he i n jnr colleague will tok n tease... tis time say "u wanna punish the ger?", when ask him some things tat he find odd, jnr coleague will say soemthing, n i reply "hey, u read my mind!", n on phone, he ask mi, "why so rushing? any1 chasing u?" i reply "i'm chasing u" hehe...
oh ya, he was infantry officer!!! den oso ask him.. abt where he live.. but i say wrongyl.. until "where u live at home?" haha.. but i twisted it to "i was asking which room at home u live in" haha.. quite fun n amusing to tok... n he oso comment on our work faces "1 is stress, 1 is busy, 1 is troubled, mi is amused" LOL..
the thing to be happy is... 2nd sup today, ask if i would like more responsibilities... i told him if given chance, yes. den he ask my snr colleague to give mi some task to do.. haha.. but later, i dunno if i made mistake.. by discussing a mistake in a troubleshootng guide... cos snr colleague shld have seen tat error..
den i went family, bought ice cream.. their biz dun seem good on such warm day.. funny.. how come har? these days.. duno if cos warm, or wat.. i starting to enjoy ice cream.. everytime buyt hose cube ice cream, i'll ask for bread... like those baked bread.. YUMZZ!
at family, there mum not back by 8. sighzz.. if she so busy, she can always get us buy dinner mah.. oh ya, nearly forget.. I FOUND MAYDAY CD!!!! gonna find the letter by tmr... n jus now oso heard n sang the song.. "chun zhen". chose this song cos.. their voice is not matured... voice range match.. n i like the song oso..
n for the audition tis sat, i today sms some ppl.. saying "i going audition tis sat... wanna coem wif mi? find 1 or 2 ppl..." den some ppl actualyl thto i wanna them audition oso!!! WAH!! i oni asking them to go wif mi to queue lah.. n think tat's all.. write some more, will jus b toking crap..
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hey gal... haha.. so does it mean, if guys around u now are shorties.. or avg'ies.. u'll fall for them? LOL
umm, 2.19am?? u dun need sleep? dun over stress urself.. if needed n helpful, think of the good times u had spent with the person u stll love...
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now slightly past 12... suddenyl feel a bit sleepy n tired.. returning hearts.. tmr den carry on ur blog stuff...
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
strange.. last night, after supper n blogging, i slept at 1+.. forgot if i JO'ed. den i woke at 5+ and den 6am for work. i din feel tired. was quite awake though. at office meeting, sup told mi, i will start to troubleshoot hands on tis wk.. hehe.. hope it's good news :)
some day, samuel had come again.. he still having flu.. so, was quite.. packed up ;) this time, he told us.. the user's Id dun mean their YOB.. LOL.. we know tat... n i replied "dun worry, we are intelligent ;)" den today.. he came in, my jnr colleague asked if he's free, he replied "no lah, how cna i be free? I'm expensive" den i replied "how much?"
den my whole office broke into laughter!! mi too.. was aboutt o pick a call, but almost cant control my laughter. oh well, bought MC's cd.. heard got 2 version. 1 is wif poster 20.9, 1 is w/o. 18.9. the sales asst told mi, most ppl buy 18.9 1, cos the poster is jus notepad size.. nothing great. now listening.. not bad.. although forum say her Charmbracelet is better...
den at family, i managed to get the PC connected to BB. aafter some twistig here n there.. haha... well, my It knowledge is for worth nothing 1 loh!! :D
nothign else to say liao...
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wah liao.. those tall guys.. of cos will say 1.7 is short. they dun understand the plight of us!!
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wondering wat happened to tat guy... sick? din go work? ehhe.. my turn to feel strange.. not to get ur comments on my blog.. n no entry on ur blog on wkdays... hehe.. sometimes, ppl only feel the loss of something when they are unable to find it.. guess i can sleep early :P
some day, samuel had come again.. he still having flu.. so, was quite.. packed up ;) this time, he told us.. the user's Id dun mean their YOB.. LOL.. we know tat... n i replied "dun worry, we are intelligent ;)" den today.. he came in, my jnr colleague asked if he's free, he replied "no lah, how cna i be free? I'm expensive" den i replied "how much?"
den my whole office broke into laughter!! mi too.. was aboutt o pick a call, but almost cant control my laughter. oh well, bought MC's cd.. heard got 2 version. 1 is wif poster 20.9, 1 is w/o. 18.9. the sales asst told mi, most ppl buy 18.9 1, cos the poster is jus notepad size.. nothing great. now listening.. not bad.. although forum say her Charmbracelet is better...
den at family, i managed to get the PC connected to BB. aafter some twistig here n there.. haha... well, my It knowledge is for worth nothing 1 loh!! :D
nothign else to say liao...
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wah liao.. those tall guys.. of cos will say 1.7 is short. they dun understand the plight of us!!
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wondering wat happened to tat guy... sick? din go work? ehhe.. my turn to feel strange.. not to get ur comments on my blog.. n no entry on ur blog on wkdays... hehe.. sometimes, ppl only feel the loss of something when they are unable to find it.. guess i can sleep early :P
Monday, April 25, 2005
wondering if will get enuff sleep today.. now 12am, i wanna go supper.. dun wan eat biscuits liao, den tmr need to wake 6am.. shld i go supper? sighs, ppl often envy abt high meta rate.. but mi.. suffering.. cos so high.. i trying to save money.. i oredi drop from 50k to 48k liao.. but... still thinking if shld eat till my fill or wat... BIG APPETITE...
replying to comments... ya loh.. somehwo it was stuck, until i posted soemthign new, den it came out.. haha.. i think in future, will check if it's stuck anot... :) sot at u can always read my blog ;) go LAN shop to see my blog?? err.. no need lah, u dun even know if it's posted... hehe... you're addicted!!! to "urs truly" :D
to docs, $ is 1 thing, heart is 1 thing. if they not keen to save lives, dun think they can stay long in this line. it's always the passion tat makes 1 stay put.
i think if i burn so much cal, i gonna leave oni a skeleton frame to wake up the next day LOL.. u fall?? dun worry, i pull u back to ur feet ;) *cold joke?*
haha.. dunno how i shld reply ur clicking msg... till now, we can tok cock n erotic mah.. quite nice still :) as long we can share our ideas, not infuse into ppl, guess tat wat make us click.. sometimes, if i feel tat my style can help improve ppl's life, i'll let him know wat i'll do. but if he dun wan, up to him..
ya, ur tat someone, according to the prophet, need lotsa tim n effort from u right? if u feel it's worth it, n belive he's for u, ok mah.. oh i fit the bill?? i pass the audition?? when is the next round of audition for mi? rmb to "pan-chan" mi hor.. LOL, the dialect, duno correct anot.. mi poor at contrling $$ oso, but... will think carefully n spend if needed...
hahah... ya loh, maybe ur blog is waiting for the correct person to fix for you... n u r to offer urself to him in return :P
although u uninvited guest, but u have made urself more than welcome wif ur fantastic PR skills... LOL, so commercial writings :) anyway, special words mean those "dear, honey, sweet" tat perhaps pure-asians will only use on their bf? hahah.. this time u really think 2 much.. umm although it could be true, it's more to a guessing game for mi... if i go after u, i sure lose sight of u in mins... i never jog since ns.. :) ERR... hubby n wife?? LOL.. ur dream of our future relation ah? ;)
rub something more pte? which thing u referring to? i guess better tastebuds mean better sense of taste? hehe...
i really dunno wat to reply to "2 high" msg.. i guess.. till now, oni my ex entered mi. 3 yrs back. if i really 2 high.. i tink maybe a full blown raw action will take place.. dunno... see the situation first.. wah, waiting for HIM n keeping options open.. sounds like 2 timing LOL.. u waiting for him... wat if omeone after u for few mths, den tat old HIM fall for u.. wat will happen?
hehe.. i guess we both are quite open, dun wan hide anything from each other (who started such open-minded toks 1 har?), n simply share our lives.. so, lotsa things to tok.. it's almost like.. toking on e-hp daily siazz.. LOL speaking abt this.. i was thinking, who are the type of ppl.. who will keep in contact.. tok everyday 1 har?
Sweet? maybe next tiem... i feed u some vinegar haha... *wink* ya loh.. adam is a turn on... but.. is the scenes, delibrately to spur viewership?? as for IRC guy.. well, some ppl still have the find-bf mentality inside.. esp when the person gave a HOT PIC LOL...
ur blog... somehow, if gays have a ger who is on good talking terms.. good frnship, we tend to prefer such gers if we were to turn str8... mi 2.. jus tat e gd frn.. sometimes overbearing n she wanna TALL GUY.. otherwise... LOL
when u r alone, u tend to run wild with thoughts.. but not really bad thign mah.. at least can think n plan for urself.. reflect on how u been.. n did u do thign right.. if u always occupied with stuff, u dun have time for such self-discovery :)
hehe.. gd bf, oso need someone who know how to appreciate... if both hold diff belief.. like wat ur pearl ger say, den the "gd" dun apply liao.. err.. all along, u n Sam(uel) are ok 1 mah... how come suddenly.. so big issue? frnship? love? work? usually due to frn/love den will cry...wat i can think of saying now is, 1 cant love to order... if 1 party dun feel a thing, either buck up, or give up...
not meeting anyone? incl ur wkend kakis?? hehe/./. mi.. tues - thur wanna watch Ch U 9.15pm. fri, need last min prep for super star ;) - provided i find the letter...
replying to comments... ya loh.. somehwo it was stuck, until i posted soemthign new, den it came out.. haha.. i think in future, will check if it's stuck anot... :) sot at u can always read my blog ;) go LAN shop to see my blog?? err.. no need lah, u dun even know if it's posted... hehe... you're addicted!!! to "urs truly" :D
to docs, $ is 1 thing, heart is 1 thing. if they not keen to save lives, dun think they can stay long in this line. it's always the passion tat makes 1 stay put.
i think if i burn so much cal, i gonna leave oni a skeleton frame to wake up the next day LOL.. u fall?? dun worry, i pull u back to ur feet ;) *cold joke?*
haha.. dunno how i shld reply ur clicking msg... till now, we can tok cock n erotic mah.. quite nice still :) as long we can share our ideas, not infuse into ppl, guess tat wat make us click.. sometimes, if i feel tat my style can help improve ppl's life, i'll let him know wat i'll do. but if he dun wan, up to him..
ya, ur tat someone, according to the prophet, need lotsa tim n effort from u right? if u feel it's worth it, n belive he's for u, ok mah.. oh i fit the bill?? i pass the audition?? when is the next round of audition for mi? rmb to "pan-chan" mi hor.. LOL, the dialect, duno correct anot.. mi poor at contrling $$ oso, but... will think carefully n spend if needed...
hahah... ya loh, maybe ur blog is waiting for the correct person to fix for you... n u r to offer urself to him in return :P
although u uninvited guest, but u have made urself more than welcome wif ur fantastic PR skills... LOL, so commercial writings :) anyway, special words mean those "dear, honey, sweet" tat perhaps pure-asians will only use on their bf? hahah.. this time u really think 2 much.. umm although it could be true, it's more to a guessing game for mi... if i go after u, i sure lose sight of u in mins... i never jog since ns.. :) ERR... hubby n wife?? LOL.. ur dream of our future relation ah? ;)
rub something more pte? which thing u referring to? i guess better tastebuds mean better sense of taste? hehe...
i really dunno wat to reply to "2 high" msg.. i guess.. till now, oni my ex entered mi. 3 yrs back. if i really 2 high.. i tink maybe a full blown raw action will take place.. dunno... see the situation first.. wah, waiting for HIM n keeping options open.. sounds like 2 timing LOL.. u waiting for him... wat if omeone after u for few mths, den tat old HIM fall for u.. wat will happen?
hehe.. i guess we both are quite open, dun wan hide anything from each other (who started such open-minded toks 1 har?), n simply share our lives.. so, lotsa things to tok.. it's almost like.. toking on e-hp daily siazz.. LOL speaking abt this.. i was thinking, who are the type of ppl.. who will keep in contact.. tok everyday 1 har?
Sweet? maybe next tiem... i feed u some vinegar haha... *wink* ya loh.. adam is a turn on... but.. is the scenes, delibrately to spur viewership?? as for IRC guy.. well, some ppl still have the find-bf mentality inside.. esp when the person gave a HOT PIC LOL...
ur blog... somehow, if gays have a ger who is on good talking terms.. good frnship, we tend to prefer such gers if we were to turn str8... mi 2.. jus tat e gd frn.. sometimes overbearing n she wanna TALL GUY.. otherwise... LOL
when u r alone, u tend to run wild with thoughts.. but not really bad thign mah.. at least can think n plan for urself.. reflect on how u been.. n did u do thign right.. if u always occupied with stuff, u dun have time for such self-discovery :)
hehe.. gd bf, oso need someone who know how to appreciate... if both hold diff belief.. like wat ur pearl ger say, den the "gd" dun apply liao.. err.. all along, u n Sam(uel) are ok 1 mah... how come suddenly.. so big issue? frnship? love? work? usually due to frn/love den will cry...wat i can think of saying now is, 1 cant love to order... if 1 party dun feel a thing, either buck up, or give up...
not meeting anyone? incl ur wkend kakis?? hehe/./. mi.. tues - thur wanna watch Ch U 9.15pm. fri, need last min prep for super star ;) - provided i find the letter...
a bit lost n confused over how i shld start blogging.. few thigns happened.. dunno good or bad, some trivial, some saddening...
the morning bus quite packed... right from interchange.. the queue quite long.. how come... mafan...
den during lunch, 1 colleague.. put on his usual transvestite act.. n chatted a bit wif mi... later, on way back, 1 snr female colleague ask if i got gf..
my office got pineapple for mi to bring home.. my mum not cooking.. i den shld not bring the p-app home cos i can jus go home directly.. but somehow, i still jus bought it. den on way home ,thot i can.. jus buy dinner... head home n check some stuff.. got home, n saw some things... sad things...
my dog is VERY feeble. and today, even had diarrhoea. mum scolded him. he was scared stiff. i den changed from work attire to home wear. wanna bring him down, but 2 late, he oredi got diarrhoea again. this time, i leashed him, wanna carry him, but he resist, thinking i bringing him to toilet or somthing. i carried him, wore my shoes n went to take lift. i den realise, the back of my thigh, n part of my berms trailing to it, had stains of diarrhoea. but i certainly cant think of going home, change a clean set of clothes.
well, since i care abt my welfare of my dog, i guess i have to sacrifice a bit.. the stains are dark brown, look like choc. in open air, the smell is not there. so i had to act normal, as though the stain is nothing great. but later, i felt there is a serious ITCH there. umm.. the bacteria around tat area oni took effect so late? oh well, i scratch a small area of the itch, but tat did nothign.. so i decided to bear with it.
when i got backt o family, i cleaned my hand wth soap, and went to bathe. oni den i realised where does the itch come from. there's a BIG BUMP!! a big bad evil.. fly/mosquito/PEST, BIT me!!! ARGH!! den i used shower cream to rub rub rub. now slightly getting better.
oh, was watching despo hsewife. sighzz.. gabrielle was trying to dissuade her lover from giving up studies for her.. when he din realise how helpful she's trying to be, she jus had to do soemthing. she let out the line "u are just a toy to me". that certainly broke hearts. yes hearts. if someone does not know wat's good for him, but the good is for sure, den.. soemthign drastic has to be done..
singtel n stqarhub gonna have video conf service.. next yr mar, i gonna change new line liaozz... total new life.. either change ISP or line.. oh ya, a "LI" replied ot my blog.. was even wonderibng if i shdl email him... cos somehow ,i feel tat, he visited here, but din try hard enuff to msg mi personally.. or is he influenced by someone, n decided to post here oso? ;)
den, tonight, i realise.. he is in soem yahoogroups.. ok.. now he can be contacted.. cos LI jus like tat send a reply, i realy dunno if i shld email to see wat he want.. tmr, i need to go home to find my mayday ktv vcd.. n to find my letter for superstar.. if not CANT JOIN!!!!!! ARGHZZ!!!!
the morning bus quite packed... right from interchange.. the queue quite long.. how come... mafan...
den during lunch, 1 colleague.. put on his usual transvestite act.. n chatted a bit wif mi... later, on way back, 1 snr female colleague ask if i got gf..
my office got pineapple for mi to bring home.. my mum not cooking.. i den shld not bring the p-app home cos i can jus go home directly.. but somehow, i still jus bought it. den on way home ,thot i can.. jus buy dinner... head home n check some stuff.. got home, n saw some things... sad things...
my dog is VERY feeble. and today, even had diarrhoea. mum scolded him. he was scared stiff. i den changed from work attire to home wear. wanna bring him down, but 2 late, he oredi got diarrhoea again. this time, i leashed him, wanna carry him, but he resist, thinking i bringing him to toilet or somthing. i carried him, wore my shoes n went to take lift. i den realise, the back of my thigh, n part of my berms trailing to it, had stains of diarrhoea. but i certainly cant think of going home, change a clean set of clothes.
well, since i care abt my welfare of my dog, i guess i have to sacrifice a bit.. the stains are dark brown, look like choc. in open air, the smell is not there. so i had to act normal, as though the stain is nothing great. but later, i felt there is a serious ITCH there. umm.. the bacteria around tat area oni took effect so late? oh well, i scratch a small area of the itch, but tat did nothign.. so i decided to bear with it.
when i got backt o family, i cleaned my hand wth soap, and went to bathe. oni den i realised where does the itch come from. there's a BIG BUMP!! a big bad evil.. fly/mosquito/PEST, BIT me!!! ARGH!! den i used shower cream to rub rub rub. now slightly getting better.
oh, was watching despo hsewife. sighzz.. gabrielle was trying to dissuade her lover from giving up studies for her.. when he din realise how helpful she's trying to be, she jus had to do soemthing. she let out the line "u are just a toy to me". that certainly broke hearts. yes hearts. if someone does not know wat's good for him, but the good is for sure, den.. soemthign drastic has to be done..
singtel n stqarhub gonna have video conf service.. next yr mar, i gonna change new line liaozz... total new life.. either change ISP or line.. oh ya, a "LI" replied ot my blog.. was even wonderibng if i shdl email him... cos somehow ,i feel tat, he visited here, but din try hard enuff to msg mi personally.. or is he influenced by someone, n decided to post here oso? ;)
den, tonight, i realise.. he is in soem yahoogroups.. ok.. now he can be contacted.. cos LI jus like tat send a reply, i realy dunno if i shld email to see wat he want.. tmr, i need to go home to find my mayday ktv vcd.. n to find my letter for superstar.. if not CANT JOIN!!!!!! ARGHZZ!!!!
Sunday, April 24, 2005
was chatting in irc with this guy.. but he.. no interest somehow...
but another person was keen to meet mi.. saying my body is good n wanna call mi.. he say his frn going ktv tmr morning, ask mi join. den.. by 9+, still no info, so i jus.. went for family bfast in normal home attire. but later ,he told mi wat time they meeting. ok, i went. when i got there, we intro'ed. den he din tok to mi at all... jus ask mi dedicate songs, he jus tok to his frn. i was singing. no 1 tok to mi at all. den i stopped singing. for 1 hr, i was jus there, sittign n hearing them tok n sing. i din make any song. they din tok to mi oso. at most, jus ask mi to sing song.
oh well... aj world is like tat.. i din say anythign to them. i guess tat guy thot i supposed to be some good looking hunk, or someone who shld look manly n macho? ;) was thinking, how shld i reply if they ask why i din sing. then they indeed asked. i told them, other than singing, can oso tok. they say, go ktv where got tok 1. i told them, if wan sing w/o tok, can always sing at home :)
den, b4 tat, i chose a song. it gonna start, but tat irc guy.. somehow deleted it by mistake. i dun blame him. but later, jus dun feel like singing when he chose tat song again. den when time's up, they walk 1 direction, i walk the other. aj life... oh well :) used to it...
oh ya, 1 more... sickening attitude siazz!!! i getting a pic from 1 irc guy. den, jus cos i din reply in 1 mins or so, he stpped the sending. n even msg mi 3 times "send urs??". i told him i was busy. i sent him my fridae url. he den send mi his again. this time, i rej his sending. den he say "i was being careful k" i reply "no problem, i understand the ppl here"
perhaps.. tis wk, my PR star not bright?
gosh... this time, i did injustice to FIR... almost mariah as well.. i was at outram there. bought those cheap CD for FIR. MC, i will check my mall's price... cos for FIR, i oni need the cd.. no need DVD.. for MC... hehe value for money!!
reading some archive mails.. wah lioa,, now i know y some ppl so.. frustrated and pissed at his ersponses siazz...
jus b4 i pos this entry.. how come those vids all in frnech language?? how to wathc?!?
but another person was keen to meet mi.. saying my body is good n wanna call mi.. he say his frn going ktv tmr morning, ask mi join. den.. by 9+, still no info, so i jus.. went for family bfast in normal home attire. but later ,he told mi wat time they meeting. ok, i went. when i got there, we intro'ed. den he din tok to mi at all... jus ask mi dedicate songs, he jus tok to his frn. i was singing. no 1 tok to mi at all. den i stopped singing. for 1 hr, i was jus there, sittign n hearing them tok n sing. i din make any song. they din tok to mi oso. at most, jus ask mi to sing song.
oh well... aj world is like tat.. i din say anythign to them. i guess tat guy thot i supposed to be some good looking hunk, or someone who shld look manly n macho? ;) was thinking, how shld i reply if they ask why i din sing. then they indeed asked. i told them, other than singing, can oso tok. they say, go ktv where got tok 1. i told them, if wan sing w/o tok, can always sing at home :)
den, b4 tat, i chose a song. it gonna start, but tat irc guy.. somehow deleted it by mistake. i dun blame him. but later, jus dun feel like singing when he chose tat song again. den when time's up, they walk 1 direction, i walk the other. aj life... oh well :) used to it...
oh ya, 1 more... sickening attitude siazz!!! i getting a pic from 1 irc guy. den, jus cos i din reply in 1 mins or so, he stpped the sending. n even msg mi 3 times "send urs??". i told him i was busy. i sent him my fridae url. he den send mi his again. this time, i rej his sending. den he say "i was being careful k" i reply "no problem, i understand the ppl here"
perhaps.. tis wk, my PR star not bright?
gosh... this time, i did injustice to FIR... almost mariah as well.. i was at outram there. bought those cheap CD for FIR. MC, i will check my mall's price... cos for FIR, i oni need the cd.. no need DVD.. for MC... hehe value for money!!
reading some archive mails.. wah lioa,, now i know y some ppl so.. frustrated and pissed at his ersponses siazz...
jus b4 i pos this entry.. how come those vids all in frnech language?? how to wathc?!?
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