here comes my monday blog.
wah, i slept at 3am. yes i was trying to use PC, so end up 3am sleep. forgot if i JO'ed. den, UNEXPECTEDLY, i woke at 718am. i den heard alarm ring. gosh, i am LATE!!! kauzz, dunno how to fight for time liaoz. washed up, n went into my room. heard my hp ring. it's my boi. err... after some hesitation, picked the phone, cos it's my boi. but i in hurry, so hung up in secs. den upon reachign office, i msg him. wah kauzz, i was so damn tired and exhuasted!! i din even have the motivation to tok.
for lunch, was thinking i wana go alone. it's ok if snr n guy dun ask mi along, cos i dun wan to spoil ppl's mood. but in the end, we still went off together. haha,. ya snr called mi along. YES!! during lunch, i kinda struck a little chat lah. but i know i dun wanna say 2 much, cos i tired. den later, sianz. bad tiem mgmt n ya mgmt. cos i msg the agent guy, i wanna meet on mon. but i was tired n dinno how to explain. den at 6pm, my boss ask mi do things. den i was trapped outside for 30 mins.
when i back, i got 2 sms from agent. he's at my office canteen liao. den i know i supposed to send my boi to gym oso. wah liao, really dunno how. later i sacrificed my boi. met up wif the agent. haizz. but ok lah, settled the policy liaoz. n signed. his wife is abt to give birth anytime. den i RUSHED home for my DH. i was hoping he send mi home though...
den on tuesday, .. ok now, i'm kinda tired, but i stil lwanna write down wat happened, to keep track.
tuesday, the temp guy still did not return money. snr went lunch wif her frns. somehow i realsie a trend. she will lunch wif them once a wk. den soemtimes, wif mi, other times, wif mi n guy. den later, my boi sent mi home for my dinner. had wanna see the matchmaking show. the guy wear tie 1. thot will have a hot scene. 2 bad, it's jus a ploy. on way home, my boi revealed his family history to mi.
to thsi, i wanna say, every1 has their own sad story to tell. some more, some less. somehow i know/understand why he became this way. For mi, i grew up in a diff environment, giving mi a diff view n perpestive of life.
den wednesday, a lot of things going on, the temp guy cheated snr/young lady/jnr of ther time. agreed to meet snr some place, but dun turn up. luckily young lady was there to b witness. thus, the temp guy damn sia suay. den whole morning so quiet. he even told them, on fri, once he got med report from doc saying he unfit for work, he'll leave the place siazz. n later he left the place by 4pm. i bet he'll extend mc for thurs.
den since it';s wed, i WANNA WATCH CHARMED!!! den mum not cooking, so my boi sent mi home, n took dinner wif mi. haha. is it my good luck? i always complain tat i dun have enuff to eat, n dun wan spend $$ to buy extra food. willing to jus eat a proper meal of std intake, than make myself full. but my boi in fact take oni veli little food. he often share, or give mi half his plate. over time, i learnt to trust tat he know his hunger level, n not blidnly gimme food when he's hungrier than mi. so rgiht now, i eat, almost like 1.5 x normal intake hahah. getting fuller in my meals.
wah liao, i din realise the time pass so fast!! charmed almost showing liao!!! rushed thru the dinner, n forced myself to finish the egg my boi passed mi. we are jus so funny siazz.. LOL...
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
yesterday upadted till saturday night. den on sunday morning. hehe, i was about to call mum tat i not going home for bfast, when she msg mi (or rather, minded mi) tat no family bfast. haha, den spent time wif my boi. toking n chatting. oso watched Superstar repeat. ahah, ok i planned to go clubbing wif my Oz pal tat night. my boi know liao. he say he know i need to rest so i can chiong for the night. den hor, i was asking him to leave, buy haha, he still jus wanna stay by my side LOL..
till 2+, den he realise the time n agreet o lunch n go. den, we went for choy fun again. thisu time, the bro of the stallowner, when see us there togther, like suddenly stunned. he was lunching n paused siazz hahah. his elder bro was more matured n biz like. cos he served us as usual.. as customers.
after tat, i tried sleeping. sianz. 2nd time to catch a wink in day time. realised i really cant on the tv while sleeping. will cause mi insomnia. in end, i sleep 5pm. den cant fall into deep sleep. always, wanna doze off, den my ears hear music n i awake. rested till 740 liao. decided i cant sleep anymore n woke up.
my chiong attire always a plain tom type. i had wanna wear the same rock type jeans, sleeveless leather jacket wif zip. but, i wanna try new style!!! so i wore hawaiian kinda shirt, n rock jeans. met Oz pal up n went to check out a few places. went 1 club. it's FOC. we WERE surprised tat there no queue at all. went in, socked. bo lang eh?!? my firs ttime hor, go in, walk walk, 30 secs went out again.
den went to other 1, wher ei got guestlist. haha, bitch n teased each other on way there. so fun. den the counter guy who checking my name, is wearing black T, but i can see his chest quite well built haha. went up there, n it's ok lah, got ppl. n the crowd is slowing building up. in the club, oni 1 guy is pretty ok looking. be4 long, we got to the dance floor. haha, we saw "Power Ranger" n luffed abt some potato queens. i saw some of the aj group of ppl i had contact wif previously. but since they dun greet mi, i shan't bother to.
haha, realised tat this oz pal, he has his own music he love n own dance movement (soem snake gestures LOL), and i have my own. i rmb, i was oni "moving moving" my body lightly to the music, cos it;s so dead. den when the beat suddenly got to mi, i moved faster. den suddenly, Mimi's song came. i oni heard the fast paced intro, not sure at all. frn oso dunno. den, as the song progressed, YES IT"S MIMI ALIVE!!!!!!!
i was so damn excited!!!! i practically put my thumbs up to my frn!!! i simply shoook my body to the rhythm!!!! yes tiring, but enjoyable!!! did my usual movements... shaking n moving my waist, my butts, n even.. haha, like amei in her concert, will lean 70 deg n make some snaky moves. mi, i 70 deg, n shook my waist so fast to the rhythm, i am risking my breahe n life LOL. i cant blif i moving so fast oso. the rhythm is almost like hitting every beat tat the normal version had let off. so fast!! but i still managed t catch up!!! was enjoying myself quite a lot, really. den the last part where she "rapped" wif the guy, i simply put my hands up high, n jumped to every beat of the song. it's fast, so i cant jump high. yes, i really worship the song LOL. if it's her concert, i guess i';ll do the same :)
haha, the funny thign is, i usually close my eyes when i dancing. but these while, i been looking n observing. hehe, i startingt o have confidence in myself? oni when i wanna focus on dancing, den i close :). but after dancing to mimi song, i did see some ppl looking to my direction ahah.. to our surprise, the ppl, after the groovy musicended, all went off. before long, the whole place became as quiet as when we jus came. LOL.. my frn did see a guy who kept looking at him, but too bad, nothign happened. n den i took a cab home. msg my boi as i boarded the cab :)
then... next morning stuff, i update tmr. now is near 1 am
till 2+, den he realise the time n agreet o lunch n go. den, we went for choy fun again. thisu time, the bro of the stallowner, when see us there togther, like suddenly stunned. he was lunching n paused siazz hahah. his elder bro was more matured n biz like. cos he served us as usual.. as customers.
after tat, i tried sleeping. sianz. 2nd time to catch a wink in day time. realised i really cant on the tv while sleeping. will cause mi insomnia. in end, i sleep 5pm. den cant fall into deep sleep. always, wanna doze off, den my ears hear music n i awake. rested till 740 liao. decided i cant sleep anymore n woke up.
my chiong attire always a plain tom type. i had wanna wear the same rock type jeans, sleeveless leather jacket wif zip. but, i wanna try new style!!! so i wore hawaiian kinda shirt, n rock jeans. met Oz pal up n went to check out a few places. went 1 club. it's FOC. we WERE surprised tat there no queue at all. went in, socked. bo lang eh?!? my firs ttime hor, go in, walk walk, 30 secs went out again.
den went to other 1, wher ei got guestlist. haha, bitch n teased each other on way there. so fun. den the counter guy who checking my name, is wearing black T, but i can see his chest quite well built haha. went up there, n it's ok lah, got ppl. n the crowd is slowing building up. in the club, oni 1 guy is pretty ok looking. be4 long, we got to the dance floor. haha, we saw "Power Ranger" n luffed abt some potato queens. i saw some of the aj group of ppl i had contact wif previously. but since they dun greet mi, i shan't bother to.
haha, realised tat this oz pal, he has his own music he love n own dance movement (soem snake gestures LOL), and i have my own. i rmb, i was oni "moving moving" my body lightly to the music, cos it;s so dead. den when the beat suddenly got to mi, i moved faster. den suddenly, Mimi's song came. i oni heard the fast paced intro, not sure at all. frn oso dunno. den, as the song progressed, YES IT"S MIMI ALIVE!!!!!!!
i was so damn excited!!!! i practically put my thumbs up to my frn!!! i simply shoook my body to the rhythm!!!! yes tiring, but enjoyable!!! did my usual movements... shaking n moving my waist, my butts, n even.. haha, like amei in her concert, will lean 70 deg n make some snaky moves. mi, i 70 deg, n shook my waist so fast to the rhythm, i am risking my breahe n life LOL. i cant blif i moving so fast oso. the rhythm is almost like hitting every beat tat the normal version had let off. so fast!! but i still managed t catch up!!! was enjoying myself quite a lot, really. den the last part where she "rapped" wif the guy, i simply put my hands up high, n jumped to every beat of the song. it's fast, so i cant jump high. yes, i really worship the song LOL. if it's her concert, i guess i';ll do the same :)
haha, the funny thign is, i usually close my eyes when i dancing. but these while, i been looking n observing. hehe, i startingt o have confidence in myself? oni when i wanna focus on dancing, den i close :). but after dancing to mimi song, i did see some ppl looking to my direction ahah.. to our surprise, the ppl, after the groovy musicended, all went off. before long, the whole place became as quiet as when we jus came. LOL.. my frn did see a guy who kept looking at him, but too bad, nothign happened. n den i took a cab home. msg my boi as i boarded the cab :)
then... next morning stuff, i update tmr. now is near 1 am
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
jus checked my boi's blog.. we both.. din blog for so many days siazz!!! ahha.. have we been up to something lately? for u to find out, for mi to know =P
ok, my last blog is on thurs. friday i work full day. by right, my boi had wanna lunch wif mi, cos he on leave oso. but then, he wanna let mi have chance ot lunch wif my colleauges, so, he stay home. but in end, my snr got lunch appt wif her frns (read: other dept colleauges). so i lunxch alone loh. quite ok lah.
after tat, went to meet my boi. shop around for my pants loh. now i realise tat, i like roomy or slim cutting. cos these r the cutting i like when trying out my pants. saw 3 brands tat i like. hush puppies, john holand (or something), and 1 more brand =P. while trying, kauz, 1 guy was attending to mi. for the john holand brand, he wanna intro mi to some SOFT n silky material pants. i told him, it dun feel secure as it's really kinda thin cloth. he say he understand. den he show mi others. i took a couple n wann go try. he den say "oh the changing rom is there. u can go to the one wif the door, cos the 1 wif cloth door is insecure."
i promptly sensed sarcacism. my boi felt the same thing.
later, i rtied this tat.. hehe, finalyl found 1 tat i like. paid the money n i asked abt membership card. aiyozz.. the mebership is nothing but a CREDIT CARD!!! damn! den i started to wonder wat kinda position will earn enuff to get credit card.
spent time wif my boi at home on friday. supposed to be our 1 mth anniversary, according to the day my boi officially declared our reln. but then this day.. turned out we celebrated in an alternate manner hehe... but i can say, this perhaps broke my curse :) will tell my boi more on my bday.
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on saturday, had planned OUR day as follows:
1) go ktv at 11am
2) den go paragon catch QIU ZE!!!
3) walk around, den go find my boi's frn to celebrate frn bday.
but aiyozz ktv there... (LOL, havingh read my boi's blog, i seem to be repeating his lines...) the ktv dun have extra room siazz!!! sch holiday so hiong meh?!?! end up we went for the 1-3pm instead. ahha, i been to party n kbox liao. for party, it's more computerised n yes, it's better. unlimited number of songs to dedicate. song scome faster. screen bigger n flat some more. but ex loh
kbox is more for frns gathering. no wonder it's cheap. got a max of 30 songs. n squeezy oso. ahha, in here, i dedicated a song to my boi. a song whcih i thot of while on my way home hahah. kauz, dun have original mtv, oni pirated 1. err, when i sang those sad songs, i wonder if i affected my boi. cos when he sang those sad songs, i really scared he will jus weep suddenly.
den after tat, oh ya, at the ktv, i came at 1255pm. told the counter ger i there, den more ppl came, n she let them in first. ARGHZZ!! ok after ktv, went to arcade there.. play game like no need money like tat. jus scan the card like so songzz. well, hehe, they got offer mah, topup 20$ get 20$ credit free. ok loh :) so, bought 40$ worth credit, n spent 25$ on arcade, trying to finish the romance of 3 king game. hahaha... even ppl around us were staring n looking at our stage. i not good player, but my boi managed to send mi thru the astages.. haha, we managed to survive to the last stage haha...
den went to shop for the frn's gift. wah, took quite some tiemt o decide on the clothes. den hor was waiting for the counter ger to wrap things up. but i feel tat, she is tending the register, n gonna wrap my gift. y her colweague dun help? n hor, seeing hwo bz she is, i almost wanna self serv to wrap the gift. my boi, surpised tat i know how to wrap gift. i told him, as long as the action dun need follow procedures, n can welcome creativity, i can try. haha. but he dun lemme. hahha.. the reason, i dun thinki wnana say LOL.. haha, nowadays, i got a number of things hiding hahah...
(jus rmb the spider tat cohabitate wif mi) oh ya. the spider!! these days, i got a spider in my room!!! forming a web at the corner of my cupboard!!! aiyo, it sure cant get food 1 lah. but hwo do i tell him tat.......
den at the bday there, got a few fam,iliar face from sgboy whcih i know, but i din greet them lah. i'm no longer tat chatty guy anymore. will be slower in knowing new guys these period. cos i know, i cna chat, no prob. but later on, i'll be 2 tired to maintain the chattiness n not b so frnly to them. but i'll still tok propelry when ppl tok to mi. den saw a SHORT BENG. he's really short, n sport those beng look. i bet his body got a certain shape =P my boi had wanna intro him to mi. but i dun realyl see the need, cos i not gonna see him anymore after bday.
had been pretty chatty wif those frns of my boi, whom i familiar with. haha, had quite enjoyable time wif them. esp when i know they have good impression of mi haha. but i realised, when we at bday, the short beng n mi sittign opposite each other. my boi say he quiet kind. den mi, i oso dun wish to strike any chat at all. so, it's awkward haha. we sitting n facign, but dint ok at all. his frns r really those kiddy n fun ppl hahah.
later, my boi declined invitations from the bday boi to go mahjong but wanna b wif mi to my hse. eheh ok. den suddenly, i rmb my Oz pal, is back, n wonder where he is. he will be coming town in an hrs time. my boi say he ok to mi my frn, ok loih. den walked over to meet him.
woow, long time din see, to mi, he kinda slimmed down a bit. i gave him a hug. but it din feel natural, cos he not prepared. hahah. trust him to b australian-ised. later went to various places to chill out. finally settled somewhere not so crowded. we (mi n frn) bitched n joked n teased each other as normal. den my boi was trying HARD to get into frn's good books. den hor, is the waiter thinking we dun intend to get a drink at all?? we sat there for 10 minuteo or even 20, but no 1 came up. we even signalled at them!
finally, 1 came, n my frn got sarcastic haha. oh ya, at the buying of pants on fri, have i put on wt, thx to my boi's generousity wif food?? cos, i usually wear 29" jeans, but when i tried 30", it seem ok oso... hahah. this time, i paid for the drinks, n my frn actually commented "i luv ya".. i was stunned. kauz. den as we changed venues, 1 guy actually tried to pick my frn up by asking some boliao n stupid qns. siaoz.
after these, i sent my frn to our usual hangout to ... hehheh. on our way home, we were holding hands all the way hahaha...
now is time to sleep.
ok, my last blog is on thurs. friday i work full day. by right, my boi had wanna lunch wif mi, cos he on leave oso. but then, he wanna let mi have chance ot lunch wif my colleauges, so, he stay home. but in end, my snr got lunch appt wif her frns (read: other dept colleauges). so i lunxch alone loh. quite ok lah.
after tat, went to meet my boi. shop around for my pants loh. now i realise tat, i like roomy or slim cutting. cos these r the cutting i like when trying out my pants. saw 3 brands tat i like. hush puppies, john holand (or something), and 1 more brand =P. while trying, kauz, 1 guy was attending to mi. for the john holand brand, he wanna intro mi to some SOFT n silky material pants. i told him, it dun feel secure as it's really kinda thin cloth. he say he understand. den he show mi others. i took a couple n wann go try. he den say "oh the changing rom is there. u can go to the one wif the door, cos the 1 wif cloth door is insecure."
i promptly sensed sarcacism. my boi felt the same thing.
later, i rtied this tat.. hehe, finalyl found 1 tat i like. paid the money n i asked abt membership card. aiyozz.. the mebership is nothing but a CREDIT CARD!!! damn! den i started to wonder wat kinda position will earn enuff to get credit card.
spent time wif my boi at home on friday. supposed to be our 1 mth anniversary, according to the day my boi officially declared our reln. but then this day.. turned out we celebrated in an alternate manner hehe... but i can say, this perhaps broke my curse :) will tell my boi more on my bday.
=========================
on saturday, had planned OUR day as follows:
1) go ktv at 11am
2) den go paragon catch QIU ZE!!!
3) walk around, den go find my boi's frn to celebrate frn bday.
but aiyozz ktv there... (LOL, havingh read my boi's blog, i seem to be repeating his lines...) the ktv dun have extra room siazz!!! sch holiday so hiong meh?!?! end up we went for the 1-3pm instead. ahha, i been to party n kbox liao. for party, it's more computerised n yes, it's better. unlimited number of songs to dedicate. song scome faster. screen bigger n flat some more. but ex loh
kbox is more for frns gathering. no wonder it's cheap. got a max of 30 songs. n squeezy oso. ahha, in here, i dedicated a song to my boi. a song whcih i thot of while on my way home hahah. kauz, dun have original mtv, oni pirated 1. err, when i sang those sad songs, i wonder if i affected my boi. cos when he sang those sad songs, i really scared he will jus weep suddenly.
den after tat, oh ya, at the ktv, i came at 1255pm. told the counter ger i there, den more ppl came, n she let them in first. ARGHZZ!! ok after ktv, went to arcade there.. play game like no need money like tat. jus scan the card like so songzz. well, hehe, they got offer mah, topup 20$ get 20$ credit free. ok loh :) so, bought 40$ worth credit, n spent 25$ on arcade, trying to finish the romance of 3 king game. hahaha... even ppl around us were staring n looking at our stage. i not good player, but my boi managed to send mi thru the astages.. haha, we managed to survive to the last stage haha...
den went to shop for the frn's gift. wah, took quite some tiemt o decide on the clothes. den hor was waiting for the counter ger to wrap things up. but i feel tat, she is tending the register, n gonna wrap my gift. y her colweague dun help? n hor, seeing hwo bz she is, i almost wanna self serv to wrap the gift. my boi, surpised tat i know how to wrap gift. i told him, as long as the action dun need follow procedures, n can welcome creativity, i can try. haha. but he dun lemme. hahha.. the reason, i dun thinki wnana say LOL.. haha, nowadays, i got a number of things hiding hahah...
(jus rmb the spider tat cohabitate wif mi) oh ya. the spider!! these days, i got a spider in my room!!! forming a web at the corner of my cupboard!!! aiyo, it sure cant get food 1 lah. but hwo do i tell him tat.......
den at the bday there, got a few fam,iliar face from sgboy whcih i know, but i din greet them lah. i'm no longer tat chatty guy anymore. will be slower in knowing new guys these period. cos i know, i cna chat, no prob. but later on, i'll be 2 tired to maintain the chattiness n not b so frnly to them. but i'll still tok propelry when ppl tok to mi. den saw a SHORT BENG. he's really short, n sport those beng look. i bet his body got a certain shape =P my boi had wanna intro him to mi. but i dun realyl see the need, cos i not gonna see him anymore after bday.
had been pretty chatty wif those frns of my boi, whom i familiar with. haha, had quite enjoyable time wif them. esp when i know they have good impression of mi haha. but i realised, when we at bday, the short beng n mi sittign opposite each other. my boi say he quiet kind. den mi, i oso dun wish to strike any chat at all. so, it's awkward haha. we sitting n facign, but dint ok at all. his frns r really those kiddy n fun ppl hahah.
later, my boi declined invitations from the bday boi to go mahjong but wanna b wif mi to my hse. eheh ok. den suddenly, i rmb my Oz pal, is back, n wonder where he is. he will be coming town in an hrs time. my boi say he ok to mi my frn, ok loih. den walked over to meet him.
woow, long time din see, to mi, he kinda slimmed down a bit. i gave him a hug. but it din feel natural, cos he not prepared. hahah. trust him to b australian-ised. later went to various places to chill out. finally settled somewhere not so crowded. we (mi n frn) bitched n joked n teased each other as normal. den my boi was trying HARD to get into frn's good books. den hor, is the waiter thinking we dun intend to get a drink at all?? we sat there for 10 minuteo or even 20, but no 1 came up. we even signalled at them!
finally, 1 came, n my frn got sarcastic haha. oh ya, at the buying of pants on fri, have i put on wt, thx to my boi's generousity wif food?? cos, i usually wear 29" jeans, but when i tried 30", it seem ok oso... hahah. this time, i paid for the drinks, n my frn actually commented "i luv ya".. i was stunned. kauz. den as we changed venues, 1 guy actually tried to pick my frn up by asking some boliao n stupid qns. siaoz.
after these, i sent my frn to our usual hangout to ... hehheh. on our way home, we were holding hands all the way hahaha...
now is time to sleep.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
today is my bro engagement day. so i took 1 day leave. not for him FOR SURE. cos his day is 12pm leh, den dunno wat time end. later rush back work like siaoz.
haha, last night JO 1 time, n this morning, jus wanna do it again, n viola. reached the place in no time. den hor, funny. my dad was criticising my mum in front of mi, sayin she sia sway herself by doign some thigns. i defended her, tat she no exposed to such things b4. den oso arranging for my day outing. the party world hor, strange. i got a coupon for 4 free hours. call them to check, they say, for the drink tit n fruit, i still pay 33$. WAT?!?!
ask my boi call them for normal rate. it's still 30+. huh? den wat diff??? kbox much better.
den later, sadzz. my dad was chattign mi abt my pay. trying to ask abt my salary. he ask 3 times liao. i avoided 3 times oso. but he dun get the hint n still wanna know. he encourage mi to apply credit card. i know i dun need yet. he say apply card liao den better image. wah liao.. as he saying so, i was looking other places, tired of toking to him. den while he toking, i went off to walk around. later complained to my aunt.
later hor, i din even take his transport back home. den all teh way go partyworld liao. hhaha, den my oz pal called mi. he's back in singapore. :)
the party world there hor, the guy who took mi into room is SO Beng n haha.. hwop nice if he apply to be PR :) i hope to have him in the room siazz.. later my boi came. n we had fun singign to each other :) haha, duringt hsi session, i kinda know him better haha.. n gosh for dinner, we went to seoul buffet, n it's so DAMN EX!!!!!!! my pocket burn hole liao.. wah liao, nex fri den pay day... how i gonna survive??
sometimes, i really find us quite cute, we have diff views of thigns. his is more to peaceful n forgiving n accomdating. mine is more to protective of my personal space n rights.
haha, last night JO 1 time, n this morning, jus wanna do it again, n viola. reached the place in no time. den hor, funny. my dad was criticising my mum in front of mi, sayin she sia sway herself by doign some thigns. i defended her, tat she no exposed to such things b4. den oso arranging for my day outing. the party world hor, strange. i got a coupon for 4 free hours. call them to check, they say, for the drink tit n fruit, i still pay 33$. WAT?!?!
ask my boi call them for normal rate. it's still 30+. huh? den wat diff??? kbox much better.
den later, sadzz. my dad was chattign mi abt my pay. trying to ask abt my salary. he ask 3 times liao. i avoided 3 times oso. but he dun get the hint n still wanna know. he encourage mi to apply credit card. i know i dun need yet. he say apply card liao den better image. wah liao.. as he saying so, i was looking other places, tired of toking to him. den while he toking, i went off to walk around. later complained to my aunt.
later hor, i din even take his transport back home. den all teh way go partyworld liao. hhaha, den my oz pal called mi. he's back in singapore. :)
the party world there hor, the guy who took mi into room is SO Beng n haha.. hwop nice if he apply to be PR :) i hope to have him in the room siazz.. later my boi came. n we had fun singign to each other :) haha, duringt hsi session, i kinda know him better haha.. n gosh for dinner, we went to seoul buffet, n it's so DAMN EX!!!!!!! my pocket burn hole liao.. wah liao, nex fri den pay day... how i gonna survive??
sometimes, i really find us quite cute, we have diff views of thigns. his is more to peaceful n forgiving n accomdating. mine is more to protective of my personal space n rights.
as the time passes by today, many thots came to my mind. like, as i login from my family there to blog, i saw i dun have pic on blog yet. shld i post mine? i had decided to post it when i thot of it jus now, feeling tat i attached liao, n i have more confidence in my looks. but now, i still cant decide LOL.
anyway, somehow, my blog on monday wasnt sent to my email. i thot i din post it. but i rmb i did blog. so on tues, haha. now i cant rmb wat happened. ok, the temp guy on mc. den we gossiped n chatted. got 2 thigns tell. snr got 2 busy, n fat sup wanna mi...
gosh, i think i mus make it a point to blog everyday. my memory is either failing mi, or the happenings on tues din leave much impression on mi. anyway,. jus wanna say, had dinner wif my boi n his frn. sighz, some unexpected hapened. had a hard time fixing it. those hard times, really had some bad thots abt it, but i decided to still keep to my stand :) i 90% wun tell. dun bother asking. n my boi is uspposed to tell his frn some truth haha..
den wednesday, quite a fun day. cos my snr actually asked mi to go lunch. oh yam wanna apologise to someone lah. i know he read my blog, but dunno if regularly anot. ok, usually, when oni my snr in office, she usuaully dun wan lunch wfi mi 1. i prep for it liao. so at near 11am, i msg asomeone from yahu grp. he wanna go lunch wif mi. ok good. den later at 1245pm. i abt to go n meet him liao. i went to tell my snr, i going lunch liao. den she say "i abt to finish liao, wait for mi lei" wah. i was stunned!!!!
first tiem she ask mi wait for her!! err, den i panicked. shld i tell her, i meeting antoher person for lunch, n go, or i ask her to join us? wah liao... somehow, these 2 seem so jialut. cos she dunno him, den he oso mayb 2 closetted to see a new ger. finally, i decided to lunch wif snr. den i called him, he din ans. i msg him "my boss got a proj last min, cant go lunch". phew... ya it's bad of mi lah..
den after work... oh ya, on tues, really rushed down from work to meet my boi for movies siazz.. after alighting from the bus, i ran, or rather walked at a speed i enver tried b4 in my office shoes. in end, heels pain :) as i reaching the place, i almost panting. umm, it seem tat, every western show, the lead actor MUZ hae a topless scene, no matter wat. mr smith, brad was topless in the fierst scene. Kig of heaven, Orlando topless in midst of movie. den batman oso same. seem like sex sells for guys oso haha. no strip, no stand out =P
on wed after work, i supposed to send my boi to gym. but he got OT. den walked all way to his ffice. liaozz.. den oni i realise his office SO FAR... when i walk wif him, i din feel the dist, but when alone,.. wah liao... haha, so qiao, tat we still manage to meet LOL. sighzz, due to a slip of tongue on sat, (i duno wat made mi say tat. really my thinking, cos i 2 tired, or wat?) he now go on diet, but his tummy cant takle it. end up, so sickly sounding. FINALLY, i managed to persuade him to carry on his normal diet!!!!! YES!!!
*music starts...* Celine Dion comes out. She belts out: The power of LUV
but cos he took my words seriously, he stil lwanna diet. so now, he will graudlaly reduce his intake :)
oh ya, i still haven't gotten my money from the temp guy yet. he supposed to return mi money wed night 10pm, but no news .... sighzz..
anyway, somehow, my blog on monday wasnt sent to my email. i thot i din post it. but i rmb i did blog. so on tues, haha. now i cant rmb wat happened. ok, the temp guy on mc. den we gossiped n chatted. got 2 thigns tell. snr got 2 busy, n fat sup wanna mi...
gosh, i think i mus make it a point to blog everyday. my memory is either failing mi, or the happenings on tues din leave much impression on mi. anyway,. jus wanna say, had dinner wif my boi n his frn. sighz, some unexpected hapened. had a hard time fixing it. those hard times, really had some bad thots abt it, but i decided to still keep to my stand :) i 90% wun tell. dun bother asking. n my boi is uspposed to tell his frn some truth haha..
den wednesday, quite a fun day. cos my snr actually asked mi to go lunch. oh yam wanna apologise to someone lah. i know he read my blog, but dunno if regularly anot. ok, usually, when oni my snr in office, she usuaully dun wan lunch wfi mi 1. i prep for it liao. so at near 11am, i msg asomeone from yahu grp. he wanna go lunch wif mi. ok good. den later at 1245pm. i abt to go n meet him liao. i went to tell my snr, i going lunch liao. den she say "i abt to finish liao, wait for mi lei" wah. i was stunned!!!!
first tiem she ask mi wait for her!! err, den i panicked. shld i tell her, i meeting antoher person for lunch, n go, or i ask her to join us? wah liao... somehow, these 2 seem so jialut. cos she dunno him, den he oso mayb 2 closetted to see a new ger. finally, i decided to lunch wif snr. den i called him, he din ans. i msg him "my boss got a proj last min, cant go lunch". phew... ya it's bad of mi lah..
den after work... oh ya, on tues, really rushed down from work to meet my boi for movies siazz.. after alighting from the bus, i ran, or rather walked at a speed i enver tried b4 in my office shoes. in end, heels pain :) as i reaching the place, i almost panting. umm, it seem tat, every western show, the lead actor MUZ hae a topless scene, no matter wat. mr smith, brad was topless in the fierst scene. Kig of heaven, Orlando topless in midst of movie. den batman oso same. seem like sex sells for guys oso haha. no strip, no stand out =P
on wed after work, i supposed to send my boi to gym. but he got OT. den walked all way to his ffice. liaozz.. den oni i realise his office SO FAR... when i walk wif him, i din feel the dist, but when alone,.. wah liao... haha, so qiao, tat we still manage to meet LOL. sighzz, due to a slip of tongue on sat, (i duno wat made mi say tat. really my thinking, cos i 2 tired, or wat?) he now go on diet, but his tummy cant takle it. end up, so sickly sounding. FINALLY, i managed to persuade him to carry on his normal diet!!!!! YES!!!
*music starts...* Celine Dion comes out. She belts out: The power of LUV
but cos he took my words seriously, he stil lwanna diet. so now, he will graudlaly reduce his intake :)
oh ya, i still haven't gotten my money from the temp guy yet. he supposed to return mi money wed night 10pm, but no news .... sighzz..
Monday, June 20, 2005
replying his comments/blogs...
my boi, no need to say "less stupid". it's jus how i grew up, n learnt things, so i was jus... woke-up mood? tat y i had a machine gun? :)
sometimes, when u r trying to say something to pruposely spite mi, i'll b unhapy loh. but i dun rmb anything tat u have been unhappy about..
" ur blog is the first document I read once I reach office " i thot it's the last 1??? so u can take time to reply?
"u would only want to transfer out when ur dept totally sucks rite" nope, for a change of env as well mah...
"dardar would be super turned on by Brad Pitt." ahha, every time he in skimpy attire, i'll try to look n observe haha
"Dec mentioned that u look gd to him and he commented that u r a very nice guy and he can sense that u would be very nice to me. In short, he's happy for me that I got u as my bf. hehe... I am also happy that I got such a nice bf like u loh. Muackz" LOL
"Be nice to ur friend lah since he's making the first effort to chat with u loh" abt my sec frn right? oh well... tell u te bg sometime later
"Maybe it was a wrong choice of me to turn up and wait for u lah. " HEY, it's not bad to turn up, i appreciate it. but then, i jus caught oof guard.. dunno how to intro.. like wat u say in blog.. i'm not kauzzing u tat u showed up suddenly..
why i wanna try missed connection? wat's the purpose? if to b frns, things can proceed slowly. if to b reln, i oredi got 1.
hehe, after celebrating out month-old anniversary, will discuss abt it.. haha, shall we bring th "baby" along? LOL
my boi, no need to say "less stupid". it's jus how i grew up, n learnt things, so i was jus... woke-up mood? tat y i had a machine gun? :)
sometimes, when u r trying to say something to pruposely spite mi, i'll b unhapy loh. but i dun rmb anything tat u have been unhappy about..
" ur blog is the first document I read once I reach office " i thot it's the last 1??? so u can take time to reply?
"u would only want to transfer out when ur dept totally sucks rite" nope, for a change of env as well mah...
"dardar would be super turned on by Brad Pitt." ahha, every time he in skimpy attire, i'll try to look n observe haha
"Dec mentioned that u look gd to him and he commented that u r a very nice guy and he can sense that u would be very nice to me. In short, he's happy for me that I got u as my bf. hehe... I am also happy that I got such a nice bf like u loh. Muackz" LOL
"Be nice to ur friend lah since he's making the first effort to chat with u loh" abt my sec frn right? oh well... tell u te bg sometime later
"Maybe it was a wrong choice of me to turn up and wait for u lah. " HEY, it's not bad to turn up, i appreciate it. but then, i jus caught oof guard.. dunno how to intro.. like wat u say in blog.. i'm not kauzzing u tat u showed up suddenly..
why i wanna try missed connection? wat's the purpose? if to b frns, things can proceed slowly. if to b reln, i oredi got 1.
hehe, after celebrating out month-old anniversary, will discuss abt it.. haha, shall we bring th "baby" along? LOL
Sunday, June 19, 2005
anyway, wif the temp guy gone, and the young lady (who is so damn sharp in her words) done, i waiting for work life area to be improved..
today is really monday blues.. in the real way. morning was alright. got to work. den whole day was busy. den the temp guy, din tok much wif him. i find tat, i'm really bad at politics!! if i unhappy wif someone, i realyl dun tok to him siazz.. others can still tok n chat, but mi, i jus silent. lunch hours came. i thot of, once again, ask to join snr n guy. but no chance. later they moved off. 1 colleague who going for lunch oso, patted mi to go along. den i went wif them... i thinking, if he din ask mi along, will i still join?
den later, after lunch, i asked the temp guy for the money. wha liao, he say he n gf had argument. den almost lose temper wif mi, thinmking i kaypoh into wat happened between them. siaoz. i oni ask why the argument wif her caused him unable to return mi money. he say he gave his atm card to his gf. no matter wat, by this wk, i muz get back my money.
den later, crammed wif work. but enoyable. although dun have time to read papers, well at least i doing office work to occupy myself. den laater, i met my boi again. but this time, it's not those happy happy type... more to understanding n sorting our diff'es... sighzz... i know he's serious abt us. but i hope nothign bad will happen. i got home, n mum cooked porridge. almost din wanna eat. but after having first bite, i decided to jus finish it. not tat enmjoyable meal...
wah liaoz, realyl monday blues siazz.. on my way home, i chatted wif my boi. realised wat went wrong. he said i showered too much concern over him. he feel bad abt it. to him, i put in too much, while he feel he din deserve it. in a way, somehow i think it's bcos i... dun feel secure myself in a relation? jus like.. my work? i kept working n giving my best at work. lack toking to cooleagues, din strike rapport.
for relns, havign a few failed ones, i kinda.. think it's better to be CONCERNED over him, so he will feel loved. n usually, i'll b concerned n caring abt him, n dun wan him to b disadvantaged. so will give him all the best. but tat seems not he way it works... guess i need to be more relaxed?
today is really monday blues.. in the real way. morning was alright. got to work. den whole day was busy. den the temp guy, din tok much wif him. i find tat, i'm really bad at politics!! if i unhappy wif someone, i realyl dun tok to him siazz.. others can still tok n chat, but mi, i jus silent. lunch hours came. i thot of, once again, ask to join snr n guy. but no chance. later they moved off. 1 colleague who going for lunch oso, patted mi to go along. den i went wif them... i thinking, if he din ask mi along, will i still join?
den later, after lunch, i asked the temp guy for the money. wha liao, he say he n gf had argument. den almost lose temper wif mi, thinmking i kaypoh into wat happened between them. siaoz. i oni ask why the argument wif her caused him unable to return mi money. he say he gave his atm card to his gf. no matter wat, by this wk, i muz get back my money.
den later, crammed wif work. but enoyable. although dun have time to read papers, well at least i doing office work to occupy myself. den laater, i met my boi again. but this time, it's not those happy happy type... more to understanding n sorting our diff'es... sighzz... i know he's serious abt us. but i hope nothign bad will happen. i got home, n mum cooked porridge. almost din wanna eat. but after having first bite, i decided to jus finish it. not tat enmjoyable meal...
wah liaoz, realyl monday blues siazz.. on my way home, i chatted wif my boi. realised wat went wrong. he said i showered too much concern over him. he feel bad abt it. to him, i put in too much, while he feel he din deserve it. in a way, somehow i think it's bcos i... dun feel secure myself in a relation? jus like.. my work? i kept working n giving my best at work. lack toking to cooleagues, din strike rapport.
for relns, havign a few failed ones, i kinda.. think it's better to be CONCERNED over him, so he will feel loved. n usually, i'll b concerned n caring abt him, n dun wan him to b disadvantaged. so will give him all the best. but tat seems not he way it works... guess i need to be more relaxed?
if i not wrong, i slept at 1+am. den woke 7am to prep for my swim. wah, yes tired, but i wanna swim. cos swimming is exercise, n the treated water seem to help my face. wah long time din go swim laioz. i din really get to enjoy the time there, since i dun have all the time to myself. haha, am i seekign some excitement? not sexuall,y but the challenge. cos, ok as i wil go meeting after swimming, i cant wear slippers. so i wore those jogging shoes. but scared it drenched in water, so i din close the door while bathign ahhaah. but i took the corner cubicle lah. not those openf or viewing tyep ;)
aiyozz, meeting supposed to start 11am, but sup came oni at near 12. den fat sup worse, came near 1pm. all of us, yes including mi, r surprised to see him. n was thinking like, his presence is obsolete. after a while, we went for lunch.
during lunch, we discussed n gossiped. oni den we came to know tat, the temp guy, is a CHEAT n LIAR.
1) he sold things for mi in may, but till now, still havent got back the money.
2) he havent return snr her money of 200+$.
3) he agreed to meet 2 of my colleagues, but din turn up at all
3) he lied about himself.
4) he wanna get mi into investing biz, sayin he treat mi as good frn, someone he wanna keep contact. ask mi pass him 3k to invest. guarantee money back in 3 mths, during whcih he's wif the company. but, i heard from sup, he quitting in the coming wk. oni 2 mths. n the way he rushing mi tat time, was almost giving mi no timet o consider. luckily i rejected.
i hope other ppl wun get cheated.
den, i went to meet up my boi. he treated mi to our "fav" meal outlet haha. hahah, there hor, we chatted n gossiped. n LOL, *paiseh lah, feel 2 much like writing it out* i dino he learnt acrobatic!!! but acutally, on my way to meet him, i was oredi.. hehe, almost ready to concuss... when i first took his call, i wasn't even sure how i supposed to tok to him. later accompanied him to LAN games n stayed there for hours. heh, our actions there, SO damn obvious tat something is going on between us. cos he sitting on chair, den i sitting at such angle as tho i protecting him haha. got stares here n htere, now n den loh. but of cos, i was dozing off.
jus wanna spend time, b wif him, later tok wif his frns, n cos coming wk, i dunno how to plan our meetings liaozz..
when his game finalyl ended, i was a bit jus woke up feeling. hha, can i mention his frn's.. or didi name here?? haha, he got a didi called pika. but i simply feel like calling him pikachu LOL.. still rmb the volleyball game :) haha, i can click wif him :) cos.. ehhe, he n i toking abt exercising. he say saw soemone at gym b4. the way tat someone gym is so much like a rat. ahha, den i chipped in. luckily there's no cat around =D n we excahnged pointers on hwo to improve our suaning skills LOL..
some of his frns are quite nice looking. havign such outigns is certainly better than meeting up pl for frnship. ya, no need to elaborate. n hor, ever since i understand more abt my way of making frns, n my character, i dun feel so bad n sad anymore when i failed to know ppl, or ask ppl out for meals. but i'll stil lgive it a shot. thx to my boi :) now, havign understood how my person is, i'm better prepared for workdays, but still pressured byu my studies.............
tat's all folks!
aiyozz, meeting supposed to start 11am, but sup came oni at near 12. den fat sup worse, came near 1pm. all of us, yes including mi, r surprised to see him. n was thinking like, his presence is obsolete. after a while, we went for lunch.
during lunch, we discussed n gossiped. oni den we came to know tat, the temp guy, is a CHEAT n LIAR.
1) he sold things for mi in may, but till now, still havent got back the money.
2) he havent return snr her money of 200+$.
3) he agreed to meet 2 of my colleagues, but din turn up at all
3) he lied about himself.
4) he wanna get mi into investing biz, sayin he treat mi as good frn, someone he wanna keep contact. ask mi pass him 3k to invest. guarantee money back in 3 mths, during whcih he's wif the company. but, i heard from sup, he quitting in the coming wk. oni 2 mths. n the way he rushing mi tat time, was almost giving mi no timet o consider. luckily i rejected.
i hope other ppl wun get cheated.
den, i went to meet up my boi. he treated mi to our "fav" meal outlet haha. hahah, there hor, we chatted n gossiped. n LOL, *paiseh lah, feel 2 much like writing it out* i dino he learnt acrobatic!!! but acutally, on my way to meet him, i was oredi.. hehe, almost ready to concuss... when i first took his call, i wasn't even sure how i supposed to tok to him. later accompanied him to LAN games n stayed there for hours. heh, our actions there, SO damn obvious tat something is going on between us. cos he sitting on chair, den i sitting at such angle as tho i protecting him haha. got stares here n htere, now n den loh. but of cos, i was dozing off.
jus wanna spend time, b wif him, later tok wif his frns, n cos coming wk, i dunno how to plan our meetings liaozz..
when his game finalyl ended, i was a bit jus woke up feeling. hha, can i mention his frn's.. or didi name here?? haha, he got a didi called pika. but i simply feel like calling him pikachu LOL.. still rmb the volleyball game :) haha, i can click wif him :) cos.. ehhe, he n i toking abt exercising. he say saw soemone at gym b4. the way tat someone gym is so much like a rat. ahha, den i chipped in. luckily there's no cat around =D n we excahnged pointers on hwo to improve our suaning skills LOL..
some of his frns are quite nice looking. havign such outigns is certainly better than meeting up pl for frnship. ya, no need to elaborate. n hor, ever since i understand more abt my way of making frns, n my character, i dun feel so bad n sad anymore when i failed to know ppl, or ask ppl out for meals. but i'll stil lgive it a shot. thx to my boi :) now, havign understood how my person is, i'm better prepared for workdays, but still pressured byu my studies.............
tat's all folks!
updating my blog on a sunday. quite tired now. felt as though i missed LOTSA sleep. but these days have been pretty happening. my last update was on thurday. or thur wee hrs.
anyway, i forgot wat happening. but on thurs, my boi is taking halfday off, so i met him for lunch. later, met up again for dinner.
on fri, supposed to be jus a normaly working day. can rmb 3 thigns tat happened. in morning, the guy is off to work elsewhere. so for lunch, i asked my snr, in front of fat sup, n 1 more colleague, i asked snr. snr is alright for lunch. den we went off. hahah, along wif us is a yandao guy wif a cutie face!!! very often he'll come our office, but i no chance to tok to him. ahha,. today he having lunch wif mi!!! wow!!! i was practically looking at him all the way!! yandao hair, cute face, beng style haha. WOW. if he's my colleague, he'll be my motivation tor each office everyday =D
den after tat, sighzz... a blunder, a silly n coc blunder. so, kena a complaint letter. fat sup say he went over to boss there to explain. n boss say "nvm lah". somehow, i think it's cos of some thing tat i did, tat the boss say "nvm". cos we have 1 case, whcih we email to an ISP, but no reply from them. so i called them up n managed to resolve the problem. ahah, perhaps the boss know i doing my work, n tat compalin letter is nopthing much, so he bochap. but of cos i know i shld tkae note fo the things lah, dun make any more mistakes.
den hor, after this, i overheard fat sup say my agent coming over to tok abt probation mater. so i thot, wah kauz, at this tiem, when i accidentally blundered, n the guy coming over. aiyozz sianzz.. no chance to ask for pay rise. i even thot: due to this, will i b sacked? but later, i convinved mysself that, nothing will happen. cos it's oni a small mistake. ppl always learn from them. so wat if i made mistake? jus learn from it. n till now, they din find any1 to replace mi yet, so i guess i still safe. den at the tok, well, ok loh, my sup den suggest i shld read up on HR stuf. to brush up my skills.
n den hor, when i returned to office, the young lady said "eh, u leaving ah?" wif a grin. i "huh?".
den 3rd thign is, i met up wif my sec sch frns. saw 1 of them. den chatted up. wif this guy, i dun have much to chat lah. but at least tok a bit. den went over to dinner place there. saw our sec couple. the guy waved at the frn. n we joined them in the queue. from then on, i seem to be neglected. we went in to sit. had a short discussio fo wat we wanna buy. den off we went. i wanna fish, so queued up at the stall. den the ger (of the couple) came over. i saw her, she smiled, i smiled back,. n chatted a bit. den, i thot, we are long time frns. since we are meeting up, why not b happy n enjoy the meeting>? loosen up n enjoy the time!! ahah, do i asound fake?
den the bad thing happened. or the fake mi.
1 sec frn of mine, who MIA for donkey years. he came. i n him met up a few month back. tat time i simply dun feel the need to tok to him,. i think i mentioned here b4. den today we here again. i still dun feel like toking to him. i really dunno how to react. he came over n patted my shoulder, "hey *** how are you" n went to sit down. i simply dunno wat to tok to him. he tok i tried looking at him, but still turned my eyes away secs later.
in end, i look to his direction but to his side. dun look at him directly. i oso din bother replying to him. he din ask mi anythign lah, but i simply dun wana join in conversations he started. i did tok n chat wif other ppl. at times he was even bored, n sat there, staring n hearing us oni, unable to chip in. den he'll suddenly ask the ger, who is always welcoming n approachable, some quetions, breaking his silence. if ppl are attentive, or rather observant enuff, they will notice i am not tat frnly toward him anymore.
i simpyl feel he's no longer worth my 3ffort.
however, when he offered to buy su thigns, i chipped in to say "i not getting any". usually, i'll jus ignore, i tink. but this time, i pretended nothing happened. for the first time, i feel so fake.
haha, den i saw my boi standing outside, waiting for mi!?! i was stuned!! n aiyozz, i dunno wat to do. he there, my frns oso there. intr him to frns, or dun intro, or jus ask him wait outside for mi?? wah liao... anyway, he walked mi to my busstop. there, i saw 2 guys. 1 is quite good looking. i noticed they lokoing at our direction for some time liao. n suddenly, th good guy waved n said "hello" towards our direction. his frn asked "wat u doing". haha, the good guy was paiseh. umm, do i know tat guy?? or he';s my boi's frn??
anyway, mum got cook, so went family there for dinner again, n went home to sleep. gosh, next day got meeting leizz... n my first tiemt o get back to my room afte 12 am. tmr still wanan go swimming. haha, so rushing.
anyway, i forgot wat happening. but on thurs, my boi is taking halfday off, so i met him for lunch. later, met up again for dinner.
on fri, supposed to be jus a normaly working day. can rmb 3 thigns tat happened. in morning, the guy is off to work elsewhere. so for lunch, i asked my snr, in front of fat sup, n 1 more colleague, i asked snr. snr is alright for lunch. den we went off. hahah, along wif us is a yandao guy wif a cutie face!!! very often he'll come our office, but i no chance to tok to him. ahha,. today he having lunch wif mi!!! wow!!! i was practically looking at him all the way!! yandao hair, cute face, beng style haha. WOW. if he's my colleague, he'll be my motivation tor each office everyday =D
den after tat, sighzz... a blunder, a silly n coc blunder. so, kena a complaint letter. fat sup say he went over to boss there to explain. n boss say "nvm lah". somehow, i think it's cos of some thing tat i did, tat the boss say "nvm". cos we have 1 case, whcih we email to an ISP, but no reply from them. so i called them up n managed to resolve the problem. ahah, perhaps the boss know i doing my work, n tat compalin letter is nopthing much, so he bochap. but of cos i know i shld tkae note fo the things lah, dun make any more mistakes.
den hor, after this, i overheard fat sup say my agent coming over to tok abt probation mater. so i thot, wah kauz, at this tiem, when i accidentally blundered, n the guy coming over. aiyozz sianzz.. no chance to ask for pay rise. i even thot: due to this, will i b sacked? but later, i convinved mysself that, nothing will happen. cos it's oni a small mistake. ppl always learn from them. so wat if i made mistake? jus learn from it. n till now, they din find any1 to replace mi yet, so i guess i still safe. den at the tok, well, ok loh, my sup den suggest i shld read up on HR stuf. to brush up my skills.
n den hor, when i returned to office, the young lady said "eh, u leaving ah?" wif a grin. i "huh?".
den 3rd thign is, i met up wif my sec sch frns. saw 1 of them. den chatted up. wif this guy, i dun have much to chat lah. but at least tok a bit. den went over to dinner place there. saw our sec couple. the guy waved at the frn. n we joined them in the queue. from then on, i seem to be neglected. we went in to sit. had a short discussio fo wat we wanna buy. den off we went. i wanna fish, so queued up at the stall. den the ger (of the couple) came over. i saw her, she smiled, i smiled back,. n chatted a bit. den, i thot, we are long time frns. since we are meeting up, why not b happy n enjoy the meeting>? loosen up n enjoy the time!! ahah, do i asound fake?
den the bad thing happened. or the fake mi.
1 sec frn of mine, who MIA for donkey years. he came. i n him met up a few month back. tat time i simply dun feel the need to tok to him,. i think i mentioned here b4. den today we here again. i still dun feel like toking to him. i really dunno how to react. he came over n patted my shoulder, "hey *** how are you" n went to sit down. i simply dunno wat to tok to him. he tok i tried looking at him, but still turned my eyes away secs later.
in end, i look to his direction but to his side. dun look at him directly. i oso din bother replying to him. he din ask mi anythign lah, but i simply dun wana join in conversations he started. i did tok n chat wif other ppl. at times he was even bored, n sat there, staring n hearing us oni, unable to chip in. den he'll suddenly ask the ger, who is always welcoming n approachable, some quetions, breaking his silence. if ppl are attentive, or rather observant enuff, they will notice i am not tat frnly toward him anymore.
i simpyl feel he's no longer worth my 3ffort.
however, when he offered to buy su thigns, i chipped in to say "i not getting any". usually, i'll jus ignore, i tink. but this time, i pretended nothing happened. for the first time, i feel so fake.
haha, den i saw my boi standing outside, waiting for mi!?! i was stuned!! n aiyozz, i dunno wat to do. he there, my frns oso there. intr him to frns, or dun intro, or jus ask him wait outside for mi?? wah liao... anyway, he walked mi to my busstop. there, i saw 2 guys. 1 is quite good looking. i noticed they lokoing at our direction for some time liao. n suddenly, th good guy waved n said "hello" towards our direction. his frn asked "wat u doing". haha, the good guy was paiseh. umm, do i know tat guy?? or he';s my boi's frn??
anyway, mum got cook, so went family there for dinner again, n went home to sleep. gosh, next day got meeting leizz... n my first tiemt o get back to my room afte 12 am. tmr still wanan go swimming. haha, so rushing.
Thursday, June 16, 2005
You Gotta Be
Des'ree
Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try to keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead, release your fears
Stand up and be counted. Don't be ashamed to cry
Herald what your mother said
Read the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
Time asks no questions
It goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning
Can't stop it if you try to
The best part is danger staring you in the face
Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try to keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead, release your fears
You gotta be
You gotta be bad
You gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser
You gotta be hard
You gotta be tough
You gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool
You gotta be calm
You gotta stick together
All I know all I know love will save the day
Des'ree
Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try to keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead, release your fears
Stand up and be counted. Don't be ashamed to cry
Herald what your mother said
Read the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
Time asks no questions
It goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning
Can't stop it if you try to
The best part is danger staring you in the face
Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try to keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead, release your fears
You gotta be
You gotta be bad
You gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser
You gotta be hard
You gotta be tough
You gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool
You gotta be calm
You gotta stick together
All I know all I know love will save the day
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
so now's today's post. last night, i slept at 1230. or is it 130? cos i heheh.. once again... err, am i proud of it, or jus open abt my acts? well, i JO'ed :) den morning, i woke at 624am but got off bed at 702am. din feel awake. why har? maybe if i ever wake up earlier i shld try to get off bed to see if i still tired or wat.
right now, i still got 4 chapters to finish up. hehe, today, i did a few things whcih wil help to improve our work. 1, i suggested something. 2, i saw there's a flaw in system, n discussed with my team. =D well, today, 2 bad, guy is not aroound, den snr i think stil dun wan lunch wif mi oni. anyway, i went to buy money order first. the lady, or old or 30+ 40 lady, was there. wah liao, i ask her wat name i shld write as the benefit. she keep saying make sure it's the correct name of the place. den she had the cheeck to tell mi i dun have enuff money for order. HUH?? she den went off to do things, n i had wnana go for lunch first, but they say will be ready.
oh gosh, i reported loss of bank book some time back. den now they say without it,cant proceed. n wanna replace, muz pay 15$ admin. gosh. dun think i wanna pay for somethign tat i wun use .will find a way out. but the whole process took 30mins!!! when, if an exp taff do, oni 10 mins!!! waste my time! so my first time to lunch at 130pm :P i msg a guy, but he din reply yet til this late hr still not yet. hurried back to work. by this mth, i MUZ buy new pants. shirt is optional.
den at work, my colleagues mentioned about those sexual stuff. haha, i'm not out n open to them about myself. i feel so entrapped. sighzz... is this how a closetted guy feel? to the stage i feeel i always hiding soemthing from them. alright, they are pretyt open abt the sexual stuff. gay les, anal plug, lubricnt. oral. inches. i wonder if it's alright for mi to suddenly come out to them. cos they tok ger guy sex stuff, i nothingt o say. n i no sex jokes to tok. but i AM paiseh'ed by some terms they use haha.
den later, tiem to KO. somehow i wonder if my boss still being hostile to mi. cos today got snr n young lady leave early. when i wanna leave early (in probation period), he say muz at least inform him weeks back. den i went to meet my boi. ahah, will send him to gym every odd day. hahah. we never get tired of meeting each other daily!!! LOL. we can always tok some crappy nonsense haha..
um,m, a confession. these days, at times, i seem to lose control of my eyes. i sometimes will tend to look at guys siazz.. but hor, i do have soemthign to tell my boi, 2 bad no chance... esp when he became moody.. he calle dmi during charmed On-air timing. almost din wanan pick. but i din realise tat, at his 2nd time mentining of him facing problem, i coudl actually suggest to rush down in cab to find him, skippign my charmed. i rmb from "hermia" and "lysander" that, "course of true love never runs smooth". but muz it happen so fast?? is this supposed to be a test? set by... heaven? heaven refer to 2 thigns :)
but no mater wat i hope my boi will ge tover things. dun wan blog too late... reply hsi comments another day.
i know the line is mushy, but...
1 last thing, somehow when something mess up my mood, i really.. have a little trouble getting over it. unless soemone who know mi break it for mi. my boi claled mi to tok. i was askin him 1 thing. den he "hinted" mi the answer. but to mi, that's no answer loh. say = din say. n he carried on toking abt other thignss. i still ding et reply to my first qn. watever he say, i oni "ok". cos i still stuck at first topic, waiting a proper reply. whne he finally told mi, i at loss of wat to say liaozz.. not sure if he's enjoying time wif his frn, till he din pay attention to my question?
oh ya, now i finally agree wif my boi,. he once told mi, i'm a peanut/durian. my appearance look intimidating n fierce, but if u really get to know mi better, u'll see the good side of mi. born an introvert, (i think when got time, i put tis part inside my hpg oso) i am trying to break out of my no-frn situation. but without the proper social skills, i somethimes try too hard. i either tried 2 hard to be easy going, protective of myself, or too open for ppl to accept. perhaps i'm easily influenced by my company? if the ppl around mi r in serious tone, i'll be. i they are in cheerful mood, i'll crap wif them too...
right now, i still got 4 chapters to finish up. hehe, today, i did a few things whcih wil help to improve our work. 1, i suggested something. 2, i saw there's a flaw in system, n discussed with my team. =D well, today, 2 bad, guy is not aroound, den snr i think stil dun wan lunch wif mi oni. anyway, i went to buy money order first. the lady, or old or 30+ 40 lady, was there. wah liao, i ask her wat name i shld write as the benefit. she keep saying make sure it's the correct name of the place. den she had the cheeck to tell mi i dun have enuff money for order. HUH?? she den went off to do things, n i had wnana go for lunch first, but they say will be ready.
oh gosh, i reported loss of bank book some time back. den now they say without it,cant proceed. n wanna replace, muz pay 15$ admin. gosh. dun think i wanna pay for somethign tat i wun use .will find a way out. but the whole process took 30mins!!! when, if an exp taff do, oni 10 mins!!! waste my time! so my first time to lunch at 130pm :P i msg a guy, but he din reply yet til this late hr still not yet. hurried back to work. by this mth, i MUZ buy new pants. shirt is optional.
den at work, my colleagues mentioned about those sexual stuff. haha, i'm not out n open to them about myself. i feel so entrapped. sighzz... is this how a closetted guy feel? to the stage i feeel i always hiding soemthing from them. alright, they are pretyt open abt the sexual stuff. gay les, anal plug, lubricnt. oral. inches. i wonder if it's alright for mi to suddenly come out to them. cos they tok ger guy sex stuff, i nothingt o say. n i no sex jokes to tok. but i AM paiseh'ed by some terms they use haha.
den later, tiem to KO. somehow i wonder if my boss still being hostile to mi. cos today got snr n young lady leave early. when i wanna leave early (in probation period), he say muz at least inform him weeks back. den i went to meet my boi. ahah, will send him to gym every odd day. hahah. we never get tired of meeting each other daily!!! LOL. we can always tok some crappy nonsense haha..
um,m, a confession. these days, at times, i seem to lose control of my eyes. i sometimes will tend to look at guys siazz.. but hor, i do have soemthign to tell my boi, 2 bad no chance... esp when he became moody.. he calle dmi during charmed On-air timing. almost din wanan pick. but i din realise tat, at his 2nd time mentining of him facing problem, i coudl actually suggest to rush down in cab to find him, skippign my charmed. i rmb from "hermia" and "lysander" that, "course of true love never runs smooth". but muz it happen so fast?? is this supposed to be a test? set by... heaven? heaven refer to 2 thigns :)
but no mater wat i hope my boi will ge tover things. dun wan blog too late... reply hsi comments another day.
i know the line is mushy, but...
I believe we are meant to be together. Listen to this song: Des'ree - You Gotta Be. Pay attention to the chorus.
1 last thing, somehow when something mess up my mood, i really.. have a little trouble getting over it. unless soemone who know mi break it for mi. my boi claled mi to tok. i was askin him 1 thing. den he "hinted" mi the answer. but to mi, that's no answer loh. say = din say. n he carried on toking abt other thignss. i still ding et reply to my first qn. watever he say, i oni "ok". cos i still stuck at first topic, waiting a proper reply. whne he finally told mi, i at loss of wat to say liaozz.. not sure if he's enjoying time wif his frn, till he din pay attention to my question?
oh ya, now i finally agree wif my boi,. he once told mi, i'm a peanut/durian. my appearance look intimidating n fierce, but if u really get to know mi better, u'll see the good side of mi. born an introvert, (i think when got time, i put tis part inside my hpg oso) i am trying to break out of my no-frn situation. but without the proper social skills, i somethimes try too hard. i either tried 2 hard to be easy going, protective of myself, or too open for ppl to accept. perhaps i'm easily influenced by my company? if the ppl around mi r in serious tone, i'll be. i they are in cheerful mood, i'll crap wif them too...
last night, watching the recorded show of yuan lai jiu shi ni. watching out for hong ci jian to appear. n oso, the ch U 730pm show, i thot today got the macho guy topless scenes. sianz.. i think i missed mon's ep, so missed it. sianzz
anyway, workload today heavier a bit lah. ok, got some thigns which i wann say.
1) lunch
but i think i oni rmb this thing. i was supposed to have lunch appt wif my frn. he called mi abt 10 like dat, asking wat time i can go for lunch. i told him my lunch hour is 1pm ,n i going to bank there first. den he said, "in this case, we meet other days, cos i muz hurry back office by 2pm." i was thinking ,huh? time is arrange by the holders, if bank is crowded or soemthing, i shld b able to do somethign abt it. it does not mean i die die muz go bank, but it's jus on my mind." he said i'm odd. perhaps?
we still met for lunch, but hor wah liao.. my lunch i left at 1 pm, den he came at 1.15 telling mi he last min got call. we were walking fine n toking ok. jus toking. den inside the canteen, he took a BIG table. i was surprised. anyway i sat on it. i ask him go buy first, cos i know he need to look around. he came back wif his order, but waved at mi to sit somewhere nearer. i felt "oh gosh, switch seat in the midst?" when i got to that table, somehow, i lost my chat mood. he keep toking, but i have nothing to contribute. jus 1 liner. no mood to tok at all. at 150pm, he wanna buy some deserts. i was oredi panicking inside mi. my lunch is 1pm, normal timing to 1 hr. now 150pm. wat's he tinking? in end, i had to ask him to leave, so tat i wun b late. he late rask if my office need to login.
somehow, i feel tat, if something doesn't go according to planned, my mood may be messed up. oh ya... almost forgot!
i watched movie wif my BOI!!! watch Mr n mrs smith. quite interesting. but same thing, boring at first. err.. watched it wif his frn, or rather my ex-rival? hehe, n their frn, a ger. upon meeting, i duno... maybe i seldom meet gers, or they know i gay so no pt in chatting up wif mi. so, this ger, n my boi's colleague. upon meeting, din tok much wif mi lah. can say in the 3 hrs together, we din tok > 5 lines. n as she's on the ex-rivak's side, somehwo i feel tat she is trying to separate mi n my boi from walking together. cos i cna feel tat she is trying to walk beside him, pushing mi to the front, whiel the rival behind them. haah. bit funny thing is, jus b4 entering cinema, my boi ensured i'm right beside him, even pausing going into cinema jus to have mi beside (grins).
while we inside, i realise we din buy any snacks. so i went out to buy n went back into the cinema haha. we bought honey chick, had wnana eat inside, but hor, i thot, kauz, it's sure got gravy. how do we eat?? so the movie started. ya took popcorn all the way. hehe, i'm prepared to pay more attention to my face
during the show, it's pretty nice. n some of my boi's words (copied from my blog) kinda made mi so paiseh. so when brad got topless i was kinda happy, but din last long as nothign happened. but 50% of the time, he was SOOO sexy n charming!!! OOzes SOO much sex appeal!!!! especially some of his postures!! in those shorts... WOW!!! the paper did say Angelina did the role well, but brad din, cos it seem like he's doing another Ocean series. but i feel he did good. if brad did get out of his Ocean role, angelina din too. cos, the way she was dressed up, i NEVER weatched tomb raider, but she bore a STRIKING RESEMBLANCE to Lara croft cartoon ger!!!
the story si quite nice though :) quite twisting, but exagg hahah..
anyway, workload today heavier a bit lah. ok, got some thigns which i wann say.
1) lunch
but i think i oni rmb this thing. i was supposed to have lunch appt wif my frn. he called mi abt 10 like dat, asking wat time i can go for lunch. i told him my lunch hour is 1pm ,n i going to bank there first. den he said, "in this case, we meet other days, cos i muz hurry back office by 2pm." i was thinking ,huh? time is arrange by the holders, if bank is crowded or soemthing, i shld b able to do somethign abt it. it does not mean i die die muz go bank, but it's jus on my mind." he said i'm odd. perhaps?
we still met for lunch, but hor wah liao.. my lunch i left at 1 pm, den he came at 1.15 telling mi he last min got call. we were walking fine n toking ok. jus toking. den inside the canteen, he took a BIG table. i was surprised. anyway i sat on it. i ask him go buy first, cos i know he need to look around. he came back wif his order, but waved at mi to sit somewhere nearer. i felt "oh gosh, switch seat in the midst?" when i got to that table, somehow, i lost my chat mood. he keep toking, but i have nothing to contribute. jus 1 liner. no mood to tok at all. at 150pm, he wanna buy some deserts. i was oredi panicking inside mi. my lunch is 1pm, normal timing to 1 hr. now 150pm. wat's he tinking? in end, i had to ask him to leave, so tat i wun b late. he late rask if my office need to login.
somehow, i feel tat, if something doesn't go according to planned, my mood may be messed up. oh ya... almost forgot!
i watched movie wif my BOI!!! watch Mr n mrs smith. quite interesting. but same thing, boring at first. err.. watched it wif his frn, or rather my ex-rival? hehe, n their frn, a ger. upon meeting, i duno... maybe i seldom meet gers, or they know i gay so no pt in chatting up wif mi. so, this ger, n my boi's colleague. upon meeting, din tok much wif mi lah. can say in the 3 hrs together, we din tok > 5 lines. n as she's on the ex-rivak's side, somehwo i feel tat she is trying to separate mi n my boi from walking together. cos i cna feel tat she is trying to walk beside him, pushing mi to the front, whiel the rival behind them. haah. bit funny thing is, jus b4 entering cinema, my boi ensured i'm right beside him, even pausing going into cinema jus to have mi beside (grins).
while we inside, i realise we din buy any snacks. so i went out to buy n went back into the cinema haha. we bought honey chick, had wnana eat inside, but hor, i thot, kauz, it's sure got gravy. how do we eat?? so the movie started. ya took popcorn all the way. hehe, i'm prepared to pay more attention to my face
during the show, it's pretty nice. n some of my boi's words (copied from my blog) kinda made mi so paiseh. so when brad got topless i was kinda happy, but din last long as nothign happened. but 50% of the time, he was SOOO sexy n charming!!! OOzes SOO much sex appeal!!!! especially some of his postures!! in those shorts... WOW!!! the paper did say Angelina did the role well, but brad din, cos it seem like he's doing another Ocean series. but i feel he did good. if brad did get out of his Ocean role, angelina din too. cos, the way she was dressed up, i NEVER weatched tomb raider, but she bore a STRIKING RESEMBLANCE to Lara croft cartoon ger!!!
the story si quite nice though :) quite twisting, but exagg hahah..
Monday, June 13, 2005
"maybe I am not fated to give u a surprise" nope, more to... u dunno if ur surprise will work, so hehe, tend to test water first. ahha, den i kinda guessed wat u up to LOL
"at least reply to ur comments ba... " if u really busy, jus carry on ur stuff. we can always call to tok... esp when we meet every 2 days :)
"I am really glad to have u as my bf and I do know that dardar is very very nice to me liao. Muackz... " the feeling is mutual :) jus tat at times, i overly concerned abt ur well being...
"oh ok... didn't know u dun classified them as friends, as in u still have party friends. haha..." i seldom tok to them. esp now when i quit going to the party, i wonder if got chance to even meet them up.
"u got lunch buddies liao but then again she's a gal" so wat she gal?? unlss u dun mind mi meeting yandaoz n cuties?? LOL
"I would be sticking to u and paying special attention to u loh" ahha, u wrote this line few days back... hahah...
"when I saw u dashing across the road" cos i in hurry to see u?
"Some of them do read ur blog lah, I guess but I never ask who they are" den how u know they read??
" I thot u would not be so crappy liao when u r so hungry" dunno lei, i was famished. but when i ate bit of thigns, i got energy liao, n started to crap haha
"I am not gd at LAN loh. Always get killed by the rest" cos u were ganged up against mah. if not, how can u b killed? maybe next time i i can, i'll team up wif u haha
"It's quite obvious that he's checking u out loh" does tat person know u toking abt him?? today, i actually intended to ask my sup to gimme more thigns to do. mabye tmr i'll try
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wah, superman siazz. good face, good bod, trainer some more. later train till u cannot tahan haha... he oso wif u guys today right? den tell him ur $$ thing, n see if he can do something for u guys?
i dun agree wif dec. looks n body is impt in sex. how does personality come in?? if it's LTR, den it dun apply to jus AJ circle.personality more impt, looks is first impression, body is bonus (haha, like urs truly!!)
hey, u not lousy lah, jus tat it's ur first tiemt o get ur bf to meet ur kakis right? so at times, u may not know how i fele mah. i know someone is sticky to u, so at times, , yes oni at times, i hope u entertain him, but dun ignore mi until like i oni there to accompany u guys... cos there a diff between our status...
anoter possible reason is, ur boss may jealous abt ur performance n popularity?
"at least reply to ur comments ba... " if u really busy, jus carry on ur stuff. we can always call to tok... esp when we meet every 2 days :)
"I am really glad to have u as my bf and I do know that dardar is very very nice to me liao. Muackz... " the feeling is mutual :) jus tat at times, i overly concerned abt ur well being...
"oh ok... didn't know u dun classified them as friends, as in u still have party friends. haha..." i seldom tok to them. esp now when i quit going to the party, i wonder if got chance to even meet them up.
"u got lunch buddies liao but then again she's a gal" so wat she gal?? unlss u dun mind mi meeting yandaoz n cuties?? LOL
"I would be sticking to u and paying special attention to u loh" ahha, u wrote this line few days back... hahah...
"when I saw u dashing across the road" cos i in hurry to see u?
"Some of them do read ur blog lah, I guess but I never ask who they are" den how u know they read??
" I thot u would not be so crappy liao when u r so hungry" dunno lei, i was famished. but when i ate bit of thigns, i got energy liao, n started to crap haha
"I am not gd at LAN loh. Always get killed by the rest" cos u were ganged up against mah. if not, how can u b killed? maybe next time i i can, i'll team up wif u haha
"It's quite obvious that he's checking u out loh" does tat person know u toking abt him?? today, i actually intended to ask my sup to gimme more thigns to do. mabye tmr i'll try
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wah, superman siazz. good face, good bod, trainer some more. later train till u cannot tahan haha... he oso wif u guys today right? den tell him ur $$ thing, n see if he can do something for u guys?
i dun agree wif dec. looks n body is impt in sex. how does personality come in?? if it's LTR, den it dun apply to jus AJ circle.personality more impt, looks is first impression, body is bonus (haha, like urs truly!!)
hey, u not lousy lah, jus tat it's ur first tiemt o get ur bf to meet ur kakis right? so at times, u may not know how i fele mah. i know someone is sticky to u, so at times, , yes oni at times, i hope u entertain him, but dun ignore mi until like i oni there to accompany u guys... cos there a diff between our status...
anoter possible reason is, ur boss may jealous abt ur performance n popularity?
i woke up 5 mins earlier than usual, cos i wanna try to be earlier. but, i still end up leaving house at almost same time. got to work in a sleepy mood. time passed as usual. tis time, snr was sitting beside mi, so i tookt he chance to tok wif her, tok abt despo housewife, some chn shows hehe. den later i made it a pt to ask the guy n snr if they can wait for mi go lunch. hehe, the guy say "anything". during the lunch hor, haha, joked wif them. sexuall oso. the guy was purposely kicking my shoe, wanan "turn mi on". haha, i den retaliated by learning from despo housewife: usign my leg to caress him hahah.
den we shopped around. i think tmr i having lunch wif a frn, will go buy some new pants. n pay for my studies. deadline is this fri. but, hehe, i really muz thx my boi for really taking the effort to ensure i really go n lunch wif my colelague. usually i'd say, dun worry, i'm ok. know wat i doing. but i know he did it outta concern. i dun wan to discredit him for tis. den during the lunch, the guy oso asked he noted tat i seldom look at gers. haha, i tell him, i look wif my eyes, not my head. only my eyes will dart around.
den later in the day, there was quite some talks abt gay. my jnr keep searching all those gay websites n ask to block access to them. i din respond. when i got home, i ask why no dumplijg tis yr. she say "got, but u never eat oni!" kauz, later i ask her to prepare for mi. she din come out. ok loh, win liao. but mins later, i decided to ask again, but a bit showing displeasure. she say it's ready n in the pot. ya, this is all. oh ya, 1 interesting part is, after lunch, cos i often stand behind snr n guy, snr actually tunred around to see if i still wif them hehe... ok, reply blog n comments..
den we shopped around. i think tmr i having lunch wif a frn, will go buy some new pants. n pay for my studies. deadline is this fri. but, hehe, i really muz thx my boi for really taking the effort to ensure i really go n lunch wif my colelague. usually i'd say, dun worry, i'm ok. know wat i doing. but i know he did it outta concern. i dun wan to discredit him for tis. den during the lunch, the guy oso asked he noted tat i seldom look at gers. haha, i tell him, i look wif my eyes, not my head. only my eyes will dart around.
den later in the day, there was quite some talks abt gay. my jnr keep searching all those gay websites n ask to block access to them. i din respond. when i got home, i ask why no dumplijg tis yr. she say "got, but u never eat oni!" kauz, later i ask her to prepare for mi. she din come out. ok loh, win liao. but mins later, i decided to ask again, but a bit showing displeasure. she say it's ready n in the pot. ya, this is all. oh ya, 1 interesting part is, after lunch, cos i often stand behind snr n guy, snr actually tunred around to see if i still wif them hehe... ok, reply blog n comments..
Sunday, June 12, 2005
saturday, to think i actually slept till 11am ahha, ok not sleep till tat time, but woke at 709am, den slept n woke.. till 11am den decided to wake up. hehe, i recorded his fav tv show w/o his knowledge. i was hoping he come over soemtime soon to watch it. haha. den, i went to prep meet him. met him n his kaki n joked here there. but sighz, he too engrossed in chatting wif him tat i really felt neglected. the way they tok, i felt as tho my existence is not felt. i tried to get beside them, but b4 long, i will b "outcasted" to behind them again. well i dunno where they heading, so cant b in front. ya my boi did turn backt o check tat i'm behind them. over lunch, i stayed quiet as result. din even manage to finish my lunch. left abt 1/4 of rice left on my first place. after lunch, had a tok wif my boi, telling him wat actually happened n how i felt. n thing got better. ahha, n met lotsa of his frns siazz..
saw n observed hwo my boi played victoriously in LAN. haha, i doubt i can match him in yearts to come. n ya, a couple of his frns (all YOUNGER than us) r quite fashion concsious, so they do look nice loh. haha, took note of a someone who "purposely" (as desc by my boi) walk over to see how i look LOL. 1 of his kaki claim to have met mi b4 from sgboy. ok, i hink tat's years back. cos i never met ppl from sgboy for at least a yr. oni ppl from irc. maybe i did see him during 1 of the sgboy outings, but tat's really donkey years back. din have much chance to tok to them. altho my boi always blog tat i quiet, but hhaa, i dun expect myself to so keen n go chat wif them. i think my boi may suspect i keen on them. n why will/do i wan to chat wif them on our firt meet? if they wanna know mi, can always part mi wif my boi, n tok to mi mah. isn't it strange if i purposely go n tok to them?
den sent my boi home, n luffed along wif him n his kaki. when i got home, i thot i will have some time to mysef to do my stuff, ahah, but my plan for sunday/sat night "kena spoilt" LOL.. but ya, our concern for each other often get the better of us, till we bicker. n hehe, he wnana surprise mi, but i think he's not used to giving it, so he actually told mi first. but i can feel tat he's really surprisd my by "surprise" cos he really din expect it haahha!!
as we spend time together, strange, for 2 str8 weeks, i been feeling bad as we hug. i feel happy n loved when i get the hug. but it's the wkend. den the next day is workday. on workdays, i feel dejected cos i's hard to get lunch buddies, as till now, 4 months of working, i still need to really ask the snr if they going lunch. i feel paiseh. yes i admit. but 3 bad i not gd at PR. but hehe, got my boi counselling mi hehe. we realyl complement each other in certain ways. like.. a pair made in heaven? LOL... *grin* another things is, the temp guy supposed to return my modem money to mi on sat. i sms him. but he din reply. he's those streetwise guy. i wonder if i can manage to get the money back from him. i'll try my best.
hehe, today, i supposed to iron my work attire in morning, but had to deal wif my boi, so washing of clothes, ironing, n checking email will be delayed. later he sent mi to my aunt's place haha. i din expect ymself to stay so late over there siazz!! thot i reach aunt at 3pm, den do until 6pm at most. cos the modem can work in 2k, shld work in xp. but how come cannot??? argh!! end up 8pm den go off. damn it!!! no time to do wkend stuff again hehe. den the cute boi, hong ci jian (???) will be on ch U tuesday 830 pm show. come to think of it, i ahven't get used to the new schedule of ch U. n my probation ending this tuesday. the guy who came 1 wk earlier than mi, din go to discuss new pay. i saw him getting a letter. i dunno if the letter is for employment, if i hope can get a chance to discuss pay wif them. although, now, i dunno on wat grounds can i ask for more pay. cos my scope isn't widening.
sighzz, guess i'll still try to ask my snr n guy our for lunch. in fact, i can jolly well lunch alone. but, since i can lunch wif my colleagues, y not? n, it is strnage that, if i lunch alone, den see the snr n guy coming later n sitting somewhere, it does feel strange. hehe n ya, found an inconsistency statement from my boi, ehhe regarding looking and expressing my views of guys hahah... i sure make him duizz wif this line hahaha... McDonald's - I'M LOVING IT. =D *muax*
saw n observed hwo my boi played victoriously in LAN. haha, i doubt i can match him in yearts to come. n ya, a couple of his frns (all YOUNGER than us) r quite fashion concsious, so they do look nice loh. haha, took note of a someone who "purposely" (as desc by my boi) walk over to see how i look LOL. 1 of his kaki claim to have met mi b4 from sgboy. ok, i hink tat's years back. cos i never met ppl from sgboy for at least a yr. oni ppl from irc. maybe i did see him during 1 of the sgboy outings, but tat's really donkey years back. din have much chance to tok to them. altho my boi always blog tat i quiet, but hhaa, i dun expect myself to so keen n go chat wif them. i think my boi may suspect i keen on them. n why will/do i wan to chat wif them on our firt meet? if they wanna know mi, can always part mi wif my boi, n tok to mi mah. isn't it strange if i purposely go n tok to them?
den sent my boi home, n luffed along wif him n his kaki. when i got home, i thot i will have some time to mysef to do my stuff, ahah, but my plan for sunday/sat night "kena spoilt" LOL.. but ya, our concern for each other often get the better of us, till we bicker. n hehe, he wnana surprise mi, but i think he's not used to giving it, so he actually told mi first. but i can feel tat he's really surprisd my by "surprise" cos he really din expect it haahha!!
as we spend time together, strange, for 2 str8 weeks, i been feeling bad as we hug. i feel happy n loved when i get the hug. but it's the wkend. den the next day is workday. on workdays, i feel dejected cos i's hard to get lunch buddies, as till now, 4 months of working, i still need to really ask the snr if they going lunch. i feel paiseh. yes i admit. but 3 bad i not gd at PR. but hehe, got my boi counselling mi hehe. we realyl complement each other in certain ways. like.. a pair made in heaven? LOL... *grin* another things is, the temp guy supposed to return my modem money to mi on sat. i sms him. but he din reply. he's those streetwise guy. i wonder if i can manage to get the money back from him. i'll try my best.
hehe, today, i supposed to iron my work attire in morning, but had to deal wif my boi, so washing of clothes, ironing, n checking email will be delayed. later he sent mi to my aunt's place haha. i din expect ymself to stay so late over there siazz!! thot i reach aunt at 3pm, den do until 6pm at most. cos the modem can work in 2k, shld work in xp. but how come cannot??? argh!! end up 8pm den go off. damn it!!! no time to do wkend stuff again hehe. den the cute boi, hong ci jian (???) will be on ch U tuesday 830 pm show. come to think of it, i ahven't get used to the new schedule of ch U. n my probation ending this tuesday. the guy who came 1 wk earlier than mi, din go to discuss new pay. i saw him getting a letter. i dunno if the letter is for employment, if i hope can get a chance to discuss pay wif them. although, now, i dunno on wat grounds can i ask for more pay. cos my scope isn't widening.
sighzz, guess i'll still try to ask my snr n guy our for lunch. in fact, i can jolly well lunch alone. but, since i can lunch wif my colleagues, y not? n, it is strnage that, if i lunch alone, den see the snr n guy coming later n sitting somewhere, it does feel strange. hehe n ya, found an inconsistency statement from my boi, ehhe regarding looking and expressing my views of guys hahah... i sure make him duizz wif this line hahaha... McDonald's - I'M LOVING IT. =D *muax*
Saturday, June 11, 2005
den friday morning, i actually woke up 15 mins late. ya, i woke up n heard the alarm. i think i slept 2 heavily, n din hear it. was wondering wat morning routine i shld skip. if can, i hope dun need to go work.. or rather rush for work, when i wake up late. sighzz. miss my old job.
somehow, i feel tat my sup, not the fat one, was hostile to mi, cos he not sure if i'll stay long anot.. cos my job history quite volatile. but, i kena stuck here mah, i cant leave right? cos today, i was at pantry there, getting my drink as usual. he den entered. normally, he wun speak to mi, will either look at my eyes 0.5 sec n look away, or dun even see. but today, he told mi tat the team waitinf for mi n 1 guy to start meeting. n even opened the door for mi. n giggled wif mi as well, as he pretended to style his hair after opening.
den later, all is fine lah. but somehow, i feel the snr is... kinda trying to get back or trying to be hostile or trying to distance herself from mi.anyway, during the first lunch, cos as i was walking to snr n guy, snr told guy that she can go lunch wif... n pointing towards my direction, n the guy said mi ah, oh.. got lunch apptmt wif mi ah (referring to urs truly). i den just joked along. but i was really hoping it's mi.
later, my timing came. n my snr simply rushed out for lunch. the guy did tease her, why din ask mi along, she replied "i'll b stupid to reply u". well, since she going lunch so hurriedly, i'll go mysef loh. my frn had wanna lunch wif mi, but last min say he not free. sianz. den i went off. but jus when i got down, it rained! damn, i went back office. was asked some qns. "u took ur lunch so fast?" "w/o snr, of cos finish lunch fast" "outside raining ah" "u lunching wif snr or alone".... liao. had jus wanna reply, "i go over find frns. if frns not there liao, i eat alone loh".
well, i guess i shld still stick to asking them first lah. den later, got comp dinner. i thot will be thos usual buffet dinner i take. den was waiting for the ppl to go. i realy dun mind going. can go over see ppl, mix around, eat food. think optimistically. NO LOH. when i got there, or even on my way there, i was so quiet. n wasn't myself. still teh same guy in office who pretended to be innocent, n can't b myself at all. even at the hotel there, oso not comfy n not enjoying the time. i think, if i'm wif my usual frns, i'm quite loud n chatty siazz. i think ahah, once agian, it's proven i'm bad at PR. over there, i can say i dun mind walking around alone, looking around, rather than keep chatting n toking to colleagues. but, well, need to get along wif them.
sometimes, i think, i belong to those, career can suceed, but PR skilsl lack a lot. unable to create proper rapport wif colelagues. oh yea, saw s colleague there, but i bochap him. or we bochap each other,. din tok at all. even when, i went to the busstop he's at, we oso pretend to not see each other.
hehe, will be meetign my boi tmr...
somehow, i feel tat my sup, not the fat one, was hostile to mi, cos he not sure if i'll stay long anot.. cos my job history quite volatile. but, i kena stuck here mah, i cant leave right? cos today, i was at pantry there, getting my drink as usual. he den entered. normally, he wun speak to mi, will either look at my eyes 0.5 sec n look away, or dun even see. but today, he told mi tat the team waitinf for mi n 1 guy to start meeting. n even opened the door for mi. n giggled wif mi as well, as he pretended to style his hair after opening.
den later, all is fine lah. but somehow, i feel the snr is... kinda trying to get back or trying to be hostile or trying to distance herself from mi.anyway, during the first lunch, cos as i was walking to snr n guy, snr told guy that she can go lunch wif... n pointing towards my direction, n the guy said mi ah, oh.. got lunch apptmt wif mi ah (referring to urs truly). i den just joked along. but i was really hoping it's mi.
later, my timing came. n my snr simply rushed out for lunch. the guy did tease her, why din ask mi along, she replied "i'll b stupid to reply u". well, since she going lunch so hurriedly, i'll go mysef loh. my frn had wanna lunch wif mi, but last min say he not free. sianz. den i went off. but jus when i got down, it rained! damn, i went back office. was asked some qns. "u took ur lunch so fast?" "w/o snr, of cos finish lunch fast" "outside raining ah" "u lunching wif snr or alone".... liao. had jus wanna reply, "i go over find frns. if frns not there liao, i eat alone loh".
well, i guess i shld still stick to asking them first lah. den later, got comp dinner. i thot will be thos usual buffet dinner i take. den was waiting for the ppl to go. i realy dun mind going. can go over see ppl, mix around, eat food. think optimistically. NO LOH. when i got there, or even on my way there, i was so quiet. n wasn't myself. still teh same guy in office who pretended to be innocent, n can't b myself at all. even at the hotel there, oso not comfy n not enjoying the time. i think, if i'm wif my usual frns, i'm quite loud n chatty siazz. i think ahah, once agian, it's proven i'm bad at PR. over there, i can say i dun mind walking around alone, looking around, rather than keep chatting n toking to colleagues. but, well, need to get along wif them.
sometimes, i think, i belong to those, career can suceed, but PR skilsl lack a lot. unable to create proper rapport wif colelagues. oh yea, saw s colleague there, but i bochap him. or we bochap each other,. din tok at all. even when, i went to the busstop he's at, we oso pretend to not see each other.
hehe, will be meetign my boi tmr...
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