opinions pls!!

i got class today.. in my class, a total of 6 ppl there. beside mi sat 1 guy. i knw the impt'ce of networking/forming a study group. on my sliding chair, i slided to tat guy.. n told him, i'm trying to form a study group for this class, and asked for his msn.

he said, "oh.. no problem", and gave mi his email addy, name, and contact no immediately. i asked if his email is working.. cos i got someone who gave mi his email, but his email not working.. he den asked for mine, and said, if i din add him, he can add mi.. umm.. i'm stunned actualyl... i was the initiator, and he.. was pretty interested..

i was actaulyl abt to go back to my desk.. den he tried striking up a chat wif mi.. n he actually saw mi in other mods' classes (see, it's plural) n felt i shld b grad'ing soon.. true enuff, its my last sem... but i had to admit, i oni saw him during tat class.. chatted a bit wif him.. end up no time to get others' msns..

umm.. am i missing anything here? I'M NOT TRYING TO HOOK ANYTHIGN UP, BUT jus mere curious...

i believe i've not blogged for a very very long time.. hha.. time did not help :)

anyway, for my bday, a UK frn bought mi a mag advertised on fridae n i've received it. haha.. tis mag... really... made mi feel so hot siazz.. n horny.. almost wanna subscribe to it.. but i knew its models not always my cuppa, so i checked the past issues.. true.. outta 3 issues, oni the 1 my frn bought suit my taste..

well... trying to commit to a reln really needs some sacrifice here n there...

oh.. today.. i really have my power n dependable digestive system to thank.. today i had diarrhoea.. b4 tat, i somehow felt my tummy was growing.. bloating.. it's like a thick layer of.. something had formed outside my belly.. even when i breathed deeply, i felt fat.. den.. i realised wat it felt like.. to say "i feel so fat!! muz go diet!!" those lines..

cos i really cant feel my abs anymore.. i cant even force out the outline of 6pax. i simply felt so fat.. felt tat my meta rate... once again.. gone off..

until, i had the much.. anticipated, awaited, detestable, disgusting.. diarrhoea.. first 2 words, cos it seems to always reduce my.. fat feeling, removed all the redundant and excess.. undigested things.. last 2 words, well, who welcomes diarrhoea? besides making bowel removal easier, wat good does it give?

so.. the diarrhoea came.. tis time very bad.. stayed for an hr in washroom, did nothing at work, felt so weak.. even had blood stains.. even after drinking warm water, no help.. took mc..

den.. tonight, i felt.. my tummy is much cleaner.. the extra layer is gone oso... felt i'm back to my skinny self.. n the abs can b felt again!! hahah

my gym training finally stopped.. not as in stopped going gym.. but i had personal trainign for wks.

well.. 1 thing, the trainer is giving those superficial comments.. hahaha.. n he's very pushy..

at first when he told mi, i've got the genes for gym.. cos when i was exerting my muscles, he saw the veins and said that.. i took it as compliment.. den.. as time passes, he says "wow.. i can oni carry half ur weight!" "u r as strong as arnold" "still going strong!! (when i was struggling with the final few pushes n he was helping mi)" "vry good.. still got lotsa muscles".

well, begin to feel his.. commercial pushing. den wat's worse.. when he was asking mi to sign up for additional classes, he mentioned, if i dun have credit card, i can always apply for 1.. it takes oni days to process.. n theer's a bank nearby, n i can apply for it thre.. wha liao.. push until so siong..

enjoyed my national day totally... but i shan't say how... =D or why =D +D

jus wanna comment something i saw on tv..

on ghost whisperer, a guy had died in a fire, but he won't leave.. he found someone (melinda, of cos) who he can speak through. he found his living wife through her, and shared his thoughts with her.

she thought he was always busy with work, never had the time to be with her.

the truth, he wanted to be with her everyday and night, and although he's busy with work, he actually working hard for their future..

umm.. nvm.. sound so plain n boring when i wrote it here..

den, mel's hubby.. told her he's going for a card game on friday, seemingly to have totally forgotten abt their anniversary. but she was really hoping he can remember, without her reminding..

den, on the day itself, she bought him a gift that he liked. he appreciated it, n told her he's rushing for the card game n asked her to bring him his coat from the closet (i chose this word haahah).

when she opened the closet, she saw a present. she unwrapped it.. n oh... did she see a memory..

when they first met yrs back, it was over a damaged red umbrella. den their relation started.

and in the closet, in the wrapped present, stands the red umbrella..

oh.... tat's jus the kinda thing i'll do for my.. loved ones.. ohh.. unexpectedly nice surprises.. that will make them touched.. unspoken things that have been done in the background.... leaving them surprised..

i was really weeping at these 2 scenes.. esp when 1 follows the other.. has my emotions really opened up? so tat i care more for ppl's unspoken feels? take note of their.. emotions? hehe.. time will tell..

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n, sigh.. i was too persistent last nite.. tinking tat a frn merely dun wan b a 3rd person... but i did nt feel other things.. luckily, tis morn, i msg him n got things rite again... :)

umm.. time to blog?

phew... finalyl finsihed the first asgt for this sem... wah liao.. although i've oni 1 mod to take tis sem, most of my frns oredi grad last sem.. making mi almost forgetting tat i still got 1 sem to go.. so, when it's time to do asgt, i was slacking.. i promised myself to plan my time, so tat i wun rush asgt last min.. but failed.. we were given 2 weeks to prep for asgt, but i oni started 4 days before asgt due date... super?

anyway, for my company, 2 new staff came in.. 1 is a fat ger (jus a desc, nothing else). 1 is a new guy.. the fat ger.. will take over some of my stuff.. watever. den.. heheheheheeh.. the new guy coming in on 13 aug.. the day i took leave for some "actions" hahah.. i dunno.. this nw guy, i'll b his buddy.. ie i'll take care of him during his first wk or so here.. guy leh.. newbie leh.. i'm TAKING CARE of him leh.. whahaha.. if he's nice looking (cute or yandao ie), eheh, i'll put more heart to him lol.. see how first.. if burly guy.. den... uh-hem...

den ytday off work.. wha liao.. saw a vietnam cute colleague of mine... i took pic wif him during dnd.. wah... hahaah.. in company, he still kinda like not used to mi seeing him.. but ytday, while we waiting bus, he smiled at mi.. n i smiled back.. (y am i nt smiling first??) n i decided i shld go up n tok.. hahah.. n yes i did tat.. his voice is pleasing lah.. :) n i oso sat wif him in the bus. n chatted heartily. he was luffing from time to time.

strange... if a colleague were to come up to mi n tok, will i oso b so welcoming?? or i really still tat introverted? or it's a matter of whether the chat initiator made mi comfy? oh ya, in the bus, i sat wif him, but i left a small gap in between. cos it's gonnna b so weird if i purposely sit close to him.. but few occasions, when he leaned forward to hear mi, his arm did touch mine hehe...

frnly n cheerful =D

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kevxx said: you should play along .. maybe you will have some fun... you are disappointing those guys .. they will think you are some stuck up person who thinks that they are not good enuff for you..

my reply: i play along by looking and exchanging glances loh.. n no, i'm still not tat liberal for such fun.. taking tat office gym for eg, i knw tat, at most, i'll flirt wif tat muscle man, make him hard.. but full blown? i'm not sure.. wat's more, i'm still very new to the cruising scene.. n dun wish to.. spoil myself n fall into the cruising world.. it's exciting.. but i dun wan spoil his fun by disclaiming tat i dun do anal... i may b disappointing them, but i'm oni wnana see..

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chris said: Oh, for goodness' sake, respond to these guys and have hot wild sex in the sauna. You only live once, you know. You need to grab all the sex you can get.

GO FOR IT!!!

my reply: same for kevxx... nope, i'm not gonna do it.. probably not for now.

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kevxx said: who who .. show show....

my reply: wat wat wat?

i'm beginning to understand the phrase "not earning enuff, and learning to spend oredi" more n more..

these days... perhaps i realyl feel tat i dun have to keep such a tight control anymore, so i tend to spend more easily...

n... i learnt a lesson.. dun put too many.. erotic or exposed pic of urself online.. i may b referring to mi.. cos.. a person who i added.. abt 1 yr ago to msn.. eveyrtime put his naked pic in msn, blog or wherever.. yes, he's exhibitionist. but the thing is, he put too many online n too many places liao... in the past, i see his tight chest picture, i will "oooohh".. n jus feel like pressing n kneading.. now i see liao, "oh, ok" is my response. getting very immune to his pix lioa..

umm... will anyone else feel the same abt mine??

anyway, added someone to my msn list from fridae.. quite fast siazz.. he "hearted" mi, i returned, n msg him n "frn'ed" him.. den he added mi in msn n we began chatting.. within 1 single day, we were chatting like no 1 biz.. n yes, of cos he's CUTE.. indo-chn, working in singapore. hahah... saw his frnster, got 79 pix.. some wif his frns.. his lone pic.. some r cute :)... den oso saw 1... he wif frns at a beach, where he posed topless... hahaha.. n we were even toking abt inviting him to my plc.. so he can try home cooked meal... no other agenda included, pls.

i need to rush my asgt.. n office work.. but i can't resist blogging.. in case, i wun have time in wkday n forgot wat happened..

on saturday, it's a very packed day. cos a lot of events to keep moi bz.. first, went to gym.. the PT.. wah liao.. was kinda late.. or he got lotsa admin things to settle.. so started quite late.. i was in white tank top n practising wif those chest enlarging (lol) machines n tri/biceps stuff.. haha... if anyone's interested, i think it's a cooling ,.. or hotty scene for them?? n gosh.. the PT was in polo T, n his chest muscles SO visible... esp when he demo those chest machines, his nipples r visible.. hunky MAN.

den went to the sauna.. got a beng look guy (not handsome, jus ok.. but i like his attitude) sitting beside mi.. slanting.. so i look at him 2 times.. den he went out.. before long, i went out oso.. n saw him standing at a corner... AGAIN, i simply went to bath myself to rush for my haircut appt..

umm, as a reg client, it's my first tiem to ask my stylist for a discount siazz.. saying it's my bday.. she claimed she gave liao... but gave a further 5$ disc (cheap)..

after tis, went to start my "work" as photographer for sayoni events.. wah liao, i DID NOT EXPECT it's a GER's EVENT!!!! was so taken aback when i saw 100% helpers r gers!!!! took a number of shots.. from a professional view point lah.. but.. well, some guys.. i simply can't find a professional reason to take their pic.. lol... n tis guy particularly is not alright wif mi taking oni HIS pic.. but well, i still "persuaded" him.. after bitching he's the oni 1 i need to persuade to take pic.. cute i dunno.. but attractive is the word =D in singlet some more..

n 1 of them, was the cute bryan.. hahha... i was busy taking pic, n he came up to greet mi.. who says he's unfrnly?? i'm the first to defend him! n he's so readily to let me take his pic!!! cos it's supposed to be for the event, i really wish he allow mi to keep tat pic personally..

den.. after the event (totally boring.. cos most of them r GERS), went for dinner wif the butches (so u know wat kinda gers they r).. along the way, tok to these gers.. jus conversational loh.. n.. to my surprise, i.. made a clickable lesbian frn.. i nvr thot i'd bfrn 1.. really...

the area we having dinner @, is.. expensive living area.. n.. on way back.. u know.. got some ppl bring their pet dogs/puppies for walks. AND, got a caucasian mum bring her pet puppy n her son tagged along. the butches quite frnly wif these cuties (dogs, i mean).. n hor!!!! when tis pet puppy passed by us, everyone (butches n mum) slowed.. n i squatted down to pat the puppy.. pup promptly sat down without being told while i was tickling its neck.. looking at mi lovingly.. its eyes never leaving my gaze... i was stunned... i asked if it's he or she... n, it's a "he"... WOW!! when we walked away, we had a GOOD luff.. fancy meeting a gay puppy!!!!!

cos, of all ladies, the male pup stared into my eyes lovingly!!! i was wondering, if he was saying "hello, kor kor, how r u..." lol.. eh, am i tinking 2 mucha??

ok.. we went back for another sayoni event.. tis time, more guys around.. even got 1 broadcaster... i tink i recognise his voice.. voice nice, looks is cute =D den oso got a cute man..

after the event, i went to take pix for them.. after takignt he cute man wif his frns, i asked to take the man's solo pic..

mi: can i take a pic of u alone?
he: wat's the pic for?
mi: i am the cam man
he: will everyone take a solo pic oso?
mi: ehh... not really lah...
he: hahah.. den it's alright lah.. *gives good n trustworthy (i write it, cos i not gonna say wat reason, but i believe he's stating a fact, not excuse)* den apologise..

n tis last line, he was putting his arm over my shoulder, patting mi, while saying!! gosh!! i was simply melting inside!!! as he walked aaway... i... (being 1 who rather speak my heart out) went up to him again n told him "jus now wat u did really made my day".. he luffed n slightly pushed mi away... hahaha...

den later, i offered to take the cute broadcaster pic.. he say wanna pose wif the cute man.. but when they knw it may be published, they declined... once again, the man put his arm over mi n patted mi... n the other arm was kinda gently punching my other arm.. ooooooohhhh i was simply blushing n so paiseh n felt so enjoyable... the moment he did tat, i was oredi looking down siazz!! totally dun dare to look up at all.. watever he say, i jus agreed...

can i still say it's frnliness? or... social flirting? lol... ohhh... i miss the moment... ohhh...

den later, the whole thing ended... n i was thinking how to get home.. a group (10+) of aj folks were chatting n discussing where to go.. i felt so left out.. but, i mustered a lil courage to ask them where they wanna go..

heheh... i was asking the person nearest to mi, den 1 cute guy.. "dragon".. around him answered my question instead.. n ask for more details.. like where i wanna go.. where i live, n how i arrived earlier.. hehe attentive hor? n he really.. went to check wif his frns on how he can accomodate mi siazz.. den, in the end, i went wif him in his frn's car..

we chatted a bit.. n... from wat i can sense.. he could b interested in mi siazz.. i was supposed to go home lah.. but in end, i decided to join them for a lil outing.. to public ktv.. n he was really attentive to my needs siazz.. when a guy intro himself, he scared i cant hear n repeated the name. funny!! after he put on specs, i cant recog him, n even asked for his name!!! den he kept asking mi to sing songs.. n.. used his fingers to flirt wif mi on my back..

when i was abt to leave, i told him... n when i decided to leave, i went to wave gdbye n took my bag.. he was following mi n seeing me to the door.. he oso asked if i enjoyed my nite.. i said "yes, i did, thanks!"... smiling :)

some updates...

gd n bad... n surprisingly.. work, sm, ktv, banner, insects

1) my voluntary thing wif OC has been rejected.. implicitly.. i checking wif them to see why so.. cos i do feel i will make a gd listener..

2) at work, my proj is undergoing a re-org. my current leader is going to lead the prod support, n i will stay in devt team, but under a leader who i... cant click, n have prob comm wif.. n she's always so keen to knw mi better (ya know..) i asked my boss if i can stay wif current leader, n he gave a non-political reply: my leader was given a choice - mi or my upperstudy. he chose her (upperstudy).. hahah..

so i took it tt, i cant change.. oh.. well... shall see if this is a gd change of env.. cos.. ytday.. i again, realise n saw the leader n upperstudy's chemistry.. they click well in thinking...

3) haah... in 1 wk, 2 persons contacted mi for sm... 1 is my reg slave.. who we had contemplated on having a session, but due to conflicts, nvr had the chance.. but tis time, we both applied leave liao.. hahah... den 2nd person, i saw his profile somewhere n contacted him.. ya, he looks cute in the pic.. n he's .. nsf whahah.. but i thik more to admin guy.

4) n ytday... in office.. surprising.. the HR ppl email mi, asking if i keen to be the president of the interest group for KTV.. haaha... i agreed promptly. within min, they email to EVERYONE, saying a new IG is formed, and mi is the VP.. suddenly, my name is so well-known siazz..

5) i was working on a search engine.. i really at a loss of how to proceed.. ytday, i decided, to re-do everything.. since i got some time, n i really have to explore.. n u knw, in 2 hrs, i really managed to get a properly screen out!!!! wahahah!!!

a nice beginning for a new era??

6) on wed, a documentary was shown on artscentral.. it was advertising for the showdown between fight ants and termites in the wild, and named it the battle of the century... sounds interesting but cruel..

so i watched it.. wah liao.. it's really an eye-opener!! n it makes mi pity these creatures... u knw.. they r toking abt those giant ants.. living in the wild.. they move around, seeking places to rear their young. den once they found a place, and set up a nest, hordes of ants went off in search of FOOD.

they found a lizard. a few ants crawled over it and its head, the lizard struggled big time, but the ants held on tight. the lizard was simply helpless. it was then carried back to be their food...

next, a centipede was found too... n u knw, it's got those.. needle stuff as protection rite? no fight. the ants, after pinning it down, cut off its spikes 1 by 1. food for yougn again.

den, a beetle bug. its shell can be penetrated by the ants' claws. there was another bug.. a bug tat usually can wave its tail or spit out some venom to kill its predetors.. but alas, the ants r too small to be injured.

lastly, it's the most pitiful.. a spider was caught as well. and it's being dragged to the nest... i can even see its eyes... probably crying "let me go!!!"

outta the ants thing. when the queen bees give birth, they r quite autocratic, as in they dun allow work bees to rear their young. but sooner or later, the queen are overthrown by the workers: they r being stung to death...

sad man...

wah... it's a really happening tues at the gym manzz!!

so happening, tat i wonder if i shld still keeping looking at ppl..

happened a few times oredi.. when i look at ppl for a while, they somehow thot it was cruising them.. after they left the steamrm, i left a while later n saw them standing at a corner looking into the direction i was walking from..

oh no.... pure admiration (i nvr have action in public) turned into cruising?... siaozz.. haizz.. shld i refrain a bit??