it seems that for mi, most relns dun last > 1 mth... for this. he gonna move in wif mi... so... if it more than 1 mth, i guess i'll re-consider...

was not happy wif work.. shan't say more...

wah... seem like dating ppl... is quite expensive siazz. days can spend tens of $$...

umm... back to serious. i wonder what defines a bf... does he need to care for you? does he need to be clickable with you? able to chat at all times? or as long u feel good abt him, n enjoy his company.. there can be little communication, but what matter is he understand you?

there's a boy after mi currently... not a BOY but jus a term. we can joke quite well.. n he is interested in mi.. but at first, when first saw him, had nice impresion of him.. i duno if i interested in him for frns, or wat.. conflicting feel... maybe cos i been into various relns, so now more careful... i'm not sure if tat's... love or simply fun-loving when with him...

duno if this reln will last anot, is true for every newbie reln... but tat's i not the point...

in past, those ppl who i really into, i feel.. and even wan them to be bf... but am i not ready to let this guy be?

umm.. haven got time to update liaozzz... haha

dun have time to return hearts... write diary... ehhe.. seem like most things tat i miss out are to be done online... den... i believe got loads of new hearts which i oso din check their owner...

on fri nite, my frn... umm.. oh ya... need to write soemthing about him.. he came over on fri to gain time wif mi lah :) stayed wif mi thru out the night.. but he.. hehe.. usual chasing style.. dun wan lose face by not being able to stay up same hours as me.. but towards later hour, he reallt cant tahan liao, n almost kidna drowsy... den, i pause my work, n "carried" him to another seat to rest hehe...

after tat, in the mornign, went to west coast there for bfast.. my idea lah.. to eat the soya sauce chiken noodles.. n buy dumplings. well, it's raining... on the way there, had some fun wif the rain hhaha.. meaning, the cars viciously splashed water onto us... DAMN!!! LOL

later got home..... haha.. i somehow... keep forgetting wat else to write like dat...

ok, on fri, b4 went work, met tat frn early early.. to go and sign contract for the room... quite ok loh.. n decided on certain thigns... now waiting to transfer the money over...

when i got home, i dun thinki slept early..but forgot wat i trying to do... i guess... i was trying to fix the video... u know, i had the tcv tuner liao mah, so now i need to acutally test out the video recording.. i was wondering how to transfer the video siazz.. but finally succeedded.. for the first time oni... later when i try again.. ie d/c the wires, it dun work!!!! DAMN!!!! ARGH!!!

but anyway, i somehow transferrred ... strangely sized videos to my comptuer lah... done taat, i went to bed.. pehw...

den, at night, my frn told mi it' boring LOL.. so i asked him out the enxt day loh.. n we decided to go the dog show.. n of cos bfast.. chatted quite well loh :)

at the dog show, quite interesting.. got ppl hint we are gay LOL (ahha.. write 2 much liao, dun feel like carrying on), n saw a few stylish (read: gay) owners.. saw some cute owners... of owner's bf/brother. den at the dressing up place, got a CUTE GUY dressing up his dog.. haha.. i took umpteen shots of him wif my hp.. regret not taking my digi cam along.. ................................

oh, well, yesterday was trying out the banking stuff.. but damn sianzz.. end up messing up my net bank login acct... haizzz

wah.. quite a surprise.. i broke my record!!!

haha.. well, i mean, after the widl wild wet, i went to my frn's place.. to rest lah of cos... got there .. or rather rested at 5+ 6pm, till 9.07pm.. wah, a record breaking of 3 hrs of rest oni.. den took dinner n left for my office... wah, i really surprised tat i managed to stay awake for so long..

finally time to knock off... hehe.. jus realised tat this month, my allowance claim is 250... hehe... den hor, the other money grabber of my level claimed 280.. haha.. he even asked if i feel tired.. as he can take over my next night shift.. hehe. .wanna get my share of allowance siazz.. LOL...

ok... i got home as normal, and had thot of trying out antenna reception for my tv tuner.. LOL.. den hor, ok lah.. dunno y, got audio, no video.. i checked that user guide. oni got say "no audio, got video". umm.. maybe due to antenna, so loh.. anyway, i plugged out the antenna.. haha, the WHOLE tuner's plug came out!!! I was surprised!!! n was scared of cos... but put it back sil..

den went to my bro's pc.. to test with cable.. hehe.. now den i rmb got it to try out. i installed, and got video n audeo, but.. some channel it cant receive for now.. dunno y...

so happy liao.. hehe.. hey

b4 i try pc, i was buying my n dog's lunch. today, at the chick rice stall, another guy was helping to pack the rice.. umm.. the guy was quite nervous n wanna peep? dunno.. when my orders are almost ready, he din get my money.. the owner got it. ehhe. this is when i wondered if he's too anxious.. LOL..

ok.. den went to sleep... put alarm to ring at 7pm. hehe.. den 720, i woke up myself n checked the time. aiyo, the alarm is so soft..

den went wif frn to check out the room and signed contract... haha... 1st of aug move in!!!!! start countdown!!!!

at work, hehe.. my fridae pal came online, n i persuaded him to show mi his webcam.. COOL!!!! first peson view!!! wah so exhilerated!!

thursday has passed... hehe.. wokr has been quite alright... nothing great.. oni tat i stayed longer loh.. nothing much interesting.. till i reached widl wild wet... haha.. ok, i planned with frn to go there lah.

the place was quite DEAD. all facilities quite sian n unintresting.

those tat we play, find them either too slow or too low. oni a 1 or 2 was still ok... den.. haha... but a few guys; bodies were quite nice looking though...

den the fun time came.. we went to the SHIOK RIVER... there, we loaned the tube to lie on.. borrow 1 oni.. cos maybe 2 ex. so my frn sat on the tube first. as we went round the routes... haha.. we both saw guys tt we like!!!

haha... mine, it's i sudenly saw 2 kids playing in the water... wah, i cant describe wat happened cos i forgot the exact script. the older is the elder brother, playing with his younger bro... wha, i kept staring at them... err i mena HIM... the elder 1.. wah, den, my frn came down n i sat on it. hehe.. he purposely let mi see the guy properly... he was behind us.. playing n pushing his kid... den.. sometimes, got chance he was beside us, fixing his watch or soemthing.. n looking at us... curious.. aha... wah, somtimes

such close ups.. can see his nipples, chest, waist... wah liao... i kep starting at him... cant move my gaze... he is always.. or rather, we always make sure he within our sight... even got 1 time, he coming from the back... when he put my hands out, i almost wanna touch him siazz.... liaozz...I call him Brotherhood.. cos he and his kid brother playing in water :)

but all things still will end... liaozz.. after abt 2-3 rounds, they dun wan play anymore.. n i lost them... sighzz...

den next comes my frn's turn.. we at the wave beach there.. he lying down.. prostrating. when things are over... i went up to him.. hehe.. as i  turned to look at him... i noticed that 1 guy was looking at him all the way siazz.. i told him that.. "huh?" repeated "huh??" repeat 2 times "wat???" kauzz.. i fed up oso... den later i spoke into his ears...  liao.. now den he know.. at this time, tat guy turn his back on us liao.. i think he pissed of as well.. suddenly so many ppl know he cruising..

thinking about all these...jus now i went to toilet... to DIY LOL... maybe in office got foreplay liao.. so this time, i was standing in cubicle.. den wah... shot a FAR load... ;)

haha.. someone has just sent me another interesting video, and 10 secs left to finish downloading it!!

kauzz,,,

today, shld bring a frn home... but den family at home... sighzzz

today stlll not bad.. the day quite ok.. not tat stressful.. but i really see no point in staying.. damn.

den hor, 1 fridae guy actually told mi my diary saddened him, n wun read anymore.. i was surprised!!! what happened????

anywaym, after work, i went to buy tv tuner... had a heavy bfast first..

went to funan there to shop first, to ask a frn who is working there for advice. kauzz.. he hor, dunno treat mi as who.. i got there ,he on phone. waited abt 5 mins b4 he hung up. huh?? as frn, shldnt he gimme better treatment?? n when we spoke, he din even ask mi about my curretn situation.. treat mi as just another customer like dat.. hey, i did wave at him to greet him ok. but realise tat funan thigns are really much $$... the 2 pieces.. wintv PVR 250 (which i like) is 209$, other he intro.. some "my video" blab la is $115.. wah,. both so ex...

in end, i still went SLS. but.. ehhe under gudance of frn, i walked the overground (u know underground right? :D) and found tat e road is really much shorter!!

so got there, n shopped around. took some pamphlets and read them. some placehor, they did recommend good stuff to mi.. but of cos needed to research first. went to other places oso.. some, they got cock reasons. dunno how to market n describe, end up i dun wan buy from them, although they were dressed quite properly.

haha.. in the end, after looking thru all shops, i still went to 04-19 where tat.. nice looking guy (i wun say yandao/handsome, cos he not... or maybe not in the manly type of yandao. cute? umm, not tat cutesy look oso) is working there... haha. toked abt the tv tuners there.. hehe. i din expect to buy from them as welll... cos i was quite fixed on pvr 250.. but quite ex.. but wif their patience, they did convince mi to buy lah :)

hehe, after i decided, tat nice guy was doing the cashier n i asked if he got enuff sleep.. cos he wore specs.. hehe,, he replied he short sighted, so wear spec :) later as i went off, we thanks each other n i smiled at him.. was he stunned, or waiting, or jus seeing mi off? cos as i smiled, he keep looking... hhaha.. anyway...

byught tv tuner, wif fm function.. got home in mrt.. had wanna take bus, but cold n too far.. so tired.. got home n JO again.. hehe.. tired? maybe. cos it avg distance.. ;)

sighzz.. reply fridae msg b4 i sleep.. try my best.

oh ya, got home abt 2-3. den sleep all the way till 6-7.. eyes open a few times,heard phone ring 3 times. when got up at 1120, saw tat phone rang 21 times!! haha..

sianzz.. last night hell broke loose.. n i was reprimanded for some mistakes.. guess i kinda lost touch, and it proved a bit 2 much for mi loh.. but the worst thing is, my leaders doubted i was sick on a wokring day... DAMN IT!
 
n i had planned to go buy tv tuner, but KO 2 late, so guess i will buy today loh.. will be going to frn shop to check out his advice. well, a bad day ytday it was

haha.. next week is here.. umm... looking forward ot my new room.. haha.. n night time will sign the contract for the new room...
 
haha.. suddenyl at a loss of wat to say??
 
ummm.. ok.. quite pleased and proud? to know that there are ppl who read my diary regularly.. even got a regular who... asked why i din update my diaries anymore... err, haha, i forgot i got link my diary from my hpg... did i link from fridae too? gotta check... hehe.. jus updated my fridae as well... umm, where else huh?
 
oh well, friday enjoyed on the bed ;)
 
saturday... although i supposed to work 12 hr night shift.. i din really take good rest. a frn wanna go out n dun wan waste time at home.. so i accompanied him whole day.. shop here and there, n ate japanaese meal.. for my first time, i enjoy the m,eal!!! at agakis?? jap restaurant. the food quite tasty.. but jus maybe too much salt in chinese sense.
 
after tat, went str8 to walkt abt..
 
did some simple research on the tv tuner.. not really reserch even.. cos too many ppl on saturday. din shop much. jus walk around. mon gonna buy.. really buy... later do net research..
 
den frn go off to play soccer.
 
haha.. guess he really 2 bored.. fancy joining mi to surf net.. so late at night... yes lah, he interested in mi...
 
some ppl, they keen on u, but dun try hard enough.. give up easily...
 
haha.. anyway, saturday, wah almost 24 hrs din sleep... i wonder if i can really make it if i dun sleep.. while working tat 12 hr saturday shift, i din wan sleep, but jus wanna rest my head on the table (plain excuse? LOL) n i dozed off..
 
sighzz.. the more i stay here, the more i... feel under-used...
 
family bfast, quite ok loh.. nothing fantastic...
 
but gd news is my mum is accepting my moving out liao :D and she advise not to tell dad so fast.. at least until we come back from oz trip...
 
and hor, my pay rise still not confirmed. DAMN SIANZ! shall see how i gonna get back at them..

haha... last night, .. forgot who sms who first.. tok tok tok.. today met in bed :) had a nice time with him... i think, other than fetishes, i still prefer body contact haha...

next week, i'll meet up other ppl...

wah... jus realise for so many days continuously, i din update my diary at all...

well, counting the past days...

monday: went to work as usual.. had an ok time, but too bad, thurs may need to go back work. den had lunch wif tat cute colleague who is leaving soon.. near evening time, was pissed by a coolleague.. who seem to wana try do extra work n "Be more alert" when he cant even manage basic ones. wah liao, i even told him off siazz...

tues.. kauz, had planned to go sun tanning wif a frn, den later go open air cinema watching. 2 bad he din call, so tanning is off. den i oso went to my uncle (relative place) to do his pc. wah liao.. he kept toking toking, until i no time to properly check his system. i know they wanna keep mi entertain n not like those mere tech guy. but haha. they actually interfering my work :) n his boy hor, still cute.. n seem to be wary of mi.. hehe.. dun dare lemme b near.
but anyway, still went for open cinema later.. haha.. n blasted quite a number of aj jokes!! was so relax n shuang wif miself LOL (hang on, icq tat frn first) *back*

wed.. haha.. ok.. oh ya, tues day some more thigns. tok to my sis regarding moving out. she say need to convince daddy is problem. i need to expect a storm brewing. but i am prepared loh. wun give up so easily. fighting for my future.

wenesday. stay home to prepare some videos.. den later go to uncle place to do pc still. hehe.. dunno if god or bad again,.. ok, i wanna watch Brotherhood. den called up frns. they suggested asking someone out, but dun wan ask his "guardian" out cos got some misunderstanding. den cos i dun rmb him, it veli hard for us to arrange. den finalyl, decided on the plan.

anyway, tat "someone" seem hot stuff. 2 frns find him cute. dunno y. ok, den finally met him.. n found him ok.. can click quite ok. den in cinema. when jus went in, tok quite a bit, den the ppl beside mi ask us to lower vol. ahha.. the someone say "be careful, cos something may happen later".. hehe i bochap.

den we flirted in the cinema... LOL.. 2 bad, his bag is 2 heavy, if not, guess i'll have squeezed hi pte 2 LOL...

gdnite..

hehe.. i know it's mean of me...

but now, i realise that, being skinny or smal size doesn't equal smooth n flat abs :)

it's really due to hard work over time hahaha...

*oopss...*

umm.. it's not a bad idea to write out my thots tat i dun intend to broadcast to my frns. But when ppl know that you write diaries, and expect to see this/that, dun wan see this/that, somehow it loses the meaning of diary. isn't it? Diary, is supposed to be secret.. thigns that happen to you, that you wanna write down. so tat u cna track. but when ppl make it SO DAMN obvious tat they know wat u writing, and ask if u'll write abt them, how u gonna describe today, how u want to write... it kinda... lose the ... original feel of diary. Do your friends or whoever, ask u those qns? ask how u'll describe the events? no right?

Plain reading n understanding at ur own pace is great enough. Can discuss of cos, but it's my diary, why request tis/tat on wat i write? true, it's online and meant for everyone to read, but it's a diary, which is supposed to be personal. By putting online, you can read, but why dictate?

anywya, enough of my grumbling...

an originally normal weekend became 1 full of excitement and enjoyment haha.. but quite odd lah...

ok, 1 guy who i knew, knew only... nothing much else, sms mi.. den i realise he is someone who i knew LONG time back. as i got something on later, we kinda arranged to meet after my apptmt.

wah, i forogt how long it take mi last timet o walk all the way to his place... but it took mi 20 mins of walkign.. sianzZ!! on arriving, took soem trouble to go up due to security.

had a short chat to find out abt limits, den the act began... somehow, i guess i'm really not into M&S... as i was tied up in a kneeling psition, but i will feel better, if i tied up spreadeagle... (hehe.. by thinking of writing of this word, i felt somethign.. rush of blood!!)

anyway, he did get my sensitive areas right.. at the first part... got erection pretty soon... but i din not pretty much enjoy when...oh ya, when i was blindfolded!! blind fold is exciting.. but.. umm.. i prefer to see what's happening.. maybe i'm really not into slavery...

den the story almost came to an end, when he kinda failed to keep his senses on. he oredi knew where is my sensitive part, and my hurting areas. but, maybe he 2 excited, he jus kept on touching the hurting areas. the sensitive side, he only felt once or twice and proceed with his excitement and joy of touchign the hurting areas, which could be his fun place. Too bad, tat doe snot work. I have given him the hint of my sensitive areas, but he still persisted in "avoiding" them. Soon, I got cbored *serious* n decided to end it.

hehe.. wah, the show on chU gonna start!!! but sadly, his place dun have the reception for it... n he offered mi taxi home. ehe.. i declined, really. cos i can walk home myself. but, when i got down, felt tired, weak n 2 far a distance to take... so, i... shyly asked him to send mi home on taxi ;)

haha.. got home and took my "supper" at 10pm heh.. got no spare seats, so i asked a ger and her elder sis. haha.. fancy them say "these 2 seats are free".

den, later met up a guy in condo. din feel for him.. but suddenly he wanna have fetish into play. he a master. the way he command quite funny.. maybe not used to it.. ordering mi to do things, and questioning if he did permit mi do some thigns.. hhaa.. but here, i did JO loh.. :)

did i write 2 long? hehe.. gonna return hearts..

this morning.. went to work, saw the cute colleague. hehe i need to check his work.. den commented some chim chn.. "yu su ze bu da" (the speedier you go, the less assured the quality) and "man gong chu xi huo" (slower work produces quality)..

than.. the longer i work there, the more sianzz i get.. no push at all..

umm.. den tok about my room rentings...

originally, had viewed a good location room.. but due to influences, i din rent tat down yet. n thot of dragging it till i find better 1s.. 2 days later, went to view a room owned by aged couple. all were fine. quite fantastic.. n cheap.. nie place.. but, as i wanna be open, i told them about myself. and this was wat spoilt the day. thigns turned sour in a min.

even the agent asked mi not to tell anyone abt my orientation.. but why shldn't i???

den the agent say she call a few other families, n oni found 1 singh family who can accept aj. huh?? singh??? so jialut mehzz??

den today went to find other place... wah but quite far siazz.. n the room not furnished... hehe.. in fact, when go view the couple room, i thot he couple is newly married, but dun wan kids yet, so renting room out. den even thot of will the guy mind? haha.. den. sometimes if the lady is out.. seduce the guy LOL... kisiao.. think 2 much siazz!!!

and, most importantly... hhehe.. 1 yandao guy msg mi tt he is viewnig my diary!!!! i felt so happy and flattered!!! YAY!!

the 9pm show damn sad... damn damn sad... at the scene where e bro was forced to compose and recite a poem, n e empress helped by reminding him of a nice past event and smiling bitterly and weeping, it was damn torturous...forgot when was the last time i wept... but i nearly wept at this scene... i really pitied the ppl....

den the last part, when the ger died, the bad ger threatened to do somethign.. tat point, i again felt bad...

the last part ,when the guy went to the river, and saw the spirit of the ghost... it's damn touching... 2 bad singapore will never have such good shows... really good stories siazz..

oh well, den tok about renting of rooms.. under guide of my aunt, i was told not to rent the room without the bed. so today, i went on a spree of hunting for rooms... hehe.. den got a agent calling mi to view rom.

the room... according to the agent, is quite nice.. got washing machine to use, got mrt, got tel pt, tv pt, bed, cupboard, fan.. cook, bring frns..

but still got some thigns to asks...like whether can come hoem late a tnight.. but 1 IMPT thign: can they acept PLU.. mus check... sighzzz..

today jus went to view the room... umm.. quite ok... not tat std availability of facilities, but it offer tv point, use of all common facilities.. like washing machine, stove.. quite ok loh.. only hing they dun have is, bed, wardrobe, n table/fan loh.. these have to bring ownself.. others is fine.. hehe.. n somemore, as expected, the owner is attached, not married hehe..

and i jus told my mum about it.. as expected, there was quite a stir with her.. cos she never seem to realise tat, her youngest son is the one with so much ahppenings... sighzz.. she shld get over it soon...

i jus had a dream... but is it good or bad?

dreamt i met up wif my sec frns, maybe i was late.. so, when joined in the middle, they kinda cold... ask something, they reply 1 liner...

den they wanna go out walk walk... 1 sec frn dun wan, wan rest.. den mi oso wan rest.. so they compalin tat no fun liao...

suddenly, outside came a group of ppl frightened by an odd loking crawling creature in clementi central... shaped like starfish, but 2 times biger... and it's legs are like wood made. OH ya... almost like the body of a cross, with its SMALL body (size of insect) at the cross section.

knew these cos a leader frn picked it up carefully n threw away.. but it was still flipped over n cant move. later, i used a pillow (?) to flip it over, as i usually do when see insects flipped.. INCLUDING COCKROACHES... hehe den it turned into a baby crocodile shaped creature.. with the shape of the star fish still, but its wooden legs are softer and mobile... it crept with speed among ppl.. :)

guess i'll jus stop here.. the OLD entries will be saved into my pc.. not in here.. no point in putting thhose years back entries here mah..

phew.. 2 hrs +, finally done updating my diaries!!

yeah yeah yeah!!! it's soo good!!! can posted back dated logs!!!

newer post.. test

first post

umm... wat should i say? my first post here... hehe.. switched from diary;and.com to here.. cos former is.. wah liao often got server down..

the title hor... duno wat to write oso..

wah liao, jus now try to add new entry, den server bz... went in search of new sources, but no use..

hehe.. ytday, again took bus to work same time. ok tis time, got a guy in No4. dunno wat he doing there.. crusiing? duno.. later when my bus came, he came on board oso..

strnge thing is, he look at mi a few times. i kinda felt he cruising.. den i go up to queue, den later he join.

when bus came, i boarded, denWAH, saw tat guy ytday tat guy board wif his gf? he was looking at a guy sitting othe side of bus.. oh, tat guy who look at mi... confirmed liao.

hehe.. den in the middle of the trip, when FEW ppl are left on the bus, i pretend to look ard, n saw him there.. hehe.. i look at hime, 1 or 2 sec, he again kinda stunned, den as i smiled a him again, he turn his head away.. haha.. this time he know how to react... den later i look time n again, he still dun wan look at mi... sighzz... no fun liao..

tat night, dunno how come, i was quite busy siazz.. den tat plump colleague.. brian came... had a little chat..

god damn it.. when my asst team lead came in, i dunno if she really take adv of my willingness to help or she forcing mi... if take adv, i gonna retaliate. if force, nah, not so easy..

cos she asking mi to do additional thing tat i dun need to.. soemthing tat supposed to be done by other guy, she din highlight at all... liao.. come to think of it now... she really kinda like take it for granted i'll HELP. HUH?!?

i dodged it.

den later, my team lead wanna tok abt my contract.. he.. of cos psycho mi to stay lah... to carry on job... tat cute collleague of mine, confirm leaving liao... hope later wil have more guys joining in to let mi "playaround" LOL.

after discussion wif him, i know ore thigns tat are going on.. actually, he was asking why i din sign contact yet. i knew then, if i tok to him abt $$, he sure reject. so thot of other things.. wah, cant believe at tat point of time, i still can think of something to tok cock LOL..

we really tok quite a bit... for $$, he say eh'll try soemthing, cos he realise my pay DAMN low...

den oso discussed wif my sis... tat i'll carry on wif my job, cos i still got a trip pending.. if quit now, wah, dunno how to get job n go holiday..

if got pay rise, good.. i will oso tell him wat r my expectation if i gonna stay.. cos current job.. does not use my IT knowledge at all...

den oso... gonna move out of my house..to a rm liao...

last, BUT NOT LEAST DEFINITELY@@@ hehe.. tat guy who i met on fridae... i called him twice in 2 days... den today i dun call him.. see if he call mi.. haha.. human psycho lah.. hehe.. he msg mi instead.. to keep contact on msn :D

ok.. now i understand better... let's see if i can post soem backdated blgos..