thurs 22/12/05. it's the 1 day round perth tour!!!!!!!!! hehe, we r slightly late for the tour, wah, i thot it'll b like the tours.. wif a grp of ppl. but oni 4 of us sitting in the van. more like a freelance tour guide. dun ask mi exactly wat places we been to, cos i dun bother to rmb LOL.
jus rmb i been to winery to taste them, been to strawberry farm to buy FRESH straws. took the ANZAC biscuits. went to whitemen park (the staff there is TALLLLL n lean. a cute 20yo teen). aboriginal place where i blew the traditional wind pipe. haha, the person even say i talented!! cos i managed to blow the sound, n whistle!! went to 2 beaches. so damn cold!! den 2nd beach, even got ppl topless walking around... wah... ya a guy got good fig walking around.. so noted esp. went choc factory oso. did we go anywhere else? ya bought a carton of wines... had a pretty fulfilling day... ended the day wif asian cuisine for dinner!! quite tasty siazz... but jialut during the time when i went shopping wif the gers while waiting for my pal. they keep looking at those gers' dresses siazz.. sianzz...
almost forgot. i went to buy nougats on tis day. the shop agong sell the nougats at 21/pax. i say i buying 7, he discount 30c. den i say i go find other places. den, he immediately offered 20/pax!!! a saving of 1$$!!!. den went to buy nuts oso.. wah heavy baggage...
den got home, n prep'ed for fri's shopping trip wif gers (read: being a free labourer for them).
fri 23/12/05. siongzzz... cos i slept at 12++am, or even 2am, n woke up at 7+ to prepare myself for the shopping. umm,,, cant really rmb exact details liaoz. went fre'o, city west, subiaco. n hor, i thot oz's CS is good. din expect to experience bad svc siazz... racism? wat we ask the staff, she not sure wat we asking at all, n gave us an odd ans. took the Central Area Transport (CAT), trains, n buses. learnt abt travelling btwn zones. basically a shopping time. i bought 2Ts which r outrageously worded siazz haha.
a surprise came. the ger who came to visit my gal pal, is actually an ex-colleague of my sister siazz.. my sis was even her manager!!! imagine: i met the ger yrs back when my pal bring her to ktv session. den tis time she went over to visit pal oso. n it end up, she is actually my pal's pal, n my sis's ex-colleaue! my sis did say her colleague oso going perth. but nvr expect it to be so qiao.. tat we even know each other siazz!!!! n hor tis day, i first time to eat a toast in morning, den lasted till 5+6 den eat some fried potato. n followed by a ome cooked meal, prepared by my ever cutie, loveable, caring concerned loyal helpful pal, SONYA. n she cooked more than the usual amt, making sure i am really full... HUGZ. she prepared mushrooms slice wif crab meat, chicken drum, some fried fish delicacy. n formosa.
oh ya, did i mention tat these periods, we been joking n teasing non-stop?
so, to rturn the favour, i volunteered 2 clear the plates. n wah liao, she still as bossy as ever at times.. LOL. den aftr dinner, jus waiting for my pal (male 1) to fetch mi home.. sounds so much like my daddy hor? sighzz.. really feel as tho i a burden to them siazz..food wise, lodging, n fretching mi home. n self-protection while i'm overseas... so.. even when my pal KO from work at 2am, rode his bicycle home to get his car to fetch mi, he even had to come over the gal plc to bring mi home... bet it muz b tiring n stressing for him... got home, n prepared myself for the next day.... saturday.. haha... look forward to jokes :)
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
wed 21/12/05. so,the plane landed 1am. was clearing my passport. den wah liao, a family of perhaps russian (a wild guess oni) was behind mi. parents n 2 kids. know wat? the mum was sticking to mi. she keep pushing... or rather.. keep wanting to stand just beside mi. to the pt of brushing my bag a few times. even saw tat, her family is standing 5 steps behind her, n she oni 1 step away from mi! n 1 time, when i turned my head back, her head was almost touching my shoulder. i can kiss her hair if i turn more.
den i was 1 of the first few to get to luggage area waiting. waited 30 mins, my bag not there. i got anxiuous. i scared, later my sis' experience of missing bag happen to mi siazz. so i asked the counter staff. theyask mi to ask at the door. so i went to an opening of the place where luggage comes in. no 1 there. i waited 10 mins. my bag still not there. i check wif the counter, they insisted they r not in charge n dun wan help mi. i was stunned. den wat gonna happen to my lugg?? den i looked away... n found QA's lugg serv counter hahah. wah lioa, i asked them, den realised my bag came out long ago!! but i waited at the wrong belt!!!! DAMN!!! see ler!!! from the first few, end up i bcum the last few to go off....... sianzz...
my oz pal even sms'ed mi siazz... to check where i am... so paiseh siazz!!
den i really apologised to them, n hugged my pal :) when i got to his plc, i gave him the gifts he oh-so-needed. haha, i even made him felt touched haha... i slept at abt 4am siazz... so much like chionging.
later we went around places n took pix.,.. haha, i look so stylo!! took the public transport n ogled at ppl... took jap food LOL... really enjoying life siazz... i oso tried western carrot cake. ya, the weather in oz damn cold siazz... sometimes i feel like i look like those ppl walking in the cold streets of america, where ppl wrap themselves up in winter clothes hahah.
den oso, thx to the ger, she treated us to tang yuen haha... really nice of her to cook it. but it;snot the std singaporean way tho.. den oso, kena teased by her to down a big glass of wine... evil ger siazz. den gave her some presents. she was oso caught by surporise siazz haha... she loved it loh :). strange, her gal pal, i met her b4. she lkook n feel VERY diff from the first/last time i saw her. it makes mi wonder if she wanna rest n relax, n dun burn her brain 2 much.
thurs... i'l write tmr hahah..
den i was 1 of the first few to get to luggage area waiting. waited 30 mins, my bag not there. i got anxiuous. i scared, later my sis' experience of missing bag happen to mi siazz. so i asked the counter staff. theyask mi to ask at the door. so i went to an opening of the place where luggage comes in. no 1 there. i waited 10 mins. my bag still not there. i check wif the counter, they insisted they r not in charge n dun wan help mi. i was stunned. den wat gonna happen to my lugg?? den i looked away... n found QA's lugg serv counter hahah. wah lioa, i asked them, den realised my bag came out long ago!! but i waited at the wrong belt!!!! DAMN!!! see ler!!! from the first few, end up i bcum the last few to go off....... sianzz...
my oz pal even sms'ed mi siazz... to check where i am... so paiseh siazz!!
den i really apologised to them, n hugged my pal :) when i got to his plc, i gave him the gifts he oh-so-needed. haha, i even made him felt touched haha... i slept at abt 4am siazz... so much like chionging.
later we went around places n took pix.,.. haha, i look so stylo!! took the public transport n ogled at ppl... took jap food LOL... really enjoying life siazz... i oso tried western carrot cake. ya, the weather in oz damn cold siazz... sometimes i feel like i look like those ppl walking in the cold streets of america, where ppl wrap themselves up in winter clothes hahah.
den oso, thx to the ger, she treated us to tang yuen haha... really nice of her to cook it. but it;snot the std singaporean way tho.. den oso, kena teased by her to down a big glass of wine... evil ger siazz. den gave her some presents. she was oso caught by surporise siazz haha... she loved it loh :). strange, her gal pal, i met her b4. she lkook n feel VERY diff from the first/last time i saw her. it makes mi wonder if she wanna rest n relax, n dun burn her brain 2 much.
thurs... i'l write tmr hahah..
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
wah, i broke my record of not blogging for > 1 wk.
see wat i can rmb abt my trip...
monday 19th dec 05. i called up pacnet, negotiating for a better deal. haha, well, i recv an email from them, saying i am 1 of selected valued clients for a promotional upgrade plan. the email is from a guy. so i,... hehe called him up to negotiate a deal loh. if not a guy, i probably jus call the sales side, n get someone to speak to mi. i was hoping, if the deal pulls off, i will meet him outside somewhere to sign the specially prepared contract. if not, den nothing loh. i oso emailed him abt our conversation, asking him to terminate my contract if nothing can b done. n.. my colleagues oso made a joke outta it. cos i was not insistent on changing the plans till this time. when they feel tat i shld change when other deals r better.
tues 20th dec 05. sup ask when i wnna ko. i said maybe 1-2pm. he said den i go at 2pm. wah liaozz.. ok den reaching lunch hr, i told them i going off 130pm. sup was dumb loh. my orig plan is to ko 130pm, go deposit money in my posbank acct, buy food 2 eat on plane, den take lunch, n get ready for my dad to ferry to airport. but last min i rmb muz buy a bag for tat pal of mine. so haha... time got tighter. called 77th st, called those specialised bag shops. bought the bag, n rushed home. wah, din even have time for a satisfying meal.
cos, mum called mi, wanna send mi to airport oso. den my dad was rushing mi to go earlier. we agreed for 415pm. at 340pm, he say he will go slowly to pick mi up. at 355pm, he ask y i not there yet. wah liao. as usual, on way there, he was telling mi his life story....
n first time i check in to airport my self!!!!!!! so fun n exciting haha!!!!!! walk ard to kill time. n hor, to my surprised, at the boarding area, oni mi 1 asian oni.den on the plane, wah liao, 1 crew member practised racism on mi.
1) ask her where can i get water for myself, she told mi 2 times i have water on my tray liao.
2) i was taking my buns, den ask her clear up for mi, she say "clear tis, tat, n wat else"
3) the light is off, i wnan watch vid, so i switch on my light. the front seat was leaning to my area, so kena the light on her hair. the ger walked past, paused at my place, look at her seat, den look at mine, n her seat again. n went off. lasting for 5 secs. i tel u, if she dare to tell mi to off my light, i sure will tell her off.
den the journey quite nice lah.. vid is good to watch, the shi2 mian4 mai2 fu2. the guy beside mi oso frnly. i initiatyed a short chat, asking wat his meal is, cos it's served first n look diff. he smilingly told mi. den i oso offered my veg to him hha.
true enuff, the flight took off 8pm, n arrived in perth at 1am.... (2 b continued)
see wat i can rmb abt my trip...
monday 19th dec 05. i called up pacnet, negotiating for a better deal. haha, well, i recv an email from them, saying i am 1 of selected valued clients for a promotional upgrade plan. the email is from a guy. so i,... hehe called him up to negotiate a deal loh. if not a guy, i probably jus call the sales side, n get someone to speak to mi. i was hoping, if the deal pulls off, i will meet him outside somewhere to sign the specially prepared contract. if not, den nothing loh. i oso emailed him abt our conversation, asking him to terminate my contract if nothing can b done. n.. my colleagues oso made a joke outta it. cos i was not insistent on changing the plans till this time. when they feel tat i shld change when other deals r better.
tues 20th dec 05. sup ask when i wnna ko. i said maybe 1-2pm. he said den i go at 2pm. wah liaozz.. ok den reaching lunch hr, i told them i going off 130pm. sup was dumb loh. my orig plan is to ko 130pm, go deposit money in my posbank acct, buy food 2 eat on plane, den take lunch, n get ready for my dad to ferry to airport. but last min i rmb muz buy a bag for tat pal of mine. so haha... time got tighter. called 77th st, called those specialised bag shops. bought the bag, n rushed home. wah, din even have time for a satisfying meal.
cos, mum called mi, wanna send mi to airport oso. den my dad was rushing mi to go earlier. we agreed for 415pm. at 340pm, he say he will go slowly to pick mi up. at 355pm, he ask y i not there yet. wah liao. as usual, on way there, he was telling mi his life story....
n first time i check in to airport my self!!!!!!! so fun n exciting haha!!!!!! walk ard to kill time. n hor, to my surprised, at the boarding area, oni mi 1 asian oni.den on the plane, wah liao, 1 crew member practised racism on mi.
1) ask her where can i get water for myself, she told mi 2 times i have water on my tray liao.
2) i was taking my buns, den ask her clear up for mi, she say "clear tis, tat, n wat else"
3) the light is off, i wnan watch vid, so i switch on my light. the front seat was leaning to my area, so kena the light on her hair. the ger walked past, paused at my place, look at her seat, den look at mine, n her seat again. n went off. lasting for 5 secs. i tel u, if she dare to tell mi to off my light, i sure will tell her off.
den the journey quite nice lah.. vid is good to watch, the shi2 mian4 mai2 fu2. the guy beside mi oso frnly. i initiatyed a short chat, asking wat his meal is, cos it's served first n look diff. he smilingly told mi. den i oso offered my veg to him hha.
true enuff, the flight took off 8pm, n arrived in perth at 1am.... (2 b continued)
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Saturday, December 17, 2005
on friday evening, 9th dec 05, i felt tat i've not drank any waer for hours. well, i'm ok wif it.
on saturday, 10th dec 05, i felt my body is demanding for the element of life - water. i drank 2 mugs. but my body ain't feeling any better.
on sunday, 11th dec 05, I went for the dinner. I felt very cold. It's not due to the aircon. More to my body is resisting the cold, as it's not feeling good. I sat on the sofa, curling myself up in a way that my legs are tucked under my butts/pubes, and my arms are crossed. I still feel cold. what's worse, for the day's lunch, we were at cafe cartel but I ahv no idea what to order, that is cheap,filling, and tasty. So I took pasta which turned out to be covered with tomato sauce. I did nto enjoy it of course. Then for the dinner, the host prepared an appetizer - salad. I can't eat. the mainc ourse is spaghetti. tomato sauce as well. I took a lil sauce, but ended up finishing my plate just by gobbling down the plain noodles.
Then, when I got home to sleep, I felt COLD. even when the fan is not on. I had to cover myself in blanket. I'm not sure if I should take MC anot. A big difference, as, if I really wanted MC just to rest at home, I won;t care so much. But when it comes to really sick and needed MC, I will consider if my colelagues can manage. ok, So I covered my self in blanket. The next morning, I woke up in sweat. My blanket is wet, but I'm feeling much better from the fever.
However, this whole week, I've been suffering a big deal. No voice, hoarse voice, sore throat, feeling pain even swallowing food/drink, coughing, with phlegm, asthmatic cough. Till friday, I'm still having it.
I visited the doctor. I told her about the history. She wanted to give me pills for fever, cough and flu. I declined the fever pills, 'cos I'm alright! when I left the clinic, I suddenyl remembered, why did not she give me lozenges?
It's really tough to be really sick. I dont' wish to think too much, resulting in havign to wait for the rain to stop, walking alonger distance, stepping into muddy water without realising it. If I don;t get better by Monday, I'll see the doctor again.
on saturday, 10th dec 05, i felt my body is demanding for the element of life - water. i drank 2 mugs. but my body ain't feeling any better.
on sunday, 11th dec 05, I went for the dinner. I felt very cold. It's not due to the aircon. More to my body is resisting the cold, as it's not feeling good. I sat on the sofa, curling myself up in a way that my legs are tucked under my butts/pubes, and my arms are crossed. I still feel cold. what's worse, for the day's lunch, we were at cafe cartel but I ahv no idea what to order, that is cheap,filling, and tasty. So I took pasta which turned out to be covered with tomato sauce. I did nto enjoy it of course. Then for the dinner, the host prepared an appetizer - salad. I can't eat. the mainc ourse is spaghetti. tomato sauce as well. I took a lil sauce, but ended up finishing my plate just by gobbling down the plain noodles.
Then, when I got home to sleep, I felt COLD. even when the fan is not on. I had to cover myself in blanket. I'm not sure if I should take MC anot. A big difference, as, if I really wanted MC just to rest at home, I won;t care so much. But when it comes to really sick and needed MC, I will consider if my colelagues can manage. ok, So I covered my self in blanket. The next morning, I woke up in sweat. My blanket is wet, but I'm feeling much better from the fever.
However, this whole week, I've been suffering a big deal. No voice, hoarse voice, sore throat, feeling pain even swallowing food/drink, coughing, with phlegm, asthmatic cough. Till friday, I'm still having it.
I visited the doctor. I told her about the history. She wanted to give me pills for fever, cough and flu. I declined the fever pills, 'cos I'm alright! when I left the clinic, I suddenyl remembered, why did not she give me lozenges?
It's really tough to be really sick. I dont' wish to think too much, resulting in havign to wait for the rain to stop, walking alonger distance, stepping into muddy water without realising it. If I don;t get better by Monday, I'll see the doctor again.
thigns to grumble about again...
no 1's willing to do the xmas deco for office. original theme is "ice age" which i dun have much idea how to visualise at all. den cos the office oredi put up many moons n stars, they wnana change theme to "starry nite" instead. so i suggested buying those lightsticks n pouring the chemicals onto the elements of nature to make them illuminous. they feel it's a good idea. but jus b4 they went off to buy, they deicded to use those glittering powder instead. to have the sparkling effect. gosh, i immediately felt it DUN fit the theme. i voiced it out, and the sup jus say "dun b so logical tis time. use ur imagination, fantasy". alright then. in end, they really bought back glittering powder.
but the thign is, they sprinkled on 2 stars, n felt it dun look gd at all. n say no need liao. gosh... any FOOLS can see that ler... now den say... starry night, put glittering star???? gosh. den they submitting fotos taken in the office n need to write up some description. i look at the pix liao, den thot of some nice thigns to say. i told the sup, he "orh, orh". den ask jnr to think of something to write. i told him "as u walk into the door, u r greeted by our frnly CSO. on ur left, thre's a xmas tree covered with snow."
oh well, had wanted to jus say it out siazz.. but no pt. i oredi give my opinion. they dun wan, so be it. n to frns, i'm more of the easy-going type. including at work. unless someone piss mi off, i wun b harsh on him. 'cos i know, if i'm harsh, i will b real.
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i changed my currency liao!!!! checked net./ rate is S$500 ~ A$401. so i ask around. 1 plc is 500 ~ 394. 1 pls is 500 ~ 396. 1 plc is 500~400. i took the 3rd :) n i kinda realise, i'm used to office hrs travelling, esp on bus. cos the few times i on mrt, i always feel tat i will encounter some ppl who simply bochap who is beside them, do watever they wan. bag bump onto ppl oso NO FEELING. oh ya, i shld b sending a letter to tibs, asking them to improve peak hour bus boarding traffic.
haha.. good news, my bank account has a record low balance...
no 1's willing to do the xmas deco for office. original theme is "ice age" which i dun have much idea how to visualise at all. den cos the office oredi put up many moons n stars, they wnana change theme to "starry nite" instead. so i suggested buying those lightsticks n pouring the chemicals onto the elements of nature to make them illuminous. they feel it's a good idea. but jus b4 they went off to buy, they deicded to use those glittering powder instead. to have the sparkling effect. gosh, i immediately felt it DUN fit the theme. i voiced it out, and the sup jus say "dun b so logical tis time. use ur imagination, fantasy". alright then. in end, they really bought back glittering powder.
but the thign is, they sprinkled on 2 stars, n felt it dun look gd at all. n say no need liao. gosh... any FOOLS can see that ler... now den say... starry night, put glittering star???? gosh. den they submitting fotos taken in the office n need to write up some description. i look at the pix liao, den thot of some nice thigns to say. i told the sup, he "orh, orh". den ask jnr to think of something to write. i told him "as u walk into the door, u r greeted by our frnly CSO. on ur left, thre's a xmas tree covered with snow."
oh well, had wanted to jus say it out siazz.. but no pt. i oredi give my opinion. they dun wan, so be it. n to frns, i'm more of the easy-going type. including at work. unless someone piss mi off, i wun b harsh on him. 'cos i know, if i'm harsh, i will b real.
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i changed my currency liao!!!! checked net./ rate is S$500 ~ A$401. so i ask around. 1 plc is 500 ~ 394. 1 pls is 500 ~ 396. 1 plc is 500~400. i took the 3rd :) n i kinda realise, i'm used to office hrs travelling, esp on bus. cos the few times i on mrt, i always feel tat i will encounter some ppl who simply bochap who is beside them, do watever they wan. bag bump onto ppl oso NO FEELING. oh ya, i shld b sending a letter to tibs, asking them to improve peak hour bus boarding traffic.
haha.. good news, my bank account has a record low balance...
Thursday, December 15, 2005
wah liao, i originally felt nothing. a mere wednesday night. but 12 am, my oz pal had to call siazz. keep toking to mi, till i excited abt meeting on wed morning oso... wah lioa.. even in the morning, as i took bus to work, mp3 player having jolin's hip song. wah, i was influenced... n start to think of the good times we gonna have...
n hor, i really din expect him to actually prepare a hp n prepaid card for mi to use.. so tat communication in oz will be easier... wat we do for each other is really touching siazz.. n considerate
ahhaha... having tok to another close pal of mine, i realise something: if we can think better than the other person, if that person says he is overjoyed about soemthing that's gonna happen, we could play down our reactions and reply calmly to him. treating as though it's no big deal.
a frn of mine, is quite excited abt going some plc. but i find tat he's overly excited n replied wif a " hehe ok" oni.
i told my pal i going over, n getting excited, she reply "..........." as though i'm getting excited over nothing.
but from her blog, she n her own gal pal were both excited tat they gonna meet up, n cant wait for the day to come.
my oz pal made mi excited abt going over. but i know, as the day draws near, i'll be equally excited 1. n we share the excitement.
aiyo... jisluat. for sure. cos tis month i sure will overspend the min amt set by ocbc. i think i'll realy switch my acct. to the 1 min 500$ oni. close my acct n open new 1. on the day i leaving... wah... teh time is here!!!!!! i'm hadingot OZ!!!!
gonna chill out wif my kakis!!!!!! long live.... singaporeans!!!!!!!1
n hor, i really din expect him to actually prepare a hp n prepaid card for mi to use.. so tat communication in oz will be easier... wat we do for each other is really touching siazz.. n considerate
ahhaha... having tok to another close pal of mine, i realise something: if we can think better than the other person, if that person says he is overjoyed about soemthing that's gonna happen, we could play down our reactions and reply calmly to him. treating as though it's no big deal.
a frn of mine, is quite excited abt going some plc. but i find tat he's overly excited n replied wif a " hehe ok" oni.
i told my pal i going over, n getting excited, she reply "..........." as though i'm getting excited over nothing.
but from her blog, she n her own gal pal were both excited tat they gonna meet up, n cant wait for the day to come.
my oz pal made mi excited abt going over. but i know, as the day draws near, i'll be equally excited 1. n we share the excitement.
aiyo... jisluat. for sure. cos tis month i sure will overspend the min amt set by ocbc. i think i'll realy switch my acct. to the 1 min 500$ oni. close my acct n open new 1. on the day i leaving... wah... teh time is here!!!!!! i'm hadingot OZ!!!!
gonna chill out wif my kakis!!!!!! long live.... singaporeans!!!!!!!1
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
nothign to update at all for my interviews.. wait till good news den i write.
i dun really feel good. i gave my mum to tell my bro 2 options. 1 is continue the plan, 1 is upgrade the plan. u know wat? she say, she will pay for bro share when he move out. i was really feeling bad. bro will be married in coming jun. den for the internet, if he's gonna move out, he cant use it n i dun wan bear the full cost. so i ask my mum to check. see if he wanna sign on, and pay 1 yr, or d/c. den my mum took the ez way out, by helping him pay. wah liao!!!!!!!!!!!
on my way home, i was.. weeping.. i duno if i shld feel sad or angry. sad cos... i mnea, both cos she took the ez way out n dun wan anythign unhappy to happen. i think i'll bear the burden in the end.. perhaps i'll check with pacnet abt it, n get a good bargain... i really thinking this on way home: she jus wan everythign to stay in harmony. ending up she pyaing for it. n i dun wan see her suffer, so i most probably will pay instead.
i was oso thnking... y is everyone so keen to let ppl see blogs? to promote his living? to let ppl understand or wat? do u show ur blog / personal to ppl voluntarily?
n i decided liao. renting 3 sets of vcd for 15$ n burn is ok loh... sicne got 3 vcd to rent... shld b worth it.
ever tried putfile.com?? publicity stunt lah...
i dun really feel good. i gave my mum to tell my bro 2 options. 1 is continue the plan, 1 is upgrade the plan. u know wat? she say, she will pay for bro share when he move out. i was really feeling bad. bro will be married in coming jun. den for the internet, if he's gonna move out, he cant use it n i dun wan bear the full cost. so i ask my mum to check. see if he wanna sign on, and pay 1 yr, or d/c. den my mum took the ez way out, by helping him pay. wah liao!!!!!!!!!!!
on my way home, i was.. weeping.. i duno if i shld feel sad or angry. sad cos... i mnea, both cos she took the ez way out n dun wan anythign unhappy to happen. i think i'll bear the burden in the end.. perhaps i'll check with pacnet abt it, n get a good bargain... i really thinking this on way home: she jus wan everythign to stay in harmony. ending up she pyaing for it. n i dun wan see her suffer, so i most probably will pay instead.
i was oso thnking... y is everyone so keen to let ppl see blogs? to promote his living? to let ppl understand or wat? do u show ur blog / personal to ppl voluntarily?
n i decided liao. renting 3 sets of vcd for 15$ n burn is ok loh... sicne got 3 vcd to rent... shld b worth it.
ever tried putfile.com?? publicity stunt lah...
Sunday, December 11, 2005
nothing much to write... except for 1 thing... den since i writing, might as well fnish watever bla bla i wanna blog
i really wanna weep...... n i did weep.
"JACKIE!!! KOR KOR MISS U!!!!!"
i took my dinner, n was walking back up to my blk. den, a woman was taking her dog for a walk. it's small dog. by the size, it's cute. den, the dog started to run off. the ger den was running after/with it. i felt so deja vu!!! my dog, jackie, usually will oso run off, n i will chase it while holding its leash!! the dog ran, i ran after it. the scenario seem to jus come back (jackie, i really miss u.......) i immediately felt it's my dog running, n i am chasing it!! the feeling is so immense!! i can't ctrl myself. my wallet is in my left hand, n i was clenching it. real hard. even the ring on my thumb was pressed hard onto my wallet. i felt the pain, but i din care. the dog has crossed the traffic.
i followed, but somehow i lost track of the dog.... i frantically looked around for its movement. nothign. i felt jackie has just left mi for the 2nd time...
i really wanna weep...... n i did weep.
"JACKIE!!! KOR KOR MISS U!!!!!"
i took my dinner, n was walking back up to my blk. den, a woman was taking her dog for a walk. it's small dog. by the size, it's cute. den, the dog started to run off. the ger den was running after/with it. i felt so deja vu!!! my dog, jackie, usually will oso run off, n i will chase it while holding its leash!! the dog ran, i ran after it. the scenario seem to jus come back (jackie, i really miss u.......) i immediately felt it's my dog running, n i am chasing it!! the feeling is so immense!! i can't ctrl myself. my wallet is in my left hand, n i was clenching it. real hard. even the ring on my thumb was pressed hard onto my wallet. i felt the pain, but i din care. the dog has crossed the traffic.
i followed, but somehow i lost track of the dog.... i frantically looked around for its movement. nothign. i felt jackie has just left mi for the 2nd time...
Saturday, December 10, 2005
fri is quite a fun 1.. haha.. office work, not fun. but my acting quite funny.
ok, KK.. as mentioned, is getting some "snr" attitude issue. den my sup, today, found a chance to tok to him. wah liao way... for mi hor, i prefer a direct n face-face tok. but if the sup went up n told him our comments, wun it become like, we r frnly n supportive in front of him, but we reported abt his manners/attitude to sup? where is the openness? is it really so hard to speak openly in office? every1 has certain issues with themselves. wat's wrong wif bringing thigns up to tok? we r all supposed to make the workplace an enjoyable 1. but if we gossip, n backstab, where is the true frnship/fun?
anyway, had a tok wif the new ger. we kinda open to each other lah. as in, i really took the chance to open up myself slightly (read: non-aj side) to her. n i made some jokes in office. KK was wearing xmas hat. he made it str8 up like a cone. i saw it, n said "someone's erected". LOL... den hor, later i gave him a small plastic cover. he "gobbled" it down. den he say he wanna see my mp3 player. i passed to him, n said "it's too big for ur throat lah".. den the office jus say, "too big?? wat u doing?? *shrugs* oh well, it's a friday..."
den, have i said tis b4? abt fri itnerview?? i think i did. ok. i went for the interview str8. wah kau.. when i was at the destination mrt, i was walking up the escalator, n saw a boy. haha, at the same time, i'm lookin for my place mah, den... unwittingly, i was following the boy... for a distance.. but i din forget i muz look for my place oso. =D following a while, i was looking at my hp msg, suddenly, someone jus came up to stand directly behind the boy. i felt tat's so over reactive n kay poh. it's not those slowly move to tat position, but tat person is walking fast, n stop there. but soon, i realise tat, a bangla was following mi, den change to walk beside mi. at tat pt, i felt VERY STRANGE. a boy walking in front, 2 guys behind him....... wah lia, i immediately siamzzz n overtook the boy.
den later, i still managed to find the plc lah. haha, i got to the office 40 mins earlier. but i saw 2 indians b4 mi siazz... the interviewer is like a bubbly fella. he saw my cert, n tok wif mi abt wat job i looking for. i said java jobs. say abt my java dream. den he said, my cert helped mi a lot. i was happy. den he din ask anythign else... cos seem like my java cert really told a lot fo thigns abt mi. i feel confident of getting this job. if confirmed, 2nd interview is next fri.
after tat, went to meet frn to party. on teh mrt.. wah... wat's happening siazz??! i boarded train. saw tat the center got space, so i moved in. den i saw a nice looking dude, so i turned myself to kinda face him. later our sides got seats liao, so we sat opposite each other. i was still looking at him. den somehow, a fat ass came up, moved in a monkey manner, n stood in such way he block my view from the dude. DAMN!!! den all teh while, no chance to see him. fwe stops away, the ass left, n i thot will finalyl have a good chance to see him. den wah liao, antoher guy jus.. .so boliao stand in the same position.
when time for mi to alight, the dude went for left side door. hehe,i got up n wanna follow. den the person who stood in front of mi waved. it's my frn haha.
den later, went to the party. wah... long time no club... a bit not used to how it shld go. queueing to enter, there are some students entering.. wah liao, how i wish, those boys, they r topless in a room siazz.........
inside there, i took my frn up n down to explore, had soem drinks while waiting for party to start. same scene. the ppl on the dance flr not dancing at all. waiting for either good music, or someone to start the ball rolling, asian attitude. we went down there. waited for a while, no 1 dancing still. n my frn dun wan start. got 2 guys dancing separately though...
den.. to start my frn..... i went down to dance!!!!!!! i got down theer, n started moving about tot he beat!!!! hahaha.... it's so daring n fun!!!! even got ppl cheering for my courage!!!! i even gestured my frn to come up to the dance floor!!! n ppl still cheering!!!! n guess wat, when my frn hesitated, i went up to ask drag him along, the cheering stopped. LOL........
den i jus danced to wat n how i wan, since no 1 dancing at all. den 1 guy joined in. he good at dancing oso. haha, was impressed by his steps siazz... i'm actually surprised by how daring i'm to start dancing. influenced by the vodka-7up?? or i relaly relaxed n cool liao? i realyl have the whole dance flr to myself, so i can try any crazy moves i can think of LOL... know wat, the guy even exchange hp wif mi siazz.. he's bad at eng, but ... try to initiate cha twif mi though. n hor, wah so funny... when my frn jus stuck himself to a pillar, dun wanna dance, i went up to him, n danced before him, luring him to start oso.. haha.. i think tat's really veli daring in a str8/public club.
den later, we went up to 2nd flr.. the music is pop type.. or r&b? felt so awkward to dance to such slow music siazz... cant change my style so fast.. took a while. for those kids, they danced widly to the beats. mi? i moved slowly to the pace :) they usually jus move the body left/right, mi? i shrugged, shook n did soem movements wif my body haha.. n hor, got a guy wearing a white LOW CUT white top. wah.... delicious... hahah. on way home, saw an argument btwn taxi drv n 3 passengers. dunnow at happened, they drive to a corner, den the leader from the gang exchanging vulgarities with the drv. the leader is kinda tall, have the body but dun think hunk yet. i was wondering.. how will he look if he's tied up? he'll really b POW hahah..
ok, KK.. as mentioned, is getting some "snr" attitude issue. den my sup, today, found a chance to tok to him. wah liao way... for mi hor, i prefer a direct n face-face tok. but if the sup went up n told him our comments, wun it become like, we r frnly n supportive in front of him, but we reported abt his manners/attitude to sup? where is the openness? is it really so hard to speak openly in office? every1 has certain issues with themselves. wat's wrong wif bringing thigns up to tok? we r all supposed to make the workplace an enjoyable 1. but if we gossip, n backstab, where is the true frnship/fun?
anyway, had a tok wif the new ger. we kinda open to each other lah. as in, i really took the chance to open up myself slightly (read: non-aj side) to her. n i made some jokes in office. KK was wearing xmas hat. he made it str8 up like a cone. i saw it, n said "someone's erected". LOL... den hor, later i gave him a small plastic cover. he "gobbled" it down. den he say he wanna see my mp3 player. i passed to him, n said "it's too big for ur throat lah".. den the office jus say, "too big?? wat u doing?? *shrugs* oh well, it's a friday..."
den, have i said tis b4? abt fri itnerview?? i think i did. ok. i went for the interview str8. wah kau.. when i was at the destination mrt, i was walking up the escalator, n saw a boy. haha, at the same time, i'm lookin for my place mah, den... unwittingly, i was following the boy... for a distance.. but i din forget i muz look for my place oso. =D following a while, i was looking at my hp msg, suddenly, someone jus came up to stand directly behind the boy. i felt tat's so over reactive n kay poh. it's not those slowly move to tat position, but tat person is walking fast, n stop there. but soon, i realise tat, a bangla was following mi, den change to walk beside mi. at tat pt, i felt VERY STRANGE. a boy walking in front, 2 guys behind him....... wah lia, i immediately siamzzz n overtook the boy.
den later, i still managed to find the plc lah. haha, i got to the office 40 mins earlier. but i saw 2 indians b4 mi siazz... the interviewer is like a bubbly fella. he saw my cert, n tok wif mi abt wat job i looking for. i said java jobs. say abt my java dream. den he said, my cert helped mi a lot. i was happy. den he din ask anythign else... cos seem like my java cert really told a lot fo thigns abt mi. i feel confident of getting this job. if confirmed, 2nd interview is next fri.
after tat, went to meet frn to party. on teh mrt.. wah... wat's happening siazz??! i boarded train. saw tat the center got space, so i moved in. den i saw a nice looking dude, so i turned myself to kinda face him. later our sides got seats liao, so we sat opposite each other. i was still looking at him. den somehow, a fat ass came up, moved in a monkey manner, n stood in such way he block my view from the dude. DAMN!!! den all teh while, no chance to see him. fwe stops away, the ass left, n i thot will finalyl have a good chance to see him. den wah liao, antoher guy jus.. .so boliao stand in the same position.
when time for mi to alight, the dude went for left side door. hehe,i got up n wanna follow. den the person who stood in front of mi waved. it's my frn haha.
den later, went to the party. wah... long time no club... a bit not used to how it shld go. queueing to enter, there are some students entering.. wah liao, how i wish, those boys, they r topless in a room siazz.........
inside there, i took my frn up n down to explore, had soem drinks while waiting for party to start. same scene. the ppl on the dance flr not dancing at all. waiting for either good music, or someone to start the ball rolling, asian attitude. we went down there. waited for a while, no 1 dancing still. n my frn dun wan start. got 2 guys dancing separately though...
den.. to start my frn..... i went down to dance!!!!!!! i got down theer, n started moving about tot he beat!!!! hahaha.... it's so daring n fun!!!! even got ppl cheering for my courage!!!! i even gestured my frn to come up to the dance floor!!! n ppl still cheering!!!! n guess wat, when my frn hesitated, i went up to ask drag him along, the cheering stopped. LOL........
den i jus danced to wat n how i wan, since no 1 dancing at all. den 1 guy joined in. he good at dancing oso. haha, was impressed by his steps siazz... i'm actually surprised by how daring i'm to start dancing. influenced by the vodka-7up?? or i relaly relaxed n cool liao? i realyl have the whole dance flr to myself, so i can try any crazy moves i can think of LOL... know wat, the guy even exchange hp wif mi siazz.. he's bad at eng, but ... try to initiate cha twif mi though. n hor, wah so funny... when my frn jus stuck himself to a pillar, dun wanna dance, i went up to him, n danced before him, luring him to start oso.. haha.. i think tat's really veli daring in a str8/public club.
den later, we went up to 2nd flr.. the music is pop type.. or r&b? felt so awkward to dance to such slow music siazz... cant change my style so fast.. took a while. for those kids, they danced widly to the beats. mi? i moved slowly to the pace :) they usually jus move the body left/right, mi? i shrugged, shook n did soem movements wif my body haha.. n hor, got a guy wearing a white LOW CUT white top. wah.... delicious... hahah. on way home, saw an argument btwn taxi drv n 3 passengers. dunnow at happened, they drive to a corner, den the leader from the gang exchanging vulgarities with the drv. the leader is kinda tall, have the body but dun think hunk yet. i was wondering.. how will he look if he's tied up? he'll really b POW hahah..
Thursday, December 08, 2005
is it a stroke of good luck for year end?
i din have much time to catch up wif my frns few mths back due to my java exams. den towards end of yr, i experience a few things.
1) some ppl called mi up to meet. 1 person, who is attached (kinda), ask mi out often. even inviting mi to ktv, zoukout, n wanna go wif mi to diner wif a group of aj frns.
2) my sec frns r meeting up tis sunday. den the dinner wif the aj group is set to sunday oso. so i told the sec frns. they set to sun lunch. meaning, i'll b skipping family bfast, go sec frn lunch appt, den go dinner for the aj grp. a pretty packed wkend for mi, considering sat is my personal day when i get to do my things n clear maiols... n possibly porn catch up. den sunday is the time i use to catch up wif frns.
3) the oz ger, my pal ie, i usualy quite scared to tok to her, yes scared. cos she usually will give a bystander pov n give logical explanations. kinda like wanna tok cock wif her, she will jus "......." reply. n cos her tinking, as i said, is much matured than mi, she always overrules mi in watever i tell her, n kinda like, if she's troubled, watever i wanna say to her, she most probably has thot of tat oredi. so instead of helping/counselling/consoling, more like surface sharing n "u dun understand" kinda chat session.
but last night, i asked wat she wanna mi get for her, she again blasted mi off abt the selling price of asian vcd drama. well, she never fail to make mi think. hahah.
4) i applied for some jobs lah. den, tmr (9th dec) i got another interview. i had intended to tell them, i had a bday celeb party n need go off earlier at 4pm, if noting much to do. was oredi tinking abt it ytday (wednes) n was thinking if i shld bring it up today. luckily i din!!!! during lunch, the boss came in n tell us, company having dinner n dance. so we oso get to go off earlier at 3pm!! wah ku man!! n frankly, tis job i currently doing 1, the interview oso was impromptu 1. i din take any leave/off in my ex-job to go interview. n i got the job. den tis fri 1, i oso so qiao, got company off.
5) i supposed to get a vcd from my ns buddy's frn. tat frn say will meet mi over lunch to give mi buddy's gift, n will confirm lunch appt wif mi. but 2 days liao, no reply. haha. if he dun wan pass to mi, i bochap. speaking of tis, i have yet to exchange my oz $$, buy disposable briefs. n buy bks for my oz pals. haha, veli qiao hor, both pals r in perth. away from mi at the same time. is this a period fated for mi to grow n mature myself? to prepare for a good future? ;)
6) recently, i got a compliment letter from user. a simple thing, but it was made big. published in website even. n the news was even sent to our CEO. i wonder if he(CEO) will find odd if i quit, n b adviser instead siazz.. or will he take note? den, today, another user came to thx mi for my help n etc. haha... well, my mind is set liao. leave tis place.
7) for my first interview, i oni zapped a copy of my scp cert, n dip. i have taken the classes n exams for other java stuff oso. but din pass it to the company. tis may reflect bad on mi loh. so for fri interview, i'll pass a copy of all nec docx!!! firet interview at SLS there. 2nd interview (fri 1), ard bugis there. 3rd at jur area.
8) is 1.8 really so good? after i lowered my $$ from 2.2 - 2k, den to a final 1.8, 3 positions came up so far. cheap? ya, can say so. wah liao. even got ppl say, from my current 1.5, it's a big jump to 1.8k, even doe i dun have exp. gosh, i got a cert ok, n tis cert is a programer cert, not jus anyhow cope 1 ok. dun compare helpdesk wif the java job. helpdesk is low level. jva is more adv.
i din have much time to catch up wif my frns few mths back due to my java exams. den towards end of yr, i experience a few things.
1) some ppl called mi up to meet. 1 person, who is attached (kinda), ask mi out often. even inviting mi to ktv, zoukout, n wanna go wif mi to diner wif a group of aj frns.
2) my sec frns r meeting up tis sunday. den the dinner wif the aj group is set to sunday oso. so i told the sec frns. they set to sun lunch. meaning, i'll b skipping family bfast, go sec frn lunch appt, den go dinner for the aj grp. a pretty packed wkend for mi, considering sat is my personal day when i get to do my things n clear maiols... n possibly porn catch up. den sunday is the time i use to catch up wif frns.
3) the oz ger, my pal ie, i usualy quite scared to tok to her, yes scared. cos she usually will give a bystander pov n give logical explanations. kinda like wanna tok cock wif her, she will jus "......." reply. n cos her tinking, as i said, is much matured than mi, she always overrules mi in watever i tell her, n kinda like, if she's troubled, watever i wanna say to her, she most probably has thot of tat oredi. so instead of helping/counselling/consoling, more like surface sharing n "u dun understand" kinda chat session.
but last night, i asked wat she wanna mi get for her, she again blasted mi off abt the selling price of asian vcd drama. well, she never fail to make mi think. hahah.
4) i applied for some jobs lah. den, tmr (9th dec) i got another interview. i had intended to tell them, i had a bday celeb party n need go off earlier at 4pm, if noting much to do. was oredi tinking abt it ytday (wednes) n was thinking if i shld bring it up today. luckily i din!!!! during lunch, the boss came in n tell us, company having dinner n dance. so we oso get to go off earlier at 3pm!! wah ku man!! n frankly, tis job i currently doing 1, the interview oso was impromptu 1. i din take any leave/off in my ex-job to go interview. n i got the job. den tis fri 1, i oso so qiao, got company off.
5) i supposed to get a vcd from my ns buddy's frn. tat frn say will meet mi over lunch to give mi buddy's gift, n will confirm lunch appt wif mi. but 2 days liao, no reply. haha. if he dun wan pass to mi, i bochap. speaking of tis, i have yet to exchange my oz $$, buy disposable briefs. n buy bks for my oz pals. haha, veli qiao hor, both pals r in perth. away from mi at the same time. is this a period fated for mi to grow n mature myself? to prepare for a good future? ;)
6) recently, i got a compliment letter from user. a simple thing, but it was made big. published in website even. n the news was even sent to our CEO. i wonder if he(CEO) will find odd if i quit, n b adviser instead siazz.. or will he take note? den, today, another user came to thx mi for my help n etc. haha... well, my mind is set liao. leave tis place.
7) for my first interview, i oni zapped a copy of my scp cert, n dip. i have taken the classes n exams for other java stuff oso. but din pass it to the company. tis may reflect bad on mi loh. so for fri interview, i'll pass a copy of all nec docx!!! firet interview at SLS there. 2nd interview (fri 1), ard bugis there. 3rd at jur area.
8) is 1.8 really so good? after i lowered my $$ from 2.2 - 2k, den to a final 1.8, 3 positions came up so far. cheap? ya, can say so. wah liao. even got ppl say, from my current 1.5, it's a big jump to 1.8k, even doe i dun have exp. gosh, i got a cert ok, n tis cert is a programer cert, not jus anyhow cope 1 ok. dun compare helpdesk wif the java job. helpdesk is low level. jva is more adv.
Monday, December 05, 2005
some TRIVIAL UPDATES.
1) got 1 day, a work attire was badly crumpled, n i din bother to soften it b4 i iron. so still some lines here/there. i went to buy my lunch, the auntie ask who iron the shirt 1. i hesitated. cos i know it's ugly... n untidy. she ask again. i say mi. she praised mi, saying kids these days dun iron clothes at all. i was thinking, is she being frank or trying to poh mi?
2) thse 2 days, i dun see the ger's column anymore... n somehow, MB's column oso gone?? haha, i decided tat, if her column still apepar, i gonna skip it. immature comments is wat i can describe it as. comparing to nelson (the disabled person), his comments r really unbiased n reflecting wat's ahppening in the society. not simply complaining and making use of the nation-read paper to make a fuss of nothing.
some serious update
been updating regularly in my blog. but 2 regs din update mi on their status? dearies william, n oz pal. din hear anythign from them for a long time. for the ger, i can "check her out" in her blog.
" i'm allergic to ppl who wear contacts lenses..." oh... dun really, u wun have any chance of touching mi.. so, ur allergy wun happen :D, unless u have some hanky panky idea at nights??
"legthargic " wah ur msg so long.. i dun bother to copy ur whole line. ya, finding java jobs, which requires a professional level of understanding in order to do the jbo well. i'm alright lah, jus some reflections jotted down every now n den... now i gearing up for my xmas trip!!!
"it's full of singlish matie." well, i'm a true blur singaporean, who have no wish to be affected by accents of other countries n retain my roots. Singlish is Singapore's English. haha, but if u mean, got lotsa typo, tat's another thing lah. well, i dun wanna correct the spellings as long the words still make sense lah.
"omg...u are actually into jj lin?" nope, but i find he's better than SYZ. she rose due to her personality. her voice plays a smaller part. did she win awards from Taiwan singing awards?
at work, i still doing my part, n din ask for 2 much. confided some things in the new ger. n wat's funny is that, now tat KK is a snr, compared to new ger, he's starting to show attitude n demands towards the new ger. hahah... 2 things which i took note: the ger came in ask something, he commented "so 1 wk already, n starting to show attitude?" n oso, KK was... tidying himself up, ger commented "wah so vain ah?" he replied "jus tidying up, not vain". is there certain friction?
seem like, KK, having passed his CSO probation, has some standard for the ger, kinda like, "since i am able to do tis std, u shld too. u shld not commit mistakes tat i din".
monday, dun really rmb much of wat happened. jus tat, i kept on updating the team on wat happening to the connections. felt so much like the HP days, when the communication n coordination is much beter. sharing watever info we have, n letting every1 know. den i told the new ger, i going for interview today, n she'll know how i am intending to go..
this morning, i oredi planned liao. feigned sick. got thru the morning, n went for mc. felt pretty hungry siazz... n wah liao, my med subsidy really no more liao. ehhe, is it a secret? cos i realise tat, ppl who live in the neighbourhood, usually have low EQ. let's say, they sitting at a table. no space liao, u join at their table, but sit a lil distance from them. u eat n look up from time to time. den they thot y u keep looking up, n peep at u. i bochap them n keep eating. den they.. slap the table surface hard. 1 guy even flung his metal spooon away siazz..
sighzzz... have i really grown wif the yrs? cos, nowadays, those teens really look great by the day. most ppl know how to care for their facial liao. look good. but i wonder if i'm easily turned on by topless guys. maybe long time din see ppl stripping... hahaha... the interview quite ok... the agency din tell mi, but as i reach the place, i was kinda prepared tat i will be tested on practical programming. but hor, i failed to meet my stds.
the test was for mi to write a program tat guess a number tat the user is thinking of. the user response wif "bigger" or "smaller". n i adjust my guess accordingly. run the program till the guess is correct. gosh, i spent 20 mins searchign internet for info, 20 mins to code, n 20 mins to troubleshoot. 30 mins more than my std.
lastly, I'M INFATUATED WIF CH U CONTESTANTS!!!!
1) got 1 day, a work attire was badly crumpled, n i din bother to soften it b4 i iron. so still some lines here/there. i went to buy my lunch, the auntie ask who iron the shirt 1. i hesitated. cos i know it's ugly... n untidy. she ask again. i say mi. she praised mi, saying kids these days dun iron clothes at all. i was thinking, is she being frank or trying to poh mi?
2) thse 2 days, i dun see the ger's column anymore... n somehow, MB's column oso gone?? haha, i decided tat, if her column still apepar, i gonna skip it. immature comments is wat i can describe it as. comparing to nelson (the disabled person), his comments r really unbiased n reflecting wat's ahppening in the society. not simply complaining and making use of the nation-read paper to make a fuss of nothing.
some serious update
been updating regularly in my blog. but 2 regs din update mi on their status? dearies william, n oz pal. din hear anythign from them for a long time. for the ger, i can "check her out" in her blog.
" i'm allergic to ppl who wear contacts lenses..." oh... dun really, u wun have any chance of touching mi.. so, ur allergy wun happen :D, unless u have some hanky panky idea at nights??
"legthargic " wah ur msg so long.. i dun bother to copy ur whole line. ya, finding java jobs, which requires a professional level of understanding in order to do the jbo well. i'm alright lah, jus some reflections jotted down every now n den... now i gearing up for my xmas trip!!!
"it's full of singlish matie." well, i'm a true blur singaporean, who have no wish to be affected by accents of other countries n retain my roots. Singlish is Singapore's English. haha, but if u mean, got lotsa typo, tat's another thing lah. well, i dun wanna correct the spellings as long the words still make sense lah.
"omg...u are actually into jj lin?" nope, but i find he's better than SYZ. she rose due to her personality. her voice plays a smaller part. did she win awards from Taiwan singing awards?
at work, i still doing my part, n din ask for 2 much. confided some things in the new ger. n wat's funny is that, now tat KK is a snr, compared to new ger, he's starting to show attitude n demands towards the new ger. hahah... 2 things which i took note: the ger came in ask something, he commented "so 1 wk already, n starting to show attitude?" n oso, KK was... tidying himself up, ger commented "wah so vain ah?" he replied "jus tidying up, not vain". is there certain friction?
seem like, KK, having passed his CSO probation, has some standard for the ger, kinda like, "since i am able to do tis std, u shld too. u shld not commit mistakes tat i din".
monday, dun really rmb much of wat happened. jus tat, i kept on updating the team on wat happening to the connections. felt so much like the HP days, when the communication n coordination is much beter. sharing watever info we have, n letting every1 know. den i told the new ger, i going for interview today, n she'll know how i am intending to go..
this morning, i oredi planned liao. feigned sick. got thru the morning, n went for mc. felt pretty hungry siazz... n wah liao, my med subsidy really no more liao. ehhe, is it a secret? cos i realise tat, ppl who live in the neighbourhood, usually have low EQ. let's say, they sitting at a table. no space liao, u join at their table, but sit a lil distance from them. u eat n look up from time to time. den they thot y u keep looking up, n peep at u. i bochap them n keep eating. den they.. slap the table surface hard. 1 guy even flung his metal spooon away siazz..
sighzzz... have i really grown wif the yrs? cos, nowadays, those teens really look great by the day. most ppl know how to care for their facial liao. look good. but i wonder if i'm easily turned on by topless guys. maybe long time din see ppl stripping... hahaha... the interview quite ok... the agency din tell mi, but as i reach the place, i was kinda prepared tat i will be tested on practical programming. but hor, i failed to meet my stds.
the test was for mi to write a program tat guess a number tat the user is thinking of. the user response wif "bigger" or "smaller". n i adjust my guess accordingly. run the program till the guess is correct. gosh, i spent 20 mins searchign internet for info, 20 mins to code, n 20 mins to troubleshoot. 30 mins more than my std.
lastly, I'M INFATUATED WIF CH U CONTESTANTS!!!!
Sunday, December 04, 2005
MCS TV AWARDS!!!! left, a staff walking fann wong out. he's good looking. centre is julian hee. i can't blif he lost in the newcomer race so fast!!!!! where is our PLU POWER??!?!?! right, is adam chen... umm, i dunno if he's up for any nominations, but glad he's there!!!! LOVE U GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!! :heart:
my last blog is abt deciding whether to go dinner anot...
ok, den sat, i went swimming. wah liao.. damn barbaric acts siazz!!! had 2 encounters.. the guys simply bochap who is swimming across their path, n simply wnana swim their own path, without caring if any1 is oredi swimming. 1 guy's body bumped on my head. another 1 simply swam right in front of mi, until i punched him lightly, n even coughed. sighzz.. den some kids.. ya kids, they oso jus swim watever way they wan... anyway, i jus give way as muhc as i can... but hor, wah, ok,, frankly, i din wash my hair last night, den during the swim, my slightly oily hair become veli dry siazz.. wah, chlorine really dry up my hair...
den took a bath. funny leh. i was at the last cubicle n my bag was directly outside mi. a guy came in, hung his bag on the book above my bag, n put kid's float beside my bag. wah liao.. but hor, haha, ok lah, as i dressing up in the bathroom, a boy (sec sch age) was changing drying body n waiting his frn, but he was facing my side siazz!!! i look at his body every now n den. din do anything at all. jus keep looking.
den being an observant singaporean, on my way to the bday thingy, a ger beside mi was rubbing her arm. i saw the a/c was blowing her, so i asked if she's cold. haha, i know it's weird of locals, but well, y not b frnly? n i fianlly, understand y dinners can b the ice breaker... wif 2 ppl who i seldom tok, i joked n chatted a bit loh.. but of cos mus b ready to chat, n dun b so quiet lah.. e meal was interesting... bu5 1 sad thing. cos camera's flash will kill the ambience, i din use it. den the snr blurted out "wat camera u using?? how come no flash 1?" wah liao way. wat she tryignt o say????? den i told them, having flash kill ambience...
den headed down to get my free gifts. hang on. i took "Today" papers n read it. i really... wonder wat's the purpose of getting ppl to write columns. for them to write unbiased views, or for them to complain, or treat it as a plc to say watever they wan, since some r popular in certain way...
a ger is a regular columnist. i dunno y she is. did Today pay her? watever she write, she jus criticise tis/tat. saying those disabled toilets r spacious, nice to use. come on, r u disabled enuff to use 1? n pls, wheelchairs TAKE UP SPACE. y nto u say, why r roads so wide, but pedestrians' pavement is so narrow?? even xmas deco oso comment, tat ppl r alright with "corporate advertisement, oops, deco". come on!!! decos r meant to brighten up the place!!! the companies DO take the chance to advertise!!
btu i'm impressed by Mr brown's way of replying n commenting. it's really a VAST diff btwn the qualities. although MB toks a lot in singlish, he can still use proper english whcih i could not really comprehend.
ok, back to gifts. sighzz, disappointing. canon a520 hor, eat batt VELI VELI FAST. the guy who tended to mi, stood in a listening posture. almost like army style "senangdi ri". almost like "his crotch can be grabbed anytime" hahaah... den went to get my lens. wah, long time never wear. took a while to get used to the "extra thing inside my eyes". n hor, the staf really quite.. knowledgeable. she shoqwed mi a container whcih has holes, explaning the holes r for hydro peroxide to escape. umm.
finally, went for my haircut!!!! i think std price for mi liao. cut + color + highlight + txtmt = 159$$. am i sensitive? cos these days, when i go there, the shop oni give mi men's health to read hahaha... ya ya, all those gorgeous bods to ogle over. n hor, haha, the stylist was guding mi how to style my hair,
i blurted "wah, u like to play wif my hair hor?"
she stunned, i say "i cant even get so many styles siazz"
my meaning was "u like to play wif my hair hor? can make so many styles"
den when the hairdo over, hehe, i greeted a few other stylist who helped mi b4. even a wel built guy, oso greeted mi, n i greeted back.
now, wif my new hair, contact lens, bluetooth, i'm ready to rock n enjoy xmas!!!!!
got home nothing much to do. watch vids n things. dreaming of a hunk for mi to enjoy wif... n doing foreplay now n den, to keep mi high, but not to JO, so tat i still in the mood. wanna sleep early lei... but, wanna watch amei on tv.
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next morning, ie today morning. wore my lens. den a frn msg mi if wanna lunch tonight. i was deciding. den went for family bfast. tis time, i'm sure i put to good use wat i read from the EQ guidance book!!!
daddy ordered noodles for us. den he din ask for "1 plate no chilli". when the dish came, i ask which 1 no chilli. the person blur. daddy jus say "more or less, sure got chilli 1..." i know wat happened liao. so i jus ate the noodles. it's spicy. so i finished the meat oni. daddy den say "dun wan liao? eat so little. give the stall a bad name. if u wan, say earlier lah, den ask for exchange".
i was stunned. but din say anything. he was jus grumbling n dun wanna admit his mistake. den i ordered chicken rice. i know it's self svc. but i dun wan use my money. i went back to sit. later, when it's ready, i ask my dad for money (it's family bfast mah). haha, scheming mi hor?
den later on, went to meet a fridae guy (again fridae hor?). he's another chatty mate. not sure if can b listener anot... but oso, he's a... soft or sissy person loh. m i critical to say such things?? n hor, these days, been meeting up wif ppl who i dun have any interest in... haha... dunno y oso. but at least i realise... if ppl like u, den they will try to tok a lot to u, keeping u entertained.
den on way home, wah liao. i reallty dun understand some times. a crowded bus. i listening to mp3, lip-syncing the words. a guy ... 30+ ugly guy sitting while i standing. i'm holding on to his hand rails. den he put his hand near the plc i grab the rails. i retreated my hands. den later, he put other hand over his own to move nearer to my hands. wah liao.................. i stared at him. den let go to hold the bar hanging from the bus roof.
the tv awards hor... DISAPPOINTING. HOW COME JULIAN KICKED OUT SO FAST?????????? N PAN LING LING AS WELL....... DEN my mum was commenting tat, our President was lowering his position by presenting an entertainment award to fann wong. but i see it diff'ly. fann wong, although i dun like her, i admire her capability n ... luck? cos she did do singapore proud by appearing in international events, letting ppl know abt us, n perhaps inviting .... biz into here? so i think president was shwoing his appreciation. i say president, cos i dunno how to address a political figure in my blog
------------- sleep liao./// tues got interview. i checked 2 places for the price of laminating my java cert. 1 is $3, 1 is $2.5. haha... den tmr wear lens*
ok, den sat, i went swimming. wah liao.. damn barbaric acts siazz!!! had 2 encounters.. the guys simply bochap who is swimming across their path, n simply wnana swim their own path, without caring if any1 is oredi swimming. 1 guy's body bumped on my head. another 1 simply swam right in front of mi, until i punched him lightly, n even coughed. sighzz.. den some kids.. ya kids, they oso jus swim watever way they wan... anyway, i jus give way as muhc as i can... but hor, wah, ok,, frankly, i din wash my hair last night, den during the swim, my slightly oily hair become veli dry siazz.. wah, chlorine really dry up my hair...
den took a bath. funny leh. i was at the last cubicle n my bag was directly outside mi. a guy came in, hung his bag on the book above my bag, n put kid's float beside my bag. wah liao.. but hor, haha, ok lah, as i dressing up in the bathroom, a boy (sec sch age) was changing drying body n waiting his frn, but he was facing my side siazz!!! i look at his body every now n den. din do anything at all. jus keep looking.
den being an observant singaporean, on my way to the bday thingy, a ger beside mi was rubbing her arm. i saw the a/c was blowing her, so i asked if she's cold. haha, i know it's weird of locals, but well, y not b frnly? n i fianlly, understand y dinners can b the ice breaker... wif 2 ppl who i seldom tok, i joked n chatted a bit loh.. but of cos mus b ready to chat, n dun b so quiet lah.. e meal was interesting... bu5 1 sad thing. cos camera's flash will kill the ambience, i din use it. den the snr blurted out "wat camera u using?? how come no flash 1?" wah liao way. wat she tryignt o say????? den i told them, having flash kill ambience...
den headed down to get my free gifts. hang on. i took "Today" papers n read it. i really... wonder wat's the purpose of getting ppl to write columns. for them to write unbiased views, or for them to complain, or treat it as a plc to say watever they wan, since some r popular in certain way...
a ger is a regular columnist. i dunno y she is. did Today pay her? watever she write, she jus criticise tis/tat. saying those disabled toilets r spacious, nice to use. come on, r u disabled enuff to use 1? n pls, wheelchairs TAKE UP SPACE. y nto u say, why r roads so wide, but pedestrians' pavement is so narrow?? even xmas deco oso comment, tat ppl r alright with "corporate advertisement, oops, deco". come on!!! decos r meant to brighten up the place!!! the companies DO take the chance to advertise!!
btu i'm impressed by Mr brown's way of replying n commenting. it's really a VAST diff btwn the qualities. although MB toks a lot in singlish, he can still use proper english whcih i could not really comprehend.
ok, back to gifts. sighzz, disappointing. canon a520 hor, eat batt VELI VELI FAST. the guy who tended to mi, stood in a listening posture. almost like army style "senangdi ri". almost like "his crotch can be grabbed anytime" hahaah... den went to get my lens. wah, long time never wear. took a while to get used to the "extra thing inside my eyes". n hor, the staf really quite.. knowledgeable. she shoqwed mi a container whcih has holes, explaning the holes r for hydro peroxide to escape. umm.
finally, went for my haircut!!!! i think std price for mi liao. cut + color + highlight + txtmt = 159$$. am i sensitive? cos these days, when i go there, the shop oni give mi men's health to read hahaha... ya ya, all those gorgeous bods to ogle over. n hor, haha, the stylist was guding mi how to style my hair,
i blurted "wah, u like to play wif my hair hor?"
she stunned, i say "i cant even get so many styles siazz"
my meaning was "u like to play wif my hair hor? can make so many styles"
den when the hairdo over, hehe, i greeted a few other stylist who helped mi b4. even a wel built guy, oso greeted mi, n i greeted back.
now, wif my new hair, contact lens, bluetooth, i'm ready to rock n enjoy xmas!!!!!
got home nothing much to do. watch vids n things. dreaming of a hunk for mi to enjoy wif... n doing foreplay now n den, to keep mi high, but not to JO, so tat i still in the mood. wanna sleep early lei... but, wanna watch amei on tv.
======================
next morning, ie today morning. wore my lens. den a frn msg mi if wanna lunch tonight. i was deciding. den went for family bfast. tis time, i'm sure i put to good use wat i read from the EQ guidance book!!!
daddy ordered noodles for us. den he din ask for "1 plate no chilli". when the dish came, i ask which 1 no chilli. the person blur. daddy jus say "more or less, sure got chilli 1..." i know wat happened liao. so i jus ate the noodles. it's spicy. so i finished the meat oni. daddy den say "dun wan liao? eat so little. give the stall a bad name. if u wan, say earlier lah, den ask for exchange".
i was stunned. but din say anything. he was jus grumbling n dun wanna admit his mistake. den i ordered chicken rice. i know it's self svc. but i dun wan use my money. i went back to sit. later, when it's ready, i ask my dad for money (it's family bfast mah). haha, scheming mi hor?
den later on, went to meet a fridae guy (again fridae hor?). he's another chatty mate. not sure if can b listener anot... but oso, he's a... soft or sissy person loh. m i critical to say such things?? n hor, these days, been meeting up wif ppl who i dun have any interest in... haha... dunno y oso. but at least i realise... if ppl like u, den they will try to tok a lot to u, keeping u entertained.
den on way home, wah liao. i reallty dun understand some times. a crowded bus. i listening to mp3, lip-syncing the words. a guy ... 30+ ugly guy sitting while i standing. i'm holding on to his hand rails. den he put his hand near the plc i grab the rails. i retreated my hands. den later, he put other hand over his own to move nearer to my hands. wah liao.................. i stared at him. den let go to hold the bar hanging from the bus roof.
the tv awards hor... DISAPPOINTING. HOW COME JULIAN KICKED OUT SO FAST?????????? N PAN LING LING AS WELL....... DEN my mum was commenting tat, our President was lowering his position by presenting an entertainment award to fann wong. but i see it diff'ly. fann wong, although i dun like her, i admire her capability n ... luck? cos she did do singapore proud by appearing in international events, letting ppl know abt us, n perhaps inviting .... biz into here? so i think president was shwoing his appreciation. i say president, cos i dunno how to address a political figure in my blog
------------- sleep liao./// tues got interview. i checked 2 places for the price of laminating my java cert. 1 is $3, 1 is $2.5. haha... den tmr wear lens*
Thursday, December 01, 2005
i'm really beginning to lose interest in tis job...
the worse part came, when during lunch, the new ger who taking bach in psyho was having lunch wif mi. i told her abt my plans... trying to find a soulmate at work.. chatting is fine. but after tat, i begin to feel the lack of motivation at work...
now.. dunno wat to say liao... writing cock.
1) looking forward to jj lin over taking SYZ to b singapore's biggest ever export
2) ch 8 keep promoting its "star wards" since start of nov or end oct. den i felt it's SO EARLY... but now, i looking at the time schedule for ch 8, n realise it sjus around the corner suddenly siazz..
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have i got nothing else other than my job to bitch abt?
i jus rmb, ytday, my office need email another dept for officiality. (need to finish ASAP, den sleep early.. u'll know y later). i was composing it. den was abt to send off. jnr den rsuhed over. she saw, den.. dunno wat to do, n ask the new guy, KK, to review it, n see how to phrase it properly. KK looked, n said it's ok, dun need any re-phrasing. the jnr den was doing some other things. i was silent all the way.
'cos i really... give up feeling anythng there, n voicing out my thots. she still think i'm someone who is incapable. n need antoher person to justify if my language is correct. the stereotyping is there.
n den today, a few things happened... sighzz, jnr, KK, n new ger went lunch, bought xmas deco n took chance to kai-kai. on the email side, i had 1 suggestion, but the fat sup dis-regarded it all, sayign it's part of my job. jnr n KK both supported him, without sparing a thot on hwo to improve.
to mi, the fat sup was merely defending his stand. n the other 2 jus tryign to shwo they r thinking.
my interview has been confirmed, n i oso checked wif a programmer frn/colleague. he say my 1.8 is quite ok since i oni got paper, no work exp.
my speech-flow seem to have took a turn for worse... in the past, perhaps i can make out a line, proper eng line without problem. now, some words i use r kinda jarbled up. as in, i tend to jus say out what's in mind, instead of linking up my thots wif words n say it out for better understanding... muz improve... seem like, singlish n short cut terms r affecting mi. as in, i tend to take shortcuts to simplify words. i tend to cut a long story short to save time. but end up, the story is not clear.
during my prep for java exam, seem to have not oni lost some relations, but oso my insight gained b4 my focus on java. as i watch tv show, i begin to realise soem of the things whcih i had realised much earlier, but over the months of java prep i forgot........
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anyway, tmr will b busy day. original plan: go swim, haircut, go hbft, go get lens, n may meet a frn. sunday noon meet frn. den to celeb bday for colleague, i made adjustment. go swim, go bday, go hbft, get lens den hair... had planned not to go, as it clash wif my hair cut. but... oh well, to mix around, i have to move... i thot i'm really not used to such gathering... but if, the meeting is wif frns who i'm true to, i would love it.
the worse part came, when during lunch, the new ger who taking bach in psyho was having lunch wif mi. i told her abt my plans... trying to find a soulmate at work.. chatting is fine. but after tat, i begin to feel the lack of motivation at work...
now.. dunno wat to say liao... writing cock.
1) looking forward to jj lin over taking SYZ to b singapore's biggest ever export
2) ch 8 keep promoting its "star wards" since start of nov or end oct. den i felt it's SO EARLY... but now, i looking at the time schedule for ch 8, n realise it sjus around the corner suddenly siazz..
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have i got nothing else other than my job to bitch abt?
i jus rmb, ytday, my office need email another dept for officiality. (need to finish ASAP, den sleep early.. u'll know y later). i was composing it. den was abt to send off. jnr den rsuhed over. she saw, den.. dunno wat to do, n ask the new guy, KK, to review it, n see how to phrase it properly. KK looked, n said it's ok, dun need any re-phrasing. the jnr den was doing some other things. i was silent all the way.
'cos i really... give up feeling anythng there, n voicing out my thots. she still think i'm someone who is incapable. n need antoher person to justify if my language is correct. the stereotyping is there.
n den today, a few things happened... sighzz, jnr, KK, n new ger went lunch, bought xmas deco n took chance to kai-kai. on the email side, i had 1 suggestion, but the fat sup dis-regarded it all, sayign it's part of my job. jnr n KK both supported him, without sparing a thot on hwo to improve.
to mi, the fat sup was merely defending his stand. n the other 2 jus tryign to shwo they r thinking.
my interview has been confirmed, n i oso checked wif a programmer frn/colleague. he say my 1.8 is quite ok since i oni got paper, no work exp.
my speech-flow seem to have took a turn for worse... in the past, perhaps i can make out a line, proper eng line without problem. now, some words i use r kinda jarbled up. as in, i tend to jus say out what's in mind, instead of linking up my thots wif words n say it out for better understanding... muz improve... seem like, singlish n short cut terms r affecting mi. as in, i tend to take shortcuts to simplify words. i tend to cut a long story short to save time. but end up, the story is not clear.
during my prep for java exam, seem to have not oni lost some relations, but oso my insight gained b4 my focus on java. as i watch tv show, i begin to realise soem of the things whcih i had realised much earlier, but over the months of java prep i forgot........
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anyway, tmr will b busy day. original plan: go swim, haircut, go hbft, go get lens, n may meet a frn. sunday noon meet frn. den to celeb bday for colleague, i made adjustment. go swim, go bday, go hbft, get lens den hair... had planned not to go, as it clash wif my hair cut. but... oh well, to mix around, i have to move... i thot i'm really not used to such gathering... but if, the meeting is wif frns who i'm true to, i would love it.
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
shall i blog tat when my bus jus finish its express way trip, the first bus stop, i saw a gorgeous guy? hot guy in pink? sitting in the busstop? haah...
seem like, confidence is pretty impt in the way u proj urself... jus dun b too confident. be confident of how u look, walk, behave, speak... b natural, n if u can, exude confidence...
den hor, sianzzz... my canon cam, got give the AA batt to use for teh cam. so i use it to try n text the shots. wah liao... den in abt 5 hrs time, the batt go flat liao......... sianzzz... so fast??? although my office is aircon room, but it's still in signapore leh!!!!! so fast batt die liao?!?!
den, i got a call tat my contact lens ready.......... YES!!!
was watching the result of female host. the ger was telling the truth abt her, tat she went for abortion as well. inside mi, i was oredi boycotting her... in a way, yes she frank n daring to admit tat. but she really dun need to do it. she can say the lead role was her frn. but in the end, she managed to stay back still...
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unknowingly, i discovered tat... i'm not 2 sure abt the timeline. b4 both my pals went oz, everythign was ok. den when both left, i seem to have started setting a std for frns. i rmb, when i still in ns, i really not a cool headed guy, nor someone who can tink logically. EQ extreme low. got 1 time, someone did something, n my pal sugested i better tell the officer in charge abrt tat, b4 the someone does it. i know it's for my good. but i dinno n din realise the reason n the rationale. after both pals left, i seem to have lost a part of mi. til i start to get short tempered wif frns/ppl who din seem to do things in the right manner.
cos both pals' thinking r much more advanced n developed than mi, i learnt abt considereation, anticipation, reasoning, n thinking from them. yes i was tat useless. i din reallty spare a thot for ppl. when they left mi, frns who r stil lwif mi, mostly din have their level of street intelligence/ consideration n thnking. those frns r not up to the std. i even thot, why r these ppl like dat?? i was really looking for ppl who can think at such levels wif mi. when they failed, i lost my patience.
n cos i learnt a lot from them, i somehow tried to impose such ideas n thots into some frns, thinking this will better their persons. but i dinno tis is incorrect. cos every1 has diff thinking n views. y will i wanna impose my tinkin n thots on them??
so, these days i'm trying to b understanding abt othters, n know wat they doing. i will ooffer my ideas from time to time, but wun force. at most ask them 2 times to see if they keen on it. watever happens, its their person n nature. if i think i can do a better job, at most when it happens again, i will react on their behalf. if they think it's better, then they den learn. if not... y impose...
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other than my daily acts, has tis blog become a plc for mi to vent my work frustz?? now, today, i realise y it's impt to have a close buddy at work, whom u can confide in. i know it's almost like making use of the person, but well, we r sharing thots in some way. got tis tinkinbg, cos today, i felt injusticed. felt i can confide in someone. but i'm not sure how will the person react.. +ve or -ve feel?
usually, i reach work on time. but these days, i at times tend to wake up abt 20 mins later than usual. anyway, i got to office at 845. door locked. so i went toilet first. usual practice. den i went to office, tis time unlocked. den1 of our mgmt level spy is inside office.
he ask: y i late.
i say, traffic jam.
he: mrt?
i: bus
he: diam
den my snr oso ask (at tis time, oni snr spy mi in office) now tat the boss is on leave, every1 oso came late ah? cannot like tis lah......
i din defend. it's merely jumping to conclusion. i oni smiled. when sh was late, did she say anything? i've a gd record for being punctual pls.
den jus b4 spy left, spy whispered to mi: dun b so late lah..
i giggled in response. wat he expect mi to say? i wun b late? well check my records.
i realyl feel tat, cos it's a contracted job, so we r treated as external staff that REQUIRE supervision. we r actually enclosed in another room, to ourselves oni. i can say we r kinda isolated from the company system.
den later, i felt injusticed again. jus b4 lunch hr, all 4 colliks of mine r in office. they were discussing n almost chatting. my hp rang. i say i go out tok. it's abt my java interview. abt 5 mins after, 2 colliks going for lunch. they came out, saw mi on the ph, went back in. soon, they came out again n on way to lunch. abt 5 mins later, i hang up n went toilet. the sup called to look for mi. i ignored the call. i know he asking mi back.
when i went back in, he say where i go, i say carpark. he say, he call mi cos he bothered by the never-ceasing ph rings. n reminded mi, not to go out when oni 1 person (snr) is in the room. i was disheartened. but i said "OK". n i got back to work.
the 2 colliks, jnr n new guy, they r going for lunch. they saw mi in carpark toking. if the sup realyl feel tat he need hlp, n 1 person cannot cope, y let them go lunch? i know it's not gd tat, jus 'cos i on ph, 2 ppl cannot lunch. but i on ph wat, wat they expect mi to do? if he can let them luunch, y remind mi abt the 1 person issue?
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actually by complaining so much abt work, am i making a big fuss over a very common scenario? perhaps. but i've not found any1 to confide in yet. my snr is in league wif sup. the jnr, sometimes cannot b listener.
oh, the ph call was a guy, suggesting a job opening. he told mi, SCP w/o much handson exp cannot call 2k-2.2 for wage. i am considered as freshie, so cannot. ok, i take it. so i change to 1.8-2k. he say still can consider. den he add in those benefits, wanna mi decrease some more. wah kauzz.. so tat he can earn more commission??? i stuck to my 1.8-2k. n 2 bad, posted a msg in forum, but no reply yet, abt salary
seem like, confidence is pretty impt in the way u proj urself... jus dun b too confident. be confident of how u look, walk, behave, speak... b natural, n if u can, exude confidence...
den hor, sianzzz... my canon cam, got give the AA batt to use for teh cam. so i use it to try n text the shots. wah liao... den in abt 5 hrs time, the batt go flat liao......... sianzzz... so fast??? although my office is aircon room, but it's still in signapore leh!!!!! so fast batt die liao?!?!
den, i got a call tat my contact lens ready.......... YES!!!
was watching the result of female host. the ger was telling the truth abt her, tat she went for abortion as well. inside mi, i was oredi boycotting her... in a way, yes she frank n daring to admit tat. but she really dun need to do it. she can say the lead role was her frn. but in the end, she managed to stay back still...
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unknowingly, i discovered tat... i'm not 2 sure abt the timeline. b4 both my pals went oz, everythign was ok. den when both left, i seem to have started setting a std for frns. i rmb, when i still in ns, i really not a cool headed guy, nor someone who can tink logically. EQ extreme low. got 1 time, someone did something, n my pal sugested i better tell the officer in charge abrt tat, b4 the someone does it. i know it's for my good. but i dinno n din realise the reason n the rationale. after both pals left, i seem to have lost a part of mi. til i start to get short tempered wif frns/ppl who din seem to do things in the right manner.
cos both pals' thinking r much more advanced n developed than mi, i learnt abt considereation, anticipation, reasoning, n thinking from them. yes i was tat useless. i din reallty spare a thot for ppl. when they left mi, frns who r stil lwif mi, mostly din have their level of street intelligence/ consideration n thnking. those frns r not up to the std. i even thot, why r these ppl like dat?? i was really looking for ppl who can think at such levels wif mi. when they failed, i lost my patience.
n cos i learnt a lot from them, i somehow tried to impose such ideas n thots into some frns, thinking this will better their persons. but i dinno tis is incorrect. cos every1 has diff thinking n views. y will i wanna impose my tinkin n thots on them??
so, these days i'm trying to b understanding abt othters, n know wat they doing. i will ooffer my ideas from time to time, but wun force. at most ask them 2 times to see if they keen on it. watever happens, its their person n nature. if i think i can do a better job, at most when it happens again, i will react on their behalf. if they think it's better, then they den learn. if not... y impose...
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other than my daily acts, has tis blog become a plc for mi to vent my work frustz?? now, today, i realise y it's impt to have a close buddy at work, whom u can confide in. i know it's almost like making use of the person, but well, we r sharing thots in some way. got tis tinkinbg, cos today, i felt injusticed. felt i can confide in someone. but i'm not sure how will the person react.. +ve or -ve feel?
usually, i reach work on time. but these days, i at times tend to wake up abt 20 mins later than usual. anyway, i got to office at 845. door locked. so i went toilet first. usual practice. den i went to office, tis time unlocked. den1 of our mgmt level spy is inside office.
he ask: y i late.
i say, traffic jam.
he: mrt?
i: bus
he: diam
den my snr oso ask (at tis time, oni snr spy mi in office) now tat the boss is on leave, every1 oso came late ah? cannot like tis lah......
i din defend. it's merely jumping to conclusion. i oni smiled. when sh was late, did she say anything? i've a gd record for being punctual pls.
den jus b4 spy left, spy whispered to mi: dun b so late lah..
i giggled in response. wat he expect mi to say? i wun b late? well check my records.
i realyl feel tat, cos it's a contracted job, so we r treated as external staff that REQUIRE supervision. we r actually enclosed in another room, to ourselves oni. i can say we r kinda isolated from the company system.
den later, i felt injusticed again. jus b4 lunch hr, all 4 colliks of mine r in office. they were discussing n almost chatting. my hp rang. i say i go out tok. it's abt my java interview. abt 5 mins after, 2 colliks going for lunch. they came out, saw mi on the ph, went back in. soon, they came out again n on way to lunch. abt 5 mins later, i hang up n went toilet. the sup called to look for mi. i ignored the call. i know he asking mi back.
when i went back in, he say where i go, i say carpark. he say, he call mi cos he bothered by the never-ceasing ph rings. n reminded mi, not to go out when oni 1 person (snr) is in the room. i was disheartened. but i said "OK". n i got back to work.
the 2 colliks, jnr n new guy, they r going for lunch. they saw mi in carpark toking. if the sup realyl feel tat he need hlp, n 1 person cannot cope, y let them go lunch? i know it's not gd tat, jus 'cos i on ph, 2 ppl cannot lunch. but i on ph wat, wat they expect mi to do? if he can let them luunch, y remind mi abt the 1 person issue?
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actually by complaining so much abt work, am i making a big fuss over a very common scenario? perhaps. but i've not found any1 to confide in yet. my snr is in league wif sup. the jnr, sometimes cannot b listener.
oh, the ph call was a guy, suggesting a job opening. he told mi, SCP w/o much handson exp cannot call 2k-2.2 for wage. i am considered as freshie, so cannot. ok, i take it. so i change to 1.8-2k. he say still can consider. den he add in those benefits, wanna mi decrease some more. wah kauzz.. so tat he can earn more commission??? i stuck to my 1.8-2k. n 2 bad, posted a msg in forum, but no reply yet, abt salary
(by right, posted on 26 nov)
jus thot of another thing abt office work.
is there such thing as perfect office env, without prejudice, n politics? in my work, it's a technical helpdesk. minimal or none business rules related. whenever there is any biz stuff issues, we will escalate to biz team. i play by the rules. there was 1 time, the biz team shoot back at us tat, if the question posed by a user is a common biz rule enquiry, we can answer them without directing to them. the person who posed tis qn to them is the snr. she den was agitated, n exclaimed tat in future, any biz related, no matter how light or common, all jus pass to biz team.
den few days back, a user asked mi where can an option be found. i know where it can be found, but then
1) it's non tech
2) wat if the option is not there anymore?
so i forwarded the enquiry to the biz team. they shot back again, saying tat it's common qn, n the snr will know how to resolve.
so i stepped forward n highlighted it to the snr. guess wat, she say "ya tis option, u can ask the person to go....". ahha, i din say anything. jus tat i found her to have double std.
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den ytday is the sup bday. she say wanna buy food to celeb. i told her jnr is not around, den she say "it's ok 1 lah, wat's more, celeb bday later than the actual bday is not good". but later, the mood was turned upside down when our boss came to reprimand the sup. the sup came back still smiling. but of cos, wat else u expect? he's analytical. den hro i ask the snr abt the food. she say, "today not all teh ppl r there, plus jnr oso not around n no time to go buy food".
i really wonder hor, do i really appear to be such a forgetful/nvm/bochap person? perhaps i do. 'cos when i first got to work, i had a hard time blending in wif them. esp when the jnr, who was guiding mi, was easily emotionally disturbed. till the extent, she can even tell any1 including users "dun touch" when she dun wan her things to b disturbed. when i first started, every1 has diff style of working. my "user informed that...." was critised wat i mean by user informed. inform who, how. i guess she jus wanna b in control.
*** strange, on way home from work, i was thinking of this comment. den later, my right eye twitched. now i realised tat, this post not posted yet... stil las draft... *** (dated 30/11/05 1209am)
jus thot of another thing abt office work.
is there such thing as perfect office env, without prejudice, n politics? in my work, it's a technical helpdesk. minimal or none business rules related. whenever there is any biz stuff issues, we will escalate to biz team. i play by the rules. there was 1 time, the biz team shoot back at us tat, if the question posed by a user is a common biz rule enquiry, we can answer them without directing to them. the person who posed tis qn to them is the snr. she den was agitated, n exclaimed tat in future, any biz related, no matter how light or common, all jus pass to biz team.
den few days back, a user asked mi where can an option be found. i know where it can be found, but then
1) it's non tech
2) wat if the option is not there anymore?
so i forwarded the enquiry to the biz team. they shot back again, saying tat it's common qn, n the snr will know how to resolve.
so i stepped forward n highlighted it to the snr. guess wat, she say "ya tis option, u can ask the person to go....". ahha, i din say anything. jus tat i found her to have double std.
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den ytday is the sup bday. she say wanna buy food to celeb. i told her jnr is not around, den she say "it's ok 1 lah, wat's more, celeb bday later than the actual bday is not good". but later, the mood was turned upside down when our boss came to reprimand the sup. the sup came back still smiling. but of cos, wat else u expect? he's analytical. den hro i ask the snr abt the food. she say, "today not all teh ppl r there, plus jnr oso not around n no time to go buy food".
i really wonder hor, do i really appear to be such a forgetful/nvm/bochap person? perhaps i do. 'cos when i first got to work, i had a hard time blending in wif them. esp when the jnr, who was guiding mi, was easily emotionally disturbed. till the extent, she can even tell any1 including users "dun touch" when she dun wan her things to b disturbed. when i first started, every1 has diff style of working. my "user informed that...." was critised wat i mean by user informed. inform who, how. i guess she jus wanna b in control.
*** strange, on way home from work, i was thinking of this comment. den later, my right eye twitched. now i realised tat, this post not posted yet... stil las draft... *** (dated 30/11/05 1209am)
Monday, November 28, 2005
at the sitex there, nothing much to see siazzz.. quite boring. cos everthing jus so same price. not much discounts. other than those which have competitors as well.. like laptop brands.. HP dell acer asus really fight to end. den to find a better deal, frn n i went to SLS last min. still got 1 shop open, but they dun give good rate. $430 for the package. den wanna extra bag is 449. umm........ anyway wif my bluetooth, i bought it to work hahahahah...
i am excited about it!!! but well, good things muz come to end. the next morning, next thing i know is, i boarded my bus to work. sat near end of bus. den later, someone sat behind mi. i suddenly felt a stream of cold air gush onto mi. yes the person adjusted the a/c outlet towards mi. i turned back, saw the person almost a butch. i told her to switch the outlet to other side. the bus, has 2 outlets between mi n her. her outlet was blowing mi, mine was hers. i ask her adjust hers, she simply FLICKED it to blow away, den actually asked mi "how abt the other 1?", pointing to mine. she was plain and obviously pissed. i din say anything n turned back.
nex thign i know, the air blew mi again. i turned n ask her. this tiem, she say "if u want, u can shift it yourself. i dun have to do it for u. if u dun wan teh fan, jus move it urself." well, i simply said "forget abt it". wat a singaporean.
den last night, i applied for a few java jobs liao. in morning to noon, about 4 ppl called mi. does headhunters have own line or use hunting?? i thot it's latter. of these 4, 1 is guy who say got opening for java guy. 2 i din manage to tok them, cos i was busy. when i call back, they KO liao. den 1 ger, she was... wah liao... i apply jjava jobs, she ask if i wnana take vb or C++ oso. den 'cos i dun have much j2ee work exp, she say maybe i wanan consider helpdesk instead??? OMG. wat she trying to say???????? i am a programmer, wif java cert, n aplyu for helpdesk job?? i have exp in Helpesk, but now i am a full fledged programmer. PLS!
umm, i actually duno if i shld b truthful abt my job hunt siazz. lie tat i am seekign tuition work? or b truthful tat i looking for java jobs? i jus dun wan the news of mi quitting to spread so fast.
den i really went to outram there again to buy digi cam. wah liao..... 'cos canon having promo for xmas.. all the shopes follow its sale promo, n dun wan offer bettr things. 1 new guy offer 420, den boss walk over, n showed the promo for canon, 449. den thigns went back to normal. offer tis / tat... sianzzz.. end up nothig much. anyway i bought it liao.
now i'm ready to welcome xmas!!!!!
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" I think he is trying to show them his hair trail .." - maybe, but wat's there to show when oni his waist part is exposed?
"bluetooth" - i bought a blue tooth earpiece for my sony hp. n i have blue tooth connnector for my pc as well :)
i am excited about it!!! but well, good things muz come to end. the next morning, next thing i know is, i boarded my bus to work. sat near end of bus. den later, someone sat behind mi. i suddenly felt a stream of cold air gush onto mi. yes the person adjusted the a/c outlet towards mi. i turned back, saw the person almost a butch. i told her to switch the outlet to other side. the bus, has 2 outlets between mi n her. her outlet was blowing mi, mine was hers. i ask her adjust hers, she simply FLICKED it to blow away, den actually asked mi "how abt the other 1?", pointing to mine. she was plain and obviously pissed. i din say anything n turned back.
nex thign i know, the air blew mi again. i turned n ask her. this tiem, she say "if u want, u can shift it yourself. i dun have to do it for u. if u dun wan teh fan, jus move it urself." well, i simply said "forget abt it". wat a singaporean.
den last night, i applied for a few java jobs liao. in morning to noon, about 4 ppl called mi. does headhunters have own line or use hunting?? i thot it's latter. of these 4, 1 is guy who say got opening for java guy. 2 i din manage to tok them, cos i was busy. when i call back, they KO liao. den 1 ger, she was... wah liao... i apply jjava jobs, she ask if i wnana take vb or C++ oso. den 'cos i dun have much j2ee work exp, she say maybe i wanan consider helpdesk instead??? OMG. wat she trying to say???????? i am a programmer, wif java cert, n aplyu for helpdesk job?? i have exp in Helpesk, but now i am a full fledged programmer. PLS!
umm, i actually duno if i shld b truthful abt my job hunt siazz. lie tat i am seekign tuition work? or b truthful tat i looking for java jobs? i jus dun wan the news of mi quitting to spread so fast.
den i really went to outram there again to buy digi cam. wah liao..... 'cos canon having promo for xmas.. all the shopes follow its sale promo, n dun wan offer bettr things. 1 new guy offer 420, den boss walk over, n showed the promo for canon, 449. den thigns went back to normal. offer tis / tat... sianzzz.. end up nothig much. anyway i bought it liao.
now i'm ready to welcome xmas!!!!!
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" I think he is trying to show them his hair trail .." - maybe, but wat's there to show when oni his waist part is exposed?
"bluetooth" - i bought a blue tooth earpiece for my sony hp. n i have blue tooth connnector for my pc as well :)
saturday, was busy trying to clear my mailbox. stay home all day, really. umm, jus trivial stuff happening. impt things: i started to send out resumes for java job. those SCJP jobs. i dunno the mart rate, so i put 2200. den i finally got my blue tooth ear piece!!!! 88!!!!trying in office tmr. den going to buy digi cam oso...
Friday, November 25, 2005
i think he may read it in time to come. but jus wnana voice out loh. i know it happened to mi in the past, n haha, i can empathise how those frns felt back then. supposed to go sitex tis fri. but on thur, he told mi his bf coming, so cant meet mi for sitex, n they going to the veh exhibition. they going sitex another day. den i say, maybe i go along wif u guys? he reply, "u wnana b light bulb meh?". i was stunned.
anyway, he later msg mi that his bf is not coming, so he wanna go wif mi again to sitex. i told this to jnr. know wat she say? minus the 2nd para, she say "den dun go out wif him lah!". ahah, not a listener :) den i was calling my mentor agent, den trying to tell her my predicament. but she din listen at all, simply gave wat she thot shld b the reply.
finally, a long time no see guy... or acquaintance called mi, asking if tat day still onzz for sitex visit. he din msg mi at all he's onzz. i had told him when i can reach there though. i din wan go, cos will b a trip there, den i jus visiting oni. but since he wanna buy pc, so imight as well go n help him. umm, 2 yrs back, we had an arg lah. cos mi haha.. had bad attitude back then. den today, we met still. the funny thign is, i was at mrt 705pm. he not arrived yet on his bike. later he called mi, syaing he reached liao, but dunno where he is, cos he seldom take bike. he is at a carpark. den i keep asking his location, like landmark n etc. he say he at some carpark n hall. but haha, cant find him still. later, i finally managed to find my way to his location.
his trademark is tanned skin. we went into the sitex liao. sicne he wanna buy pc, n taking note of the specs oni, i know wat to do. but he... kinda... VERY fascinated by the technology of comptuers, tat he keep asking all those figures n meanings. look at acer, he check out how to use the pc. move the mouse. i ask him to try the keyboard. he bochap. den he say, acer not bad right? i reply "not really, jus the avg". he say wanna call his frn to ask. cannot get thru. den we look at other brands. reach fujitsu there, he tried the system. i ask him whether he like the design anot. he insist he oni focus on the specs. den i explain clearly to him "do u wan to face this model 2 yrs in ur room, or tat model?". he din say anythign.
den 1 infuriating exp. we took the dell pc brochure. got state the specs like "pen 4 processor D" and "pen D pro 550". he try calling another frn to ask abt the specs. he cant get thru.
he exclaimed, no 1 to advise him liao.
i den say "u can ask mi wat"
"but i ask u oredi wat"
"ok, when u buy the pc, u dun need to know wat the 550 means, jus need to see the 'pen 4/D' n the GHZ."
"but there must b a diff mah. nvm, i go ask the staff"
thestaff painstakingly explained the things to him. i was even giggling inside. cos, u wan mi accompany u here, is offer advice n help to decide, or to oni b a vase?? so tat someone u like is wif u?? he seems like, his first time to buy pc, so VELI VELI excited n jus wanna buy "best" pc there is. "best" 'cos pc depends on ur needs. dun mean the top notch specs means it's for u. u r oni wasting ur $$ in tis way.
ahha, somehow, i feel tat, i've really controlled my moods. in the past, i sure will flare up, cos "u ask mi along but dun care abt my opinion. when i tell u, u dun blif as well". i'm feeling unhappy inside. coming to tis pt, i rmb the "child of our time". ppl prefer frns who show a smiling/happy/casual face even if they not happy. does it mean we have to b pretentious? 'cos we r hiding our feelings. if we flare up, it's not good.
in a way, he seem like he wanna show tat he can make the decisions n take care of mi, but haha... i think otherwise. n the way he does things, ok, he reading the brochures, n i standing in frotn of him. he den brought it closer to his face. the paper oni 2 cm away from mi. i shunned the paper n moved away. i din say anythign abt these. cos it' so crowdded, n he's focussed on reading the brochures n visitng around.
actually hor, i feel like telling him, i have a dip in comp. he can trust mi. but my guess is that, he dun feel a thing. when i told him abt my plan to buy a digicam, he say he know abt digi cam. but when we at the canon there, he said he had used the top notch cams b4. is he tryin to impress mi?
come to think of everything, am i having high expectatiosn fo frns? erm, i dun think so. more to understanding how diff humans behave n think. yes later he sent mi home on his bike. haha, on the bike, as we on the road, he seem to move his butt nearer to my crotch. to seduce mi? well, i simply shifted my bag from my back to the front. n he oso wanna teach mi how to mount a bike :) i told him i took bikes b4.
i find tat, as my thinking matures n i can think for future, my ability to think n control my EQ increase, i begin to know better why some ppl respond in some ways. i try to make it an amicable meetign n a win-win ending. jus tat, ok, i not good at PR so i tend not to say out some thigns so ppl wun feel threatened or exposed. just tat, if u think something can b done better another way, will u tell that person? or leave him to discover as time goes by?
going to apply for java jobs... hopefully, the company can buy mi over. n yes, i do believe, i've gained lotsa insight n confidence from reading the EQ book. at least i am confident of my skills. n when ppl try to put mi down, i know my abilities n self worth n dun bother fighting back too much. if they seem to have a lot of things to back them up, i will listen to them, but wun reply, unless we have a lot of time. so tat we can discuss. but then, from the tv, it was mentioned that youngsters tend to accept challenges as they are often overwhelmed by their winning instincts. have i grown old?
ahha, back to work stuff. teh fat sup loh. the main sup was chatting wif us, den he joked tat if fat sup owe any1 money, better get back fast. i responded "hey, u owe mi $50". fat sup smiled. den later main sup said "u shld buy us dinner for xmas". i responded "*applause* yeah i support tat". i think the fat sup affected liao. cos later he commented tat i antisocial.
anyway, he later msg mi that his bf is not coming, so he wanna go wif mi again to sitex. i told this to jnr. know wat she say? minus the 2nd para, she say "den dun go out wif him lah!". ahah, not a listener :) den i was calling my mentor agent, den trying to tell her my predicament. but she din listen at all, simply gave wat she thot shld b the reply.
finally, a long time no see guy... or acquaintance called mi, asking if tat day still onzz for sitex visit. he din msg mi at all he's onzz. i had told him when i can reach there though. i din wan go, cos will b a trip there, den i jus visiting oni. but since he wanna buy pc, so imight as well go n help him. umm, 2 yrs back, we had an arg lah. cos mi haha.. had bad attitude back then. den today, we met still. the funny thign is, i was at mrt 705pm. he not arrived yet on his bike. later he called mi, syaing he reached liao, but dunno where he is, cos he seldom take bike. he is at a carpark. den i keep asking his location, like landmark n etc. he say he at some carpark n hall. but haha, cant find him still. later, i finally managed to find my way to his location.
his trademark is tanned skin. we went into the sitex liao. sicne he wanna buy pc, n taking note of the specs oni, i know wat to do. but he... kinda... VERY fascinated by the technology of comptuers, tat he keep asking all those figures n meanings. look at acer, he check out how to use the pc. move the mouse. i ask him to try the keyboard. he bochap. den he say, acer not bad right? i reply "not really, jus the avg". he say wanna call his frn to ask. cannot get thru. den we look at other brands. reach fujitsu there, he tried the system. i ask him whether he like the design anot. he insist he oni focus on the specs. den i explain clearly to him "do u wan to face this model 2 yrs in ur room, or tat model?". he din say anythign.
den 1 infuriating exp. we took the dell pc brochure. got state the specs like "pen 4 processor D" and "pen D pro 550". he try calling another frn to ask abt the specs. he cant get thru.
he exclaimed, no 1 to advise him liao.
i den say "u can ask mi wat"
"but i ask u oredi wat"
"ok, when u buy the pc, u dun need to know wat the 550 means, jus need to see the 'pen 4/D' n the GHZ."
"but there must b a diff mah. nvm, i go ask the staff"
thestaff painstakingly explained the things to him. i was even giggling inside. cos, u wan mi accompany u here, is offer advice n help to decide, or to oni b a vase?? so tat someone u like is wif u?? he seems like, his first time to buy pc, so VELI VELI excited n jus wanna buy "best" pc there is. "best" 'cos pc depends on ur needs. dun mean the top notch specs means it's for u. u r oni wasting ur $$ in tis way.
ahha, somehow, i feel tat, i've really controlled my moods. in the past, i sure will flare up, cos "u ask mi along but dun care abt my opinion. when i tell u, u dun blif as well". i'm feeling unhappy inside. coming to tis pt, i rmb the "child of our time". ppl prefer frns who show a smiling/happy/casual face even if they not happy. does it mean we have to b pretentious? 'cos we r hiding our feelings. if we flare up, it's not good.
in a way, he seem like he wanna show tat he can make the decisions n take care of mi, but haha... i think otherwise. n the way he does things, ok, he reading the brochures, n i standing in frotn of him. he den brought it closer to his face. the paper oni 2 cm away from mi. i shunned the paper n moved away. i din say anythign abt these. cos it' so crowdded, n he's focussed on reading the brochures n visitng around.
actually hor, i feel like telling him, i have a dip in comp. he can trust mi. but my guess is that, he dun feel a thing. when i told him abt my plan to buy a digicam, he say he know abt digi cam. but when we at the canon there, he said he had used the top notch cams b4. is he tryin to impress mi?
come to think of everything, am i having high expectatiosn fo frns? erm, i dun think so. more to understanding how diff humans behave n think. yes later he sent mi home on his bike. haha, on the bike, as we on the road, he seem to move his butt nearer to my crotch. to seduce mi? well, i simply shifted my bag from my back to the front. n he oso wanna teach mi how to mount a bike :) i told him i took bikes b4.
i find tat, as my thinking matures n i can think for future, my ability to think n control my EQ increase, i begin to know better why some ppl respond in some ways. i try to make it an amicable meetign n a win-win ending. jus tat, ok, i not good at PR so i tend not to say out some thigns so ppl wun feel threatened or exposed. just tat, if u think something can b done better another way, will u tell that person? or leave him to discover as time goes by?
going to apply for java jobs... hopefully, the company can buy mi over. n yes, i do believe, i've gained lotsa insight n confidence from reading the EQ book. at least i am confident of my skills. n when ppl try to put mi down, i know my abilities n self worth n dun bother fighting back too much. if they seem to have a lot of things to back them up, i will listen to them, but wun reply, unless we have a lot of time. so tat we can discuss. but then, from the tv, it was mentioned that youngsters tend to accept challenges as they are often overwhelmed by their winning instincts. have i grown old?
ahha, back to work stuff. teh fat sup loh. the main sup was chatting wif us, den he joked tat if fat sup owe any1 money, better get back fast. i responded "hey, u owe mi $50". fat sup smiled. den later main sup said "u shld buy us dinner for xmas". i responded "*applause* yeah i support tat". i think the fat sup affected liao. cos later he commented tat i antisocial.
Thursday, November 24, 2005
umm.. have not been updating my blog hor? so, my last update was on 18 nov.
friday, suddenly myboss say i cant take the half day leave on 20dec, cos i oni got 3 days left. i was stunned. den was really wondering wat to do for my half day liao loh..
went to watch harry potter later. watching for the story n magical effect. kinda disappointing, cos they delibrately set the ending to be a suspense: the evil man is coming back. wah liao, thot that was oni the mid of mov. n tis trip, made mi realise a frn of mine, has come staunch xtian. believing the bible to the detail. living by wat the bible tell him to. forcing himself, or persuading n limiting himself to stop thinking abt men, but go for gers.
den sat. my left eye twitched. i was busy preparing my things for the etic, n felt it shld mean i will b late for the tic, ie the shop close lioa. but things were alright lei... i even ate the slice fish noodles. was really fine. went to the shopping mall nearby to check out prices for digi cam, n bluetooth ear piece. hehe, first time to do research siazz.. but felt so bad, tat i let the ppl describe to mi n tlel mi things, later i still go off n dun buy from them. sigh, can see their disappointed look. but i reaslise tat, i am really BIASED against spec'ed guys. n maybe i 2 despo for guys, whichever guys attend to mi at their shops, i find them alright or nice looking. but 1 guy, he's in specs, i immedaitely... dun feel anythign for him. anyway, i decided liao. if the comex price dun meet my tartget i going back there to buy.
den 1 funny exp is, i was shoppping in the mall. went all way to top flr, den walked along those quiet n isolated lanes. den saw some heavy makeup women stand at thei entry fo their shops, calling "shuai ge, wan massage?" liao!!!! i was stunned!!!!!!!!!1 i din dare look!!!!!!!!!!! the first 1 who call mi, i was courteous enuff to smile back n decline. others, i simpyl looked away. i wonder how will i react if they are guys ...ahha...
n during the touring, i really found that, i do like moving n travellign abt. if i'm at a certain plc, i will wanna roam around there. n explore, but if i'm stuck to a table, i prefer ot jus stay there...
den come sunday. my left n right eye twitched. i found that i may not have been given visa at all. n when we checked, really no visa. sianzzz.. do ihave to go down again?!?! the invoice oredi wrote i need etic n visa, but the lady diun give mi?? i had even checked with her how do i check in? she demo tat i jus need to show passport, tat all. den i left. now, got such issues. sianzzz... den hor i got home, n chatted wif a guy from fridae.. another guy. n... hehe, gradually we met up haha. n i had the longest session ever with a so-called new guy... LOL...
monday, had wnana cheat half day mc siazz.. but later seeing how bz we are, i gave up. n somehow i realise how diff their way of solving prob is. we ar putting up xmas tree. they insisted n preferred to make abox to make into a stand for the tree. i will actually prefer turning an existing box into the stand. n surprised n sad n disappointing to say, a frn once again stood mi up for apptmt. when i told him tat, he got defensive n said he din promise to go. well, i den wondered how does it mean by "promise to go". by word of "promise", "agree", "confirmation", "will let u know"?
so i contacted a few otehrs. none is free. ok, anyway, i decided wat i wanna buy liao. canon a520. it's not entirely new, but it's got all thre things i need. movie, pic, usb, good optical soom, at least 4M pixel, affordable price. there really is not a need for mi to buy the "latest model" cos it does not suit my purpose.
n my half day leave kena sabo again. they say boss may not allow half day leave. even unpaid oso cannot. end up may take unoffical time off.
tuesday, met up a fridae guy again. chatted a bit. after work, my boss n mi discussing y we need to keep upgrading. he say "u learn 1 skill or specialise is not enuff. once that thing is outta fad, u r back to low level. like those web designers. best things is to keep on upgrading, learn a bit of everyting, make urself priceless.
i dun agree. by being a person who generally knows everything, but practically know nothing (jack of all trade is master of none) is quite useless. if u know wat u wnana study, go for it. y bother to keep upgrading the paper? unless ur industry is reayll so tuff, tat it realyl require to know bits of everything. but if u have the foresight, u can focus on 1 subject and delve into it.
boss even say, i got my java cert liao. if i really gd enuf, i'll have created an electronic leave clearing form. wah liao, as though challenging my caps??wah liao. when i first heard it, i did think of accepting it n develop such tings. but later i thot: why shld i? he may b either pushing mi to do something for them, or really underestimating my caps for java.
den come wednesday. suddenly, i realise my values is diff from the ppl here. i blif customer is king n we shld b nice n try to help them whenever we can. but they, prefer to b firm n rude if needed. n hor, to tis pt, they still dun agree to let mi take half day unpaid leave. DUNNO Y. push it to mgmt, saying even if sup allow, mgmt may not. but, comeon, if sup say have enuff ppl, n i taking unpaid, y shld mgmt refuse? more to like they dun wanan bother the mgmt liao.. for scared of trouble.
den these days i been trying to find new ways of motivating myself... so sisnazz at work. my ideals not met, objectives not achieved. work is so boring.
thurs. i was toking to user in an understanding tone. den the jnr jus took over n told mi "dun need tok so much to him". ok.. she win. well soemtimes, she's just so direct with her words n bochap ppl's feelings. den the snr likes to sing praises of watevr she like/prefer, n critises watever she dun enjoy. sometimes hor, i realyl fee tat they not my level of communication.
abt the half day leave, i really dunno them. cos, at times, the jnr oso went off 3 hrs prior to KO time, den they ok. anyway, i jus attended antoher seminar for new advisers. i told my office, i going for biz seminar. correct right?! it basically to tell mi more abt wat training n job prospects to expect from the company. n... wah liao, no basic income siazz.......
i kinda draw out my plan liao. but dunno.. how shld i get my family to support mi siazz... tell them, then they later discourage mi again....... ok, i plan to hunt for jobs again. this time for java jobs. i aim to switch jobs by start of 2006 cos my cert is good, n hopefully the new coy can buy mi over. den 3 mths time, i probation dun pass, den i go become adviser. sounds nice?
1 last thing b4 i sleep, dunno y. after the sunday rendevous, i been "forced" by my mind to sleep early... near 12, i wanna doze off liaozz...
friday, suddenly myboss say i cant take the half day leave on 20dec, cos i oni got 3 days left. i was stunned. den was really wondering wat to do for my half day liao loh..
went to watch harry potter later. watching for the story n magical effect. kinda disappointing, cos they delibrately set the ending to be a suspense: the evil man is coming back. wah liao, thot that was oni the mid of mov. n tis trip, made mi realise a frn of mine, has come staunch xtian. believing the bible to the detail. living by wat the bible tell him to. forcing himself, or persuading n limiting himself to stop thinking abt men, but go for gers.
den sat. my left eye twitched. i was busy preparing my things for the etic, n felt it shld mean i will b late for the tic, ie the shop close lioa. but things were alright lei... i even ate the slice fish noodles. was really fine. went to the shopping mall nearby to check out prices for digi cam, n bluetooth ear piece. hehe, first time to do research siazz.. but felt so bad, tat i let the ppl describe to mi n tlel mi things, later i still go off n dun buy from them. sigh, can see their disappointed look. but i reaslise tat, i am really BIASED against spec'ed guys. n maybe i 2 despo for guys, whichever guys attend to mi at their shops, i find them alright or nice looking. but 1 guy, he's in specs, i immedaitely... dun feel anythign for him. anyway, i decided liao. if the comex price dun meet my tartget i going back there to buy.
den 1 funny exp is, i was shoppping in the mall. went all way to top flr, den walked along those quiet n isolated lanes. den saw some heavy makeup women stand at thei entry fo their shops, calling "shuai ge, wan massage?" liao!!!! i was stunned!!!!!!!!!1 i din dare look!!!!!!!!!!! the first 1 who call mi, i was courteous enuff to smile back n decline. others, i simpyl looked away. i wonder how will i react if they are guys ...ahha...
n during the touring, i really found that, i do like moving n travellign abt. if i'm at a certain plc, i will wanna roam around there. n explore, but if i'm stuck to a table, i prefer ot jus stay there...
den come sunday. my left n right eye twitched. i found that i may not have been given visa at all. n when we checked, really no visa. sianzzz.. do ihave to go down again?!?! the invoice oredi wrote i need etic n visa, but the lady diun give mi?? i had even checked with her how do i check in? she demo tat i jus need to show passport, tat all. den i left. now, got such issues. sianzzz... den hor i got home, n chatted wif a guy from fridae.. another guy. n... hehe, gradually we met up haha. n i had the longest session ever with a so-called new guy... LOL...
monday, had wnana cheat half day mc siazz.. but later seeing how bz we are, i gave up. n somehow i realise how diff their way of solving prob is. we ar putting up xmas tree. they insisted n preferred to make abox to make into a stand for the tree. i will actually prefer turning an existing box into the stand. n surprised n sad n disappointing to say, a frn once again stood mi up for apptmt. when i told him tat, he got defensive n said he din promise to go. well, i den wondered how does it mean by "promise to go". by word of "promise", "agree", "confirmation", "will let u know"?
so i contacted a few otehrs. none is free. ok, anyway, i decided wat i wanna buy liao. canon a520. it's not entirely new, but it's got all thre things i need. movie, pic, usb, good optical soom, at least 4M pixel, affordable price. there really is not a need for mi to buy the "latest model" cos it does not suit my purpose.
n my half day leave kena sabo again. they say boss may not allow half day leave. even unpaid oso cannot. end up may take unoffical time off.
tuesday, met up a fridae guy again. chatted a bit. after work, my boss n mi discussing y we need to keep upgrading. he say "u learn 1 skill or specialise is not enuff. once that thing is outta fad, u r back to low level. like those web designers. best things is to keep on upgrading, learn a bit of everyting, make urself priceless.
i dun agree. by being a person who generally knows everything, but practically know nothing (jack of all trade is master of none) is quite useless. if u know wat u wnana study, go for it. y bother to keep upgrading the paper? unless ur industry is reayll so tuff, tat it realyl require to know bits of everything. but if u have the foresight, u can focus on 1 subject and delve into it.
boss even say, i got my java cert liao. if i really gd enuf, i'll have created an electronic leave clearing form. wah liao, as though challenging my caps??wah liao. when i first heard it, i did think of accepting it n develop such tings. but later i thot: why shld i? he may b either pushing mi to do something for them, or really underestimating my caps for java.
den come wednesday. suddenly, i realise my values is diff from the ppl here. i blif customer is king n we shld b nice n try to help them whenever we can. but they, prefer to b firm n rude if needed. n hor, to tis pt, they still dun agree to let mi take half day unpaid leave. DUNNO Y. push it to mgmt, saying even if sup allow, mgmt may not. but, comeon, if sup say have enuff ppl, n i taking unpaid, y shld mgmt refuse? more to like they dun wanan bother the mgmt liao.. for scared of trouble.
den these days i been trying to find new ways of motivating myself... so sisnazz at work. my ideals not met, objectives not achieved. work is so boring.
thurs. i was toking to user in an understanding tone. den the jnr jus took over n told mi "dun need tok so much to him". ok.. she win. well soemtimes, she's just so direct with her words n bochap ppl's feelings. den the snr likes to sing praises of watevr she like/prefer, n critises watever she dun enjoy. sometimes hor, i realyl fee tat they not my level of communication.
abt the half day leave, i really dunno them. cos, at times, the jnr oso went off 3 hrs prior to KO time, den they ok. anyway, i jus attended antoher seminar for new advisers. i told my office, i going for biz seminar. correct right?! it basically to tell mi more abt wat training n job prospects to expect from the company. n... wah liao, no basic income siazz.......
i kinda draw out my plan liao. but dunno.. how shld i get my family to support mi siazz... tell them, then they later discourage mi again....... ok, i plan to hunt for jobs again. this time for java jobs. i aim to switch jobs by start of 2006 cos my cert is good, n hopefully the new coy can buy mi over. den 3 mths time, i probation dun pass, den i go become adviser. sounds nice?
1 last thing b4 i sleep, dunno y. after the sunday rendevous, i been "forced" by my mind to sleep early... near 12, i wanna doze off liaozz...
Saturday, November 19, 2005
he's ku you lun. a singer from taiwan. no great news abt him. seem jus another guy who wanna make it big. WANNA. ht n face got liao, but lack some factors? n duno if he's daring, or trying to win promo, the 2 side pix, he's trying to show 2 female hosts tat she's not wearing briefs at all. by showing tat his ass is visible once he raises his hands?
now this is the picture which is MOST interesting. see the top left? chest has some shape, n tummy is flat. even if not, it's VERY VERY BARELY flabby. err, in praising n admiring his body, have i gone too far?? wif his figure, he sure appeals to a lot of ppl... but if he's gay, will there b an impression he flirts around?or will he not? if str8, will he use his body shape (contours?) to his advantage as well? dunno. top rite. can see his muscles loh. even at his age. COOL. n dunno if the cam man purposely teach him how to block certain body parts to be seen. sexy at his age. RIGHT?!? nice 1.
this is his sexy scene. in a previous competition phase, he was wearing some warrior costume n his good bod/fig was... realised. this phase, a competitor designed such a costume for him mainly to oso showoff his good body (HONRY GER LIAOz...) n he is oso daring n confident enuff to wear it. i applaud it haha. he's ever ready to pose in diff positions/gestures. n can see it's a low cut top. LOL, the good features/side of his body oso shown. kudos to u!!
as i was editing the pix, i thot of wat i wanna say liaozz. this guy i blif is no longer teen, or young adult. most likely 30+. but his looks maintain pretty well. this is him when fully clothed. left side, he looks like such fatherly figure... gosh... my knees... or rather, my heart is thumping fast...(cut) den right side, he is havign such a clean face siazz... n seem to have a good body. ok, i saw him dressed in a warrior costume, n realise he got good figure hidden, tat y i began snapping. den the black guy, i thot he may have a fig oso, den supposed to wear tights, but in end, tights dun fit his body. but nvm. i may have misjudged too :P
An EQ book that I'm reading right now, discusses about Spiritual Centre. I find it quite true.
An import way to curb human tendencies, such as lust and anger, is to maintain a spiritual centre that keeps you grounded and focused on living more effectively. It requires you to look beyond yourself.
In today's world, there are many peiople purporting to know the right way. It is wise to be cautious when deciding on whom to believe. There are frauds who exploits people's vulnerabilities and indecision about how to live their lives. Several signs to watch out for are, if:
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And the following line is quite true about me:
He usually downgrade their talents and look up to others more than necessary. He is afraid of not being accepted (at work, it's true. not in personal life, i think)
An import way to curb human tendencies, such as lust and anger, is to maintain a spiritual centre that keeps you grounded and focused on living more effectively. It requires you to look beyond yourself.
In today's world, there are many peiople purporting to know the right way. It is wise to be cautious when deciding on whom to believe. There are frauds who exploits people's vulnerabilities and indecision about how to live their lives. Several signs to watch out for are, if:
- they want money from you in exchange for building your spirituality
- they wat you to rely solely on them
- they use icons or toher symbols to build solidarity
- you feel uncomfortable deep down inside and wonder if it is right - if you feel this way, chances are it is not
- they want you to alter your behaviour or your daily routines so that they can take you away from your friends and family
- they belittle your emotional or intellectual capabilities
- they don't accept challenge or any different way of thinking
- everything emanates and revolves around them only
- they ask you to surrender your independence
- you need to question whether there is manipulation or cohesion
- they threaten you with recrimination and ridicule
- there is a hierachy and rigid rules that are outside of your normal boundaries
- they want to cut you from the real world
- they use drugs or other stimulants to seduce you
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And the following line is quite true about me:
He usually downgrade their talents and look up to others more than necessary. He is afraid of not being accepted (at work, it's true. not in personal life, i think)
Thursday, November 17, 2005
today is the LAST straw. i muz confirm whether i can go on leave anot.
but hor, today i find tat a lot of guys like to wear green tight Ts. i saw a poly guy sitting in front of mi in it. den antoher boy boarded oso. ya i keep loking at the back oft eh poly guy. den the boy hor, dunno y, 3 gers (forgot if got guys) who sat wif him all move to other available seats very soon. some ppl of cos peeped over to see if anything wrong. den, haha, i was thinking, i dun mind sitting there loh... n find out wat's wrogn n understand his thinking/mindset.
den hor, wah liao, a guy from the back seat, went over to sit. he sat there till.... his time to alight. ahah, at tat time, it felt like a guy is able to control him n take care of him siazz... and it's a grown up man.
den hor, the dec leave schedule, wah liao, no 1 willing to discuss, as tho dun wanna face reality n put things infinitely off. well, it's not mi loh. issues still need to b sorted out, n i will, for sure. discussing it, den finally reach some conclusion. for mi, i somehow really dun feel any clash at all. true, my schedule nvr clash, cos snr exam period is after xmas. i leave b4 xmas period.
but 1 thing unhappy is tat, sighzzz.. jnr had planned for a family trip in oct i think. n leave approved. den snr's exam leave now den made known, after i repeated asked her to. now her exam clash wif jnr time. family trip, of cos impt. den exam, is from informatic. ppl say can defer the exam, but snr insist cannot. haha.. dunno. so now, dunno their timing yet. but hor, i find tat, perhaps i blif it's not clashinig wif mi much, or i insist, within mi, to behave as tho all thigns will work otu fine for mi. i kept my mood n feels inside mi. thru out the plannign n discussing, i was always putting a smile n joked. cos i know: i know wat i wan, n know their schedule. it's gonna b a team effort, i wil ltry to think for them, but oso dun lose my point. dun get tense up, relax n discuss. tat, know urself, know ur enemy.
the jnr, cos it';s affeting her, well, in both ways ie her leave clash wif snr, n her moods oso playing her out. affecting her so she kinda focus on listening calls. i oso pick up, but tell them i call back later. well, cos she sure feel she at the losing end. bobian, the snr think tat, she got exam, so surely wil lget the leave 1, so dun care when she let us know.
n hor, i jus know they oso getting a new colleague. a female. i dun really care... cos, perhaps they oso know i got my cert, so jus to prepare for mi leaving or anythign, they gettign new ger to come in. i oso thinking of jumping to agent. but i dunno if they willing to buy mi over. other way is, i find java job, den get themt o buy mi over, but i fail the 3 mths probation? hhheeh...
back to office thigns. we shopped around n went to robinson in orchard, the flr where they sell men's office bag. har, cos the staff hor, looks like a GUAI sec BOY, wif thick EYEBROW, N SHY. CUTE! i look at him, for 2 secs, he suddenly scared, n dunno where to plc his ahdn hahaha..
wah liao, tis time i oso... dunno wat going on wif mi. today is last day to buy air tic. den i forgot to bring passport. i know which blk is the shop, but forgot the unit number. funni hor? jnr n snr oso ask mi, if got prob finding the plc, can call them. haha, well, i prefer to search n explore myself, rather than really so jialut ask for help.
but i discover 1 thing abt myself. i do enjoy moving around, looking, browsing n seeing new things/places. but i tend to b stukc at my plc. i dun wan to move around if i'm at my desk. but if i'm oredi outside, i'm ready to explore.
right now, i really tryign to plan n meet up my frns... haha, sigh plannign really need take into account abt time mgmt siazz... think ahead. n plan when i do wat. hehe, guess i gonna use sony's organiser.
but hor, today i find tat a lot of guys like to wear green tight Ts. i saw a poly guy sitting in front of mi in it. den antoher boy boarded oso. ya i keep loking at the back oft eh poly guy. den the boy hor, dunno y, 3 gers (forgot if got guys) who sat wif him all move to other available seats very soon. some ppl of cos peeped over to see if anything wrong. den, haha, i was thinking, i dun mind sitting there loh... n find out wat's wrogn n understand his thinking/mindset.
den hor, wah liao, a guy from the back seat, went over to sit. he sat there till.... his time to alight. ahah, at tat time, it felt like a guy is able to control him n take care of him siazz... and it's a grown up man.
den hor, the dec leave schedule, wah liao, no 1 willing to discuss, as tho dun wanna face reality n put things infinitely off. well, it's not mi loh. issues still need to b sorted out, n i will, for sure. discussing it, den finally reach some conclusion. for mi, i somehow really dun feel any clash at all. true, my schedule nvr clash, cos snr exam period is after xmas. i leave b4 xmas period.
but 1 thing unhappy is tat, sighzzz.. jnr had planned for a family trip in oct i think. n leave approved. den snr's exam leave now den made known, after i repeated asked her to. now her exam clash wif jnr time. family trip, of cos impt. den exam, is from informatic. ppl say can defer the exam, but snr insist cannot. haha.. dunno. so now, dunno their timing yet. but hor, i find tat, perhaps i blif it's not clashinig wif mi much, or i insist, within mi, to behave as tho all thigns will work otu fine for mi. i kept my mood n feels inside mi. thru out the plannign n discussing, i was always putting a smile n joked. cos i know: i know wat i wan, n know their schedule. it's gonna b a team effort, i wil ltry to think for them, but oso dun lose my point. dun get tense up, relax n discuss. tat, know urself, know ur enemy.
the jnr, cos it';s affeting her, well, in both ways ie her leave clash wif snr, n her moods oso playing her out. affecting her so she kinda focus on listening calls. i oso pick up, but tell them i call back later. well, cos she sure feel she at the losing end. bobian, the snr think tat, she got exam, so surely wil lget the leave 1, so dun care when she let us know.
n hor, i jus know they oso getting a new colleague. a female. i dun really care... cos, perhaps they oso know i got my cert, so jus to prepare for mi leaving or anythign, they gettign new ger to come in. i oso thinking of jumping to agent. but i dunno if they willing to buy mi over. other way is, i find java job, den get themt o buy mi over, but i fail the 3 mths probation? hhheeh...
back to office thigns. we shopped around n went to robinson in orchard, the flr where they sell men's office bag. har, cos the staff hor, looks like a GUAI sec BOY, wif thick EYEBROW, N SHY. CUTE! i look at him, for 2 secs, he suddenly scared, n dunno where to plc his ahdn hahaha..
wah liao, tis time i oso... dunno wat going on wif mi. today is last day to buy air tic. den i forgot to bring passport. i know which blk is the shop, but forgot the unit number. funni hor? jnr n snr oso ask mi, if got prob finding the plc, can call them. haha, well, i prefer to search n explore myself, rather than really so jialut ask for help.
but i discover 1 thing abt myself. i do enjoy moving around, looking, browsing n seeing new things/places. but i tend to b stukc at my plc. i dun wan to move around if i'm at my desk. but if i'm oredi outside, i'm ready to explore.
right now, i really tryign to plan n meet up my frns... haha, sigh plannign really need take into account abt time mgmt siazz... think ahead. n plan when i do wat. hehe, guess i gonna use sony's organiser.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
why do i have so much thigns to blog everyday? i really wonder y... so much things to tell? my guess is that, i live alone, some frns abroad. n wif my family i dun share some thigns wif them, and wat's more i dun live wif family, so need to find a channel to voice my feelings?
tis morning quite exciting. haha... finally i woke up on time!!!! prep myself n went to take bus. oh ya, the free paper hor, now queue getting LONNNNGGGGEEERRRR. i think hor, since it's free, ppl jus get it to read to kill time n b updated on the latest news. no big deal (yes, i'm inclined to streats dearie). was reading papers on the buss as it went off. den i saw 1 40+ 40 auntie bringing some packet stuff. she really those auntie ty0e loh.. looking for seats n unable to balance well. i look n observe her. she can balance but just looking for seats.
den as the bus moved, a ger was adjusting her bag. aunt lok at her oso. den, i decided to give up my seat. haha.. although the folowing line is cliche, but it's still pure courtesy loh
me: auntie, have a seat
her: u sit loh, nvm
me move away wif a smile
her grab the seat.
oh ya, anyway, as i boarded the bus, wah, i saw a cute guy sitting... bit plump though. wanna sit there, but he take up some space, so i jus sit opposite him loh.. den after i gave up my seat, ahha, i tookt eh chance to stand BESIDE his seat. look n observe his movements... but he napping lah. den i saw his file. NP freshmen orientation 03/04. wat??? he's freshie in 03/04??? but he in working attire?? i dun think he's helper in freshie day loh... cos helper dun get any such bags 1 mah.
den i looked around, to my right, got 2 fashionable guys sitting there, wif hair properly styled. the 1 outside, in wokr attire, but first 2 butts undone. ya i noted tat much. n they napping oso. sayangzz them siazz. so tired... n for a whole 30 mins trip to work, my first time to stand thru'out, but happily lah haha. somehow, later when 1 fashion guy alighted, the unbutt guy still there. the bus moved n no 1 tookt he seat yet. so i moved into it. dunno my gaydar working anot, as i sat there, the unbutt guy fell asleep, n his arm pushed onto my shoulder. gradually lah. i din resist hahah... den mins later ,he took out his mrt card, rubbing my arm in the process n alighted.
sighzzz.. at work, i simply hope my contract will end soon. no future in this plc. i'm thinking of doing a bad job here so my contract can end earlier, but i knwo it';ll gimme a bad name lah, so a BADB BAD IDEA. *snip*
den abt my oz trip. my snr ask mi to bookt eh tix first. so i called to boko liao, n ask, if someone cancel tix for earlier flgiht, lemme know oso. haha, so qiao, today misa called mi, tat i got a tix selling at 401, instead of the advertised 388. hehe GOOD!!! now oni waiting for the snr to confirm exam date
den hor, damn sianzz. i told snr last wk abt my oz plan. she say she need to chk her exam date. till tues, she din reply yet. so while she present i ask the boss. boss say need to discuss wif team. den wednesday, boss not here. n e tix, need to confirm by thur night. my feeling is tat, seem liek 1 day snr exam date cannot confirm, i cant take leave??? wats is tat???
but now, i think abt it... the jnr taking leave after xmas. when snr saw it, she promptly discussed wif boss. n my dates, 20th to 25th, she said nthing, jus ask mi bk first. my guess is tat, my wk, she oni taking leave to prep for exam. exam is after xmas. my guess oni. she even asked a colleague to discuss when they shld take leave... to, i think, study...
keep my fings crossed. hope thigns go on fine.
tis morning quite exciting. haha... finally i woke up on time!!!! prep myself n went to take bus. oh ya, the free paper hor, now queue getting LONNNNGGGGEEERRRR. i think hor, since it's free, ppl jus get it to read to kill time n b updated on the latest news. no big deal (yes, i'm inclined to streats dearie). was reading papers on the buss as it went off. den i saw 1 40+ 40 auntie bringing some packet stuff. she really those auntie ty0e loh.. looking for seats n unable to balance well. i look n observe her. she can balance but just looking for seats.
den as the bus moved, a ger was adjusting her bag. aunt lok at her oso. den, i decided to give up my seat. haha.. although the folowing line is cliche, but it's still pure courtesy loh
me: auntie, have a seat
her: u sit loh, nvm
me move away wif a smile
her grab the seat.
oh ya, anyway, as i boarded the bus, wah, i saw a cute guy sitting... bit plump though. wanna sit there, but he take up some space, so i jus sit opposite him loh.. den after i gave up my seat, ahha, i tookt eh chance to stand BESIDE his seat. look n observe his movements... but he napping lah. den i saw his file. NP freshmen orientation 03/04. wat??? he's freshie in 03/04??? but he in working attire?? i dun think he's helper in freshie day loh... cos helper dun get any such bags 1 mah.
den i looked around, to my right, got 2 fashionable guys sitting there, wif hair properly styled. the 1 outside, in wokr attire, but first 2 butts undone. ya i noted tat much. n they napping oso. sayangzz them siazz. so tired... n for a whole 30 mins trip to work, my first time to stand thru'out, but happily lah haha. somehow, later when 1 fashion guy alighted, the unbutt guy still there. the bus moved n no 1 tookt he seat yet. so i moved into it. dunno my gaydar working anot, as i sat there, the unbutt guy fell asleep, n his arm pushed onto my shoulder. gradually lah. i din resist hahah... den mins later ,he took out his mrt card, rubbing my arm in the process n alighted.
sighzzz.. at work, i simply hope my contract will end soon. no future in this plc. i'm thinking of doing a bad job here so my contract can end earlier, but i knwo it';ll gimme a bad name lah, so a BADB BAD IDEA. *snip*
den abt my oz trip. my snr ask mi to bookt eh tix first. so i called to boko liao, n ask, if someone cancel tix for earlier flgiht, lemme know oso. haha, so qiao, today misa called mi, tat i got a tix selling at 401, instead of the advertised 388. hehe GOOD!!! now oni waiting for the snr to confirm exam date
den hor, damn sianzz. i told snr last wk abt my oz plan. she say she need to chk her exam date. till tues, she din reply yet. so while she present i ask the boss. boss say need to discuss wif team. den wednesday, boss not here. n e tix, need to confirm by thur night. my feeling is tat, seem liek 1 day snr exam date cannot confirm, i cant take leave??? wats is tat???
but now, i think abt it... the jnr taking leave after xmas. when snr saw it, she promptly discussed wif boss. n my dates, 20th to 25th, she said nthing, jus ask mi bk first. my guess is tat, my wk, she oni taking leave to prep for exam. exam is after xmas. my guess oni. she even asked a colleague to discuss when they shld take leave... to, i think, study...
keep my fings crossed. hope thigns go on fine.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
consolidating 2 days.
monday: my agent came. wanna hand a giro form to mi. hehe, as i walk to him, he was standing up, "pushing" his chest forward. hahah, my gaze fell instantly onto his black top.
nothign else to say lah. den i slept at 130am, trying to snap some TV shots. but i was oso/.. doing something while sleeping haah. the next thign i know i woke in midst of night, den woke back my shorts, n woke again when the room is BRIGHT. it's 7.40am. GOSH, I'M LATE!!! wah liaozz... den no free paper to take anymore (oh well, these days, TODAY include letters of general public. it lost the feel of more impt issues. like i din expect ppl to write in about toilets, road cleanliness. OMG. WHERE'S MY BELOVED streats??) was abt to alight, n den it started pouring. argh.
den here comes the funny part. i got inot the lift wif a guy. i know my hair is BLOATING. i look into the mirror. the guy also look into my eyes thru the mirror ahha. i pressed down my hair, but din look at the guy 2nd time lah. at work, i was planning to take leave mah for oz trip. the snr ger say she need to check with her exam schedule. i told her on mon, den today tues, she din find out yet. so i ask again. den i felt that, wat if she took her time to check on the schedule? i better let my sup know oso. at least he can be notified as well. 2 bad, when i told my sup, he replied in a way that make mi feel i shld not have told him directly.
later i oso checekd the airfare. tryign to kinda check on the rates. KAUZZZ!!! the rates have change from 320 to 540?????? i was stunned!!!!! i called the agencies n airlines to check. GOSH!!!! the tix r sold out!!!! the closign date for the tix is 17 nov, but now sold out liao?!??!?! WAH LIAO!!!! next available date for qantas is 24 dec. or go SIA for the mn flight. but much $$ than qantas... damn it...............
din expect such cockup. well, jus from exp loh. cos i din not book the tix, i merely check on the rates. i was hoping to wait for the ppromo to get better n see again. sigh. a slip on my part. wah liao.. now need to spend much more money. snr did say i can visit oz in CNY period. when i told my mum, she oso ask if the cost is worth my trip. i'd say (hope she dun have the copyright to this phrase): "it's worth it".
i even prepare to buy some things over haha.. ya, when i saw the tix raise price, i was devastated siazz.. btu still i muz go :) umm, our morale here oso kinda getting lower by the day.
oso went to the adviser briefing today. hehe, the person who intro mi 1, i call her "AG". she called mi in office. i dun wan my colelagues to know, so had to b quite secret. why secret? i jus dun wan them to know bt my plans yet, cos i not confirmed, n stil need to check for details. when she called, i even lied to the jnr, saying AG veli veli mafan, calling to check on an issue tat's resolved wks back.
haha, den i took mrt to the briefing plc, the mrt was ok, even saw a guy in singlet haha. he shy, so bend down whiel in seat. but i look at him when got chance. n once again, i duno how to reach the plc, called AG, n "toured" the area in a bid to find the office haah. to my surprise, got 4 person (incl mi) supposed to be there, oni mi 1 person turn up. i found out more abt wat it takes to become adviser lah. so now, entirely up to mi if i wanna challenge myself.
but b4 tat, i need to find more details... wat's more my contract 1st yr over in mid march, but i wanna perhaps start on partime basis first. actually, if i really wanna go into this industry, i oso duno wat to do for my java n family. java cos i still into java. dun wanna waste it. duno... but programming cannot b long term anymore. den family... i dun blif they will support mi at all. or will they? cos the MLM earlier on need to invest money, huge sum. this 1? dunno,. my sis more open. mum is more sceptical.
monday: my agent came. wanna hand a giro form to mi. hehe, as i walk to him, he was standing up, "pushing" his chest forward. hahah, my gaze fell instantly onto his black top.
nothign else to say lah. den i slept at 130am, trying to snap some TV shots. but i was oso/.. doing something while sleeping haah. the next thign i know i woke in midst of night, den woke back my shorts, n woke again when the room is BRIGHT. it's 7.40am. GOSH, I'M LATE!!! wah liaozz... den no free paper to take anymore (oh well, these days, TODAY include letters of general public. it lost the feel of more impt issues. like i din expect ppl to write in about toilets, road cleanliness. OMG. WHERE'S MY BELOVED streats??) was abt to alight, n den it started pouring. argh.
den here comes the funny part. i got inot the lift wif a guy. i know my hair is BLOATING. i look into the mirror. the guy also look into my eyes thru the mirror ahha. i pressed down my hair, but din look at the guy 2nd time lah. at work, i was planning to take leave mah for oz trip. the snr ger say she need to check with her exam schedule. i told her on mon, den today tues, she din find out yet. so i ask again. den i felt that, wat if she took her time to check on the schedule? i better let my sup know oso. at least he can be notified as well. 2 bad, when i told my sup, he replied in a way that make mi feel i shld not have told him directly.
later i oso checekd the airfare. tryign to kinda check on the rates. KAUZZZ!!! the rates have change from 320 to 540?????? i was stunned!!!!! i called the agencies n airlines to check. GOSH!!!! the tix r sold out!!!! the closign date for the tix is 17 nov, but now sold out liao?!??!?! WAH LIAO!!!! next available date for qantas is 24 dec. or go SIA for the mn flight. but much $$ than qantas... damn it...............
din expect such cockup. well, jus from exp loh. cos i din not book the tix, i merely check on the rates. i was hoping to wait for the ppromo to get better n see again. sigh. a slip on my part. wah liao.. now need to spend much more money. snr did say i can visit oz in CNY period. when i told my mum, she oso ask if the cost is worth my trip. i'd say (hope she dun have the copyright to this phrase): "it's worth it".
i even prepare to buy some things over haha.. ya, when i saw the tix raise price, i was devastated siazz.. btu still i muz go :) umm, our morale here oso kinda getting lower by the day.
oso went to the adviser briefing today. hehe, the person who intro mi 1, i call her "AG". she called mi in office. i dun wan my colelagues to know, so had to b quite secret. why secret? i jus dun wan them to know bt my plans yet, cos i not confirmed, n stil need to check for details. when she called, i even lied to the jnr, saying AG veli veli mafan, calling to check on an issue tat's resolved wks back.
haha, den i took mrt to the briefing plc, the mrt was ok, even saw a guy in singlet haha. he shy, so bend down whiel in seat. but i look at him when got chance. n once again, i duno how to reach the plc, called AG, n "toured" the area in a bid to find the office haah. to my surprise, got 4 person (incl mi) supposed to be there, oni mi 1 person turn up. i found out more abt wat it takes to become adviser lah. so now, entirely up to mi if i wanna challenge myself.
but b4 tat, i need to find more details... wat's more my contract 1st yr over in mid march, but i wanna perhaps start on partime basis first. actually, if i really wanna go into this industry, i oso duno wat to do for my java n family. java cos i still into java. dun wanna waste it. duno... but programming cannot b long term anymore. den family... i dun blif they will support mi at all. or will they? cos the MLM earlier on need to invest money, huge sum. this 1? dunno,. my sis more open. mum is more sceptical.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
haha... last night, i mustered my courage, yes mustered, n went to irc. cos.. LOL, u blif it? i was reading an article dated in june tis yr, toking abt youngsters (sec sch boys) who, due to their immaturity, traded their bodies with materialistic stuff, and ended up kena those diseases. i was really appalled, n wanna b good samaritan, by going into irc n see if i can help in anyway.. haha, i know, and knew, it was mad movement cos how am i gonna help at all?! but i just felt justified to go in. haha.
i jus parked inside for abt 1 hr n went off. cos i din promo myself, so no 1 chatted up haha. n abt 12am, after my bath, i.. decided to b noti.i used my webcam for irc hahah. some ppl connected to mi, but due to the poor std of my cam, those ppl who demand for quality cam left disappointed, kept complaining how dark the cam is, how slow it's. but i jus bochap loh. they wanna see, jus see. dun wan, den d/c loh. some ppl oso wan mi show my face.. NAHZZ, those ppl who gong-gong den show face lerzz..
if u gonna do anything tat ppl can blackmail u wif, think of the possible consequences tat ur acts may bring. protect urself.
hehe.. den at last min, someone dun have cam but wanna see. den he quite courteous lah, cos he dun have cam mah, dun dare to b over-demanding. so we did play around, showing parts of my body haha... quite fun siazz.. although it's not bad to have someone coming over, i'm not sure if i'm prepared to meet new ppl. wil it be really ONS, or we can tok? aiya 2 much thigns to think. so jus over cam will do loh. hee, but he's oso someone who can control himself loh.
i kept asking him to come over, n teasing him, but he insist not to, saying he need to study. n oso keep asking mi to show "live action" n face. but i wun. cos, too risky :) so it's like we both try to get each other to do our bidding but none conceded. heeh.. long time never had such fun liao.. LOL
n hor, i'm really getting excited over my oz trip. hope everything can go smoothly..
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for long time, i din have a dream tat make mi feel down. it somehow reflected my inner world.
it's some festival.. maybe CNY? den we at a relative (dunno who) place celebrating. every1 is having fun mingling around n mixing around. i'm the odd 1 out. i choose to stay away from them. i dino where to go. i jus walk around in the house. helping to keep the place clean. i even rmb, using a broken mop, den putting it back/
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btw, this page is really ridiculous.. or hilarious..
i jus parked inside for abt 1 hr n went off. cos i din promo myself, so no 1 chatted up haha. n abt 12am, after my bath, i.. decided to b noti.i used my webcam for irc hahah. some ppl connected to mi, but due to the poor std of my cam, those ppl who demand for quality cam left disappointed, kept complaining how dark the cam is, how slow it's. but i jus bochap loh. they wanna see, jus see. dun wan, den d/c loh. some ppl oso wan mi show my face.. NAHZZ, those ppl who gong-gong den show face lerzz..
if u gonna do anything tat ppl can blackmail u wif, think of the possible consequences tat ur acts may bring. protect urself.
hehe.. den at last min, someone dun have cam but wanna see. den he quite courteous lah, cos he dun have cam mah, dun dare to b over-demanding. so we did play around, showing parts of my body haha... quite fun siazz.. although it's not bad to have someone coming over, i'm not sure if i'm prepared to meet new ppl. wil it be really ONS, or we can tok? aiya 2 much thigns to think. so jus over cam will do loh. hee, but he's oso someone who can control himself loh.
i kept asking him to come over, n teasing him, but he insist not to, saying he need to study. n oso keep asking mi to show "live action" n face. but i wun. cos, too risky :) so it's like we both try to get each other to do our bidding but none conceded. heeh.. long time never had such fun liao.. LOL
n hor, i'm really getting excited over my oz trip. hope everything can go smoothly..
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for long time, i din have a dream tat make mi feel down. it somehow reflected my inner world.
it's some festival.. maybe CNY? den we at a relative (dunno who) place celebrating. every1 is having fun mingling around n mixing around. i'm the odd 1 out. i choose to stay away from them. i dino where to go. i jus walk around in the house. helping to keep the place clean. i even rmb, using a broken mop, den putting it back/
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btw, this page is really ridiculous.. or hilarious..
Saturday, November 12, 2005
it's mi commenting again... (for the whole morning, i dunno wat to write. until now, i came back from lunch appt)
as i mentioned b4, my office got a fat sup. now tis fat sup transferred to a newly setup section in our office. den, this fat sup stil keep asking mi to do things n check thngs for him whcih he can easily find out as well. my colleagues tell mi dun do things free for him anymore. ask him do himself. but i'm still the mindset of, help if i can. they oso say no need so nice help him anymore.
i know myself tat, once my limit is reaached, den ta'ts all.
den hor, jus now the lunch appt, my left eye was twitching. den a fridae guy who i met up last wk, he wanna mit for lunch. counting the times, 1 last sun, 1 on wed evening, 1 on fri night, den another 1 for lunch today. 4 times meet in 1 wk. sunday we met. wed evening cos my family din cook, so i thot, dining together ok loh. den fri he wanna meet supper, cos he hungry n wanna eat soemthing. so i thot, ok loh. jus now, he again wanna lunch. i told him i used to eating alone liao. but he use those soft tactics (ku rou ji)... like "u dun wna lunch, den i skip" "1 person eat veli boring" "thot of going shopping mall walk". well, my heart soften, so i agreed.
but it turn out to be quite sianzzz. cos we nothing much to tok, n his ideas dun click wif mine. like his thining more to the self centred n racially biased type. as in, jus now, i abt to go order my food. beside us is a malay family eating. jus as i abt to go order, a malay ger, not kid, passed by our table n put a tray CONVENIENTLY. i dunno wat she trying to do, so jus went to order.
later, i came back, the tray is still there. i know who put there. grumbling, i moved the tray to antoher table, n exclaimed "dunno who put the tray on our table" in english. the family beside us know mi referrign to them, but told her kids to b quiet. den hor, this fridae guy, like wanna b on par wif mi, referred to them in a derogatory manner. i was stunned siazz...
anyway the newly opened place, food mayb ok, but svc not good. i wanna order spaghetti fish, n dun wan some things, the person replied , those things muz put there 1....... oh well, such rigidness dun deserve my money...........
as for fridae, need to cut down liao, so tat will not b boring. sometimes i muz really b firm...
thinking back, i was quite opinionated, if there is such word. i will feel my way is right. and if things dun work my way, i may be pissed off. even tho i thot my EQ was ok. like jus now, wif the bored lunch, i may b pissed in the past, but now, i'm learning to take it in my stride. as we parted, i asked if the fridae wnana walk around more. cos i live here 5 yrs, he oni 3 wks. his reply: all the shops r the same 1 mah, unless u know wat to see, if not wat's there to look around for?
haha, i duno wat to reply siazz...
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n hor i think in the past, (hopefully not anymore) i was quite easily irritated by ppl's actions which i dun agree. i feel it cld b due to, my pals taught mi a lot, n from them, i set a std for new frns. those who din meet the std, i'll feel they r not worth my frnship, or even feel tat, how come at such age, they still tis kinda look/feel/attitude?? an eg is... LOL ("LOL" is not part of the eg) a person (till now, still dunno if i shld call him frn or acq or wat) who i knew from irc, he say he wanna b frn to mi.. or maybe good frn. den i started to impose stds for him to reach/meet. eg, if i am tired, unhappy or soemthing, or anyone who is unhappy or tired, they will usually say oni 1 or 2 liners. den i hope or expect the other party to realise/feel the mood swing of mi.
when it does not happen, i feel tat person is not sensitive enuff, until such a way that he may not b worth my frnship. but as time goes by, i begin to understand more about diff ppl's behaviour n tinking. even for a SM frn, 'cos my pals usually can see thigns in a broader aspect compared to mi, n they usually manage to put that idea into mi, or convince their way is better, i actually tried to do tat to tat SM frn as well, resulting somehow in mi insisting my way is right, n put the other person idea's down. hahah..
but now, i learn to respect ppl's decisions. i can always tell them wat i think, n see if they r ok. if i dun think they shld do in a way, i'll tell them maybe 1 or 2 times, but if they reallu dun wan, den.. jus let it b.
i think it's partly due to my bringing up, and my newly-found confi.
as i mentioned b4, my office got a fat sup. now tis fat sup transferred to a newly setup section in our office. den, this fat sup stil keep asking mi to do things n check thngs for him whcih he can easily find out as well. my colleagues tell mi dun do things free for him anymore. ask him do himself. but i'm still the mindset of, help if i can. they oso say no need so nice help him anymore.
i know myself tat, once my limit is reaached, den ta'ts all.
den hor, jus now the lunch appt, my left eye was twitching. den a fridae guy who i met up last wk, he wanna mit for lunch. counting the times, 1 last sun, 1 on wed evening, 1 on fri night, den another 1 for lunch today. 4 times meet in 1 wk. sunday we met. wed evening cos my family din cook, so i thot, dining together ok loh. den fri he wanna meet supper, cos he hungry n wanna eat soemthing. so i thot, ok loh. jus now, he again wanna lunch. i told him i used to eating alone liao. but he use those soft tactics (ku rou ji)... like "u dun wna lunch, den i skip" "1 person eat veli boring" "thot of going shopping mall walk". well, my heart soften, so i agreed.
but it turn out to be quite sianzzz. cos we nothing much to tok, n his ideas dun click wif mine. like his thining more to the self centred n racially biased type. as in, jus now, i abt to go order my food. beside us is a malay family eating. jus as i abt to go order, a malay ger, not kid, passed by our table n put a tray CONVENIENTLY. i dunno wat she trying to do, so jus went to order.
later, i came back, the tray is still there. i know who put there. grumbling, i moved the tray to antoher table, n exclaimed "dunno who put the tray on our table" in english. the family beside us know mi referrign to them, but told her kids to b quiet. den hor, this fridae guy, like wanna b on par wif mi, referred to them in a derogatory manner. i was stunned siazz...
anyway the newly opened place, food mayb ok, but svc not good. i wanna order spaghetti fish, n dun wan some things, the person replied , those things muz put there 1....... oh well, such rigidness dun deserve my money...........
as for fridae, need to cut down liao, so tat will not b boring. sometimes i muz really b firm...
thinking back, i was quite opinionated, if there is such word. i will feel my way is right. and if things dun work my way, i may be pissed off. even tho i thot my EQ was ok. like jus now, wif the bored lunch, i may b pissed in the past, but now, i'm learning to take it in my stride. as we parted, i asked if the fridae wnana walk around more. cos i live here 5 yrs, he oni 3 wks. his reply: all the shops r the same 1 mah, unless u know wat to see, if not wat's there to look around for?
haha, i duno wat to reply siazz...
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n hor i think in the past, (hopefully not anymore) i was quite easily irritated by ppl's actions which i dun agree. i feel it cld b due to, my pals taught mi a lot, n from them, i set a std for new frns. those who din meet the std, i'll feel they r not worth my frnship, or even feel tat, how come at such age, they still tis kinda look/feel/attitude?? an eg is... LOL ("LOL" is not part of the eg) a person (till now, still dunno if i shld call him frn or acq or wat) who i knew from irc, he say he wanna b frn to mi.. or maybe good frn. den i started to impose stds for him to reach/meet. eg, if i am tired, unhappy or soemthing, or anyone who is unhappy or tired, they will usually say oni 1 or 2 liners. den i hope or expect the other party to realise/feel the mood swing of mi.
when it does not happen, i feel tat person is not sensitive enuff, until such a way that he may not b worth my frnship. but as time goes by, i begin to understand more about diff ppl's behaviour n tinking. even for a SM frn, 'cos my pals usually can see thigns in a broader aspect compared to mi, n they usually manage to put that idea into mi, or convince their way is better, i actually tried to do tat to tat SM frn as well, resulting somehow in mi insisting my way is right, n put the other person idea's down. hahah..
but now, i learn to respect ppl's decisions. i can always tell them wat i think, n see if they r ok. if i dun think they shld do in a way, i'll tell them maybe 1 or 2 times, but if they reallu dun wan, den.. jus let it b.
i think it's partly due to my bringing up, and my newly-found confi.
Friday, November 11, 2005
watched the "child of our time" again. it's the 2nd last ep. soemtimes hor i really wonder.. for those TV addicts, once a production catches ur attention, u'll forego some social events to watch its subsequent episodes. den when the series ends its run, u'll feel a bit lost, and need to plan wat to do next to fill up that empty slot.
anyway (i think this is another frequently used word...), watching the program really make mi know more abt myself. cos since young, i was ALWAYS at home watching TV. even my mum/dad keep nagging at mi to go out. but i jus stay home to watch tv. ask mi anything abt the TV show, i can asnwer u. but this actually affect(ed) my social skills. as in i dunno how to mix wif frns, n dunnohow to share... now learning it bit by bit.
siaozz.. these days i keep forgetting wat i wanna blog. had in mind the contents, but when abt to write i dun rmb.
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ok. 1 of my views for reln is that, i dun mind sacrificing to make things work. so i'm not exactly sure wat went wrong lah. first few, all din work out at all. den when i gain more confi abt myself, to mi, some ppl will want to know mi at the spur of the moment. once they get tired of it, of the excitement n the freshness, they'll leave u. or if they find any fault wif u, they wun tok abt it, n jus let go.
for mi, i prefer to really tok things out, and see if i can adjust to suit the other person. changing does not mean changing urself, but adapting urself to suit him better. in such way that u dun feel suppressed.
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i'm really planning (yes 2nd time i mentioning it) my oz trip now haha. den discussed wif my colleauges. seem like my hope to oz during xmas period may be dashed, cos due to work commitment. but i think cna work things out. den more jialut is muz call agencies to check on rates... sianzz..
n our place, the morale is really going downHILL. almost every1 is contemplating on resigning. mi, is to programming side. agent side, i din tell any1 yet.
anyway (i think this is another frequently used word...), watching the program really make mi know more abt myself. cos since young, i was ALWAYS at home watching TV. even my mum/dad keep nagging at mi to go out. but i jus stay home to watch tv. ask mi anything abt the TV show, i can asnwer u. but this actually affect(ed) my social skills. as in i dunno how to mix wif frns, n dunnohow to share... now learning it bit by bit.
siaozz.. these days i keep forgetting wat i wanna blog. had in mind the contents, but when abt to write i dun rmb.
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ok. 1 of my views for reln is that, i dun mind sacrificing to make things work. so i'm not exactly sure wat went wrong lah. first few, all din work out at all. den when i gain more confi abt myself, to mi, some ppl will want to know mi at the spur of the moment. once they get tired of it, of the excitement n the freshness, they'll leave u. or if they find any fault wif u, they wun tok abt it, n jus let go.
for mi, i prefer to really tok things out, and see if i can adjust to suit the other person. changing does not mean changing urself, but adapting urself to suit him better. in such way that u dun feel suppressed.
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i'm really planning (yes 2nd time i mentioning it) my oz trip now haha. den discussed wif my colleauges. seem like my hope to oz during xmas period may be dashed, cos due to work commitment. but i think cna work things out. den more jialut is muz call agencies to check on rates... sianzz..
n our place, the morale is really going downHILL. almost every1 is contemplating on resigning. mi, is to programming side. agent side, i din tell any1 yet.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
long time nvr do exercises...
deciding to buy my desired IT gadgets
checking out my future career
cehcking out possible internet plans
n finding out the good mobile plans...
wondering when i can move back HOME
really feel VERY sick of the job... perhaps due to its stagnant nature?
i now reading books on EQ. had wanna read on PR bks, but found these instead. " Trust & betrayal in the workplace" and " EQ development : from success to significance" are good books. " Social cognition" does not really suit me. the first 2 showed egs of ppl who empathise wif those around him, making a better person. n how to build trust n confidence in ur dept, cos if u dun show faith or trust in ur colleague's aibilities n work, they wun do their best.
well, i think this is happening to mi. in my job
den today, really surprising.. n i wonder if i am SENSITIVE... a good frn from poly actually working in HSBC as FINANCIAL PLANNER. he called mi up asking for meetup. haha, upon hearing he working as adviser, i immedaitel have the feeling he's gonna be hardselling again... another person who gonna hardsell. my opinion is, if u asking ppl out for lunch, n they dunno wat u working as, DUN EVER reveal ur work nature.
even if u muz, dun mention it over dinner. mention it only after 3/4 of a meeting, so tat, u'll appear u nto meeting the frn wif selling products in mind...more like jus informing the frn u r in the biz, n hope he can support u. ya, mi now oni tok cock nia. cos.. havn even start n got all thes cocks to tok.
n now, i'm, really serious in going overseas for xmas... now oni see when my frns r free, n when i can take leave... wah, first time i go myself.. so exciting@
toking abt frns, i'm kinda confued now. cos, perhaps i was influenced soemhow. but i feel tat it's my right to do it. u see, some frns who pissed mi off till the point i really give up hope. these r ppl who i dun wan stay in contact at all. wanna leave them outta my life. but right now, given my situation n how hypocritic some frnships can b, i really wodner if, i can get in touch wif them once more. but this time, i ONI TREAT them as acquaintance... ppl who i dun need to b so trusting n truthful. they dun need to know the truth in watever i do, n i dun need to b 2 frank n sincere to them. it may b the usual way frnships r, but to mi, it';s FAKE.
see how, after all, since some ppl cannot take the truth, i have been wondering its value for them...
den hor, saw from TODAY paper that, ppl r discussing heatedly over the naming of sch, roads n landmarks. i thot it's oni gonna b a 1 or 2 letters responding to it. wah expect such a fuss over it. comeon, wat does a name have in it?? it's for humans to refer. oni if sonmeone contributed to it, or it's due to some great works, den it's useful n historical to give it a meaninful name. if not, it's jus ANOTHER name.
does Creative hold any significance to anything? Other than its original meaning?
Does Lot 1 mall mean anything?
Does Heeren/taka mean anything?
was also amused by some replies in TODAY too. started off wif a ger (no bias here is eant, thus ger is better word) wearing jeans n casual attire, not of a typical female attire, ie skirt, blouse, tube (like i know wat it's.) the group of gers den complained tat it's ladies night, so y reject the ger, just cos of the way she dresses? i din feel much, jus unhappy wif how the staff deal wif it. den today, got 1 mail replying to a reply to tat letter. this mail was saying, some issues, i din realise the whole story till i check the new groups/
the reply was saying, the ger shld know better tat since it's ladies night, it's obvious tat the theme was to have gers inside the bar, and men will come flocking in. if she wants to enter teh bar, she shld have dressed in a better manner, instead of such lesbian/butch wear. ending wif, if u wnana enter the pub, play by its rules.
(hehe, as i am reading the reply, i have some things to say...)
den the mail was reply, the reply made women sound so cheapskate, going in when it's free entry. if the purpsoe is to seduce/attract lusty males into the pub, then oni women clad in skinwear shld enter. those without a good figure can b left out.
to mi, (obviously?) the reply was aimed at gay issues. but on wat grounds did the bar reject the entry? was the ger a transexual? did the IC state her sexuality as F/M? if it's F, why isn't she allowed entry? butch? wat'st eh definition? mus she wear a skirt or blouse to flaunt her beauty? is there a STATED dresscode?
it's a ladies night, whereby all females shld b allowed entry. it's not the customers' responsiblity or obligation to ensure they r dressed in certain way that can attract male clients. so why stick the duty of "ladies shld attract guys" on the ger? unless the bar states "oni ladies dressed in an appropriate manner will be allowed entry" hahaha...
deciding to buy my desired IT gadgets
checking out my future career
cehcking out possible internet plans
n finding out the good mobile plans...
wondering when i can move back HOME
really feel VERY sick of the job... perhaps due to its stagnant nature?
i now reading books on EQ. had wanna read on PR bks, but found these instead. " Trust & betrayal in the workplace" and " EQ development : from success to significance" are good books. " Social cognition" does not really suit me. the first 2 showed egs of ppl who empathise wif those around him, making a better person. n how to build trust n confidence in ur dept, cos if u dun show faith or trust in ur colleague's aibilities n work, they wun do their best.
well, i think this is happening to mi. in my job
den today, really surprising.. n i wonder if i am SENSITIVE... a good frn from poly actually working in HSBC as FINANCIAL PLANNER. he called mi up asking for meetup. haha, upon hearing he working as adviser, i immedaitel have the feeling he's gonna be hardselling again... another person who gonna hardsell. my opinion is, if u asking ppl out for lunch, n they dunno wat u working as, DUN EVER reveal ur work nature.
even if u muz, dun mention it over dinner. mention it only after 3/4 of a meeting, so tat, u'll appear u nto meeting the frn wif selling products in mind...more like jus informing the frn u r in the biz, n hope he can support u. ya, mi now oni tok cock nia. cos.. havn even start n got all thes cocks to tok.
n now, i'm, really serious in going overseas for xmas... now oni see when my frns r free, n when i can take leave... wah, first time i go myself.. so exciting@
toking abt frns, i'm kinda confued now. cos, perhaps i was influenced soemhow. but i feel tat it's my right to do it. u see, some frns who pissed mi off till the point i really give up hope. these r ppl who i dun wan stay in contact at all. wanna leave them outta my life. but right now, given my situation n how hypocritic some frnships can b, i really wodner if, i can get in touch wif them once more. but this time, i ONI TREAT them as acquaintance... ppl who i dun need to b so trusting n truthful. they dun need to know the truth in watever i do, n i dun need to b 2 frank n sincere to them. it may b the usual way frnships r, but to mi, it';s FAKE.
see how, after all, since some ppl cannot take the truth, i have been wondering its value for them...
den hor, saw from TODAY paper that, ppl r discussing heatedly over the naming of sch, roads n landmarks. i thot it's oni gonna b a 1 or 2 letters responding to it. wah expect such a fuss over it. comeon, wat does a name have in it?? it's for humans to refer. oni if sonmeone contributed to it, or it's due to some great works, den it's useful n historical to give it a meaninful name. if not, it's jus ANOTHER name.
does Creative hold any significance to anything? Other than its original meaning?
Does Lot 1 mall mean anything?
Does Heeren/taka mean anything?
was also amused by some replies in TODAY too. started off wif a ger (no bias here is eant, thus ger is better word) wearing jeans n casual attire, not of a typical female attire, ie skirt, blouse, tube (like i know wat it's.) the group of gers den complained tat it's ladies night, so y reject the ger, just cos of the way she dresses? i din feel much, jus unhappy wif how the staff deal wif it. den today, got 1 mail replying to a reply to tat letter. this mail was saying, some issues, i din realise the whole story till i check the new groups/
the reply was saying, the ger shld know better tat since it's ladies night, it's obvious tat the theme was to have gers inside the bar, and men will come flocking in. if she wants to enter teh bar, she shld have dressed in a better manner, instead of such lesbian/butch wear. ending wif, if u wnana enter the pub, play by its rules.
(hehe, as i am reading the reply, i have some things to say...)
den the mail was reply, the reply made women sound so cheapskate, going in when it's free entry. if the purpsoe is to seduce/attract lusty males into the pub, then oni women clad in skinwear shld enter. those without a good figure can b left out.
to mi, (obviously?) the reply was aimed at gay issues. but on wat grounds did the bar reject the entry? was the ger a transexual? did the IC state her sexuality as F/M? if it's F, why isn't she allowed entry? butch? wat'st eh definition? mus she wear a skirt or blouse to flaunt her beauty? is there a STATED dresscode?
it's a ladies night, whereby all females shld b allowed entry. it's not the customers' responsiblity or obligation to ensure they r dressed in certain way that can attract male clients. so why stick the duty of "ladies shld attract guys" on the ger? unless the bar states "oni ladies dressed in an appropriate manner will be allowed entry" hahaha...
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