luv_ktv's untold moments

i'm really beginning to lose interest in tis job...

the worse part came, when during lunch, the new ger who taking bach in psyho was having lunch wif mi. i told her abt my plans... trying to find a soulmate at work.. chatting is fine. but after tat, i begin to feel the lack of motivation at work...

now.. dunno wat to say liao... writing cock.

1) looking forward to jj lin over taking SYZ to b singapore's biggest ever export

2) ch 8 keep promoting its "star wards" since start of nov or end oct. den i felt it's SO EARLY... but now, i looking at the time schedule for ch 8, n realise it sjus around the corner suddenly siazz..

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have i got nothing else other than my job to bitch abt?

i jus rmb, ytday, my office need email another dept for officiality. (need to finish ASAP, den sleep early.. u'll know y later). i was composing it. den was abt to send off. jnr den rsuhed over. she saw, den.. dunno wat to do, n ask the new guy, KK, to review it, n see how to phrase it properly. KK looked, n said it's ok, dun need any re-phrasing. the jnr den was doing some other things. i was silent all the way.

'cos i really... give up feeling anythng there, n voicing out my thots. she still think i'm someone who is incapable. n need antoher person to justify if my language is correct. the stereotyping is there.

n den today, a few things happened... sighzz, jnr, KK, n new ger went lunch, bought xmas deco n took chance to kai-kai. on the email side, i had 1 suggestion, but the fat sup dis-regarded it all, sayign it's part of my job. jnr n KK both supported him, without sparing a thot on hwo to improve.

to mi, the fat sup was merely defending his stand. n the other 2 jus tryign to shwo they r thinking.

my interview has been confirmed, n i oso checked wif a programmer frn/colleague. he say my 1.8 is quite ok since i oni got paper, no work exp.

my speech-flow seem to have took a turn for worse... in the past, perhaps i can make out a line, proper eng line without problem. now, some words i use r kinda jarbled up. as in, i tend to jus say out what's in mind, instead of linking up my thots wif words n say it out for better understanding... muz improve... seem like, singlish n short cut terms r affecting mi. as in, i tend to take shortcuts to simplify words. i tend to cut a long story short to save time. but end up, the story is not clear.

during my prep for java exam, seem to have not oni lost some relations, but oso my insight gained b4 my focus on java. as i watch tv show, i begin to realise soem of the things whcih i had realised much earlier, but over the months of java prep i forgot........

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anyway, tmr will b busy day. original plan: go swim, haircut, go hbft, go get lens, n may meet a frn. sunday noon meet frn. den to celeb bday for colleague, i made adjustment. go swim, go bday, go hbft, get lens den hair... had planned not to go, as it clash wif my hair cut. but... oh well, to mix around, i have to move... i thot i'm really not used to such gathering... but if, the meeting is wif frns who i'm true to, i would love it.