LOL.. yesterday on way to work, was waiting for bus in lane.. i seem to note a guy.. guess he came in without queueing up..

a few stops b4 i alight, the driver came to check on him.. asking him about payment.. i looked back, n saw him.. quite alright guy.. den the driver went back, i looked back at him for 2 secs, he saw it.. but perhaps thinking why i look.

ahha.. den i decided to tease him.. as i got off my seat, i look at him, and smiled. he was stunned. den jus b4 i alight, i look again, he closed his eyes LOL...

umm.. back to work stuff... dunno if really due to additional workload. my shift getting busy.. anyway, they still haven find mi to sign contract yet. i kinda guess somethign is going on..

anyway, i dun care.. i din do anything wrong. but i got plan liao. will try to apply new job after contact end. if they sack mi b4 end, i gonna seek help fro MOM.

seems like nowadays, i dun have much time to write my diary..

hehe.. anyway, i jus complained about a taxi driver.. now waiting for their reply, cos i specifically requested for it...

wah, quite surprising siazz, about at most 2 days back, got someone in fridae send mi heart. as perk, i returned to him pretty fast.. n saw his pic.. den.. tat day i was horny.. n i told him tat... den he reply n bla bla, den i gave him my number, he msg mi right after he read the msg

i saw it around MN den.. sms him back.. n called him later. the way he sound, like quite despo for sex... cos he asked directly if i top/btm. den.. we both kinda interested in each other

den... i wondered if we proceed too fast, cos we actually planned to meet this morning. ehhe.. but he say he dunf eel too fast...

so we did meet up loh.. this mornign. dunno how come ,i actually got hardon when i saw him.. either i'm horny or somethign.

after tat, we did have a few good sessions... LOL... n i did ask if he can be my bf.. hehe.. ok lah, expected his reply to be "shall see".. cos we both of matured age... know tat looks wont last, but more to whether we can click

9:06 a.m.

haha.. today tat plump collegue is wearing a bright blue hawaiian shirt...

got ppl comment his shirt is damn bright.. dne i took the chance to take his pic LOL.. he coment he look sleep in the pic.. :)

10:24 p.m.

umm... hehe.. "back by popular demand"!! LOL.. there're ppl who emailed me (err.. heeh... truth is oni 1 guy.. from London *will he be thrilled if he know i 'mentioned' him here?*) to ask mi continue adding my stuff here...

oh yeah, in case of jealousy, it feels nice oso, when others read my diary, and it left a (good?) impression on them.. wif my dare in wordings and openness in my contents (did i write properly here??)

ok.. goinhg off in mins!!! quick!!! write out!!! argh!!!

wah, for a long time, din work MN shift liao. dne, surprisingly, a guy.. tat plump person.. forgot if i mentioned his name b4.. he came back to office.. after a long week.

hehe.. ok loh.. nice tat he back liao.. he look nice lei :)

den, the project tat he in charge of, got problem, so kena scolding.. wah liaozz.. almost wanna tell those ppl to stop it.. he's new and still not used to the work here.. wat's more, jus ask him to wear lesser to work can liao mah!!! :P :P :P LOL..

den later, my team discussed things wif him, haha wanna help him at times :)

lastly, i got home, saw my fridae mail, n LOL.. felt so nice and cool.. cos got ppl made mi honry in my email.. and, den, i was horny, so after i bathed, i was in towels.. and fantasize this n tat...

maybe kind used to controllling myself.. so when i gonna JO, i stopped.. den in teh end, when go all the way, i broke another record...

it short over my shoulder!!!!the shortest distance is my chest siazz!! like, it kept shooting n shooting lke no 1's biz.. felt so enjoyable... LOL

WORK... *poof*

3:55 a.m.

how shld i continue my diayr?

lotda things happened.. where to start off?

nvm... jus tat getting more n more unhappy wif my current life...

12:25 a.m.

ok.. tok abt my job.. supposed to sign and hand in letter by 15/jun.. but they din discuss wif mi yet.. as though they think i will sure sign without thinking.. kisoa..

11:55 p.m.

next day... ok, before this, someone has planned to meet mi.. he got car.. den.. bla bla... he using hidden caller id.

umm.. ok, had some SM experiments.. n know more about my fetish.. i like it beter when got things touch mi.. ok to tied mi up, but still prefer to have touches on my body.. candles not bad!! LOL...

ok, den went off to the shop to look for him.. AD....

hehe.. he not there yet, i left my number. den stroll to other places.. haha.. meaning the next door shop ;)

cos i saw the webcam.. DAMN fast!! saw price.. DAMN ex hehe.. but i still checked out the cam features.. quite ok loh... n 38.. cheap!! umm.. i'll buy.. but later lah, fix my RAM first..

so stroll till 10-15 mins past. no call yet. den i walked back. he is in shop liao. din bother to call. so i checked wif him loh.. den tok tok.. din chat much.. guess he no interest?

but he's the only person there i tok to LOL... he kinda look a good person n a nice frn... hehe... got a few times wanna look into his shirt, but cant see through hehe...

even when got other ppl, i oso din tok much to them hehe...

11:19 p.m.

where shall i start? got lotsa things to write..

ok.. i guess.. i start from monday.. hehe.. long time liao..

my ear piece for the hp is faulty.. so went to fix it.. wah, dinno the place is so crowded!! thot will be quite quiet so went about 1.5 hrs before i shld go work.. wah liao.. bo bian.. had to go work liao.. wait 2 long..

den.. the next morning.. umm.. i needed to go SLS to buy some things.. neede company n advice. so called a.. acquaintance. he .. slowly losing the frnship liao..

called him on monday to confirm whether he can make it. DEN he say he dun mean tmr, but meant next wk.. huh??????? kauz!! go back on his words. den he say he can still meet mi tmr.. abt 1.30pm. ok loh.. he still quite sincere.

so the next day, i went to repair ear piece. alright, i had planned to leave home at 10, so wil get there early. haha.. but left at 10+ lah. Arrived at the building.. wah very few ppl.. took my number, sat down and waited. wah.... e ger who tended to mi, so the TAY!!!! cant stand her!!! if guy.. see first loh LOL..

then while i wiating for my new headset, 1 guy came in. or 2. 1 is a good looking poly age guy? he came in, went past mi, i look at him, he look oso, 1 sec diverted eye. nothing happened. but we noted each others' stare. den he sat down oso.. i then went to collect ym head set. looked back at the ppl... err, got 1 guy look mi back. not the same guy..

ok, repair done, i walked to door.. hehe.. i look at that guy, our eyes met for SECS!! den i turned head to open door, n turned again to look at him, he was peeping at mi.. hehe.. some hint??

after repair ear piece, i went to bugis there loh.. forgot if anything happened on way there...

but hor, i kindly thot i might as well get there earlier, get all my research stuff, den when he here, can help mi decide faster... but i checked my watch. 150pm, still no rpely from him?? forget it.. i find myself. dun bother to call him.

den i strolled alone.

go up all the way to find a shop to buy CDRs.. i rmb on the top floor there... when my didi first intro'ed mi to the shop, tink got 2 married guys.. look quite nice heheh... den went there to find their shop. this time ,they not there.. maybe cos it's wkday loh.. bought some CDRs anyway.

den i started to search for the pamphlets for my RAM.. 1 shop.. inside got someone... thot it's ger.. then closer look hey, it's boy!! or guy LOL.. ok lah. jus ok oni. a bit beng feel... asked him some things loh.. about RAM.

den went to other shops.. some had good service, some bad.. took pamphlets n read..

den. went past a shop, saw tat they using TV tuners for monitors. hehe.. went to take a look..

WAH the guy... not bad looking. look prtty soft in nature, not actions.. er.. not those tuff guys type.. hehe.. quite nice looking chap.. asked him some things again, den took the pamphlet n went off..

umm.. he top priority LOL..

den time for mi to decide which 1 i wan... stayed at the corridor.. think think think.. suddenly i noticed soeone from a shop directly in font of mi was looking at i.. non stop.. i look at him, he oso din switch direction. i look 1 time, 2 time, he still keep looking. den i bochap him.

hhaa.. he den walk up to beside mi.. i oso... either jus raised my head o check who it's, or i knew it's him, so din bother at all.. haha cruised!!!

FINALLY, i decided i'll buy from that guy's shop.. hehe... cos..

1) he is nice looking

2) service quite good.. not those unfrnly service

3) a shop whcih sell cheaper has BAD service. no commitment at all..

4) but the price slightly higher lah..

anyway, i went there.. told him wat i wanna buy,, then he offered a lot fo advice n checked a lot of hthings for mi.. i even commented (read: priase) him for asking so much hehe..

but in the end, dunno abt my own pc, den he say i can bring down tmr to let him check. his name is AD************ (anonymous!!! LOL)

ok... decided.. i'll find him tmr.. (next page)

8:09 p.m.

I think i din write this yet...

i just bought a compilation album.. wah, sudenly feel quite old siazz.. to buy such compilation album... but face it i'm 24... prime age? ok lah.. ;)

5:05 p.m.

wah.. yesterday at work, i try connect home, but cant haha.. was quite bored and sad.. decided to go home n fix it.. was realy wondering if shld go home n fix siazz.. cos i at work, n it gonna take LONG time

but i still went.. haha.. as i walked along the office building, got 1 guy sitting at the stair there, stared at mi.. i saw a guy there, loked, really a guy, 2nd look, he relly looking at mi.. 3rd look, confirm he din shift eyes at all.. 4th time, i turned my head away haha... dun bother.. unless i come back, u still there loh LOL..

den really kisiao.. jus past noon, n i hurried back home... wah so hot and tiring..sianzz...

4:37 p.m.

haha.. forgot i supposed to add a new page since its june liao..

fri, i got last min company off given by my leader.. den tok the time to go shop n buy things.. wah, went all the way from home to clementi there siazz...but hor, veli chamzz

cos after i left home,reaching mrt liao, den realise i forgot to bring my travel pass.. den go back to take it. even though i had touched the cards, but DIN realise i ned to use them??

alright, this time is more to grumbling than about my thots..

i supposed to buy snacks for my hair dressers, n collect my contact lens. i thot it'll be better if i go buy snacks first.. so i went there, but the person tending the store is jus standby oni.. cant give my order of 4 packs of each falvour each.

then walk back to other side to take my lens.. kauzz, tat day is damn HOT siazz.. cant take the heat.. after getting lens, i went to buy lunch, n decided to jus take bus liaozz,..

dunno if such off peak hours, the passengers mostly LOW EDUCATED ppl, 1 auntie after alightingthe bus wif mi, blocked my way. i was just beside her, trying to over take, but she jus "owned" the way. liaozz, cant even move to their front. DAMN,

den i sid in a normal voice (not polite voice ie) "SORRY" den she kinda frightened siazz.. LOL.. hehe.. den went ahead to buy the snacks.. wah.. siong.. 2 BIG bags of snacks??

den i walk all the way to mrt.. as i waiting on the platform sitting down, KAUZ... ok, i put my snacks on the seating area as well.. wat to expect? it's food.. cant put on floor right? den that lady look around, n sat down. den, strangely she scratched her back, den when hand come down, hit my snack with a "pssh.." i looked at her.

she acted like nothing happened!!! din even say sorry or look apologetic at me, but keep looking in her direction!! i imediately, coughed! kauz! den she coughed back.. twice, thrice etc.. siao 1...

den on the train, i bringing 2 bags of snacks. standing and leaning near the door area there. liaozz.. 1 40-50+ uncle wif another small pack walked up and stood beside mi. ok lah, he stand beside mi.. but why muz his thing press onto my snack?? hey got so much space!!

i den moved my bag front, n pushed it back to my side, so that it kinda bump onto his bag.. he looked at mi, i din lok back, but gave a stare of unahppiness... liaozz...

den back to my place liao, brought the snacks up to hairdresser... got another guy beside her.. well he not appealing.. den never bother about him.. he oso no intrest in chatting up. as he could have asked about the snacks, den nothing loh.. but the ger really GER siazz LOL..

4:37 p.m.

haha.. forgot i supposed to add a new page since its june liao..

fri, i got last min company off given by my leader.. den tok the time to go shop n buy things.. wah, went all the way from home to clementi there siazz...but hor, veli chamzz

cos after i left home,reaching mrt liao, den realise i forgot to bring my travel pass.. den go back to take it. even though i had touched the cards, but DIN realise i ned to use them??

alright, this time is more to grumbling than about my thots..

i supposed to buy snacks for my hair dressers, n collect my contact lens. i thot it'll be better if i go buy snacks first.. so i went there, but the person tending the store is jus standby oni.. cant give my order of 4 packs of each falvour each.

then walk back to other side to take my lens.. kauzz, tat day is damn HOT siazz.. cant take the heat.. after getting lens, i went to buy lunch, n decided to jus take bus liaozz,..

dunno if such off peak hours, the passengers mostly LOW EDUCATED ppl, 1 auntie after alightingthe bus wif mi, blocked my way. i was just beside her, trying to over take, but she jus "owned" the way. liaozz, cant even move to their front. DAMN,

den i sid in a normal voice (not polite voice ie) "SORRY" den she kinda frightened siazz.. LOL.. hehe.. den went ahead to buy the snacks.. wah.. siong.. 2 BIG bags of snacks??

den i walk all the way to mrt.. as i waiting on the platform sitting down, KAUZ... ok, i put my snacks on the seating area as well.. wat to expect? it's food.. cant put on floor right? den that lady look around, n sat down. den, strangely she scratched her back, den when hand come down, hit my snack with a "pssh.." i looked at her.

she acted like nothing happened!!! din even say sorry or look apologetic at me, but keep looking in her direction!! i imediately, coughed! kauz! den she coughed back.. twice, thrice etc.. siao 1...

den on the train, i bringing 2 bags of snacks. standing and leaning near the door area there. liaozz.. 1 40-50+ uncle wif another small pack walked up and stood beside mi. ok lah, he stand beside mi.. but why muz his thing press onto my snack?? hey got so much space!!

i den moved my bag front, n pushed it back to my side, so that it kinda bump onto his bag.. he looked at mi, i din lok back, but gave a stare of unahppiness... liaozz...

den back to my place liao, brought the snacks up to hairdresser... got another guy beside her.. well he not appealing.. den never bother about him.. he oso no intrest in chatting up. as he could have asked about the snacks, den nothing loh.. but the ger really GER siazz LOL..

8:31 p.m.

umm whgen was my last update about?

err.. alright. finally i got the time and effort to sit down and do my own stuff

5:25 p.m.

long time no update liao.. no want to put everything in 1 go, quite tiring siazz.. see hwo muhc i can write..

previously the assignment took a lot of my time.. cos they require knowledge about the subject whcih i din really grasp.

it really took a lot of my time n... effort..

den decided to use its time difference to delay my handing in of the assingment. no diff.. had to rush thru.. esp when i realise tat my assignment had done something wrong.. even ahd to change overnight.. damn...

den, cant go for some fetish events oso.. when assignment 1 came back, wah, i was surprised.. and still am, tat the resul;t is not veli good.. although i really gave my heart... luckiy 2nd 1 is still quite ok.. almost A* i guess..

den exam... 2-3 wks later, exam is here oso... not ... ya lah, quite stressful. had a terrible time. i even understood why soem sec student resorted suicide...

ya loh, tat bad.. din even have a good rest... everyday drink kopi to stay awake.. really everyday.. so tat i can still study..

at the same time, work oso.. have new things coming up and dun have time to read at all.

wah, really very bad time... wanna have a break oso scared cant catchup. it's really a mean path.

den jus b4 my exam, office sms mi tat i din do something properly n wanna mi explain. kauzz.. i'm busy, so din reply at all..

n during this time, i did a lot of thinking an plamning... such as looking for new job..u know, after wokring for 6 mths, i kinda find tat this job is plain boring n not wat i want.. n i have problems saving money with this job.

now they offering my perm position. i will ask for ... not ask, but wil lwant pay rise. discussed with my sis last night.. decided wat rise i want, n minimum tat i accept. n oso OT pay. umm quite a list lah..

den i oso defer my studies liao.. cos really dun have money. dunno y.

den.. my exams.. 1 day got 2 papers... i studied for monring paper for a while. den focus on noon paper for a wk. i was really kinda prepared for it.

den the exam is on wed. i decided to use tues to revise for last min revision. cos i guess shld b ok 1. den the morning paper.. i really finished quite early n left the hall early for my first time.. in life? den i was exhilerated n called frns to tell them.

den i took the addition timet o revise my 2nd paper. i even took the terouble to memorise some theories. den whe exam comes...

umm... when studing for 2nd paper, the yandao frn did come.. chatted a bit, n patted his shoulder heheh.. if can, i really wanna pat his chest, face, n privates!!! haha...

den went for exams. damn, i can't do most of the questions. some MCQ qns, i oredi stuck for about 10 mins i think. den later part, i even skipped soem parts. dunno if i will pass anot.

felt hopeless for my exams liao.

after exams, everyone went to colect their bags. for mi, i sat at my place till everyone was almost gone. i was staring into space. den i went to take my bag. frns ask mi join them, i declined n walked myself to mart.

inside mrt, i went to toilet, on way there, i almost wanna WEEP... i was totally heartbroken n cant... think properly.

later i called a frn up n toked. he chatted with mi. he did get mi outta bad mood. but not for long. den on mrt, i .. maybe really too honry, when i saw a guy leaning on the doorway in white top n black berms, i looked at him.. btu when he turned head up, nah.. forget it...

got home, din even take dinner. went to rom to chage, lie on bed in briefs, for about 1hr++. got up, unlocked door, n went to bed dirextly. dun care i hungry or watever. mum did ask mi take dinner, but i dun care. i realyl heartbroken n disappointed with myself. din tok at all.

slept till 11+pm, woke up to eat some snacks, den did thigns n slept. next morning, got to work.. got some kind of scolding... but i know not entirely my fault n i not affected by it. but later, lunc time, i dun feel like eating anyting. went to isolated corner n sat there, waiting for timet o pass.

i know it's over, but i jus cant forgive myself for not able to answetr those quetions. they did come out in assignment 1 or 2.. but when i revise last min, i forgot tat i may not rmb those assignment 1 solutions, n din not study them.. end up, i can't even do them.. so despondent n disapointed. i am really feeling bad.

no mood for anything. yes, ppl can tell mi to not think about it.. but t's me.. telling mi not to think is simply WORDS. they dun mean anything!

but finalyl, i managed to get over it last night, jus in timet o discuss my family about Oz trip, n perm position. n now i even joined fridae perks for fun.. later, gonna.. applu for sgboy oso :)

yup, these cost $$ but ok for mi.. i wan to enjoy life for now.

10:12 p.m.

I'M EXCITED!!!

HAHAHA!!! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY !!!!!!!!!

hehe.. have i gone crazy?? NOPE!!! maybe a little lah...

haha.. but my efforts did pay off lah :)

ok.. went to off-shore for suntan wif frns.. or fan of amei. hehe.. for this, i slept at 2am, charged camera battery to full, woke at 630am leh!! SIONG!

hehe... cos i know a yandao guy will be there.. then got there liao.. wah... he really came :)

chatted a bit wif him... den while on the bus, i use my hp to take a shot of him.. quite dark, but I LIKE!!!!

den he say when arrive at destination den take better pic... i dun cARE!!!

den when got there, after a while, he took off shirt.. wah.. not bad.. got 4-6 abs, good defined chest.. not those body builders, but got shape and size.

but look a bit plump lei..

den i ask to take a pic of him.. he was abt to wear his top, den i told him "wear or not is ok".. den he say "u still wearing, so i wear loh.. if dun wear, u oso dun wear loh".. haha.. was he thinking tat i dun dare go topless??

i said "so, if i take off, u take off oso?" he hesitated 0.5 secs and said "yup".. haha...

i took off w/o 2nd thots.. was he thnking i DUN dare??

den took pic of him... haha.. but he think it bad angle cos show bad side of his body. hha, den someone commented i oni take pic of him... haha.. i din answer back. or maybe later i did say "later den take together loh"..

cos bad angle, somoene took his pic.. which he say beter.. ya lah... the side flabs not seen... WAH........... so nice!!!

haha.. when i ask him not to wear, tat someone oso suggest he take off his pants LOL.. den i joined in "wah, u so horny!!!!"

in end, got 2 pic!!! guess he no longer... so scared of mi or something...

den had to leave early for work.. sighzzz... went to frns' shop there to take lunch.. and saw another person there at frn shop..

haha.. i so happy!!!