5:25 p.m.

long time no update liao.. no want to put everything in 1 go, quite tiring siazz.. see hwo muhc i can write..

previously the assignment took a lot of my time.. cos they require knowledge about the subject whcih i din really grasp.

it really took a lot of my time n... effort..

den decided to use its time difference to delay my handing in of the assingment. no diff.. had to rush thru.. esp when i realise tat my assignment had done something wrong.. even ahd to change overnight.. damn...

den, cant go for some fetish events oso.. when assignment 1 came back, wah, i was surprised.. and still am, tat the resul;t is not veli good.. although i really gave my heart... luckiy 2nd 1 is still quite ok.. almost A* i guess..

den exam... 2-3 wks later, exam is here oso... not ... ya lah, quite stressful. had a terrible time. i even understood why soem sec student resorted suicide...

ya loh, tat bad.. din even have a good rest... everyday drink kopi to stay awake.. really everyday.. so tat i can still study..

at the same time, work oso.. have new things coming up and dun have time to read at all.

wah, really very bad time... wanna have a break oso scared cant catchup. it's really a mean path.

den jus b4 my exam, office sms mi tat i din do something properly n wanna mi explain. kauzz.. i'm busy, so din reply at all..

n during this time, i did a lot of thinking an plamning... such as looking for new job..u know, after wokring for 6 mths, i kinda find tat this job is plain boring n not wat i want.. n i have problems saving money with this job.

now they offering my perm position. i will ask for ... not ask, but wil lwant pay rise. discussed with my sis last night.. decided wat rise i want, n minimum tat i accept. n oso OT pay. umm quite a list lah..

den i oso defer my studies liao.. cos really dun have money. dunno y.

den.. my exams.. 1 day got 2 papers... i studied for monring paper for a while. den focus on noon paper for a wk. i was really kinda prepared for it.

den the exam is on wed. i decided to use tues to revise for last min revision. cos i guess shld b ok 1. den the morning paper.. i really finished quite early n left the hall early for my first time.. in life? den i was exhilerated n called frns to tell them.

den i took the addition timet o revise my 2nd paper. i even took the terouble to memorise some theories. den whe exam comes...

umm... when studing for 2nd paper, the yandao frn did come.. chatted a bit, n patted his shoulder heheh.. if can, i really wanna pat his chest, face, n privates!!! haha...

den went for exams. damn, i can't do most of the questions. some MCQ qns, i oredi stuck for about 10 mins i think. den later part, i even skipped soem parts. dunno if i will pass anot.

felt hopeless for my exams liao.

after exams, everyone went to colect their bags. for mi, i sat at my place till everyone was almost gone. i was staring into space. den i went to take my bag. frns ask mi join them, i declined n walked myself to mart.

inside mrt, i went to toilet, on way there, i almost wanna WEEP... i was totally heartbroken n cant... think properly.

later i called a frn up n toked. he chatted with mi. he did get mi outta bad mood. but not for long. den on mrt, i .. maybe really too honry, when i saw a guy leaning on the doorway in white top n black berms, i looked at him.. btu when he turned head up, nah.. forget it...

got home, din even take dinner. went to rom to chage, lie on bed in briefs, for about 1hr++. got up, unlocked door, n went to bed dirextly. dun care i hungry or watever. mum did ask mi take dinner, but i dun care. i realyl heartbroken n disappointed with myself. din tok at all.

slept till 11+pm, woke up to eat some snacks, den did thigns n slept. next morning, got to work.. got some kind of scolding... but i know not entirely my fault n i not affected by it. but later, lunc time, i dun feel like eating anyting. went to isolated corner n sat there, waiting for timet o pass.

i know it's over, but i jus cant forgive myself for not able to answetr those quetions. they did come out in assignment 1 or 2.. but when i revise last min, i forgot tat i may not rmb those assignment 1 solutions, n din not study them.. end up, i can't even do them.. so despondent n disapointed. i am really feeling bad.

no mood for anything. yes, ppl can tell mi to not think about it.. but t's me.. telling mi not to think is simply WORDS. they dun mean anything!

but finalyl, i managed to get over it last night, jus in timet o discuss my family about Oz trip, n perm position. n now i even joined fridae perks for fun.. later, gonna.. applu for sgboy oso :)

yup, these cost $$ but ok for mi.. i wan to enjoy life for now.