checking the diff n choosing between k608i n z520i... whcih is better?
wat can i blog? tired of grumbling abt work.. anythign else worth toking?
oh.. firstly, CONGRATzzzz to my gal pal for finding job so fast... i thnk ur peers will jealous liao.. haha... we r in SIMILAR field, so jus ask if u need my help in anything..
at work, as long we knw the focal pt of a person, we will understand y did tat guy say such things. *wah.. loads of things to blog.. but everything jus bit by bit*
wed, supposed to meet someone for sm fun.. n thru meet my crush for ktv. haha, wah, now i so openly call him my crush.. so bei paiseh.. so i think need to still gof or haircut b4 CNY. wah, need to spend extra $.. hehe, but i dun think he knw abt it.. but then, the wed sm changed to sat. so wednesday extra time. but haircut stil a MUZ!
my office suddenly say, due to some training going on, need to work earlier again. har?? den my haircut how? cant go in morning liao?? sianzz.. i ask the snr n sup. know wat? guess their ans?
snr - "den dun get haircut loh". she not joking tone leh. she is seriously suggesting tat i dun get haircut. wah liao. wat attitude!??!?! if our boss say this to her, she sure flare up in our face 1!!! den i told her, today not much things to do in morning anyway. she say she scared thigns crop up.
sup - "nvm, i call the boss to check out" n the boss agreed tat no need start so early.
den snr say "wah, they really so stingy ah, dun wan give OT pay"... wah liao.. wat an attitutde!! as tho i die die muz work like dat!!! there's nothing to do wat!! wat pt i go work so early?? she jus wan to show tat she's right siazz.. damn right!!
got 1 time, a person removed symantec program badly, n she was trying HARD to resolve it. seeing this, i suggested askign the person to install n remove properly. she insisted the person is not free n veli mafan. ok loh. den when she still fail, she say need to get the person to install againliao..
den ytday, we having meeting but sup stil lwanna mi take calls. so i missed parts of the meeting. tis morning, jnr ask y i dunno wat went on in ytday meeting. n den, i dunno which happened first... anyway. i was asking her to ans a call, she was doing 1 thing oni. den she later came my plc, n doubted wat i was trying to do for a user siazz.. as tho i duno wat i doing, n shifting respon.. GOSH... when i telling her the case, she jump to conclusion abt wat can b done. as tho i dunno.damn it.
anyway, abt my self, after confirming tat i can work from nn, i called salon. damn, the stylist wokring from 2pm onwards........ wah laiozzzzzzzz..... how??? if not gonna meet my crush, i dun bother getting hairdone so fast... ok... somehow i arrange wif jnr tat wed, i do morning, so tat i cna do hair after work. haha, snr is like unhappy like dat.. as tho.. i treat work like my plc.. suka suka change time.
so, tmr haricut n thur ktv decided liao. ahah, jus now chatted wif him.. had a nice chat again LOL.. hope we both comfy wif each other's presence.. i've not been closign his msn chat since sunday...
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Saturday, January 21, 2006
is it normal for people to head-dive into a relation, when they feel a thing for that guy?
Somtimes, due to a surge of emotions towards a person, we will want something to happen
btwn ourself, and that person. But after it happened, will we be happy wif the outcome?
no 1 knows, and it will always be a challenge of wat we dare to try.
finally, i'm working in a place for about a year. I understand what it means by Experience Counts. and know why is it important to be relaxed n click wif ur colleagues. haha, while reading the Trust and Betrayal book, i will wana change it to "understand what it means by having ppl to trust u, ask for ur opinion, and belif in ur experience n knowledge when u tell them ur opinion" ahah. sounds so formal n theory. but tis still isn't the plc i wanna... develop my career path in.
umm.. a review of the wk. not bad, pretty much enjoyed it. din really spend mucho $$ but enjoyed myself still. tis is called "lifestyle of a thrifty person". sat, went for swim n got a tanline. but i dun really knw if tis is nice tan, cos when i lok into mirror, my torso stil llook fair to mi. whenj swimming, saw a gorgeous boy (these days, i been wanting to use "gorgeous" to describe ppl who look immensely atrractive n young.. i still prefer "young" to "boyish") changing in poolside. den i saw him coming into the water. nice chest for his body size. gave him a good look 2 times, he "shy" n turned head away.
when i was home (family side) to bath, i realise... it's really good to have a flat to urself. cos, no 1 at home, i din close the bathrm door n towel left somewhere in rm. i done liao, so left the bathrm to take towel. i feel like there is lotsa freedom. freedom tat i loved at tat instant. no restriction, no 1 to control how u live, not afraid of being seen by public n kena reported.
den i watched te korean dvd - "Full House". wah the actor really LOVE to flaunt every part of his body at anytime of the day siazzz... but tat is wat viewers like mah.. haha. but i dun buy 1, or go crazy over him. i take the dvd from my sis n watch! finally, i had dinner wif my gal pal. quite a nice day to spend.
on sunday, focus is on catching up wif a rabbit hhha.. i purposely wore a singlet to meet him ahaha. tried to make some sxual jokes, but he evaded it. den went wif him to shop around. haha, got him to checkotu some jeans. he den showed mi how he looked. w/o 2nd thot, i lifted his shirt at his back. i duno exactly wat i "checking/looking out" for, or maybe jus wanna see more skin? haha, oh well, his briefs not obviously sticking out type. kept toking rot all the way. supposed to leave for appt by 830, but stayed on wif him much later to accompany him.. haha..
den i got home n a surprise awaited mi. the 830 appt let me meet a good looking dude haha.. for a session LOL. he was all smiles siazz.. does tat mean he's trying to look cheerful, approachable, etc?
den, had a chat wif the msn crush. sighzzzzzz, he's sensing his reln is ending liao, cos 2 much factors are affecting it. tried consoling n asking how i can help. he din need anyt... anyway, meetign him tis wk for ktv..
"like him, tell him lah!!" isn't expressing interest in his body already telling him i am fond of him? was planning for haircut after CNY. but now, i think.. i need it ealier liao...
Somtimes, due to a surge of emotions towards a person, we will want something to happen
btwn ourself, and that person. But after it happened, will we be happy wif the outcome?
no 1 knows, and it will always be a challenge of wat we dare to try.
finally, i'm working in a place for about a year. I understand what it means by Experience Counts. and know why is it important to be relaxed n click wif ur colleagues. haha, while reading the Trust and Betrayal book, i will wana change it to "understand what it means by having ppl to trust u, ask for ur opinion, and belif in ur experience n knowledge when u tell them ur opinion" ahah. sounds so formal n theory. but tis still isn't the plc i wanna... develop my career path in.
umm.. a review of the wk. not bad, pretty much enjoyed it. din really spend mucho $$ but enjoyed myself still. tis is called "lifestyle of a thrifty person". sat, went for swim n got a tanline. but i dun really knw if tis is nice tan, cos when i lok into mirror, my torso stil llook fair to mi. whenj swimming, saw a gorgeous boy (these days, i been wanting to use "gorgeous" to describe ppl who look immensely atrractive n young.. i still prefer "young" to "boyish") changing in poolside. den i saw him coming into the water. nice chest for his body size. gave him a good look 2 times, he "shy" n turned head away.
when i was home (family side) to bath, i realise... it's really good to have a flat to urself. cos, no 1 at home, i din close the bathrm door n towel left somewhere in rm. i done liao, so left the bathrm to take towel. i feel like there is lotsa freedom. freedom tat i loved at tat instant. no restriction, no 1 to control how u live, not afraid of being seen by public n kena reported.
den i watched te korean dvd - "Full House". wah the actor really LOVE to flaunt every part of his body at anytime of the day siazzz... but tat is wat viewers like mah.. haha. but i dun buy 1, or go crazy over him. i take the dvd from my sis n watch! finally, i had dinner wif my gal pal. quite a nice day to spend.
on sunday, focus is on catching up wif a rabbit hhha.. i purposely wore a singlet to meet him ahaha. tried to make some sxual jokes, but he evaded it. den went wif him to shop around. haha, got him to checkotu some jeans. he den showed mi how he looked. w/o 2nd thot, i lifted his shirt at his back. i duno exactly wat i "checking/looking out" for, or maybe jus wanna see more skin? haha, oh well, his briefs not obviously sticking out type. kept toking rot all the way. supposed to leave for appt by 830, but stayed on wif him much later to accompany him.. haha..
den i got home n a surprise awaited mi. the 830 appt let me meet a good looking dude haha.. for a session LOL. he was all smiles siazz.. does tat mean he's trying to look cheerful, approachable, etc?
den, had a chat wif the msn crush. sighzzzzzz, he's sensing his reln is ending liao, cos 2 much factors are affecting it. tried consoling n asking how i can help. he din need anyt... anyway, meetign him tis wk for ktv..
"like him, tell him lah!!" isn't expressing interest in his body already telling him i am fond of him? was planning for haircut after CNY. but now, i think.. i need it ealier liao...
Thursday, January 19, 2006
haha, well enuff abt bitching in my office lah.. went to pay my sch fees. a dude attended to mi. blondie yandao, or cutie? he brought mi to the rite person to ans my queries. den while i waiting for an ans, he sat down, n i looked at him. later, jus b4 i left, i looked again haha.
somehow, i felt pretty heart warming n happy when i get a funny msg from an msn guy. it's my crush i guess.. ahha, at my age, ye man. nothing much happen. jus glad n happy to b a frn, consoling pal to him. although we cant b together (he's attached, n i hope it wun fall apart easily), i'm happy to share to his joys n woes, n b there when he need mi. do i sound pitiful??
anyway, few days back, i had asked abt him a painful exp. today, he seem better. he thx mi, 2 times. n gave mi a hug haha. he ask mi how was my day. den he changed his msn pic to a topless 1. tat sure turn mi siazz.. i ask him switch to a clothes pic. he ask mi y. i told hin... "haha.. cos i cant focus doing other stuff if u have those kinda pic in ur msn" he smashed mi ahhaha.. n i pretended i was dead hahah..
it's jus a pretty normal chat, but our style n manner made it fun n.. i enjoyed it. although i really have to control my thots... dun mention those outrageous 1s..
somehow, i felt pretty heart warming n happy when i get a funny msg from an msn guy. it's my crush i guess.. ahha, at my age, ye man. nothing much happen. jus glad n happy to b a frn, consoling pal to him. although we cant b together (he's attached, n i hope it wun fall apart easily), i'm happy to share to his joys n woes, n b there when he need mi. do i sound pitiful??
anyway, few days back, i had asked abt him a painful exp. today, he seem better. he thx mi, 2 times. n gave mi a hug haha. he ask mi how was my day. den he changed his msn pic to a topless 1. tat sure turn mi siazz.. i ask him switch to a clothes pic. he ask mi y. i told hin... "haha.. cos i cant focus doing other stuff if u have those kinda pic in ur msn" he smashed mi ahhaha.. n i pretended i was dead hahah..
it's jus a pretty normal chat, but our style n manner made it fun n.. i enjoyed it. although i really have to control my thots... dun mention those outrageous 1s..
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
time is wed 9.53am. can i finish updating my blog, hunt for jobs, n read my papers?
ytday was quite a fun day, in a -ve way. when i q'ed for my bus at 1230, i was the first in the q, n den 4 ppl joined in. later on, 2 30+yo chinese nationals ladies simply jumped the q by entering from the front of the q. i stared at them. they bochap. i went up.
mi "r u q'ing for the bus or another?"
they "q'ing"
mi "then can u join the q?"
(1 lady began moving)
bitch "oh, dun worry, we wun board the bus first, we'll let u"
i moved back to my position n pointed to the proper entry "tis is the way to enter teh q"
bitch "oh, u can enter there if u wan, i can enter here wat, it's not ur biz"
mi "if u wanna kick up a fuss, i cant do anything. excuse mi, i need to board the bus"
bitch "oh, dun worry, i let u board first"
true enuff, i boarded first, den they boarded, followed by the 4 ppl.
sia suay their own citizens.
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den at work, wah liao, tis time, the snr went 2 far, n i retaliated. i was asking abt a DVD drv whcih i wanna get for my aunt in oz. den she put mi down 1 time, saying dvds r now veli std format liao, can jus buy. ok loh.. she claim tat, fine. wah kauzz, den later when she came backt o office, she wanna 2nd round. she said, buy dvd drv for wat siazz.. to prep for future? wah liao, den might as well ask ppl to buy coffins first loh.. prep mah. tis time, i din hesitate to put her down. until she diam diam.
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den on way home, got a boy who seem to peep at mi siazz. when he sat down, he oso looked at mi from time to time. haha, i din bother much. cos, wat can happen between us leh? i dun mind keep looking at pretty boys/guys, but nothing will happen unless we initiate something.
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den tis morning (wed), i thot i shld q up early for the bank, so tat i can exp something new. haha, the bank open 830, i q outside the bank 750. no diff. den at 830, the door opened, the ppl rushed in. hahah!! first time i felt i was so KS!!! really like those cheapo sale, n ppl rush in at the first min!! haha!! BUT, it appeared tat i q in the wrong side. shld go to remittance counter instead... :-/
ytday was quite a fun day, in a -ve way. when i q'ed for my bus at 1230, i was the first in the q, n den 4 ppl joined in. later on, 2 30+yo chinese nationals ladies simply jumped the q by entering from the front of the q. i stared at them. they bochap. i went up.
mi "r u q'ing for the bus or another?"
they "q'ing"
mi "then can u join the q?"
(1 lady began moving)
bitch "oh, dun worry, we wun board the bus first, we'll let u"
i moved back to my position n pointed to the proper entry "tis is the way to enter teh q"
bitch "oh, u can enter there if u wan, i can enter here wat, it's not ur biz"
mi "if u wanna kick up a fuss, i cant do anything. excuse mi, i need to board the bus"
bitch "oh, dun worry, i let u board first"
true enuff, i boarded first, den they boarded, followed by the 4 ppl.
sia suay their own citizens.
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den at work, wah liao, tis time, the snr went 2 far, n i retaliated. i was asking abt a DVD drv whcih i wanna get for my aunt in oz. den she put mi down 1 time, saying dvds r now veli std format liao, can jus buy. ok loh.. she claim tat, fine. wah kauzz, den later when she came backt o office, she wanna 2nd round. she said, buy dvd drv for wat siazz.. to prep for future? wah liao, den might as well ask ppl to buy coffins first loh.. prep mah. tis time, i din hesitate to put her down. until she diam diam.
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den on way home, got a boy who seem to peep at mi siazz. when he sat down, he oso looked at mi from time to time. haha, i din bother much. cos, wat can happen between us leh? i dun mind keep looking at pretty boys/guys, but nothing will happen unless we initiate something.
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YEAH!!! liu xiao zhou is the 1st runner up in prof scoring, and the top in popularity voting!!!!! YE!!!!!!!! KEEP IT UP!!! if any1 saw my blog, n decided to vote for him 2, THX U!!!!!!!!!
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den tis morning (wed), i thot i shld q up early for the bank, so tat i can exp something new. haha, the bank open 830, i q outside the bank 750. no diff. den at 830, the door opened, the ppl rushed in. hahah!! first time i felt i was so KS!!! really like those cheapo sale, n ppl rush in at the first min!! haha!! BUT, it appeared tat i q in the wrong side. shld go to remittance counter instead... :-/
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Monday, January 16, 2006
actaully.. do i really need to many email addies?? 1 for gossipign wif frns, 1 for formal communication, 1 for junk msgs/forum notiz, 1 for online group msg exchange. do i really need these many addys?? now, i not sure liao. b4 my pacnet died, i use 1 acct to receive joke msgs from frns n to keep in touch wif ppl who dun have msn or fridae email. formal communication is as wat the category says. ie, to send formal mails to any1. den the junk n group is still needed. but wif the rising popularity of msn, n using fridae to tok wif ppl, do i need those 2 singnet acct? let's say, msn let us have instant chat. den email we can use it for ppl who dun have msn, or not online. but email, take so long to reply. might as well use sms. hehe.. given a choice, i'll still wan both singnet accts, but practically, the gossip 1, i dun need anymore.. cos msn much faster...
over dinner, i thot of my 25th yr of living. yes, as said b4, it's my self-realisation yr. other than this, to be calculative, i'm still in my 25th yr of living. my bday is 28/07. which mean a prediction of mine still has 6 mths to come true. am i being hopeful of a fruitful reln? perhaps.. now, i'm clearer abt myself, n better able to see my actions and their conssequences... umm, do i sound veli laychey in order to be in a smooth reln? dunno... i am not used to meeting ppl in a big group unless i knw the ppl WELL. so i end up meeting 1-2 ppl at 1 go oni. 'cos it's 1-2 ppl, usually, i'll need to call up the same 1-2 ppl if i go out. so group outing in tis case is out liao. as i seldom knw ppl in a group. den perhaps i wanna save money for now, i often stay home, costing my social life, becoming pretty much of a loner. being a loner means i may not have the proper chance to communicate wif ppl, so my comm skills may not b good.. hahah, am i giving a long story, jus to say abt my views for a proper reln?? haha... umm... jus take it as tok cock loh... cos i not sure wat i trying to say oso.
umm, sch superstar. cool. i oso wish i ahve the chance to sing on stage, but i lack the coruage in my voice. i dunno wat songs suit mi.
over dinner, i thot of my 25th yr of living. yes, as said b4, it's my self-realisation yr. other than this, to be calculative, i'm still in my 25th yr of living. my bday is 28/07. which mean a prediction of mine still has 6 mths to come true. am i being hopeful of a fruitful reln? perhaps.. now, i'm clearer abt myself, n better able to see my actions and their conssequences... umm, do i sound veli laychey in order to be in a smooth reln? dunno... i am not used to meeting ppl in a big group unless i knw the ppl WELL. so i end up meeting 1-2 ppl at 1 go oni. 'cos it's 1-2 ppl, usually, i'll need to call up the same 1-2 ppl if i go out. so group outing in tis case is out liao. as i seldom knw ppl in a group. den perhaps i wanna save money for now, i often stay home, costing my social life, becoming pretty much of a loner. being a loner means i may not have the proper chance to communicate wif ppl, so my comm skills may not b good.. hahah, am i giving a long story, jus to say abt my views for a proper reln?? haha... umm... jus take it as tok cock loh... cos i not sure wat i trying to say oso.
umm, sch superstar. cool. i oso wish i ahve the chance to sing on stage, but i lack the coruage in my voice. i dunno wat songs suit mi.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
somehow, wat i can conclude abt ytday is, a time lag case.
my first time to be on bed till 4+am n stil lawake, n woke at 7am n slept again, still 11+ den wake up. i totally blur, n dunno wat to do. time wise like all wrong. totally blur like dunno wat to do to kill time. even paiseh'ed myself, as in, i so lost abt wat to do, tat i got HONRY, REAL TIME HONRY. paiseh, as in.. if anyone were to show interest in meeting up, i'll be onzz enuff to invite him over. perhaps just to vent my sexual needs... luckily i still sober enuff to reject the "challenge" to jo in staircase. "challenge", cos it's a stupid 1. how i define stupid? dun ask mi. perhaps not my style, or jus not a gd env to start wif.
but i felt bad at night. i used my gal pal's method to pian jiak a supper from a heartlander. he has tried to ask mi out for dinner/supper a number of times liao, but i often declined. den tis time, i asked if he can treat mi for supper.. he's ok. haha. pian jiak, cos i knw i cant click wfi him. ask him out, more to jus have someone foot my bill oni.
n jus met someone from fridae. haha, jus 1 conclusion: u think u r smart, but i'm not stupid 2 :)
my first time to be on bed till 4+am n stil lawake, n woke at 7am n slept again, still 11+ den wake up. i totally blur, n dunno wat to do. time wise like all wrong. totally blur like dunno wat to do to kill time. even paiseh'ed myself, as in, i so lost abt wat to do, tat i got HONRY, REAL TIME HONRY. paiseh, as in.. if anyone were to show interest in meeting up, i'll be onzz enuff to invite him over. perhaps just to vent my sexual needs... luckily i still sober enuff to reject the "challenge" to jo in staircase. "challenge", cos it's a stupid 1. how i define stupid? dun ask mi. perhaps not my style, or jus not a gd env to start wif.
but i felt bad at night. i used my gal pal's method to pian jiak a supper from a heartlander. he has tried to ask mi out for dinner/supper a number of times liao, but i often declined. den tis time, i asked if he can treat mi for supper.. he's ok. haha. pian jiak, cos i knw i cant click wfi him. ask him out, more to jus have someone foot my bill oni.
n jus met someone from fridae. haha, jus 1 conclusion: u think u r smart, but i'm not stupid 2 :)
Saturday, January 14, 2006
wat's wrong wif mi today?
last night, i was on irc, finding ppl. no luck, n exp some back slashing oso. eg, a person chated wif mi, n i showed him my fridae pix. he say i wear sunglasses on those pic. wan mi send w/o glasses 1. i din send, n ask his pix in return, he insist those pic nto clear enuff n wan mi send him my proper face pix. i din reply him at all.
den since no result, i went to bed. but i jus wanna play wif myself.. DIY ie. from 2+ till 3+am, i was making miself high.. till 4am. din feel like sleeping yet. dozed off a while til 6, woke 7,8 10, n finally 11+. woke up, no idea wat to do. watched some taiwan NY countdown performenace for my amei. den.. went for lunch.
den someone from fridae msg mi, n we end up toking in msn. in msn, we tok abt sex. he sound pretty keen, n i thot have someone coming over. but he has a apptmt n cant come. but he suggested mi going over, n dared mi to jo wif him in staircase. after jo, we can part. i told him it's not my style. he say i dun dare at all. oh well..
tis day.. can say the time is worst spent. nothing done at all. i dunno hwo come. perhaps i'm tired? or ... dunno..
n i wonder if it's gd news. feel horny for 24 hrs. den jus now, a person from fridae suddenly call mi. as tho i know him well enuff siazz!!! stunned n surprised mi wif his call SUDDENLY. i at a loss of wat to say, n he jus kept on toking... our first time to tok leh. i jus kept quiet n replied wif 1 liner. but, at least, it made mi not honry anymore LOL...
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been thru tis wasteful day, i knw/understand y some ppl feel tat it's boring to stay home...
last night, i was on irc, finding ppl. no luck, n exp some back slashing oso. eg, a person chated wif mi, n i showed him my fridae pix. he say i wear sunglasses on those pic. wan mi send w/o glasses 1. i din send, n ask his pix in return, he insist those pic nto clear enuff n wan mi send him my proper face pix. i din reply him at all.
den since no result, i went to bed. but i jus wanna play wif myself.. DIY ie. from 2+ till 3+am, i was making miself high.. till 4am. din feel like sleeping yet. dozed off a while til 6, woke 7,8 10, n finally 11+. woke up, no idea wat to do. watched some taiwan NY countdown performenace for my amei. den.. went for lunch.
den someone from fridae msg mi, n we end up toking in msn. in msn, we tok abt sex. he sound pretty keen, n i thot have someone coming over. but he has a apptmt n cant come. but he suggested mi going over, n dared mi to jo wif him in staircase. after jo, we can part. i told him it's not my style. he say i dun dare at all. oh well..
tis day.. can say the time is worst spent. nothing done at all. i dunno hwo come. perhaps i'm tired? or ... dunno..
n i wonder if it's gd news. feel horny for 24 hrs. den jus now, a person from fridae suddenly call mi. as tho i know him well enuff siazz!!! stunned n surprised mi wif his call SUDDENLY. i at a loss of wat to say, n he jus kept on toking... our first time to tok leh. i jus kept quiet n replied wif 1 liner. but, at least, it made mi not honry anymore LOL...
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been thru tis wasteful day, i knw/understand y some ppl feel tat it's boring to stay home...
Friday, January 13, 2006
both happy n sad to say, during my trip to oz, i learnt tat having multiple faces is somehow the natural way of life. natural, as in nurtured, not innate.. was i confusing?
my definition: it's the normal way to survive in the world. wif diff ppl, u assume diff way fo toking, lvl of understanding n communications. n wif diff ppl, u oso behave diff'ly. if it sounds chim, well, u have to exp it.
happy is tat, thru the trip, i learnt that it's jus the way to make living easier. within urself, u may not liek to spend time wif someone, but soemhow u have to pass time this way. ya, kinda like cannot-click type of frns.
sad is that, this is happening to mi, n i have to hide some facts/knwledge inside myself. if too much facts is made known, it HURTS. *OUCH*. now, everything is based on need-to-know, instead of tell all..
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jus now, on ch 8, there was a touching scene.
a lady is determined to be a big star. she tried all means n ways n even unscrupulous means to hit the headlines. she even caused chaos in the family, n moved out, making her mum furious, on the verge of slapping her, for her loss of dignity
then, there was news tat, her movie flopped big time. her new movie had very little viewers. she din blif it. she went to watch it. true enuff, very few spectators (is there another more appropriate word??). some ppl were there to enjoy 2-party time. some there dozing off.
at last the movie finished. lady got up n abt to leave, when she saw her mum. her mum immediately commended her acting skills r tremendous n she has watched for 5 times. everytime she watch, she observed/learnt something new. the lady wept, and left the cinema in a huff. mum chased after her, n commented that, the director muz b very badly-skilled, causing the lack of viewership. the lady heard these, n broke down... they made up...
well, wat to say... parental love is always the greatest...
my definition: it's the normal way to survive in the world. wif diff ppl, u assume diff way fo toking, lvl of understanding n communications. n wif diff ppl, u oso behave diff'ly. if it sounds chim, well, u have to exp it.
happy is tat, thru the trip, i learnt that it's jus the way to make living easier. within urself, u may not liek to spend time wif someone, but soemhow u have to pass time this way. ya, kinda like cannot-click type of frns.
sad is that, this is happening to mi, n i have to hide some facts/knwledge inside myself. if too much facts is made known, it HURTS. *OUCH*. now, everything is based on need-to-know, instead of tell all..
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jus now, on ch 8, there was a touching scene.
a lady is determined to be a big star. she tried all means n ways n even unscrupulous means to hit the headlines. she even caused chaos in the family, n moved out, making her mum furious, on the verge of slapping her, for her loss of dignity
then, there was news tat, her movie flopped big time. her new movie had very little viewers. she din blif it. she went to watch it. true enuff, very few spectators (is there another more appropriate word??). some ppl were there to enjoy 2-party time. some there dozing off.
at last the movie finished. lady got up n abt to leave, when she saw her mum. her mum immediately commended her acting skills r tremendous n she has watched for 5 times. everytime she watch, she observed/learnt something new. the lady wept, and left the cinema in a huff. mum chased after her, n commented that, the director muz b very badly-skilled, causing the lack of viewership. the lady heard these, n broke down... they made up...
well, wat to say... parental love is always the greatest...
Thursday, January 12, 2006
dunno wat's wif today. the first bad day of the yr.
last night, i slept at 1am, but fell asleep oni abt 130+am. morning, i woke at near 6am, den slept some more. next thing i knw, it's 7.37am. i woke up and rushed for work. i knw i recv a few sms. i din check at all, cos i was jus dormant n resting on the bus. den i entered office, n the new gal say "y nvr reply my sms?". i stepped into my cubicle, n my sup say "u late again. next time u late, can u pls inform at least 1 of us? we dunno who is doing night support n duno who to contact". i oni smilingly "orh orh".
i thot someone stepped on his back. later i thot over it n realised tat, it's jus his work commitment sense getting over-sensitive. everythign almost fine. an agency contact mi, saying that she got opening for helpdesk job.
i asked her, if my resume is seeking helpdesk or programmer job.
she said programmer.
i "In this case, i wld oni be looking at programmer job"
she "but the openings i have at hand r those tat require exp"
i "in tis case, can u keep a lookout for mi, n let mi knw if there is any such positions open?"
she "oh, ok loh, can, thx bye bye"
den, workload is really VERY relaxing. i was almost on the verge of dozing off.
later, i KO on time, n hurried to taek the bus. crowded, but by stroke of luck, i got a seat within mins. but, the trip took 30 mins more than expected. i planned to buy herbal tea to cool my body down. but the shop is not open. den i go library to search for my book, "Trust and betrayal...". i had wanna find it since monday, but no luck at all. today, i used 40 mins to search for shelves. NO LUCK STILL. wat's wrong?? i cant' find it?!? i am exhausted.
den i made my way home. the dinner? leftovers of vege, half eaten fish, few pieces of sour chicken, n a few pieces of beancurd. can i satify my hunger wif these? dun think so. i cook instant mee. mum say "still got chiken wat". i told her, "jus eating those meat wun make mi full"
cooked the mee n ate it. oso asked my mum for a loan for my studies. half a mth's grace more oni. oh ya, n worse, my mp3 player no batt. i change the batt, but dun seem to work oso. did it become faulty, due to rain?
den wondering if i shld take more dinner. but come to think of it, i dun wan spend too much money. still need to buy thsoe lil lil things... which cost money.. i cant anyhow spend liao...
last night, i slept at 1am, but fell asleep oni abt 130+am. morning, i woke at near 6am, den slept some more. next thing i knw, it's 7.37am. i woke up and rushed for work. i knw i recv a few sms. i din check at all, cos i was jus dormant n resting on the bus. den i entered office, n the new gal say "y nvr reply my sms?". i stepped into my cubicle, n my sup say "u late again. next time u late, can u pls inform at least 1 of us? we dunno who is doing night support n duno who to contact". i oni smilingly "orh orh".
i thot someone stepped on his back. later i thot over it n realised tat, it's jus his work commitment sense getting over-sensitive. everythign almost fine. an agency contact mi, saying that she got opening for helpdesk job.
i asked her, if my resume is seeking helpdesk or programmer job.
she said programmer.
i "In this case, i wld oni be looking at programmer job"
she "but the openings i have at hand r those tat require exp"
i "in tis case, can u keep a lookout for mi, n let mi knw if there is any such positions open?"
she "oh, ok loh, can, thx bye bye"
den, workload is really VERY relaxing. i was almost on the verge of dozing off.
later, i KO on time, n hurried to taek the bus. crowded, but by stroke of luck, i got a seat within mins. but, the trip took 30 mins more than expected. i planned to buy herbal tea to cool my body down. but the shop is not open. den i go library to search for my book, "Trust and betrayal...". i had wanna find it since monday, but no luck at all. today, i used 40 mins to search for shelves. NO LUCK STILL. wat's wrong?? i cant' find it?!? i am exhausted.
den i made my way home. the dinner? leftovers of vege, half eaten fish, few pieces of sour chicken, n a few pieces of beancurd. can i satify my hunger wif these? dun think so. i cook instant mee. mum say "still got chiken wat". i told her, "jus eating those meat wun make mi full"
cooked the mee n ate it. oso asked my mum for a loan for my studies. half a mth's grace more oni. oh ya, n worse, my mp3 player no batt. i change the batt, but dun seem to work oso. did it become faulty, due to rain?
den wondering if i shld take more dinner. but come to think of it, i dun wan spend too much money. still need to buy thsoe lil lil things... which cost money.. i cant anyhow spend liao...
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
on sunday, the charity show for "Ren Ci" was shown. Usual "death-defying" stunts were performed. "" 'cos... i dun really categories them as death defying. more to weather u r seasoned to take them on anot. if u fail, the bungee jumping rope is there for u.
wat touched mi tat day was, when Rayson Tan and his wife LP were tasked to move along a few pairs of ropes hanging in mid air, they really did their best to perform well.
They were moving on the slippery ropes. LP is scared of heights (no point for MCS to lie abt this correct?) but willing to push her limits to raise funds. The act is like this. Both are moving on their own lines. But there is no railings or balancing pole for them to carry. the oni choice is to depend on their chemistry n sense of balance, support and trust. 'Cos they have to lean towards each other to gain balance.
LP is scared of ht, so she lean more towards RT. and her legs r shaking , or trembling. HARD. RT's line is almost not moving at all. It's really about mutual trust and support.
Too bad, when they are about to finish, I cna hear audience n ppl jus shouting, or yelling "reaching, reaching!!! quick, last 2 steps oni!!"
kauzz, do they know how much anxiety such yelling of excitement can cause ppl??!?! if the person is damn tired, it can boost the morale. but the person is SCARED STIFF!! mentally, LP maybe prepared to fnish n dun think too much. but the sudden shouting? it can jus disrupt her concentration n determination to not divert her thots n attention, but wah liao, they jus keep shouting.
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by a stroke of luck, my office lent mi a laptop wif WLAN connection to test some software. haha, i sms my gal pal immediately to tell her. ehhe... 1 thing whcih i find funny is, everytime she is better-informed than mi. den tis time, for WLAN access, she ask mi where can she surf WLAN even if she got laptop. heeh, maybe she really outta singapore too long, dinno mc got WLAN..
den hor... ytday, our laptop vendor came over... still so charming as ever. if he use back his beng hairstyle, even more droolsome.
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it's tuesday. last night, singnet acct done up. i think my acct can surf (ask my mum if bro can surf, she dun dare ask). now oni left the webcam to buy (discounted rate of 40$), activate the Album service, antiV, antispam. tmr the WLAN tech guy will go my plc to install the modem. haha... ya, i m thinking of en-acting those vid scenes LOL... if the person is not bad looking lah... n hor, use the laptop to test the WLAN surfing ahha.. cant wait for tmr...
n knw wat? after my pacnet email disabled, i try using gmail n yahoo smtp. but both cant config. yahoo got error msg. but i din boher to read up. den ytday (monday), alas, my singnet email got liao, but my room is using scv, get error when using singnet smtp. laiozz.. end up realise tat i can config my mail such way tat, yahoo can send out email for mi... phew but liewzzz
wat touched mi tat day was, when Rayson Tan and his wife LP were tasked to move along a few pairs of ropes hanging in mid air, they really did their best to perform well.
They were moving on the slippery ropes. LP is scared of heights (no point for MCS to lie abt this correct?) but willing to push her limits to raise funds. The act is like this. Both are moving on their own lines. But there is no railings or balancing pole for them to carry. the oni choice is to depend on their chemistry n sense of balance, support and trust. 'Cos they have to lean towards each other to gain balance.
LP is scared of ht, so she lean more towards RT. and her legs r shaking , or trembling. HARD. RT's line is almost not moving at all. It's really about mutual trust and support.
Too bad, when they are about to finish, I cna hear audience n ppl jus shouting, or yelling "reaching, reaching!!! quick, last 2 steps oni!!"
kauzz, do they know how much anxiety such yelling of excitement can cause ppl??!?! if the person is damn tired, it can boost the morale. but the person is SCARED STIFF!! mentally, LP maybe prepared to fnish n dun think too much. but the sudden shouting? it can jus disrupt her concentration n determination to not divert her thots n attention, but wah liao, they jus keep shouting.
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by a stroke of luck, my office lent mi a laptop wif WLAN connection to test some software. haha, i sms my gal pal immediately to tell her. ehhe... 1 thing whcih i find funny is, everytime she is better-informed than mi. den tis time, for WLAN access, she ask mi where can she surf WLAN even if she got laptop. heeh, maybe she really outta singapore too long, dinno mc got WLAN..
den hor... ytday, our laptop vendor came over... still so charming as ever. if he use back his beng hairstyle, even more droolsome.
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it's tuesday. last night, singnet acct done up. i think my acct can surf (ask my mum if bro can surf, she dun dare ask). now oni left the webcam to buy (discounted rate of 40$), activate the Album service, antiV, antispam. tmr the WLAN tech guy will go my plc to install the modem. haha... ya, i m thinking of en-acting those vid scenes LOL... if the person is not bad looking lah... n hor, use the laptop to test the WLAN surfing ahha.. cant wait for tmr...
n knw wat? after my pacnet email disabled, i try using gmail n yahoo smtp. but both cant config. yahoo got error msg. but i din boher to read up. den ytday (monday), alas, my singnet email got liao, but my room is using scv, get error when using singnet smtp. laiozz.. end up realise tat i can config my mail such way tat, yahoo can send out email for mi... phew but liewzzz
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Another excerpt from "Trust and Betrayal". btw, i need to returnt he book by tmr siazz.. almost finishing half of the book oni..
"If we are pre-occupied with a frantic search for certainty and predictability, it may prevent us from understanding the complexity of dynamic relationships at work. For example, in conversations with co-workers, these individuals may have little tolerance or patience for difference with others. They may come across as self-righteous, speaking in absolutes and thinking in simplistic, black-or-white, good-or-bad terms. People who don't understand or disagree with the points they are hearing may react with a verbal attack. For these people, life is a battle to be won, and the goal is being right and winning at all costs.
"People with this approach have a simple capacity to trust and may have a limited ability to deal with the uncertainty of new situations. For example, when facilitating a team meeting, they may come across as domineering: "May way is the right way". They may have difficulty leading a dialogue session that lacks a formal structure."
I took this excerpt, as it matches my snr's character.
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perhaps having lived for 25 years, n growing more matured n having more confidence, I'm ready to put a face to my blog... :)
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n.. from the way i wrapped my sup's gift, n my frns', i seem to willingly take the time to b innovative n give present wrapping a new lease of life.. or fresher breathe.. instead of the normal sq box wif scotch tape visibly all over the paper.. advertising my services on sgboy...
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i'm experiencing it again: i'm home, so any thot or ... thot comes to my mind, i'll blog it down. veli free hor? ya, clearing those forum msgs, den later apply jobs. i haven't even taken the snaps of adam gorgeous yet (err.. wat's a fabulous word for a guy tat starts wif A??)
ok, i went for lunch downstairs, n brought my pack of nougat wif mi. haha, the guys there was surprised tat i bought something for them siazz. den chatted up wif the young bro. he was kinda nervous (like mi). hehe, alright lah, had a cute, or blur looking, guy sitting wif mi thru'out lunch =D. when i was finding seat, he even invited mi to sit beside mi, saying "scared i eat u up meh"... haha shld i reply "i dun mind. or mayb we can enjoy each other's meat lah"
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sighz, had wanna spend my wkend applying jobs.. but end up clearing forums threads n pix, n watching vids. but 1 thing happy is, after doing some exciting things, n watching vids, i actually had a shocking jo experience: the shots reached my shoulder again!!! for a long time, i've not had such a great distance for jo liao!!! LOL...
n hor, being independent let mi think as an outsider a lot. now, even my sis sometimes oso may not knw why something has to ahppen. like my mum called her frns to bitch, or complain, about the happenings at work. my sis said to mi "dunno why she always have so much thigns to say abt her work" i replied "complain abt work mah".
my sis dun seem to udnerstand that, mum could have grumbles abt her work, but telling us is jus tellign a 3rd party. if she tells her colleague abt it, they may understand the story better n jokes abt it.
but at least, i am almost on par with my sis' reasoning. we discussed abt the usefulness of the terrorism mock tests, n stuff... haha...
"If we are pre-occupied with a frantic search for certainty and predictability, it may prevent us from understanding the complexity of dynamic relationships at work. For example, in conversations with co-workers, these individuals may have little tolerance or patience for difference with others. They may come across as self-righteous, speaking in absolutes and thinking in simplistic, black-or-white, good-or-bad terms. People who don't understand or disagree with the points they are hearing may react with a verbal attack. For these people, life is a battle to be won, and the goal is being right and winning at all costs.
"People with this approach have a simple capacity to trust and may have a limited ability to deal with the uncertainty of new situations. For example, when facilitating a team meeting, they may come across as domineering: "May way is the right way". They may have difficulty leading a dialogue session that lacks a formal structure."
I took this excerpt, as it matches my snr's character.
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perhaps having lived for 25 years, n growing more matured n having more confidence, I'm ready to put a face to my blog... :)
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n.. from the way i wrapped my sup's gift, n my frns', i seem to willingly take the time to b innovative n give present wrapping a new lease of life.. or fresher breathe.. instead of the normal sq box wif scotch tape visibly all over the paper.. advertising my services on sgboy...
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i'm experiencing it again: i'm home, so any thot or ... thot comes to my mind, i'll blog it down. veli free hor? ya, clearing those forum msgs, den later apply jobs. i haven't even taken the snaps of adam gorgeous yet (err.. wat's a fabulous word for a guy tat starts wif A??)
ok, i went for lunch downstairs, n brought my pack of nougat wif mi. haha, the guys there was surprised tat i bought something for them siazz. den chatted up wif the young bro. he was kinda nervous (like mi). hehe, alright lah, had a cute, or blur looking, guy sitting wif mi thru'out lunch =D. when i was finding seat, he even invited mi to sit beside mi, saying "scared i eat u up meh"... haha shld i reply "i dun mind. or mayb we can enjoy each other's meat lah"
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sighz, had wanna spend my wkend applying jobs.. but end up clearing forums threads n pix, n watching vids. but 1 thing happy is, after doing some exciting things, n watching vids, i actually had a shocking jo experience: the shots reached my shoulder again!!! for a long time, i've not had such a great distance for jo liao!!! LOL...
n hor, being independent let mi think as an outsider a lot. now, even my sis sometimes oso may not knw why something has to ahppen. like my mum called her frns to bitch, or complain, about the happenings at work. my sis said to mi "dunno why she always have so much thigns to say abt her work" i replied "complain abt work mah".
my sis dun seem to udnerstand that, mum could have grumbles abt her work, but telling us is jus tellign a 3rd party. if she tells her colleague abt it, they may understand the story better n jokes abt it.
but at least, i am almost on par with my sis' reasoning. we discussed abt the usefulness of the terrorism mock tests, n stuff... haha...
Saturday, January 07, 2006
not enuff water, muz spray a bit more to add special effects... i think any guys present is bound to get an erection.. at such a treat for the eyes... imagine, good body, prtty face, well trained arms, drool-inducing chest n 6 pax, in white pants tat's bound to b translucent when it's wet, revealing other parts of the body tat's supposed to be covered up, n legs apread wide apart. gosh... gosh gosh... if his hands r tied to the chair he's sitting... oh my...
2 cool n sizzling hot pix!!!! HOTTEST EVER!! BURINING HOT!!! IT'S SCALDING!!! cool wet looks, faucet pouring water down his face, while he trying to wipe his face. umm, in tis a/c room, topless, wif room temp (read: a/c'ed water) pouring down his chest, in white pants, i really wonder if any guys can resist his ever strong seductive power, tat oozes from his person.
this is the result of the snaps wif the photographer. supposed to show his manly side... tuff side. top left, i feel he's seducing. top mid, using flowing water as effect, showing his manly cool n sexy hot appeal. top right, a series of thumbnails. bot left, cheeky expression - did he jus bath? LOL. mid bot, his cool face. bot rite, exasperating feel...
Friday, January 06, 2006
tired of bitching abt office happenings, since everyday it's happening... around the same guy.
but it really feels nice to have someone in ur office whom u can speak your mind to. moreover, i've come out to her. it makes things easier to tok :) no qualms abt discusing yandaoz/cuties.
umm.. this is the first wkend of the yr 2006 tat i'm spending. for 05 xmas, i was wif my pals, enjoying life. for the crossing over into 06, i was wif another frn, enjoying my time. now, the first normal wkend of the yr, i'm spending it alone. in my room. nothing sad, nothing wrong. but just the.. group partying feel tat i've been having and enjoying for the past 2 weeks still lingers in me. It's a big change of mood/feel.
But come on, I can't be partying at night/day long. I still have my expenses to take care of. wat's more, job hunting, uploading of pix... ahaha, feel like i'm back to my usual style of living.
plan tmr: go bank get my dbs atm card, take bfast, go swim, go lunch, den come home :)
the new ger, who i came out to, confided in me. i can relate to her emotions. she's open abt herself. she says she does not lie, n i trust her for tat. realised tat, when we r in relns, we may b overwhelmed by our emotions tat we dun have time to reflect on wat we r actually looking for. if there is a break, it may b good to do some self reflection. u can see things clearer. u mature.
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i've just watched superhost. liu xiao zhou is good n performing well. Li Peng seems to catch the gis of hosting and is catching up with him. It seems to me, Li Peng is kinda following how Liu xiao zhou did it. scheming? or i sensitive? anyway, next week, i am prepared to vote for my LXZ hahaa... i dun wan see him out.
but it really feels nice to have someone in ur office whom u can speak your mind to. moreover, i've come out to her. it makes things easier to tok :) no qualms abt discusing yandaoz/cuties.
umm.. this is the first wkend of the yr 2006 tat i'm spending. for 05 xmas, i was wif my pals, enjoying life. for the crossing over into 06, i was wif another frn, enjoying my time. now, the first normal wkend of the yr, i'm spending it alone. in my room. nothing sad, nothing wrong. but just the.. group partying feel tat i've been having and enjoying for the past 2 weeks still lingers in me. It's a big change of mood/feel.
But come on, I can't be partying at night/day long. I still have my expenses to take care of. wat's more, job hunting, uploading of pix... ahaha, feel like i'm back to my usual style of living.
plan tmr: go bank get my dbs atm card, take bfast, go swim, go lunch, den come home :)
the new ger, who i came out to, confided in me. i can relate to her emotions. she's open abt herself. she says she does not lie, n i trust her for tat. realised tat, when we r in relns, we may b overwhelmed by our emotions tat we dun have time to reflect on wat we r actually looking for. if there is a break, it may b good to do some self reflection. u can see things clearer. u mature.
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i've just watched superhost. liu xiao zhou is good n performing well. Li Peng seems to catch the gis of hosting and is catching up with him. It seems to me, Li Peng is kinda following how Liu xiao zhou did it. scheming? or i sensitive? anyway, next week, i am prepared to vote for my LXZ hahaa... i dun wan see him out.
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
forgot to post tis. these days we do OT at times. when i told her, i forgot to bring the info abt my OT timing. she say i shld get a notebook (read: pen n paper) to jot down when i do my OT, if not how to claim $$? gosh, we r in IT age, n we r IT ppl. talk abt notebook? when u have usb drv to store the info? when she forgot her timing, she oni paiseh. when i din take note, she is so critical. oh well. n guess wat, today, she herself forgot to bring her notebook along, leaving it at home. haha
haha... been having not a veli good time at work. OBVIOUS politics, untrusting colleagues.
politics: the nougats, i buy at $AUD20 (S$24.8). colleague ask mi buy for them. i bought 1 pack. sell them S$30 (AUD$23). they complain too ex, n ask if i got bargain anot. even ask mi try DFS shop. den snr ask mi buy nougats n nuts for her. nougats i forgot abt it, nuts i din buy. she seem unhappy. den KK oso show attitude from time to time. i have to be firm wif him siazz.. sianzz...
untrusting: for a long time, jnr din stand behind mi to "teach" mi how to troubleshoot case liao. den on the day i collected the nougat $ from her, when i troubleshoot a case tat takes some time, she stood behind mi again, telling mi wat to do. i ask her y she behind mi, she say "nothing, jus looking oni". SIAOZ. for a long time, such thigns din happen. wah liao.......
den KK haha... again tried to put mi down. well, if thigns get worse, i dun mind playing word games wif him. he even said things like "when cowboys get to u..." i changed it to "cowgers".
nothing much else to tok. livign my life the way i wanna it to be. no regrets, no holding back.
last yr, i had my fair share of good and bad times. it may not b as serious as others, but it's certainly some down time for mi. I have come to realise tat, frns indeed r more impt and they r the ones to stand by u when ugly things happen. in the past, i din treasure frns tat much, n take as granted. n i kinda have some expectations of new frns. now i take things easily. eg, soem frns may keep asking mi some things which i told them b4. well, they keeping asking, i simply keep telling. it simply tells mi how much effort they take to rmb my info.
thus, frns/pals, dun b surprised if i treat u in a much better way these days. independency really made mi grew up n mature.
tiem to find new job...
the book tat i reading now, "Trust and Betrayal in the workplace", has this para:
If we are constantly preoccupied with our own problems, we may be totally unaware of the impact of our behaviour and actions on others. If we are fostering an attitude that the world is treating us poorly, we rarely feel for the pain we cause others. People with a low capacity to trust in them may feel victimised by their circumstances. They may come across as needy and emotionally draining on their co-workers. Their preoccupation with themselves causes them to be unaware of their actions.
This paragraph was true for me. Until I discovered it's much easier and better to live in happiness, and think that no one out there means harm to you. This is naive, of course. But it does make you think and feel positive.
haha... been having not a veli good time at work. OBVIOUS politics, untrusting colleagues.
politics: the nougats, i buy at $AUD20 (S$24.8). colleague ask mi buy for them. i bought 1 pack. sell them S$30 (AUD$23). they complain too ex, n ask if i got bargain anot. even ask mi try DFS shop. den snr ask mi buy nougats n nuts for her. nougats i forgot abt it, nuts i din buy. she seem unhappy. den KK oso show attitude from time to time. i have to be firm wif him siazz.. sianzz...
untrusting: for a long time, jnr din stand behind mi to "teach" mi how to troubleshoot case liao. den on the day i collected the nougat $ from her, when i troubleshoot a case tat takes some time, she stood behind mi again, telling mi wat to do. i ask her y she behind mi, she say "nothing, jus looking oni". SIAOZ. for a long time, such thigns din happen. wah liao.......
den KK haha... again tried to put mi down. well, if thigns get worse, i dun mind playing word games wif him. he even said things like "when cowboys get to u..." i changed it to "cowgers".
nothing much else to tok. livign my life the way i wanna it to be. no regrets, no holding back.
last yr, i had my fair share of good and bad times. it may not b as serious as others, but it's certainly some down time for mi. I have come to realise tat, frns indeed r more impt and they r the ones to stand by u when ugly things happen. in the past, i din treasure frns tat much, n take as granted. n i kinda have some expectations of new frns. now i take things easily. eg, soem frns may keep asking mi some things which i told them b4. well, they keeping asking, i simply keep telling. it simply tells mi how much effort they take to rmb my info.
thus, frns/pals, dun b surprised if i treat u in a much better way these days. independency really made mi grew up n mature.
tiem to find new job...
the book tat i reading now, "Trust and Betrayal in the workplace", has this para:
If we are constantly preoccupied with our own problems, we may be totally unaware of the impact of our behaviour and actions on others. If we are fostering an attitude that the world is treating us poorly, we rarely feel for the pain we cause others. People with a low capacity to trust in them may feel victimised by their circumstances. They may come across as needy and emotionally draining on their co-workers. Their preoccupation with themselves causes them to be unaware of their actions.
This paragraph was true for me. Until I discovered it's much easier and better to live in happiness, and think that no one out there means harm to you. This is naive, of course. But it does make you think and feel positive.
after the celebs, we went to shop around, n i got to know of a cool n 21st century single mum. she is cooln modern thinking. she stays in contact wif her ex hub. has a smart boy a decade younger than mi, spots blonde hair, spouts vulgarity like no 1's biz, n direct n frank abt ppl.
in summary, i reach home 3+pm on sunday, rested n slept from 4-5pm to 8pm. my gal pal called me to claim back her lugg from mi. haha.. had so much fun wif her siazz... ahahaha.. i dun think i blogged tis yet: over msn, whenever i tok to her,she has tis bochap n nonetheless attitude, tat leaves mi no topic to chat wif her. but when she's relaxed, we can chat hell lot. n she wanna dupe mi to send her home. LOL. i not gonna fall for her trap!!
tiring siazz.. n next morning stil went for mac bfast. met a new guy for mac bfast. he is perhaps of a quiet type. so we din really click properly. but i guided him on roller blading, n he oso wanna help in singing oso. umm, not a nice face or perhaps even person, but alright lah. at hi-bi frn. got home, wondering wat else to do. suddenly rmb lotsa backdated things to clear siazz.. blog, pix, cam. siao. clear till 4pm feel sleepy n tired. woke at 8pm n forced myself up to iron office clothes.
came home from dinner, n tried my best to clear the pix n PC chores. wah liao, if someone keeps suaning u, does it reflect a unbalan mentality on him? cos watever i say to him, he always reply in a sarcastic manner. or is he taking sarcacism as jovial attitude? he is cool n good wif words as well.
ahahha, jus had to comment, it's fun n free to live by ur own.
den for the first work day of the new yr, i gave out the presents to the office ppl. hhha, for my sup's gift, while unpacking the cologne bundle given to mi on my 21st bday a few days back, i saw a toilette bottle. check wif my frn n realised it's still usable cos it dun expire. ahha, my gift is now available freely!! i gave it to my sup.
kuazz, knw wat the snr say? "tis brand very common 1 wat. go everywhere oso got ppl buy n use ler. "
b4 the gift was unwrapped: "wah give so small present?? meet the budget anot??"
comeon, its the thot tat counts. she often initiates buying bday present for colleagues. for gers, she knw tat giving voucher is betr. for guys, she prefer buying tops, cos hard to buy. now i buy the cologne, she say such tings. gosh, it;s the thot tat counts... it's not suka-suka buy 1 ok? gave it some thots 1. anyway she dun read my blog 1, so it's jus grumbling here.
den she ask wat food i eat in oz. "u got tell them dun put tau gay anot?" i replied "oz ppl dun have tau gay 1" she remain in silence.
den i bought chocolate to office to share. "hey, dun eat 2 much choco ah, later get mc again"
when i dozed off near ko time, "u ok anot? later dun fall asleep siazz"
for her above comments, i reply when i can think of a proper ans. if not, i jus discard her wilful thots.
n this morning, KK saw my choco bag n commented "it look like kopi beans"
i said "not really"
he "umm, i mean tat is my own opinion tat it look like kopi bean lah"
i "yap, n tat is my own opinion tat it does not"
he "umm, but it sounded like u r saying 'nope, u r wrong'. as tho there is right n wrong opinion"
i "well, it depends on how u interpret it"
he "ya, u got a pt there"
haha, 1 funny thign is, i was not able to do some work over the wkend. i told the snr, she wonder y i din do it in office. did she forget wat time she passed the work to us? n wat time WE had to leave the office? anyway, i continued my work. KK had his done abt 40%. in office, i started mine almost from scratch. i finished 95% before lunch. he was still on his 45% b4 he went for lunch. when i came back, he's done almost 90% oso. haha, feel as tho he really trying hard to appear as diligent. to mi, he is appearing as he-is-as-gd-as-mi.
the jnr came back from holiday. n jnr n kk din lunch together. i think they r starting to spread...
if i summarise my impresson of my colleagues, do i sound analytical n great? or over-confident of myself n braggart?
sup: he knws his stuff n knw when to push
snr: she knw his tech stuff, but she dun rmb things well. often imposes her ideas on us
jnr: a very impatient person who cant b inactive for a while. easily stressed up?
KK: a person who is keen on leaving a good impression on ppl who can help in his career.
in summary, i reach home 3+pm on sunday, rested n slept from 4-5pm to 8pm. my gal pal called me to claim back her lugg from mi. haha.. had so much fun wif her siazz... ahahaha.. i dun think i blogged tis yet: over msn, whenever i tok to her,she has tis bochap n nonetheless attitude, tat leaves mi no topic to chat wif her. but when she's relaxed, we can chat hell lot. n she wanna dupe mi to send her home. LOL. i not gonna fall for her trap!!
tiring siazz.. n next morning stil went for mac bfast. met a new guy for mac bfast. he is perhaps of a quiet type. so we din really click properly. but i guided him on roller blading, n he oso wanna help in singing oso. umm, not a nice face or perhaps even person, but alright lah. at hi-bi frn. got home, wondering wat else to do. suddenly rmb lotsa backdated things to clear siazz.. blog, pix, cam. siao. clear till 4pm feel sleepy n tired. woke at 8pm n forced myself up to iron office clothes.
came home from dinner, n tried my best to clear the pix n PC chores. wah liao, if someone keeps suaning u, does it reflect a unbalan mentality on him? cos watever i say to him, he always reply in a sarcastic manner. or is he taking sarcacism as jovial attitude? he is cool n good wif words as well.
ahahha, jus had to comment, it's fun n free to live by ur own.
den for the first work day of the new yr, i gave out the presents to the office ppl. hhha, for my sup's gift, while unpacking the cologne bundle given to mi on my 21st bday a few days back, i saw a toilette bottle. check wif my frn n realised it's still usable cos it dun expire. ahha, my gift is now available freely!! i gave it to my sup.
kuazz, knw wat the snr say? "tis brand very common 1 wat. go everywhere oso got ppl buy n use ler. "
b4 the gift was unwrapped: "wah give so small present?? meet the budget anot??"
comeon, its the thot tat counts. she often initiates buying bday present for colleagues. for gers, she knw tat giving voucher is betr. for guys, she prefer buying tops, cos hard to buy. now i buy the cologne, she say such tings. gosh, it;s the thot tat counts... it's not suka-suka buy 1 ok? gave it some thots 1. anyway she dun read my blog 1, so it's jus grumbling here.
den she ask wat food i eat in oz. "u got tell them dun put tau gay anot?" i replied "oz ppl dun have tau gay 1" she remain in silence.
den i bought chocolate to office to share. "hey, dun eat 2 much choco ah, later get mc again"
when i dozed off near ko time, "u ok anot? later dun fall asleep siazz"
for her above comments, i reply when i can think of a proper ans. if not, i jus discard her wilful thots.
n this morning, KK saw my choco bag n commented "it look like kopi beans"
i said "not really"
he "umm, i mean tat is my own opinion tat it look like kopi bean lah"
i "yap, n tat is my own opinion tat it does not"
he "umm, but it sounded like u r saying 'nope, u r wrong'. as tho there is right n wrong opinion"
i "well, it depends on how u interpret it"
he "ya, u got a pt there"
haha, 1 funny thign is, i was not able to do some work over the wkend. i told the snr, she wonder y i din do it in office. did she forget wat time she passed the work to us? n wat time WE had to leave the office? anyway, i continued my work. KK had his done abt 40%. in office, i started mine almost from scratch. i finished 95% before lunch. he was still on his 45% b4 he went for lunch. when i came back, he's done almost 90% oso. haha, feel as tho he really trying hard to appear as diligent. to mi, he is appearing as he-is-as-gd-as-mi.
the jnr came back from holiday. n jnr n kk din lunch together. i think they r starting to spread...
if i summarise my impresson of my colleagues, do i sound analytical n great? or over-confident of myself n braggart?
sup: he knws his stuff n knw when to push
snr: she knw his tech stuff, but she dun rmb things well. often imposes her ideas on us
jnr: a very impatient person who cant b inactive for a while. easily stressed up?
KK: a person who is keen on leaving a good impression on ppl who can help in his career.
Monday, January 02, 2006
down to last few days oni...
after the party, i got home abt 2am. dun wan bath, jus slept. tmr stil lmuz wake at 8am to go bank get atm card. but ALAS!! i woke at 9am, n skipped the atm totally. i need to prepare for a day out for the coutndown. i wonder if it'll be boring, cos oni mi n a frn. this frn, i seldom tok, but he's charismatic n heklpful n resourceful. so we met n proceeded on the gym, sauna n swimming n jaccuzzi. it was awesome!!!! it's a totally diff NYE tat i usually had!!!
ya, at times, i did see my frn peeping n ogling mi when i work out... but i'm alright wif it. ahah, but i have a funy idea (read: fantasy) when we inside sauna. we all jus wear a towel inside 1 right? we sitting there open leg, leaving the corners of the towel loose so we can cover the pte well. but wat if we made some small moves, n the cover reveal a bit?n ppl opposite us can see inside liao... when ig ot in, someone was lying face down on the bench. naked. if he's facing up in towel, hehe..... i guess tis is the commonest reason for thigna happening around there.
after tat, his 2 KID frns (16-17 yo oni) came over to look for him. they wearing low cut attire, so i was look at their cute faces n peeping into their shirts hahahah... but oh well, they sound so juvenile n immmature i dunno wat to tok to them. anyway, they keep toking among themeselves tat i have no space to move into. according to my frn, the taller guy is more proper mannered. the shorter 1 is not gd. i find the shorter guy way cuter. a REAL CUTIE. got 1 time, cutie joking abt letting my frn enter him, i voiced out "u mind 3some?" my frn luffed his head off, n the cutie simply said "spare my butt" haha...
den we went off to join his beng frns in chinatown there. haah.. from him, i know some of the ppl there.. jus know oni lah.. 1 beng wif GI hair, 1 lian, 1 kiddy beng. hahaha... finding the GI beng cute, (his ations, not his body/face), i wnana take pic of him. he was surprised. i told him i wanan capture the GI hair hahaha... had 1.5 glass of beer there, until i was all red in my face. den later, my frn bring mi to tantric. met an attractive guy there... he's a Nus student, tutoring as partime job. he even thot i was his student hahah... had gin tonic. really getting dizzy. the nuz guy seem to b potato-inclined tho.. b4 i left, i told him in his ear, he's desirable hahah...
finally made our way to a hotal room booked by his frn. 2 married couples n 2 single str8 guys. haah... my frn went havoc n teased the singles. haha, made the whole plce rock. together wif his frn, they turned the place upside down. i captured lotsa shots. including a striptease scene hahaha... never had this load of teasing fun in my life. 25 is my golden yr. n i really find that, it's much more worth the effort to know a frn than to try a reln wif him, and end up possibly severing frnship when things turn awry. when the reln hurts too much, it's time to stop n not look back. if it hurts to look back, i'll choose to erase tat part of my memory.
n i did learn to take his easy n cool, no longer tat serious n afraid of things. probably 'cos i know how to fend for myself n so,i can take things easily n not scared of being bullied.
n it's strange tat, for frnship, u can ensure his bad ways n look at his good sides. but when it comes to reln, an oops n the reln cld b done. at least this is wat i experienced...
have i really grown much more confident of myself? cos i intend to put a link to my pix... all of them.. those family-oriented types, to be placed in my blog. so tat ppl can see mi. the pix i took in australia, i'm proud of how i look. i'm confident of my mannerism n image tat i know, if someone does not appreciate, there r some who do. n reading some "trust at workplace" books oso helped mi in handling office relns...
i'm no longer affected by criticism or how negatively ppl may see mi, cos i know how n wat i am. altho i dun have many friends ot hang out wif, i do know some who r nice ppl. they may be sexaully attracted to mi, but when i need help ,i can call them n they r ready.
as for the NY party, when my frn's frn was pretty sober, he's normal. when he's drunk, he gets wild n kinky. hahah. when he's kinky, he feel like harlem Yu. n i actually had my lens on for 26 hrs long LOL.. did i break my personal record?
after the party, i got home abt 2am. dun wan bath, jus slept. tmr stil lmuz wake at 8am to go bank get atm card. but ALAS!! i woke at 9am, n skipped the atm totally. i need to prepare for a day out for the coutndown. i wonder if it'll be boring, cos oni mi n a frn. this frn, i seldom tok, but he's charismatic n heklpful n resourceful. so we met n proceeded on the gym, sauna n swimming n jaccuzzi. it was awesome!!!! it's a totally diff NYE tat i usually had!!!
ya, at times, i did see my frn peeping n ogling mi when i work out... but i'm alright wif it. ahah, but i have a funy idea (read: fantasy) when we inside sauna. we all jus wear a towel inside 1 right? we sitting there open leg, leaving the corners of the towel loose so we can cover the pte well. but wat if we made some small moves, n the cover reveal a bit?n ppl opposite us can see inside liao... when ig ot in, someone was lying face down on the bench. naked. if he's facing up in towel, hehe..... i guess tis is the commonest reason for thigna happening around there.
after tat, his 2 KID frns (16-17 yo oni) came over to look for him. they wearing low cut attire, so i was look at their cute faces n peeping into their shirts hahahah... but oh well, they sound so juvenile n immmature i dunno wat to tok to them. anyway, they keep toking among themeselves tat i have no space to move into. according to my frn, the taller guy is more proper mannered. the shorter 1 is not gd. i find the shorter guy way cuter. a REAL CUTIE. got 1 time, cutie joking abt letting my frn enter him, i voiced out "u mind 3some?" my frn luffed his head off, n the cutie simply said "spare my butt" haha...
den we went off to join his beng frns in chinatown there. haah.. from him, i know some of the ppl there.. jus know oni lah.. 1 beng wif GI hair, 1 lian, 1 kiddy beng. hahaha... finding the GI beng cute, (his ations, not his body/face), i wnana take pic of him. he was surprised. i told him i wanan capture the GI hair hahaha... had 1.5 glass of beer there, until i was all red in my face. den later, my frn bring mi to tantric. met an attractive guy there... he's a Nus student, tutoring as partime job. he even thot i was his student hahah... had gin tonic. really getting dizzy. the nuz guy seem to b potato-inclined tho.. b4 i left, i told him in his ear, he's desirable hahah...
finally made our way to a hotal room booked by his frn. 2 married couples n 2 single str8 guys. haah... my frn went havoc n teased the singles. haha, made the whole plce rock. together wif his frn, they turned the place upside down. i captured lotsa shots. including a striptease scene hahaha... never had this load of teasing fun in my life. 25 is my golden yr. n i really find that, it's much more worth the effort to know a frn than to try a reln wif him, and end up possibly severing frnship when things turn awry. when the reln hurts too much, it's time to stop n not look back. if it hurts to look back, i'll choose to erase tat part of my memory.
n i did learn to take his easy n cool, no longer tat serious n afraid of things. probably 'cos i know how to fend for myself n so,i can take things easily n not scared of being bullied.
n it's strange tat, for frnship, u can ensure his bad ways n look at his good sides. but when it comes to reln, an oops n the reln cld b done. at least this is wat i experienced...
have i really grown much more confident of myself? cos i intend to put a link to my pix... all of them.. those family-oriented types, to be placed in my blog. so tat ppl can see mi. the pix i took in australia, i'm proud of how i look. i'm confident of my mannerism n image tat i know, if someone does not appreciate, there r some who do. n reading some "trust at workplace" books oso helped mi in handling office relns...
i'm no longer affected by criticism or how negatively ppl may see mi, cos i know how n wat i am. altho i dun have many friends ot hang out wif, i do know some who r nice ppl. they may be sexaully attracted to mi, but when i need help ,i can call them n they r ready.
as for the NY party, when my frn's frn was pretty sober, he's normal. when he's drunk, he gets wild n kinky. hahah. when he's kinky, he feel like harlem Yu. n i actually had my lens on for 26 hrs long LOL.. did i break my personal record?
when i got home from airport, i unpacked my things.. wow... i am PROUD!!!! chatting n gossipping abt stuff... n bunking over my family there, i slept at 1am. next day i had tang yuen. traditional type. sighzz.. i was wondering if i shld still go for my sec frns outing tat day. cos i really broke. was considering hard. but i still went, cos i'm finding it hard to go out, catch up wif frns. since got this chance to catch up wif many ppl, might as well go join.
wat piss mi off slightly is, a sec frn, he was walking up the escalator. i waved at him.other ppl saw mi, he din. n wat's more, his gaze is just in my diretion. i told him this n he said, maybe he's sleeping. alright. den in the cinema (we watching narnia), (this reminds mi of something on the way home), he was holding a BAG of popcorns. so i wnana get some (i even asked him first). first time, i took a lil. 2nd time, he say "nvm, whole bag give u" i told himi dun need but he jus left it on my lap. i took a lil, kept it on my lap, for 5 mins, he din touch at all. i return back to him, he continued munching.
i still rmb, during our prev lunch gathering b4 xmas, i used my cam to take pix, cos it carries XXX pix, i told them it has pte pix. they were curious abt it n wanan see. but i teasingly rejected all. he's the oni 1 who utttered nothing. den later, i using my blue tooth, n 1 guy wanan check it out. i teased tat it's PTE oso, den this sec frn say "i think u're getting paranoid". wonder who deserves tis line more.
n den the xmas bbq, he oso tis attitude. even during our bbq, the group wanna us go start fire first. i asked if he know how to start fire, he say "of course LAH!" in a defensive tone. when he starting the bbq, he ask "how come all bits n pieces 1"? i smiled. den the gang came down n surprised y the fire din start. they den commented the charcoal was put in wrongly... n surprised tat the big ones not used at all...
next few days r all working days... which i really... unahppy abt KK. jus a few things to blog as summary.
1) he dun followup his cases
2) tell him to edit some things, he take his own sweet time n dun blif it
3) slacker.
4) let him knw a better way to do things, he scorned.
5) a case pending for days, he din call back. until the person called, he den admited to not calling yet. den i toking to that person. n he picked a call meant for mi. he wannna transfer the cal to mi. GOSH.
got 1 time, i back from lunch. he said "i'm so full" i wana say "full of urself, or food?" to sia sway him. but well, i dun wan things to turn out badly.
until friday.. den some excitment came. ppl ask mi over for some sm pte party. got a kid who prtty interested in it, but have attitude. i tok to him over phone.. he.. kinda exagg tis n tat.. self praise to the skies.. say he veli handsome, n many ppl into him. n even got sex dates every now n den alright.. i've seen trhu these oredi. but i really hope some more ppl will coem, i tookt he time to persuade him to go, since he had bad experience. but it turned out... he's either despo for proper sex, or he's really keen on mi... but i'm not.
cos... when he arrived but i nto there to welcome him, he shouted "y u so quiet? jus now on the phone u so much to say?". i just paid him back in his attitude. n he left pretty early, although he kept wanting to come my place. int he party, the slave was of a good build n shape. nice body. 2 bad he's not into nipple licking, if not i'd have cummed onto him. after the session, had some alcoholic drnks. wah, liao... i drink till i drwosy siazz..
umm, btw, i'm really thankful tat, although i'm not into such kinky n strong M&S stuff, the other 2 masters wilingly let mi join in n play a part.. ie, i din do much things, but they dun mind letting mi play wif their slaves...
oh.. abt the movies.. am i getting touched easily these days? but contrlling myself well still? cos i was watching choco factory movie in plane home, the shwo is abt a poor kid who hopes to visit the factory. his family tried to help him by buying the sweets. time n again, he was dsiappointed. as usual, ppl who got the sweets first r those undeserving of it. even whent he grandpa was dismissed at work, the money was used for the choco. for his dreams... cool... i was weeping within myself. it somehow reflected on my childhood, when i was so poor n knw a shit thing abt everything.
den next mov is narnia. i saw how the boys n guys (the elder bro, peter look so charming like the prince charles) grow up n treat each other. they r so young, impulsive n i can guess wat's going on in their minds. i've been thru it myself. i know the reason behind their doings... their purposes...
wat piss mi off slightly is, a sec frn, he was walking up the escalator. i waved at him.other ppl saw mi, he din. n wat's more, his gaze is just in my diretion. i told him this n he said, maybe he's sleeping. alright. den in the cinema (we watching narnia), (this reminds mi of something on the way home), he was holding a BAG of popcorns. so i wnana get some (i even asked him first). first time, i took a lil. 2nd time, he say "nvm, whole bag give u" i told himi dun need but he jus left it on my lap. i took a lil, kept it on my lap, for 5 mins, he din touch at all. i return back to him, he continued munching.
i still rmb, during our prev lunch gathering b4 xmas, i used my cam to take pix, cos it carries XXX pix, i told them it has pte pix. they were curious abt it n wanan see. but i teasingly rejected all. he's the oni 1 who utttered nothing. den later, i using my blue tooth, n 1 guy wanan check it out. i teased tat it's PTE oso, den this sec frn say "i think u're getting paranoid". wonder who deserves tis line more.
n den the xmas bbq, he oso tis attitude. even during our bbq, the group wanna us go start fire first. i asked if he know how to start fire, he say "of course LAH!" in a defensive tone. when he starting the bbq, he ask "how come all bits n pieces 1"? i smiled. den the gang came down n surprised y the fire din start. they den commented the charcoal was put in wrongly... n surprised tat the big ones not used at all...
next few days r all working days... which i really... unahppy abt KK. jus a few things to blog as summary.
1) he dun followup his cases
2) tell him to edit some things, he take his own sweet time n dun blif it
3) slacker.
4) let him knw a better way to do things, he scorned.
5) a case pending for days, he din call back. until the person called, he den admited to not calling yet. den i toking to that person. n he picked a call meant for mi. he wannna transfer the cal to mi. GOSH.
got 1 time, i back from lunch. he said "i'm so full" i wana say "full of urself, or food?" to sia sway him. but well, i dun wan things to turn out badly.
until friday.. den some excitment came. ppl ask mi over for some sm pte party. got a kid who prtty interested in it, but have attitude. i tok to him over phone.. he.. kinda exagg tis n tat.. self praise to the skies.. say he veli handsome, n many ppl into him. n even got sex dates every now n den alright.. i've seen trhu these oredi. but i really hope some more ppl will coem, i tookt he time to persuade him to go, since he had bad experience. but it turned out... he's either despo for proper sex, or he's really keen on mi... but i'm not.
cos... when he arrived but i nto there to welcome him, he shouted "y u so quiet? jus now on the phone u so much to say?". i just paid him back in his attitude. n he left pretty early, although he kept wanting to come my place. int he party, the slave was of a good build n shape. nice body. 2 bad he's not into nipple licking, if not i'd have cummed onto him. after the session, had some alcoholic drnks. wah, liao... i drink till i drwosy siazz..
umm, btw, i'm really thankful tat, although i'm not into such kinky n strong M&S stuff, the other 2 masters wilingly let mi join in n play a part.. ie, i din do much things, but they dun mind letting mi play wif their slaves...
oh.. abt the movies.. am i getting touched easily these days? but contrlling myself well still? cos i was watching choco factory movie in plane home, the shwo is abt a poor kid who hopes to visit the factory. his family tried to help him by buying the sweets. time n again, he was dsiappointed. as usual, ppl who got the sweets first r those undeserving of it. even whent he grandpa was dismissed at work, the money was used for the choco. for his dreams... cool... i was weeping within myself. it somehow reflected on my childhood, when i was so poor n knw a shit thing abt everything.
den next mov is narnia. i saw how the boys n guys (the elder bro, peter look so charming like the prince charles) grow up n treat each other. they r so young, impulsive n i can guess wat's going on in their minds. i've been thru it myself. i know the reason behind their doings... their purposes...
(got lotsa thots n stuff to write other than my trip, but i muz finish blogging abt my trip fierst... GOSH)
wah liao... now i realise i have past my deadline for blogging liao. my blogs are at least 1 wk late!!!! damn.. so many thign to followup n write!!!
ok.. on saturday, my aunt came over to fetch mi for catching up. ok. i really dun feel gd at all meeting her. after all, my family went to visit her last yr (2004 sept), stayed wif her (moving around wif her of course, not staying at her plc) for the whole trip, n had to take on her unreasonableness, her attitude n her volatile temper. i certainly din like the idea of staying wif her n chatting anythign at all. wat's more, she's of thsoe serious type. who perhaps prefer chatting to gossiping. i nothign much to tok wif her siazz...
but she din come at the appointed time. i called her a few times n sms'ed her as well. i thot she may be in trobule. fianlly, she arrived 20 mins past 11. ahha... she brought mi to the tim sum for lunch. hahaha, know wat? the person who appeared before us when we stepped in is a cute guy. dressed in a sloppy manner. ya my head turned for him :) every now n den, i'll look for him.. n jus gaze a while. my aunt is nurse so she knows psychology n i dun wan any blooper. so i cant look 2 long.
den went to shop around and chatted a bit. cracked some jokes at times. when she went to collect her food, i told her something. when my frn n i bought nougats back, i actually forgot to buy my own share 'cos i was looking at the shopping list, whcih din jot down my share. ahah... surprisingly, i can still rmb how to walk back to the shop. once inside, my aunt ask mi to find the person who gave mi the dioscount for the nougats. the uncle not in, she ask mi to prepare 20$. n she told the counter
"err, my son hor tat day...." wah.. i was so stunned n surprised at how she said things!!! wahha... ROFL. i took out 20$, the counter wondering why 20$ oni. she said the uncle gave him for 20$ so they took it... hahaha...
soon after, she sent mi backt o my pal. wah. n this pal of mine, really HR material siazzz. he met my aunt for the first time, n they both can tok for hours!!! a chatterbox, or plain sociable?? LOL.. den, we both preparing for out SATURDAY NIGHT OUTING FOR XMAS!!!
for myself, i put on a sleeveless jacket tat can resist cold (courtesy of my pal) n wore track pants wif jogging shoes. my pal, insisted on wearing a polo + a zipped up jacket. i told him it dun look good... more like a person who try hard to appear goody 2 shoes. cos if he dun wan look cute (in an acting manner), he should look his char n personality. my attire was of a darign type haha. took public transport there. some asians were gazing at us while we made the trip. interested but shy, curious but keen to look, or put off by such dress code, i dunno.
the first bar is open concept. where i saw a lesb couple. the butch is really of a manly size, wif muscles. i went to the loo, n i stunned when a caucasian slimmy (slim dude ie) opened the door n stood there. i was looking at his lean bod hahah. i was really thinking, if this guy is not wif any close ppl, i will ask him out siazz... but soon,the plc closed. oh ya, inside here, i was sitting inside the bar, n a guy approached mi, n offered to play PinBall wif mi. hahah.. quite interesting. i VERY new to these hook up ways, so i jus acted like a new frn loh..
den we went off for another bar, Connections, where I was given a rainbow badge to wear. cool. n the crowd is damn hiong siazz!! the music is strong. felt like movign wif the music but i not comfy in tat plc yet. but i noted, at my diagonal top left, got a dude in singlet, saying "School of Physical Education". a kempt hairstyle, lean muscles, singlet, clean face, 5 cm taller than mi. WOW. he's wif his 3-4 frns. i had wanna go up to chat, but lacked the courage. but i kept gazing at him. his frns saw it too. n i think he gave mi a couple looks, before skipping my gaze totally. i thot, i'm the only asian there, n being in this attire, i shld have a good chance of hooking up almost any1.
i mustered my courage after gazing for 30 mins. i went up, spoke out "hi, how r u?" he replied the same. n den continued to speak wif his frns, ignoring mi totally. i know i have no chance oredi. but i still stood there, cos nowhere else to move. if i move elsewhere, i willl look so obvious, tat after a failure, i'm moving off. might as well stay there n relax bitta.
b4 i knew it, a 33+ ozzie offered mi a drink, stating "no string attached". he told mi he saw tat i was alone so offered mi a drink haha. we chatted a while n he offered mi antoehr. while chatting the PE dude sometimes stood in my front n i wld still gaze t him. later on, the 33+ ozzie led mi away, cos he wanna smoke. i duno whether he was moving mi away from the dude or he really wanna smoke. after some time, he did speak his mind out abt his interest in asian guys. but well, i;m sticky :)
when my pal n i left for home, we saw a caucasian dude, carrying a bag walking behind us. this dude has been taking the same path wif us since we alighted from train. within mi, i wanna pause n tell him if he wnana have a drink at our place... HAAHHA!!! but i dun wan scared him off siazzz... later on he may jus run off den.. so paiseh... my pal, on the safe side, decided to let him walk before us...
sunday 25/12/05. all of us got up pretty late, since it's my departure date. tis time, my aunt again offered mi a timsum lunch for xmas n for departure. is lunching in oz really so ex?? cos i told my gal pal abt it, and she felt so surprised n happy for mi tat i getting free lunch. i wanna get my aunt go western places lunch cos she cant take prawns. but too bad, not open.
after these, i went back to get my luggage n bade my DEAREST, MOST WORTHY OF MY EFFORT PAL farewell... although 5 days is short, each sec n min we spent together is memorable n worth every cent of my savings. any bad bitching we had oso enriched our frnship, or palship. even tho each day has 24 hours, it's simply not enuff for us to fill each other up on our daily happenings, even if we summarise it. a day passed without us realising it. in no time, i had to leave for SG again.
at the airport, my aunt treated mi to cappucino. i forgot to add sugar but the kopi stil lquite ok. she oso told mi abt her pri sch days when she first got to know her best frn. while waiting to check in, heheh, 1 funy n 1... oh-my-gosh ting happen.
funny is tat, a cau in biz suit stood before mi. den he has to fill up a departure form first. so he left his lugg in front of mi. as teh q advanced, he was still writing n din note the q. so i moved it forward for him. the q moved quite fast. when he's done, he turned around, n seem to think "oh no, where is my lugg??" cos he din see it liao. i have moved it along as the q moved. i waved to him. he was really caught by surprised siazz.. he said beamingly "err.. i... i've never.. never experienced something like this!"
OMG thing: probably a vietnamese. he was standing almost beside mi in the queue. when he's beside mi, i moved away. till we almost at the end, he was really standing jus beside mi!!
i questioned him "r u queueing or jump queue?"
he smilingly "queueing"
I "i thot u shld b behind mi, not beside mi?"
he "it's alright... dun worry"..
i sneered.
upong boarding the plane.. nothing worth of praise happened. n any mention of racism again will jus put mi off.
when i alighted from the plane, i again rushed off to be the first few. i rmb, we pass by the DFS before reaching luggage. i dun wan my thigns to be taken, so i went to find the lugg first. WAH, the belt is EMPTY!!! have i missed anythign again?!?!?! ya i saw my family there waving at mi. my sis called mi (haha, she always the witty 1) n told mi to go buy wine first, since lugg wun out so early. phew, luckily, i withdrawn all my money n went to ozzie, cos i knw i certainly buy things when i come home. N YES!!!! I'VE COMPLETED A TRIP to n from ozz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 i amde it home, i did it!!! 3 cheers!!!!!!!
wah liao... now i realise i have past my deadline for blogging liao. my blogs are at least 1 wk late!!!! damn.. so many thign to followup n write!!!
ok.. on saturday, my aunt came over to fetch mi for catching up. ok. i really dun feel gd at all meeting her. after all, my family went to visit her last yr (2004 sept), stayed wif her (moving around wif her of course, not staying at her plc) for the whole trip, n had to take on her unreasonableness, her attitude n her volatile temper. i certainly din like the idea of staying wif her n chatting anythign at all. wat's more, she's of thsoe serious type. who perhaps prefer chatting to gossiping. i nothign much to tok wif her siazz...
but she din come at the appointed time. i called her a few times n sms'ed her as well. i thot she may be in trobule. fianlly, she arrived 20 mins past 11. ahha... she brought mi to the tim sum for lunch. hahaha, know wat? the person who appeared before us when we stepped in is a cute guy. dressed in a sloppy manner. ya my head turned for him :) every now n den, i'll look for him.. n jus gaze a while. my aunt is nurse so she knows psychology n i dun wan any blooper. so i cant look 2 long.
den went to shop around and chatted a bit. cracked some jokes at times. when she went to collect her food, i told her something. when my frn n i bought nougats back, i actually forgot to buy my own share 'cos i was looking at the shopping list, whcih din jot down my share. ahah... surprisingly, i can still rmb how to walk back to the shop. once inside, my aunt ask mi to find the person who gave mi the dioscount for the nougats. the uncle not in, she ask mi to prepare 20$. n she told the counter
"err, my son hor tat day...." wah.. i was so stunned n surprised at how she said things!!! wahha... ROFL. i took out 20$, the counter wondering why 20$ oni. she said the uncle gave him for 20$ so they took it... hahaha...
soon after, she sent mi backt o my pal. wah. n this pal of mine, really HR material siazzz. he met my aunt for the first time, n they both can tok for hours!!! a chatterbox, or plain sociable?? LOL.. den, we both preparing for out SATURDAY NIGHT OUTING FOR XMAS!!!
for myself, i put on a sleeveless jacket tat can resist cold (courtesy of my pal) n wore track pants wif jogging shoes. my pal, insisted on wearing a polo + a zipped up jacket. i told him it dun look good... more like a person who try hard to appear goody 2 shoes. cos if he dun wan look cute (in an acting manner), he should look his char n personality. my attire was of a darign type haha. took public transport there. some asians were gazing at us while we made the trip. interested but shy, curious but keen to look, or put off by such dress code, i dunno.
the first bar is open concept. where i saw a lesb couple. the butch is really of a manly size, wif muscles. i went to the loo, n i stunned when a caucasian slimmy (slim dude ie) opened the door n stood there. i was looking at his lean bod hahah. i was really thinking, if this guy is not wif any close ppl, i will ask him out siazz... but soon,the plc closed. oh ya, inside here, i was sitting inside the bar, n a guy approached mi, n offered to play PinBall wif mi. hahah.. quite interesting. i VERY new to these hook up ways, so i jus acted like a new frn loh..
den we went off for another bar, Connections, where I was given a rainbow badge to wear. cool. n the crowd is damn hiong siazz!! the music is strong. felt like movign wif the music but i not comfy in tat plc yet. but i noted, at my diagonal top left, got a dude in singlet, saying "School of Physical Education". a kempt hairstyle, lean muscles, singlet, clean face, 5 cm taller than mi. WOW. he's wif his 3-4 frns. i had wanna go up to chat, but lacked the courage. but i kept gazing at him. his frns saw it too. n i think he gave mi a couple looks, before skipping my gaze totally. i thot, i'm the only asian there, n being in this attire, i shld have a good chance of hooking up almost any1.
i mustered my courage after gazing for 30 mins. i went up, spoke out "hi, how r u?" he replied the same. n den continued to speak wif his frns, ignoring mi totally. i know i have no chance oredi. but i still stood there, cos nowhere else to move. if i move elsewhere, i willl look so obvious, tat after a failure, i'm moving off. might as well stay there n relax bitta.
b4 i knew it, a 33+ ozzie offered mi a drink, stating "no string attached". he told mi he saw tat i was alone so offered mi a drink haha. we chatted a while n he offered mi antoehr. while chatting the PE dude sometimes stood in my front n i wld still gaze t him. later on, the 33+ ozzie led mi away, cos he wanna smoke. i duno whether he was moving mi away from the dude or he really wanna smoke. after some time, he did speak his mind out abt his interest in asian guys. but well, i;m sticky :)
when my pal n i left for home, we saw a caucasian dude, carrying a bag walking behind us. this dude has been taking the same path wif us since we alighted from train. within mi, i wanna pause n tell him if he wnana have a drink at our place... HAAHHA!!! but i dun wan scared him off siazzz... later on he may jus run off den.. so paiseh... my pal, on the safe side, decided to let him walk before us...
sunday 25/12/05. all of us got up pretty late, since it's my departure date. tis time, my aunt again offered mi a timsum lunch for xmas n for departure. is lunching in oz really so ex?? cos i told my gal pal abt it, and she felt so surprised n happy for mi tat i getting free lunch. i wanna get my aunt go western places lunch cos she cant take prawns. but too bad, not open.
after these, i went back to get my luggage n bade my DEAREST, MOST WORTHY OF MY EFFORT PAL farewell... although 5 days is short, each sec n min we spent together is memorable n worth every cent of my savings. any bad bitching we had oso enriched our frnship, or palship. even tho each day has 24 hours, it's simply not enuff for us to fill each other up on our daily happenings, even if we summarise it. a day passed without us realising it. in no time, i had to leave for SG again.
at the airport, my aunt treated mi to cappucino. i forgot to add sugar but the kopi stil lquite ok. she oso told mi abt her pri sch days when she first got to know her best frn. while waiting to check in, heheh, 1 funy n 1... oh-my-gosh ting happen.
funny is tat, a cau in biz suit stood before mi. den he has to fill up a departure form first. so he left his lugg in front of mi. as teh q advanced, he was still writing n din note the q. so i moved it forward for him. the q moved quite fast. when he's done, he turned around, n seem to think "oh no, where is my lugg??" cos he din see it liao. i have moved it along as the q moved. i waved to him. he was really caught by surprised siazz.. he said beamingly "err.. i... i've never.. never experienced something like this!"
OMG thing: probably a vietnamese. he was standing almost beside mi in the queue. when he's beside mi, i moved away. till we almost at the end, he was really standing jus beside mi!!
i questioned him "r u queueing or jump queue?"
he smilingly "queueing"
I "i thot u shld b behind mi, not beside mi?"
he "it's alright... dun worry"..
i sneered.
upong boarding the plane.. nothing worth of praise happened. n any mention of racism again will jus put mi off.
when i alighted from the plane, i again rushed off to be the first few. i rmb, we pass by the DFS before reaching luggage. i dun wan my thigns to be taken, so i went to find the lugg first. WAH, the belt is EMPTY!!! have i missed anythign again?!?!?! ya i saw my family there waving at mi. my sis called mi (haha, she always the witty 1) n told mi to go buy wine first, since lugg wun out so early. phew, luckily, i withdrawn all my money n went to ozzie, cos i knw i certainly buy things when i come home. N YES!!!! I'VE COMPLETED A TRIP to n from ozz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 i amde it home, i did it!!! 3 cheers!!!!!!!
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