damn.. shld b doing my assignment still, but ... sigh...

strange.. a few things happened last night.. thot it was another bad... or good?.. sign.

anyway, got 2 things to mention

1) on my way home from work (1), on the mrt, stood a blonde asian.. fit looking. at first, i was standing in front of him.. den, behind him got space, i moved behind. haha.. indeed, standing behind him much better... can see his body shape lol..

2) on my way home from work (2), the mrt arrived.. inside the door, stood a guy in striped office attire.. it's either the work of the top, or his body really is in a goooood shape. cos, it shows the contours of his chest, and a bit of his.. tummy/abs!!

was looking at his chest and tummy, and him, and chest n tummy... door opened, look at him, he walked off... lol

ok.. here comes the funny thing.

my computer is usually left on, no matter when. when i got home ytday, i switched on monitor. but no response. seems like computer is turned off. but the keyboard's indicator light still there?? i switched on the cpu.. no response... i thot: goodness, at tis time, the pc died on mi?? i can't do anything?! over the weekend??

oh well, i decided to go washup n den fix it.

i got my clean set of clothes ready, n put my contact lens case on top, and took the whole bulk on my arms n headed for bathroom. as i walked, suddenly, the case.. slipped off onto the ground.. i was "huh??".. tis has never happened b4... nvm.. i picked it up and went in still.

den, i put on new set of clothes stacked up on a rack, as usual. after a few secs, the clothes suddenly fell, n landed on the toilet bowl!! i was totally stunned!!!! why are all these happening?!?! darn... i den took the clothes for a wash..

while bathing, i was tinking wat i can possibly do for my computer. rush down to buy new cable? exchange cable wif another computer to test out? and possibly spoil my plan for saturday?? den i went back into my room, pulled out the cpu from the corner, unplugged the wire, etc plugged in again, and viola, the pc is up once more..

umm... wat went on?

somehow, i'm really stressed out, for my assignment, exam, and the pressing feel to grad ASAP. 2 frns have grad'ed. i'm left alone in this journey.

treading tis path alone is not easy.. not in my situation.. haha.. i perhaps shld not b blogging now.. i started class in mid 2003. den due to financial prob, i paused my studies.. (stupid, now i realise) den, 1 yr later, i resumed. a good decision. good as in studies shld b finished asap. n i finally resumed.

but the thing is tat, i skipped a yr of studies, resulting in me forgetting some knowledge learned earlier. any mods tat i gonna take, if it depended on any taken mods, i'll have a hard time understanding it. n these days, its my last mod before grad. i'm really under a lot of pressure, telling myself i have to pass tis module. so much so tat, i dun wan to fail any little or minor form of assessment.

i duno, if i've given myself too much pressure, i am having short-term memory these days...

but today, on my way home from work, i.. told myself.. nothing's the end. it's a module tat i'm taking, and it's an assignment i'm troubling over. as long as i did my assignment to the best of my effort and knowledge, it's the best i could give. and, as long as it's almost correct, passing the assignment shld not b a prob.

jus do my best for assignment, prepare for exam, and b ready for my grad-day...

hahaha...

gosh.. i muz find back the... determination to start off n finish asgt... been pending so long liao!!

anyway, funny... have u heard of a guy who kena wet dreams at the tender age of 27??

ytday, when i got home from work, i was changing.. n laid on bed.. i made myself erected.. n kinda high.. but decided tat i shld stop, n start my asgt. sigh.. for long time, i failed to start.

den i went to bed.. everything was alright.. (boring? teaser? haha)

den next morn, i woke up but stayed on bed. i closed my eyes.. n was thinking.. or maybe dreaming? of .. some... gay bashing stuff.. shld b dreaming of some gay bashing stuff, cos tat was the topic on my mind. but somehow, i dreamt a str8 guy caught in mass orgy of gay. not as though i'm in tat location, but more of a vidcast. 5 guys were jerking off on their own, n the str8 was leaning naked on the bed. he was den picked up roughly and pushed soemwhere else.. i was wondering wat would happen...

jus den, i shot out... shot, yes.. i din even realise it.. i wet my undies..

wah liao.. at tis age... how come??

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chris: Hey, this means you're living a good and kind life. Long may it continue!

me: haha.. thanks mucha :)

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pluboy: I'm 4 defintely :L)

me: hey pluboy!! long time no see ur comment!! where u go?? anyway, "4" seems to say u're very very out-going siazz!

pluboy: that's the Law of Attraction at work.. you keep thinking of money, and money will come to you, naturally..

me: lol.. attraction siazz.. :) umm.. will there b more to come?? anyway, i went to ur blog.. n.. SURPRISED to see mine put up there in my full name...

is this my good luck or wat?

in the past, or perhaps still so even today, whenever i go to neighborhood to buy things, i keep my money in my pants pocket. den, watever change i have, i put inside my pocket still. this has been going on since young. i forgot when was the last time i did tat.

den these days, i'm realise i need to scrimp n save lotsa. i even skipped going lunch wif my colleague to curb my spending. til today, i managed to still have $6 in my wallet for tomorrow, b4 my payday comes.

den u knw, after bathing, in my clean set of clothes, i found a $5 bill in my pocket.. i am really surprised... jus on time!!

personality test

This is taken from mypaper dated 21/09/2007.

Have you heard of how mooncake festival came about? Some say, it's 'cos Chang-E flew to the moon. Chang-E has a rabbit with her. After Chang-E flew to the moon, whaddya tink will happen?

1) She chose to go back to Earth

2) Bring along her rabbit to roam in other planets.

3) Lead a peaceful life with the rabbit on the moon.

4) To and fro between Earth and Moon, merchandising longevity pill

Make your choice!! It's very accurate for me!!
















































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1) She chose to go back to Earth
You will not want to be lonely. If you are lazing around, you're either on the phone with friends or relatives, or definitely out on the streets chilling out with friends. Lucky you, you are popular among friends, and there are frequent gatherings. You are more than happy.

2) Bring along her rabbit to roam in other planets.
Although you enjoy hanging out with friends, you also want to have personal space. Although you will be happy when friends ask you out, you also enjoy the time being alone. You are not afraid of loneliness, but you do not really enjoy time with friends who do not know you well enough. As this will only make you uncomfortable.

3) Lead a peaceful life with the rabbit on the moon.
You are very fine with being alone, to the extent of hiding yourself up to do so, leaving behind gossips and whatever. Those who know you will understand your intentions. For those who do not, they may feel that you are slightly inclined to autism. What they do not realise is, you truly know how to enjoy the moments of being alone.

4) To and fro between Earth and Moon, merchandising longevity pill.
You like to mix around with people, and no one will forget you for that. You rarely feel alone. Even if you are, you will also find some work to make yourself occupied. So, you are also someone who do not enjoy being alone.

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me... i was struggling between 2 and 3. if i see the rabb as someone who i really wish to spend my time with, it's 3. if its a pet, it's 2.

i'm supposed to do my assignments.. but alas.. i simply cant focus tat much.. sigh..

anyway, these days, i'm very much hooked onto the spiritual topics.. and have been watching hk variety talk shows on youtube. u can search for it using "guaitan". it's very scary at times, but.. FOREVER, i can't detect/see/feel their existence on the screen!!!! it seems very normal to me. even when got a scene, when viewers pointed out that there is a shape, the hosts "ohhhhh".. but i simply "huh?"..

den, recently, i saw an ep, whereby they went taiwan, and asked a 仙姑 (human deity? or human saint) to accompany them. this lady.. was said to have enormous powers, and does not need any talisman or altar to prepare. she has a rank in heaven, and when needed, she can send a troop from heaven to protect herself.

take a look here: vanquishing a skeleton king (after charmed serial drama ended, long time never use this "vanquish" word).

it's really a surprise that, she vanquished it right on the spot.

den another is finding the ghost king.
finishing the video, i had also felt that, she simply felt like vanquishing every spirit she encounters, as though to prove her prowess. i even wondered if, there is any justice for those spirits to seek. like they are not bad in nature, but turned into evil ghosts due to some mishaps. but after hearing her explanation, i find that she's more of a law enforcer for the netherworld, sent by heaven.

when she visited the cave, she was.. kinda accompanied by heavenly troops. and in the end, they caught the ghost king. not the humans, but the heavenly troops. she mentioned in the end that, a lot of viewers thot she vanquishes every spirit she see.

she explains that, if the spirits are good or maligned, she will seek redress for them. but if they are harmful, she'll execute them on the spot. sounds very much like those period dramas, and current police shows, where baddies are caught during an operation, and brought back for justice.

she mentioned that, whenever she brings anyone to any eerie spots, it always loses the scary and eerie feel, cos she's not someone who will play to the tune of commercial viability. she's always there on a police-like operation. sounds like, the exorcists that we see, are more of the private investigators' roles and peace makers. while her role, is more of the police officer.. or executioner.

in another show, visiting jade emperor showed a very very long video of her bringing.. i think her students.. to heaven to visit for the CNY. 1 hour and 20 mins. too long, so.. i jus skipped it after 20 minutes.

after watching these shows, i'm really beginning to be very very much interested in find out more about such stuff. anyone care to join mi? i know there should be many interest groups offering this thing. Where should I start from first?

lol.. for a long time, i've not posted any.. review of the day statements.. oh.. shld it b self reflection?

funny.. is my inconsistent blogging habits turning ppl away from my blogs??

now, in my last sem of studies. 6th nov 2007 is my exam. after tat... hahaha.. 30th nov is the result day. after which i shld b able to ask for more pay.. i tink more pay come in jan.. but these days, my work seems sooo... little.. nothing much to do.. shld it b good or bad? well... good in sense, i've more time for my own matters.. since i still studying. bad.. as in nothing much to learn anymore.. scope getting stagnant? see how first..

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did anyone pay attention to class 95? i jus tuned in recently.. and, yesterday night, i heard something reall really darn hilarious!!

i dunno wat happened.. suddenly, i heard the radio stn making a call to a delivery svc.. fast food tat is. a guy answered, and then the 2 ppl from the stn kept making and made realyl non-sensical statements and qns. such as asking for the menu, and then getting the person to repeat it slowly, and made some non-sensical jokes abt it. n even asked if the wings came wif breasts. and if the guy like breasts.

the guy.. den stated that he like breasts, but not chicken breasts. lol..

and the 2 guys were so irritating that, i pitied the guy who answered the call. finally, the prank call ended, and was touted as the employee of the yr.

i sure support that!!

anyway, he's yee-kang :)

i'm on mc today.. too tired from the gym i guess.. cos, in morn, in took instant mee @ 1130am, went for class from 1-4pm, or rather 3pm as it ended then. den i went for my gym (finally went for it.. darn time n unexpected hiccups)

umm forgot exactly wat i wanna blog abt.. but i watched lotsa guaitan on youtube. anyway.. jus some grumblings.. duno who wil read.. though

remind mi if i sound too sensitive.

a pal about 10yo my senior, asked mi out for a dinner n movie outing. he was expecting mi to go. den i wanna ask a frn who went out wif us a few times. but he's na. so i asked another frn.. who know us both. i asked the 10yo snr to update me once he's decided on the outing details, he agreed.

the next day, i asked the person. he said to let me decide. i was stunned. my original plan of going gym, followed by movie outing was spoilt. cos, to watch movie on wkend, 1 has to buy the tickets first.. whcih mean, i will need to go. sigh..

and.. as much as i tried to RUSH down, somethign unexpected happened. this pal said he cannot make it due to work... it's usually normal for someone to miss an outing due to work commitment, but somehow, i dun feel this is teh case here.

den, i had to meet the other guy alone. yes alone. n somehow, tis frn is not feeling ok at all, but putting up a strong front. it's hard to strike an interesting chat when he's so protective and defensive of himself... the worst thing is, he really walked in a style tat tells people "i'm matured in my thnking, than you see. don't disturb me"..

forgot to mention something..

after my dinner.. i was on the way back home.. at a park, i saw 2 ladies sitting on a bench, 1 carrying a puppy jack russell terrier. as i crossed the street, i saw it. n i kept looking at it.. it also looked at mi.. i felt so... felt like it's my late dog, jackie reincarnated.... (i got teary as i walked.. den now as i typed it out, i'm sobbing) i really felt... tat it's looking at mi.. and their reactions are jus so similar!! so beautiful dogs... how i wish.. i can go hug it... i even breathed heavily.

of cos, if he's the chance to be reincarnated as a person, instead of a dog, it's the best.

i'm watching the ch U 10pm show. it's toking abt a guy who lost contact wif his family for 25 yrs since 7. den 1 day, he was walking on the streets, kicked a football wif his trademark style.. the ball was caught by guy2.. who spun the ball like the old days.. it's so touching..

haha.. these days i've got more time to blog eh? lol...

today, ko, went to bus stop to wait for bus. saw a colleague n tok to him.. he's the VERY quiet n introvert type. but i still try to tok to him. den.. when we r alighting to go mrt there, he said he's in a rush n ran off to mrt. dunno how true it is.. but end up, i still see him waiting for the same mrt. i tink he saw mi oso.. but i really din feel like going up to him again.

so coincidentally, when i transfer train, another colleague/frn was wif mi.. n we chatted a fair bit.. den i went to kbox to claim my points.. i took the lift to kbox.. sometimes, ppl simply do not tink or act considerately (dis dun mena, i tink am considerate all the time, hor). a couple went into the lift. the guy was wondering which flr to press n blocked the way in.. wah liao..he can always jus go in, den press the button again..

hahaha... den at the kbox there.. i got 2 receipts. 1 is in jul. haha.. the ger was not willing to update the points.. but i tok to her nicely.. haha.. can i say flirted? or jus pure.. tok nicely.. n yes, the points updated for tis.. hahah.. but wah liao.. amei's "Forever happy" yong yuan de kuai le was playing siazz.. mesmerized by it. after the points are updated ,i had to go fast.. if not, i'll be very much affected by the groove n momentum..

n i realised tat, i'm very protective abt myself.. dunno.. did i learn it from my faghag? or simply, i'm still introvert by nature, n dun open up tat easily?

am i starting to make use of ppl? at work, i knw my ex-boss will always try to send me home. so, i was gonna stay until i can take cab.. but i dun wan use my money.. so i asked my ex-boss if she's going home soon.. sigh..

den, last wk, went to ktv.. it's SHIOKING!!! 1 frn there.. demo'ed tat, singing is not oni sing according to the music.. it's also abt singing ur feels/mood/heart out.. it made mi feel tat, his way is truly interpreting the song.. mine is.. sing in subtle manner..

sometimes, i do like to reason/argue wif strangers.. it's about challenging my views wif others. today in the mrt, 1 malay woman squeezed into the train n squeezed my bag.. i pushed my bag forward, rubbing her. she then said "u can actually move in u knwo?" i replied "nope, if u wan, u can move in". she den said "u dun actually have to push". i said "u pushed my bag". she responded "no i did not".. the last 2 lines repeated twice, n i decided to cut it...

den u knw wat.. something odd happened today.

i was preparing to go gym.. so wore my contact lens.. but it's so mafan to wear.. resulting in my eyes turning reddish.

den.. since i din have dinner, i thot of eating at the fd function. but unexpectedly, it has moved to lvl 3.. gosh, decided to jus give it up.. can save some money.

den.. up at the gym, i realised i din bring the padlock.. gosh..

got 2 choices. 1 is to use the $1 locker, or to buy a $5 padlock.. i decided to use the $1 locker.. n u knw wat... just when i'm abt to change, i checked to see if i've got a dollar... it turned out.. i've expended them...

sigh.. end up do nothing n go home..

n... as time pass by, it seems tat.. a slow n steady reln is the way to go.. n.. the first 1 month is the period.. honey moon period.. to see if, after the first impression n crush feel, do u still enjoy each other's company..

once you're comfy wif each other for tat 1 mth, the next 1-2 months is to see whether we feel each other is the rite person.. to recognise n declare as bbr..

once tat stage is over.. it's officially bbr.. ahhaha.. how nice is tis progress..

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kevxx: and i find his action totally acceptable, some people are just more friendly, don't think too much.

me: ya he's very frnly n sociable.. why i say so? cos i came out to him.. he's ok wif it.. n he's got a gf hahaha..

waddeya tink of a couple... bbr ie.. the softer person is often approached by passers-by to ask qns and directions.. n for donations?

3 passers-by have asked the softer person for direction, and 1 asked for donations.

in a bgr, n.. perhaps other bbr, the softer or more-approachable looking person is also likely to be approached rite? i mean, this kind looks friendlier and easier to approach ... =D

a bad day.. after my classes today, i went home on a bus.. on way home, i prepared some coins inside my pocket. den i wanna move the coins to another pocket.. i heard a "clink" sound. it sounds like a coin dropped off.. it sounded near. i felt around the metal part of my seat.. nothing.. i counted my cash.. a dollar coin is missing... sigh..

den i passed by a mag stall.. saw a mag on amei.. $5.5. i bought it without thinking.. wow... $5.5!! i later thot, it seems a female magazine.. i could have checked with my female collaegues if they bought the mag... goodness mi... still so rash.

den, i thot.. could the coin,... have dropped on the floor, instead of the seat? umm..

next, i went to buy bread.. was takign the money out... den realised tat, for the first time, my wallet had grabbed a movie ticket n also my namecard holder with it.. the ticket dropped out.. the holder, on the verge...

1 last thing.. finalyl, was doing the last part of my asgt.. realised that.. i'm really not those kind to modify my ans when they're almost done.. or maybe i got lazy.. felt it's too complex.. etc.. cos it's theory programming.. i knw it's alwasy good to pick up new knowledge.. that's why.. i wonder.. why i was so resistant to it

another item to blog..

these days, the TV sometimes broadcast shows that are of low substance. not anything bad, but it's just some shows to keep audience n viewers occupied.

in these shows, talented artistes never appear, as it does not challenge them further..

these shows, use either evergreen artistes to uphold the integrity of the show, or make it simply into a idol drama.

in the end, thsoe talented artistes act in those 3-5 mins script.. to keep their limelight.

bla..

nothing much to blog.. it's TIME to do my asgt.. but.. cannot resist these vids =D

hot guy in boxer tied-up in bed
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wyfXlDL-pls

Matt Lanter tied up
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bv4pzSeJtZE

James Franco- Tied-Up Oil Rubdown
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AktQuLgDjuE

but funny.. why do the guys in all these movies end up being made fun of, instead of some romantic moves?

and, can anyone tell me their titles??

having the motivation to do asgt is diff from actualyl doing it.. in my sense..

i knw.. i need to manage my time better.. i had the... intention to do some brushing up for my asgt.. but, i simply can't bring myself to do it still.. maybe adjusting my mood to "i wanna do it.." see how lah..

i wonder.. is he really making it an office-oni relation? or i'm too sensitive?

got 2 guys.. join the comp for a month+.. or so. 1 guy is tall.. so tall tat i often tease his height. but tis guy.. maybe office hrs he really very str8 thinking n mindset or wat.. when i tok to him in a teasing style (not gay, it's more of how i form my words/lines), he reply in a str8 and proper tone. in a way, yes, he's answering, but certainly more of a str8 and direct reply, seemingly not catching my meaning.

today, we got a yogurt making session. he n another pair got down b4 mi. so i asked who got down first. i got the ans. den he replied "does it matter?" n continued doing hsi things. i felt tat was quite sharp in asking back, why i shot that qn in the first place. it was supposed to be a fun question, but he made it sound as though there has to be a specific and useful purpose.

i felt he's.. drawing lines between us. not sure why.

den, later when we took the same bus after work, he went all teh way to the back and found mi and sat wif mi. there, we chatted quite a bit.. unlike that non-chalent feel he had been giving mi all the while.. strange..

jus realised the importance of time mgmt... hahaha... really need to thank someone =D

ok.. yes, these days i nvr blog.. cos no time.. n now, i shall reply all comments...

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I was here :) -
Hello, and thank you. You're one in a hundred thousand,

me: umm, thanks :)

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kevxx:
sob... i could never feel my abs.. only had the layer of fats to feel...

me: u can always start to train up...

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kevxx:
so what opinions do you need?

me: wat u think of his actions loh..

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savante:
Was gonna ask the exact same question actually :)

me: a few guesses going on.. but well, we never knwo..

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nae:
haha, from your blog i'm getting the impression that guys cannot talk to each other unless they're interested! really ah?

me: i've a feeling tat u're an anime fan =D well, guys can tok to 1 another of cos.. but it's more to conversational chat... when he volunteered his various direct contacts, does it still feel it's a mere casual chat?

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anyway, now i've got tonnes of emails n blogs to read... wah liao.. how shld i start..

doing my asgt... is it due to someone, or it's the time that is pushing hard?

anyway, jus wanna say.. prejudice is really still existing. not to say i thot it's gone. but.. i really saw it..

once, on the mrt.. in the morning rush hr.. i boarded the mrt, and an indian (low-income family dressing style, or very casual and..) hubby/wife was standing at the pole tat stood between the 2 doors. they were standing at 1 side of the pole tat is. then, the whole bunch of ppl simply rushed by the other side while boarding, while the couple's side was sooo calm n no-1-going-tat-way. i noticed that.. n i simply walked tat way.

after tat, the rest of the ppl oso came rushing in my way..

until the next stop.

another whole lot was rushing in.. the "leader" of the pack is an Office Lady. haha.. perhaps being a higher class personnel, she was RESISTANT to being too near the indian couple. no matter how hard she tried "moving to the centre of the car", she always ensured she left a safe distance between them and her. i'm unable to see wat's blocking her. but from wat i remembered, they had nothing. jus the 2 standing by each other. n yes, her face said "luckily, i can still stay here".

den ytday, i was dining at the bro stall.. wah.. long time no see them siazz!!!! miss them? not really.. these days, my words can't b tat flirtatious sounding anymore.. anyway, at the stall, at 1 side of the seating lot, a bunch of 8 guys.. malay/chn ppl.. a bit rowdy acting.. was seated n chatting loudly n having.. cream soda i tink.. den, i noticed tat, every1 was crowding at 1 side away from them.. as though putting up an invisible block, differentiating their classes..

but to mi, wat's wrong wif them? they're there wif frns n catching up. wat's the big deal? doesn't any1 else does that?? jus 'cos they appear rowdy, they are avoided like plague? oh, a number of those on other side were old folks.. those neighbourhood folks. i understand. they stil hold a certain stigma towards those rowdy acting groups.

but.. got 1 couple who's in their late 20s/mid 30s sitting there.. n distinctly 1 table away..

u can say tat, the rowdy group came after the folks.. but it's doesn't appear so to mi..

n know wat, the rowdy group, once the majority is gone, the few ones left behind took to a smaller table.. now.. is this not courtesy?