shall i blog tat when my bus jus finish its express way trip, the first bus stop, i saw a gorgeous guy? hot guy in pink? sitting in the busstop? haah...
seem like, confidence is pretty impt in the way u proj urself... jus dun b too confident. be confident of how u look, walk, behave, speak... b natural, n if u can, exude confidence...
den hor, sianzzz... my canon cam, got give the AA batt to use for teh cam. so i use it to try n text the shots. wah liao... den in abt 5 hrs time, the batt go flat liao......... sianzzz... so fast??? although my office is aircon room, but it's still in signapore leh!!!!! so fast batt die liao?!?!
den, i got a call tat my contact lens ready.......... YES!!!
was watching the result of female host. the ger was telling the truth abt her, tat she went for abortion as well. inside mi, i was oredi boycotting her... in a way, yes she frank n daring to admit tat. but she really dun need to do it. she can say the lead role was her frn. but in the end, she managed to stay back still...
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unknowingly, i discovered tat... i'm not 2 sure abt the timeline. b4 both my pals went oz, everythign was ok. den when both left, i seem to have started setting a std for frns. i rmb, when i still in ns, i really not a cool headed guy, nor someone who can tink logically. EQ extreme low. got 1 time, someone did something, n my pal sugested i better tell the officer in charge abrt tat, b4 the someone does it. i know it's for my good. but i dinno n din realise the reason n the rationale. after both pals left, i seem to have lost a part of mi. til i start to get short tempered wif frns/ppl who din seem to do things in the right manner.
cos both pals' thinking r much more advanced n developed than mi, i learnt abt considereation, anticipation, reasoning, n thinking from them. yes i was tat useless. i din reallty spare a thot for ppl. when they left mi, frns who r stil lwif mi, mostly din have their level of street intelligence/ consideration n thnking. those frns r not up to the std. i even thot, why r these ppl like dat?? i was really looking for ppl who can think at such levels wif mi. when they failed, i lost my patience.
n cos i learnt a lot from them, i somehow tried to impose such ideas n thots into some frns, thinking this will better their persons. but i dinno tis is incorrect. cos every1 has diff thinking n views. y will i wanna impose my tinkin n thots on them??
so, these days i'm trying to b understanding abt othters, n know wat they doing. i will ooffer my ideas from time to time, but wun force. at most ask them 2 times to see if they keen on it. watever happens, its their person n nature. if i think i can do a better job, at most when it happens again, i will react on their behalf. if they think it's better, then they den learn. if not... y impose...
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other than my daily acts, has tis blog become a plc for mi to vent my work frustz?? now, today, i realise y it's impt to have a close buddy at work, whom u can confide in. i know it's almost like making use of the person, but well, we r sharing thots in some way. got tis tinkinbg, cos today, i felt injusticed. felt i can confide in someone. but i'm not sure how will the person react.. +ve or -ve feel?
usually, i reach work on time. but these days, i at times tend to wake up abt 20 mins later than usual. anyway, i got to office at 845. door locked. so i went toilet first. usual practice. den i went to office, tis time unlocked. den1 of our mgmt level spy is inside office.
he ask: y i late.
i say, traffic jam.
he: mrt?
i: bus
he: diam
den my snr oso ask (at tis time, oni snr spy mi in office) now tat the boss is on leave, every1 oso came late ah? cannot like tis lah......
i din defend. it's merely jumping to conclusion. i oni smiled. when sh was late, did she say anything? i've a gd record for being punctual pls.
den jus b4 spy left, spy whispered to mi: dun b so late lah..
i giggled in response. wat he expect mi to say? i wun b late? well check my records.
i realyl feel tat, cos it's a contracted job, so we r treated as external staff that REQUIRE supervision. we r actually enclosed in another room, to ourselves oni. i can say we r kinda isolated from the company system.
den later, i felt injusticed again. jus b4 lunch hr, all 4 colliks of mine r in office. they were discussing n almost chatting. my hp rang. i say i go out tok. it's abt my java interview. abt 5 mins after, 2 colliks going for lunch. they came out, saw mi on the ph, went back in. soon, they came out again n on way to lunch. abt 5 mins later, i hang up n went toilet. the sup called to look for mi. i ignored the call. i know he asking mi back.
when i went back in, he say where i go, i say carpark. he say, he call mi cos he bothered by the never-ceasing ph rings. n reminded mi, not to go out when oni 1 person (snr) is in the room. i was disheartened. but i said "OK". n i got back to work.
the 2 colliks, jnr n new guy, they r going for lunch. they saw mi in carpark toking. if the sup realyl feel tat he need hlp, n 1 person cannot cope, y let them go lunch? i know it's not gd tat, jus 'cos i on ph, 2 ppl cannot lunch. but i on ph wat, wat they expect mi to do? if he can let them luunch, y remind mi abt the 1 person issue?
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actually by complaining so much abt work, am i making a big fuss over a very common scenario? perhaps. but i've not found any1 to confide in yet. my snr is in league wif sup. the jnr, sometimes cannot b listener.
oh, the ph call was a guy, suggesting a job opening. he told mi, SCP w/o much handson exp cannot call 2k-2.2 for wage. i am considered as freshie, so cannot. ok, i take it. so i change to 1.8-2k. he say still can consider. den he add in those benefits, wanna mi decrease some more. wah kauzz.. so tat he can earn more commission??? i stuck to my 1.8-2k. n 2 bad, posted a msg in forum, but no reply yet, abt salary
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
(by right, posted on 26 nov)
jus thot of another thing abt office work.
is there such thing as perfect office env, without prejudice, n politics? in my work, it's a technical helpdesk. minimal or none business rules related. whenever there is any biz stuff issues, we will escalate to biz team. i play by the rules. there was 1 time, the biz team shoot back at us tat, if the question posed by a user is a common biz rule enquiry, we can answer them without directing to them. the person who posed tis qn to them is the snr. she den was agitated, n exclaimed tat in future, any biz related, no matter how light or common, all jus pass to biz team.
den few days back, a user asked mi where can an option be found. i know where it can be found, but then
1) it's non tech
2) wat if the option is not there anymore?
so i forwarded the enquiry to the biz team. they shot back again, saying tat it's common qn, n the snr will know how to resolve.
so i stepped forward n highlighted it to the snr. guess wat, she say "ya tis option, u can ask the person to go....". ahha, i din say anything. jus tat i found her to have double std.
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den ytday is the sup bday. she say wanna buy food to celeb. i told her jnr is not around, den she say "it's ok 1 lah, wat's more, celeb bday later than the actual bday is not good". but later, the mood was turned upside down when our boss came to reprimand the sup. the sup came back still smiling. but of cos, wat else u expect? he's analytical. den hro i ask the snr abt the food. she say, "today not all teh ppl r there, plus jnr oso not around n no time to go buy food".
i really wonder hor, do i really appear to be such a forgetful/nvm/bochap person? perhaps i do. 'cos when i first got to work, i had a hard time blending in wif them. esp when the jnr, who was guiding mi, was easily emotionally disturbed. till the extent, she can even tell any1 including users "dun touch" when she dun wan her things to b disturbed. when i first started, every1 has diff style of working. my "user informed that...." was critised wat i mean by user informed. inform who, how. i guess she jus wanna b in control.
*** strange, on way home from work, i was thinking of this comment. den later, my right eye twitched. now i realised tat, this post not posted yet... stil las draft... *** (dated 30/11/05 1209am)
jus thot of another thing abt office work.
is there such thing as perfect office env, without prejudice, n politics? in my work, it's a technical helpdesk. minimal or none business rules related. whenever there is any biz stuff issues, we will escalate to biz team. i play by the rules. there was 1 time, the biz team shoot back at us tat, if the question posed by a user is a common biz rule enquiry, we can answer them without directing to them. the person who posed tis qn to them is the snr. she den was agitated, n exclaimed tat in future, any biz related, no matter how light or common, all jus pass to biz team.
den few days back, a user asked mi where can an option be found. i know where it can be found, but then
1) it's non tech
2) wat if the option is not there anymore?
so i forwarded the enquiry to the biz team. they shot back again, saying tat it's common qn, n the snr will know how to resolve.
so i stepped forward n highlighted it to the snr. guess wat, she say "ya tis option, u can ask the person to go....". ahha, i din say anything. jus tat i found her to have double std.
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den ytday is the sup bday. she say wanna buy food to celeb. i told her jnr is not around, den she say "it's ok 1 lah, wat's more, celeb bday later than the actual bday is not good". but later, the mood was turned upside down when our boss came to reprimand the sup. the sup came back still smiling. but of cos, wat else u expect? he's analytical. den hro i ask the snr abt the food. she say, "today not all teh ppl r there, plus jnr oso not around n no time to go buy food".
i really wonder hor, do i really appear to be such a forgetful/nvm/bochap person? perhaps i do. 'cos when i first got to work, i had a hard time blending in wif them. esp when the jnr, who was guiding mi, was easily emotionally disturbed. till the extent, she can even tell any1 including users "dun touch" when she dun wan her things to b disturbed. when i first started, every1 has diff style of working. my "user informed that...." was critised wat i mean by user informed. inform who, how. i guess she jus wanna b in control.
*** strange, on way home from work, i was thinking of this comment. den later, my right eye twitched. now i realised tat, this post not posted yet... stil las draft... *** (dated 30/11/05 1209am)
Monday, November 28, 2005
at the sitex there, nothing much to see siazzz.. quite boring. cos everthing jus so same price. not much discounts. other than those which have competitors as well.. like laptop brands.. HP dell acer asus really fight to end. den to find a better deal, frn n i went to SLS last min. still got 1 shop open, but they dun give good rate. $430 for the package. den wanna extra bag is 449. umm........ anyway wif my bluetooth, i bought it to work hahahahah...
i am excited about it!!! but well, good things muz come to end. the next morning, next thing i know is, i boarded my bus to work. sat near end of bus. den later, someone sat behind mi. i suddenly felt a stream of cold air gush onto mi. yes the person adjusted the a/c outlet towards mi. i turned back, saw the person almost a butch. i told her to switch the outlet to other side. the bus, has 2 outlets between mi n her. her outlet was blowing mi, mine was hers. i ask her adjust hers, she simply FLICKED it to blow away, den actually asked mi "how abt the other 1?", pointing to mine. she was plain and obviously pissed. i din say anything n turned back.
nex thign i know, the air blew mi again. i turned n ask her. this tiem, she say "if u want, u can shift it yourself. i dun have to do it for u. if u dun wan teh fan, jus move it urself." well, i simply said "forget abt it". wat a singaporean.
den last night, i applied for a few java jobs liao. in morning to noon, about 4 ppl called mi. does headhunters have own line or use hunting?? i thot it's latter. of these 4, 1 is guy who say got opening for java guy. 2 i din manage to tok them, cos i was busy. when i call back, they KO liao. den 1 ger, she was... wah liao... i apply jjava jobs, she ask if i wnana take vb or C++ oso. den 'cos i dun have much j2ee work exp, she say maybe i wanan consider helpdesk instead??? OMG. wat she trying to say???????? i am a programmer, wif java cert, n aplyu for helpdesk job?? i have exp in Helpesk, but now i am a full fledged programmer. PLS!
umm, i actually duno if i shld b truthful abt my job hunt siazz. lie tat i am seekign tuition work? or b truthful tat i looking for java jobs? i jus dun wan the news of mi quitting to spread so fast.
den i really went to outram there again to buy digi cam. wah liao..... 'cos canon having promo for xmas.. all the shopes follow its sale promo, n dun wan offer bettr things. 1 new guy offer 420, den boss walk over, n showed the promo for canon, 449. den thigns went back to normal. offer tis / tat... sianzzz.. end up nothig much. anyway i bought it liao.
now i'm ready to welcome xmas!!!!!
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" I think he is trying to show them his hair trail .." - maybe, but wat's there to show when oni his waist part is exposed?
"bluetooth" - i bought a blue tooth earpiece for my sony hp. n i have blue tooth connnector for my pc as well :)
i am excited about it!!! but well, good things muz come to end. the next morning, next thing i know is, i boarded my bus to work. sat near end of bus. den later, someone sat behind mi. i suddenly felt a stream of cold air gush onto mi. yes the person adjusted the a/c outlet towards mi. i turned back, saw the person almost a butch. i told her to switch the outlet to other side. the bus, has 2 outlets between mi n her. her outlet was blowing mi, mine was hers. i ask her adjust hers, she simply FLICKED it to blow away, den actually asked mi "how abt the other 1?", pointing to mine. she was plain and obviously pissed. i din say anything n turned back.
nex thign i know, the air blew mi again. i turned n ask her. this tiem, she say "if u want, u can shift it yourself. i dun have to do it for u. if u dun wan teh fan, jus move it urself." well, i simply said "forget abt it". wat a singaporean.
den last night, i applied for a few java jobs liao. in morning to noon, about 4 ppl called mi. does headhunters have own line or use hunting?? i thot it's latter. of these 4, 1 is guy who say got opening for java guy. 2 i din manage to tok them, cos i was busy. when i call back, they KO liao. den 1 ger, she was... wah liao... i apply jjava jobs, she ask if i wnana take vb or C++ oso. den 'cos i dun have much j2ee work exp, she say maybe i wanan consider helpdesk instead??? OMG. wat she trying to say???????? i am a programmer, wif java cert, n aplyu for helpdesk job?? i have exp in Helpesk, but now i am a full fledged programmer. PLS!
umm, i actually duno if i shld b truthful abt my job hunt siazz. lie tat i am seekign tuition work? or b truthful tat i looking for java jobs? i jus dun wan the news of mi quitting to spread so fast.
den i really went to outram there again to buy digi cam. wah liao..... 'cos canon having promo for xmas.. all the shopes follow its sale promo, n dun wan offer bettr things. 1 new guy offer 420, den boss walk over, n showed the promo for canon, 449. den thigns went back to normal. offer tis / tat... sianzzz.. end up nothig much. anyway i bought it liao.
now i'm ready to welcome xmas!!!!!
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" I think he is trying to show them his hair trail .." - maybe, but wat's there to show when oni his waist part is exposed?
"bluetooth" - i bought a blue tooth earpiece for my sony hp. n i have blue tooth connnector for my pc as well :)
saturday, was busy trying to clear my mailbox. stay home all day, really. umm, jus trivial stuff happening. impt things: i started to send out resumes for java job. those SCJP jobs. i dunno the mart rate, so i put 2200. den i finally got my blue tooth ear piece!!!! 88!!!!trying in office tmr. den going to buy digi cam oso...
Friday, November 25, 2005
i think he may read it in time to come. but jus wnana voice out loh. i know it happened to mi in the past, n haha, i can empathise how those frns felt back then. supposed to go sitex tis fri. but on thur, he told mi his bf coming, so cant meet mi for sitex, n they going to the veh exhibition. they going sitex another day. den i say, maybe i go along wif u guys? he reply, "u wnana b light bulb meh?". i was stunned.
anyway, he later msg mi that his bf is not coming, so he wanna go wif mi again to sitex. i told this to jnr. know wat she say? minus the 2nd para, she say "den dun go out wif him lah!". ahah, not a listener :) den i was calling my mentor agent, den trying to tell her my predicament. but she din listen at all, simply gave wat she thot shld b the reply.
finally, a long time no see guy... or acquaintance called mi, asking if tat day still onzz for sitex visit. he din msg mi at all he's onzz. i had told him when i can reach there though. i din wan go, cos will b a trip there, den i jus visiting oni. but since he wanna buy pc, so imight as well go n help him. umm, 2 yrs back, we had an arg lah. cos mi haha.. had bad attitude back then. den today, we met still. the funny thign is, i was at mrt 705pm. he not arrived yet on his bike. later he called mi, syaing he reached liao, but dunno where he is, cos he seldom take bike. he is at a carpark. den i keep asking his location, like landmark n etc. he say he at some carpark n hall. but haha, cant find him still. later, i finally managed to find my way to his location.
his trademark is tanned skin. we went into the sitex liao. sicne he wanna buy pc, n taking note of the specs oni, i know wat to do. but he... kinda... VERY fascinated by the technology of comptuers, tat he keep asking all those figures n meanings. look at acer, he check out how to use the pc. move the mouse. i ask him to try the keyboard. he bochap. den he say, acer not bad right? i reply "not really, jus the avg". he say wanna call his frn to ask. cannot get thru. den we look at other brands. reach fujitsu there, he tried the system. i ask him whether he like the design anot. he insist he oni focus on the specs. den i explain clearly to him "do u wan to face this model 2 yrs in ur room, or tat model?". he din say anythign.
den 1 infuriating exp. we took the dell pc brochure. got state the specs like "pen 4 processor D" and "pen D pro 550". he try calling another frn to ask abt the specs. he cant get thru.
he exclaimed, no 1 to advise him liao.
i den say "u can ask mi wat"
"but i ask u oredi wat"
"ok, when u buy the pc, u dun need to know wat the 550 means, jus need to see the 'pen 4/D' n the GHZ."
"but there must b a diff mah. nvm, i go ask the staff"
thestaff painstakingly explained the things to him. i was even giggling inside. cos, u wan mi accompany u here, is offer advice n help to decide, or to oni b a vase?? so tat someone u like is wif u?? he seems like, his first time to buy pc, so VELI VELI excited n jus wanna buy "best" pc there is. "best" 'cos pc depends on ur needs. dun mean the top notch specs means it's for u. u r oni wasting ur $$ in tis way.
ahha, somehow, i feel tat, i've really controlled my moods. in the past, i sure will flare up, cos "u ask mi along but dun care abt my opinion. when i tell u, u dun blif as well". i'm feeling unhappy inside. coming to tis pt, i rmb the "child of our time". ppl prefer frns who show a smiling/happy/casual face even if they not happy. does it mean we have to b pretentious? 'cos we r hiding our feelings. if we flare up, it's not good.
in a way, he seem like he wanna show tat he can make the decisions n take care of mi, but haha... i think otherwise. n the way he does things, ok, he reading the brochures, n i standing in frotn of him. he den brought it closer to his face. the paper oni 2 cm away from mi. i shunned the paper n moved away. i din say anythign abt these. cos it' so crowdded, n he's focussed on reading the brochures n visitng around.
actually hor, i feel like telling him, i have a dip in comp. he can trust mi. but my guess is that, he dun feel a thing. when i told him abt my plan to buy a digicam, he say he know abt digi cam. but when we at the canon there, he said he had used the top notch cams b4. is he tryin to impress mi?
come to think of everything, am i having high expectatiosn fo frns? erm, i dun think so. more to understanding how diff humans behave n think. yes later he sent mi home on his bike. haha, on the bike, as we on the road, he seem to move his butt nearer to my crotch. to seduce mi? well, i simply shifted my bag from my back to the front. n he oso wanna teach mi how to mount a bike :) i told him i took bikes b4.
i find tat, as my thinking matures n i can think for future, my ability to think n control my EQ increase, i begin to know better why some ppl respond in some ways. i try to make it an amicable meetign n a win-win ending. jus tat, ok, i not good at PR so i tend not to say out some thigns so ppl wun feel threatened or exposed. just tat, if u think something can b done better another way, will u tell that person? or leave him to discover as time goes by?
going to apply for java jobs... hopefully, the company can buy mi over. n yes, i do believe, i've gained lotsa insight n confidence from reading the EQ book. at least i am confident of my skills. n when ppl try to put mi down, i know my abilities n self worth n dun bother fighting back too much. if they seem to have a lot of things to back them up, i will listen to them, but wun reply, unless we have a lot of time. so tat we can discuss. but then, from the tv, it was mentioned that youngsters tend to accept challenges as they are often overwhelmed by their winning instincts. have i grown old?
ahha, back to work stuff. teh fat sup loh. the main sup was chatting wif us, den he joked tat if fat sup owe any1 money, better get back fast. i responded "hey, u owe mi $50". fat sup smiled. den later main sup said "u shld buy us dinner for xmas". i responded "*applause* yeah i support tat". i think the fat sup affected liao. cos later he commented tat i antisocial.
anyway, he later msg mi that his bf is not coming, so he wanna go wif mi again to sitex. i told this to jnr. know wat she say? minus the 2nd para, she say "den dun go out wif him lah!". ahah, not a listener :) den i was calling my mentor agent, den trying to tell her my predicament. but she din listen at all, simply gave wat she thot shld b the reply.
finally, a long time no see guy... or acquaintance called mi, asking if tat day still onzz for sitex visit. he din msg mi at all he's onzz. i had told him when i can reach there though. i din wan go, cos will b a trip there, den i jus visiting oni. but since he wanna buy pc, so imight as well go n help him. umm, 2 yrs back, we had an arg lah. cos mi haha.. had bad attitude back then. den today, we met still. the funny thign is, i was at mrt 705pm. he not arrived yet on his bike. later he called mi, syaing he reached liao, but dunno where he is, cos he seldom take bike. he is at a carpark. den i keep asking his location, like landmark n etc. he say he at some carpark n hall. but haha, cant find him still. later, i finally managed to find my way to his location.
his trademark is tanned skin. we went into the sitex liao. sicne he wanna buy pc, n taking note of the specs oni, i know wat to do. but he... kinda... VERY fascinated by the technology of comptuers, tat he keep asking all those figures n meanings. look at acer, he check out how to use the pc. move the mouse. i ask him to try the keyboard. he bochap. den he say, acer not bad right? i reply "not really, jus the avg". he say wanna call his frn to ask. cannot get thru. den we look at other brands. reach fujitsu there, he tried the system. i ask him whether he like the design anot. he insist he oni focus on the specs. den i explain clearly to him "do u wan to face this model 2 yrs in ur room, or tat model?". he din say anythign.
den 1 infuriating exp. we took the dell pc brochure. got state the specs like "pen 4 processor D" and "pen D pro 550". he try calling another frn to ask abt the specs. he cant get thru.
he exclaimed, no 1 to advise him liao.
i den say "u can ask mi wat"
"but i ask u oredi wat"
"ok, when u buy the pc, u dun need to know wat the 550 means, jus need to see the 'pen 4/D' n the GHZ."
"but there must b a diff mah. nvm, i go ask the staff"
thestaff painstakingly explained the things to him. i was even giggling inside. cos, u wan mi accompany u here, is offer advice n help to decide, or to oni b a vase?? so tat someone u like is wif u?? he seems like, his first time to buy pc, so VELI VELI excited n jus wanna buy "best" pc there is. "best" 'cos pc depends on ur needs. dun mean the top notch specs means it's for u. u r oni wasting ur $$ in tis way.
ahha, somehow, i feel tat, i've really controlled my moods. in the past, i sure will flare up, cos "u ask mi along but dun care abt my opinion. when i tell u, u dun blif as well". i'm feeling unhappy inside. coming to tis pt, i rmb the "child of our time". ppl prefer frns who show a smiling/happy/casual face even if they not happy. does it mean we have to b pretentious? 'cos we r hiding our feelings. if we flare up, it's not good.
in a way, he seem like he wanna show tat he can make the decisions n take care of mi, but haha... i think otherwise. n the way he does things, ok, he reading the brochures, n i standing in frotn of him. he den brought it closer to his face. the paper oni 2 cm away from mi. i shunned the paper n moved away. i din say anythign abt these. cos it' so crowdded, n he's focussed on reading the brochures n visitng around.
actually hor, i feel like telling him, i have a dip in comp. he can trust mi. but my guess is that, he dun feel a thing. when i told him abt my plan to buy a digicam, he say he know abt digi cam. but when we at the canon there, he said he had used the top notch cams b4. is he tryin to impress mi?
come to think of everything, am i having high expectatiosn fo frns? erm, i dun think so. more to understanding how diff humans behave n think. yes later he sent mi home on his bike. haha, on the bike, as we on the road, he seem to move his butt nearer to my crotch. to seduce mi? well, i simply shifted my bag from my back to the front. n he oso wanna teach mi how to mount a bike :) i told him i took bikes b4.
i find tat, as my thinking matures n i can think for future, my ability to think n control my EQ increase, i begin to know better why some ppl respond in some ways. i try to make it an amicable meetign n a win-win ending. jus tat, ok, i not good at PR so i tend not to say out some thigns so ppl wun feel threatened or exposed. just tat, if u think something can b done better another way, will u tell that person? or leave him to discover as time goes by?
going to apply for java jobs... hopefully, the company can buy mi over. n yes, i do believe, i've gained lotsa insight n confidence from reading the EQ book. at least i am confident of my skills. n when ppl try to put mi down, i know my abilities n self worth n dun bother fighting back too much. if they seem to have a lot of things to back them up, i will listen to them, but wun reply, unless we have a lot of time. so tat we can discuss. but then, from the tv, it was mentioned that youngsters tend to accept challenges as they are often overwhelmed by their winning instincts. have i grown old?
ahha, back to work stuff. teh fat sup loh. the main sup was chatting wif us, den he joked tat if fat sup owe any1 money, better get back fast. i responded "hey, u owe mi $50". fat sup smiled. den later main sup said "u shld buy us dinner for xmas". i responded "*applause* yeah i support tat". i think the fat sup affected liao. cos later he commented tat i antisocial.
Thursday, November 24, 2005
umm.. have not been updating my blog hor? so, my last update was on 18 nov.
friday, suddenly myboss say i cant take the half day leave on 20dec, cos i oni got 3 days left. i was stunned. den was really wondering wat to do for my half day liao loh..
went to watch harry potter later. watching for the story n magical effect. kinda disappointing, cos they delibrately set the ending to be a suspense: the evil man is coming back. wah liao, thot that was oni the mid of mov. n tis trip, made mi realise a frn of mine, has come staunch xtian. believing the bible to the detail. living by wat the bible tell him to. forcing himself, or persuading n limiting himself to stop thinking abt men, but go for gers.
den sat. my left eye twitched. i was busy preparing my things for the etic, n felt it shld mean i will b late for the tic, ie the shop close lioa. but things were alright lei... i even ate the slice fish noodles. was really fine. went to the shopping mall nearby to check out prices for digi cam, n bluetooth ear piece. hehe, first time to do research siazz.. but felt so bad, tat i let the ppl describe to mi n tlel mi things, later i still go off n dun buy from them. sigh, can see their disappointed look. but i reaslise tat, i am really BIASED against spec'ed guys. n maybe i 2 despo for guys, whichever guys attend to mi at their shops, i find them alright or nice looking. but 1 guy, he's in specs, i immedaitely... dun feel anythign for him. anyway, i decided liao. if the comex price dun meet my tartget i going back there to buy.
den 1 funny exp is, i was shoppping in the mall. went all way to top flr, den walked along those quiet n isolated lanes. den saw some heavy makeup women stand at thei entry fo their shops, calling "shuai ge, wan massage?" liao!!!! i was stunned!!!!!!!!!1 i din dare look!!!!!!!!!!! the first 1 who call mi, i was courteous enuff to smile back n decline. others, i simpyl looked away. i wonder how will i react if they are guys ...ahha...
n during the touring, i really found that, i do like moving n travellign abt. if i'm at a certain plc, i will wanna roam around there. n explore, but if i'm stuck to a table, i prefer ot jus stay there...
den come sunday. my left n right eye twitched. i found that i may not have been given visa at all. n when we checked, really no visa. sianzzz.. do ihave to go down again?!?! the invoice oredi wrote i need etic n visa, but the lady diun give mi?? i had even checked with her how do i check in? she demo tat i jus need to show passport, tat all. den i left. now, got such issues. sianzzz... den hor i got home, n chatted wif a guy from fridae.. another guy. n... hehe, gradually we met up haha. n i had the longest session ever with a so-called new guy... LOL...
monday, had wnana cheat half day mc siazz.. but later seeing how bz we are, i gave up. n somehow i realise how diff their way of solving prob is. we ar putting up xmas tree. they insisted n preferred to make abox to make into a stand for the tree. i will actually prefer turning an existing box into the stand. n surprised n sad n disappointing to say, a frn once again stood mi up for apptmt. when i told him tat, he got defensive n said he din promise to go. well, i den wondered how does it mean by "promise to go". by word of "promise", "agree", "confirmation", "will let u know"?
so i contacted a few otehrs. none is free. ok, anyway, i decided wat i wanna buy liao. canon a520. it's not entirely new, but it's got all thre things i need. movie, pic, usb, good optical soom, at least 4M pixel, affordable price. there really is not a need for mi to buy the "latest model" cos it does not suit my purpose.
n my half day leave kena sabo again. they say boss may not allow half day leave. even unpaid oso cannot. end up may take unoffical time off.
tuesday, met up a fridae guy again. chatted a bit. after work, my boss n mi discussing y we need to keep upgrading. he say "u learn 1 skill or specialise is not enuff. once that thing is outta fad, u r back to low level. like those web designers. best things is to keep on upgrading, learn a bit of everyting, make urself priceless.
i dun agree. by being a person who generally knows everything, but practically know nothing (jack of all trade is master of none) is quite useless. if u know wat u wnana study, go for it. y bother to keep upgrading the paper? unless ur industry is reayll so tuff, tat it realyl require to know bits of everything. but if u have the foresight, u can focus on 1 subject and delve into it.
boss even say, i got my java cert liao. if i really gd enuf, i'll have created an electronic leave clearing form. wah liao, as though challenging my caps??wah liao. when i first heard it, i did think of accepting it n develop such tings. but later i thot: why shld i? he may b either pushing mi to do something for them, or really underestimating my caps for java.
den come wednesday. suddenly, i realise my values is diff from the ppl here. i blif customer is king n we shld b nice n try to help them whenever we can. but they, prefer to b firm n rude if needed. n hor, to tis pt, they still dun agree to let mi take half day unpaid leave. DUNNO Y. push it to mgmt, saying even if sup allow, mgmt may not. but, comeon, if sup say have enuff ppl, n i taking unpaid, y shld mgmt refuse? more to like they dun wanan bother the mgmt liao.. for scared of trouble.
den these days i been trying to find new ways of motivating myself... so sisnazz at work. my ideals not met, objectives not achieved. work is so boring.
thurs. i was toking to user in an understanding tone. den the jnr jus took over n told mi "dun need tok so much to him". ok.. she win. well soemtimes, she's just so direct with her words n bochap ppl's feelings. den the snr likes to sing praises of watevr she like/prefer, n critises watever she dun enjoy. sometimes hor, i realyl fee tat they not my level of communication.
abt the half day leave, i really dunno them. cos, at times, the jnr oso went off 3 hrs prior to KO time, den they ok. anyway, i jus attended antoher seminar for new advisers. i told my office, i going for biz seminar. correct right?! it basically to tell mi more abt wat training n job prospects to expect from the company. n... wah liao, no basic income siazz.......
i kinda draw out my plan liao. but dunno.. how shld i get my family to support mi siazz... tell them, then they later discourage mi again....... ok, i plan to hunt for jobs again. this time for java jobs. i aim to switch jobs by start of 2006 cos my cert is good, n hopefully the new coy can buy mi over. den 3 mths time, i probation dun pass, den i go become adviser. sounds nice?
1 last thing b4 i sleep, dunno y. after the sunday rendevous, i been "forced" by my mind to sleep early... near 12, i wanna doze off liaozz...
friday, suddenly myboss say i cant take the half day leave on 20dec, cos i oni got 3 days left. i was stunned. den was really wondering wat to do for my half day liao loh..
went to watch harry potter later. watching for the story n magical effect. kinda disappointing, cos they delibrately set the ending to be a suspense: the evil man is coming back. wah liao, thot that was oni the mid of mov. n tis trip, made mi realise a frn of mine, has come staunch xtian. believing the bible to the detail. living by wat the bible tell him to. forcing himself, or persuading n limiting himself to stop thinking abt men, but go for gers.
den sat. my left eye twitched. i was busy preparing my things for the etic, n felt it shld mean i will b late for the tic, ie the shop close lioa. but things were alright lei... i even ate the slice fish noodles. was really fine. went to the shopping mall nearby to check out prices for digi cam, n bluetooth ear piece. hehe, first time to do research siazz.. but felt so bad, tat i let the ppl describe to mi n tlel mi things, later i still go off n dun buy from them. sigh, can see their disappointed look. but i reaslise tat, i am really BIASED against spec'ed guys. n maybe i 2 despo for guys, whichever guys attend to mi at their shops, i find them alright or nice looking. but 1 guy, he's in specs, i immedaitely... dun feel anythign for him. anyway, i decided liao. if the comex price dun meet my tartget i going back there to buy.
den 1 funny exp is, i was shoppping in the mall. went all way to top flr, den walked along those quiet n isolated lanes. den saw some heavy makeup women stand at thei entry fo their shops, calling "shuai ge, wan massage?" liao!!!! i was stunned!!!!!!!!!1 i din dare look!!!!!!!!!!! the first 1 who call mi, i was courteous enuff to smile back n decline. others, i simpyl looked away. i wonder how will i react if they are guys ...ahha...
n during the touring, i really found that, i do like moving n travellign abt. if i'm at a certain plc, i will wanna roam around there. n explore, but if i'm stuck to a table, i prefer ot jus stay there...
den come sunday. my left n right eye twitched. i found that i may not have been given visa at all. n when we checked, really no visa. sianzzz.. do ihave to go down again?!?! the invoice oredi wrote i need etic n visa, but the lady diun give mi?? i had even checked with her how do i check in? she demo tat i jus need to show passport, tat all. den i left. now, got such issues. sianzzz... den hor i got home, n chatted wif a guy from fridae.. another guy. n... hehe, gradually we met up haha. n i had the longest session ever with a so-called new guy... LOL...
monday, had wnana cheat half day mc siazz.. but later seeing how bz we are, i gave up. n somehow i realise how diff their way of solving prob is. we ar putting up xmas tree. they insisted n preferred to make abox to make into a stand for the tree. i will actually prefer turning an existing box into the stand. n surprised n sad n disappointing to say, a frn once again stood mi up for apptmt. when i told him tat, he got defensive n said he din promise to go. well, i den wondered how does it mean by "promise to go". by word of "promise", "agree", "confirmation", "will let u know"?
so i contacted a few otehrs. none is free. ok, anyway, i decided wat i wanna buy liao. canon a520. it's not entirely new, but it's got all thre things i need. movie, pic, usb, good optical soom, at least 4M pixel, affordable price. there really is not a need for mi to buy the "latest model" cos it does not suit my purpose.
n my half day leave kena sabo again. they say boss may not allow half day leave. even unpaid oso cannot. end up may take unoffical time off.
tuesday, met up a fridae guy again. chatted a bit. after work, my boss n mi discussing y we need to keep upgrading. he say "u learn 1 skill or specialise is not enuff. once that thing is outta fad, u r back to low level. like those web designers. best things is to keep on upgrading, learn a bit of everyting, make urself priceless.
i dun agree. by being a person who generally knows everything, but practically know nothing (jack of all trade is master of none) is quite useless. if u know wat u wnana study, go for it. y bother to keep upgrading the paper? unless ur industry is reayll so tuff, tat it realyl require to know bits of everything. but if u have the foresight, u can focus on 1 subject and delve into it.
boss even say, i got my java cert liao. if i really gd enuf, i'll have created an electronic leave clearing form. wah liao, as though challenging my caps??wah liao. when i first heard it, i did think of accepting it n develop such tings. but later i thot: why shld i? he may b either pushing mi to do something for them, or really underestimating my caps for java.
den come wednesday. suddenly, i realise my values is diff from the ppl here. i blif customer is king n we shld b nice n try to help them whenever we can. but they, prefer to b firm n rude if needed. n hor, to tis pt, they still dun agree to let mi take half day unpaid leave. DUNNO Y. push it to mgmt, saying even if sup allow, mgmt may not. but, comeon, if sup say have enuff ppl, n i taking unpaid, y shld mgmt refuse? more to like they dun wanan bother the mgmt liao.. for scared of trouble.
den these days i been trying to find new ways of motivating myself... so sisnazz at work. my ideals not met, objectives not achieved. work is so boring.
thurs. i was toking to user in an understanding tone. den the jnr jus took over n told mi "dun need tok so much to him". ok.. she win. well soemtimes, she's just so direct with her words n bochap ppl's feelings. den the snr likes to sing praises of watevr she like/prefer, n critises watever she dun enjoy. sometimes hor, i realyl fee tat they not my level of communication.
abt the half day leave, i really dunno them. cos, at times, the jnr oso went off 3 hrs prior to KO time, den they ok. anyway, i jus attended antoher seminar for new advisers. i told my office, i going for biz seminar. correct right?! it basically to tell mi more abt wat training n job prospects to expect from the company. n... wah liao, no basic income siazz.......
i kinda draw out my plan liao. but dunno.. how shld i get my family to support mi siazz... tell them, then they later discourage mi again....... ok, i plan to hunt for jobs again. this time for java jobs. i aim to switch jobs by start of 2006 cos my cert is good, n hopefully the new coy can buy mi over. den 3 mths time, i probation dun pass, den i go become adviser. sounds nice?
1 last thing b4 i sleep, dunno y. after the sunday rendevous, i been "forced" by my mind to sleep early... near 12, i wanna doze off liaozz...
Saturday, November 19, 2005
he's ku you lun. a singer from taiwan. no great news abt him. seem jus another guy who wanna make it big. WANNA. ht n face got liao, but lack some factors? n duno if he's daring, or trying to win promo, the 2 side pix, he's trying to show 2 female hosts tat she's not wearing briefs at all. by showing tat his ass is visible once he raises his hands?
now this is the picture which is MOST interesting. see the top left? chest has some shape, n tummy is flat. even if not, it's VERY VERY BARELY flabby. err, in praising n admiring his body, have i gone too far?? wif his figure, he sure appeals to a lot of ppl... but if he's gay, will there b an impression he flirts around?or will he not? if str8, will he use his body shape (contours?) to his advantage as well? dunno. top rite. can see his muscles loh. even at his age. COOL. n dunno if the cam man purposely teach him how to block certain body parts to be seen. sexy at his age. RIGHT?!? nice 1.
this is his sexy scene. in a previous competition phase, he was wearing some warrior costume n his good bod/fig was... realised. this phase, a competitor designed such a costume for him mainly to oso showoff his good body (HONRY GER LIAOz...) n he is oso daring n confident enuff to wear it. i applaud it haha. he's ever ready to pose in diff positions/gestures. n can see it's a low cut top. LOL, the good features/side of his body oso shown. kudos to u!!
as i was editing the pix, i thot of wat i wanna say liaozz. this guy i blif is no longer teen, or young adult. most likely 30+. but his looks maintain pretty well. this is him when fully clothed. left side, he looks like such fatherly figure... gosh... my knees... or rather, my heart is thumping fast...(cut) den right side, he is havign such a clean face siazz... n seem to have a good body. ok, i saw him dressed in a warrior costume, n realise he got good figure hidden, tat y i began snapping. den the black guy, i thot he may have a fig oso, den supposed to wear tights, but in end, tights dun fit his body. but nvm. i may have misjudged too :P
An EQ book that I'm reading right now, discusses about Spiritual Centre. I find it quite true.
An import way to curb human tendencies, such as lust and anger, is to maintain a spiritual centre that keeps you grounded and focused on living more effectively. It requires you to look beyond yourself.
In today's world, there are many peiople purporting to know the right way. It is wise to be cautious when deciding on whom to believe. There are frauds who exploits people's vulnerabilities and indecision about how to live their lives. Several signs to watch out for are, if:
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And the following line is quite true about me:
He usually downgrade their talents and look up to others more than necessary. He is afraid of not being accepted (at work, it's true. not in personal life, i think)
An import way to curb human tendencies, such as lust and anger, is to maintain a spiritual centre that keeps you grounded and focused on living more effectively. It requires you to look beyond yourself.
In today's world, there are many peiople purporting to know the right way. It is wise to be cautious when deciding on whom to believe. There are frauds who exploits people's vulnerabilities and indecision about how to live their lives. Several signs to watch out for are, if:
- they want money from you in exchange for building your spirituality
- they wat you to rely solely on them
- they use icons or toher symbols to build solidarity
- you feel uncomfortable deep down inside and wonder if it is right - if you feel this way, chances are it is not
- they want you to alter your behaviour or your daily routines so that they can take you away from your friends and family
- they belittle your emotional or intellectual capabilities
- they don't accept challenge or any different way of thinking
- everything emanates and revolves around them only
- they ask you to surrender your independence
- you need to question whether there is manipulation or cohesion
- they threaten you with recrimination and ridicule
- there is a hierachy and rigid rules that are outside of your normal boundaries
- they want to cut you from the real world
- they use drugs or other stimulants to seduce you
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And the following line is quite true about me:
He usually downgrade their talents and look up to others more than necessary. He is afraid of not being accepted (at work, it's true. not in personal life, i think)
Thursday, November 17, 2005
today is the LAST straw. i muz confirm whether i can go on leave anot.
but hor, today i find tat a lot of guys like to wear green tight Ts. i saw a poly guy sitting in front of mi in it. den antoher boy boarded oso. ya i keep loking at the back oft eh poly guy. den the boy hor, dunno y, 3 gers (forgot if got guys) who sat wif him all move to other available seats very soon. some ppl of cos peeped over to see if anything wrong. den, haha, i was thinking, i dun mind sitting there loh... n find out wat's wrogn n understand his thinking/mindset.
den hor, wah liao, a guy from the back seat, went over to sit. he sat there till.... his time to alight. ahah, at tat time, it felt like a guy is able to control him n take care of him siazz... and it's a grown up man.
den hor, the dec leave schedule, wah liao, no 1 willing to discuss, as tho dun wanna face reality n put things infinitely off. well, it's not mi loh. issues still need to b sorted out, n i will, for sure. discussing it, den finally reach some conclusion. for mi, i somehow really dun feel any clash at all. true, my schedule nvr clash, cos snr exam period is after xmas. i leave b4 xmas period.
but 1 thing unhappy is tat, sighzzz.. jnr had planned for a family trip in oct i think. n leave approved. den snr's exam leave now den made known, after i repeated asked her to. now her exam clash wif jnr time. family trip, of cos impt. den exam, is from informatic. ppl say can defer the exam, but snr insist cannot. haha.. dunno. so now, dunno their timing yet. but hor, i find tat, perhaps i blif it's not clashinig wif mi much, or i insist, within mi, to behave as tho all thigns will work otu fine for mi. i kept my mood n feels inside mi. thru out the plannign n discussing, i was always putting a smile n joked. cos i know: i know wat i wan, n know their schedule. it's gonna b a team effort, i wil ltry to think for them, but oso dun lose my point. dun get tense up, relax n discuss. tat, know urself, know ur enemy.
the jnr, cos it';s affeting her, well, in both ways ie her leave clash wif snr, n her moods oso playing her out. affecting her so she kinda focus on listening calls. i oso pick up, but tell them i call back later. well, cos she sure feel she at the losing end. bobian, the snr think tat, she got exam, so surely wil lget the leave 1, so dun care when she let us know.
n hor, i jus know they oso getting a new colleague. a female. i dun really care... cos, perhaps they oso know i got my cert, so jus to prepare for mi leaving or anythign, they gettign new ger to come in. i oso thinking of jumping to agent. but i dunno if they willing to buy mi over. other way is, i find java job, den get themt o buy mi over, but i fail the 3 mths probation? hhheeh...
back to office thigns. we shopped around n went to robinson in orchard, the flr where they sell men's office bag. har, cos the staff hor, looks like a GUAI sec BOY, wif thick EYEBROW, N SHY. CUTE! i look at him, for 2 secs, he suddenly scared, n dunno where to plc his ahdn hahaha..
wah liao, tis time i oso... dunno wat going on wif mi. today is last day to buy air tic. den i forgot to bring passport. i know which blk is the shop, but forgot the unit number. funni hor? jnr n snr oso ask mi, if got prob finding the plc, can call them. haha, well, i prefer to search n explore myself, rather than really so jialut ask for help.
but i discover 1 thing abt myself. i do enjoy moving around, looking, browsing n seeing new things/places. but i tend to b stukc at my plc. i dun wan to move around if i'm at my desk. but if i'm oredi outside, i'm ready to explore.
right now, i really tryign to plan n meet up my frns... haha, sigh plannign really need take into account abt time mgmt siazz... think ahead. n plan when i do wat. hehe, guess i gonna use sony's organiser.
but hor, today i find tat a lot of guys like to wear green tight Ts. i saw a poly guy sitting in front of mi in it. den antoher boy boarded oso. ya i keep loking at the back oft eh poly guy. den the boy hor, dunno y, 3 gers (forgot if got guys) who sat wif him all move to other available seats very soon. some ppl of cos peeped over to see if anything wrong. den, haha, i was thinking, i dun mind sitting there loh... n find out wat's wrogn n understand his thinking/mindset.
den hor, wah liao, a guy from the back seat, went over to sit. he sat there till.... his time to alight. ahah, at tat time, it felt like a guy is able to control him n take care of him siazz... and it's a grown up man.
den hor, the dec leave schedule, wah liao, no 1 willing to discuss, as tho dun wanna face reality n put things infinitely off. well, it's not mi loh. issues still need to b sorted out, n i will, for sure. discussing it, den finally reach some conclusion. for mi, i somehow really dun feel any clash at all. true, my schedule nvr clash, cos snr exam period is after xmas. i leave b4 xmas period.
but 1 thing unhappy is tat, sighzzz.. jnr had planned for a family trip in oct i think. n leave approved. den snr's exam leave now den made known, after i repeated asked her to. now her exam clash wif jnr time. family trip, of cos impt. den exam, is from informatic. ppl say can defer the exam, but snr insist cannot. haha.. dunno. so now, dunno their timing yet. but hor, i find tat, perhaps i blif it's not clashinig wif mi much, or i insist, within mi, to behave as tho all thigns will work otu fine for mi. i kept my mood n feels inside mi. thru out the plannign n discussing, i was always putting a smile n joked. cos i know: i know wat i wan, n know their schedule. it's gonna b a team effort, i wil ltry to think for them, but oso dun lose my point. dun get tense up, relax n discuss. tat, know urself, know ur enemy.
the jnr, cos it';s affeting her, well, in both ways ie her leave clash wif snr, n her moods oso playing her out. affecting her so she kinda focus on listening calls. i oso pick up, but tell them i call back later. well, cos she sure feel she at the losing end. bobian, the snr think tat, she got exam, so surely wil lget the leave 1, so dun care when she let us know.
n hor, i jus know they oso getting a new colleague. a female. i dun really care... cos, perhaps they oso know i got my cert, so jus to prepare for mi leaving or anythign, they gettign new ger to come in. i oso thinking of jumping to agent. but i dunno if they willing to buy mi over. other way is, i find java job, den get themt o buy mi over, but i fail the 3 mths probation? hhheeh...
back to office thigns. we shopped around n went to robinson in orchard, the flr where they sell men's office bag. har, cos the staff hor, looks like a GUAI sec BOY, wif thick EYEBROW, N SHY. CUTE! i look at him, for 2 secs, he suddenly scared, n dunno where to plc his ahdn hahaha..
wah liao, tis time i oso... dunno wat going on wif mi. today is last day to buy air tic. den i forgot to bring passport. i know which blk is the shop, but forgot the unit number. funni hor? jnr n snr oso ask mi, if got prob finding the plc, can call them. haha, well, i prefer to search n explore myself, rather than really so jialut ask for help.
but i discover 1 thing abt myself. i do enjoy moving around, looking, browsing n seeing new things/places. but i tend to b stukc at my plc. i dun wan to move around if i'm at my desk. but if i'm oredi outside, i'm ready to explore.
right now, i really tryign to plan n meet up my frns... haha, sigh plannign really need take into account abt time mgmt siazz... think ahead. n plan when i do wat. hehe, guess i gonna use sony's organiser.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
why do i have so much thigns to blog everyday? i really wonder y... so much things to tell? my guess is that, i live alone, some frns abroad. n wif my family i dun share some thigns wif them, and wat's more i dun live wif family, so need to find a channel to voice my feelings?
tis morning quite exciting. haha... finally i woke up on time!!!! prep myself n went to take bus. oh ya, the free paper hor, now queue getting LONNNNGGGGEEERRRR. i think hor, since it's free, ppl jus get it to read to kill time n b updated on the latest news. no big deal (yes, i'm inclined to streats dearie). was reading papers on the buss as it went off. den i saw 1 40+ 40 auntie bringing some packet stuff. she really those auntie ty0e loh.. looking for seats n unable to balance well. i look n observe her. she can balance but just looking for seats.
den as the bus moved, a ger was adjusting her bag. aunt lok at her oso. den, i decided to give up my seat. haha.. although the folowing line is cliche, but it's still pure courtesy loh
me: auntie, have a seat
her: u sit loh, nvm
me move away wif a smile
her grab the seat.
oh ya, anyway, as i boarded the bus, wah, i saw a cute guy sitting... bit plump though. wanna sit there, but he take up some space, so i jus sit opposite him loh.. den after i gave up my seat, ahha, i tookt eh chance to stand BESIDE his seat. look n observe his movements... but he napping lah. den i saw his file. NP freshmen orientation 03/04. wat??? he's freshie in 03/04??? but he in working attire?? i dun think he's helper in freshie day loh... cos helper dun get any such bags 1 mah.
den i looked around, to my right, got 2 fashionable guys sitting there, wif hair properly styled. the 1 outside, in wokr attire, but first 2 butts undone. ya i noted tat much. n they napping oso. sayangzz them siazz. so tired... n for a whole 30 mins trip to work, my first time to stand thru'out, but happily lah haha. somehow, later when 1 fashion guy alighted, the unbutt guy still there. the bus moved n no 1 tookt he seat yet. so i moved into it. dunno my gaydar working anot, as i sat there, the unbutt guy fell asleep, n his arm pushed onto my shoulder. gradually lah. i din resist hahah... den mins later ,he took out his mrt card, rubbing my arm in the process n alighted.
sighzzz.. at work, i simply hope my contract will end soon. no future in this plc. i'm thinking of doing a bad job here so my contract can end earlier, but i knwo it';ll gimme a bad name lah, so a BADB BAD IDEA. *snip*
den abt my oz trip. my snr ask mi to bookt eh tix first. so i called to boko liao, n ask, if someone cancel tix for earlier flgiht, lemme know oso. haha, so qiao, today misa called mi, tat i got a tix selling at 401, instead of the advertised 388. hehe GOOD!!! now oni waiting for the snr to confirm exam date
den hor, damn sianzz. i told snr last wk abt my oz plan. she say she need to chk her exam date. till tues, she din reply yet. so while she present i ask the boss. boss say need to discuss wif team. den wednesday, boss not here. n e tix, need to confirm by thur night. my feeling is tat, seem liek 1 day snr exam date cannot confirm, i cant take leave??? wats is tat???
but now, i think abt it... the jnr taking leave after xmas. when snr saw it, she promptly discussed wif boss. n my dates, 20th to 25th, she said nthing, jus ask mi bk first. my guess is tat, my wk, she oni taking leave to prep for exam. exam is after xmas. my guess oni. she even asked a colleague to discuss when they shld take leave... to, i think, study...
keep my fings crossed. hope thigns go on fine.
tis morning quite exciting. haha... finally i woke up on time!!!! prep myself n went to take bus. oh ya, the free paper hor, now queue getting LONNNNGGGGEEERRRR. i think hor, since it's free, ppl jus get it to read to kill time n b updated on the latest news. no big deal (yes, i'm inclined to streats dearie). was reading papers on the buss as it went off. den i saw 1 40+ 40 auntie bringing some packet stuff. she really those auntie ty0e loh.. looking for seats n unable to balance well. i look n observe her. she can balance but just looking for seats.
den as the bus moved, a ger was adjusting her bag. aunt lok at her oso. den, i decided to give up my seat. haha.. although the folowing line is cliche, but it's still pure courtesy loh
me: auntie, have a seat
her: u sit loh, nvm
me move away wif a smile
her grab the seat.
oh ya, anyway, as i boarded the bus, wah, i saw a cute guy sitting... bit plump though. wanna sit there, but he take up some space, so i jus sit opposite him loh.. den after i gave up my seat, ahha, i tookt eh chance to stand BESIDE his seat. look n observe his movements... but he napping lah. den i saw his file. NP freshmen orientation 03/04. wat??? he's freshie in 03/04??? but he in working attire?? i dun think he's helper in freshie day loh... cos helper dun get any such bags 1 mah.
den i looked around, to my right, got 2 fashionable guys sitting there, wif hair properly styled. the 1 outside, in wokr attire, but first 2 butts undone. ya i noted tat much. n they napping oso. sayangzz them siazz. so tired... n for a whole 30 mins trip to work, my first time to stand thru'out, but happily lah haha. somehow, later when 1 fashion guy alighted, the unbutt guy still there. the bus moved n no 1 tookt he seat yet. so i moved into it. dunno my gaydar working anot, as i sat there, the unbutt guy fell asleep, n his arm pushed onto my shoulder. gradually lah. i din resist hahah... den mins later ,he took out his mrt card, rubbing my arm in the process n alighted.
sighzzz.. at work, i simply hope my contract will end soon. no future in this plc. i'm thinking of doing a bad job here so my contract can end earlier, but i knwo it';ll gimme a bad name lah, so a BADB BAD IDEA. *snip*
den abt my oz trip. my snr ask mi to bookt eh tix first. so i called to boko liao, n ask, if someone cancel tix for earlier flgiht, lemme know oso. haha, so qiao, today misa called mi, tat i got a tix selling at 401, instead of the advertised 388. hehe GOOD!!! now oni waiting for the snr to confirm exam date
den hor, damn sianzz. i told snr last wk abt my oz plan. she say she need to chk her exam date. till tues, she din reply yet. so while she present i ask the boss. boss say need to discuss wif team. den wednesday, boss not here. n e tix, need to confirm by thur night. my feeling is tat, seem liek 1 day snr exam date cannot confirm, i cant take leave??? wats is tat???
but now, i think abt it... the jnr taking leave after xmas. when snr saw it, she promptly discussed wif boss. n my dates, 20th to 25th, she said nthing, jus ask mi bk first. my guess is tat, my wk, she oni taking leave to prep for exam. exam is after xmas. my guess oni. she even asked a colleague to discuss when they shld take leave... to, i think, study...
keep my fings crossed. hope thigns go on fine.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
consolidating 2 days.
monday: my agent came. wanna hand a giro form to mi. hehe, as i walk to him, he was standing up, "pushing" his chest forward. hahah, my gaze fell instantly onto his black top.
nothign else to say lah. den i slept at 130am, trying to snap some TV shots. but i was oso/.. doing something while sleeping haah. the next thign i know i woke in midst of night, den woke back my shorts, n woke again when the room is BRIGHT. it's 7.40am. GOSH, I'M LATE!!! wah liaozz... den no free paper to take anymore (oh well, these days, TODAY include letters of general public. it lost the feel of more impt issues. like i din expect ppl to write in about toilets, road cleanliness. OMG. WHERE'S MY BELOVED streats??) was abt to alight, n den it started pouring. argh.
den here comes the funny part. i got inot the lift wif a guy. i know my hair is BLOATING. i look into the mirror. the guy also look into my eyes thru the mirror ahha. i pressed down my hair, but din look at the guy 2nd time lah. at work, i was planning to take leave mah for oz trip. the snr ger say she need to check with her exam schedule. i told her on mon, den today tues, she din find out yet. so i ask again. den i felt that, wat if she took her time to check on the schedule? i better let my sup know oso. at least he can be notified as well. 2 bad, when i told my sup, he replied in a way that make mi feel i shld not have told him directly.
later i oso checekd the airfare. tryign to kinda check on the rates. KAUZZZ!!! the rates have change from 320 to 540?????? i was stunned!!!!! i called the agencies n airlines to check. GOSH!!!! the tix r sold out!!!! the closign date for the tix is 17 nov, but now sold out liao?!??!?! WAH LIAO!!!! next available date for qantas is 24 dec. or go SIA for the mn flight. but much $$ than qantas... damn it...............
din expect such cockup. well, jus from exp loh. cos i din not book the tix, i merely check on the rates. i was hoping to wait for the ppromo to get better n see again. sigh. a slip on my part. wah liao.. now need to spend much more money. snr did say i can visit oz in CNY period. when i told my mum, she oso ask if the cost is worth my trip. i'd say (hope she dun have the copyright to this phrase): "it's worth it".
i even prepare to buy some things over haha.. ya, when i saw the tix raise price, i was devastated siazz.. btu still i muz go :) umm, our morale here oso kinda getting lower by the day.
oso went to the adviser briefing today. hehe, the person who intro mi 1, i call her "AG". she called mi in office. i dun wan my colelagues to know, so had to b quite secret. why secret? i jus dun wan them to know bt my plans yet, cos i not confirmed, n stil need to check for details. when she called, i even lied to the jnr, saying AG veli veli mafan, calling to check on an issue tat's resolved wks back.
haha, den i took mrt to the briefing plc, the mrt was ok, even saw a guy in singlet haha. he shy, so bend down whiel in seat. but i look at him when got chance. n once again, i duno how to reach the plc, called AG, n "toured" the area in a bid to find the office haah. to my surprise, got 4 person (incl mi) supposed to be there, oni mi 1 person turn up. i found out more abt wat it takes to become adviser lah. so now, entirely up to mi if i wanna challenge myself.
but b4 tat, i need to find more details... wat's more my contract 1st yr over in mid march, but i wanna perhaps start on partime basis first. actually, if i really wanna go into this industry, i oso duno wat to do for my java n family. java cos i still into java. dun wanna waste it. duno... but programming cannot b long term anymore. den family... i dun blif they will support mi at all. or will they? cos the MLM earlier on need to invest money, huge sum. this 1? dunno,. my sis more open. mum is more sceptical.
monday: my agent came. wanna hand a giro form to mi. hehe, as i walk to him, he was standing up, "pushing" his chest forward. hahah, my gaze fell instantly onto his black top.
nothign else to say lah. den i slept at 130am, trying to snap some TV shots. but i was oso/.. doing something while sleeping haah. the next thign i know i woke in midst of night, den woke back my shorts, n woke again when the room is BRIGHT. it's 7.40am. GOSH, I'M LATE!!! wah liaozz... den no free paper to take anymore (oh well, these days, TODAY include letters of general public. it lost the feel of more impt issues. like i din expect ppl to write in about toilets, road cleanliness. OMG. WHERE'S MY BELOVED streats??) was abt to alight, n den it started pouring. argh.
den here comes the funny part. i got inot the lift wif a guy. i know my hair is BLOATING. i look into the mirror. the guy also look into my eyes thru the mirror ahha. i pressed down my hair, but din look at the guy 2nd time lah. at work, i was planning to take leave mah for oz trip. the snr ger say she need to check with her exam schedule. i told her on mon, den today tues, she din find out yet. so i ask again. den i felt that, wat if she took her time to check on the schedule? i better let my sup know oso. at least he can be notified as well. 2 bad, when i told my sup, he replied in a way that make mi feel i shld not have told him directly.
later i oso checekd the airfare. tryign to kinda check on the rates. KAUZZZ!!! the rates have change from 320 to 540?????? i was stunned!!!!! i called the agencies n airlines to check. GOSH!!!! the tix r sold out!!!! the closign date for the tix is 17 nov, but now sold out liao?!??!?! WAH LIAO!!!! next available date for qantas is 24 dec. or go SIA for the mn flight. but much $$ than qantas... damn it...............
din expect such cockup. well, jus from exp loh. cos i din not book the tix, i merely check on the rates. i was hoping to wait for the ppromo to get better n see again. sigh. a slip on my part. wah liao.. now need to spend much more money. snr did say i can visit oz in CNY period. when i told my mum, she oso ask if the cost is worth my trip. i'd say (hope she dun have the copyright to this phrase): "it's worth it".
i even prepare to buy some things over haha.. ya, when i saw the tix raise price, i was devastated siazz.. btu still i muz go :) umm, our morale here oso kinda getting lower by the day.
oso went to the adviser briefing today. hehe, the person who intro mi 1, i call her "AG". she called mi in office. i dun wan my colelagues to know, so had to b quite secret. why secret? i jus dun wan them to know bt my plans yet, cos i not confirmed, n stil need to check for details. when she called, i even lied to the jnr, saying AG veli veli mafan, calling to check on an issue tat's resolved wks back.
haha, den i took mrt to the briefing plc, the mrt was ok, even saw a guy in singlet haha. he shy, so bend down whiel in seat. but i look at him when got chance. n once again, i duno how to reach the plc, called AG, n "toured" the area in a bid to find the office haah. to my surprise, got 4 person (incl mi) supposed to be there, oni mi 1 person turn up. i found out more abt wat it takes to become adviser lah. so now, entirely up to mi if i wanna challenge myself.
but b4 tat, i need to find more details... wat's more my contract 1st yr over in mid march, but i wanna perhaps start on partime basis first. actually, if i really wanna go into this industry, i oso duno wat to do for my java n family. java cos i still into java. dun wanna waste it. duno... but programming cannot b long term anymore. den family... i dun blif they will support mi at all. or will they? cos the MLM earlier on need to invest money, huge sum. this 1? dunno,. my sis more open. mum is more sceptical.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
haha... last night, i mustered my courage, yes mustered, n went to irc. cos.. LOL, u blif it? i was reading an article dated in june tis yr, toking abt youngsters (sec sch boys) who, due to their immaturity, traded their bodies with materialistic stuff, and ended up kena those diseases. i was really appalled, n wanna b good samaritan, by going into irc n see if i can help in anyway.. haha, i know, and knew, it was mad movement cos how am i gonna help at all?! but i just felt justified to go in. haha.
i jus parked inside for abt 1 hr n went off. cos i din promo myself, so no 1 chatted up haha. n abt 12am, after my bath, i.. decided to b noti.i used my webcam for irc hahah. some ppl connected to mi, but due to the poor std of my cam, those ppl who demand for quality cam left disappointed, kept complaining how dark the cam is, how slow it's. but i jus bochap loh. they wanna see, jus see. dun wan, den d/c loh. some ppl oso wan mi show my face.. NAHZZ, those ppl who gong-gong den show face lerzz..
if u gonna do anything tat ppl can blackmail u wif, think of the possible consequences tat ur acts may bring. protect urself.
hehe.. den at last min, someone dun have cam but wanna see. den he quite courteous lah, cos he dun have cam mah, dun dare to b over-demanding. so we did play around, showing parts of my body haha... quite fun siazz.. although it's not bad to have someone coming over, i'm not sure if i'm prepared to meet new ppl. wil it be really ONS, or we can tok? aiya 2 much thigns to think. so jus over cam will do loh. hee, but he's oso someone who can control himself loh.
i kept asking him to come over, n teasing him, but he insist not to, saying he need to study. n oso keep asking mi to show "live action" n face. but i wun. cos, too risky :) so it's like we both try to get each other to do our bidding but none conceded. heeh.. long time never had such fun liao.. LOL
n hor, i'm really getting excited over my oz trip. hope everything can go smoothly..
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for long time, i din have a dream tat make mi feel down. it somehow reflected my inner world.
it's some festival.. maybe CNY? den we at a relative (dunno who) place celebrating. every1 is having fun mingling around n mixing around. i'm the odd 1 out. i choose to stay away from them. i dino where to go. i jus walk around in the house. helping to keep the place clean. i even rmb, using a broken mop, den putting it back/
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btw, this page is really ridiculous.. or hilarious..
i jus parked inside for abt 1 hr n went off. cos i din promo myself, so no 1 chatted up haha. n abt 12am, after my bath, i.. decided to b noti.i used my webcam for irc hahah. some ppl connected to mi, but due to the poor std of my cam, those ppl who demand for quality cam left disappointed, kept complaining how dark the cam is, how slow it's. but i jus bochap loh. they wanna see, jus see. dun wan, den d/c loh. some ppl oso wan mi show my face.. NAHZZ, those ppl who gong-gong den show face lerzz..
if u gonna do anything tat ppl can blackmail u wif, think of the possible consequences tat ur acts may bring. protect urself.
hehe.. den at last min, someone dun have cam but wanna see. den he quite courteous lah, cos he dun have cam mah, dun dare to b over-demanding. so we did play around, showing parts of my body haha... quite fun siazz.. although it's not bad to have someone coming over, i'm not sure if i'm prepared to meet new ppl. wil it be really ONS, or we can tok? aiya 2 much thigns to think. so jus over cam will do loh. hee, but he's oso someone who can control himself loh.
i kept asking him to come over, n teasing him, but he insist not to, saying he need to study. n oso keep asking mi to show "live action" n face. but i wun. cos, too risky :) so it's like we both try to get each other to do our bidding but none conceded. heeh.. long time never had such fun liao.. LOL
n hor, i'm really getting excited over my oz trip. hope everything can go smoothly..
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for long time, i din have a dream tat make mi feel down. it somehow reflected my inner world.
it's some festival.. maybe CNY? den we at a relative (dunno who) place celebrating. every1 is having fun mingling around n mixing around. i'm the odd 1 out. i choose to stay away from them. i dino where to go. i jus walk around in the house. helping to keep the place clean. i even rmb, using a broken mop, den putting it back/
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btw, this page is really ridiculous.. or hilarious..
Saturday, November 12, 2005
it's mi commenting again... (for the whole morning, i dunno wat to write. until now, i came back from lunch appt)
as i mentioned b4, my office got a fat sup. now tis fat sup transferred to a newly setup section in our office. den, this fat sup stil keep asking mi to do things n check thngs for him whcih he can easily find out as well. my colleagues tell mi dun do things free for him anymore. ask him do himself. but i'm still the mindset of, help if i can. they oso say no need so nice help him anymore.
i know myself tat, once my limit is reaached, den ta'ts all.
den hor, jus now the lunch appt, my left eye was twitching. den a fridae guy who i met up last wk, he wanna mit for lunch. counting the times, 1 last sun, 1 on wed evening, 1 on fri night, den another 1 for lunch today. 4 times meet in 1 wk. sunday we met. wed evening cos my family din cook, so i thot, dining together ok loh. den fri he wanna meet supper, cos he hungry n wanna eat soemthing. so i thot, ok loh. jus now, he again wanna lunch. i told him i used to eating alone liao. but he use those soft tactics (ku rou ji)... like "u dun wna lunch, den i skip" "1 person eat veli boring" "thot of going shopping mall walk". well, my heart soften, so i agreed.
but it turn out to be quite sianzzz. cos we nothing much to tok, n his ideas dun click wif mine. like his thining more to the self centred n racially biased type. as in, jus now, i abt to go order my food. beside us is a malay family eating. jus as i abt to go order, a malay ger, not kid, passed by our table n put a tray CONVENIENTLY. i dunno wat she trying to do, so jus went to order.
later, i came back, the tray is still there. i know who put there. grumbling, i moved the tray to antoher table, n exclaimed "dunno who put the tray on our table" in english. the family beside us know mi referrign to them, but told her kids to b quiet. den hor, this fridae guy, like wanna b on par wif mi, referred to them in a derogatory manner. i was stunned siazz...
anyway the newly opened place, food mayb ok, but svc not good. i wanna order spaghetti fish, n dun wan some things, the person replied , those things muz put there 1....... oh well, such rigidness dun deserve my money...........
as for fridae, need to cut down liao, so tat will not b boring. sometimes i muz really b firm...
thinking back, i was quite opinionated, if there is such word. i will feel my way is right. and if things dun work my way, i may be pissed off. even tho i thot my EQ was ok. like jus now, wif the bored lunch, i may b pissed in the past, but now, i'm learning to take it in my stride. as we parted, i asked if the fridae wnana walk around more. cos i live here 5 yrs, he oni 3 wks. his reply: all the shops r the same 1 mah, unless u know wat to see, if not wat's there to look around for?
haha, i duno wat to reply siazz...
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n hor i think in the past, (hopefully not anymore) i was quite easily irritated by ppl's actions which i dun agree. i feel it cld b due to, my pals taught mi a lot, n from them, i set a std for new frns. those who din meet the std, i'll feel they r not worth my frnship, or even feel tat, how come at such age, they still tis kinda look/feel/attitude?? an eg is... LOL ("LOL" is not part of the eg) a person (till now, still dunno if i shld call him frn or acq or wat) who i knew from irc, he say he wanna b frn to mi.. or maybe good frn. den i started to impose stds for him to reach/meet. eg, if i am tired, unhappy or soemthing, or anyone who is unhappy or tired, they will usually say oni 1 or 2 liners. den i hope or expect the other party to realise/feel the mood swing of mi.
when it does not happen, i feel tat person is not sensitive enuff, until such a way that he may not b worth my frnship. but as time goes by, i begin to understand more about diff ppl's behaviour n tinking. even for a SM frn, 'cos my pals usually can see thigns in a broader aspect compared to mi, n they usually manage to put that idea into mi, or convince their way is better, i actually tried to do tat to tat SM frn as well, resulting somehow in mi insisting my way is right, n put the other person idea's down. hahah..
but now, i learn to respect ppl's decisions. i can always tell them wat i think, n see if they r ok. if i dun think they shld do in a way, i'll tell them maybe 1 or 2 times, but if they reallu dun wan, den.. jus let it b.
i think it's partly due to my bringing up, and my newly-found confi.
as i mentioned b4, my office got a fat sup. now tis fat sup transferred to a newly setup section in our office. den, this fat sup stil keep asking mi to do things n check thngs for him whcih he can easily find out as well. my colleagues tell mi dun do things free for him anymore. ask him do himself. but i'm still the mindset of, help if i can. they oso say no need so nice help him anymore.
i know myself tat, once my limit is reaached, den ta'ts all.
den hor, jus now the lunch appt, my left eye was twitching. den a fridae guy who i met up last wk, he wanna mit for lunch. counting the times, 1 last sun, 1 on wed evening, 1 on fri night, den another 1 for lunch today. 4 times meet in 1 wk. sunday we met. wed evening cos my family din cook, so i thot, dining together ok loh. den fri he wanna meet supper, cos he hungry n wanna eat soemthing. so i thot, ok loh. jus now, he again wanna lunch. i told him i used to eating alone liao. but he use those soft tactics (ku rou ji)... like "u dun wna lunch, den i skip" "1 person eat veli boring" "thot of going shopping mall walk". well, my heart soften, so i agreed.
but it turn out to be quite sianzzz. cos we nothing much to tok, n his ideas dun click wif mine. like his thining more to the self centred n racially biased type. as in, jus now, i abt to go order my food. beside us is a malay family eating. jus as i abt to go order, a malay ger, not kid, passed by our table n put a tray CONVENIENTLY. i dunno wat she trying to do, so jus went to order.
later, i came back, the tray is still there. i know who put there. grumbling, i moved the tray to antoher table, n exclaimed "dunno who put the tray on our table" in english. the family beside us know mi referrign to them, but told her kids to b quiet. den hor, this fridae guy, like wanna b on par wif mi, referred to them in a derogatory manner. i was stunned siazz...
anyway the newly opened place, food mayb ok, but svc not good. i wanna order spaghetti fish, n dun wan some things, the person replied , those things muz put there 1....... oh well, such rigidness dun deserve my money...........
as for fridae, need to cut down liao, so tat will not b boring. sometimes i muz really b firm...
thinking back, i was quite opinionated, if there is such word. i will feel my way is right. and if things dun work my way, i may be pissed off. even tho i thot my EQ was ok. like jus now, wif the bored lunch, i may b pissed in the past, but now, i'm learning to take it in my stride. as we parted, i asked if the fridae wnana walk around more. cos i live here 5 yrs, he oni 3 wks. his reply: all the shops r the same 1 mah, unless u know wat to see, if not wat's there to look around for?
haha, i duno wat to reply siazz...
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n hor i think in the past, (hopefully not anymore) i was quite easily irritated by ppl's actions which i dun agree. i feel it cld b due to, my pals taught mi a lot, n from them, i set a std for new frns. those who din meet the std, i'll feel they r not worth my frnship, or even feel tat, how come at such age, they still tis kinda look/feel/attitude?? an eg is... LOL ("LOL" is not part of the eg) a person (till now, still dunno if i shld call him frn or acq or wat) who i knew from irc, he say he wanna b frn to mi.. or maybe good frn. den i started to impose stds for him to reach/meet. eg, if i am tired, unhappy or soemthing, or anyone who is unhappy or tired, they will usually say oni 1 or 2 liners. den i hope or expect the other party to realise/feel the mood swing of mi.
when it does not happen, i feel tat person is not sensitive enuff, until such a way that he may not b worth my frnship. but as time goes by, i begin to understand more about diff ppl's behaviour n tinking. even for a SM frn, 'cos my pals usually can see thigns in a broader aspect compared to mi, n they usually manage to put that idea into mi, or convince their way is better, i actually tried to do tat to tat SM frn as well, resulting somehow in mi insisting my way is right, n put the other person idea's down. hahah..
but now, i learn to respect ppl's decisions. i can always tell them wat i think, n see if they r ok. if i dun think they shld do in a way, i'll tell them maybe 1 or 2 times, but if they reallu dun wan, den.. jus let it b.
i think it's partly due to my bringing up, and my newly-found confi.
Friday, November 11, 2005
watched the "child of our time" again. it's the 2nd last ep. soemtimes hor i really wonder.. for those TV addicts, once a production catches ur attention, u'll forego some social events to watch its subsequent episodes. den when the series ends its run, u'll feel a bit lost, and need to plan wat to do next to fill up that empty slot.
anyway (i think this is another frequently used word...), watching the program really make mi know more abt myself. cos since young, i was ALWAYS at home watching TV. even my mum/dad keep nagging at mi to go out. but i jus stay home to watch tv. ask mi anything abt the TV show, i can asnwer u. but this actually affect(ed) my social skills. as in i dunno how to mix wif frns, n dunnohow to share... now learning it bit by bit.
siaozz.. these days i keep forgetting wat i wanna blog. had in mind the contents, but when abt to write i dun rmb.
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ok. 1 of my views for reln is that, i dun mind sacrificing to make things work. so i'm not exactly sure wat went wrong lah. first few, all din work out at all. den when i gain more confi abt myself, to mi, some ppl will want to know mi at the spur of the moment. once they get tired of it, of the excitement n the freshness, they'll leave u. or if they find any fault wif u, they wun tok abt it, n jus let go.
for mi, i prefer to really tok things out, and see if i can adjust to suit the other person. changing does not mean changing urself, but adapting urself to suit him better. in such way that u dun feel suppressed.
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i'm really planning (yes 2nd time i mentioning it) my oz trip now haha. den discussed wif my colleauges. seem like my hope to oz during xmas period may be dashed, cos due to work commitment. but i think cna work things out. den more jialut is muz call agencies to check on rates... sianzz..
n our place, the morale is really going downHILL. almost every1 is contemplating on resigning. mi, is to programming side. agent side, i din tell any1 yet.
anyway (i think this is another frequently used word...), watching the program really make mi know more abt myself. cos since young, i was ALWAYS at home watching TV. even my mum/dad keep nagging at mi to go out. but i jus stay home to watch tv. ask mi anything abt the TV show, i can asnwer u. but this actually affect(ed) my social skills. as in i dunno how to mix wif frns, n dunnohow to share... now learning it bit by bit.
siaozz.. these days i keep forgetting wat i wanna blog. had in mind the contents, but when abt to write i dun rmb.
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ok. 1 of my views for reln is that, i dun mind sacrificing to make things work. so i'm not exactly sure wat went wrong lah. first few, all din work out at all. den when i gain more confi abt myself, to mi, some ppl will want to know mi at the spur of the moment. once they get tired of it, of the excitement n the freshness, they'll leave u. or if they find any fault wif u, they wun tok abt it, n jus let go.
for mi, i prefer to really tok things out, and see if i can adjust to suit the other person. changing does not mean changing urself, but adapting urself to suit him better. in such way that u dun feel suppressed.
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i'm really planning (yes 2nd time i mentioning it) my oz trip now haha. den discussed wif my colleauges. seem like my hope to oz during xmas period may be dashed, cos due to work commitment. but i think cna work things out. den more jialut is muz call agencies to check on rates... sianzz..
n our place, the morale is really going downHILL. almost every1 is contemplating on resigning. mi, is to programming side. agent side, i din tell any1 yet.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
long time nvr do exercises...
deciding to buy my desired IT gadgets
checking out my future career
cehcking out possible internet plans
n finding out the good mobile plans...
wondering when i can move back HOME
really feel VERY sick of the job... perhaps due to its stagnant nature?
i now reading books on EQ. had wanna read on PR bks, but found these instead. " Trust & betrayal in the workplace" and " EQ development : from success to significance" are good books. " Social cognition" does not really suit me. the first 2 showed egs of ppl who empathise wif those around him, making a better person. n how to build trust n confidence in ur dept, cos if u dun show faith or trust in ur colleague's aibilities n work, they wun do their best.
well, i think this is happening to mi. in my job
den today, really surprising.. n i wonder if i am SENSITIVE... a good frn from poly actually working in HSBC as FINANCIAL PLANNER. he called mi up asking for meetup. haha, upon hearing he working as adviser, i immedaitel have the feeling he's gonna be hardselling again... another person who gonna hardsell. my opinion is, if u asking ppl out for lunch, n they dunno wat u working as, DUN EVER reveal ur work nature.
even if u muz, dun mention it over dinner. mention it only after 3/4 of a meeting, so tat, u'll appear u nto meeting the frn wif selling products in mind...more like jus informing the frn u r in the biz, n hope he can support u. ya, mi now oni tok cock nia. cos.. havn even start n got all thes cocks to tok.
n now, i'm, really serious in going overseas for xmas... now oni see when my frns r free, n when i can take leave... wah, first time i go myself.. so exciting@
toking abt frns, i'm kinda confued now. cos, perhaps i was influenced soemhow. but i feel tat it's my right to do it. u see, some frns who pissed mi off till the point i really give up hope. these r ppl who i dun wan stay in contact at all. wanna leave them outta my life. but right now, given my situation n how hypocritic some frnships can b, i really wodner if, i can get in touch wif them once more. but this time, i ONI TREAT them as acquaintance... ppl who i dun need to b so trusting n truthful. they dun need to know the truth in watever i do, n i dun need to b 2 frank n sincere to them. it may b the usual way frnships r, but to mi, it';s FAKE.
see how, after all, since some ppl cannot take the truth, i have been wondering its value for them...
den hor, saw from TODAY paper that, ppl r discussing heatedly over the naming of sch, roads n landmarks. i thot it's oni gonna b a 1 or 2 letters responding to it. wah expect such a fuss over it. comeon, wat does a name have in it?? it's for humans to refer. oni if sonmeone contributed to it, or it's due to some great works, den it's useful n historical to give it a meaninful name. if not, it's jus ANOTHER name.
does Creative hold any significance to anything? Other than its original meaning?
Does Lot 1 mall mean anything?
Does Heeren/taka mean anything?
was also amused by some replies in TODAY too. started off wif a ger (no bias here is eant, thus ger is better word) wearing jeans n casual attire, not of a typical female attire, ie skirt, blouse, tube (like i know wat it's.) the group of gers den complained tat it's ladies night, so y reject the ger, just cos of the way she dresses? i din feel much, jus unhappy wif how the staff deal wif it. den today, got 1 mail replying to a reply to tat letter. this mail was saying, some issues, i din realise the whole story till i check the new groups/
the reply was saying, the ger shld know better tat since it's ladies night, it's obvious tat the theme was to have gers inside the bar, and men will come flocking in. if she wants to enter teh bar, she shld have dressed in a better manner, instead of such lesbian/butch wear. ending wif, if u wnana enter the pub, play by its rules.
(hehe, as i am reading the reply, i have some things to say...)
den the mail was reply, the reply made women sound so cheapskate, going in when it's free entry. if the purpsoe is to seduce/attract lusty males into the pub, then oni women clad in skinwear shld enter. those without a good figure can b left out.
to mi, (obviously?) the reply was aimed at gay issues. but on wat grounds did the bar reject the entry? was the ger a transexual? did the IC state her sexuality as F/M? if it's F, why isn't she allowed entry? butch? wat'st eh definition? mus she wear a skirt or blouse to flaunt her beauty? is there a STATED dresscode?
it's a ladies night, whereby all females shld b allowed entry. it's not the customers' responsiblity or obligation to ensure they r dressed in certain way that can attract male clients. so why stick the duty of "ladies shld attract guys" on the ger? unless the bar states "oni ladies dressed in an appropriate manner will be allowed entry" hahaha...
deciding to buy my desired IT gadgets
checking out my future career
cehcking out possible internet plans
n finding out the good mobile plans...
wondering when i can move back HOME
really feel VERY sick of the job... perhaps due to its stagnant nature?
i now reading books on EQ. had wanna read on PR bks, but found these instead. " Trust & betrayal in the workplace" and " EQ development : from success to significance" are good books. " Social cognition" does not really suit me. the first 2 showed egs of ppl who empathise wif those around him, making a better person. n how to build trust n confidence in ur dept, cos if u dun show faith or trust in ur colleague's aibilities n work, they wun do their best.
well, i think this is happening to mi. in my job
den today, really surprising.. n i wonder if i am SENSITIVE... a good frn from poly actually working in HSBC as FINANCIAL PLANNER. he called mi up asking for meetup. haha, upon hearing he working as adviser, i immedaitel have the feeling he's gonna be hardselling again... another person who gonna hardsell. my opinion is, if u asking ppl out for lunch, n they dunno wat u working as, DUN EVER reveal ur work nature.
even if u muz, dun mention it over dinner. mention it only after 3/4 of a meeting, so tat, u'll appear u nto meeting the frn wif selling products in mind...more like jus informing the frn u r in the biz, n hope he can support u. ya, mi now oni tok cock nia. cos.. havn even start n got all thes cocks to tok.
n now, i'm, really serious in going overseas for xmas... now oni see when my frns r free, n when i can take leave... wah, first time i go myself.. so exciting@
toking abt frns, i'm kinda confued now. cos, perhaps i was influenced soemhow. but i feel tat it's my right to do it. u see, some frns who pissed mi off till the point i really give up hope. these r ppl who i dun wan stay in contact at all. wanna leave them outta my life. but right now, given my situation n how hypocritic some frnships can b, i really wodner if, i can get in touch wif them once more. but this time, i ONI TREAT them as acquaintance... ppl who i dun need to b so trusting n truthful. they dun need to know the truth in watever i do, n i dun need to b 2 frank n sincere to them. it may b the usual way frnships r, but to mi, it';s FAKE.
see how, after all, since some ppl cannot take the truth, i have been wondering its value for them...
den hor, saw from TODAY paper that, ppl r discussing heatedly over the naming of sch, roads n landmarks. i thot it's oni gonna b a 1 or 2 letters responding to it. wah expect such a fuss over it. comeon, wat does a name have in it?? it's for humans to refer. oni if sonmeone contributed to it, or it's due to some great works, den it's useful n historical to give it a meaninful name. if not, it's jus ANOTHER name.
does Creative hold any significance to anything? Other than its original meaning?
Does Lot 1 mall mean anything?
Does Heeren/taka mean anything?
was also amused by some replies in TODAY too. started off wif a ger (no bias here is eant, thus ger is better word) wearing jeans n casual attire, not of a typical female attire, ie skirt, blouse, tube (like i know wat it's.) the group of gers den complained tat it's ladies night, so y reject the ger, just cos of the way she dresses? i din feel much, jus unhappy wif how the staff deal wif it. den today, got 1 mail replying to a reply to tat letter. this mail was saying, some issues, i din realise the whole story till i check the new groups/
the reply was saying, the ger shld know better tat since it's ladies night, it's obvious tat the theme was to have gers inside the bar, and men will come flocking in. if she wants to enter teh bar, she shld have dressed in a better manner, instead of such lesbian/butch wear. ending wif, if u wnana enter the pub, play by its rules.
(hehe, as i am reading the reply, i have some things to say...)
den the mail was reply, the reply made women sound so cheapskate, going in when it's free entry. if the purpsoe is to seduce/attract lusty males into the pub, then oni women clad in skinwear shld enter. those without a good figure can b left out.
to mi, (obviously?) the reply was aimed at gay issues. but on wat grounds did the bar reject the entry? was the ger a transexual? did the IC state her sexuality as F/M? if it's F, why isn't she allowed entry? butch? wat'st eh definition? mus she wear a skirt or blouse to flaunt her beauty? is there a STATED dresscode?
it's a ladies night, whereby all females shld b allowed entry. it's not the customers' responsiblity or obligation to ensure they r dressed in certain way that can attract male clients. so why stick the duty of "ladies shld attract guys" on the ger? unless the bar states "oni ladies dressed in an appropriate manner will be allowed entry" hahaha...
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
(quite a lot of things to say today)
Location: home
was thnking of blogging happenings of the day... but suddenly VELI hungry, eat the laksa instant mee, oso not veli full yet.. damn.
so funnie, sent a heart to someone in fridae, den he returned it, n realised we jus live beside ech other. n met up wif him on 2nd day haah... wow, his hse has quite a lot of dogs siazz.. din expect hdb area to keep so many dogs.
i supposed to meet a sec frn for dinner.. cos we both long time no go out liao. den took the chance/time to meet up. cos it;s my FIRST time to meet him oni among our sec frns, i find it refreshing... n the first 1 hr we met, he was quite reserved. probably due to us not so close kind. during our dinner, we toked a bit... i told him b4 abt my plan to go into financial planning aka insurance. or rather, discussed. den hor, suddenly, he intro mi to MLM. i was zat teo. i know i totally not keen in it. but he IS PERSISTENT. keep asking mi n persuading mi. he was almost like just repeating his line... unknowingly lah.. n i know to make $$, he wun give up so easily. so i decided to go wif him to the seminar... so tat at least he will give up on mi.
got there, and visited here there. i simply not keen loh. so jus casually tok to them. i know i not good at acting, but oni good wif words. but i still tried. i got bad exp wif MLM but i told the ppl i nvr tried MLM. but i forgot 1 thing. dunno if they discovered anot lah. later i really rejected my frn intro n just wanna go off. i gave the excuse tat i not free. as we left the plc, i knw tat, if this frn cant ctrl his eq, it means he'll b veli quiet, cos he just lost a biz deal. but he did tok to mi loh.
i have a lot of things to tell him, but it's pretty hurtting, so prefer to keep within mi. now i knw y ppl wanna shun such MLM ppl. n i understand my frns' intentions when i wanna go in the other time. back home, he msn mi: how much is 2nd hand stuff. i feel tat, somehow he seem to test water oni. testing if i still reply him n take him as frn. he did oso tell mi usual stuff like "he take mi a frn so intro mi" n "plan to intro other ppl in as well, if i joined".
well, i can oni say, for insurance, i knw y i going in. for MLM, it's basically merely a partime job which dun really atract mi.
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Location: office
taking some time to blog lah. dun care if network admin find out anot.
i finally made my first move to contct the agent who ask mi join her. luckily,my role here cannt access data of clients, if not i bang my head. she told mi some news. now i pretty keen. although i not prepared to take any more exams, but i not surprised tat i need to take 1 if i really go into it. dates have been set. wif my tech knowledge, n my POV, i hope to make it big. haha...
den hor, yesteryda, wah liao, pretty fed up. heard over lunch tat, my job agency really cheat us contract workers lotsa cold hard cash!!! i earning oni meagre sum. den when i hear ppl from other depts earning 2-** times more than mi, wah i really dui. i really dunno th diff btwn our caps. maybe i really lack confidence, or lack the knowledge and foresight to do future planning. i jus tke things as it goes.. but now, wif the direction of IT, i begin to really check my route.
IT helpdesk is not a job for long term. i mean firt level. if it's inhse program, ok, u can stay there n advance within. but u need more certs to go further. now i got java, which ithink iwill make use... try to at least. den insurance.... well, it's a plan of mine, cos i still need to check if... i still need to adjust my mentality. i now getting better lah. getting more to be myself, getting funnier n relaxed.
funny,. the more i tink of it, the more i find it true of myself. u know, if i totally no interest in sokething, no amount of persuading or hard selling can soften mi. but if i find it to be worthwhile, i will really go into it. cos.. think of insur n MLM. my frn wanna mi go MLM, i si beh not keen. now, i calling up the agent, to find the route to being adviser, they got seminar next wk. i know i'll go, n my aim is to really find out details of it, n watever. perhaps it';s my stubbornness?
but hor, haha... ytday, i almost wanna come out to a cranky jnr colleaue siazz. but no gd chance. den this morning, or whole day... i bene doing not much. the new cso guy he's wokring n learning mor ethings. while i just si back n relax haha. well, i shan;t b bothered. cos i dun intend to stay long. i'm doing my job. i dun intend to learn 2 much.
e oni grumble is tat, whenever it comes to pssing instructions to mi, they tend to really take mi as a blur king n tell mi this tat, wat to do, how to do. n hor, when i wanna try out helping them fix compuer problem, they bochap n say "nvm lqh".
i oso wonder if lies n unhappiness is everywhere siazz.. just now i helping user do someting. e jnr suggested changing the language of the system. i find it odd, cos it's not the root, but she insiste. ok loh. i jus try. cos now, i dun see the pt in enforcing my idea, will just try wat she wan.
the funny part is, she say the user qujite ok 1, just explain to him the issue, etc he is ok 1. den later, i was trying to see if i can fidn the cause of the problem, she came over n say "wat u doing? if u dun call him back, n play around wif the system, later he unhappy n complain."
hahah, i find it funy. cos she herself can tke the time to find the cause of a [rpblem, but when the prob cant b solved, i try to see wat i can do, she tell mi dun play around. but she did mention the person is nice to tok to, but later tell mi he may complain if it take 2 long?
oh, n den just now as i doing some tests for my job, wah, liao i really lose interest sizz.z.. find it so repetitive n nvr endin. somehow i feel tat here, the ppl aren;'t really tat smart enuff to climb up the corporate ladder. cos, both keep complaining abt the life. i feel diff form them, cos i actually see thru wat;s going on lah. liek they grumble y the person like tis, tat, den i jus keep quiet, cos i knw wat happened.
i oso have the impression tat moving aroundlife suit mi more, cos i;m someone who dun like to move around, unless it;s needed, or i'm tempted to. so if my job jus need mi to stay at my desk, i will just stay n dun move around. but if i moving all day i either get tired, or i enjoy, cos i;m enjoyingthe scnerary. n have the chance to work, as i tour singapore
Location: home
was thnking of blogging happenings of the day... but suddenly VELI hungry, eat the laksa instant mee, oso not veli full yet.. damn.
so funnie, sent a heart to someone in fridae, den he returned it, n realised we jus live beside ech other. n met up wif him on 2nd day haah... wow, his hse has quite a lot of dogs siazz.. din expect hdb area to keep so many dogs.
i supposed to meet a sec frn for dinner.. cos we both long time no go out liao. den took the chance/time to meet up. cos it;s my FIRST time to meet him oni among our sec frns, i find it refreshing... n the first 1 hr we met, he was quite reserved. probably due to us not so close kind. during our dinner, we toked a bit... i told him b4 abt my plan to go into financial planning aka insurance. or rather, discussed. den hor, suddenly, he intro mi to MLM. i was zat teo. i know i totally not keen in it. but he IS PERSISTENT. keep asking mi n persuading mi. he was almost like just repeating his line... unknowingly lah.. n i know to make $$, he wun give up so easily. so i decided to go wif him to the seminar... so tat at least he will give up on mi.
got there, and visited here there. i simply not keen loh. so jus casually tok to them. i know i not good at acting, but oni good wif words. but i still tried. i got bad exp wif MLM but i told the ppl i nvr tried MLM. but i forgot 1 thing. dunno if they discovered anot lah. later i really rejected my frn intro n just wanna go off. i gave the excuse tat i not free. as we left the plc, i knw tat, if this frn cant ctrl his eq, it means he'll b veli quiet, cos he just lost a biz deal. but he did tok to mi loh.
i have a lot of things to tell him, but it's pretty hurtting, so prefer to keep within mi. now i knw y ppl wanna shun such MLM ppl. n i understand my frns' intentions when i wanna go in the other time. back home, he msn mi: how much is 2nd hand stuff. i feel tat, somehow he seem to test water oni. testing if i still reply him n take him as frn. he did oso tell mi usual stuff like "he take mi a frn so intro mi" n "plan to intro other ppl in as well, if i joined".
well, i can oni say, for insurance, i knw y i going in. for MLM, it's basically merely a partime job which dun really atract mi.
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Location: office
taking some time to blog lah. dun care if network admin find out anot.
i finally made my first move to contct the agent who ask mi join her. luckily,my role here cannt access data of clients, if not i bang my head. she told mi some news. now i pretty keen. although i not prepared to take any more exams, but i not surprised tat i need to take 1 if i really go into it. dates have been set. wif my tech knowledge, n my POV, i hope to make it big. haha...
den hor, yesteryda, wah liao, pretty fed up. heard over lunch tat, my job agency really cheat us contract workers lotsa cold hard cash!!! i earning oni meagre sum. den when i hear ppl from other depts earning 2-** times more than mi, wah i really dui. i really dunno th diff btwn our caps. maybe i really lack confidence, or lack the knowledge and foresight to do future planning. i jus tke things as it goes.. but now, wif the direction of IT, i begin to really check my route.
IT helpdesk is not a job for long term. i mean firt level. if it's inhse program, ok, u can stay there n advance within. but u need more certs to go further. now i got java, which ithink iwill make use... try to at least. den insurance.... well, it's a plan of mine, cos i still need to check if... i still need to adjust my mentality. i now getting better lah. getting more to be myself, getting funnier n relaxed.
funny,. the more i tink of it, the more i find it true of myself. u know, if i totally no interest in sokething, no amount of persuading or hard selling can soften mi. but if i find it to be worthwhile, i will really go into it. cos.. think of insur n MLM. my frn wanna mi go MLM, i si beh not keen. now, i calling up the agent, to find the route to being adviser, they got seminar next wk. i know i'll go, n my aim is to really find out details of it, n watever. perhaps it';s my stubbornness?
but hor, haha... ytday, i almost wanna come out to a cranky jnr colleaue siazz. but no gd chance. den this morning, or whole day... i bene doing not much. the new cso guy he's wokring n learning mor ethings. while i just si back n relax haha. well, i shan;t b bothered. cos i dun intend to stay long. i'm doing my job. i dun intend to learn 2 much.
e oni grumble is tat, whenever it comes to pssing instructions to mi, they tend to really take mi as a blur king n tell mi this tat, wat to do, how to do. n hor, when i wanna try out helping them fix compuer problem, they bochap n say "nvm lqh".
i oso wonder if lies n unhappiness is everywhere siazz.. just now i helping user do someting. e jnr suggested changing the language of the system. i find it odd, cos it's not the root, but she insiste. ok loh. i jus try. cos now, i dun see the pt in enforcing my idea, will just try wat she wan.
the funny part is, she say the user qujite ok 1, just explain to him the issue, etc he is ok 1. den later, i was trying to see if i can fidn the cause of the problem, she came over n say "wat u doing? if u dun call him back, n play around wif the system, later he unhappy n complain."
hahah, i find it funy. cos she herself can tke the time to find the cause of a [rpblem, but when the prob cant b solved, i try to see wat i can do, she tell mi dun play around. but she did mention the person is nice to tok to, but later tell mi he may complain if it take 2 long?
oh, n den just now as i doing some tests for my job, wah, liao i really lose interest sizz.z.. find it so repetitive n nvr endin. somehow i feel tat here, the ppl aren;'t really tat smart enuff to climb up the corporate ladder. cos, both keep complaining abt the life. i feel diff form them, cos i actually see thru wat;s going on lah. liek they grumble y the person like tis, tat, den i jus keep quiet, cos i knw wat happened.
i oso have the impression tat moving aroundlife suit mi more, cos i;m someone who dun like to move around, unless it;s needed, or i'm tempted to. so if my job jus need mi to stay at my desk, i will just stay n dun move around. but if i moving all day i either get tired, or i enjoy, cos i;m enjoyingthe scnerary. n have the chance to work, as i tour singapore
Saturday, November 05, 2005
haha, sometimes i fidn it strange. when u hate or dislike something, u tend to put a link to the page that you had such feelings for. but then, if u realyl dun like it, why bother put up the link? it'll jus generate interest. u know, bad publicity is better than no publicity. if u say soemthing is bad, n give a link, ppl usually visit it to check out wat's wrong. it'll generate interest. esp when u feel it dun really have the content to call for such attention.
umm... skip the sad side a while.
ahah, i swam today, den hor, i was actually attracted to a hubby, who's guiding his toddler boy how to swim. cos the boy was using a float, n wearing tights, i somehow, at first, thot tat the hubby was an instructor. den gradually, realise it's dad-son. dad wearing those metallic finish goggles. clean face. got slight tummy, but tone body. haha, my eyes r usually on him siazz... till he left the pool for the slide, n sauna.
den quite surprisingly, today... ya it's sch holiday. den got a group of 6 sec sch BOYS playing water. some wearing bermuda kinda pants. they having fun in the pool. but den, kauzz, 1 guy was abt 10 cm from his group, i was swimming to wards this guy, den i really dunno if i shld swim which way siazz, cos skali i swim, den he move again. den i said "sorry" firmly to him. he stunned n moved. haha, funni part is, his kinda "beng" frn den swam up to mi, to see my face. i bochap them totally.
however, later on, maybe i 2 sensitive, they keeping getting at my way. but well, they r having fun together, so i can oni swim away. i got a feeling, if i tell them off again, they will fight back.
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these days, i really wonder.. wat's the diff % frn n lover? both shld b similar in many ways. but latter can offer sex, understanding, support? somehow, for most of my relns, they seem to leave once they not happy or find someone better. for mi, i'm pretty persistent. not willing to give up without a fight. perhaps 'cos i believe in communications.
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*GOSH, I WAS POSTING YTDAY, DEN SUDDENLY BLOGSPOT SEEM TO HAVE SERVER PROBLEM. ALL MY UPDATES R GONE FROM TIS POINT ON!!*
shall write wat i rmb:
commercial awards presentation. a singer jus came out wif a new album, n entered into the competition as well. n hor SYZ tis time, she seem to act cute wif her voice. is she imitating jolin?
i'm quite used to telling the truth. but at times, when things dun appear as simple as it seems to b, i try to tell truth, but end up ppl misjudge mi n think of mi badly. like, when i have my reasons for doing something, den when tell them the truth, they think i dun value them. got 1 time, got 3 groups of frns ask mi out for NY coutndown. 2 groups cancel last min, den i go for the 3rd group. i told 1 guy the truth, den he was like taken aback by my rsponse...
so now, i'll judge who r the ones i can tell teh truth... but i think, i'll b frank wif all i know... unless i fidn they r lying to mi...
lastly, i put up links to various interpretations of my zodiac sign. somehow, now i blif in the readings of the zodiac sign liao... cos it really tell abt mi internal feelings n thots. i was suppressing myself a lot... haha, due to various reasons...
umm... skip the sad side a while.
ahah, i swam today, den hor, i was actually attracted to a hubby, who's guiding his toddler boy how to swim. cos the boy was using a float, n wearing tights, i somehow, at first, thot tat the hubby was an instructor. den gradually, realise it's dad-son. dad wearing those metallic finish goggles. clean face. got slight tummy, but tone body. haha, my eyes r usually on him siazz... till he left the pool for the slide, n sauna.
den quite surprisingly, today... ya it's sch holiday. den got a group of 6 sec sch BOYS playing water. some wearing bermuda kinda pants. they having fun in the pool. but den, kauzz, 1 guy was abt 10 cm from his group, i was swimming to wards this guy, den i really dunno if i shld swim which way siazz, cos skali i swim, den he move again. den i said "sorry" firmly to him. he stunned n moved. haha, funni part is, his kinda "beng" frn den swam up to mi, to see my face. i bochap them totally.
however, later on, maybe i 2 sensitive, they keeping getting at my way. but well, they r having fun together, so i can oni swim away. i got a feeling, if i tell them off again, they will fight back.
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these days, i really wonder.. wat's the diff % frn n lover? both shld b similar in many ways. but latter can offer sex, understanding, support? somehow, for most of my relns, they seem to leave once they not happy or find someone better. for mi, i'm pretty persistent. not willing to give up without a fight. perhaps 'cos i believe in communications.
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*GOSH, I WAS POSTING YTDAY, DEN SUDDENLY BLOGSPOT SEEM TO HAVE SERVER PROBLEM. ALL MY UPDATES R GONE FROM TIS POINT ON!!*
shall write wat i rmb:
commercial awards presentation. a singer jus came out wif a new album, n entered into the competition as well. n hor SYZ tis time, she seem to act cute wif her voice. is she imitating jolin?
i'm quite used to telling the truth. but at times, when things dun appear as simple as it seems to b, i try to tell truth, but end up ppl misjudge mi n think of mi badly. like, when i have my reasons for doing something, den when tell them the truth, they think i dun value them. got 1 time, got 3 groups of frns ask mi out for NY coutndown. 2 groups cancel last min, den i go for the 3rd group. i told 1 guy the truth, den he was like taken aback by my rsponse...
so now, i'll judge who r the ones i can tell teh truth... but i think, i'll b frank wif all i know... unless i fidn they r lying to mi...
lastly, i put up links to various interpretations of my zodiac sign. somehow, now i blif in the readings of the zodiac sign liao... cos it really tell abt mi internal feelings n thots. i was suppressing myself a lot... haha, due to various reasons...
Friday, November 04, 2005
ahha, although i'm not 1 of those VELI popular blogs in the world, i'm pretty glad i have some faithful readers. although i dunno who u r... (ahah, n even wondering if i shld thx u cos u r reading my private life details, or shld u thx mi instead for sharing my life wif u haha) but i still glad u keep on reading :)
i think it's time to really give myself a break. i just realised today, i suddenly got 3.5 days leave remaining. thot was oni 1 or 1.5 oni. intend to, for this xmas, go Oz find my pals.to seek solace n to enjoy time wif them, n cheer up them n boost their morales!!! i VERY great hor ?! =D
den, as i plan to open up diff accts in various banks to facilitate fund transfer, i check ocbc/posb etc. kauzz... ocbc hor, it says minimum is $1 mthly balance. den it say mthly balance muz b 500$ if dun wan kena 2$ admin charge?? wah liao...
sometimes, i post pictures of interest to my blog. these usually generate HIGH traffice to my site. haha, am i using it to promote traffic? dunno.. m i unscrupulous? ahhah...
den sigh... 2 groups of frns... 1 is poly 1 is sec. sec frns now become closer to mi. den poly frns... last yr, or some time, i toked tat a frn was getting mi into MLM. ppl den started to dissuade mi. well, in end, i din join cos no $$. but i was keen for 1-2 mths. den when i decided to quit, tat frn din contact mi anymore. n.. for mths (starting from the time i take up java course) till now, they din cotnact mi for outing at all. i checked with the person who usually org such outings, n he's the 1 who intro mi to MLM. gues wat? he say they still go out once in a while.
huh? go out den din ask mi along? nvm, i shan't make a fuss. oni when i'm wif the group n someone ask, den i speak the truth loh. he say they going tree top this sat, den he say will lemme know details of the outing by today. so i ask a close frn of mine in the group. she say she know nothign cos she not informed. huh? n den today, the outign is cancelled................................ dun ask mi y...
when i was celebrating my 21st bday, i came out to those frns who came to the party. my gal pal, noted tat, the poly ppl, din ask mi to join in their game. jus den, a street wise poly frn ask mi join in. dunno.. they seem quite ok abt mi in the past.
right now, wat i need to do is to get back my lifestyle. it means to realising myself better n living it according to its likes n dislikes. cos, it seem like i'm more suited to a lone living style. this yr is more of a realisation yr for mi. when i realise wat's the real direction for mi to strive harder.
i know i'm bad at PR, so i reading boks. n i will b callign frns up to meet n go out. i posted links to my chn zodiac sign, monkey. these 2 mths, i begin to really enjoy myself n b noisy. till now... at this point, i kinda find it boring to stay home at times. i guess frns r there for u to realise urself? haha... perhaps i'm learning to, no loonger b so quiet n begin to njoy life more?
but a lot of things r still in planning stage.
like.. plan to buy contact lens, chk monash payment modes, buy blue tooth head, buy digi cam. haha... digi cam n lens r most jialutz. cos each cost xxx $. siongzzz
i think it's time to really give myself a break. i just realised today, i suddenly got 3.5 days leave remaining. thot was oni 1 or 1.5 oni. intend to, for this xmas, go Oz find my pals.to seek solace n to enjoy time wif them, n cheer up them n boost their morales!!! i VERY great hor ?! =D
den, as i plan to open up diff accts in various banks to facilitate fund transfer, i check ocbc/posb etc. kauzz... ocbc hor, it says minimum is $1 mthly balance. den it say mthly balance muz b 500$ if dun wan kena 2$ admin charge?? wah liao...
sometimes, i post pictures of interest to my blog. these usually generate HIGH traffice to my site. haha, am i using it to promote traffic? dunno.. m i unscrupulous? ahhah...
den sigh... 2 groups of frns... 1 is poly 1 is sec. sec frns now become closer to mi. den poly frns... last yr, or some time, i toked tat a frn was getting mi into MLM. ppl den started to dissuade mi. well, in end, i din join cos no $$. but i was keen for 1-2 mths. den when i decided to quit, tat frn din contact mi anymore. n.. for mths (starting from the time i take up java course) till now, they din cotnact mi for outing at all. i checked with the person who usually org such outings, n he's the 1 who intro mi to MLM. gues wat? he say they still go out once in a while.
huh? go out den din ask mi along? nvm, i shan't make a fuss. oni when i'm wif the group n someone ask, den i speak the truth loh. he say they going tree top this sat, den he say will lemme know details of the outing by today. so i ask a close frn of mine in the group. she say she know nothign cos she not informed. huh? n den today, the outign is cancelled................................ dun ask mi y...
when i was celebrating my 21st bday, i came out to those frns who came to the party. my gal pal, noted tat, the poly ppl, din ask mi to join in their game. jus den, a street wise poly frn ask mi join in. dunno.. they seem quite ok abt mi in the past.
right now, wat i need to do is to get back my lifestyle. it means to realising myself better n living it according to its likes n dislikes. cos, it seem like i'm more suited to a lone living style. this yr is more of a realisation yr for mi. when i realise wat's the real direction for mi to strive harder.
i know i'm bad at PR, so i reading boks. n i will b callign frns up to meet n go out. i posted links to my chn zodiac sign, monkey. these 2 mths, i begin to really enjoy myself n b noisy. till now... at this point, i kinda find it boring to stay home at times. i guess frns r there for u to realise urself? haha... perhaps i'm learning to, no loonger b so quiet n begin to njoy life more?
but a lot of things r still in planning stage.
like.. plan to buy contact lens, chk monash payment modes, buy blue tooth head, buy digi cam. haha... digi cam n lens r most jialutz. cos each cost xxx $. siongzzz
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was at home having dinner... n sharing my sis' pictures. it seems that i've sacrificed much more than i thot i'd. the chemistry is gone with my family members. in order not to let them have a diff idea from mi, i wanna explain more, but realise tat they know wat i toking.
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was at home having dinner... n sharing my sis' pictures. it seems that i've sacrificed much more than i thot i'd. the chemistry is gone with my family members. in order not to let them have a diff idea from mi, i wanna explain more, but realise tat they know wat i toking.
Thursday, November 03, 2005
i begin to wonder if i'm really more suited to a life of solitude. kinda getting used to living on my own. yes, i'll still catch up wif frns though.
when ppl are living on their own, they tend to be the decision makers. so, they have to realise n find out wat is the better/best option for anything. in such case, they grow up to be more independent. n if we know wat's best for us, we may want things done our way. in such cases, will there be anyone who can accept us?
well, i do agree tat there can be clashes from tiem to time due to thinking n belief diff. but as long as there is comunication n mutual understanding, i guess it's alright? to keep a reln long, my tinking is tat, u shldn't assume tat the person knows wat u r thinking of, or able to adjust to ur needs just after 1 or 2 times of happening. if u feel tat u r not happy about soemthing, wat's better than voicing it out n letting ur thots b known?
there is no perfect person. everything proceeds smoothly if all partties give n take. keeping any feelings or thots within urself ain't going to help.
wat's more, I wonder y am i often the persistent party in reln? I was usually the one who get jilted. The person either found someone better, or felt our characters clash, or simply started to ignore mi. I wonder, why is there such low tolerance in LTR? when we are unhappy wif a frn, we can tell him about it. or avoid him whenever possible. but when it comes to LTR, do ppl look for auto-change in that person, or they will talk it out?
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ok, abt the debate on ch U. having lived out on my own, i begin to underatand the pains of parents. i'm not a parent yet, so i cant say much. but having passed the period of kid, i know its feelings, but dunno abt the thinking of kids these days.
yes kids now grow up faster n understand much more than we do during our time. i am surprised tat the lady (ex-colleague) look demure, but she can spout out those sexual lines n thot inducing sounds. she's 20.
being kids, we often cant think much. some kids develop EQ prety fast. so, when thigns happen, they dun jump to conclusions but calm down n figure out the next step. these r the ok kids. but kids prefer to play n run about. they duno much abt EQ. they jus do wat they wan n dun ever think a lot. in this sense, parents hav to play a part. rmb when u were a kid, did u think a lot abt hwo ur family feel if u do something? if yes, COOl, if not, why u think ur kids can?
put urself in the kids shoes. u been thru their experiences n ages. ok, soem kids r rebelllious, kind, scaredy, adventurous. it depends on how much u know them. dun assume every kid is the same. when u are at work ,can u 100% ensure ur colleagues have the same thinking as u?
some kids, they listen to parents. but there r ppl who need to experience it to learn a lesson. there's no point in stopping them. it's better to jus let them know, they can try, but know the consequences. kids have their own thinking, but parents have the experience. let them know of the outcome. talk to them calmly. if the forseen problem comes, jus tell them ur opinons, dun ever blast off at them.
the key issue, know ur kids well.
ahaha.. after watchign the show, i jus slept at my family there. next morn, woke up, felt like i at some chalet siazz..
when ppl are living on their own, they tend to be the decision makers. so, they have to realise n find out wat is the better/best option for anything. in such case, they grow up to be more independent. n if we know wat's best for us, we may want things done our way. in such cases, will there be anyone who can accept us?
well, i do agree tat there can be clashes from tiem to time due to thinking n belief diff. but as long as there is comunication n mutual understanding, i guess it's alright? to keep a reln long, my tinking is tat, u shldn't assume tat the person knows wat u r thinking of, or able to adjust to ur needs just after 1 or 2 times of happening. if u feel tat u r not happy about soemthing, wat's better than voicing it out n letting ur thots b known?
there is no perfect person. everything proceeds smoothly if all partties give n take. keeping any feelings or thots within urself ain't going to help.
wat's more, I wonder y am i often the persistent party in reln? I was usually the one who get jilted. The person either found someone better, or felt our characters clash, or simply started to ignore mi. I wonder, why is there such low tolerance in LTR? when we are unhappy wif a frn, we can tell him about it. or avoid him whenever possible. but when it comes to LTR, do ppl look for auto-change in that person, or they will talk it out?
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ok, abt the debate on ch U. having lived out on my own, i begin to underatand the pains of parents. i'm not a parent yet, so i cant say much. but having passed the period of kid, i know its feelings, but dunno abt the thinking of kids these days.
yes kids now grow up faster n understand much more than we do during our time. i am surprised tat the lady (ex-colleague) look demure, but she can spout out those sexual lines n thot inducing sounds. she's 20.
being kids, we often cant think much. some kids develop EQ prety fast. so, when thigns happen, they dun jump to conclusions but calm down n figure out the next step. these r the ok kids. but kids prefer to play n run about. they duno much abt EQ. they jus do wat they wan n dun ever think a lot. in this sense, parents hav to play a part. rmb when u were a kid, did u think a lot abt hwo ur family feel if u do something? if yes, COOl, if not, why u think ur kids can?
put urself in the kids shoes. u been thru their experiences n ages. ok, soem kids r rebelllious, kind, scaredy, adventurous. it depends on how much u know them. dun assume every kid is the same. when u are at work ,can u 100% ensure ur colleagues have the same thinking as u?
some kids, they listen to parents. but there r ppl who need to experience it to learn a lesson. there's no point in stopping them. it's better to jus let them know, they can try, but know the consequences. kids have their own thinking, but parents have the experience. let them know of the outcome. talk to them calmly. if the forseen problem comes, jus tell them ur opinons, dun ever blast off at them.
the key issue, know ur kids well.
ahaha.. after watchign the show, i jus slept at my family there. next morn, woke up, felt like i at some chalet siazz..
haha, how shld i start off my blog?
ytday is wednesday. my sis say tat it's a bad wk, cos we working on alternate days. den i felt it's rEALLY jialut. den when i go to work, my mood was affected. perhaps oso due to events happening in my life. or jus, it's really bad wk.
i was still holding on to my mp3 player, n listening to it. den ppl on the bus were kinda staring at mi, when i began humming out the songs i was hearing. wel, soemtimes, it's hard to diff btwn ppl who stare at u cos u R ODD, cos u look DIFF, or cos u look GOOD. got home, n watch the myth. wah, long time din watch jackie movie liao. was bit not used to his preaching of rights that shld b done. well i think that is how his shows r loh. den hor, wah liao, some scenes r so illogical n FAKE! like the princess trapped in the burning carriage for so long??
den the princess was so loose tat she willingly gave her body to jackie? my sis did "complain" tat the indian (haha, speaking here, i know wat else i wana write) actress oni given a SMALL portion of screen time. but the korean was given lotsa exposure. well, the korean IS the rightful lead actress. but the show was filmed in india, so they certainly will wan some of their best ppl inside the show. so they put in their actress, indian dance, n myths inside. but the ger did have some SIMPLe fight scenes.
however, the funny thign i realise is, they got strip scene in his show. i never know indian nationals r so bold to strip siazz. esp the police part. the ger is escaping from police, den the police accidentally pulled off her scarf, revealing her bikinis. den the best one came when, they went up a chopping machine. the ppl were finding it HARD to move at all. den haah, they began removing their clothings 1 by 1. haha. i dun rmb such lines being usual in his other movies, other than he tryin to "ka you" wif the actresses.
when the captain of the police whole body was stuck onto the machine, i figured he will actually begin to strip. haha, next scene, he tore the front of his shirt apart, revealing the hair. then they began moving. the ger was stuck on the machine, wif her breasts stuck. jackie pulled her up but her bra was removed. he den, in a stunt, shifted his shirt onto her. den the captain appear topless. jackie was stuck on his butt. he den simply took off his pants oso. hahah, wah a humourous scene.
later on, at the end, they r at a mountain. strange, the professor can actually fight better than the warrior of the Qin dynasty. although at first, wif a sword, the warrior gained the upper hand when fighting jackie. even better, the warrior later was injured n fighting 3 guys, but he was "OUTNUMBERED". wow. n den the professor grabbed his hand. the warrior still has 2 legs n 1 hand, but is suddenly left helpless. hahaha.. n he was pushed away into the infinity. but jus b4 the shwo end, he appeared from nowhere, causing the death of the professor. LOL
wah watch the show till 1230am. din wan go home liao, cos wanna watch ch U debating show. will post comments abt it later, in next blog. slept at my family there.
next morning, watch "chang hen ge". BORINGshow. but first time to see sammi in an unscrupulous role. or perhaps jus scheming role. nothing to watch out for to mi, since DANIEL WU oni appear for 5 mins of show. SIANZ. luckily din watch in movies.
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i oso realised tat i MUZ brush up my toking skills once more. n dun assume ppl will understand my thots. for wed's lunch, i ask my colleague buy for mi, cos i dun wan go out. CC n BB went n brought back, the lunch cost 1$ more than expected. there is still some change tat i can take from them. CC passed mi the lunch n told mi it cost more. later on, BB returned mi th change. n i smilingly ask how come it's so little change. CC den explained 1 more time to mi. i know i'm jus teasing CC lah. but, soemhow i jus din explain myself...
den at home, over dinner, my sis bought KFC. i exclaimed "u oso buy ah?" when i meant "u still buy ah?"
ytday is wednesday. my sis say tat it's a bad wk, cos we working on alternate days. den i felt it's rEALLY jialut. den when i go to work, my mood was affected. perhaps oso due to events happening in my life. or jus, it's really bad wk.
i was still holding on to my mp3 player, n listening to it. den ppl on the bus were kinda staring at mi, when i began humming out the songs i was hearing. wel, soemtimes, it's hard to diff btwn ppl who stare at u cos u R ODD, cos u look DIFF, or cos u look GOOD. got home, n watch the myth. wah, long time din watch jackie movie liao. was bit not used to his preaching of rights that shld b done. well i think that is how his shows r loh. den hor, wah liao, some scenes r so illogical n FAKE! like the princess trapped in the burning carriage for so long??
den the princess was so loose tat she willingly gave her body to jackie? my sis did "complain" tat the indian (haha, speaking here, i know wat else i wana write) actress oni given a SMALL portion of screen time. but the korean was given lotsa exposure. well, the korean IS the rightful lead actress. but the show was filmed in india, so they certainly will wan some of their best ppl inside the show. so they put in their actress, indian dance, n myths inside. but the ger did have some SIMPLe fight scenes.
however, the funny thign i realise is, they got strip scene in his show. i never know indian nationals r so bold to strip siazz. esp the police part. the ger is escaping from police, den the police accidentally pulled off her scarf, revealing her bikinis. den the best one came when, they went up a chopping machine. the ppl were finding it HARD to move at all. den haah, they began removing their clothings 1 by 1. haha. i dun rmb such lines being usual in his other movies, other than he tryin to "ka you" wif the actresses.
when the captain of the police whole body was stuck onto the machine, i figured he will actually begin to strip. haha, next scene, he tore the front of his shirt apart, revealing the hair. then they began moving. the ger was stuck on the machine, wif her breasts stuck. jackie pulled her up but her bra was removed. he den, in a stunt, shifted his shirt onto her. den the captain appear topless. jackie was stuck on his butt. he den simply took off his pants oso. hahah, wah a humourous scene.
later on, at the end, they r at a mountain. strange, the professor can actually fight better than the warrior of the Qin dynasty. although at first, wif a sword, the warrior gained the upper hand when fighting jackie. even better, the warrior later was injured n fighting 3 guys, but he was "OUTNUMBERED". wow. n den the professor grabbed his hand. the warrior still has 2 legs n 1 hand, but is suddenly left helpless. hahaha.. n he was pushed away into the infinity. but jus b4 the shwo end, he appeared from nowhere, causing the death of the professor. LOL
wah watch the show till 1230am. din wan go home liao, cos wanna watch ch U debating show. will post comments abt it later, in next blog. slept at my family there.
next morning, watch "chang hen ge". BORINGshow. but first time to see sammi in an unscrupulous role. or perhaps jus scheming role. nothing to watch out for to mi, since DANIEL WU oni appear for 5 mins of show. SIANZ. luckily din watch in movies.
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i oso realised tat i MUZ brush up my toking skills once more. n dun assume ppl will understand my thots. for wed's lunch, i ask my colleague buy for mi, cos i dun wan go out. CC n BB went n brought back, the lunch cost 1$ more than expected. there is still some change tat i can take from them. CC passed mi the lunch n told mi it cost more. later on, BB returned mi th change. n i smilingly ask how come it's so little change. CC den explained 1 more time to mi. i know i'm jus teasing CC lah. but, soemhow i jus din explain myself...
den at home, over dinner, my sis bought KFC. i exclaimed "u oso buy ah?" when i meant "u still buy ah?"
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