luv_ktv's untold moments

(quite a lot of things to say today)
Location: home
was thnking of blogging happenings of the day... but suddenly VELI hungry, eat the laksa instant mee, oso not veli full yet.. damn.

so funnie, sent a heart to someone in fridae, den he returned it, n realised we jus live beside ech other. n met up wif him on 2nd day haah... wow, his hse has quite a lot of dogs siazz.. din expect hdb area to keep so many dogs.

i supposed to meet a sec frn for dinner.. cos we both long time no go out liao. den took the chance/time to meet up. cos it;s my FIRST time to meet him oni among our sec frns, i find it refreshing... n the first 1 hr we met, he was quite reserved. probably due to us not so close kind. during our dinner, we toked a bit... i told him b4 abt my plan to go into financial planning aka insurance. or rather, discussed. den hor, suddenly, he intro mi to MLM. i was zat teo. i know i totally not keen in it. but he IS PERSISTENT. keep asking mi n persuading mi. he was almost like just repeating his line... unknowingly lah.. n i know to make $$, he wun give up so easily. so i decided to go wif him to the seminar... so tat at least he will give up on mi.

got there, and visited here there. i simply not keen loh. so jus casually tok to them. i know i not good at acting, but oni good wif words. but i still tried. i got bad exp wif MLM but i told the ppl i nvr tried MLM. but i forgot 1 thing. dunno if they discovered anot lah. later i really rejected my frn intro n just wanna go off. i gave the excuse tat i not free. as we left the plc, i knw tat, if this frn cant ctrl his eq, it means he'll b veli quiet, cos he just lost a biz deal. but he did tok to mi loh.

i have a lot of things to tell him, but it's pretty hurtting, so prefer to keep within mi. now i knw y ppl wanna shun such MLM ppl. n i understand my frns' intentions when i wanna go in the other time. back home, he msn mi: how much is 2nd hand stuff. i feel tat, somehow he seem to test water oni. testing if i still reply him n take him as frn. he did oso tell mi usual stuff like "he take mi a frn so intro mi" n "plan to intro other ppl in as well, if i joined".

well, i can oni say, for insurance, i knw y i going in. for MLM, it's basically merely a partime job which dun really atract mi.

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Location: office
taking some time to blog lah. dun care if network admin find out anot.

i finally made my first move to contct the agent who ask mi join her. luckily,my role here cannt access data of clients, if not i bang my head. she told mi some news. now i pretty keen. although i not prepared to take any more exams, but i not surprised tat i need to take 1 if i really go into it. dates have been set. wif my tech knowledge, n my POV, i hope to make it big. haha...

den hor, yesteryda, wah liao, pretty fed up. heard over lunch tat, my job agency really cheat us contract workers lotsa cold hard cash!!! i earning oni meagre sum. den when i hear ppl from other depts earning 2-** times more than mi, wah i really dui. i really dunno th diff btwn our caps. maybe i really lack confidence, or lack the knowledge and foresight to do future planning. i jus tke things as it goes.. but now, wif the direction of IT, i begin to really check my route.

IT helpdesk is not a job for long term. i mean firt level. if it's inhse program, ok, u can stay there n advance within. but u need more certs to go further. now i got java, which ithink iwill make use... try to at least. den insurance.... well, it's a plan of mine, cos i still need to check if... i still need to adjust my mentality. i now getting better lah. getting more to be myself, getting funnier n relaxed.

funny,. the more i tink of it, the more i find it true of myself. u know, if i totally no interest in sokething, no amount of persuading or hard selling can soften mi. but if i find it to be worthwhile, i will really go into it. cos.. think of insur n MLM. my frn wanna mi go MLM, i si beh not keen. now, i calling up the agent, to find the route to being adviser, they got seminar next wk. i know i'll go, n my aim is to really find out details of it, n watever. perhaps it';s my stubbornness?

but hor, haha... ytday, i almost wanna come out to a cranky jnr colleaue siazz. but no gd chance. den this morning, or whole day... i bene doing not much. the new cso guy he's wokring n learning mor ethings. while i just si back n relax haha. well, i shan;t b bothered. cos i dun intend to stay long. i'm doing my job. i dun intend to learn 2 much.

e oni grumble is tat, whenever it comes to pssing instructions to mi, they tend to really take mi as a blur king n tell mi this tat, wat to do, how to do. n hor, when i wanna try out helping them fix compuer problem, they bochap n say "nvm lqh".

i oso wonder if lies n unhappiness is everywhere siazz.. just now i helping user do someting. e jnr suggested changing the language of the system. i find it odd, cos it's not the root, but she insiste. ok loh. i jus try. cos now, i dun see the pt in enforcing my idea, will just try wat she wan.

the funny part is, she say the user qujite ok 1, just explain to him the issue, etc he is ok 1. den later, i was trying to see if i can fidn the cause of the problem, she came over n say "wat u doing? if u dun call him back, n play around wif the system, later he unhappy n complain."

hahah, i find it funy. cos she herself can tke the time to find the cause of a [rpblem, but when the prob cant b solved, i try to see wat i can do, she tell mi dun play around. but she did mention the person is nice to tok to, but later tell mi he may complain if it take 2 long?

oh, n den just now as i doing some tests for my job, wah, liao i really lose interest sizz.z.. find it so repetitive n nvr endin. somehow i feel tat here, the ppl aren;'t really tat smart enuff to climb up the corporate ladder. cos, both keep complaining abt the life. i feel diff form them, cos i actually see thru wat;s going on lah. liek they grumble y the person like tis, tat, den i jus keep quiet, cos i knw wat happened.

i oso have the impression tat moving aroundlife suit mi more, cos i;m someone who dun like to move around, unless it;s needed, or i'm tempted to. so if my job jus need mi to stay at my desk, i will just stay n dun move around. but if i moving all day i either get tired, or i enjoy, cos i;m enjoyingthe scnerary. n have the chance to work, as i tour singapore