luv_ktv's untold moments

it's mi commenting again... (for the whole morning, i dunno wat to write. until now, i came back from lunch appt)

as i mentioned b4, my office got a fat sup. now tis fat sup transferred to a newly setup section in our office. den, this fat sup stil keep asking mi to do things n check thngs for him whcih he can easily find out as well. my colleagues tell mi dun do things free for him anymore. ask him do himself. but i'm still the mindset of, help if i can. they oso say no need so nice help him anymore.

i know myself tat, once my limit is reaached, den ta'ts all.

den hor, jus now the lunch appt, my left eye was twitching. den a fridae guy who i met up last wk, he wanna mit for lunch. counting the times, 1 last sun, 1 on wed evening, 1 on fri night, den another 1 for lunch today. 4 times meet in 1 wk. sunday we met. wed evening cos my family din cook, so i thot, dining together ok loh. den fri he wanna meet supper, cos he hungry n wanna eat soemthing. so i thot, ok loh. jus now, he again wanna lunch. i told him i used to eating alone liao. but he use those soft tactics (ku rou ji)... like "u dun wna lunch, den i skip" "1 person eat veli boring" "thot of going shopping mall walk". well, my heart soften, so i agreed.

but it turn out to be quite sianzzz. cos we nothing much to tok, n his ideas dun click wif mine. like his thining more to the self centred n racially biased type. as in, jus now, i abt to go order my food. beside us is a malay family eating. jus as i abt to go order, a malay ger, not kid, passed by our table n put a tray CONVENIENTLY. i dunno wat she trying to do, so jus went to order.

later, i came back, the tray is still there. i know who put there. grumbling, i moved the tray to antoher table, n exclaimed "dunno who put the tray on our table" in english. the family beside us know mi referrign to them, but told her kids to b quiet. den hor, this fridae guy, like wanna b on par wif mi, referred to them in a derogatory manner. i was stunned siazz...

anyway the newly opened place, food mayb ok, but svc not good. i wanna order spaghetti fish, n dun wan some things, the person replied , those things muz put there 1....... oh well, such rigidness dun deserve my money...........

as for fridae, need to cut down liao, so tat will not b boring. sometimes i muz really b firm...

thinking back, i was quite opinionated, if there is such word. i will feel my way is right. and if things dun work my way, i may be pissed off. even tho i thot my EQ was ok. like jus now, wif the bored lunch, i may b pissed in the past, but now, i'm learning to take it in my stride. as we parted, i asked if the fridae wnana walk around more. cos i live here 5 yrs, he oni 3 wks. his reply: all the shops r the same 1 mah, unless u know wat to see, if not wat's there to look around for?

haha, i duno wat to reply siazz...

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n hor i think in the past, (hopefully not anymore) i was quite easily irritated by ppl's actions which i dun agree. i feel it cld b due to, my pals taught mi a lot, n from them, i set a std for new frns. those who din meet the std, i'll feel they r not worth my frnship, or even feel tat, how come at such age, they still tis kinda look/feel/attitude?? an eg is... LOL ("LOL" is not part of the eg) a person (till now, still dunno if i shld call him frn or acq or wat) who i knew from irc, he say he wanna b frn to mi.. or maybe good frn. den i started to impose stds for him to reach/meet. eg, if i am tired, unhappy or soemthing, or anyone who is unhappy or tired, they will usually say oni 1 or 2 liners. den i hope or expect the other party to realise/feel the mood swing of mi.

when it does not happen, i feel tat person is not sensitive enuff, until such a way that he may not b worth my frnship. but as time goes by, i begin to understand more about diff ppl's behaviour n tinking. even for a SM frn, 'cos my pals usually can see thigns in a broader aspect compared to mi, n they usually manage to put that idea into mi, or convince their way is better, i actually tried to do tat to tat SM frn as well, resulting somehow in mi insisting my way is right, n put the other person idea's down. hahah..

but now, i learn to respect ppl's decisions. i can always tell them wat i think, n see if they r ok. if i dun think they shld do in a way, i'll tell them maybe 1 or 2 times, but if they reallu dun wan, den.. jus let it b.

i think it's partly due to my bringing up, and my newly-found confi.