luv_ktv's untold moments

shall i blog tat when my bus jus finish its express way trip, the first bus stop, i saw a gorgeous guy? hot guy in pink? sitting in the busstop? haah...

seem like, confidence is pretty impt in the way u proj urself... jus dun b too confident. be confident of how u look, walk, behave, speak... b natural, n if u can, exude confidence...

den hor, sianzzz... my canon cam, got give the AA batt to use for teh cam. so i use it to try n text the shots. wah liao... den in abt 5 hrs time, the batt go flat liao......... sianzzz... so fast??? although my office is aircon room, but it's still in signapore leh!!!!! so fast batt die liao?!?!

den, i got a call tat my contact lens ready.......... YES!!!

was watching the result of female host. the ger was telling the truth abt her, tat she went for abortion as well. inside mi, i was oredi boycotting her... in a way, yes she frank n daring to admit tat. but she really dun need to do it. she can say the lead role was her frn. but in the end, she managed to stay back still...

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unknowingly, i discovered tat... i'm not 2 sure abt the timeline. b4 both my pals went oz, everythign was ok. den when both left, i seem to have started setting a std for frns. i rmb, when i still in ns, i really not a cool headed guy, nor someone who can tink logically. EQ extreme low. got 1 time, someone did something, n my pal sugested i better tell the officer in charge abrt tat, b4 the someone does it. i know it's for my good. but i dinno n din realise the reason n the rationale. after both pals left, i seem to have lost a part of mi. til i start to get short tempered wif frns/ppl who din seem to do things in the right manner.

cos both pals' thinking r much more advanced n developed than mi, i learnt abt considereation, anticipation, reasoning, n thinking from them. yes i was tat useless. i din reallty spare a thot for ppl. when they left mi, frns who r stil lwif mi, mostly din have their level of street intelligence/ consideration n thnking. those frns r not up to the std. i even thot, why r these ppl like dat?? i was really looking for ppl who can think at such levels wif mi. when they failed, i lost my patience.

n cos i learnt a lot from them, i somehow tried to impose such ideas n thots into some frns, thinking this will better their persons. but i dinno tis is incorrect. cos every1 has diff thinking n views. y will i wanna impose my tinkin n thots on them??

so, these days i'm trying to b understanding abt othters, n know wat they doing. i will ooffer my ideas from time to time, but wun force. at most ask them 2 times to see if they keen on it. watever happens, its their person n nature. if i think i can do a better job, at most when it happens again, i will react on their behalf. if they think it's better, then they den learn. if not... y impose...

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other than my daily acts, has tis blog become a plc for mi to vent my work frustz?? now, today, i realise y it's impt to have a close buddy at work, whom u can confide in. i know it's almost like making use of the person, but well, we r sharing thots in some way. got tis tinkinbg, cos today, i felt injusticed. felt i can confide in someone. but i'm not sure how will the person react.. +ve or -ve feel?

usually, i reach work on time. but these days, i at times tend to wake up abt 20 mins later than usual. anyway, i got to office at 845. door locked. so i went toilet first. usual practice. den i went to office, tis time unlocked. den1 of our mgmt level spy is inside office.

he ask: y i late.
i say, traffic jam.
he: mrt?
i: bus
he: diam

den my snr oso ask (at tis time, oni snr spy mi in office) now tat the boss is on leave, every1 oso came late ah? cannot like tis lah......

i din defend. it's merely jumping to conclusion. i oni smiled. when sh was late, did she say anything? i've a gd record for being punctual pls.

den jus b4 spy left, spy whispered to mi: dun b so late lah..

i giggled in response. wat he expect mi to say? i wun b late? well check my records.

i realyl feel tat, cos it's a contracted job, so we r treated as external staff that REQUIRE supervision. we r actually enclosed in another room, to ourselves oni. i can say we r kinda isolated from the company system.

den later, i felt injusticed again. jus b4 lunch hr, all 4 colliks of mine r in office. they were discussing n almost chatting. my hp rang. i say i go out tok. it's abt my java interview. abt 5 mins after, 2 colliks going for lunch. they came out, saw mi on the ph, went back in. soon, they came out again n on way to lunch. abt 5 mins later, i hang up n went toilet. the sup called to look for mi. i ignored the call. i know he asking mi back.

when i went back in, he say where i go, i say carpark. he say, he call mi cos he bothered by the never-ceasing ph rings. n reminded mi, not to go out when oni 1 person (snr) is in the room. i was disheartened. but i said "OK". n i got back to work.

the 2 colliks, jnr n new guy, they r going for lunch. they saw mi in carpark toking. if the sup realyl feel tat he need hlp, n 1 person cannot cope, y let them go lunch? i know it's not gd tat, jus 'cos i on ph, 2 ppl cannot lunch. but i on ph wat, wat they expect mi to do? if he can let them luunch, y remind mi abt the 1 person issue?

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actually by complaining so much abt work, am i making a big fuss over a very common scenario? perhaps. but i've not found any1 to confide in yet. my snr is in league wif sup. the jnr, sometimes cannot b listener.

oh, the ph call was a guy, suggesting a job opening. he told mi, SCP w/o much handson exp cannot call 2k-2.2 for wage. i am considered as freshie, so cannot. ok, i take it. so i change to 1.8-2k. he say still can consider. den he add in those benefits, wanna mi decrease some more. wah kauzz.. so tat he can earn more commission??? i stuck to my 1.8-2k. n 2 bad, posted a msg in forum, but no reply yet, abt salary