simply look at tis cool dude.. the grin, the loose spot shirt.. n such HOT n... "holding" shorts.. wah liao... y mus he wear the shirt siazz... can jus wear the shorts oni mah...
Sunday, December 31, 2006
cool pic, i say. top left guy./. he fell over, and got water splashed onto him.. he's wearing black.. but can see tat his shirt is pressing onto his chest.. although not impressive, quite ... interesting hahah.. den btm left, a muscular guy jumping up ;) den.. the right side guy.. handsome, n lean n tone n muscled... wow.. dancers do have good figure!!
1 galore of cute guys... white shirt boy.. he acted in a movie.. cute style. boy in blue. he's damn smart.. he din do well in prelim round, but beat 4 girls in the final round, n lost to a real smart china national girl.. pink shirt guy, i find him cute in a way when i took his pic.. guy in green jacket.. kinda cute :) argh.. so many ppl to describe... the guy wif "8".. when i saw the scene, he look cute lah.. n the guy in top row in red n green shirt.. a cute grad who's a boss :)
Thursday, December 28, 2006
lol.. tok abt work again...
i realised today, wat my upperstudy thinking abt..
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today, cos our supervisor instructed mi some time back to update the GST % change into our webpages, i sent an email out to the whole team, den the whole team scrambled to find if their page got state the GST % anot.. cos i knw my upperstudy got chekc it b4, i asked her for the list of pages that carries tis info. she ask mi y i wan.. so i sent her the email from our boss, which states the boss wan the info. she den emailed her file out, writing tat, the file was done some time back, but no 1 seem to care abt updating the file.. wah liao, i can feel her angst. n true, later i tried toking to her, but she was having her ear piece on... kinda like drowning her unhappiness in music..
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my boss today asked mi to a meeting room to discuss a proposal. i thot of asking upperstudy along, as we work together. but boss say dun need.. during this meetign, i really learnt a lot.. n i understand y boss left upperstudy out.. cos upperstudy always respond very fast.. n to mi, the upperstudy always insists on her opinions over mine.. u'll know as u read on. 'cos she respond very fast, wif her around, it's impossible for mi to learn or share my ideas at all... true enuff, later when we discussing altogether abt the proposal, boss mentioned that "email recipients will be a few", den i highlighted tat it's "group recipient".. upperstudy rebutted "there's no difference"... wat can i say... i know there's no diff, but the common understanding is not there.. email group n few recipient r different, but technically the same.
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i dunno if i mentioned tis b4.. we need to do a test for our website.. originally, it's oni meant to b surfing the site to check everythign stay the same, no error. den i suggested to sup tat i worry abt the access time. he agreed, n ask mi to do some time test first. den he updated upperstudy. u knw wat, later upperstudy actually tookt he trouble n time to create a proper scenario testing document!! after doing so, she sent out the email.. the sup reply "good work". lol. i can see hwo hard she try to prove herself..
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n today oso, it';s really n interesting to see how much she try to work harder, when she feel tat she did not realise wat i found out..
cos.. i was checking our script files to see if there's any additional connection from our server to outside server. i found some. so i asked some ppl help mi test out the additional connections. via email lah. she replied ,asking wat files was i referring to.. i told her the files n wat the files do. THEN, she came up wif a long story.. to prove tat she looks further than mi..
currently, our script ftps files to a server using another project's ftp acct. she says tat there's more things needed to be done. eg, wat if that proj team changes the password? den we need to update oso. very troublesome. n r we still going to use tat acct?? she gave 3 suggestions. which i felt r really jus suggesting.. cos this thing has been going on for months.. long b4 i join. no prob at all. den, rite now, she gave 3 suggestions. i knw it'd be for the good of future... but isn't she thinking too much?? she was the one who told mi, dun think 2 much, jus do it for now, till furhter announcements...
hahahah... i jus wanna luff it off..
i realised today, wat my upperstudy thinking abt..
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today, cos our supervisor instructed mi some time back to update the GST % change into our webpages, i sent an email out to the whole team, den the whole team scrambled to find if their page got state the GST % anot.. cos i knw my upperstudy got chekc it b4, i asked her for the list of pages that carries tis info. she ask mi y i wan.. so i sent her the email from our boss, which states the boss wan the info. she den emailed her file out, writing tat, the file was done some time back, but no 1 seem to care abt updating the file.. wah liao, i can feel her angst. n true, later i tried toking to her, but she was having her ear piece on... kinda like drowning her unhappiness in music..
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my boss today asked mi to a meeting room to discuss a proposal. i thot of asking upperstudy along, as we work together. but boss say dun need.. during this meetign, i really learnt a lot.. n i understand y boss left upperstudy out.. cos upperstudy always respond very fast.. n to mi, the upperstudy always insists on her opinions over mine.. u'll know as u read on. 'cos she respond very fast, wif her around, it's impossible for mi to learn or share my ideas at all... true enuff, later when we discussing altogether abt the proposal, boss mentioned that "email recipients will be a few", den i highlighted tat it's "group recipient".. upperstudy rebutted "there's no difference"... wat can i say... i know there's no diff, but the common understanding is not there.. email group n few recipient r different, but technically the same.
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i dunno if i mentioned tis b4.. we need to do a test for our website.. originally, it's oni meant to b surfing the site to check everythign stay the same, no error. den i suggested to sup tat i worry abt the access time. he agreed, n ask mi to do some time test first. den he updated upperstudy. u knw wat, later upperstudy actually tookt he trouble n time to create a proper scenario testing document!! after doing so, she sent out the email.. the sup reply "good work". lol. i can see hwo hard she try to prove herself..
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n today oso, it';s really n interesting to see how much she try to work harder, when she feel tat she did not realise wat i found out..
cos.. i was checking our script files to see if there's any additional connection from our server to outside server. i found some. so i asked some ppl help mi test out the additional connections. via email lah. she replied ,asking wat files was i referring to.. i told her the files n wat the files do. THEN, she came up wif a long story.. to prove tat she looks further than mi..
currently, our script ftps files to a server using another project's ftp acct. she says tat there's more things needed to be done. eg, wat if that proj team changes the password? den we need to update oso. very troublesome. n r we still going to use tat acct?? she gave 3 suggestions. which i felt r really jus suggesting.. cos this thing has been going on for months.. long b4 i join. no prob at all. den, rite now, she gave 3 suggestions. i knw it'd be for the good of future... but isn't she thinking too much?? she was the one who told mi, dun think 2 much, jus do it for now, till furhter announcements...
hahahah... i jus wanna luff it off..
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
tis is another sex show.. pure sex show... these guys r jus wearing some "armour" to cover themselves up. but inside is nothing. can see rite?? left side, the motorbike, the guy oni wearing tat cross over thing, n SHORTS.. n tattoo. nothign else. den 2nd pic, the chest is almost completely seen.. less the pair of hands not pulling hard enuff lol... umm got some chest hor? 3rd pic oso.. jus armour covering up.. wat more, the shorts is another armour oni.. wah, they mus b wearing HOT PANTIES DOWN INSIDE lol..
oh.. this guy.. i think he took part in singapore's talent search? shi bin? anyway, when i editing the pix, den i find him gradually a dashing fellow.. at first glance, jus a good face. but the more i see, the more dashing he gets.. lol.. damn it, i oni took his shots when he's lying on bed in hospital lol.. well somehow, tat's when guys wif figure or tone body gets to show off their fruits of training wat!!
lol.. an assortment of nice n yucks pic.. ok.. the guy in b/w suit.. he seems an uprising singer, hosting a show in china.. nice looks... teh middle pic... kauzz.. sex show again.. this bulky fig was trying to thump the lower flr person.. so was jumping up n down to make noise. but hor, he was wearing some translucent tshirt.. tat cover nothing at all.. can even see him stretching his body.. might as well dun wear ler... den the malay subtitle pic, oh.. those olden days.. scenes of those days look interesting now.. den the maroon shirt guy.. nice guy hahah
oh... it's tat despo hsewife again... no, there's no repeat in singapore, i got tis pic when the serial was still showing.. n this guy is still hot lol.. a while back, he starred in a movie.. i dunno the turnout, seem quite normal.. or avg sale.. if not, shld hear some news.. anyway, he really knws where he's standing.. tat y.. the movie he appeared in jus g-string.. maybe he trying too hard to sell himself n to make it big.. he's got a good face n nice fig, dun need resort to such hard selling of his body to.. make a name.. names shld last... not b known for a min, n forgotten the next...
tis is the most kinky shot!!! those ancient pugilistic world.. in the top pic, the guy was held onto by many guys, but manage to shake them off by.. "pushing" them away.. but later, they got hold of his limbs n pulled him down... spread eagle wahahhaahah... tis is interesting!!! i thinking.. even in the acting scene, when he's in such posture, does any1 else interested in his body take a good 2nd look? cos he really totally cant move at all..limbs all spread out, shirt wide open.. haha.. quite a good time to play any games lol.. n such cloth normally very thin (from wat i see).. if a hand acidentally touch any part at tis time, surely feel soemthing whahaah..
a sex show.. y? cos.. the rite pic simply shows the handsome daniel wu flaunting his tits, n the black shirt guy oso.. den later on, both guys lie on ship, n gers start to apply some lotions onto them... wah liao.. anyway, i not into the other guy.. daniel wu is best here.. kept the other guy in, in case any1 else wanna see.. lol.. will i have a chance to see him rite in front of moi??
cuties' n yandaoz's galore!! from top left, i dunno who is he, but his dressing kept my eyes.. such low cut opening, and wearing shorts.. den the guy in black.. he's cute n kinda real on tv.. ie, he dun act innocent, but play hard. his screen name is "pixie". dent eh right side guy-in-white, is pretty nice looking, but he was a chub. den the bottom left guy.. he;s FAT, but cute in a way :).. the pink guy.. is bitta dashing :)
umm.. i wonder.. is it better for mi to post a new blog entry to reply comments, or better to just directly reply tat comment?
do u guys read replies to your replies? i mean, keep track if there's any reply to urs? or is it better to jus remain status quo?
anyway, hahah chris, the newly posted pix point to those pix i posted recently in my blog.. as i usually capture pix from my computer tv n post them here.. long time did not do tat.
n, haha.. x-tube??
do u guys read replies to your replies? i mean, keep track if there's any reply to urs? or is it better to jus remain status quo?
anyway, hahah chris, the newly posted pix point to those pix i posted recently in my blog.. as i usually capture pix from my computer tv n post them here.. long time did not do tat.
n, haha.. x-tube??
Monday, December 25, 2006
wow tis yr xmas another exciting day.. spending time wif ppl who knows how to joke n have fun is greater than spending time wif aj party who may b oni keen to get ur dick or ass... i was like tat, but i control myself nw..
met up wif my sec frns... n i was SO proud to pass them my name card!!!! cos i'm working in my dream job now!!! haha... how come it appears tat gay jokes/teases nvr fail to induce laughter??
2 sec frns came back from uk.. 1 male 1 female. i was/am close to the male 1 (no pun pls). when i first saw him, i felt he look like a balding uncle.. n he of cos din like tat.. but i say i dun wan to lie.. n he likes tat lol..
ummm... wah liao, nw in tis new job, i really dun have time to blog siazz.. always bz wif work.. cant detail down xmas day's events.. but really really goshly nice to spend time wif ppl who understand u n been through time wif u lol.. the chemistry n understanding is there oredi..
hehe, hope u guys like the newly posted pix =D
met up wif my sec frns... n i was SO proud to pass them my name card!!!! cos i'm working in my dream job now!!! haha... how come it appears tat gay jokes/teases nvr fail to induce laughter??
2 sec frns came back from uk.. 1 male 1 female. i was/am close to the male 1 (no pun pls). when i first saw him, i felt he look like a balding uncle.. n he of cos din like tat.. but i say i dun wan to lie.. n he likes tat lol..
ummm... wah liao, nw in tis new job, i really dun have time to blog siazz.. always bz wif work.. cant detail down xmas day's events.. but really really goshly nice to spend time wif ppl who understand u n been through time wif u lol.. the chemistry n understanding is there oredi..
hehe, hope u guys like the newly posted pix =D
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Friday, December 22, 2006
can i say tis is the happiest.. n sweetest tiem of my career?
u know.. ok, u may nt know.. tat when i apply for tis job, my pal advise mi to say tat i gonna grad tis yr. althought it's not the truth, it does give mi an edge, over being truthful n saying i gonna grad much later.. n hehe, i did get the job. but the catch is, when can i b frank..
my pal advise tat, after i'm confirmed liao, i can b truthful to them.. but well, truthful is 1 thign, being tactful is another.. have to think of how to explain so tat it sounds reasonable n wun have any signs of not telling truth from teh start.
ya lah, my boss is a very nice person. i oso can feel tat, i've been there for months, it's not possible for them to terminate my svc, they need to invest a lil 2 much time to train up n interview more ppl.. so most likely, i will b retained.. but i cant b too complacent abt it.. need to still exude the mood of "i feel bad" abt it...
finally i took the chance to speak to her... i dun wanna delay anymore... better to get over with it. ASAP.
hehe.. she's ok wif it!!! n she oso speak to mi abt her expectations n shared her thots on the abilities of the ppl here... funny... she say some ppl she take them as entry lvl staff cos they fresh grad.. but the thign is tat, they actually r smarter n more efficient.. perhaps cos they can think n analyse better, so can go higher level. den those who supposed to have some working exp, they actually kinda slower..
anyway, i'm really happy... cos... maybe the xmas season, n season of relaxing, i'm oso kinda relaxed.. n kinda prepared to really plan my life.. lol..
u know.. ok, u may nt know.. tat when i apply for tis job, my pal advise mi to say tat i gonna grad tis yr. althought it's not the truth, it does give mi an edge, over being truthful n saying i gonna grad much later.. n hehe, i did get the job. but the catch is, when can i b frank..
my pal advise tat, after i'm confirmed liao, i can b truthful to them.. but well, truthful is 1 thign, being tactful is another.. have to think of how to explain so tat it sounds reasonable n wun have any signs of not telling truth from teh start.
ya lah, my boss is a very nice person. i oso can feel tat, i've been there for months, it's not possible for them to terminate my svc, they need to invest a lil 2 much time to train up n interview more ppl.. so most likely, i will b retained.. but i cant b too complacent abt it.. need to still exude the mood of "i feel bad" abt it...
finally i took the chance to speak to her... i dun wanna delay anymore... better to get over with it. ASAP.
hehe.. she's ok wif it!!! n she oso speak to mi abt her expectations n shared her thots on the abilities of the ppl here... funny... she say some ppl she take them as entry lvl staff cos they fresh grad.. but the thign is tat, they actually r smarter n more efficient.. perhaps cos they can think n analyse better, so can go higher level. den those who supposed to have some working exp, they actually kinda slower..
anyway, i'm really happy... cos... maybe the xmas season, n season of relaxing, i'm oso kinda relaxed.. n kinda prepared to really plan my life.. lol..
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Sunday, December 17, 2006
after watching so many of andy lau's movies on the tv.. i begin to feel tat, his movies is a proof of quality n integrity... not some lousy movie meant to draw money from his fans... i respect him for it..
got tat "tai chek lou".. i thot it was merely a (shallow) movie on him being a muscled gigolo.. den falling in love wif cecilia cheung.. those simple love story... i guess i was very much influenced by his acting wif sammi cheng, which usually involves jus a luffing storyline, comedic acts, and a "happily-ever after" ending... but nope, tis movie, is abt him able to feel the past, n predict the future.. a show abt karma... nice
den, got tat wu-jian-dao (infernal affairs).. i again thot it's jus a spy show... see on tv liao, den i realise how.. exaggerated but detailed n scheming story plot... cool..
den now, got tat shi-mian-mai-fu.. abt assasins... another complicated plot... wow... i really take my hat off these directors.. or story writers..
strangely.. hwo come so much movies are taken off novels?? r authors really such great writers? den y we need scripters??
got tat "tai chek lou".. i thot it was merely a (shallow) movie on him being a muscled gigolo.. den falling in love wif cecilia cheung.. those simple love story... i guess i was very much influenced by his acting wif sammi cheng, which usually involves jus a luffing storyline, comedic acts, and a "happily-ever after" ending... but nope, tis movie, is abt him able to feel the past, n predict the future.. a show abt karma... nice
den, got tat wu-jian-dao (infernal affairs).. i again thot it's jus a spy show... see on tv liao, den i realise how.. exaggerated but detailed n scheming story plot... cool..
den now, got tat shi-mian-mai-fu.. abt assasins... another complicated plot... wow... i really take my hat off these directors.. or story writers..
strangely.. hwo come so much movies are taken off novels?? r authors really such great writers? den y we need scripters??
wahahha... somehow, the vid i posted in youtube.. over 2 days got 56 views liao... lol.. haha.. nw, i busy editing photos to give my cute photography model as a xmas gift.. den, hope can start posting my "closet's" pix..
umm.. i oso intend to post a vid of myself singing ktv at home ehhehe... well, no face to show ppl, dun dare sing without music, cant play proper music myself.. wat to expect lei..
umm.. i oso intend to post a vid of myself singing ktv at home ehhehe... well, no face to show ppl, dun dare sing without music, cant play proper music myself.. wat to expect lei..
Saturday, December 16, 2006
gosh.. i'm going siaozz..
in the morning, i took an early mrt to my gym.. end up i took an early bus oso.. n the bus was single decker... sianzz... so squeezy.
den the training session.. a female trainer supposed to guide mi... but she was tied up wif other work.. end up i did a short training session myself.. n later, she came up.. wah liao.. somehow, i felt tat, her suddeny appearance disrupted my training.. in such way tat i din really do much training.. more to learning how the weights can help mi do wat.. umm.. i prefer the filipino trainer..
n today, she was telling mi how to train up the chest muscles.. n was pulling her arms back a lot.. umm.. if it's the guy trainer.. hahah... his well-maintained chest muscles shld b quite obvious lol..
anyway, i decided how shld my trainign schedule b..
10am do trainig = 1 hr.
11-1pm swim
1-130 steamroom... hahah.. shiok...
den my haircut today.. the usual stylist (Cute boy) left liao.. den main stylist doing my hair.. seems like a bit outta shape siazz.. i mean her concentration.. cos she style my hair till it's kinda bloating.. anyway, maybe 'cos she's tired lah..
but i oso bought a new earpiece (which dun fit my mp3 player style.. sianzz), and new trunks (tight fitting.. n sexy) lol..
n ya.. the siao thing is... i went to shi xin hui's singing session.. n got her autograph... wah liao.. how did i ever.. other than amei... support someone so much... hehe, i even whispered to her "looking forward to her next album"..
hehe... den while she singing, got a beng gia keep looking at my direction.. lol i think he noticed mi always eyeing him, so wanan confirm again.. in the end, i took his pix whahaha...
in the morning, i took an early mrt to my gym.. end up i took an early bus oso.. n the bus was single decker... sianzz... so squeezy.
den the training session.. a female trainer supposed to guide mi... but she was tied up wif other work.. end up i did a short training session myself.. n later, she came up.. wah liao.. somehow, i felt tat, her suddeny appearance disrupted my training.. in such way tat i din really do much training.. more to learning how the weights can help mi do wat.. umm.. i prefer the filipino trainer..
n today, she was telling mi how to train up the chest muscles.. n was pulling her arms back a lot.. umm.. if it's the guy trainer.. hahah... his well-maintained chest muscles shld b quite obvious lol..
anyway, i decided how shld my trainign schedule b..
10am do trainig = 1 hr.
11-1pm swim
1-130 steamroom... hahah.. shiok...
den my haircut today.. the usual stylist (Cute boy) left liao.. den main stylist doing my hair.. seems like a bit outta shape siazz.. i mean her concentration.. cos she style my hair till it's kinda bloating.. anyway, maybe 'cos she's tired lah..
but i oso bought a new earpiece (which dun fit my mp3 player style.. sianzz), and new trunks (tight fitting.. n sexy) lol..
n ya.. the siao thing is... i went to shi xin hui's singing session.. n got her autograph... wah liao.. how did i ever.. other than amei... support someone so much... hehe, i even whispered to her "looking forward to her next album"..
hehe... den while she singing, got a beng gia keep looking at my direction.. lol i think he noticed mi always eyeing him, so wanan confirm again.. in the end, i took his pix whahaha...
Friday, December 15, 2006
some time back (last wk), was blogging my thots.. den i went out.. n came back... to find tat my browser hung siazz!!! my un-done blog for tat day lost just like dat man!!
so, til nw i decided to write again.. cos got someone i really need to thx...
for a good long time, i've not went out to enjoy myself at all.. den last sat, 2 frns asked mi out for a bday party... the first frn was a buddy of my ex.. but his invitation was shortlived... any1 can guess the reason.. 2nd was ... a frn who really cared a lot abt mi..
2nd frn n i.. met up for a meal, n chatted quite a bit. it made my day.
den, we met again on a sat. tis time, he brought a new frn along.. an indon guy.. who was very much closetted.. on tat day, while on the streets, we had joy, n laughter. it's so enjoyable! it was really.. nice.. in the bday pub, he introduced his frns to mi.. but i jus stayed in a corner wif his new frn. even when the music came, my fav music (MC's it's like tat), i jus sat there.. leg moving to the beat.
den got some ppl come in.. ahah, a guy came wif his gf.. n they are sitting opposite us.. from time to time, i look at him.. jus nothing to do.. but he got sensitive (of cos.. i'm sitting wif a guy) n did all sorts of weird things to shwo he was unperturbed lol..
got 1 time, as the pub was filled wif floating balloons, he took a handful and tied them together. i watched him doing it.. n he got so nervous, he did a slipshod job n released them whahaha...
den in the pub, there was a ger dancing to the music beside mi.. her moves were so bold n violent tat her legs hit my thigh at times.. i moved my leg away.. cos i dun wan give any chances to gers.. den later.. u knw wat? my frn introduced her to mi... n I REALISED SHE'S A LESBIAN, WHO WAS THERE WIF HER GF!!!! WAH SIAO!!!!!!!
ahhaa.. den i was chatting wif the new frn.. n he said he may get married.. i asked if he can have sex wif a ger. he said he dunno cos he never tried wif a ger, n wld nt do so unless he's married. den i told him, i knw i cant do it wif a ger... cos i like the firmness n solid feel of a man's chest, n i get turned off if i feel soemthing filmsy n round... lol...
for teh whole time, i was jus sitting there wif the new frn.. n i was coughing hard.. i din go out to socialise.. but then, on my way back, i realised... i was really back to my lone self... cos i knw tat, in order to enjoy myself, i shld n can go out n make new frns.. it does not matter at all.. well i guess i needed the time to warm up again :)... n on xmas day, my frn invited mi again to his best frn (a ger) bday party.. a surprise party tat is... i really appreciate his kindness n good intentions...
n oh well, for tat saturday, it's pertty eventful!! i went for my gym as usual.. tis time, got a personal trainer wif mi.. n he was actually a judge for those body building contests!!! my gosh!!! he's abt my height but is pretty well built.. but well, he's filipino... um.. i shld say, wif a dark skin color.. if nt, i may have liked him.. he guided mi well.. n i was doing those gym machines.. wow... n i had wanted to swim too.. but i forgot my trunks.. sighzz..
n tis time, the steam room.. so damn hot!!! i cant even sit there without my towels!! meaning, i have to ensure i'm sitting on my towel!!! cos the tiles r hot!! n it's totally jus heat.. dunno if tis shld b the case.. but i felt very warm..
den latr, i oso went for a dance lesson.. not a gay class.. so the crowd has young n old, gers n guys.. cool...
the class... conducted by a lady dancer, used various techniques to start the class. it's not a dance class, but more to a improvisation n.. exploring class. when i got there, wow.. i oredi noticed a tall, tone, lean muscled fellow wearing a gymnastic attire lol..
we were first asked to close our eyes, n use our touches to feel around the place.. haha, dunno if tis is supposed to be the purpose, but i actually discovered another character of myself... cos i was moving around wif my eyes closed n using hands to feel around.. the moment i touched someone, i tend to shy away from it (dunno if shy is a good word.. but i cna oni think of tis word nw) n explore further.. but the instructor had said "once u find something, u can feel it.." but i shied away.. it's jus so me.. i tend to be a loner.. n dun wan mix around.. perhaps unless i knw the place well..
den, we were oso asked to move into the open area n do watever we wan.. watever our minds tell us... but when someone shouts "hold", we need to pause. shout "go" n we have to carry on from where we left off.. BUT the catch is, when we hear "go", will we continue wat we were doing, or start a new thing?
the instructor went out n did her acts.. she was swinging her arms when i suddenly shouted "hold". she paused. n when "go" was shouted, she paused there, cos she has no idea wat else to do.. seconds later ,she did something else..
i guess i really pretty keen to explore dancing further...
n my gawd... i really have a lot of personal things to do... watching vids, n posting pixxx... wahzzz
so, til nw i decided to write again.. cos got someone i really need to thx...
for a good long time, i've not went out to enjoy myself at all.. den last sat, 2 frns asked mi out for a bday party... the first frn was a buddy of my ex.. but his invitation was shortlived... any1 can guess the reason.. 2nd was ... a frn who really cared a lot abt mi..
2nd frn n i.. met up for a meal, n chatted quite a bit. it made my day.
den, we met again on a sat. tis time, he brought a new frn along.. an indon guy.. who was very much closetted.. on tat day, while on the streets, we had joy, n laughter. it's so enjoyable! it was really.. nice.. in the bday pub, he introduced his frns to mi.. but i jus stayed in a corner wif his new frn. even when the music came, my fav music (MC's it's like tat), i jus sat there.. leg moving to the beat.
den got some ppl come in.. ahah, a guy came wif his gf.. n they are sitting opposite us.. from time to time, i look at him.. jus nothing to do.. but he got sensitive (of cos.. i'm sitting wif a guy) n did all sorts of weird things to shwo he was unperturbed lol..
got 1 time, as the pub was filled wif floating balloons, he took a handful and tied them together. i watched him doing it.. n he got so nervous, he did a slipshod job n released them whahaha...
den in the pub, there was a ger dancing to the music beside mi.. her moves were so bold n violent tat her legs hit my thigh at times.. i moved my leg away.. cos i dun wan give any chances to gers.. den later.. u knw wat? my frn introduced her to mi... n I REALISED SHE'S A LESBIAN, WHO WAS THERE WIF HER GF!!!! WAH SIAO!!!!!!!
ahhaa.. den i was chatting wif the new frn.. n he said he may get married.. i asked if he can have sex wif a ger. he said he dunno cos he never tried wif a ger, n wld nt do so unless he's married. den i told him, i knw i cant do it wif a ger... cos i like the firmness n solid feel of a man's chest, n i get turned off if i feel soemthing filmsy n round... lol...
for teh whole time, i was jus sitting there wif the new frn.. n i was coughing hard.. i din go out to socialise.. but then, on my way back, i realised... i was really back to my lone self... cos i knw tat, in order to enjoy myself, i shld n can go out n make new frns.. it does not matter at all.. well i guess i needed the time to warm up again :)... n on xmas day, my frn invited mi again to his best frn (a ger) bday party.. a surprise party tat is... i really appreciate his kindness n good intentions...
n oh well, for tat saturday, it's pertty eventful!! i went for my gym as usual.. tis time, got a personal trainer wif mi.. n he was actually a judge for those body building contests!!! my gosh!!! he's abt my height but is pretty well built.. but well, he's filipino... um.. i shld say, wif a dark skin color.. if nt, i may have liked him.. he guided mi well.. n i was doing those gym machines.. wow... n i had wanted to swim too.. but i forgot my trunks.. sighzz..
n tis time, the steam room.. so damn hot!!! i cant even sit there without my towels!! meaning, i have to ensure i'm sitting on my towel!!! cos the tiles r hot!! n it's totally jus heat.. dunno if tis shld b the case.. but i felt very warm..
den latr, i oso went for a dance lesson.. not a gay class.. so the crowd has young n old, gers n guys.. cool...
the class... conducted by a lady dancer, used various techniques to start the class. it's not a dance class, but more to a improvisation n.. exploring class. when i got there, wow.. i oredi noticed a tall, tone, lean muscled fellow wearing a gymnastic attire lol..
we were first asked to close our eyes, n use our touches to feel around the place.. haha, dunno if tis is supposed to be the purpose, but i actually discovered another character of myself... cos i was moving around wif my eyes closed n using hands to feel around.. the moment i touched someone, i tend to shy away from it (dunno if shy is a good word.. but i cna oni think of tis word nw) n explore further.. but the instructor had said "once u find something, u can feel it.." but i shied away.. it's jus so me.. i tend to be a loner.. n dun wan mix around.. perhaps unless i knw the place well..
den, we were oso asked to move into the open area n do watever we wan.. watever our minds tell us... but when someone shouts "hold", we need to pause. shout "go" n we have to carry on from where we left off.. BUT the catch is, when we hear "go", will we continue wat we were doing, or start a new thing?
the instructor went out n did her acts.. she was swinging her arms when i suddenly shouted "hold". she paused. n when "go" was shouted, she paused there, cos she has no idea wat else to do.. seconds later ,she did something else..
i guess i really pretty keen to explore dancing further...
n my gawd... i really have a lot of personal things to do... watching vids, n posting pixxx... wahzzz
Thursday, December 07, 2006
NOT WATCHING PROJECT SUPER STAR II (PSS2) ANYMORE
the title says it all... my favs all kicked out... kenny 1st round, daren 2nd round.. sianzz...
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
haah, in an email, someone told mi, my blog reflect tat i'm sexually deprived... YES.. (the hell) definitely i am!! i mentioned soem time back, tat i finally understood why ther are call boys... i dun enjoy.. or maybe have not seen the goodness/adv of going to those spas for us.. so i dun rule out the possibility of mi engaging the svc of call boys.. but location n time wise.. uh-hem..
n i'm on mc today.. darn it!! long time nvr kena virus/bacteria attack! felt so bad n.. useless/worthless! but i knw wat could have led to it.. whole morning.. been wanting to work a lilttle office stuff.. but no motivation to do so at all.. whole morning been resting (i asked for non-drowsy cough syrup.. but somehow, the med still made mi feel weak n resty ie.. wanna rest more lol) untill now jus.. lol..
i was deciding whether i shld rest, or shld start work. n was oso kinda fantasizing. den.. i decided to DIY.. n i'm surprised siazz.. at the load tat shot out... din expect so much.. n u knw wat, after tat, i'm kinda better prepared to start my work... more energetic n having a "i am ready to start" mentality...
ciao...
n i'm on mc today.. darn it!! long time nvr kena virus/bacteria attack! felt so bad n.. useless/worthless! but i knw wat could have led to it.. whole morning.. been wanting to work a lilttle office stuff.. but no motivation to do so at all.. whole morning been resting (i asked for non-drowsy cough syrup.. but somehow, the med still made mi feel weak n resty ie.. wanna rest more lol) untill now jus.. lol..
i was deciding whether i shld rest, or shld start work. n was oso kinda fantasizing. den.. i decided to DIY.. n i'm surprised siazz.. at the load tat shot out... din expect so much.. n u knw wat, after tat, i'm kinda better prepared to start my work... more energetic n having a "i am ready to start" mentality...
ciao...
i'm down wif flu n sore throat..
damn.. although i'm sick.. i can't bring myself to really b resting.. i can lie on the bed, n my mind is full of unfinished business, and soon, i find myself sitting before my pc desk again..
Sunday, December 03, 2006
lol... there's no stopping for someone who's intent on getting the proj superstars' pix.. lol..
n.. i'm glad, jiang cheng xi 江承喜 has managed to grab a role tat has many of the super actors/actresses of singapore entertainment industry!!!
zoe tay, li nanxing, felicia chin, pan ling ling, zhang wen xiang... hope he can learn from them!!
n shi xin hui's album is coming out!!! she def'ly got wat it takes to make it big!!! check it out!!
her.. kena edited 25sec video:
her full song.. recorded @ a studio performance.. 1 sad thing, dunno if this happen to other PSS ppl oso.. her singing is recorded...
n.. i'm glad, jiang cheng xi 江承喜 has managed to grab a role tat has many of the super actors/actresses of singapore entertainment industry!!!
zoe tay, li nanxing, felicia chin, pan ling ling, zhang wen xiang... hope he can learn from them!!
n shi xin hui's album is coming out!!! she def'ly got wat it takes to make it big!!! check it out!!
her.. kena edited 25sec video:
her full song.. recorded @ a studio performance.. 1 sad thing, dunno if this happen to other PSS ppl oso.. her singing is recorded...
work stuff
now.. i finally realise.. or understand why... my boss is so nice to mi..
HK TVB celebrated its.. 39th bday i just bought a HK VCD for tat. in the celebration, got a very young boyish host... a new host... really can see he's freshie.. lol.. den when i saw him, n the way he hosts.. i really... feel tat... i will wanna protect him n help him in his career... as best as i can... lol... den at my work, i can also feel tat my boss (female) is protecting n guiding mi a lot... haha.. i finally understand how she felt... but.. another situation cld b tat.. (i just learnt abt it over time) she jus joined tis team 1 yr ago.. n understand how difficult it can b to understand everything.. so, she felt i have the determination, n feel tat i can b given a chance...
n of cos, i hope i can prove her right.. n soemtimes i did...
haha, yes, grumbles abt work again.. well, my team has to go govt places to work on proj, n have to fill in some personal details.. i dunno y, the form we filling is like those job interview type... i discussed wif my upperstudy.. n she said "of cos u have to fill up the work history.. wat if u work in some hacking company b4??" wah liao... sometimes, to prove she;s right, she realy can thnk of some crazy reasons..
den, 1 wk later, the place inform us. according to wat my sup say, my form is the oni perfectly filled up 1.. so she took back her form n... duno. but she seem unhappy abt it loh.. lol
den ytday, we have some production issue to settle. n all we worry abt is whether the cutover can do anot.. but i raised a concern.. n true, my sup din think abt it.. so my sup ask mi do something... den somehow, when he told my upperstudy abt it, (i forgot how he told her) she decided to spend some time in drafting up a formal doc for it.. wah liao.. make it so formal!! in end, sup complimented her in an email to her n mi, saying good work.
den, during tis wk, i've been trying my best to reduce size of a word doc. i asked 1 sup, she told mi how she did it last time. but it din work for mi.. i oso check wif upperstudy.. but din work oso.. eventually, i managed to work my way out!! n shared wif my boss.. n ytday, upperstudy ask how i did it... at tis time, that "1 sup" came over n heard it.. n shared wat she did... they were hearing her.. while i tried telling them it's not tat way.. but my upperstudy din hear.. n she said "so nw u knw wat u did lah, huh?" oh well... i'm used to it..
during my gym today.. i kinda realised how i was doing at work.. my upperstudy, being an achiever, often gave herself timelines for doing work. n sometimes, her words kinda stress mi up.. n i realised how i shld do n be doing... i often fear my speed of doing thigns is slow.. but den, some things need tiem.. i ahve to realise it.. n i shld relax a bit.. as long i can finish my work on time, i'm fine..
n 1 impt thing is, although i'm supposed to take over 1 of her existing proj, until nw, she still holding on to it.. i gonna speak to her on it..
gradually a paedophile?
oh no.. am i becoming a paedophile??
on saturdays, whenever i go out, there'll be millions of young n cute guys/boys everywhere wif trendy n striking looks/styles/outfits.. n every so often, my eyes r atracted to them.. wahliao.. when i think of my age n theirs (those who i look at) i really worry... or is it 'cos i seldom go out.. so... any guy oso catches my eyes?
steam room @ club
wah today is kinda funny.. but learning... lol.. funny... cos jus b4 i went intot he room, got 1 ah peh urinating jus outside the room. so i went in.. den later, tat ah peh came in oso... n strange... he's doing some stretching exercises inside.. n pumping.. he's wearing trunks.. i totally bochap him.. i wonder if he's trying to get mi to look at him doing those stretching..
den, when i went out, i saw the temperature.. it's 110... enjoyable!!! i usually se tot 50.. cos i thot it's good enuff...
den as i step out of the place room.. i saw a buff guy.. i mean, a guy oni in shorts, n having a buffy hunky body... cool...
swiming in the club
wow... my gym trip today is really fun.. it's really wat i wanna do.. cos i was totally swimming today.. lol.. had wanna gym first den swim.. but after .... ok.. i missed ger superstar show, den realsied tat i can watch tv inside the gym.. so i was like walking for 45 mins while watching teh ger contest.. wah.. later tired liao, n dun wisht o gym anymore.. went directly for swim..
den during the swim, i realised tat i really have not done so for a long time.. the relaxation mood.. the freedom... nice feeling... now i wonder... hwo to arrange my time.. so tat i can tan during swim (2 hrs) n gym to tone myself..
now.. i finally realise.. or understand why... my boss is so nice to mi..
HK TVB celebrated its.. 39th bday i just bought a HK VCD for tat. in the celebration, got a very young boyish host... a new host... really can see he's freshie.. lol.. den when i saw him, n the way he hosts.. i really... feel tat... i will wanna protect him n help him in his career... as best as i can... lol... den at my work, i can also feel tat my boss (female) is protecting n guiding mi a lot... haha.. i finally understand how she felt... but.. another situation cld b tat.. (i just learnt abt it over time) she jus joined tis team 1 yr ago.. n understand how difficult it can b to understand everything.. so, she felt i have the determination, n feel tat i can b given a chance...
n of cos, i hope i can prove her right.. n soemtimes i did...
haha, yes, grumbles abt work again.. well, my team has to go govt places to work on proj, n have to fill in some personal details.. i dunno y, the form we filling is like those job interview type... i discussed wif my upperstudy.. n she said "of cos u have to fill up the work history.. wat if u work in some hacking company b4??" wah liao... sometimes, to prove she;s right, she realy can thnk of some crazy reasons..
den, 1 wk later, the place inform us. according to wat my sup say, my form is the oni perfectly filled up 1.. so she took back her form n... duno. but she seem unhappy abt it loh.. lol
den ytday, we have some production issue to settle. n all we worry abt is whether the cutover can do anot.. but i raised a concern.. n true, my sup din think abt it.. so my sup ask mi do something... den somehow, when he told my upperstudy abt it, (i forgot how he told her) she decided to spend some time in drafting up a formal doc for it.. wah liao.. make it so formal!! in end, sup complimented her in an email to her n mi, saying good work.
den, during tis wk, i've been trying my best to reduce size of a word doc. i asked 1 sup, she told mi how she did it last time. but it din work for mi.. i oso check wif upperstudy.. but din work oso.. eventually, i managed to work my way out!! n shared wif my boss.. n ytday, upperstudy ask how i did it... at tis time, that "1 sup" came over n heard it.. n shared wat she did... they were hearing her.. while i tried telling them it's not tat way.. but my upperstudy din hear.. n she said "so nw u knw wat u did lah, huh?" oh well... i'm used to it..
during my gym today.. i kinda realised how i was doing at work.. my upperstudy, being an achiever, often gave herself timelines for doing work. n sometimes, her words kinda stress mi up.. n i realised how i shld do n be doing... i often fear my speed of doing thigns is slow.. but den, some things need tiem.. i ahve to realise it.. n i shld relax a bit.. as long i can finish my work on time, i'm fine..
n 1 impt thing is, although i'm supposed to take over 1 of her existing proj, until nw, she still holding on to it.. i gonna speak to her on it..
gradually a paedophile?
oh no.. am i becoming a paedophile??
on saturdays, whenever i go out, there'll be millions of young n cute guys/boys everywhere wif trendy n striking looks/styles/outfits.. n every so often, my eyes r atracted to them.. wahliao.. when i think of my age n theirs (those who i look at) i really worry... or is it 'cos i seldom go out.. so... any guy oso catches my eyes?
steam room @ club
wah today is kinda funny.. but learning... lol.. funny... cos jus b4 i went intot he room, got 1 ah peh urinating jus outside the room. so i went in.. den later, tat ah peh came in oso... n strange... he's doing some stretching exercises inside.. n pumping.. he's wearing trunks.. i totally bochap him.. i wonder if he's trying to get mi to look at him doing those stretching..
den, when i went out, i saw the temperature.. it's 110... enjoyable!!! i usually se tot 50.. cos i thot it's good enuff...
den as i step out of the place room.. i saw a buff guy.. i mean, a guy oni in shorts, n having a buffy hunky body... cool...
swiming in the club
wow... my gym trip today is really fun.. it's really wat i wanna do.. cos i was totally swimming today.. lol.. had wanna gym first den swim.. but after .... ok.. i missed ger superstar show, den realsied tat i can watch tv inside the gym.. so i was like walking for 45 mins while watching teh ger contest.. wah.. later tired liao, n dun wisht o gym anymore.. went directly for swim..
den during the swim, i realised tat i really have not done so for a long time.. the relaxation mood.. the freedom... nice feeling... now i wonder... hwo to arrange my time.. so tat i can tan during swim (2 hrs) n gym to tone myself..
Saturday, November 25, 2006
updates for friday
here are my updates..
after work, i went wif a colleague to meet my frns for movie.. sigh.. as i'm wif a colleague, not a frn, when i saw hunks, i cant even stare at them.. had to peep at them... darn it..
den met my frns n chatted wif them over dinner... 1 thing i dislike abt my sex appeal is.. ppl are usually attracted to my body.. so much so that they sometimes fail to impress mi.. n fail to strike interesting chats. it's especially evident on tis day!
i've not met a foreigner frn.. who's keen on sm like mi.. n yes, he's interested in mi too. i notice that, our conversation seldom exclude SM topics. although it's our common interest, i dun think that's our only chat topic. n somehow.. kinda true.. the higher expectations we have on the outcome of a meet/gathering, the greater the disappointment there may be..
the worse thign is, when no topic seem to be interesting enough, an old n passe topic came in: wat type of guys do u like?
i was really stunned..
but during our dinner, i did share my fantasy story again... lol:
when a guy gets kidnapped for ransom, he's usually brought to an isolated room. in this room ,he's tied to the chair n blindfolded. he cna't move. denteh kidnappers call for ransom. after the call, they felt that the victim does look good n decides to have some fun first.. they begin to remove his shirt.. n pull off his pants, caress his.. n remove his undies after he's got a hard on..
den came to the movie timing!! it's Casino Royale!! CY, i din really knw tat it's a sequel to 007. but after seeing the trailer, i start to feel tat he's the oni person who's able to portray the image of a spy.. i duno.. i just felt that he's the perfect actor for such a spy role.. brosnan.. i've not watched the show.. but i felt he's another actor who's been given the role to act.. perhaps it's cos, daniel has a swimming trunks scene, and he's got a well maintained body.. shows tat he can really run n be an efficient spy..
n.. hhe, after knowing we gonna watch this show, den someone told mi there will b sm scene.. lol ..i dinno how intensive it wll b.. thot it'll b perhaps some captive being tied up n abused.. dinno who will kena.. n during the movie, of cos i'm looking out for it.. hehe..
all along, i was looking forward to it.. n good to see tat daniel came out from the sea in trunks pretty soon.. he's realyl got a cool body for his age!! n i can even count the number of scenes he went topless!! lol.. n finaly the scene came!!!
wow... his shirt is first torn open and removed... den the next scene, he's seated on the chair and tied to it. frontal scene of cos oni show his chest n bit of abs. but side scenes, u can see he's not wearing anything...
the abuser den used a rope to hit daniel's CBT moderately. eehhh, although i wonder how will it feel in real life (cos i sure he din hit it), i dun desire to feel it. i felt tat was cool... lol.. when daniel din give in, the abuser tried something wrose.. lol.. well i watch too much vid liao.. tat y got such wayward thinkinig... i was hoping the abuser will tease him n give him a hard on lol..
den the abuser pushed the chair down.. lol... wif the push, his penis shld b touching his bladder... lol... oohhhh.. i wan the uncensored version!!!!
saturday happenings..
wow, i certainly had enjoyed my day to the fullest... 90% of the day...
i went to my office gym club there to workout.. yes i signed up as member liao.. not tat far for mi lah. went to the gym to try the machines.. quite nice.. esp.. when there is a cute, i think, malay guy working out.. he's quite fit though ;)
den later went for a swim.. wah.. .the last time, i almost had a fling in the steamrm. tis time, the pool, got a guy in trunks lying on the suntan chair. n he readily lifts his arms during the tan, so tat his frontal, including his arm pit, gets tan. he noticed my stare n glares. i know. but he din glitch.. i suspect he is waiting for something.. but then.. in such open space, wat can have happened??
i went to the steamrm.. hoping to see someone there.. if not, wait for ppl.. BUT nothing happened... argh... boring day lol.. but at the pool there, when i started to swim, i knw i found my swimming heaven... it's serene n pte.. it's my ideal location!!
after day ended
i took the bus back home.. den wah lioa.. the bus is crowded, n not a bendy bus. so i moved to the back of the bus. den.. suddenly got another uncle oso move in... ok the bus got 2 lanes of seats rite? i was at 1 lanes holding the rails of the seat. den strangely, the uncle is behind mi, but holding the handrail of the front seat. n yet, his whole body is slanted to b very near mi.. kauz!! n everytime his action (moving arm) always pushes his body onto mi! i tried to move away, but no space.. in end, i decided to use my bag to block him off.. it worked lol..
however, later someone from th back seat wanna alight, n yelled at mi to give way.. wah liao.. i told mi calmly "there is space for you to move", n he.. i think furiously moved over, pushing my bag off to make way for himself... but i held on to my bag lol
den during dinner at the bro stall there.. wah... i saw a downright dashing dude sitting n eating at the stall there!!! wah... can't take my eyes of him!!! i oni dare to sit behind him n look at his back once a while.. but his frn noticed oso.. tat y.. when i left, they both looked up at mi.. but i... erally dun wanan look.. i dun dare look.. he's too dashing.. if i face him while dining, i dun think i can finish my dinner..... i'll b 2 engrossed...
here are my updates..
after work, i went wif a colleague to meet my frns for movie.. sigh.. as i'm wif a colleague, not a frn, when i saw hunks, i cant even stare at them.. had to peep at them... darn it..
den met my frns n chatted wif them over dinner... 1 thing i dislike abt my sex appeal is.. ppl are usually attracted to my body.. so much so that they sometimes fail to impress mi.. n fail to strike interesting chats. it's especially evident on tis day!
i've not met a foreigner frn.. who's keen on sm like mi.. n yes, he's interested in mi too. i notice that, our conversation seldom exclude SM topics. although it's our common interest, i dun think that's our only chat topic. n somehow.. kinda true.. the higher expectations we have on the outcome of a meet/gathering, the greater the disappointment there may be..
the worse thign is, when no topic seem to be interesting enough, an old n passe topic came in: wat type of guys do u like?
i was really stunned..
but during our dinner, i did share my fantasy story again... lol:
when a guy gets kidnapped for ransom, he's usually brought to an isolated room. in this room ,he's tied to the chair n blindfolded. he cna't move. denteh kidnappers call for ransom. after the call, they felt that the victim does look good n decides to have some fun first.. they begin to remove his shirt.. n pull off his pants, caress his.. n remove his undies after he's got a hard on..
den came to the movie timing!! it's Casino Royale!! CY, i din really knw tat it's a sequel to 007. but after seeing the trailer, i start to feel tat he's the oni person who's able to portray the image of a spy.. i duno.. i just felt that he's the perfect actor for such a spy role.. brosnan.. i've not watched the show.. but i felt he's another actor who's been given the role to act.. perhaps it's cos, daniel has a swimming trunks scene, and he's got a well maintained body.. shows tat he can really run n be an efficient spy..
n.. hhe, after knowing we gonna watch this show, den someone told mi there will b sm scene.. lol ..i dinno how intensive it wll b.. thot it'll b perhaps some captive being tied up n abused.. dinno who will kena.. n during the movie, of cos i'm looking out for it.. hehe..
all along, i was looking forward to it.. n good to see tat daniel came out from the sea in trunks pretty soon.. he's realyl got a cool body for his age!! n i can even count the number of scenes he went topless!! lol.. n finaly the scene came!!!
wow... his shirt is first torn open and removed... den the next scene, he's seated on the chair and tied to it. frontal scene of cos oni show his chest n bit of abs. but side scenes, u can see he's not wearing anything...
the abuser den used a rope to hit daniel's CBT moderately. eehhh, although i wonder how will it feel in real life (cos i sure he din hit it), i dun desire to feel it. i felt tat was cool... lol.. when daniel din give in, the abuser tried something wrose.. lol.. well i watch too much vid liao.. tat y got such wayward thinkinig... i was hoping the abuser will tease him n give him a hard on lol..
den the abuser pushed the chair down.. lol... wif the push, his penis shld b touching his bladder... lol... oohhhh.. i wan the uncensored version!!!!
saturday happenings..
wow, i certainly had enjoyed my day to the fullest... 90% of the day...
i went to my office gym club there to workout.. yes i signed up as member liao.. not tat far for mi lah. went to the gym to try the machines.. quite nice.. esp.. when there is a cute, i think, malay guy working out.. he's quite fit though ;)
den later went for a swim.. wah.. .the last time, i almost had a fling in the steamrm. tis time, the pool, got a guy in trunks lying on the suntan chair. n he readily lifts his arms during the tan, so tat his frontal, including his arm pit, gets tan. he noticed my stare n glares. i know. but he din glitch.. i suspect he is waiting for something.. but then.. in such open space, wat can have happened??
i went to the steamrm.. hoping to see someone there.. if not, wait for ppl.. BUT nothing happened... argh... boring day lol.. but at the pool there, when i started to swim, i knw i found my swimming heaven... it's serene n pte.. it's my ideal location!!
after day ended
i took the bus back home.. den wah lioa.. the bus is crowded, n not a bendy bus. so i moved to the back of the bus. den.. suddenly got another uncle oso move in... ok the bus got 2 lanes of seats rite? i was at 1 lanes holding the rails of the seat. den strangely, the uncle is behind mi, but holding the handrail of the front seat. n yet, his whole body is slanted to b very near mi.. kauz!! n everytime his action (moving arm) always pushes his body onto mi! i tried to move away, but no space.. in end, i decided to use my bag to block him off.. it worked lol..
however, later someone from th back seat wanna alight, n yelled at mi to give way.. wah liao.. i told mi calmly "there is space for you to move", n he.. i think furiously moved over, pushing my bag off to make way for himself... but i held on to my bag lol
den during dinner at the bro stall there.. wah... i saw a downright dashing dude sitting n eating at the stall there!!! wah... can't take my eyes of him!!! i oni dare to sit behind him n look at his back once a while.. but his frn noticed oso.. tat y.. when i left, they both looked up at mi.. but i... erally dun wanan look.. i dun dare look.. he's too dashing.. if i face him while dining, i dun think i can finish my dinner..... i'll b 2 engrossed...
Thursday, November 23, 2006
wah liao.... the first round of elimination for guy superstar.. i really... unexpected!!!!
kenny kena eliminated... den the ex-artiste huang shi yu oso kena... hahah... i really dunno wat's going on... kenny is cute... well... at least i dun need to waste my sms anymore.. jus listen to how the ppl sing.. n comment...
i now... seriously wonder wat will happen in next round... i fear for my daren.. tat beng kia..
kenny kena eliminated... den the ex-artiste huang shi yu oso kena... hahah... i really dunno wat's going on... kenny is cute... well... at least i dun need to waste my sms anymore.. jus listen to how the ppl sing.. n comment...
i now... seriously wonder wat will happen in next round... i fear for my daren.. tat beng kia..
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
rmb the stylish guy? during the few days of orientation, he look so student guy.
tdy i saw him again, queueing up for the company lunch bus. wah, he's in proper office attire.. look so mature siazz! i mean, really look those < 30yo working class guy.. i wonder, if he's in tis attire at the orientation, will i still take note of him...
tdy i saw him again, queueing up for the company lunch bus. wah, he's in proper office attire.. look so mature siazz! i mean, really look those < 30yo working class guy.. i wonder, if he's in tis attire at the orientation, will i still take note of him...
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
somehow, i think i'm getting nuts... i think sometime back, i did mention someone from singtel supposed to come to my plc.. a guy.. but den, no news ever after...
haha.. den i kept calling the singnet side for 2 wks.. n he finally called back! ahah.. he was trying to make some more investigations.. n i did ask y he din call back lah.. i wonder if there's a chance to make him come over to my plc lol... he sounds quite alright.. those young man tone lol.. dunno his real age though..
den.. another thing is my gym mship... sianzz.. last time, b4 my exams, i got a deal for the gym. but i din grab it.. den recently i called again, n the deal is like gone.. so i tried calling a few times... i wonder if i shld sound so persistent... u see, last wk, i called up. the person i spoke to said she'll get the senior to call mi back to decide if i can get back teh deal. no news over the wkend. monday, i called again, she's off duty. tues (today), i called, she said the deal is off. i den tried to persuade her to give mi back the deal. she say she will get the finance to call mi back after lunch.
ok.. but they nvr called... well, i think tmr i'll call again. but tis time, if she get the ph, i'll jus tell her, tat i'm really keen to get the mship. n if they r not keen on getting a new member on board, i can always go to other places, just tat i've been there n found it cosy.. etc those nice words... n leave a final line: if they are not keen, while i'm to sign on, i have to give it up, and join other clubs...
save me some face lol..
haha.. den i kept calling the singnet side for 2 wks.. n he finally called back! ahah.. he was trying to make some more investigations.. n i did ask y he din call back lah.. i wonder if there's a chance to make him come over to my plc lol... he sounds quite alright.. those young man tone lol.. dunno his real age though..
den.. another thing is my gym mship... sianzz.. last time, b4 my exams, i got a deal for the gym. but i din grab it.. den recently i called again, n the deal is like gone.. so i tried calling a few times... i wonder if i shld sound so persistent... u see, last wk, i called up. the person i spoke to said she'll get the senior to call mi back to decide if i can get back teh deal. no news over the wkend. monday, i called again, she's off duty. tues (today), i called, she said the deal is off. i den tried to persuade her to give mi back the deal. she say she will get the finance to call mi back after lunch.
ok.. but they nvr called... well, i think tmr i'll call again. but tis time, if she get the ph, i'll jus tell her, tat i'm really keen to get the mship. n if they r not keen on getting a new member on board, i can always go to other places, just tat i've been there n found it cosy.. etc those nice words... n leave a final line: if they are not keen, while i'm to sign on, i have to give it up, and join other clubs...
save me some face lol..
Monday, November 20, 2006
4 mths back, as a freelancer, i took photographic shots of people who wanna try out new poses... i shot for 2 guys. 1 is according to how he wants it. 1 is according to hwo i think he can project his image.
nw... i editing the latter's pix. wah liao... we took 2 days to finish the shots. first day, is fashion wear. 2nd day is.. loose till sexy n hot shots. wah... i dun dare to see his 2nd day's shots siazz.. scared too hot for mi to tahan..
nw... i editing the latter's pix. wah liao... we took 2 days to finish the shots. first day, is fashion wear. 2nd day is.. loose till sexy n hot shots. wah... i dun dare to see his 2nd day's shots siazz.. scared too hot for mi to tahan..
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Saturday, November 18, 2006
superstar audition
few days back, wanna blog liao, but site down, n i lost my lines.
i jus watched superstar tat final audition round. i had wanna watch wed ep, but i missed it!! i then recorded thur ep. luckily!!!! wed ep is gers, thur ep is guys!!! wah liao.. now i'm mesmerised by 2 guys....
1 is cute (beng) guy kenny, 1 is true blue beng kia.. daren!! siao... my hp bill sure go up tis month... i mean, in the mth tat i vote for them..
den got 2 more guys inside who caught my eyes... 1 is kinda cute huang shiyu.. 1 is hip hop style mingyao...
everytime got such audition, all star-wannabe go for it.. i oso had the intention.. but wah liao, seeing their strengths, i start to back out from my thots, n back to real life... hehe.. i think.. sooner or later, i'll really go to pub n sing there instead..
adam's diamond show
n some time back, adam's diamond serial show jus ended. n i recorded every ep of the show, n was watching it.. COOL BODY... or HOTTIE!! i wonder... in this show, he's low EQ n tends to reject ppl's good intentions. in real life, i wonder hwo will he react/respond if he knows he's got a huge followers of gay... lol... hopefully i can post his pix soon..
umm.. he's always been the supporting role... he's got the figure, n his own personality n character.. (low EQ??), should the producer make 1 film for him.. tat dun need too much facial expr (jus like when lee jin mei returned to TV) n jus flaunting on his body... maybe can b together wif julian hee.. can b a show tat's abt tey both workibng as gigolos n thot nothing abt marriages, oni think of hooking up wif gers. den got 1 time, they r hooked to a ger, or tat ger is hooked to them n tried to change them... den the drama effect starts... hehehe...
few days back, wanna blog liao, but site down, n i lost my lines.
i jus watched superstar tat final audition round. i had wanna watch wed ep, but i missed it!! i then recorded thur ep. luckily!!!! wed ep is gers, thur ep is guys!!! wah liao.. now i'm mesmerised by 2 guys....
1 is cute (beng) guy kenny, 1 is true blue beng kia.. daren!! siao... my hp bill sure go up tis month... i mean, in the mth tat i vote for them..
den got 2 more guys inside who caught my eyes... 1 is kinda cute huang shiyu.. 1 is hip hop style mingyao...
everytime got such audition, all star-wannabe go for it.. i oso had the intention.. but wah liao, seeing their strengths, i start to back out from my thots, n back to real life... hehe.. i think.. sooner or later, i'll really go to pub n sing there instead..
adam's diamond show
n some time back, adam's diamond serial show jus ended. n i recorded every ep of the show, n was watching it.. COOL BODY... or HOTTIE!! i wonder... in this show, he's low EQ n tends to reject ppl's good intentions. in real life, i wonder hwo will he react/respond if he knows he's got a huge followers of gay... lol... hopefully i can post his pix soon..
umm.. he's always been the supporting role... he's got the figure, n his own personality n character.. (low EQ??), should the producer make 1 film for him.. tat dun need too much facial expr (jus like when lee jin mei returned to TV) n jus flaunting on his body... maybe can b together wif julian hee.. can b a show tat's abt tey both workibng as gigolos n thot nothing abt marriages, oni think of hooking up wif gers. den got 1 time, they r hooked to a ger, or tat ger is hooked to them n tried to change them... den the drama effect starts... hehehe...
Sunday, November 12, 2006
lol.. watching... ok.. i reading my work stuff.. n watching blue video @ the same time (hahah... got my meaning?).. sigh... got a scene, in whcih a couple is lying inside bathtub. the top n btm both facing the ceiling, wif the btm sleeping on top's body. the top den was fondling the btm's face, n turning btm on by twitching the nipps.
wah... den i thot... how nice if (great) sex equates (good) love... cos... from the scene, it feels tat, the btm is loved by the top.. n cared for... ehhe.. carry on watchign the vide..
wah... den i thot... how nice if (great) sex equates (good) love... cos... from the scene, it feels tat, the btm is loved by the top.. n cared for... ehhe.. carry on watchign the vide..
wah i long time nvr use the "expand" "collapse" feature of my blog.. almost 4got how to use it siazz... if u had read my previous blog b4 tis 1, u can read again.. cos hehe.. i forgot to update the... things.. now can expand liao!!
thank you
oh well, after working in tis place for sometime, n... observing behaviour.. i realise that.. "thank you" is a way of appreciating the efforts that a person spent on a work. it may b little, or a lot. u duno. so TY is the best n fastest way to appreciate it.. cos... on thur, the work i did to make things work was tremendous to mi.. cos i knw the urgency.. den when it's done, my sup thanked me. he dunno how/wat i did. but perhaps knw it took pains.
AOB
aiyo, i still got my room to clear up (thx to the person who left a room of garbage for mi to clear before moving to live wif his wife in their new plc), n blogs to read... wat else... umm albums to buy.. new clothes.. (many of my home clothes now r plagued with holes!!! sexy? lol)
thank you
oh well, after working in tis place for sometime, n... observing behaviour.. i realise that.. "thank you" is a way of appreciating the efforts that a person spent on a work. it may b little, or a lot. u duno. so TY is the best n fastest way to appreciate it.. cos... on thur, the work i did to make things work was tremendous to mi.. cos i knw the urgency.. den when it's done, my sup thanked me. he dunno how/wat i did. but perhaps knw it took pains.
AOB
aiyo, i still got my room to clear up (thx to the person who left a room of garbage for mi to clear before moving to live wif his wife in their new plc), n blogs to read... wat else... umm albums to buy.. new clothes.. (many of my home clothes now r plagued with holes!!! sexy? lol)
Saturday, November 11, 2006
backlog
wow... these months (not days, not weeks), i've been accumulating lotsa fantastic pix in my pc, waiting to b put into my blog siazz.. but no time at all.. nw got some time liao.. but so many thign to clear!!! emails (i've got near 2k number of emails to clear for my gmail u knw!!!), pix (snaps from my TV-PC), and sharign of videos... wah lioa... how i gonna allocate time??
sentosa
i mentioned sentosa rite? hehe.. quite fun, pairing up wif my cute guy.. ran around a few areas.. wah liao, saw my 42sar ppl there siazz.. young looking dudes, fit, lean... when i walk among them, i feel as though i'm their age!! LOL..
den saw a caucasian hunk, wif a drooling body n... muscles.. every part of his well-trained body is worth looking at... cool body.. n took soem pictures.. at will lol... ahhaha.. nw i got a treasured picture liao!!!! wahhaah... but it's nt for public viewing... lol.. den wat's the pt of writing here, u ask? hehe, well i wanna boast abt it!!! but then... i shld have gotten bolder, n took pix wif other frnly n nice guys... whahah...
n worth mentioning, is the counter staff at dolphin lagoon. i needed help for our game, n he... self-lessly dun mind giving us the things we need siazz!!! so ncie of him!! n i'd say him cute... due to tis? i nt sure./..
haircut
i went for haircut today... n again my darling boy is helping mi lol.. tis time he got pc problem to ask mi.. n abt the computer stuff... i tried to explain to him.. but used lotsa efforts siazz.. cos he's not IT-inclined.. quite a nice chat... den i asked if he wanna go gym.. he declined.. saying he dun wan come singapore just for gym... ok loh,.. but i did offer to bring him to gym if he wanna... n exchange my numbers wif him!!!! HAHAHAH!!!!!!!!
n now.. finally backt o my hse.. after a 12-hr outing... wahhh....
wow... these months (not days, not weeks), i've been accumulating lotsa fantastic pix in my pc, waiting to b put into my blog siazz.. but no time at all.. nw got some time liao.. but so many thign to clear!!! emails (i've got near 2k number of emails to clear for my gmail u knw!!!), pix (snaps from my TV-PC), and sharign of videos... wah lioa... how i gonna allocate time??
sentosa
i mentioned sentosa rite? hehe.. quite fun, pairing up wif my cute guy.. ran around a few areas.. wah liao, saw my 42sar ppl there siazz.. young looking dudes, fit, lean... when i walk among them, i feel as though i'm their age!! LOL..
den saw a caucasian hunk, wif a drooling body n... muscles.. every part of his well-trained body is worth looking at... cool body.. n took soem pictures.. at will lol... ahhaha.. nw i got a treasured picture liao!!!! wahhaah... but it's nt for public viewing... lol.. den wat's the pt of writing here, u ask? hehe, well i wanna boast abt it!!! but then... i shld have gotten bolder, n took pix wif other frnly n nice guys... whahah...
n worth mentioning, is the counter staff at dolphin lagoon. i needed help for our game, n he... self-lessly dun mind giving us the things we need siazz!!! so ncie of him!! n i'd say him cute... due to tis? i nt sure./..
haircut
i went for haircut today... n again my darling boy is helping mi lol.. tis time he got pc problem to ask mi.. n abt the computer stuff... i tried to explain to him.. but used lotsa efforts siazz.. cos he's not IT-inclined.. quite a nice chat... den i asked if he wanna go gym.. he declined.. saying he dun wan come singapore just for gym... ok loh,.. but i did offer to bring him to gym if he wanna... n exchange my numbers wif him!!!! HAHAHAH!!!!!!!!
n now.. finally backt o my hse.. after a 12-hr outing... wahhh....
Friday, November 10, 2006
umm.. everyone on earth loves getting freebies... when you see one, you grab it. So what's the big deal here, when you are offering freebies and reach the 2nd top sale spot, compared to paid papers, which is still selling like hot cakes?? why does it sound as though it's really a FEAT? try making ppl pay for it.
and now... is it nice or bad? youngsters, or simply ... err.. i guess i sum it up as youngsters.. they r more outspoken n knw their rights more, and seek different ways in expressing themselves. but does this make them too... self-centered and too self-opinionated, n 2 this-is-my-self/live mindset?
every1 is having "i have my own views" mindset, due to the internet. i wonder... what will happen in future..
and now... is it nice or bad? youngsters, or simply ... err.. i guess i sum it up as youngsters.. they r more outspoken n knw their rights more, and seek different ways in expressing themselves. but does this make them too... self-centered and too self-opinionated, n 2 this-is-my-self/live mindset?
every1 is having "i have my own views" mindset, due to the internet. i wonder... what will happen in future..
yeah man.. a BIG LOAD off my shoulder.... can there b any pun to it? guess not rite?
finally... a big issue has been resolved.. now i really feel more relaxed... cos, the work started on early oct. the research period. den since mid-end oct, i've been trying my best to make things work, finding ways to resolve isssue, n thinking of y this/tat cant work.. tried various ways... gosh.. i was so tired n so... "am i really so inefficient" thinking...
cos it's like the job is hanging on mi n over so long time, i cant resolve it. i wonder wat wil other ppl do.. will they resolve it in no time, unlike mi? i dunno if i lack self-confidence, or i;'ve high expectations of myself...
den really been trying all day n night siazz... i even blamed some teams (communication of it within my team oni of cos) for not knowing their jobs well.. cos they jus unable to give watever info tat's needed from them.. den while finding a resolution, even kena scold by some ppl.. kauzz..
den tis wed, my first day back at work after exams. i felt so exhausted mentally. my sup ask for updates of the new creation. den i said, from wat i understand, (although he himself told mi), we wait for updates from other teams first.. den he "oh.. ok..". den later, he ask wat did the other guy advise. i told him "his version is using..." den he "oh.. ya... discussed tat before"... hahah... den we finally dwecided tat we will go ahead wif the new creation.
n now, over 2 days time, the devt is finally working.. n the trial is at last working without problem as well! SO COOL!!! the worse is the trial, cos we cant control it.. but luckily./.. hehe... i requested for a restart of the server n it's ok!!! lol///
during tis process.. heard a cute voice though lol... from our infra team lol..
tmr.. we r out to sentosa... chances to see hunks n cuties r VEL IVELI VELI (super) high... unfortunately.. tat stylish guy, nt joining, cos he 2 new n dun wish to join..
finally... a big issue has been resolved.. now i really feel more relaxed... cos, the work started on early oct. the research period. den since mid-end oct, i've been trying my best to make things work, finding ways to resolve isssue, n thinking of y this/tat cant work.. tried various ways... gosh.. i was so tired n so... "am i really so inefficient" thinking...
cos it's like the job is hanging on mi n over so long time, i cant resolve it. i wonder wat wil other ppl do.. will they resolve it in no time, unlike mi? i dunno if i lack self-confidence, or i;'ve high expectations of myself...
den really been trying all day n night siazz... i even blamed some teams (communication of it within my team oni of cos) for not knowing their jobs well.. cos they jus unable to give watever info tat's needed from them.. den while finding a resolution, even kena scold by some ppl.. kauzz..
den tis wed, my first day back at work after exams. i felt so exhausted mentally. my sup ask for updates of the new creation. den i said, from wat i understand, (although he himself told mi), we wait for updates from other teams first.. den he "oh.. ok..". den later, he ask wat did the other guy advise. i told him "his version is using..." den he "oh.. ya... discussed tat before"... hahah... den we finally dwecided tat we will go ahead wif the new creation.
n now, over 2 days time, the devt is finally working.. n the trial is at last working without problem as well! SO COOL!!! the worse is the trial, cos we cant control it.. but luckily./.. hehe... i requested for a restart of the server n it's ok!!! lol///
during tis process.. heard a cute voice though lol... from our infra team lol..
tmr.. we r out to sentosa... chances to see hunks n cuties r VEL IVELI VELI (super) high... unfortunately.. tat stylish guy, nt joining, cos he 2 new n dun wish to join..
Thursday, November 09, 2006
umm... for those who dunno how i look, i've updated my profile liao... visit my profile, den see the pic :) if u r a guy, you're welcome to explore deep into my pix there lol.. if not, hehe... it's nt meant for ur consumption =D
for those who wanna appreciate my looks lol, u can go oso... but hehe... jus dun get heart attack ;)
for those who wanna appreciate my looks lol, u can go oso... but hehe... jus dun get heart attack ;)
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
finally... MY EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 for 4 mths, i'm free from books!!!! funny... i'm really .. feel tat i'm free... but again, i dun have the "exam over liao" excited feel. jus felt tat, a tough phase is over... n thot i can finally get back to work again.. but sigh. nt soemthing bad, but.. lol.. i can rmb wat's been going on b4 i went off, but when it came to the facts n figures, haha.. my upperstudy again stumped mi.. sigh.. wat to do, she's looking for efficiency in work.. my mind is still full of studies' stuff.. but when she tok to mi in tech terms abt work, i stunned..
anyway, my internet was down from sun morn onwards.. i can't surf net at all... DSL link flashing. singnet guy say, need ppl to check. apptmt planned on tues. so sunday till tues cant surf... den hor, when the tech guy came over, den i knw the line is ok, but modem could be spoilt siazz!! i wasted 2 days!!! but come to think of it, it meant tat i can focus more on studies.. i wun b distracted to surf net..
next thing is... gosh......... i came out of office, wanting to catch my bus. but i was slightly late. i dun wan go other stops take bus, so i decided to stay there n wait for next bus. wah.. knw wat? later got those gym guys jogging abt siazz!!! jogging in shorts oni... some r real gym guys.. can see their well-defined shapes and tuff bods. quite a sight huh?
den... suddenly, 1 guy walked past mi, to throw rubbish... i looked up, face i cant see clearly, but he's wearing tight n fitting T. wah... good body siazz!!! well-built chest.. den tummy is i blif 6 pax lol.. he's standing behind mi. wah liao, how i wish i can jus keep lokoing at him.. but can't... dun wan scare him off.. later, the bus came... as i waited for the bus to stop, i kept my eyes on him.. but he din look once at mi at all... :(
GREAT LOOKS, SHORT N KEMPT HAIR, BROAD SHOULDERS BUT NOT THOSE BIG SIZE HUNK TYPE, MUSCLES ON ARMS... BOYISH FACE... good looking guy!!! i boarded the bus first.. cos i knw, if i find a good seat, i can see him walking towards mi :P
true!!!! he walks towards mi!!! wah, the body is damn fit n tone siazz!!!!!!! angelic look, monstrous fig?? lol.. n his T is.. short T... barely over his jeans top... hehe.. i noticed it when he was sitting down in front of mi... he was adjustign his posture n i saw tat his T cant cover his entire body siazz... lol.. cant see some flesh on his waist lol...
i wonder.. if i too honry, or they really too good looking... anyway, i've lost my fashion sense... gotta get it back.. i saw there's lotsa Ts wif various designs.. for once, i thot all designs now come wif attitude designs ... lol
n the promised picture... haha.. it jus sounds so funny... tat when i mentioned abt the pic, a number of ppl ask for the site. including the owner of the website!!! i originally allowed oni personal requests for it. but since the owner of the website oredi visited my site liao, den no need to hide my site anymore...
http://tebisha.blogspot.com/2006/08/last-day-crimsonlogic.html the person is appearing in those tat i'm appearing on lol.. so of cos u have to knw how urs truly look lol
anyway, my internet was down from sun morn onwards.. i can't surf net at all... DSL link flashing. singnet guy say, need ppl to check. apptmt planned on tues. so sunday till tues cant surf... den hor, when the tech guy came over, den i knw the line is ok, but modem could be spoilt siazz!! i wasted 2 days!!! but come to think of it, it meant tat i can focus more on studies.. i wun b distracted to surf net..
next thing is... gosh......... i came out of office, wanting to catch my bus. but i was slightly late. i dun wan go other stops take bus, so i decided to stay there n wait for next bus. wah.. knw wat? later got those gym guys jogging abt siazz!!! jogging in shorts oni... some r real gym guys.. can see their well-defined shapes and tuff bods. quite a sight huh?
den... suddenly, 1 guy walked past mi, to throw rubbish... i looked up, face i cant see clearly, but he's wearing tight n fitting T. wah... good body siazz!!! well-built chest.. den tummy is i blif 6 pax lol.. he's standing behind mi. wah liao, how i wish i can jus keep lokoing at him.. but can't... dun wan scare him off.. later, the bus came... as i waited for the bus to stop, i kept my eyes on him.. but he din look once at mi at all... :(
GREAT LOOKS, SHORT N KEMPT HAIR, BROAD SHOULDERS BUT NOT THOSE BIG SIZE HUNK TYPE, MUSCLES ON ARMS... BOYISH FACE... good looking guy!!! i boarded the bus first.. cos i knw, if i find a good seat, i can see him walking towards mi :P
true!!!! he walks towards mi!!! wah, the body is damn fit n tone siazz!!!!!!! angelic look, monstrous fig?? lol.. n his T is.. short T... barely over his jeans top... hehe.. i noticed it when he was sitting down in front of mi... he was adjustign his posture n i saw tat his T cant cover his entire body siazz... lol.. cant see some flesh on his waist lol...
i wonder.. if i too honry, or they really too good looking... anyway, i've lost my fashion sense... gotta get it back.. i saw there's lotsa Ts wif various designs.. for once, i thot all designs now come wif attitude designs ... lol
n the promised picture... haha.. it jus sounds so funny... tat when i mentioned abt the pic, a number of ppl ask for the site. including the owner of the website!!! i originally allowed oni personal requests for it. but since the owner of the website oredi visited my site liao, den no need to hide my site anymore...
http://tebisha.blogspot.com/2006/08/last-day-crimsonlogic.html the person is appearing in those tat i'm appearing on lol.. so of cos u have to knw how urs truly look lol
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Friday, November 03, 2006
wah liao... i'm really getting old lioa... cant tahan much if i were to wake up in midst of nite.. siongzzz...
anyway... lol.. it seems that both adam n pierre have topless scenes on the last 5 eps of the show whahah.. keep viewers in suspense... but adam better.. start of the show, for first 5-10 eps, everyday wear tank tops or singlet... WOOAAAHHH!!
he looks best in blue singlet... lol... HOTTIE!
anyway... lol.. it seems that both adam n pierre have topless scenes on the last 5 eps of the show whahah.. keep viewers in suspense... but adam better.. start of the show, for first 5-10 eps, everyday wear tank tops or singlet... WOOAAAHHH!!
he looks best in blue singlet... lol... HOTTIE!
Thursday, November 02, 2006
wah.... i'm really surprised siazz... really really.. bewildered... tebisha left a comment here... surprise... anyway, details will b let known next wk. after my last exam on 8th nov...
GOD BLESS MOI, BUDDHA BLESS, ... n any helpful... thing... bless mi... i really darn darn daern scared tis time!!! GOSH!!! totally no prep!!!! sometimes, i'm really worried abt my future... wat it holds.. yes it's a mystery n it's fun.. but nt when it causes mi so much strezz!!!
in my bedrm, i wanna wake up 3am, end up i woke up to off the alarm n slept till 6am. power hor? den i tried sleeping in living rm. same. wanan wake 3am, i again off the alarm when woke up n slept till 5+... power hor???
n... tmr is the last ep of the diamond show liao... where is DEAR ADAM carry "linxiangping" scene??? shown?????
GOD BLESS MOI, BUDDHA BLESS, ... n any helpful... thing... bless mi... i really darn darn daern scared tis time!!! GOSH!!! totally no prep!!!! sometimes, i'm really worried abt my future... wat it holds.. yes it's a mystery n it's fun.. but nt when it causes mi so much strezz!!!
in my bedrm, i wanna wake up 3am, end up i woke up to off the alarm n slept till 6am. power hor? den i tried sleeping in living rm. same. wanan wake 3am, i again off the alarm when woke up n slept till 5+... power hor???
n... tmr is the last ep of the diamond show liao... where is DEAR ADAM carry "linxiangping" scene??? shown?????
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
i'm trying to prepare my exams nw... but b4 i forget any details, i wanna blog abt today =D
got the employee orientation program going on for new staff. i joined. den when i got there, participants wrote their names on a paper n stuck it to their clothes. mi 2. den got 1 stylish guy... hehe... he is stylish =D n his name is weird/unique too lol.. i took note of him.
little did i knw.. we are assigned to be team mates!!!!!! wah kauzz!! we were seated, n he actually ended up sitting beside mi!!! den i start the ice-breaking session by toking to him.. but he was kinda apprehensive at first of cos.. after some short chats, he opened up slightly.. but later, when we came back from a game, he "unknowingly" switched seats wif mi.. so tat he's on our guys' side, n i ended up sitting next to a ger. ok lah.. tok to the ger oso.. n at times, crack jokes wif her..
so, oso tok a bit to the style guy. n he's sittign in a good way: when i look at the OHP projection, i am actually looking at his direction!! looking at the side of his face!!! n tok a few lines wif him oso..
den after lunch.. things got exciting! umm.. ok. after lunch, the day was getting boring, so i tok more wif him.. but i initiated in chn.. tok simple stuff wif him.. n we hit off nicely :) luffing at some quick witted jokes of mine :) n he oso not afraid of sitting nearer to mi. n his arm movement oso nt afraid of brushing wif mi.. wat's more, he was not around to grab some free sweets. i left mine at my seat. later i went back to my seat, n i found some sweets taken!! it has to be him rite!! hehe.. he's being frnly wif mi!!! cos got other ppl, he could have asked them for sweets, but he took mine when i was not around!!
den got 1 time, he's wearing a sweater. beside mi still. den i hear some unzipping sound from him... wah lioa.. i felt so much like peeping to see the extent of his unzipping!! but nah... cant.. i'll look so odd!!
so, yeah, a frnship has been established!!
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den another fellow... i met him on way to work, waiting for company bus. he's a gentle matured guy... my gaydar tells mi he's 95% aj. den today he oso at the program. n know wat, he's wearing those fitting Ts. got 1 time, he was standing up straight, in front of mi, looking to my right side. as i was looking at his right side, my eyes could see tat he's chest is firm, and his NIPPLES r protruding in such way tat it's very obvious from the way they are pressed against the clothes siazz!! i duno... if it's not office, i may have... initiated soemthing... sexual or jus teasing acts, i dunno... den during tea break, looking at the way he's standing, his chest n nipples.. the overall shape n outline of his chest are pressed onto the shirt siazz..
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umm.. if u guy remember abt mi havign a cute guy as colleague, if u wanna see his pic, pls request by contacting mi personally.. any way can reach mi directly... i'll give u the website ,den u go in. the pix are posted in another person's site, n i DUN wan my blog addy to appear as the referrer to the site. in the case owner checks the logs n visit my blog.. den i siao lioa..
rmb, request for it...
got the employee orientation program going on for new staff. i joined. den when i got there, participants wrote their names on a paper n stuck it to their clothes. mi 2. den got 1 stylish guy... hehe... he is stylish =D n his name is weird/unique too lol.. i took note of him.
little did i knw.. we are assigned to be team mates!!!!!! wah kauzz!! we were seated, n he actually ended up sitting beside mi!!! den i start the ice-breaking session by toking to him.. but he was kinda apprehensive at first of cos.. after some short chats, he opened up slightly.. but later, when we came back from a game, he "unknowingly" switched seats wif mi.. so tat he's on our guys' side, n i ended up sitting next to a ger. ok lah.. tok to the ger oso.. n at times, crack jokes wif her..
so, oso tok a bit to the style guy. n he's sittign in a good way: when i look at the OHP projection, i am actually looking at his direction!! looking at the side of his face!!! n tok a few lines wif him oso..
den after lunch.. things got exciting! umm.. ok. after lunch, the day was getting boring, so i tok more wif him.. but i initiated in chn.. tok simple stuff wif him.. n we hit off nicely :) luffing at some quick witted jokes of mine :) n he oso not afraid of sitting nearer to mi. n his arm movement oso nt afraid of brushing wif mi.. wat's more, he was not around to grab some free sweets. i left mine at my seat. later i went back to my seat, n i found some sweets taken!! it has to be him rite!! hehe.. he's being frnly wif mi!!! cos got other ppl, he could have asked them for sweets, but he took mine when i was not around!!
den got 1 time, he's wearing a sweater. beside mi still. den i hear some unzipping sound from him... wah lioa.. i felt so much like peeping to see the extent of his unzipping!! but nah... cant.. i'll look so odd!!
so, yeah, a frnship has been established!!
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den another fellow... i met him on way to work, waiting for company bus. he's a gentle matured guy... my gaydar tells mi he's 95% aj. den today he oso at the program. n know wat, he's wearing those fitting Ts. got 1 time, he was standing up straight, in front of mi, looking to my right side. as i was looking at his right side, my eyes could see tat he's chest is firm, and his NIPPLES r protruding in such way tat it's very obvious from the way they are pressed against the clothes siazz!! i duno... if it's not office, i may have... initiated soemthing... sexual or jus teasing acts, i dunno... den during tea break, looking at the way he's standing, his chest n nipples.. the overall shape n outline of his chest are pressed onto the shirt siazz..
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umm.. if u guy remember abt mi havign a cute guy as colleague, if u wanna see his pic, pls request by contacting mi personally.. any way can reach mi directly... i'll give u the website ,den u go in. the pix are posted in another person's site, n i DUN wan my blog addy to appear as the referrer to the site. in the case owner checks the logs n visit my blog.. den i siao lioa..
rmb, request for it...
Monday, October 30, 2006
wah liao.. now blogging is not a cool way of writing ur thots anymore.. becoming a std n common channel now.. everything is now blog. even news is gotten from blogs. politicians oso blog.
so wat sthe diff btwn blogs news page now?? if u blog jus to b part of a trend, r u realy blogging, or u r jus jumping into the bandwagon?
in the past, got bulletins, den got forums. den nw, i think blogging is another forum liao.. since when u blog, ppl can comment, and another discussion starts...
trend? or untrend?
so wat sthe diff btwn blogs news page now?? if u blog jus to b part of a trend, r u realy blogging, or u r jus jumping into the bandwagon?
in the past, got bulletins, den got forums. den nw, i think blogging is another forum liao.. since when u blog, ppl can comment, and another discussion starts...
trend? or untrend?
Sunday, October 29, 2006
umm.. yes, i'm still troubling over my work performance...
i jus thot of something...
my sup commented to my boss tat i'm not alert enuff.. i think sup is not referring to how fast i manage to grasp his words, ... perhaps part of it lah.. but he's more on focussing on how dependent i was on them verifying my results..
cos i jus rmb'ed, when i first got in, they needed mi to update some files.. den tis file.. i kept telling them it's ok liao.. but i din check properly... then whenver they checked, they found something wrong...
buck up!!
i jus thot of something...
my sup commented to my boss tat i'm not alert enuff.. i think sup is not referring to how fast i manage to grasp his words, ... perhaps part of it lah.. but he's more on focussing on how dependent i was on them verifying my results..
cos i jus rmb'ed, when i first got in, they needed mi to update some files.. den tis file.. i kept telling them it's ok liao.. but i din check properly... then whenver they checked, they found something wrong...
buck up!!
Saturday, October 28, 2006
gosh.. i think i'm really under intense stress.. for both studies n work..
but i really hope tat, by mid nov, i can really break out of this stressy thing..
studies: as i was oso rushing for my work, i din have muhc time, or even very stressed out to think properly on how to answer the qns. i really cant think from an appropriate POV for my biz module.
then for the programming module, i could have been stressed out, due to having to understand the flow n structure of perl programming. but this perl programming is totally driving mi NUTZZ! i even contemplated running away from it, cos perl is really driving mi crazy. but.. i dun wan disappoint my family...
and due to perl, when i return home n try to do my assignment on programming, i oso dun wan face it n think of a proper algorithm.
sianzz... hopefully i can pass both modules..
den for work: as mentioned, perl is killing mi. but after my assignment is done, my boss came over to say, my sup commented i was not alert/productive enuff at work. n wanna mi catch up. n over the next 2 wks, i did do my work faster.
but at times, i really frustrated.. cos, when i ask qns, my upperstudy sometimes will claim tat the info is oredi inside the docs. but the thing is, it's from her understanding of the docs, not explicitly stated in it.
den these days, i am supposed to amend a program to make it work. have a deadline to catch. den tis program, at times it's having problem in TRIAL env. n i have been trying to make it work. n i've been trying all sorts of way to find out why too. add debug statements, the problem dun occur. remove it, the problem happen.
the catch here is, we intend to move things outta old server by end of oct. but this same probm is bugging mi for some time. n oni ytday, i managed to find out exactly wat went on. i was hoping to resolve the prob by ytday, but my boss went home early. i den took some time before i decided to check with my other colelagues. i originally wanna just leave it till monday when my boss came in... cos my thinking "the boss went home, wat else cna i do?" but.. after checking wif colleague, i.. learnt tat it shld nt b the way..
was i 2 tired? duno.. my boss recently trusted mi a lot, n set an expectation for mi to know the system well in 1 mth's time. sometimes, i felt i'm not living up to her expectations. i am happy she can see soem ... stuff.. in mi, but i'm not sure if i can meet it. although i'll try my best.. my stress comes from... "i dun wan 2 b branded as not alert anymore".
ppl say, my boss's behind mi, protecting mi.. i knw tat, but i dun wan to mis-use her protection.. i have to make sure i'm doubly alert...
but somehow, i duno wat happening. in my prev job, i was really... very keen to make things happen.. but tis time, i seem more on the passive side... i duno.. is it cos i'm afraid tat, if i ask, i will b treated as "not reading docs properly"? but... jus felt tat, i really need to knw more thigns than i do now..
n my appetite has been affected.. mood as well...
sianz, i have to adjust my mindset... i muz keep in mind, i wanna make things work..
but i really hope tat, by mid nov, i can really break out of this stressy thing..
studies: as i was oso rushing for my work, i din have muhc time, or even very stressed out to think properly on how to answer the qns. i really cant think from an appropriate POV for my biz module.
then for the programming module, i could have been stressed out, due to having to understand the flow n structure of perl programming. but this perl programming is totally driving mi NUTZZ! i even contemplated running away from it, cos perl is really driving mi crazy. but.. i dun wan disappoint my family...
and due to perl, when i return home n try to do my assignment on programming, i oso dun wan face it n think of a proper algorithm.
sianzz... hopefully i can pass both modules..
den for work: as mentioned, perl is killing mi. but after my assignment is done, my boss came over to say, my sup commented i was not alert/productive enuff at work. n wanna mi catch up. n over the next 2 wks, i did do my work faster.
but at times, i really frustrated.. cos, when i ask qns, my upperstudy sometimes will claim tat the info is oredi inside the docs. but the thing is, it's from her understanding of the docs, not explicitly stated in it.
den these days, i am supposed to amend a program to make it work. have a deadline to catch. den tis program, at times it's having problem in TRIAL env. n i have been trying to make it work. n i've been trying all sorts of way to find out why too. add debug statements, the problem dun occur. remove it, the problem happen.
the catch here is, we intend to move things outta old server by end of oct. but this same probm is bugging mi for some time. n oni ytday, i managed to find out exactly wat went on. i was hoping to resolve the prob by ytday, but my boss went home early. i den took some time before i decided to check with my other colelagues. i originally wanna just leave it till monday when my boss came in... cos my thinking "the boss went home, wat else cna i do?" but.. after checking wif colleague, i.. learnt tat it shld nt b the way..
was i 2 tired? duno.. my boss recently trusted mi a lot, n set an expectation for mi to know the system well in 1 mth's time. sometimes, i felt i'm not living up to her expectations. i am happy she can see soem ... stuff.. in mi, but i'm not sure if i can meet it. although i'll try my best.. my stress comes from... "i dun wan 2 b branded as not alert anymore".
ppl say, my boss's behind mi, protecting mi.. i knw tat, but i dun wan to mis-use her protection.. i have to make sure i'm doubly alert...
but somehow, i duno wat happening. in my prev job, i was really... very keen to make things happen.. but tis time, i seem more on the passive side... i duno.. is it cos i'm afraid tat, if i ask, i will b treated as "not reading docs properly"? but... jus felt tat, i really need to knw more thigns than i do now..
n my appetite has been affected.. mood as well...
sianz, i have to adjust my mindset... i muz keep in mind, i wanna make things work..
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
i'm too free? maybe..
ch 8 jus now,.. the show.. 9pm 1.. the mistress of the family got a new ger into the hse. this new ger is the kid of her hubby other wife. then the mistress living in those bungalow type. den, as usual (i dunno, is it really so common even in these days?) ,the mistress lectured the new ger not to bring any low-level frns into their hse, in case of burglary. n to bfrn oni ppl of certain status...
does such ... mind set still exist?
anyway, i was thinking.. next time, if they wanna enter the new ger's rm, they have to change to another pair of slippers. in case they dirty the flooring's of the room.. lol..
ch 8 jus now,.. the show.. 9pm 1.. the mistress of the family got a new ger into the hse. this new ger is the kid of her hubby other wife. then the mistress living in those bungalow type. den, as usual (i dunno, is it really so common even in these days?) ,the mistress lectured the new ger not to bring any low-level frns into their hse, in case of burglary. n to bfrn oni ppl of certain status...
does such ... mind set still exist?
anyway, i was thinking.. next time, if they wanna enter the new ger's rm, they have to change to another pair of slippers. in case they dirty the flooring's of the room.. lol..
Saturday, October 21, 2006
wah... on wkends 7pm ch8, starting from today, i cant focus jus on Da Chang Jin alone on Ch u liao.. cos ch8 got a police drama serial which has a REALLY REALLY DAMN GORGEOUS CUTE GUY!! wah...
imagine, jus in a 2-hr period, i snapped numerous shots of him!! wah... he really caught my attention siazz!! look out for his pix!!!
den this afternoon, got a taiwan rubbish drama.. wahha.. i watch it jus for the scenes to snap shots. den, tis guy.. he always properly clothed in every scene. other no-fig ppl got topless scenes nw n then. but not him.
den today, wah, so lucky!! got scenes of him, having his torso bandaged up (i hope it's bondage... but.. well, 2 bad). n i kept snapping the shots!!! as he removing the bandages, i kept snapping it.. so... lol... not a gd figure, but well, his image made up for it all!
imagine, jus in a 2-hr period, i snapped numerous shots of him!! wah... he really caught my attention siazz!! look out for his pix!!!
den this afternoon, got a taiwan rubbish drama.. wahha.. i watch it jus for the scenes to snap shots. den, tis guy.. he always properly clothed in every scene. other no-fig ppl got topless scenes nw n then. but not him.
den today, wah, so lucky!! got scenes of him, having his torso bandaged up (i hope it's bondage... but.. well, 2 bad). n i kept snapping the shots!!! as he removing the bandages, i kept snapping it.. so... lol... not a gd figure, but well, his image made up for it all!
Friday, October 20, 2006
hehe, i'm bitching here... was watching ch8 9pm show... haha.. witnessed how fiona xie expressed her various emotions... umm, u name it, she gotta express it.. haha... her expressions are always so limited!!! using her std, ahem, trademark, expressions for every emotion she has to send out... lol... always such a kiddy n useless stunt..
eheh... but nt to worry, for every ep of this show, i got record down!!!
umm abt work, i can say that i'm performing better these days.. at least its how i felt. i managed to grasp things faster, dne do thing within timeframe as well. and when we need to check things out, i was able to fish out the required details.. esp, when additional details is needed, i got them within minutes hahah..
den oso, my sup explained some flow to mi, n i got it at 1 go. n later when he thot i misunderstood him, i stood on my feet to say y things r alright. de he realised he mistook my words hahah...
eheh... but nt to worry, for every ep of this show, i got record down!!!
umm abt work, i can say that i'm performing better these days.. at least its how i felt. i managed to grasp things faster, dne do thing within timeframe as well. and when we need to check things out, i was able to fish out the required details.. esp, when additional details is needed, i got them within minutes hahah..
den oso, my sup explained some flow to mi, n i got it at 1 go. n later when he thot i misunderstood him, i stood on my feet to say y things r alright. de he realised he mistook my words hahah...
Saturday, October 14, 2006
umm.. ok, my boss is a married woman. above 45yo. she take special care of mi.. maybe due to personal reasons, or she saw the potential in mi.. she often takes good care of mi, and dun allow mi to stray off track.
den... for my upperstudy... she got a new PC oni in july... the mth when i jus joined the company. den.. my new PC is due to arrive in 1 wk's time...
she got the jacket from the company in july oso.. i duno... jacket is a sign of confirmation, she joined the company in mar... duno.. i noticed tat, when i first wore my jacket, she was standing there, staring at mi in disbelief..
oh well carry on wif my reading up..
den... for my upperstudy... she got a new PC oni in july... the mth when i jus joined the company. den.. my new PC is due to arrive in 1 wk's time...
she got the jacket from the company in july oso.. i duno... jacket is a sign of confirmation, she joined the company in mar... duno.. i noticed tat, when i first wore my jacket, she was standing there, staring at mi in disbelief..
oh well carry on wif my reading up..
lol.. watching ch 8 dramas to relax b4 i restart my journey to perform my best at work..
wah.. adam chen wear the blue singlet is DARM DARN DARN HOT!!!! SIZZLING!!! but sometimes, his expression is pretty similar to those he used when acting in host-drama of a variety show.. where he acted sissily... lol...
den, the way pierre png avoid fiona xie is like a gay man... rejectingt he advances of a ger subtlely..
wah.. adam chen wear the blue singlet is DARM DARN DARN HOT!!!! SIZZLING!!! but sometimes, his expression is pretty similar to those he used when acting in host-drama of a variety show.. where he acted sissily... lol...
den, the way pierre png avoid fiona xie is like a gay man... rejectingt he advances of a ger subtlely..
Friday, October 13, 2006
well, as i said, my boss jus hinted mi ytday. den jus nw, had a presentation to show my findings to my sup.
i wonder if it's cos i dun have exp in dealing wif servers, or i'm really not tat knwoeldgeable.. he told mi the exact steps tat i need to take to advance..
now the presentation is over, i felt i had jus escaped death.. haha.. tok abt job security! this wkend, i oso will burn it to stay n read docu @ home.
i wonder if it's cos i dun have exp in dealing wif servers, or i'm really not tat knwoeldgeable.. he told mi the exact steps tat i need to take to advance..
now the presentation is over, i felt i had jus escaped death.. haha.. tok abt job security! this wkend, i oso will burn it to stay n read docu @ home.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
woah... as mentioned, i got my jacket (a sign of confirmation of our job) on last monday. den 9 working days later, on way home, my boss hinted to mi tat.. my sup felt i was not alert/productive enuff.. watever good words u can think of.. den my boss put in good words for mi, saying i am oso bogged by studies.. n be light on mi..
oh well... hope i can do better now.. after handing in my asgt..
oh well... hope i can do better now.. after handing in my asgt..
am i lucky or wat?
on tues nn, my sup email mi, asking mi to check for some details. den tues night, he email again, asking mi to chk for the details so tat he mi n upperstudy can discuss it (tis is wat upperstudy say 1.. i thot discusson's merely btwn mi n him). den tues, i not in office. wed, had 2 meetings b4 lunch. den noon, i tried my best to chk details, but slow progress.. after work, need to go class.
den thur, suddenly, my upperstudy say has to prep the docs for the meeting. i was abrupt, but ok, cos i done 60% liao. den, later, she email out, saying sup is on mc, n cannot have meeting.. wah...
on tues nn, my sup email mi, asking mi to check for some details. den tues night, he email again, asking mi to chk for the details so tat he mi n upperstudy can discuss it (tis is wat upperstudy say 1.. i thot discusson's merely btwn mi n him). den tues, i not in office. wed, had 2 meetings b4 lunch. den noon, i tried my best to chk details, but slow progress.. after work, need to go class.
den thur, suddenly, my upperstudy say has to prep the docs for the meeting. i was abrupt, but ok, cos i done 60% liao. den, later, she email out, saying sup is on mc, n cannot have meeting.. wah...
Friday, October 06, 2006
i'm beginning to love the ch 5 show "Ghost Whisperer". tis show focusses on how a 30yo ger could feel ghosts around her n help to deliver their soul by fulfilling their incomplete wishes.. be it redressing their grievances or finding out wat's bothering them or simply letting their living family knw their last words...
wat i like abt tis show is, its not merely some ghost-scaring show, n not meant to scare u, but to highlight on the love that has been missing when the ghost was still alive. it's a bother for mi to write out abt those eps i watched, but ever since i started, i felt it's a good show.. it's really on the sentimental side of the human nature..
on a few occasions, my nose even twitched..
but... have i turned too sentimental?
wat i like abt tis show is, its not merely some ghost-scaring show, n not meant to scare u, but to highlight on the love that has been missing when the ghost was still alive. it's a bother for mi to write out abt those eps i watched, but ever since i started, i felt it's a good show.. it's really on the sentimental side of the human nature..
on a few occasions, my nose even twitched..
but... have i turned too sentimental?
Thursday, October 05, 2006
come to think of it, i again nearly kena backstab..
few days back, i was discussing my latest tasks wif her. i told her the fine-tuning is not done yet. she said "fine tuning not urgent cos not needed yet".. ok.. nice of her.
BUT ytday, during the proj meeting, when we were toking abt the proj, she sudenly ASK "do the clients wan to knw how will the files b converted??".. kauzz.. i really stunned!!! she herself admitted tat i dun need to do it yet.. n nw, she stab mi, by asking tat qn?? wah liao!!
den, we needed to send a script to our client to try out. tis script, i saw it, n commented tat "there shld b space in between". she say "no, not needed". but the thing is, i did try things out, n without space, it cant work! nonetheless...
den... today, when i saw the result of the script, i saw that the script has a SPACE...
few days back, i was discussing my latest tasks wif her. i told her the fine-tuning is not done yet. she said "fine tuning not urgent cos not needed yet".. ok.. nice of her.
BUT ytday, during the proj meeting, when we were toking abt the proj, she sudenly ASK "do the clients wan to knw how will the files b converted??".. kauzz.. i really stunned!!! she herself admitted tat i dun need to do it yet.. n nw, she stab mi, by asking tat qn?? wah liao!!
den, we needed to send a script to our client to try out. tis script, i saw it, n commented tat "there shld b space in between". she say "no, not needed". but the thing is, i did try things out, n without space, it cant work! nonetheless...
den... today, when i saw the result of the script, i saw that the script has a SPACE...
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
am i confirmed?
when i first came to the company, the admin ppl told mi tat, i'll get the jacket after i'm confirmed for the job...
den.. tis wk monday, i actually got it liao.. i den chk wif my colleagues.. they say, i wun get any letter... the jacket is a way of confirming u... i find it funny.. so informal 1...
am i really confirmed??
my upperstudy...
haha... she's really keen to over-shadow mi siazz!!
during an informal meeting today, oni my team (sup, boss, upperstudy, mi, n 2 colelagues) in the room. my boss was asking if we got any feedback at all..
i thot for a moment, n said "tech n biz"..
after mi is upperstudy. den she actaully said: "i dun agree wif that statement. i feel tat... " wah liao... i heard, but i din respond. i just reacted as normal.. ie, took it as her feedbaack.. well, i'm used to it.. she jus wan 2 b the smarter ger..
den... i promised a cutie ns boy.. i'll shoot a vid of mi shaving.. hehe, mayb tis sat will do it.. lol..
when i first came to the company, the admin ppl told mi tat, i'll get the jacket after i'm confirmed for the job...
den.. tis wk monday, i actually got it liao.. i den chk wif my colleagues.. they say, i wun get any letter... the jacket is a way of confirming u... i find it funny.. so informal 1...
am i really confirmed??
my upperstudy...
haha... she's really keen to over-shadow mi siazz!!
during an informal meeting today, oni my team (sup, boss, upperstudy, mi, n 2 colelagues) in the room. my boss was asking if we got any feedback at all..
i thot for a moment, n said "tech n biz"..
after mi is upperstudy. den she actaully said: "i dun agree wif that statement. i feel tat... " wah liao... i heard, but i din respond. i just reacted as normal.. ie, took it as her feedbaack.. well, i'm used to it.. she jus wan 2 b the smarter ger..
den... i promised a cutie ns boy.. i'll shoot a vid of mi shaving.. hehe, mayb tis sat will do it.. lol..
Saturday, September 30, 2006
interesting day..
lol.. i went swimming today.. haha.. got those kids practising their swim in pyjamas. den 1 boy.. sticking his back to the wall in pool, was practising, i think, breathing. the funny thing is, he lifted himself in n out of water to practise.. as a result, when he sinks into water, his pyjamas top was lifted by the water to his armpit level.. wahhaa.. tis ahppen whenever he sink into water siazz.. when i swam to his direction, i find it so funny.. so enticing!! almost like a strip tease whahah..
later on, went to have haircut.. my poor cute stylist chamzz.. he was late for work, n his boss kept complaining to mi abt hwo late he's, n how time-unconscious he is.. den.. wah liao.. backstabbing? even the auntie who enjoy toking to him when i went there last mth, oso spoke bad abt him.. kauzz
when he arrived, he told them he dreamt of something.. i dunno if true anot.. wahha.. most likely jus to simmer everyone.. when he came to do my hair, i chatting a bit wif him.. den when he was washing my hair... wah liao.. i felt so good LOL.. cos he was rubbing my cheeks siazz.. dunno y.. wah, felt SO nice.. n nw his hair color back to black color.. n he asked mi wat i think of his color nw.. i was thinking... den he say "i din haev time to do my hair so..." i den said "both look good ;) " den he luffed his head off n commented "i sure knw how to say good things"
den hor, while doing my hair, he was leaning over mi.. wah.. i felt so much like hugging him siazz!! but chamzz.. cos we were chatting, n he IS doing my hair, his boss came over n commented "wah.. slow motion hor?" sighzz.. i even apologised to him siazz.. but 1 nice thing is, i telling him my plan to start going gym in coming mths, mayb nov or dec (after i'm confirmed for the job lah).. he say he oso thnking of going.. to those govt places.. u knw.. those SSC type.. $2.50 kind. i told him those jus simple 1s.. i intend to go those wif swimming, gym, sauna, n steamroom.. he immeidately say "wah, that's wat i wanna try oso".. n den he suggested mi buying those protein powder to drink.. to gain mass..
but.. i oredi thinking of how to bring a guest into the gym thing.. u rmb? i mentione abt my spa thing.. i think i probably will sign up soon.. den bring guest in LOL.. OH MY GAWD!
den hor, wah.. tis time i cut to short hair.. n realised tat.. long hair make mi smart looking.. short hair cute. esp when my hair was done wif black color, i felt like a sec boy.. whaha.. den when my hair got highlight, i realy dunno wat category i'm in.. but i really look young boy siazz wif tis short hair..
den i went to join my frns for ICE-SKATING! so shuang!!! i particularly loved speed!! but i cant control it.. den saw a few cute guys.. n 1... yes 1 yandao guy wif his gf.. my frns r from my workplc.. wif 1 ger who is streetwise.. tis ger seem observant of mi siazz... her words soemtimes seem to hint @ my orientation.. but well, i din react 2 much..
but INTERESTING!!.. my hair is short liao n i wearing attitude pattern T shirt n back pants.. den while skating, 1.. sec or jc or poly guy (tat age range) skated near mi n said "boy, ur shoelace"... WAH!! he call mi boy???!?!?! i was practically stunned!!
lol.. i went swimming today.. haha.. got those kids practising their swim in pyjamas. den 1 boy.. sticking his back to the wall in pool, was practising, i think, breathing. the funny thing is, he lifted himself in n out of water to practise.. as a result, when he sinks into water, his pyjamas top was lifted by the water to his armpit level.. wahhaa.. tis ahppen whenever he sink into water siazz.. when i swam to his direction, i find it so funny.. so enticing!! almost like a strip tease whahah..
later on, went to have haircut.. my poor cute stylist chamzz.. he was late for work, n his boss kept complaining to mi abt hwo late he's, n how time-unconscious he is.. den.. wah liao.. backstabbing? even the auntie who enjoy toking to him when i went there last mth, oso spoke bad abt him.. kauzz
when he arrived, he told them he dreamt of something.. i dunno if true anot.. wahha.. most likely jus to simmer everyone.. when he came to do my hair, i chatting a bit wif him.. den when he was washing my hair... wah liao.. i felt so good LOL.. cos he was rubbing my cheeks siazz.. dunno y.. wah, felt SO nice.. n nw his hair color back to black color.. n he asked mi wat i think of his color nw.. i was thinking... den he say "i din haev time to do my hair so..." i den said "both look good ;) " den he luffed his head off n commented "i sure knw how to say good things"
den hor, while doing my hair, he was leaning over mi.. wah.. i felt so much like hugging him siazz!! but chamzz.. cos we were chatting, n he IS doing my hair, his boss came over n commented "wah.. slow motion hor?" sighzz.. i even apologised to him siazz.. but 1 nice thing is, i telling him my plan to start going gym in coming mths, mayb nov or dec (after i'm confirmed for the job lah).. he say he oso thnking of going.. to those govt places.. u knw.. those SSC type.. $2.50 kind. i told him those jus simple 1s.. i intend to go those wif swimming, gym, sauna, n steamroom.. he immeidately say "wah, that's wat i wanna try oso".. n den he suggested mi buying those protein powder to drink.. to gain mass..
but.. i oredi thinking of how to bring a guest into the gym thing.. u rmb? i mentione abt my spa thing.. i think i probably will sign up soon.. den bring guest in LOL.. OH MY GAWD!
den hor, wah.. tis time i cut to short hair.. n realised tat.. long hair make mi smart looking.. short hair cute. esp when my hair was done wif black color, i felt like a sec boy.. whaha.. den when my hair got highlight, i realy dunno wat category i'm in.. but i really look young boy siazz wif tis short hair..
den i went to join my frns for ICE-SKATING! so shuang!!! i particularly loved speed!! but i cant control it.. den saw a few cute guys.. n 1... yes 1 yandao guy wif his gf.. my frns r from my workplc.. wif 1 ger who is streetwise.. tis ger seem observant of mi siazz... her words soemtimes seem to hint @ my orientation.. but well, i din react 2 much..
but INTERESTING!!.. my hair is short liao n i wearing attitude pattern T shirt n back pants.. den while skating, 1.. sec or jc or poly guy (tat age range) skated near mi n said "boy, ur shoelace"... WAH!! he call mi boy???!?!?! i was practically stunned!!
Friday, September 29, 2006
den.. wks back, the whole team had a lunch meeting wif our BIG BOSS.. the director of our dept. during the meeting, every1 raised ideas n feedback on wat they felt abt everything. i oso said my pc. the boss den said i can email him to give the feedback..
i thot it was nice to give the feedback, but thot nothing of it. but my proj lead encourge mi. so tdy, i decided to send out, to boss, CC proj lead n supervisor.. wahaha... after sending, my proj lead was happy n told everyone the news. she oso encourage every1 to bring up more ideas. n said, other than bringing up, we have to make sure we get the mgmt to see the NEED to implement it n see tat it happens.
n u know wat?
my upperstudy den replied, yes we have to let the mgmt see where we are coming from, and why is there such a need to implement it, and she oso ask who can we channel such suggestions to...
wah liao, i can see tat she's trying to gain some points for herself! rite after i sent out my ideas, she gave such a response. this kind of meeting is held monthly 1 loh.. n she beeen theer 4 mths more than mi.. she shld oredi have some ideas to give..
but anyway, ... haizzz... (i realyl sighed)... i staying put for the pay. if nt, i may have left the company or soemthing.. i wanan make my mark. i decided liao. i will do my best. n unless they dun wan mi, i wun think of leaving at all..
i thot it was nice to give the feedback, but thot nothing of it. but my proj lead encourge mi. so tdy, i decided to send out, to boss, CC proj lead n supervisor.. wahaha... after sending, my proj lead was happy n told everyone the news. she oso encourage every1 to bring up more ideas. n said, other than bringing up, we have to make sure we get the mgmt to see the NEED to implement it n see tat it happens.
n u know wat?
my upperstudy den replied, yes we have to let the mgmt see where we are coming from, and why is there such a need to implement it, and she oso ask who can we channel such suggestions to...
wah liao, i can see tat she's trying to gain some points for herself! rite after i sent out my ideas, she gave such a response. this kind of meeting is held monthly 1 loh.. n she beeen theer 4 mths more than mi.. she shld oredi have some ideas to give..
but anyway, ... haizzz... (i realyl sighed)... i staying put for the pay. if nt, i may have left the company or soemthing.. i wanan make my mark. i decided liao. i will do my best. n unless they dun wan mi, i wun think of leaving at all..
wow.
nw my upperstudy is really giving mi headaches.. ummm.. am i really such a pain as a colelague? as a teammate?
well, jus nw, the upperstudy told mi off... in front of other colleagues in office, she questioned how long i've been working on an issue... she even mentioned since 3 wks back. i really hate it. she's pinning the blame on mi!
this prob occurred 2-3 wks back yes. on 19th sept to b exact. over days, i solved the it. den as we exploring the data, ensuring integrity, saw some glitches, n over days, i cant resolve, so she helped. ok, thx for tat. we put up the file for testing. this prob was resolved.
however, as she explored, she found a dead link. she wanted mi to resolve it. tis link, well, is quite problematic, as the data file is quite messy n i need time to understand it better. so she wanna mi resolve it. i did it, but due to MISCOMMUNICATION, the files were kinda mixed up.. or something. i dunno wat happened oso.
she den grumbled n told mi to jus make the changes and send to testing again. it seems to be working fine. so i went home. den tis monday (25th sept), she found soemthing wrong n emailed to my office account. umm.. i forgot when she emailed. but i was nt in office at all.. i think it's tuesday. cos jus nw we arguing abt the time frame i took.
she said the whole of tis wk used up for this issue. den i argued back, saying i oni started on wednesday. she den chk back the email.. but come on, monday, i on urgent leave. tues i at home doing testing. wednesday noon den got back. how am i supposed to start?? wah liao...
she den said she may try to hlp later.. while i continue my checking. DEN, my supervisor wanna assign mi some tasks while she n sup discussing. den she stopped him, saying i still resolving a prob. somehwo, i feel tat at that instance, she's badmouthing mi. it cld my prejudice, i dun deny.
later, i asked her for a contact's number. i thot it shld b faster if she knew it n gave mi. she say it's in the docu. ok, i found it.. but i cant contact the person, so i asked for the mobile. den, i dunno wat she heard.. she was frustrated n told mi the contact's desk number. i told her i found it oredi.
i oso tried asking her something whcih i.. have always wanted to knw but she nvr managed to understand my pt n kept emphasizing that she dun think the contacts will knw as well. but today i ask again, she still cant gimme the ans. n still say, she dun thin contact will know. but i managed to call the contact.. n YES, i knw more abt how the system works. it seems that, the contact is better able to understand my qn n answer mi properly. but the upperstudy keep telling mi abt the programming point of view (ie, making things work). but wat i MUS n NEED to knwo is the business rules, and how the system actually works! our coding can help to make things work, but i need to knwo if wat i am doing is according to the rule!
later in the day, i told her tat i managed to resolve the issue temporarily. i admitted it, cos there are some things tat i need to research on. but i think her mind is having thots tat i imitating her, as she once told mi she implemented a temp soln too. den she got pissed, n ranted on..
when i told her the results of my investigations, she doubted mi (cos she nvr did detailed exploring, but i did, when i was testing my results) n pull back some old files. but gosh, she pulled back old files, n still claimed she din see the results of my work. OF COS! i merely told her str8, the change was there when i uploaded my file.
sighzz.. jus my luck to have her as my teammate, a high flyer, who expects efficiency as the key. she is an independent person who does things her way. i've prob clicking wif her.
nw my upperstudy is really giving mi headaches.. ummm.. am i really such a pain as a colelague? as a teammate?
well, jus nw, the upperstudy told mi off... in front of other colleagues in office, she questioned how long i've been working on an issue... she even mentioned since 3 wks back. i really hate it. she's pinning the blame on mi!
this prob occurred 2-3 wks back yes. on 19th sept to b exact. over days, i solved the it. den as we exploring the data, ensuring integrity, saw some glitches, n over days, i cant resolve, so she helped. ok, thx for tat. we put up the file for testing. this prob was resolved.
however, as she explored, she found a dead link. she wanted mi to resolve it. tis link, well, is quite problematic, as the data file is quite messy n i need time to understand it better. so she wanna mi resolve it. i did it, but due to MISCOMMUNICATION, the files were kinda mixed up.. or something. i dunno wat happened oso.
she den grumbled n told mi to jus make the changes and send to testing again. it seems to be working fine. so i went home. den tis monday (25th sept), she found soemthing wrong n emailed to my office account. umm.. i forgot when she emailed. but i was nt in office at all.. i think it's tuesday. cos jus nw we arguing abt the time frame i took.
she said the whole of tis wk used up for this issue. den i argued back, saying i oni started on wednesday. she den chk back the email.. but come on, monday, i on urgent leave. tues i at home doing testing. wednesday noon den got back. how am i supposed to start?? wah liao...
she den said she may try to hlp later.. while i continue my checking. DEN, my supervisor wanna assign mi some tasks while she n sup discussing. den she stopped him, saying i still resolving a prob. somehwo, i feel tat at that instance, she's badmouthing mi. it cld my prejudice, i dun deny.
later, i asked her for a contact's number. i thot it shld b faster if she knew it n gave mi. she say it's in the docu. ok, i found it.. but i cant contact the person, so i asked for the mobile. den, i dunno wat she heard.. she was frustrated n told mi the contact's desk number. i told her i found it oredi.
i oso tried asking her something whcih i.. have always wanted to knw but she nvr managed to understand my pt n kept emphasizing that she dun think the contacts will knw as well. but today i ask again, she still cant gimme the ans. n still say, she dun thin contact will know. but i managed to call the contact.. n YES, i knw more abt how the system works. it seems that, the contact is better able to understand my qn n answer mi properly. but the upperstudy keep telling mi abt the programming point of view (ie, making things work). but wat i MUS n NEED to knwo is the business rules, and how the system actually works! our coding can help to make things work, but i need to knwo if wat i am doing is according to the rule!
later in the day, i told her tat i managed to resolve the issue temporarily. i admitted it, cos there are some things tat i need to research on. but i think her mind is having thots tat i imitating her, as she once told mi she implemented a temp soln too. den she got pissed, n ranted on..
when i told her the results of my investigations, she doubted mi (cos she nvr did detailed exploring, but i did, when i was testing my results) n pull back some old files. but gosh, she pulled back old files, n still claimed she din see the results of my work. OF COS! i merely told her str8, the change was there when i uploaded my file.
sighzz.. jus my luck to have her as my teammate, a high flyer, who expects efficiency as the key. she is an independent person who does things her way. i've prob clicking wif her.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
lol.. long time no first-timers comment on my pg.. saw it, n decided to respond.. to show it's an active blog :P
umm... how does he knw abt castaway blog? n how did he find my pg??
my spelling innovative meh? lol.. more to jus typing watewver i wan n dun bother correcting the mistakes, cos its simply my most natural side ;) y bother making it look/sound nice/perfect when i'm supposed to b totally relaxed n b myself here? wahaha..
umm... how does he knw abt castaway blog? n how did he find my pg??
my spelling innovative meh? lol.. more to jus typing watewver i wan n dun bother correcting the mistakes, cos its simply my most natural side ;) y bother making it look/sound nice/perfect when i'm supposed to b totally relaxed n b myself here? wahaha..
umm... actually i wonder.. wat makes a company wanna confirm a staff position..
when he manages to keep up wif the speed of the company progress?
when he manages to do things within his scope?
for mi, well.. my 3mth is almost up (i start work on 3rd jul. by rite, 3rd oct is 3 mths old). i... oso... start to wonder will tis company confirm mi anot..
i got 50% confidence... or... 75?
i came here due to my SCJP ability. since first mth, i have been able to churn out the pages required by me. i managed to setup a new system for testing within a shorter time than they expected. seem like my java skills r undoubted. my office pc is slow and slow. but my boss since 1.5 mths back has been asking mi to put up a request to buy a new system so tat it's fast enuff.. even until nw, she still say so. well, true, she cld b jus requesting to get a new PC, for whoever might come in later.
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den, wat makes a company dun wan confirm a staff? his attitude? his abilities? his integrating wif the company culture? umm perhaps...
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so wat makes mi so not sure of my position?
i am good in java. den, 1 mth after i came in here, i was told to pick up PERL (caps to emphasize i'm surprised at the lang i need to pick up). PERL is oh-so-diff from the usual languages that i know of... i was pretty resistent to it, cos
1) it's a new language n so text based.
2) tat's not wat i came here for!!
3) i dinno i had to pick it up
4) there is nothing for mi to try out on!! PERL depends on a server, but the server... i dunno how to manipulate.. or rather, no way to manipulate it at all..
but knowing the language will really help a lot in my work, cos, NOW, we r using it in our apps, and FUTURE oso using.. at least near future (2 yrs time) will. however, i'm having serious problems wif it.. cos, its not simple read n get input. it's oso.. connecting and linking to various files.. and some actions n interpretation of certain codes... i realy have problem following it...
tat's y i duno whether i can make it anot...
when he manages to keep up wif the speed of the company progress?
when he manages to do things within his scope?
for mi, well.. my 3mth is almost up (i start work on 3rd jul. by rite, 3rd oct is 3 mths old). i... oso... start to wonder will tis company confirm mi anot..
i got 50% confidence... or... 75?
i came here due to my SCJP ability. since first mth, i have been able to churn out the pages required by me. i managed to setup a new system for testing within a shorter time than they expected. seem like my java skills r undoubted. my office pc is slow and slow. but my boss since 1.5 mths back has been asking mi to put up a request to buy a new system so tat it's fast enuff.. even until nw, she still say so. well, true, she cld b jus requesting to get a new PC, for whoever might come in later.
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den, wat makes a company dun wan confirm a staff? his attitude? his abilities? his integrating wif the company culture? umm perhaps...
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so wat makes mi so not sure of my position?
i am good in java. den, 1 mth after i came in here, i was told to pick up PERL (caps to emphasize i'm surprised at the lang i need to pick up). PERL is oh-so-diff from the usual languages that i know of... i was pretty resistent to it, cos
1) it's a new language n so text based.
2) tat's not wat i came here for!!
3) i dinno i had to pick it up
4) there is nothing for mi to try out on!! PERL depends on a server, but the server... i dunno how to manipulate.. or rather, no way to manipulate it at all..
but knowing the language will really help a lot in my work, cos, NOW, we r using it in our apps, and FUTURE oso using.. at least near future (2 yrs time) will. however, i'm having serious problems wif it.. cos, its not simple read n get input. it's oso.. connecting and linking to various files.. and some actions n interpretation of certain codes... i realy have problem following it...
tat's y i duno whether i can make it anot...
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
ok.. ytday, i took urgent leave to do my asgt... den today (tues), after i got to office, i greeted my boss, n she chatted wif mi. den she got to knw of my home PC config.. n decided to send mi home to do testing.. i was stunned... haha..
ok.. my pt here is, nw tat i have more tiem on hand (yes, nw at work got bit more time) so i took some docu home to read up. den as i reading, i thot of more n more scenarios tat my upperstudy actually play mi out... for eg, .. or 2 egs:
1) 1 time, we need to do soem backend processing. the process usually takes 12 hrs.. we started at 9am. ao, abt 7+, when my upperstudy confirmed it will take longer time (means, it wun finish at 7+), i went home first. the next day, i went to office, n check on the status. it seems to have finished a part so i ask her if shld do the next step.
her reply?
"no need, i did already".
2) we need to do a mthly report generation. so on e wk tat we shld generate the report, i was bz, n decided to do next wk. DEN, next wk, i admitted to her saying "aiyo, last wk forgot to do the report.."
her reply? (guessed it?)
"no need, i generated already".
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wah liao!! hey, its my first time u know!!! u shld b guiding mi siaz!
to mi, she seems more of an independent worker, who prefer to do thigns all by herself so tat she dun need to co-ord wif any1.. everytime she does thigns, she jus do without informing..
i thinkking of telling her, cos i oso working on the proj, it's better to keep mi informed on wat files were modified.. especially those tat i touched b4.. but i feel tat, she will reply "u dunno the system tat well yet..."
nw, i can oni depend on my OWN effort..
ok.. my pt here is, nw tat i have more tiem on hand (yes, nw at work got bit more time) so i took some docu home to read up. den as i reading, i thot of more n more scenarios tat my upperstudy actually play mi out... for eg, .. or 2 egs:
1) 1 time, we need to do soem backend processing. the process usually takes 12 hrs.. we started at 9am. ao, abt 7+, when my upperstudy confirmed it will take longer time (means, it wun finish at 7+), i went home first. the next day, i went to office, n check on the status. it seems to have finished a part so i ask her if shld do the next step.
her reply?
"no need, i did already".
2) we need to do a mthly report generation. so on e wk tat we shld generate the report, i was bz, n decided to do next wk. DEN, next wk, i admitted to her saying "aiyo, last wk forgot to do the report.."
her reply? (guessed it?)
"no need, i generated already".
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wah liao!! hey, its my first time u know!!! u shld b guiding mi siaz!
to mi, she seems more of an independent worker, who prefer to do thigns all by herself so tat she dun need to co-ord wif any1.. everytime she does thigns, she jus do without informing..
i thinkking of telling her, cos i oso working on the proj, it's better to keep mi informed on wat files were modified.. especially those tat i touched b4.. but i feel tat, she will reply "u dunno the system tat well yet..."
nw, i can oni depend on my OWN effort..
Sunday, September 24, 2006
lol.. somehow i think i'm addicted to masturbating...
u know.. or rather guys know, masturbation leads to getting physiologically high. it makes someone forget unhappiness n indulges in tat temporary enjoyable moment.
does it sound like smoking? cigarettes, cigar..
tat's why i say i'm addicted. smokers tend to smoke when they are stressed to relieve it. for mi, when i stress n wana escape reality, i resort to masturbation. but later, i still return to the real world..
u know.. or rather guys know, masturbation leads to getting physiologically high. it makes someone forget unhappiness n indulges in tat temporary enjoyable moment.
does it sound like smoking? cigarettes, cigar..
tat's why i say i'm addicted. smokers tend to smoke when they are stressed to relieve it. for mi, when i stress n wana escape reality, i resort to masturbation. but later, i still return to the real world..
Saturday, September 23, 2006
can you believe it?
for 2 wks, including wkends, i din sleep on my bed. i had work stuff to do at home. so i forced myself to wake up in e mid of the night. i realised tat i cant do so if i lie on the bed. i will jus doze off, n wun bother to wake up even wif an alarm...
so i forced myself to sit on my armchair n rest... so tat, when the alarm goes off, i will wake up, cos it's not comfy to rest in chair. it was really tough.. i dun have enuff sleep.. n yawned frequently.
den... yesteryda, the workload has finally got lighter :)... and for yesteryda, i finally had the chance to go on my bed to rest...
and... as i rested on my bed, i really felt i missed my bed a million!! i missed its support, its firmness, its comfort, the wide space on which i can roll about, and its gentle touch... i really felt i din rest on my bed for a long long time.. it was really a hard period! having to rest ont he chair n not touching my bed at all.. upon tis, i wept..can anyone understand how it felt???
for 2 wks, including wkends, i din sleep on my bed. i had work stuff to do at home. so i forced myself to wake up in e mid of the night. i realised tat i cant do so if i lie on the bed. i will jus doze off, n wun bother to wake up even wif an alarm...
so i forced myself to sit on my armchair n rest... so tat, when the alarm goes off, i will wake up, cos it's not comfy to rest in chair. it was really tough.. i dun have enuff sleep.. n yawned frequently.
den... yesteryda, the workload has finally got lighter :)... and for yesteryda, i finally had the chance to go on my bed to rest...
and... as i rested on my bed, i really felt i missed my bed a million!! i missed its support, its firmness, its comfort, the wide space on which i can roll about, and its gentle touch... i really felt i din rest on my bed for a long long time.. it was really a hard period! having to rest ont he chair n not touching my bed at all.. upon tis, i wept..can anyone understand how it felt???
Friday, September 22, 2006
i really wonder...
did i lose my troubleshooting skills?
cos... while fixing a perl script jus now, i found out where it went wrong.. somehow, something jus is not working rite.. i cant fix it. den my upperstudy came over (i asked her ot help), n saw the problem. well, she simply made a new routine to process tis additional condition...
umm... let's say, if tis is a java file, i will probably... knw where it went wrong... n suggest to make a new method? probably...
but for tis perl, i'm not familiar enuff to decide on making a new routine.. but well, i guess it all jus boils down to making things work. going by tis direction, i shld knw wat needs to be changed..
did i lose my troubleshooting skills?
cos... while fixing a perl script jus now, i found out where it went wrong.. somehow, something jus is not working rite.. i cant fix it. den my upperstudy came over (i asked her ot help), n saw the problem. well, she simply made a new routine to process tis additional condition...
umm... let's say, if tis is a java file, i will probably... knw where it went wrong... n suggest to make a new method? probably...
but for tis perl, i'm not familiar enuff to decide on making a new routine.. but well, i guess it all jus boils down to making things work. going by tis direction, i shld knw wat needs to be changed..
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
i need to finish blogging in 10 mins time.. den rush off to work..
damn it, another back stab by upperstudy..
wah liao, 2 thigns i wanna get off my chesT!
1) i started learning perl oni when i came into the office.. count from end jul. i dunno when she gave mi perl codes from our program to test out.. probably in end jul oso. from then till nw, my knwledge of PERL is jus so basic n so untrained. n yet, at tis time, she wanna mi debug perl script in days?? n, this perl script the data is stored in server, nt in our side! it's so hard to debug.. wah liao!
2) today, there was 2 issue on production side. she came over n told mi abt them. 1 she elaborated. 1 she jus mentioned the problem and whihc file. so, i did the first 1. den i jump to 2nd 1. but 2nd 1, i dun have details, so i ask her for them. she came over, n insisted she gave mi oredi. n claimed tat i typed out in my notepad (yes, my practice is type out things inside notepad) but probably deleted away. n exclaimed "kevin!! ai.."
and all these r done while the team lead is around!
i thot i might really have deleted away. but i dun think it's possible...
n den, when she gave mi the details, i AM 100% sure tat she din tell mi anything at all. cos i nvr saw those things b4! she later said, she might as well email mi in future... my thots: yes, it;s much better. thanks a lot!
damn it, another back stab by upperstudy..
wah liao, 2 thigns i wanna get off my chesT!
1) i started learning perl oni when i came into the office.. count from end jul. i dunno when she gave mi perl codes from our program to test out.. probably in end jul oso. from then till nw, my knwledge of PERL is jus so basic n so untrained. n yet, at tis time, she wanna mi debug perl script in days?? n, this perl script the data is stored in server, nt in our side! it's so hard to debug.. wah liao!
2) today, there was 2 issue on production side. she came over n told mi abt them. 1 she elaborated. 1 she jus mentioned the problem and whihc file. so, i did the first 1. den i jump to 2nd 1. but 2nd 1, i dun have details, so i ask her for them. she came over, n insisted she gave mi oredi. n claimed tat i typed out in my notepad (yes, my practice is type out things inside notepad) but probably deleted away. n exclaimed "kevin!! ai.."
and all these r done while the team lead is around!
i thot i might really have deleted away. but i dun think it's possible...
n den, when she gave mi the details, i AM 100% sure tat she din tell mi anything at all. cos i nvr saw those things b4! she later said, she might as well email mi in future... my thots: yes, it;s much better. thanks a lot!
Sunday, September 17, 2006
updates..
i've discussed my work situation wif my sis... sianzz.. i feel tat, i've just stepped in the company, n kena some silent politics wif my upperstudy.. well, i jus wanna do my best at work n contribute to the company. but somehow.. she dun like dat..
imagine.. i was idle for 2 wks, and after tat, she den gave mi the docu abt our ssytem to read up. n tis docu is in shared drv.. why the hell did she give mi oni 2 wks later, when i was swamped wif work??
den.. tis wk (starting 11 sept), i need to work on xml and xsd codes for our new system. she has been working on the xsd n xml for wks b4 tis wk, cos tat's her role: to play around wif it. den i need to modify an existing script's code that will translate the original doc to our required format (its work concerns, so i cant mention the specific stuff). tis 1, i tried to convert... first time dun work, so i work hard to find out the reason. 2 days later, i cant. i got prob.
i wnana edit the code, den she say i acnt jus change like dat.. den i stuck liao.. no matter how i do the conversion, the document cant b opened directly. i thot of changing the conversion code so tat the conversion is smoother, but i was OF COS wrong. it's too complicated to be understood. i just touched perl for wks.. maybe abt 5-6. n i am debugging a perl script. WOAH... of cos i cant make it.
end up teh script got more complicated. sianzz.. i den checked with her... she den said, she got an UPDATED XSD file. n sent mi. i took it, n managed to get the XML to work better...
n later, i asked wat files do i need to translate, den the sup reminded her to send it over. but sup ended up sending.
n... i had to work OT over the wkend to finish the job. n lol.. somethign interesting happened... 1 bzbody bitch (proj lead role) saw mi stay back for the night, n saw mi in morning again. so i told her i slept in office for the night. she den went to tell other sups tat i work over the nigte. even my boss came to show concern. lol.. when my sup came, i felt the need to explain.. cos, it reflects BADLY on mi, if i work over the night, but no result is evident. n i really did not work over the nite. the sup was stuned... den when i told him the truth, he felt better..
den.. over the wkend, i realise tat.. the upperstudy's part was CRUCIAL to my success!!! wat the conversion does is jus tat. to convert documents. but the upperstudy's work determines if the file can be opened successfully.... sighzzz... i can oni depend on myself.. REALLY..
getting more emotional
n these days, i realise i'm really getting pretty emotional.. outta emotions, i can understand why ppl do certain things.. n my tears start flooding my eyes...
i've discussed my work situation wif my sis... sianzz.. i feel tat, i've just stepped in the company, n kena some silent politics wif my upperstudy.. well, i jus wanna do my best at work n contribute to the company. but somehow.. she dun like dat..
imagine.. i was idle for 2 wks, and after tat, she den gave mi the docu abt our ssytem to read up. n tis docu is in shared drv.. why the hell did she give mi oni 2 wks later, when i was swamped wif work??
den.. tis wk (starting 11 sept), i need to work on xml and xsd codes for our new system. she has been working on the xsd n xml for wks b4 tis wk, cos tat's her role: to play around wif it. den i need to modify an existing script's code that will translate the original doc to our required format (its work concerns, so i cant mention the specific stuff). tis 1, i tried to convert... first time dun work, so i work hard to find out the reason. 2 days later, i cant. i got prob.
i wnana edit the code, den she say i acnt jus change like dat.. den i stuck liao.. no matter how i do the conversion, the document cant b opened directly. i thot of changing the conversion code so tat the conversion is smoother, but i was OF COS wrong. it's too complicated to be understood. i just touched perl for wks.. maybe abt 5-6. n i am debugging a perl script. WOAH... of cos i cant make it.
end up teh script got more complicated. sianzz.. i den checked with her... she den said, she got an UPDATED XSD file. n sent mi. i took it, n managed to get the XML to work better...
n later, i asked wat files do i need to translate, den the sup reminded her to send it over. but sup ended up sending.
n... i had to work OT over the wkend to finish the job. n lol.. somethign interesting happened... 1 bzbody bitch (proj lead role) saw mi stay back for the night, n saw mi in morning again. so i told her i slept in office for the night. she den went to tell other sups tat i work over the nigte. even my boss came to show concern. lol.. when my sup came, i felt the need to explain.. cos, it reflects BADLY on mi, if i work over the night, but no result is evident. n i really did not work over the nite. the sup was stuned... den when i told him the truth, he felt better..
den.. over the wkend, i realise tat.. the upperstudy's part was CRUCIAL to my success!!! wat the conversion does is jus tat. to convert documents. but the upperstudy's work determines if the file can be opened successfully.... sighzzz... i can oni depend on myself.. REALLY..
getting more emotional
n these days, i realise i'm really getting pretty emotional.. outta emotions, i can understand why ppl do certain things.. n my tears start flooding my eyes...
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