luv_ktv's untold moments

some time back (last wk), was blogging my thots.. den i went out.. n came back... to find tat my browser hung siazz!!! my un-done blog for tat day lost just like dat man!!

so, til nw i decided to write again.. cos got someone i really need to thx...

for a good long time, i've not went out to enjoy myself at all.. den last sat, 2 frns asked mi out for a bday party... the first frn was a buddy of my ex.. but his invitation was shortlived... any1 can guess the reason.. 2nd was ... a frn who really cared a lot abt mi..

2nd frn n i.. met up for a meal, n chatted quite a bit. it made my day.

den, we met again on a sat. tis time, he brought a new frn along.. an indon guy.. who was very much closetted.. on tat day, while on the streets, we had joy, n laughter. it's so enjoyable! it was really.. nice.. in the bday pub, he introduced his frns to mi.. but i jus stayed in a corner wif his new frn. even when the music came, my fav music (MC's it's like tat), i jus sat there.. leg moving to the beat.

den got some ppl come in.. ahah, a guy came wif his gf.. n they are sitting opposite us.. from time to time, i look at him.. jus nothing to do.. but he got sensitive (of cos.. i'm sitting wif a guy) n did all sorts of weird things to shwo he was unperturbed lol..

got 1 time, as the pub was filled wif floating balloons, he took a handful and tied them together. i watched him doing it.. n he got so nervous, he did a slipshod job n released them whahaha...

den in the pub, there was a ger dancing to the music beside mi.. her moves were so bold n violent tat her legs hit my thigh at times.. i moved my leg away.. cos i dun wan give any chances to gers.. den later.. u knw wat? my frn introduced her to mi... n I REALISED SHE'S A LESBIAN, WHO WAS THERE WIF HER GF!!!! WAH SIAO!!!!!!!

ahhaa.. den i was chatting wif the new frn.. n he said he may get married.. i asked if he can have sex wif a ger. he said he dunno cos he never tried wif a ger, n wld nt do so unless he's married. den i told him, i knw i cant do it wif a ger... cos i like the firmness n solid feel of a man's chest, n i get turned off if i feel soemthing filmsy n round... lol...

for teh whole time, i was jus sitting there wif the new frn.. n i was coughing hard.. i din go out to socialise.. but then, on my way back, i realised... i was really back to my lone self... cos i knw tat, in order to enjoy myself, i shld n can go out n make new frns.. it does not matter at all.. well i guess i needed the time to warm up again :)... n on xmas day, my frn invited mi again to his best frn (a ger) bday party.. a surprise party tat is... i really appreciate his kindness n good intentions...

n oh well, for tat saturday, it's pertty eventful!! i went for my gym as usual.. tis time, got a personal trainer wif mi.. n he was actually a judge for those body building contests!!! my gosh!!! he's abt my height but is pretty well built.. but well, he's filipino... um.. i shld say, wif a dark skin color.. if nt, i may have liked him.. he guided mi well.. n i was doing those gym machines.. wow... n i had wanted to swim too.. but i forgot my trunks.. sighzz..

n tis time, the steam room.. so damn hot!!! i cant even sit there without my towels!! meaning, i have to ensure i'm sitting on my towel!!! cos the tiles r hot!! n it's totally jus heat.. dunno if tis shld b the case.. but i felt very warm..

den latr, i oso went for a dance lesson.. not a gay class.. so the crowd has young n old, gers n guys.. cool...

the class... conducted by a lady dancer, used various techniques to start the class. it's not a dance class, but more to a improvisation n.. exploring class. when i got there, wow.. i oredi noticed a tall, tone, lean muscled fellow wearing a gymnastic attire lol..

we were first asked to close our eyes, n use our touches to feel around the place.. haha, dunno if tis is supposed to be the purpose, but i actually discovered another character of myself... cos i was moving around wif my eyes closed n using hands to feel around.. the moment i touched someone, i tend to shy away from it (dunno if shy is a good word.. but i cna oni think of tis word nw) n explore further.. but the instructor had said "once u find something, u can feel it.." but i shied away.. it's jus so me.. i tend to be a loner.. n dun wan mix around.. perhaps unless i knw the place well..

den, we were oso asked to move into the open area n do watever we wan.. watever our minds tell us... but when someone shouts "hold", we need to pause. shout "go" n we have to carry on from where we left off.. BUT the catch is, when we hear "go", will we continue wat we were doing, or start a new thing?

the instructor went out n did her acts.. she was swinging her arms when i suddenly shouted "hold". she paused. n when "go" was shouted, she paused there, cos she has no idea wat else to do.. seconds later ,she did something else..

i guess i really pretty keen to explore dancing further...

n my gawd... i really have a lot of personal things to do... watching vids, n posting pixxx... wahzzz