hey chris,
yep, i have that in mind.. posting pictures of my self online, n stating wat i can acept n cant. but i oso have to accept tat, at times, when the air gets heated up, anything can happen.. especially if i meet a big sized guy, who is determined to get mi..
nice thngs are always wat ppl hope for, but i still have to prepare for the worst...
n... in tis way, i feel like a pros. i'm still lokoing for love... i';m not sure if by doing so, will my Him still accept mi..
experimental is good, provided you know u r in safe hands.. but not when u're paid for it. if the person is nt happy wif anything, and if he's a rogue, he can simply deduct some money off u.. wat's more, in sm, once you're in spreadeagle pose, u're totally helpless.. i dun think it's wise to go into it..
lol... fancy discussing such things here ;)
n thanks for the "inform someone where you r" advice.. although it may sound exaggerated, i feel it's necessary.. as self protection... :)
Monday, April 30, 2007
i won again hehehe...
at work today, as i mentioned, my upperstudy wanted mi to amend a script to ensure it's wokring fine. so i amended it. later, she requested mi to make sure its submitted into production by today. i den questioned abt tis move...
cos, there's an extra step tat she included in the script. i asked if she had tried it on development server. she said there's no way to try, AND she insisted that, I had not tried my script tis way, why bother doing it? i tried telling her wat i was trying to do, n she gave a killer-line: the system is not setup for such tests yet.
i simply stopped saying anythign. n went to my seat. my thoughts: alright, since she's insistent it works, i'll follow her wishes n submit to prod... jus when i'm abt to do so, she told mi "let's go try it out.."
wow, she did see my point :)
den, when we got to the development server, all i saw was that, she brought everything, software, PKI stuff n files... aimed to test everything from scratch. i immediately felt she's just trying to say aloud, i want to test the entire script. which is NOT NOT NOT wat i meant! i immediately told her wat i wanted to test, n she insisted that's the way. need to download eveyrthing from scratch.
i told her there's not such a need. she replied "ok ok , let u do it" when no data file has been setup yet. i den told her, if she's sure things are ok, we dun have to do it, cos i can feel she's NOT sincere in testing things out. she jus wan to spite mi.
she den responded "but you want to test rite?"
i replied "nvm" n left the room in a huff.. our boss, who's inside the server room, immediately called mi back.. i went back.. n boss say "i can't help but had to interfere.." boss den asked us to say our piece. perhaps my boss knows my style of giving my view.. so, when i was abt to say, n upperstudy interrupted, boss stopped her n let me say my piece.. n after hearing us out, she concluded WISELY that, i was worried abt whether the extra step will jeopardise the script or not..
upperstudy paused for a sec, n said "no.. i tried b4.." boss knw where she's coming from, n said she dun wan any cockup, n say its better to test things out properly.. n to tis, upperstudy said "ya, tat's wat i mean!"
huh??
n u knw wat... or guessed it? the extra step jeopardised a part of the data. when upperstudy came in, she mentioned again tat sh's tried the prototype b4, n it's working.. but i left her to check things out..
in the end, she realised she needed to make adjustment to other scripts oso... but things still did not end up smoothly as she expected...
sigh...
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along the way, it seem like, in the past, when i jus joined, i din have much idea wat things were going on.. n easily pushed around.. nw den i grasped much more, i am better able to hold my stand :)
even tody, when the team was discussing abt whether our work is ready for client's purview, i readily spoke up for my module, when it came under scrutiny =D
at work today, as i mentioned, my upperstudy wanted mi to amend a script to ensure it's wokring fine. so i amended it. later, she requested mi to make sure its submitted into production by today. i den questioned abt tis move...
cos, there's an extra step tat she included in the script. i asked if she had tried it on development server. she said there's no way to try, AND she insisted that, I had not tried my script tis way, why bother doing it? i tried telling her wat i was trying to do, n she gave a killer-line: the system is not setup for such tests yet.
i simply stopped saying anythign. n went to my seat. my thoughts: alright, since she's insistent it works, i'll follow her wishes n submit to prod... jus when i'm abt to do so, she told mi "let's go try it out.."
wow, she did see my point :)
den, when we got to the development server, all i saw was that, she brought everything, software, PKI stuff n files... aimed to test everything from scratch. i immediately felt she's just trying to say aloud, i want to test the entire script. which is NOT NOT NOT wat i meant! i immediately told her wat i wanted to test, n she insisted that's the way. need to download eveyrthing from scratch.
i told her there's not such a need. she replied "ok ok , let u do it" when no data file has been setup yet. i den told her, if she's sure things are ok, we dun have to do it, cos i can feel she's NOT sincere in testing things out. she jus wan to spite mi.
she den responded "but you want to test rite?"
i replied "nvm" n left the room in a huff.. our boss, who's inside the server room, immediately called mi back.. i went back.. n boss say "i can't help but had to interfere.." boss den asked us to say our piece. perhaps my boss knows my style of giving my view.. so, when i was abt to say, n upperstudy interrupted, boss stopped her n let me say my piece.. n after hearing us out, she concluded WISELY that, i was worried abt whether the extra step will jeopardise the script or not..
upperstudy paused for a sec, n said "no.. i tried b4.." boss knw where she's coming from, n said she dun wan any cockup, n say its better to test things out properly.. n to tis, upperstudy said "ya, tat's wat i mean!"
huh??
n u knw wat... or guessed it? the extra step jeopardised a part of the data. when upperstudy came in, she mentioned again tat sh's tried the prototype b4, n it's working.. but i left her to check things out..
in the end, she realised she needed to make adjustment to other scripts oso... but things still did not end up smoothly as she expected...
sigh...
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along the way, it seem like, in the past, when i jus joined, i din have much idea wat things were going on.. n easily pushed around.. nw den i grasped much more, i am better able to hold my stand :)
even tody, when the team was discussing abt whether our work is ready for client's purview, i readily spoke up for my module, when it came under scrutiny =D
Sunday, April 29, 2007
sigh... poor mi, realyl getting VERY VERY honry..
ok.. tok something VERY surprising first... i went to gym liao, n use gel to style my hair. den u knw wat??????
when i took mrt for my hairstyling session, a lot of sec/poly gers were on the train.. n... gosh, i feel as though every1's (gers) are on mi siazz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i was so scared stiff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i even noticed, 1 ger (malay) leaning out, revealing her cleavage n was looking into my direction.. she held tat pose for 2 secs, den her mum ask her not to lean tat way... wah liao!!!!! n oso, got a ger wif bf.. they board train, n stood 1 side originally.. but the ger kept looking at mi.. or peeping.. den later, her bf... unsuspectingly, brought her to stand by the door... directly in front of mi... the guy is those sec sch guys.. (no face, no body.. got tummy even).. if the guy nice loking, i think i... no, i defintiely WILL look... lol..
aiyo.. so frightening!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 but then, let's say, suddenly got 1 guy walk past, n i immeidately throw eyes at him.. i wonder how will the gers react.. or will they notice?
ok, den at the hair dressing there.. i... felt embarrassing siazz...
the guy who wash my hair.. not my type at all.. but he's quite nice in serving customers. nothing happened... until, my hair was trimmed, n he wash my hair.. he say my face got "hairlets" n offered to wash for mi.. i laid down there.. he carefully used water to wet my face n use his hands to wash the hair off my face.. wah liao.. the touching.. got mi horny siazz.. was erecting even.. had to control siazz.. den i even imagined him asking which body part i train.. den offer to show him my abs.. den he touch it... wah liao.. i honry rite??
den later, met up frns.. str8 frns.. for nights out. duno.. is hanging out wif str8 better/easier than aj?? or cos, i have nt found true-blue aj frns who can hang out wif mi? since i've not been ... going out wif this group for ages?
wat;s more, as time pass by, i really... dunno wat's my direction in sex n love... i've high sex drive.. n i've the body n looks.. i'm really thinking of selling sex.. but i duno... will it affect my love relation in future? double edged sword..
ok.. tok something VERY surprising first... i went to gym liao, n use gel to style my hair. den u knw wat??????
when i took mrt for my hairstyling session, a lot of sec/poly gers were on the train.. n... gosh, i feel as though every1's (gers) are on mi siazz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i was so scared stiff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i even noticed, 1 ger (malay) leaning out, revealing her cleavage n was looking into my direction.. she held tat pose for 2 secs, den her mum ask her not to lean tat way... wah liao!!!!! n oso, got a ger wif bf.. they board train, n stood 1 side originally.. but the ger kept looking at mi.. or peeping.. den later, her bf... unsuspectingly, brought her to stand by the door... directly in front of mi... the guy is those sec sch guys.. (no face, no body.. got tummy even).. if the guy nice loking, i think i... no, i defintiely WILL look... lol..
aiyo.. so frightening!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 but then, let's say, suddenly got 1 guy walk past, n i immeidately throw eyes at him.. i wonder how will the gers react.. or will they notice?
ok, den at the hair dressing there.. i... felt embarrassing siazz...
the guy who wash my hair.. not my type at all.. but he's quite nice in serving customers. nothing happened... until, my hair was trimmed, n he wash my hair.. he say my face got "hairlets" n offered to wash for mi.. i laid down there.. he carefully used water to wet my face n use his hands to wash the hair off my face.. wah liao.. the touching.. got mi horny siazz.. was erecting even.. had to control siazz.. den i even imagined him asking which body part i train.. den offer to show him my abs.. den he touch it... wah liao.. i honry rite??
den later, met up frns.. str8 frns.. for nights out. duno.. is hanging out wif str8 better/easier than aj?? or cos, i have nt found true-blue aj frns who can hang out wif mi? since i've not been ... going out wif this group for ages?
wat;s more, as time pass by, i really... dunno wat's my direction in sex n love... i've high sex drive.. n i've the body n looks.. i'm really thinking of selling sex.. but i duno... will it affect my love relation in future? double edged sword..
Friday, April 27, 2007
it's a happy workday for me today :)
i managed to finish 2 jobs at once.. n.. my upperstudy wanna mi update a script. telling mi wat to be put in n updated, wanting mi to do n send script for running. i knw wat she trying to do, n told her it needs 2 hrs to test the script out.
she den got agitated/irritated, saying it's merely adding in 2 lines of codes. why will it take so long. den i told her, it looks like jus adding in 2 lines of codes, but in fact, a lot of tests have to be done.. she den say "i thot that, since u wrote the script, u shld knw it well, n take a shorter time to do. since it will take u 2 hrs, i'll do it instead..."
i told her i'm ok, since she feels it urgent..
a while later, she finished updating, n told mi to check it.. putting on a smug look, that says she's fast, n confident it worksssss. i took a look, n immediately found places that can be improved.. in end, she tested tested until she ask mi to improve the script over the weekend... lol...
i managed to finish 2 jobs at once.. n.. my upperstudy wanna mi update a script. telling mi wat to be put in n updated, wanting mi to do n send script for running. i knw wat she trying to do, n told her it needs 2 hrs to test the script out.
she den got agitated/irritated, saying it's merely adding in 2 lines of codes. why will it take so long. den i told her, it looks like jus adding in 2 lines of codes, but in fact, a lot of tests have to be done.. she den say "i thot that, since u wrote the script, u shld knw it well, n take a shorter time to do. since it will take u 2 hrs, i'll do it instead..."
i told her i'm ok, since she feels it urgent..
a while later, she finished updating, n told mi to check it.. putting on a smug look, that says she's fast, n confident it worksssss. i took a look, n immediately found places that can be improved.. in end, she tested tested until she ask mi to improve the script over the weekend... lol...
Sunday, April 22, 2007
http://www.friendster.com/luvktv
duno if this is an attempt to closer seek a new lease of life... anyone reading this, if u wanna, add mi in friendster... http://www.friendster.com/luvktv
Thursday, April 19, 2007
have i been outta love for 2 long? or i've not enjoyed myself wif someone for a long time?
cos today... i met a frn for dinner.. in the lau pa sat foodcourt, beside the jap/korean cuisine stall, got a stall selling.. some chn food (lol, i din .. really din notice the food it selling).. tis stall.. at first, i saw a fair skinned china guy manning the stall.. ok loh..
den i ordered my jap food n sat near there.. lil did i expect tat.. when i turned around to check out the stall for its products, got a.. maybe another china guy manning the stall. a bit beng looking.. the hair centre parting, kinda broad shoulder (medium size guy), wif an ok looking face.. no specs. i saw him.
som time later ,i turned again n saw him doing the cashier. cant see his face, but recog his shirt color n pattern. ahahha... the centre spot, whcih is the bridge between the 2 sides of the chest (wow, descriptive huh) was full of sweat siazz.. i forgot how many times i turned around.. few times saw him standing there n saw the spot. 1 time, he walked to other side of stall to prep something, n i turned around, he noticed it, looked up, we exchanged looks, he looked down again.. n.. the next thing i knw, no 1's manning the stall...
wahhaha./.. nw i thinking.. n really a DARING thot.. n drama?:
shld i.. approach the stall.. try to strike a chat wif him while ordering (muz b no 1 queueing).. den pass him my name card (shld i? or jus contact number? umm.. name card more.. better.. will nt sound so cheapo.. n feel more sincere oso.. although i may find it stupid much later) tell him if he need a chat or help, jus contact mi.. when he contact mi, i'll still help.. n ... hehehe...
although wat i have in mind, is i pay him maybe 100$ for a 2-hr session wif him.. but tis 1 how to say?? it's despo weird n psycho sounding if i make it so obvious..
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den after my class, i went to take the bus. n.. was i LUCKY...
i walked to the end of the bendy bus, got space at the back seat, n 1 end is a medium size guy oso, wearing office attire (not suit), sitting there... the way he sit, his shirt pressing onto his chest, shows not a total flat chest, n nt a muscle chest oso.. flabby.. oso dun thin so.. at least got a shape.. or size or volume :P.. looks is ok. when i abt tot take the seat, his legs were wide apart, n the buldge in his pants looks amazing lol.. i excused myself to him, so tat he narrow his leg.. n i sat beside him.. but i can feel tat he's avoiding body contact though.. from time to time, i will look to the side, n indirectly look at him.. lol..
den a while later, he's dozed off.. the bus is crowded.. i look to his side again.. n again.. n again.. den i decided to .. look deeper.. i looked at him, from head to tummy.. as though i'm checking on my frn who's sleeping.. i cn oni say: nice chest.. but i din do anything else.. den he abt to alight.. i made way for him.. n as he made his way out. he looked back, n i look at him.. seems like he's trying to determine if i'm looking at him..
infatuation? maybe.. maybe i really lack/long/yearn for more.. dunno..
but i thot abt it.. if i'm interested in someone, as a life partner, i'll set a rule, not to have sex wif him for a yr.. sigh.. thinking abt tis restriction..
cos today... i met a frn for dinner.. in the lau pa sat foodcourt, beside the jap/korean cuisine stall, got a stall selling.. some chn food (lol, i din .. really din notice the food it selling).. tis stall.. at first, i saw a fair skinned china guy manning the stall.. ok loh..
den i ordered my jap food n sat near there.. lil did i expect tat.. when i turned around to check out the stall for its products, got a.. maybe another china guy manning the stall. a bit beng looking.. the hair centre parting, kinda broad shoulder (medium size guy), wif an ok looking face.. no specs. i saw him.
som time later ,i turned again n saw him doing the cashier. cant see his face, but recog his shirt color n pattern. ahahha... the centre spot, whcih is the bridge between the 2 sides of the chest (wow, descriptive huh) was full of sweat siazz.. i forgot how many times i turned around.. few times saw him standing there n saw the spot. 1 time, he walked to other side of stall to prep something, n i turned around, he noticed it, looked up, we exchanged looks, he looked down again.. n.. the next thing i knw, no 1's manning the stall...
wahhaha./.. nw i thinking.. n really a DARING thot.. n drama?:
shld i.. approach the stall.. try to strike a chat wif him while ordering (muz b no 1 queueing).. den pass him my name card (shld i? or jus contact number? umm.. name card more.. better.. will nt sound so cheapo.. n feel more sincere oso.. although i may find it stupid much later) tell him if he need a chat or help, jus contact mi.. when he contact mi, i'll still help.. n ... hehehe...
although wat i have in mind, is i pay him maybe 100$ for a 2-hr session wif him.. but tis 1 how to say?? it's despo weird n psycho sounding if i make it so obvious..
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den after my class, i went to take the bus. n.. was i LUCKY...
i walked to the end of the bendy bus, got space at the back seat, n 1 end is a medium size guy oso, wearing office attire (not suit), sitting there... the way he sit, his shirt pressing onto his chest, shows not a total flat chest, n nt a muscle chest oso.. flabby.. oso dun thin so.. at least got a shape.. or size or volume :P.. looks is ok. when i abt tot take the seat, his legs were wide apart, n the buldge in his pants looks amazing lol.. i excused myself to him, so tat he narrow his leg.. n i sat beside him.. but i can feel tat he's avoiding body contact though.. from time to time, i will look to the side, n indirectly look at him.. lol..
den a while later, he's dozed off.. the bus is crowded.. i look to his side again.. n again.. n again.. den i decided to .. look deeper.. i looked at him, from head to tummy.. as though i'm checking on my frn who's sleeping.. i cn oni say: nice chest.. but i din do anything else.. den he abt to alight.. i made way for him.. n as he made his way out. he looked back, n i look at him.. seems like he's trying to determine if i'm looking at him..
infatuation? maybe.. maybe i really lack/long/yearn for more.. dunno..
but i thot abt it.. if i'm interested in someone, as a life partner, i'll set a rule, not to have sex wif him for a yr.. sigh.. thinking abt tis restriction..
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
somtimes.. a temp change in the normal routine is a good thing :)
this morning, on my way to work, saw kenny again siazz.. wearing shades.. it makes mi wonder, if he's really working anot.. but 2 bad, tdy the train really too cramped ,he cant board.. but i wonder.. if he really boarded, will i.. or shld i go up n chat wif him? will i scare him off?
to him, i'm a stranger who admire him during his PSS2 days... stranger.
if a stranger.. often goes up.. he may feel awkward.. lol...
oh.. tdy, i again din read papers.. n haha.. really find it a nice thing. cos, if it's crampy, the commuters usually squeeze more.. n beside mi is a .. wide sized dude... haha.. nothign much, really.
as for the change of routine, the company bus for time slot A din arrive. so waited for slot b bus. hehe.. after alighting form the bus, n entered the lobby, i den realise my department's beng IA student is there signing in siazz.. n he's standing at a corner where i def'ly pass by.. lol.. so i pass by n looked at him hwahaha...
den later, i went up to my desk.. n went to fill my mug.. n i bumped into him again!!! cool...
this morning, on my way to work, saw kenny again siazz.. wearing shades.. it makes mi wonder, if he's really working anot.. but 2 bad, tdy the train really too cramped ,he cant board.. but i wonder.. if he really boarded, will i.. or shld i go up n chat wif him? will i scare him off?
to him, i'm a stranger who admire him during his PSS2 days... stranger.
if a stranger.. often goes up.. he may feel awkward.. lol...
oh.. tdy, i again din read papers.. n haha.. really find it a nice thing. cos, if it's crampy, the commuters usually squeeze more.. n beside mi is a .. wide sized dude... haha.. nothign much, really.
as for the change of routine, the company bus for time slot A din arrive. so waited for slot b bus. hehe.. after alighting form the bus, n entered the lobby, i den realise my department's beng IA student is there signing in siazz.. n he's standing at a corner where i def'ly pass by.. lol.. so i pass by n looked at him hwahaha...
den later, i went up to my desk.. n went to fill my mug.. n i bumped into him again!!! cool...
Monday, April 16, 2007
sigh.. i'm really a honry dude...
u know.. few days back, a usual work day, in normal office wear, i waited for the lift to bring mi downstairs. den the lift came.. inside got a bicycle n a lady in office wear standing beside. i stood in, closed door, n peeped in.. a boy is holding on to the bicycle. such a posture tat makes a 3rd of the lift space unusable. i had thot of jus telling mi to stand inside the next time.. so tat more ppl can come in.. but nah.. it's early morn.. y bother..
den, the lift touched down. the lift door opened. i went out, n pressed the lift button, so tat the door stay open. the boy walked out wif the bike, look at mi shyly n thanked mi. i was in "morn rush" mood, n din bother to smile as gesture of "u r welcome", n jus went off..
den, jus maybe today, same thing happen again. morn rush hr.. inside life got 1 uncle n 1 auntie. seem unrelated. when the lift touched down, i thinking.. shld i oso press the lift button?? my next response is, never mind, jus go to work..
lol..is it really 'cos tat person was a boy, tat's why i volunteered to keep the door open for him???
u know.. few days back, a usual work day, in normal office wear, i waited for the lift to bring mi downstairs. den the lift came.. inside got a bicycle n a lady in office wear standing beside. i stood in, closed door, n peeped in.. a boy is holding on to the bicycle. such a posture tat makes a 3rd of the lift space unusable. i had thot of jus telling mi to stand inside the next time.. so tat more ppl can come in.. but nah.. it's early morn.. y bother..
den, the lift touched down. the lift door opened. i went out, n pressed the lift button, so tat the door stay open. the boy walked out wif the bike, look at mi shyly n thanked mi. i was in "morn rush" mood, n din bother to smile as gesture of "u r welcome", n jus went off..
den, jus maybe today, same thing happen again. morn rush hr.. inside life got 1 uncle n 1 auntie. seem unrelated. when the lift touched down, i thinking.. shld i oso press the lift button?? my next response is, never mind, jus go to work..
lol..is it really 'cos tat person was a boy, tat's why i volunteered to keep the door open for him???
Friday, April 13, 2007
i saw PSS2 guy.. guess who??
i wore my new specs today.. those weirdly shaped/designed type.. cos i knw i can pull it off lol..
den hor, on my way to work.. wah got those sec sch boys crossing street n staring at mi in bewilderment siazz.. of cos, got those beng kiaz look at mi.. n shy away ahahha..
later as i board mrt, ok.. usually i read papers as i stand inside train. tis time, i din. i jus stood inside as normal commuter. den gradually, a guy of my height in front of mi moved back.. n his arm movement from time to time had his elbow touching mi. i was alright.. den.. as the train got more packed, he moved back more.. end up his left shoulder blade sometimes will press onto my left chest lol.. got mi erected siazz.. (using my fist to press onto my left chest nw.. to feel how it felt..) it feels like chest.. felt nopthing like breast of bra lol.. n this guy din look back to see wat/who he pressing onto hahah..
den u knw... later on, i saw a guy board the train at 1 of the stn.. it's KENNY LIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i saw him, i cant believe my eyes siazz!!
when he got in, i was staring in shock!! he look jus like on tv/pic!! jus as cute!! n he's wearing earrings!! he came in, den stood properly, wif his back facing mi.. so i was looking at his back all the time.. quite meaty.. dunno whether its fleshy or meaty.. but he looks every bit of him on tv... n he's of my height!!
i was looking at him siazz!! n was thinking, shld i go up n tok to him, or continue to enjoy the moment.. den i felt i shld tok to him... haah...
i moved forward.. patted his shoulder.. he shifted a bit to make way.. i patted again.. he look back..
me "r u kenny"
he "yes.."
me "r u kenny from pss2?"
he (smiling) "yes"...
n we started a casual conversation.. i think a oouple of gers beside us was peeping even..
wow, really cant believe it... tok to him so near siazz!! n see him smiling rite in front of mi!!! wah liao.. if the train not crowded, i will pass him my namecard, so he rmb mi siazz..
den hor, on my way to work.. wah got those sec sch boys crossing street n staring at mi in bewilderment siazz.. of cos, got those beng kiaz look at mi.. n shy away ahahha..
later as i board mrt, ok.. usually i read papers as i stand inside train. tis time, i din. i jus stood inside as normal commuter. den gradually, a guy of my height in front of mi moved back.. n his arm movement from time to time had his elbow touching mi. i was alright.. den.. as the train got more packed, he moved back more.. end up his left shoulder blade sometimes will press onto my left chest lol.. got mi erected siazz.. (using my fist to press onto my left chest nw.. to feel how it felt..) it feels like chest.. felt nopthing like breast of bra lol.. n this guy din look back to see wat/who he pressing onto hahah..
den u knw... later on, i saw a guy board the train at 1 of the stn.. it's KENNY LIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i saw him, i cant believe my eyes siazz!!
when he got in, i was staring in shock!! he look jus like on tv/pic!! jus as cute!! n he's wearing earrings!! he came in, den stood properly, wif his back facing mi.. so i was looking at his back all the time.. quite meaty.. dunno whether its fleshy or meaty.. but he looks every bit of him on tv... n he's of my height!!
i was looking at him siazz!! n was thinking, shld i go up n tok to him, or continue to enjoy the moment.. den i felt i shld tok to him... haah...
i moved forward.. patted his shoulder.. he shifted a bit to make way.. i patted again.. he look back..
me "r u kenny"
he "yes.."
me "r u kenny from pss2?"
he (smiling) "yes"...
n we started a casual conversation.. i think a oouple of gers beside us was peeping even..
wow, really cant believe it... tok to him so near siazz!! n see him smiling rite in front of mi!!! wah liao.. if the train not crowded, i will pass him my namecard, so he rmb mi siazz..
Thursday, April 12, 2007
ytday, wanna blog abt it liao.. but dozed off while thnking how to resolve a prob for asgt.
got a ... cute boy lah.. but dunno wat's cute abt him.. body, face, smile, or action? we met last yr when i still living in rented plc. met in my room of cos.. has q good time together.. i serviced him.. he jus enjoyed.. does tis happen when he is still in exploration stage? once a while, he den ask for my.. shaven pic.. n i jus send to him.. even include my vid of shaving...
gradually he din contact mi anymore, ehh... hey, i did tok abt him a while ago.. rmb the boy who ask mi find buyers for his tix?? it's him..
den jus ytday, he sms mi.. in morn 9am, asking if i can help him login to frnster, but promise nt to login his acct or read his msg anymore... i replied, "frnster?? ok, but once u change pwd, i cant login liao mah.. but ok, i promise"...
den no reply from him.. til 12+.. my lunch break.. he called mi asking mi help.. dun wan say wat kinda help.. cos i lunch, he say he call mi back later..
den 3+.. he called mi.. tis time, requesting mi help him do soemthing.. he feels it' urgent.. so i tried my very best to help him.. even ask my colleague if they knw of any better way.
after helping him.. i begin to think y he ask mi help.. n judgin from wat he wan mi help in (delete bookmarks to guy frns n make frns' requests to guy frns, i somehwo feel tat he's still in the aj world.. although his frns list a lot still showing gers. he's in camp when he called. he logged in.. maybe a while back, saved his login details into browser.. so he scared ppl will log in n see.
i thinking, he can always call his other frns to help.. but do they knw wat kind of make frns' requessts he got in frnster? he asked mi to help.. m i the oni aj frn he got? somehow he stil seems very closetted...
i m jus glad he ask mi to help loh :) show he still rmb mi.. n din delete my number.. hehehe...
got a ... cute boy lah.. but dunno wat's cute abt him.. body, face, smile, or action? we met last yr when i still living in rented plc. met in my room of cos.. has q good time together.. i serviced him.. he jus enjoyed.. does tis happen when he is still in exploration stage? once a while, he den ask for my.. shaven pic.. n i jus send to him.. even include my vid of shaving...
gradually he din contact mi anymore, ehh... hey, i did tok abt him a while ago.. rmb the boy who ask mi find buyers for his tix?? it's him..
den jus ytday, he sms mi.. in morn 9am, asking if i can help him login to frnster, but promise nt to login his acct or read his msg anymore... i replied, "frnster?? ok, but once u change pwd, i cant login liao mah.. but ok, i promise"...
den no reply from him.. til 12+.. my lunch break.. he called mi asking mi help.. dun wan say wat kinda help.. cos i lunch, he say he call mi back later..
den 3+.. he called mi.. tis time, requesting mi help him do soemthing.. he feels it' urgent.. so i tried my very best to help him.. even ask my colleague if they knw of any better way.
after helping him.. i begin to think y he ask mi help.. n judgin from wat he wan mi help in (delete bookmarks to guy frns n make frns' requests to guy frns, i somehwo feel tat he's still in the aj world.. although his frns list a lot still showing gers. he's in camp when he called. he logged in.. maybe a while back, saved his login details into browser.. so he scared ppl will log in n see.
i thinking, he can always call his other frns to help.. but do they knw wat kind of make frns' requessts he got in frnster? he asked mi to help.. m i the oni aj frn he got? somehow he stil seems very closetted...
i m jus glad he ask mi to help loh :) show he still rmb mi.. n din delete my number.. hehehe...
Friday, April 06, 2007
my dream boy
shld i call him my dream boy? every day when i go to work, i see him at the busstop.. dashing, down-2-earth type, not a t-shirt-n-jeans dress code, innocent looking. everyday, when i pass by the busstop, i always keep a lookout for him. if i see him, i feel... heavenly, n satisfied. if i dun, i ask "where is he..."
been seeing him at the busstop for... half a yr i think.. n i think i knw which institution he heading to, from the bus he takes.
for a mth or 2, i somehow din manage to see him at all.. i cna oni guess 2 things:
1) he's graduated
2) he's on IA and wun b there for soem time..
den on wed, he's back again!! n soemhow, when i saw him n his eyes met mine, i seem to sense tat, he knw i'm always "peeping" at him..
pc nerds
are there still pc nerds around?
in the past, at least before y2k, if there are kids who always stick to their computers n live wif it for their lives, they're considered and called "computer nerds", the nerdy group. but wif the uprising of their status, like winning games at national n international competitions and earning their keep by playing n competing in computer games, and making a name for themselves, does this term of fit them??
cos i saw a guy.. a teenager.. wearing a T whcih says "maple story" at the back. i immediately thot: another computer nerd. but i confronted myself.
shld this term still b used on them??
they like computer games, and they earn a living while indulging in their likings. this is the most ideal job for any1, rite? doing something u like, n making a living outta it. they're pursuing their dreams.. they shld b the envy of many..
now, who says, playing computer games has no future.. these folks have proved this statement wrong. even in music (ye, i like playing wif music, playing as in having fun wif it, no formal trg, so i'm not referring to those playing mozart scores), ppl have made a name for themselves, and living a proper live.
the phrase "every dog has its day" is becoming real... lol..
so when's my day coming??!?!
fortune telling
yrs ago, someone read my palm n predicted my.. (near) future.. i duno if tat takes into acct my whole life, or during tat pt of time of predicament.. cos nw, i see a whole new meaning in my life... no longer tat impetuous kid..
ahaha.. went gym today again. long time nvr go siazz.. speaking of the gym, it got 1 steamrm inside. somehow, if i go steamrm in a certain time slot, inside will have 1 ah-peh. tis ahpeh act in a funny way. ppl usually go in wrapped wif towel. he go in in trunks. - i can accept it as his pref. but inside the rm, ok the rm is a square. 1 side is total wall. 1 side has the entrance. other 2 sides got benches for sitting.
tis ahpeh, always stand at the door there, facing bench1, n beside the bench2.. n start doing pushups, stretching n situps. i dunno the reason.. perhaps he wanna sweat it out. but his angle is darn.. funy or suspicious.. i see it as suspicious. at his angle, ppl sitting at bench1 in towels sure expose themselves to his eyes 1. at bench2 oso no diff. esp he's able to every1 sitting at the bench. if inside oni got him, ok, he can do watever he wanna.. but if someone's inside, shldn't he b a bit more normal, n sit at the bench?
a few times, he's inside. i find him suspicious.. but i.. dunno wat to do. i even avoided tat time slot. so qiao, tdy he there again.. in same style. i go in, tell myself, if i cant tahan, i will jus go elsewhere.. true enuff, 1 min later, i went to bathe.. but i wanna go in again.. i waited 15 mins. n went in. kauzz.. he still there. tis time, i sit on bench as usual... but i really discomfy.
den, i simply changed my sitting side, so tat, we r both looking into the same direction. he seem very surprised.. i felt better at tis angle.. n loosened up my towel. at the same time, he got up, n prostrated on the other bench. moments later, he went off...
wah liaozz... i thin i really muz chang emy time slot siazz..
den.. i went to lunch at the usual food stall. haha,, interesting chat there..
i ordered my food.. n abt to pay, when the owner suddenly uttered "treat u to a drink".. i thot he say mi. den i turned around n saw his helper. i poked fun at him, saying i thot he wanna treat mi to drink.. he dunno wat to say.. haha, den, i din see his bro, n asked abt him. jus b4 he answered, his bro suddenly stood in front of mi.. haha, i was stunned siazz!! den i exclaimed to the owner "luckily i din say anything yet". the owner was simply luffing.. n cant even shout my drink order.. oni say it out... ahhaha...
shld i call him my dream boy? every day when i go to work, i see him at the busstop.. dashing, down-2-earth type, not a t-shirt-n-jeans dress code, innocent looking. everyday, when i pass by the busstop, i always keep a lookout for him. if i see him, i feel... heavenly, n satisfied. if i dun, i ask "where is he..."
been seeing him at the busstop for... half a yr i think.. n i think i knw which institution he heading to, from the bus he takes.
for a mth or 2, i somehow din manage to see him at all.. i cna oni guess 2 things:
1) he's graduated
2) he's on IA and wun b there for soem time..
den on wed, he's back again!! n soemhow, when i saw him n his eyes met mine, i seem to sense tat, he knw i'm always "peeping" at him..
pc nerds
are there still pc nerds around?
in the past, at least before y2k, if there are kids who always stick to their computers n live wif it for their lives, they're considered and called "computer nerds", the nerdy group. but wif the uprising of their status, like winning games at national n international competitions and earning their keep by playing n competing in computer games, and making a name for themselves, does this term of fit them??
cos i saw a guy.. a teenager.. wearing a T whcih says "maple story" at the back. i immediately thot: another computer nerd. but i confronted myself.
shld this term still b used on them??
they like computer games, and they earn a living while indulging in their likings. this is the most ideal job for any1, rite? doing something u like, n making a living outta it. they're pursuing their dreams.. they shld b the envy of many..
now, who says, playing computer games has no future.. these folks have proved this statement wrong. even in music (ye, i like playing wif music, playing as in having fun wif it, no formal trg, so i'm not referring to those playing mozart scores), ppl have made a name for themselves, and living a proper live.
the phrase "every dog has its day" is becoming real... lol..
so when's my day coming??!?!
fortune telling
yrs ago, someone read my palm n predicted my.. (near) future.. i duno if tat takes into acct my whole life, or during tat pt of time of predicament.. cos nw, i see a whole new meaning in my life... no longer tat impetuous kid..
ahaha.. went gym today again. long time nvr go siazz.. speaking of the gym, it got 1 steamrm inside. somehow, if i go steamrm in a certain time slot, inside will have 1 ah-peh. tis ahpeh act in a funny way. ppl usually go in wrapped wif towel. he go in in trunks. - i can accept it as his pref. but inside the rm, ok the rm is a square. 1 side is total wall. 1 side has the entrance. other 2 sides got benches for sitting.
tis ahpeh, always stand at the door there, facing bench1, n beside the bench2.. n start doing pushups, stretching n situps. i dunno the reason.. perhaps he wanna sweat it out. but his angle is darn.. funy or suspicious.. i see it as suspicious. at his angle, ppl sitting at bench1 in towels sure expose themselves to his eyes 1. at bench2 oso no diff. esp he's able to every1 sitting at the bench. if inside oni got him, ok, he can do watever he wanna.. but if someone's inside, shldn't he b a bit more normal, n sit at the bench?
a few times, he's inside. i find him suspicious.. but i.. dunno wat to do. i even avoided tat time slot. so qiao, tdy he there again.. in same style. i go in, tell myself, if i cant tahan, i will jus go elsewhere.. true enuff, 1 min later, i went to bathe.. but i wanna go in again.. i waited 15 mins. n went in. kauzz.. he still there. tis time, i sit on bench as usual... but i really discomfy.
den, i simply changed my sitting side, so tat, we r both looking into the same direction. he seem very surprised.. i felt better at tis angle.. n loosened up my towel. at the same time, he got up, n prostrated on the other bench. moments later, he went off...
wah liaozz... i thin i really muz chang emy time slot siazz..
den.. i went to lunch at the usual food stall. haha,, interesting chat there..
i ordered my food.. n abt to pay, when the owner suddenly uttered "treat u to a drink".. i thot he say mi. den i turned around n saw his helper. i poked fun at him, saying i thot he wanna treat mi to drink.. he dunno wat to say.. haha, den, i din see his bro, n asked abt him. jus b4 he answered, his bro suddenly stood in front of mi.. haha, i was stunned siazz!! den i exclaimed to the owner "luckily i din say anything yet". the owner was simply luffing.. n cant even shout my drink order.. oni say it out... ahhaha...
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
thes days, always been posting either abt my thots, life, or work... cos no time to think of wild stuff siazz... mostly when use pc, either for work or studies.. rarely got time for oneself..
so, it's abt work again..hehe.. ytday, was discussing soemthing wif my upperstudy.. knw wat, she lost to mi, but she wanna.. preserve her dignity, so she came up wif funny reasons to support her stand..
u see, in unix systems, when we copy files wif some param, the new file will always ahve the same info as the old 1, including modified date. my upperstudy say, after copying, append the date of modification to either file, so tat we can keep track of when the file was modified. but lately, i dun see the pt.
since, when we copy the file, even the mod date oso same, y do we need to append the date of mod? the file's mod date is already there. y still need to append it to the name of the file? might as well append the date of copying to the name.
upperstudy den argued "wat if someone modifies THAT file".. i hhahah.. at a loss of words.. but no pt arguing further.. since she is adamnant on her ideas..
den today, another thing.. i understand its her good-willed intentions.. but it was like.. very "i rule the app, i knw wat i'm doing" kinda style.. cos she modified a script tat will clear the system cache, but.. she din realise tat tis clearing of cache, affects debugging siazz..
umm... seems like, i'm gaining more n more knowledge wahhaha..
so, it's abt work again..hehe.. ytday, was discussing soemthing wif my upperstudy.. knw wat, she lost to mi, but she wanna.. preserve her dignity, so she came up wif funny reasons to support her stand..
u see, in unix systems, when we copy files wif some param, the new file will always ahve the same info as the old 1, including modified date. my upperstudy say, after copying, append the date of modification to either file, so tat we can keep track of when the file was modified. but lately, i dun see the pt.
since, when we copy the file, even the mod date oso same, y do we need to append the date of mod? the file's mod date is already there. y still need to append it to the name of the file? might as well append the date of copying to the name.
upperstudy den argued "wat if someone modifies THAT file".. i hhahah.. at a loss of words.. but no pt arguing further.. since she is adamnant on her ideas..
den today, another thing.. i understand its her good-willed intentions.. but it was like.. very "i rule the app, i knw wat i'm doing" kinda style.. cos she modified a script tat will clear the system cache, but.. she din realise tat tis clearing of cache, affects debugging siazz..
umm... seems like, i'm gaining more n more knowledge wahhaha..
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