luv_ktv's untold moments

forgot to post tis. these days we do OT at times. when i told her, i forgot to bring the info abt my OT timing. she say i shld get a notebook (read: pen n paper) to jot down when i do my OT, if not how to claim $$? gosh, we r in IT age, n we r IT ppl. talk abt notebook? when u have usb drv to store the info? when she forgot her timing, she oni paiseh. when i din take note, she is so critical. oh well. n guess wat, today, she herself forgot to bring her notebook along, leaving it at home. haha

haha... been having not a veli good time at work. OBVIOUS politics, untrusting colleagues.

politics: the nougats, i buy at $AUD20 (S$24.8). colleague ask mi buy for them. i bought 1 pack. sell them S$30 (AUD$23). they complain too ex, n ask if i got bargain anot. even ask mi try DFS shop. den snr ask mi buy nougats n nuts for her. nougats i forgot abt it, nuts i din buy. she seem unhappy. den KK oso show attitude from time to time. i have to be firm wif him siazz.. sianzz...

untrusting: for a long time, jnr din stand behind mi to "teach" mi how to troubleshoot case liao. den on the day i collected the nougat $ from her, when i troubleshoot a case tat takes some time, she stood behind mi again, telling mi wat to do. i ask her y she behind mi, she say "nothing, jus looking oni". SIAOZ. for a long time, such thigns din happen. wah liao.......

den KK haha... again tried to put mi down. well, if thigns get worse, i dun mind playing word games wif him. he even said things like "when cowboys get to u..." i changed it to "cowgers".

nothing much else to tok. livign my life the way i wanna it to be. no regrets, no holding back.

last yr, i had my fair share of good and bad times. it may not b as serious as others, but it's certainly some down time for mi. I have come to realise tat, frns indeed r more impt and they r the ones to stand by u when ugly things happen. in the past, i din treasure frns tat much, n take as granted. n i kinda have some expectations of new frns. now i take things easily. eg, soem frns may keep asking mi some things which i told them b4. well, they keeping asking, i simply keep telling. it simply tells mi how much effort they take to rmb my info.

thus, frns/pals, dun b surprised if i treat u in a much better way these days. independency really made mi grew up n mature.

tiem to find new job...

the book tat i reading now, "Trust and Betrayal in the workplace", has this para:
If we are constantly preoccupied with our own problems, we may be totally unaware of the impact of our behaviour and actions on others. If we are fostering an attitude that the world is treating us poorly, we rarely feel for the pain we cause others. People with a low capacity to trust in them may feel victimised by their circumstances. They may come across as needy and emotionally draining on their co-workers. Their preoccupation with themselves causes them to be unaware of their actions.

This paragraph was true for me. Until I discovered it's much easier and better to live in happiness, and think that no one out there means harm to you. This is naive, of course. But it does make you think and feel positive.