luv_ktv's untold moments

call mi stupid or anything./..

watching a recorded ep of "firefly's dream". a guy was caught red-handed, cheating on a schger. she returned home, n broke down. her mum tried consoling her.

it reminds mi of my past... not sure if i blogged abt it. a guy mesmerised mi. we went out for a wk. after tat, we broke up. i went home n stared into blank. my mum, den said, if u got any prob, jus say out.. dun keep inside.. it's really touching..

but then, if parents are more open minded, i could really have told her abt my probs.. instead of relying on myself, n attempting suicide..

actually, i oso wonder, if i din commit suicide, cos i'm scaredy, or i sudenly din feel the worth to die, or something spiritual was pulling mi back.. i dunno.. cos until nw, i duno wat stopped mi. i oni rmb, i wanna jump onto the road just as a car is approaching. but suddenly, a voice in my head shouted, "NO! i dun want to die!"...

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anyway, that was the past. in the ep, oso got a scene.. a beng jus finished his shower and walked out in his pants oni. haah... the funny thing is, i din feel like snapping him. not no body or too fat, but jus din feel anything for him.. not beng looking enuff? hehe.. maybe..