sigh.. nw i kinda understand why some rapists target their relatives' young.
ytday, all day long, i been running around, buying things for mi n my cute cousin. u knw, i havent had anythign to eat from 10 - 4pm.. had bfast at 9 for my gym. den, during tat 6 hr period, i was famished!
but sometimes, being famished has a reward... or rewards :) while i waiting for a bus, a slightly beng but decent guy waiting at the busstop i went to lol.. yes, my definition for bengs is more descriptive than most ppl.. cos, those tat i like, i fidn them cute or decent. but to others, it's simply BENG (rowdy or attitude-ly appearance).
den later... i bought lunch to my cousin's place to eat. i shared wif them my nugg's meal. haha.. cousin boy is courteous. he knws tat's my lunch, and dun dare touch. cousin ger jus eat. i was later in his room, fixing his comptuer thigns. lol, i actuallly thot we will be alone, but my uncle's there.
i had wanna.. go topless n stay in the room.. n see how he reacts.. nothign sexual, but jus to see how he react.. since uncle around, den it din take place.
but the "bad egg" thot came... during dinner.. my aunt suggested tat since i so close to them, i sometimes can take them to swimming.. den my thinking was:
gosh.. if go swim, den i can see him swimming... lol. n perhaps bath him.. lol.. but i have to ensure tat, nothign happens AT ALL..
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oh ya, rmb.. some time back, i mentioned tat my pal visually molested me? lol.. his response to tat is so violent n aggressive tat, he sms'ed mi 3.03am 1 day, his reply. lol... sms siazz.. nt blogging siazz!!
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1 more thing
last night, my sis went out at 11+pm. rushign out, rather. she asked mi for extra cash, n hinted tat she needed mi to open door for her when she came back. i told her, i'll slp at abt 2+.
den she went out.. i felt sleepy at 1+.. but made myself stay up to wait for her.. scared tat she dun have keys to come back. n scared she may have some troubles.. but at 2+, she's nt back yet.. so i took a nap.. den 5+, nt back oso.. i decided i'll jus head for bed.
next morn, i woke up to find her at home oredi.
come to think of it, since when have i become so worried for a family member? she shld b more street-wise than mi, but yes, her image for tat night was pretty hot for such night outing. i dun need to worry so much. but to think i even stayed up to wait for her... next morn, i was thinking, if i'm the one going out, even if the person is asleep, i can still give a call to open door.. n there's always the mobile, shld anythign happen.. why shld i stay up so late??
umm... a penny for my thots.
my oz buddy
he's now going thru a decision making stage.. it depends solely on him to come to a decision, and it's ppl around him, ppl who know his nature, his person/character thru years of thick and thin happenings, ppl who knw his situation.. who are able to advise him on how he can arrive at a decision. it's really tough.. even giving him advice, is tuff. our advice can cost his happiness, or provide him a life-long bliss. it's not easy to put my/ourselves in his shoes.
cos the environment is diff, but we knw his situation. and can feel what he's going through. his happiness is in our hands.. especially, when such gay-partnership has not a bond tat ties both parties together...
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