luv_ktv's untold moments

but dun worry, i wun kill myself.. wun collapse... i not so easily defeated. i hope.

jus need time to recover myself... think n plan... hopefully it wun take too long...

had thot of not updating my blog for soemtime, or even, take it offline for a while... may or may not do it... wif my mood down the drain, dun quite have the intention to still update it...

going thru the downs of my life... lonely, r/s prob... , directionless, aimless, goaless.. esp when my date... seem to shower his care only when we are outside. dun seem to bother when we din meet, or toking on the phone... at times, i show my mood... by not toking much.. he jus ask "r u alright?" i nod. den he does not ask again.

or, past few days, i been so onzz to meet up wif him n tok.. but this time, i am totally inactive to meet up wif him.. even for bfast, i last min cancelled it... he dun even bother to ask if i alright... n show mi his attitude as well.

alright, for bfast, he did ask if i alright... i told him i'm fine. n he took it for real. come on, we'been going out for 1 mth... i've always been keen to meet up. if i cancelled it last min, am i really alright, or merely passing a remark???

he msg mi, i confirmed bfast wif him last night, yes. why i suddenly cancel it. i replied the same msg i sent earlier on. he said "understood". understood wat??

i actually thot he'll sense somethign's wrong n visit mi. know wat? when i msg him 30 mins later tat i wanan lunch wif him, he told mi he is meeting his close frns for lunch.

so, what's this???

i sent him, "have u cared abt my feeling, or wondered how i felt?" he told mi he'll ans mi when we meet for bfast tmr. now i've cancelled it suddenly. he's alright wif it.

Period.