luv_ktv's untold moments

i had decided to work aggressively over the wkend for my work.. but for the whole morn, i simply... did not feel like it..

anyway, was supposed to go city there, collect amei tshirt to wear to her concert. den as i walked in the crowded city area, i somehow.. felt there was so much life.. it's such an overwhelming feeling!! like.. there's so much energy in ppl, so much liveliness. i suddenly felt, there's so much hope and much things worth living for..

as i felt it, i somehow, had the impression i was about to commit "uh-hem"..but truly i din have that idea. but, the phrases n tone i had in my mind indeed gave mi that feel. i somehow felt there's still so much worth living for.. but, i somehow lack the fighting spirit tat i once had.. is it due to a report tat i din manage to finish, end up some1 did for mi, and i lost self-confidence due to tat?

den, as i met up the group (fans of amei), a few of them were sitting there to chat. i thot mayb i can chat wif them to ... release stress? but ahahah... i sat there for 30 mins, no 1 chatted wif mi.. it's like, i jus sat down, with no 1 noticing mi siazz.. i was not close .. or maybe even familiar with them.. so i guess no 1 tried toking wif mi.. true.. at times, when they were chatting, i cld somehow join in and give some ideas.. but i simply felt there's no pt.. they have a... way of discussing among themselves.. felt tat if i gave my opinions, i'm kinda spoiling the balance. and in a way, the jokes they cracked, i din really find it amusing..

1 amusing part is, when i "announced" my departure, 1 ger say "leave so early"? i din really knw how to reply siazz.. machiam a silence for a few secs. but i still left.

DEN, at the gym (hahah, everytime after a gym session, do i ALWAYS have something to blog????), at the treadmill, i ran at 10k/hr for 25 mins.. was SO tired.. after the run, as i abt to leave, some guy gave mi a despised look lol.. in the sauna, tis time i'm DARN DARN DARN sure, someone was cruising mi siazz.. but same time, i oso look at ppl. even worse, after sauna, i was sitting beside my locker in towel. a guy took off his shirt n put inside locker, i den looked, look n look.. avg body.. but haha.. nice view to see a naked body.

actualyl, wat's the pt of having security guards there har?

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