luv_ktv's untold moments

by rite, tonight shld b a happening evening... but.. i came home, emotionally disturbed/upset..

i met a frn... who i knw 2 years back... when i was still living in the rented room. tis frn, took good care of mi and is there when i need him.. when i knew him, i knew another person at the same time. both ppl were interested in me.. but tat time i oni found the other guy attractive.. this other guy.. was also intersted in mi and we chatted quite a fair bit..

my frn also called mi on the hp, n chatting wif mi.. i asked, if i can select the other guy first, n if not good, i go to him... haha, yes it's a stupid n non-sensical question... that was mi...

in the end, i broke up wif the other guy in 1 month (the usual duration).

2 yrs later, today, i meet up this frn.. n he's still very good to mi (i cant help but sob... at the thot of this... it's life? due to my stupidity, or insolence... i dun recognise his kindness me back then.. and all the love around mi... i treated them as granted.. as many ppl are very good to mi.. i din really treasure them, n took it as granted.. thinking back, he even gave mi all his contact numbers, so tat i can contact him anytime i wan... n i din recognise it as his effort to know mi better, oni know that it's more ways to contact him.. and there is no "i din get ur sms" excuse..) continuing... he's very good to mi still. .at the movies, there's oni a couple of shows whose timings suit us.. he commented tat protege's vcd will come out very soon. n not much movie to watch..

i said, i wanna watch.. cos long time nvr watch movie in cinema liao.. so he recommended Dreamgirl.. n the movie.. is kinda hot.. when we buy the tix, it's already left oni the row nearest to the screen.. he know why i wanna watch, so he's ok wif it...

during the show, it's not interesting... but he din complain at all.. he stayed thru'out... after the show, we had supper.. his treat.. n he's the one who was hungry.. yet he gave half of the food to mi.. a real nice guy... too bad... in the past, i din make the right choice...

however, even if i did, will it last? my attitude towards life at tat time was, it's oni natural that you r good to mi.. it's not a good way to sustain a reln..

i was really touched by wat he did during the supper.. i was even abt to weep...

during the supper, we chatted abt a frn who was supposed to join us later.. i told him.. tat frn said he was a loner.. but after meeting him, he turned out to be a chatter.. den my frn advised mi, watever ppl say, dun blif totally.. it's just how they wan themselves to appear to ppl.. i have to agree.. cos later, this late comer, he told mi he's on the way, n stayed their for about 15 mins n left. reason: cough... but he took medicine earlier on, thus he was not coughing.. he's going home to rest.

but when he left, i saw him taking out his hp.. n... left.. my frn thus said, he dun look like a sick person..

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nevertheless, life has to go on.. i'll treasure his frnship... and every frn tat i know...