luv_ktv's untold moments

umm.. continuing ytday's blog about the outing.. it was really a good meet up. received a piece of.. i'll strongly recommend it as good news... but it's hurting to a person... (flashback...)

2 yrs ago, i was living in a rented room.. wif my date, of that time. he felt tat, there's insecurity of being a date, instead of a bf, so he left for another guy. i'm alright wif it. i oso knw tat new bf. the whole group of us even went out together.. but soon, they broke up..

all the while, he's not been sharing the rent wif mi.. when i asked him to share the load, he gave an excuse: his shared account wif his grandma was closed down by her, n he dun have money anymore, so he cant pay. i trusted tat his words are the truth.

i was stupid. i actually did not see thru his lies, and believed tat he has no more money. later, alli know is that, he rented the other room, to live wif a new bf. i dunno how he managed to pay the rent for the room. haha, it's any1's guess. *wink*.

ever since he lived wif this new bf, his life seems to have gotten better. even when i left the place, they re still together..

who knows, 2 yrs later, when i met the frn i mentioned in ytday's blog, haha, he let out a clue, by asking mi exactly wat i thot of this person. it's been 2 yrs, since i last mentioned his name. it took mi some time to rmb wat exactly to say.. but i really... dun have much idea wat to say..

Bad? he's not entirely a bad egg

good? nah, he dun fit the bill, not even a percent.

i can oni comment, he's not a good person.

den... this frn told mi news of this person.

wks back, this frn's pal, took his new bf to meet their group. n.. as fate had it, this new bf turned out to be this.. fateful person who had lived wif mi. and, as heaven would make fun of any1 it likes (to punish), this new bf, saw my frn, n "did not recognise" my frn, and introduced himself as "an animal who has DEEEEEP eyebag" whahaha... i hear liao oso... felt exhilerating! almost every1 in the present, other than the pal, knew him in the past, but had see this person as a newly-met guy?! lol...

n, wat's the more luffable part is, or the part whcih calls for a round of applause, is they broke up a VERY short while later! due to a heated arg. i.. feel bad towards the pal, but felt it's kinda well-deserved for that person. can i say its retribution?

i duno wat happened between them.. but i just felt this person jus likes to use his first-time charm to trick kids.. kids who dunno how to think clearly once they kena a misfire by dear cupid. n once the kids are taken in by him, they are his prey as money spinners. spinners who dun mind tiding him over for the period. cos, love is still blind.

as for his "having a new identity", i have oni this in response:
he can't face up to his past, and want to have a new lease of life. but every part of life has its history. if he's unable to face up to history, it's time for him to figure out why he dare not face up to it. did soemthign wrong? did soemthign bad? against his conscience?

being born wif a handsome face is good. but it's not enuff. it gives ppl the first good impression. after tat, u gotta have the character and persnality, and depth within youself to carry on the good impression, or to leave a better impression. if u dun learn ur ways, it takes good karma (ahah, why am i using this term?) to carry on ur good life. or risk losing it...

everyone has their own designated path to take. hope tat his.. wil lead to a good ... i mean, hope his path wil get better..

havign said these, i still can't forgive him for wat he did. i'm usually very soft hearted (any1 disagree?). it takes really a heavy blow to make my heart root its stand.

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den about the movie dreamgirl.. the storyline.. can say is boring.. but it has the good sides n truth in it... to mi, of cos. as it shows how a pop group can break up due to commercial interests, and how the lead singer can be a mere good looker, but not necessarily the better singer among them. see, i din mentioned "best singer"... ehh, nvm.. dunno wat i trying to imply.. or rather how i shld imply..

in the movie, jennifer is the best n most devoted singer in the group. her voice is her talent n is inborne. but she has to be replaced by her team mate who has the looks. singing-wise, ok lah, but jenn is still the winner. i admire her "i knwo my talents n i knw where i stand in the group, n how far i shld be able to move on" knowledge.

n true enuff, when she was ostracised by her team, she was not cool enuff and blurted some hurtful words. but it's not her fault. she had been had.

in the end, she left the group, and left a poor life, but it's a dignity'ed life. when she finally found the person who willingly stage her comeback, she realsied she was wrong in the past n was willing to change. i felt her voice, and felt it inside mi.. whenever she sings, every little punch n vibration n note reaches deep inside mi...

when i saw that, her song, popular in her town, was remixed n released as a popular national song, i saw how injustice was done to the original singer. however, i blif in thes days, the original singers were paid a tribute sum? to recognise their effort...

it seems to be just my story... being so much in love wif singing. but i've no confidence in myself. n she's so emotionally charged whenver she sings... i admire tat...

i'm thinking of getting it's vcd... or maybe ost..

n ya, i dinno she's USA idol dropout. i was surprised tat, someone wif her voice is acting. n during the credit rolling, i thot i missed her part, at teh start, ... den i realised she was specially intro'ed... "And introducing .... Jennifer Hudson"..

cool... hope she can make it this time to the music scene.. a good voice... still needs good songs to accompany it... :)