luv_ktv's untold moments

had a premonition that something good will happen in morning. unexpectedly, on the bus to work, the bus was not crowded, n i sat behind cute guy. n in e lift, i stood besde him as well..

den.. at work, it's become obvious (at least for today), tat the 2 colleagues.. cant click well wif mi, n prefer to lunch by themselves. haha, i dun blame them.. 1 guy commented i always ask funny qns.. strange.. those place, which the turn over rate is high, the ppl will b ready to receive new staff. those place, which turn over rate jus ok 1.. or low, the ppl quite reserved when welcoming new guys.. n den, although now i'm getting more op[en-minded n frnlier, but the ppl may feel i'm a bit.. fakely outgoing? dunno.. well, i know where i stand .. i'm true... always.. n they dun ask mi out for lunch, i'm ok.. i dun think it's a pre-requisite to b on frnly terms wif 2 colleagues jus to stay in tis job..

my gal pal is quitting her job.. n finding greener pastures.. cos she can't find her direction in her current job.. wat abt mi? a holder of a diploma which is 5.. or rather 6 yrs old, who wnana make it big in programming. i oso wanna do good. but my dip is too old to prove anything.. jus my cert alone.. i'm not sure.. n it's oso really tiring to keep going for interviews, coping wif studies, n keeping ur job. i saying these, cos i seldom hear of ppl, quitting of their own accord.

n now.. i felt i'm burnt out, stressed, too pressurised to perform well in my job? my guesses. felt like having someone to hug, a shoulder to cry on.. i dunno y i wanna cry.. jus felt like it.. the wkend, i dinr ealyl rest much.. although i thot i did..

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den last night, met another frn suddenly. umm.. tis frn is someone i like lah.. i thot it's a meetup n chat session.. but den.. he does not seem to show iterest in toking.. but more to biz planning.. i felt he took mi more like his client den a frn.. i voiced tis out to him. but he claimed that, he treated mi as hsi frn.. if not, he wun bother to take the time to explain things to mi.. well... i know better than mi lohzz. i told him, i prefer to b more on the frn side, rather than turn our reln into a biz partner. den later, we did chat. but sighzz.. i still suspect he has something up his sleeves..

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now, i feel tat i am cut off from the world...