luv_ktv's untold moments

i'm either influenced by working life, or by a frn. i seem to pinpoint wat goes wrong. some ppl can accept it (on the surface?), some ppl dislike it. n cos i'm living by myself, i have to make the decisions at times. being pressed for time (does any1, or can any1, imagine wat i'm going thru? no jus say say "know ur plight, been thru it", but really put urself in my shoes. who can really do it?), i will need to make sure i plan my time properly, no time is wasted.

some ppl mistake it as "so kan cheong", some think i'm irritating. well these ppl, i guess they usually dun have any rush of time to care abt. for mi, even when i'm out, i still worry abt my future. y? cos.... it's my god damn great future. every1 is working hard for it. so am i. i made a promise to myself, not to use my family money for my studies. i really hope i can stick to it. if i fail to keep it, i... will b dead meat.

but over time, i realise tat, i dun have to b so rigid, dun have to b so exact abt wat caused the problem... to my frns. we wan to enjoy our time, not to make 1 person.. or scold tat person til he realise.. or till he's repentant.

i'm still alright, for those who r suspecting. but will focus on my studies, if things go smoothly, i shld b able to recover my social life n get on properly wif it. perhaps by then, i'll be able to mix in wif the general public. if not, i'll probably lead the life of a monk. not including food.