luv_ktv's untold moments

other than the earlier blog, i have a lot of things in my mind... really a lot... mass thots? been thinking, i really been a loner these days, n saving a lot of money, curbing temptations to buy thigns. some ppl, they hav the luxury to buy things at whelm. for mi, i yearn, but i know i cant splurge. den jus now, a ger approach mi to pen for $2 for charity. i promised her i get small change n buy from her. i bought liao. now i wonder, the next tiem, shld i still so soft heart, or i shld check if it's legal sale...

having worked in CS for so long, i kinda tired of it... have to really control my voice n sound frnly, my mood oso. really sick of it. yearn to get out... hopefully, my java cert can help. oso realise tat, nowadays, i so focussed on my studies, i mths din read papers... walk around, find out the latest news. really lost touch wif the world liao.. wat worse, today, a user has prob letting win2k recognise his usb drive. i so stupid to ask him find the drivers. i din think of the usb port maybe spoilt. kauzz.. did i really focus 2 much in studies, tat i lost some general know-how?? maybe...

but today, had fun wif a user... the above user. cos after thigns are resolved, i noticed his pc got instlal diner dash.. so chat wif him abt it. hahah... we both like the game but 2 bad, no crak version for it. den, i pretty glad tat, i still in contact wif a frn... who i did not dare take the initiative.. cos dun wan soemone to b jealous... to make it obvious to tat frn, he sent mi his chn name, i replied wif the chn words, but spelt it wrongly haha, saw the wrong word.. :)

den i realise tt, maybe really cos i think better than my words, sometimes, i really prefer to jus b quiet, n listen to wat ppl say, oni if needed, i say my thots. somehwo, i find tat, if i speak in singlish, i may stutter, or perhaps will. n some of my ideas cant pass thru my words. cos i tend to speak wat's flashing across my mind.. if i think 2 fast, certain ideas oredi flashed thru, n i may not say them out properly. den today, fat sup is demo crystal report generating. i was thinking, this is not jus say say will learn. u have to try out. in this case, u tell us for wat? y not we take initiative n play wif it? n we all IT ppl, reports, we play around a while, sure can find out soemthing. y bother training us for it?

if we are required to use it for work, train us ok. but if u train is jus FYI, y bother?

n.. i kinda decided how to plan my time for monash n java. monash exam in mid oct onwards. 1 more.. or maybe 2 asgt due in mid sept. so, most prob, i arrange my java 2 b after asgt. finish it, n prep exam. do i sound ambitious? i need to plan. i dun wan drag too far..

den on wednesday, i somehow, really dun miss charmed show anymore. cos the stories really stray till i cant accept it. come in zankou, avatar, magic sch, normal ppl who r exposed n able to hve fun wif magic for 1 day without penalties (in past, if magic is exposed, they r warned n dealt wif. and i rmb, when their powers were "stolen" during prue time, they did not freeze when the thief tried it, as good witches dun freeze. but this season, they did), and stuff... really dun feel the impt'ce of it...

these days, am i really 2 strezz? cos... i cant stay up later than 12am. once reach 12, i start yawning, n mind goes blank. i even had to sleep n wake up at 3am so i feel refresh enuff to do asgt. even if not doing asgt, if i jus doze off... or even proper rest, i will wake 3am 4 5 6am... sianzz... is it normal of mi, not to look at guys? or i'm not myself still? cos the normal mi, wil observe n look around in the bus to ... look around. but these days, i jus look into the windows n dun bother abt the ppl around mi.

today, when i went to work, wah liao, jus wonder y some ppl so inconsiderate. ppl trying to squeeze into lift, others jus stick to teh entrace of the lift, dun wanna move in at all... cant they put themselve in the shoes? n hor, on the road, unless u have evidence, if not unfair thigns will not b justiced. cos soem drivers, knowing it's isolated area, dun give a damn abt crossing into the pedestrian walkway. n today witnessed 1 scene. a taxi, somehow suddenly dun care abt traffic light. n jus made a turn. an approaching car thus horned heavily. i looked. wah really surprised too...

think above is all i wanna write...