luv_ktv's untold moments

last night din have time to write much, cos GOSH, i got home past 12!! n had to take mrt instead siazz.. on way back, i felt tat i've not taken mrt for so LOOOONNNG time liaozz.. feel a BIT alien.. jus a bit.

watching Ch... umm, Arts Central " Child Of Our Time 2002: Thanks For The Memories". the... doctor? ask the parents to list out 5 things tat bring them both hapyp n sad memories.. they managed to do it. but oni 1 item. at this pt, for the happy part, i oni managed to think of my Oz pals. think of how i knew them. for the sad part, i actually cant think of any. den a guy in the show mentioned "carrying his late dog in his arms". den i rmb i was sad too.

how come i dun rmb my sad events? cos i'm not thinking tat much? or cos i dun wan rmb it tat easily, to make myself live better? n jus now watching Ch 5's villa wellness. showing the trailer for next wk. the gers r fighting to reduce their wt, n stay healthy. den the producers showed videos of their families encouraging them to push on. yes, the scene is touching. i felt the warmth. has the recent happening opened the blockage to my emotions? well, my heart remains locked. still.

i'm saying these, cos in the past, seeing such scenees, i will oni feel, "oh well, some cncouragement". i'll not feel the warmth from them.

somehow, last night while i was drinking, i kinda felt once again i was relieved, or released. i jus wan to dance tot he lounge music. shake my body off... stress? perhaps...

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ya loh, willliam, i almost wanna ask who is the anony guy this time.. * oh well, the docu show pretty nice.. showing how humans' memories could b wrong at times... cos wif an imaginative mind, 1 can concoct an incident into the mind and convince oneself over time (1 wk? 2 wks?) tat the incident did happen. tok later..* haha, ya abt anony guy. den i saw it's u hahha...

wel,l it's fun to have a drink at times. i can control ymself not to be drunk .dunw orry. at times, drinking a bit is good for health :) but if u have been sober, u wun b claiming to be cute... haha..

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ok.. about the show. to cut it short, parents were brought to a room, n shown a series of pictures. 1 of them was during their childhood days, they were taken for a ride in hot air balloon wif daddy. they really dun rmb it happening. but it looked VERY real. but the pic is doctored. they were told to think abt it for 5 minutes every night and come back 2 weeks later.

time's up. only 1/3 really cant remember wat exactly happened... ok about 6 adults took the test. 2 cant rmb wat happened. 1 of these 2 even doubted if it happened. others all concocted stories of how the scene was, wif their parents standing here/there, preparing this tat, n how it felt. in e end, they were told it's a doctored pic.

ok... now, here comes doctor KTV. i was asked if i appear/behave like 25yo guy. well, it depends on ur definition of 25yo. supposed to be matured, n serious as it's 25 yo and working for yrs liao. OR hip n trendy cool n sporty? it depends on how u grow up, ur environment. wun say any1. jus say mi. i dun look 25, yes i know. my actions n behavioour may not b 25. but who determines tat? my success in career? life? frnship? well. i can oni say, from a tender age, till mine, if u did not improve or change or learn anything at all, tat is a waste of your time. but if u leartn and changed over time, u at least have grown up n maturwed to a certain extent.

the more u go thru in ur life, N LEARN FROM IT, the more matured u'll b in thinking. at times, even a person 3 yrs ur jnr may know more than u, if tat jnr has been thru more than u.