luv_ktv's untold moments

wahliao, i thot ch 8 show storyline is good. but.. the ending of 1 theme was BAD. wah kauzz.. even my sis, yes it's my sis again, she guessed that, oni someone close to the victim can make the victim drink poison. ok. den near the ending, the murderer was holding a guy hostage in a room. i was thinking, if she really wan, she can kill him in an instant. but, then it's a show.

true enuff, later police came intot he room (it's not locked!!!!) and wanna shoot the murderer. the murderer din care and still venting her angst on the guy. wat?? wat r they trying? door not locked, n wif the gun pointing at her, the murderer jus stood up, din put up any defense... gosh...

ch u 10pm show. now i know why the title is "10 k pounds of fate". wel, the guy has 2 gers fallingf or him. 1 is buddy, 1 is enemy turn gf. buddy did lotsa things for him. but he oso feel something for the gf. it's a load on shoulder...

wel,l in reln, if it takes 2 much effort to msanage, really a lot of effort, and the return is minimal, u have to judge if it's worth maintaining. u cna say it's worth it. but oni u can determine the future. whether it's worth the effort. u'll learn a lesson if it dun work. or u taste the sweetness of e fruit if thigns work well.

if u keep telling a person a truth tat u know, but he jus keep thinking u're maligning him, den jus let time tell the truth. there's nothing u can do. u cant expect the person to blif wat u say, n digest it immediately. he can keep it in his mind and digest it later. no hurry. if he doesn', no pt forcing the digestion.

at lunch, my colleagues tok about relations. these days, my colleagues tease tat a male colleague is my hubby. i'm ok, and defenseless. but i really dunno how am i gonna keep my asexual status for long. if 1 day, i reveal, sure big hu-ha, n i'll b lying abt myself... dunno how to gain their trust. ahhaha.. nvm.

abt relns, they're syaing, if u like someone, u shld accept his past. tat's for mi. my view. i mena, if he ONS b4 knowing u, tat's his life before meeting n committing to u. but he shld not do tat after committment. and then, if it's his person to b a social butterfly, u definitely know it B4 u commit urself. if u find tat he's 2 "flirtatious", u shld not b wif him in the first place, as u cant accept his socialising patterns at all. but if u can takw it, u shld b confident of urself tat no matter wat he does outside, he's still urs.

it's all a matter of trust. it's in every1, every reln. in frns, work, family. esp in reln. u have to trust him if u wanna b wif him. n there's no such thing as a perfect guy for u. u like guy A. u enjoy ur time wif him. but once in a while, he did something whcih u dun really like. it's jus ur own view tat make u dun like tat thing he did. will u tell him tat? or u keep it to urself?

if he's ur frn, how will u deal wif it?

i find tat, for a reln to work, both parties have to work it out, discuss things. give in to each other. this is told by a married colleague of mine.

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actually, if it's impt for ur future, will u feel it's somethign great to achieve? if being a hermit for years jus to achieve tat great thing, it's not worth it. but if i'm oni using a few mths, to achieve something which i've been yearning for, but did not feel teh pressure, urge or resolution to get it, wat's a lil sacrifice?

i can't say i'm very happy wif my life. in fact, i'm not. i yearn to go out, make frns, widen my social circle, enjoy life, EAT TILL I'M FULL, watch movie, have a tour. but i can't. if still need to strive for my future. oni if my future has a guarantee can i b satified n slwo down. i can oni say, this is a hurdle i MUZ overcome. including my java n monash...............

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gosh, now is friday liao. din realise i din post ytday's post.

at a certain stage of life, in order to save urself from paiseh'ness, ppl wil ltend to lie. hide their real intention of doing things, n tell u some make-believe reason, so tat u'll think otherwise.. well, i think this is the process of life. some ppl live with lies all their life, some dun hide anything at all, some hold back certain secrets...

n being in thsi helpdesk office, for this long, devoted, n having laughter n fun, n leading normal living life, i begin to learn how to build rapport wif colleagues. oh, ya jus rmb the thign tat i had wanna blog for today. after lunch, colleagues went to Times. cos we killing tiem, i folowed. i was browsing some books. palmistry. den saw some buddhism books. i suddenly thot of a frn, who i can bring to... take a look?, n oso some karma bks written by psychic. teach u how to see wat u missing n plan for ur future.

well, my thot is: i can oni browse. i cant affford them. or perhaps the time to read them. i later walked to the window of the shop. i was thinking, i'm really controlling very hard for my expenditure. am i happy wif this way of living? i make myself eat the cheapest meal everyday, eat 2 pcs of fruits tat cost 60c. i dun wna eat too much cos i wanna save more money... err.. nvm. i'm not really satisfied wif this way fo living, but i can oni say, i'm doing it for my future. den i lefe the shop, since i cant afford it, i dun wan to tempt myself.