luv_ktv's untold moments

oh well.. i'm disappointed with liu xiao zhou. he failed my expectations BIG time.

i have a strange feeling today. my family went to bugis to ask for better fortune. the old ladies there prayed for us. she took out a piece of standard drawing. of 5 characters (due to religious reasons, i shant describe them). she chanted. i felt a surge of emotions. some kind of remorse? i wanna weep... but i din.

den, when mine's done, i stood at a corner, and saw a room of statues. i looked at them, n my heart atuomatically started chanting a line for calming of the heart..

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i admit i'm not gd at making frns, or even good at maintaining frnship wif new ppl. there is tis person from fridae. he look quite alright, jus alright oni. he msg mi in fridae for a quickie (really, cos he str8-4ward, ask mi if i wanna fun wif him). we exchange fri msg, n he gave mi his number. i sms him promptly.

he din reply. later, i add him in msn. he came home, i msg him. he say he's tired, n wanna slp. from den on, i did see him online in msn. no msg from him at all. nothign at all. den jus now, he msn mi, saying my msn pic is hot, and he WANT IT. i say i dun give msn pic to ppl who i seldom tok to. he say it's jus internet pic, not mine. he den suggested tat, we supposed to meet up still. i den gave him my number, n my sign name. he unhappyy.

den i qn him, he din reply my sms tat day. why? he gave mi some non-sensical reason: maybe he was usign work ph, my number, saved in hp, so when change ph, the number din appear properly. i reply, he enver had my numer/name all along. he den say he's sorry. den i told him, basicall,y i'm unhappy tat he din reply my sms, n msn oso. den he insisted he's sorry oredi. if i dun accept, den whole thing can b forgotten.

i den said, if he chose to forget the whole thing, fine. if not, we can still start off wif sms to rebuild the whole thing. he declined. alright den.

i think this is the meaning of saying sorry. Did he really mean to say it, or jus as courtesy?? sorry does not mean, jus saying so, but u have to prove/show y u think u r saying it. if u sorry liao, but still carry on ur attitude, wat diff it make??