luv_ktv's untold moments

a pretty sad day...

jus as i consoled my oz pal, tat being outta a reln is not too bad, but dun hurt urself further by being the nice guy, consoling him n teasing him to make him feel better, when u r having internal bleeding. it simply hurts 2 much. it hurts u, n makes him feel alright, but he may not know u r really hurt.

howver, jus tis morning, i thot of my relation with the mgmt guy. ever since the day i met him the first time, he told mi he is dating guy B. den from then till now, i been sending him morning greets. n when i asked him how he was wif guy B, we chatted over the ph, n i came out to him. he den understood mi m,ore. i know he's going to KL 2 wks later wif guy B. i know they can click, n progressing... alright. so from the bottom of my heart, i gave him (n guy B) my best wishes. n if they are realyl together, i hope they will stay truly happy together. tat's my thking then, and now too.

so, hwo does "move on" apply here? keep a lookout for bf? bf never comes tat way. it's fate. for some, it can come when u feel it. for mi, it's seldom easy, as i dun bother joining any gay outings. ie those outings organised by orgs. these days, reln have become more of a bonus to my life. not a necessity. i can look forward to havign it, but dun have to search or ask or beg for it. n by wishing them together, i dun feel hurt. perhaps oni a lil (which i dun really know) tat is not 2 obvious yet. i oni SEE 1 guy, who is a nice person, living life well with someone he enjoys time with.