luv_ktv's untold moments

my gal pal mentioned tat, my stds for guys have kinda dropped. i wonder, does it happen to everyone, as they advance in age? when I was younger, (hereby, i shall speak the truth, cos it's indeed my growing up phase. if anyone choose to discriminate me just 'cos of the truth, I am unable to help it.) i had dreams of going out n settling down with gorgeous guys. these include bengs (yes i still LOVE them to the MAX), cuties n watever. i din even pay attention to ppl who look older, or try to "pick" mi up, unless they look great. however, as i grow older, i realise tat, y do i simply pick on good looking guys? some of them cant even hold a proper conversation. brains, or brawns? pick 1, not both. if not, they will have an attitude wif themselves. "I'm good looking, tat y u tok to mi. i have loads of frns, why shld i bother about u?" or "i think u are interested in my body, but i'm not. dun come and disturb mi. i have better things to do than entertaining u. hey, where's tat hot dude??"

but 2 things have changed my mindset/thinking.
1) everyone wants to know cuties. and if possible, either have physical interaction or know them better. or simply look at every inch of the body outline, formed the clothes they wear. i oso wan. since i wan to do this to ppl. ppl oso will want to ogle at me. it's a mere exchange of interested looks. come on, if no 1 bothers to look, what's ur market value?? tat's y, nowadays, anyone who cares to chat wif mi, i'll try to strike a converastion wif them. if it lasts, a new frnship will b formed. if not, at least i know, he's either acquaintance, or a hi-bye frn (i'm still not used to tis term). if i tok to a person, i normally will want to have a proper chat. if he can't make it, den i'll know he's oni a goodlooker.

2) frns have no boundaries. dun everytime think of ppl are wanna bed u. ya lah, tis is flawful. but then, if u really no interest, u can still stay as frns wif them. who knows, they may turn out to b the frns u need most.

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err, somehow i deviated from my original topic :P ok.. when i was younger, i dreamt of knwoing gorgeous guys. den now, my choice of guys r either getting wider, or the population is getting more metrosexual, or my std has gone down. either way, wat i wan say is, is it true tat, when u r still glowing, u have certain stds of Mr Right. However, as ur glow dims, ur std gets lower, cos u r still finding that Right. until a pt when u realise u really adv a lot in age, but u still single, u jus wnana find a person who can b there for u, n all the fantasies of sparks glamourous fireworks will jus disappear? is this happening to mi?

was watching channel u's love match game. a ger gets to choose who she wann dine wif. n the guy can choose his date oso. ger A choose cute23. cute32 choose ger B. so 3some dine. gerA choose cute23 cos she likes him. gerA looks older than her age of 23. gerB looks her age of 23. den at the end of the show, gerA ask cute23 his opinions of her. cute23 say she a pistachio (kai xin guo aka happy fruit) cos she is always smiling and it warm his heart oso. in the end, cute23 goes for gerA. cos he's comfy wif her presence. i wonder... a lot of things.. is gerB ready for a chat? did cute23 choose gerA for the tv show effect? is cute23 comfy wif the looks of gerA? btw, i gave the cute23 not 'cos he's cute, but oni to refer easily.

after the CNY, i changed my camera bag to crumpler bag for style. but over 1 mth, it seem to bring bad luck... u know.. 3 incidents.
1) CNY dinner wif frns (i forgot if i changed my camera bag liao anot), it was on a wkday. i supposed to take pix as usual wif them. but end up, no pix taken, cos they bz wif eating. i oni took pix of fireworks.
2) he's someone who i almost did something wif. we met for 2nd time. n i asked if he wanna take pic. he declined.
3) worst case. my frn's bday. on the day iself, i bring camera along. called him to confirm timing, he say things turned out badly. i suggested meeting him up for dinner. he said he'll think abt it. later he declined still.

so jialutz?? am i really not fated to use stylo bags?? unless it's really my choice??

i remember, when i had plans for the future, i look forward to it pretty much... like getting new job (i basically spent my days sending out resumes siazzz), n preparing my oz trip. den, everytime after that objective has been met, i'll kinda feel that my time is empty. i dun have much things to look forward to. nothing for mi to prepare for..sigh.. i think i better try to find other objectives..