luv_ktv's untold moments

my master called mi.. or shld i still adress him master? not sure.. i dunno if i shld say he disappointed mi anot.. but when a few days back, he said he forgot my number, thus cant call mi... i was disappointed... he has been sms'ing i all along, den suddenly say he dun have my number.. i was stunned.

den i started givign him cold shoulder as i mentioed... had wanted to maintain it this way.. but i relented.. as not many ppl can catch the emotional side of humans... so i msg him on msn tat, i want to tok to him..

later he did call mi to tok.. so i told him why i was cold to him.. oh.. he finally undrstand liaozz.. i jus checked my blog.. i wrote "simply no feeling tat i his frn.. mroe to someone who can listen to his probs... yes, it's good tat he confide in mi... show he trust mi.. but i'd prefer a frn, rather than someone who say he trust mi."

today.. jsu now, i said something else.. which either supplemented wat i wanna say, or made it more serious... i said "i felt that, you treated mi as though i'm helpline.. u can trust mi wif ur thinking and confide in mi.. but i prefer frns... yes u said u trust mi.. but i prefer frns.. not ppl who said they trust mi n confide in mi oni..."

i oso told him how i felt abt those sms tat went unnoticed... he was apologetic.. i replied "apologies work when time has proven its credibility." (but said in simpler terms lah)... cos even if he keep apologising.. but he never proved tat he meant the apology, wat pt is there?

he apologise.. but time will prove if his apologies are sincere anot... the feel is not there anymore... the feel to be so close to him... yes, can still chat, but i'll not tell him any intimate.. or details of my life... those tat i feel oni ppl who really care shld know.. this master, will not know for now..

if somehow, he show he really care, and not lip service (symbolic, not literal), once i feel it, thigns could be back to normal... when we can have fun... for now, when he jokes abt our roles, i treat it as cold jokes... maybe... right now, i'm confused abt how i shld see him.. as a casual frn, or someone who can play master slave role...

nvm.. i'm losing track of wat i'm saying.. n explaining... let's see what goes...