luv_ktv's untold moments

anyway, wif the temp guy gone, and the young lady (who is so damn sharp in her words) done, i waiting for work life area to be improved..

today is really monday blues.. in the real way. morning was alright. got to work. den whole day was busy. den the temp guy, din tok much wif him. i find tat, i'm really bad at politics!! if i unhappy wif someone, i realyl dun tok to him siazz.. others can still tok n chat, but mi, i jus silent. lunch hours came. i thot of, once again, ask to join snr n guy. but no chance. later they moved off. 1 colleague who going for lunch oso, patted mi to go along. den i went wif them... i thinking, if he din ask mi along, will i still join?

den later, after lunch, i asked the temp guy for the money. wha liao, he say he n gf had argument. den almost lose temper wif mi, thinmking i kaypoh into wat happened between them. siaoz. i oni ask why the argument wif her caused him unable to return mi money. he say he gave his atm card to his gf. no matter wat, by this wk, i muz get back my money.

den later, crammed wif work. but enoyable. although dun have time to read papers, well at least i doing office work to occupy myself. den laater, i met my boi again. but this time, it's not those happy happy type... more to understanding n sorting our diff'es... sighzz... i know he's serious abt us. but i hope nothign bad will happen. i got home, n mum cooked porridge. almost din wanna eat. but after having first bite, i decided to jus finish it. not tat enmjoyable meal...

wah liaoz, realyl monday blues siazz.. on my way home, i chatted wif my boi. realised wat went wrong. he said i showered too much concern over him. he feel bad abt it. to him, i put in too much, while he feel he din deserve it. in a way, somehow i think it's bcos i... dun feel secure myself in a relation? jus like.. my work? i kept working n giving my best at work. lack toking to cooleagues, din strike rapport.

for relns, havign a few failed ones, i kinda.. think it's better to be CONCERNED over him, so he will feel loved. n usually, i'll b concerned n caring abt him, n dun wan him to b disadvantaged. so will give him all the best. but tat seems not he way it works... guess i need to be more relaxed?