luv_ktv's untold moments

den friday morning, i actually woke up 15 mins late. ya, i woke up n heard the alarm. i think i slept 2 heavily, n din hear it. was wondering wat morning routine i shld skip. if can, i hope dun need to go work.. or rather rush for work, when i wake up late. sighzz. miss my old job.

somehow, i feel tat my sup, not the fat one, was hostile to mi, cos he not sure if i'll stay long anot.. cos my job history quite volatile. but, i kena stuck here mah, i cant leave right? cos today, i was at pantry there, getting my drink as usual. he den entered. normally, he wun speak to mi, will either look at my eyes 0.5 sec n look away, or dun even see. but today, he told mi tat the team waitinf for mi n 1 guy to start meeting. n even opened the door for mi. n giggled wif mi as well, as he pretended to style his hair after opening.

den later, all is fine lah. but somehow, i feel the snr is... kinda trying to get back or trying to be hostile or trying to distance herself from mi.anyway, during the first lunch, cos as i was walking to snr n guy, snr told guy that she can go lunch wif... n pointing towards my direction, n the guy said mi ah, oh.. got lunch apptmt wif mi ah (referring to urs truly). i den just joked along. but i was really hoping it's mi.

later, my timing came. n my snr simply rushed out for lunch. the guy did tease her, why din ask mi along, she replied "i'll b stupid to reply u". well, since she going lunch so hurriedly, i'll go mysef loh. my frn had wanna lunch wif mi, but last min say he not free. sianz. den i went off. but jus when i got down, it rained! damn, i went back office. was asked some qns. "u took ur lunch so fast?" "w/o snr, of cos finish lunch fast" "outside raining ah" "u lunching wif snr or alone".... liao. had jus wanna reply, "i go over find frns. if frns not there liao, i eat alone loh".

well, i guess i shld still stick to asking them first lah. den later, got comp dinner. i thot will be thos usual buffet dinner i take. den was waiting for the ppl to go. i realy dun mind going. can go over see ppl, mix around, eat food. think optimistically. NO LOH. when i got there, or even on my way there, i was so quiet. n wasn't myself. still teh same guy in office who pretended to be innocent, n can't b myself at all. even at the hotel there, oso not comfy n not enjoying the time. i think, if i'm wif my usual frns, i'm quite loud n chatty siazz. i think ahah, once agian, it's proven i'm bad at PR. over there, i can say i dun mind walking around alone, looking around, rather than keep chatting n toking to colleagues. but, well, need to get along wif them.

sometimes, i think, i belong to those, career can suceed, but PR skilsl lack a lot. unable to create proper rapport wif colelagues. oh yea, saw s colleague there, but i bochap him. or we bochap each other,. din tok at all. even when, i went to the busstop he's at, we oso pretend to not see each other.

hehe, will be meetign my boi tmr...