last night, had wanna add some more thigns. monday, my boi @ gym, so i went to settle my studies stuff. can i say i disappointed at how monash does thigns? cos they expet the burden of everything to fall on students. den the snack stall sellign nothign i like. sigh. went past a bread shop. true, a guy is at the counter so i took more note of the toasts at the counter. but i oso wanna buys ome. i stood at the counter there, the guy was focussed on attending tot he ppl queuing up to pay tat he "din see" mi at all waiting for him. later his colleague came along, n i made my presence felt haha. den i was told, we supposed to queue up n request for the bread. alright. the bread dun taste tat nice. supposed tob e some sausage bread, but it taste like luncheon. so my first n last time to buy.

den this morning, i thot got meeting at 745. got to office, oni mi, jnr n young lady. wah liaoz. turned out no meeting at all. damn. the mornign was quite ok. jus tat, disappointg still ,when it comes to lunch. but i guess from tmr on, i will source for office pants. or look for lunch mates. advertise on fridae liao, but no response..

somehow, after knowing my boi, i do realise, i am really not good at making frns. i can make new frns, but dunno how to stay in contact with them. my imprssion is, we shld often mee tup n tok. but tat's not possible always. n more often than not, when i got time, i'll msg them, asking how they are. sometimes, they del my no, sometimes they chat a bit n stop. if i try harder to know them, i may sound despo n scare ppl off.

for lunch, i actually resort, yes reosrt, to finding ppl in fridae, sgboy, signel n MAW. den oso called other dept's ppl to see if they can make it for lunch meet. wat's SAD is tat, later in 3 hrs, got 3 calls which irritate mi lotsa! 1 call, the user is "confused" abt what problem he wann mi to solve. 2, the user gave VELI lil inof n wanna mi solve it. 3, the user is unhappy tat an option is not available. KAUZ!

after work, went to meet my boi. ahah, cos i KO earlier, i went to stroll. hehe, den noti mi, decided to jus stand near the door there, waiting for my boi, hoping he jus appear, n see mi waiting there :) but 2 bad, he called mi jus b4 he arrived. but ya, i think he still surprised tat i waiting at the door for him. he got his lady colleague wif him. Pearl. she called her bf n found him. ehhe, somehow, i find miself sweeter :)

think i somehow not used to meeting str8 gers as frns. find myself kinda awkward when havign dinner wif her n bf. i feel better when i wif my boi. i think it's common. cos her bf oso, din tok much when we walking. n i wasn't quite my usual self whle we were wif them. oni when we alone den i more normal. hehe, watched madagascar. quite nice. although.. hehe, a bit for kids LOL. i mean, it's veli veli pure n innocent. suitable for a god luff n relaxation after work :) the pictures make mi luff, although i can guess the story :)

he sent mi home once again. since he insist, i wun reject. on way back, chatted teased n had ur chare of fun :) but haha, i guess i really shlnd't say things tat demoralise him. n yes, i dun get jealous easily. wun elaborate further since i told my boi all liao. n i think, we finalyl settled our FOOD problem LOL. n tmr i meeting my agent for insurance, so i timer-rec charmed. n for my dinner, i took duck mee b4 movies, not full enuff. was wanting to buy some movie snacks, but well, since boi's frns all going into cinema liao, i jus followed them loh. end up, i still hungry. went to mc there tok n drank. den got home, i took maggi mee...

long time no see

my last update was.. i think friday ngiht. saturday went for training. supposed to be from 9am onwards, but 930-10 sden start. err.. kauz, a lot of thigns to blog, till i duno wat to write. at training, first time, i voiced out my opinions. den, supposed to go pizza for team lunch, but they drag drag until i no time. den jus went off. i wanna go suntec buy tix, so my boi cant follow mi there. in end, i bought cookies for him tat he wanna. n some meat to let him eat. hhehe, he was clever enuff to know i bought those cookies.

had our chare of intimate moments, fun n laughter. (forgot wat happened these days but after reading my boi's blog, i rmb liao haha). maybe add something tat he din put LOL... gross or not? up to the reader =D we managed to devised a few methods of punishing each other, it's my first time to see him luff heartily in 24 hrs =D our first trip to suntec quite nice, but 2nd trip nope. first trip, he went to check the book fare. i can sustain n take my unger lah, but i jus feel tat a few fish balls is jus not enuff to b lunch for my boi, + he need to rest.

den for dinner, went to kopitiam there eat. den comes soemthing tat was unexpected, but minor. he usiong pc. den i bored, so i dozed off on bed. i din bath yet. later, at 1237am, he actually shook mi up while i was in deep sleep. i wasn't like startled n woke up, more to still sleepy n dun wan wake. but wah, he so determined to wake mi up.

den so qiao, on sunday, mum calle dmi, saying tat no family bfast. so i can spend more time wif my boi. took our lunch, n went to suntec again. jus feel a bit strange. i was asking my frn to buy tix at his place. he said he ask the shop, shop blur, n say dun have sell. he den ask mi whehter it's started selling anot, n whether the place selling anot. i told him directly tat, i wanan go, so surely will check tat the shops are selling. if the shop is blur, pass them his hp, n i'll tok to them. in end, the shop, without toking to mi, know wat we askng.

after the suntec thing, something unpleasant happened. over food. dinf eel happy at all as i send my boi home. even got to a certain pt, i feel tat, there is a risk. 1) when he's angry, i muz stick to him, i muz never jus say "u so quiet for wat? dun wan tok, i go hoem first". i mean, i din say them, but in LTR, when there are arguments, either party muz b caring, n not bochap. 2nd risk, while sending him home, 1 line of his, made mi feel, he almost wanna end our LTR. but i stuck to him, n wanna repair it. in the end, i almost wept as i tok to him.

well, to mi, love LTR is about giving in, understanding. caring. hehe, but we stil lteased each other.

oh ya, after sending him home, i wonder if i lok attractive siazz. got some ppl look at mi. n soehow, i feel tat, due to this, soemtimes, i'm quite cold towards ppl when their eyes fall on mi. i need to decide when i shld return the view n when to ignore it. in public, i dun wan to return every look/stare. but n office, in order not to appear cold, i have to return looks. if not, may look as though i dun give them a damn.

on way home, on the expressway, another bus broke down, and its commuters boarded our bus. haha, a guy sat beside mi. i was thnking, u gusy join us halfway. ut shld b fun if u guys need to do a forfeit to join us :) got home, n managed to grab a proper meal. mum is working 12 hr. thot of going family to maassage her. 2 bad, but i got home, she's sleeping.

den today at work, quite ok. lunch appt once again, disappointing. jus tat the S colleague, either kena sacked, or he move to other depts, cos 1 wk din see him coming our place. today again boring. somehow, i feel my place there is confirmed liao, cos my office certainly will not want to get ppl in again, n train from scratch.

jus realise tat, for a lognt ime, i've not beent o my gal's blog. n i really not used to not reading, replying, n blogging 1 day. gess will soon go backt o blogging n replying my boi's commments..

hehe, although i jus came home after meeting up my boi, i know i taped SmallVlle. so i watched it. quite cool. clark was pinned to the ground by 3 gers. well thsi is not excting, but the trailer scene of him being stripped of his shirt by force is a turn on =D at the show itself, the scene was pretty normal. no excitement. alright, i skipped to tat scene, thus no excitement. but when i watched the show from the start, it's HOT. guys dancign topless. clark was dancing in his boxers. his good bods n heavy shoulders were showing quite prominently.

later, he woke up in barn room, still in boxers oni, n staggered to stand up. pretty nice. den later, he was pinned down, clothes stripped. n fainted. haha, he was almost in spread eagle, jus tat not ropes invovled :P he was den suspended in a room topless stil. the gers den caressed his body. wah, i think he shld have gotten soem reactions. later, a guy came in. i thot: cool, 2 guys in a room. 1 is tied up haha. before releasing clark, he could have gotten to the front, unzipped him, n played with him sexually hahaha.... cos he's tied up! i mena, suspended. pretty cool n ep. i will burn it hahhaha...

morning pretty laxing. but 1 call almost made mi so pek chek. den chatted up wif the biz team ppl... haha, really chat siazz.. cos she pregnant. den she oso intro a staff to mi, cos i seldom leave my desk, she intro him to mi hehe. haha, den hor, cos we making calls to users to install some program, got 1 guy, den sounded fierece. den my sup took over. somehow, he oso cannot tahan n almost wanna slam the phone. but this person, i was oso toking to him, he was quite fine lei.. n was even like joking wif mi... haha, frm ym frnly way of toking, am i garnering lotsa support? LOL

den later, for 1 case, i was asked to go to the dept there to discuss soln. ok, i was oredi tinking of asking this website team ppl to go out lunch wif mi. den i got there, they discussed the site stuff wif mi. explain tomi how the things work. the dept head say he find tat, i learn fast, honest, cheerful, n willing to learn. oso, he find tat i got interest in programming, tried into mi to his developing stuff, ask if i like programming, html bla bla etc. i told him all my thigns. they oso ask since i into programming, why i helpdesk. i expalined to them. den they oso like.. will take note of u. den the head ask whether i wanan do a proj, i declined, recommending his staff instead. den he keep saying i honest honest. i really thinking, did i say 2 much? i even told them, i taking deg n cert cos.

later, went to mit my boi. haha. this tiem, my colelagues again teased tat i goiong out. whle waiting (famished), i went to buy soemthign for my boi haha. bought it, den was really thinking where to go, wat to do. he called mi, i met him up in comical way :) took dinner, but he sounded/seemed unhappy lei... was wondering wat wrong.. i purposely hid the gift somewhere. had wanna tell him, but he so odd acting, i dun feel good. later, we resolved it still. n haha, i again made a scene of myself. i'm the oni 1 who always big reaction type. n, the young lady is there. dunno if she saw mi. tiemis always so sweet when i wif my boi hahah.

oh ya, will be goingt o watch zpop for amei!!!!

haha, forgot to add something. ytday, for teh first time, i slept in full monty manner. n wanna JO oso. but, stil lwent to sleep instead haha. at 524am, i woke up, wore back brief, n slept. 6am, wah raining.. cold, i turned off fan n slept. my blanket was somehow "kicked" outta bed *blink*

ya boi, sorrie tat mi dun have free incoming yet. i was stupid in the ast, n din think of much. jus wanna get my sony hp. end up high hp bill, n no free incoming. those teasing lines, are meant to tease u. but sometimes they may sound personal or suaning, so i dun wan say them, but now, i more n more relax n dare to say liao :) cos u confident enuff to receive the blows from mi!! haha *attack!!*

"I am getting used to u not being so direct and open abt things liao... " means?? am i not direct? or u mean, some times i hint at things? ehhe, i'll try to b less protective loh, but still as loving hehehe. u can spend ur time wif ur frns loh, cos frns are not to be neglected even in LTRs. we are still spending time these days when u not going gym. if i feel tat i need mroe time wif u, will surely let u know :)

who are "Luke and Desmond, Daniel and WeiXiang"?? ahha, today after knowing the way u bitch, i know how u tok to ur frns liao haha.. u like my teasing, cos it's a way i express my comfy being wif u. n u wanna b careful wif mi, incase soemthign bad happen. dun worry, i'm alright wif u. from the blogs, i can feel we can click pretty well. ur bitching is similar to my way of toking back. but urs is more to those joking n luffing type. mine is, depending on how i want thigns to be, either suaning, insulting, or humouring :)

so now, u know loh, if u dun wan the item to sound off alarm, let me see first ,den alarm wun sound off hahah. ok, at the cinema there, i had wanna take my dinner. but u found it rushing. since i alright wif taking cinema food, i ok to buy from there instead. but i din expect to buy 2 shares!!! next time, i'll get dinner, den buy 1 share. dun spend 2 much. i'm on financial budget, so a bit careful on these thigns.

for now, i'll keep to my promise to not looking at guys. but when u really comfy wif it liao, den i'll see how loh. yes, i know his details, but i dun wan say it out. cos i dun wan u get jealous. if u ask mi, i sure will say. i got kena teased meh abt toilet??? i dinno?!? about olive, i really wanna clarify. i din think so much abt whether u like anot. more to, since u told mi tat, i passed ur comments to them loh. i really din think u din like bitter things...

ya loh, agent jobs quite tiring, n depends on how hard u wanna work. n whether ur network is wide enuff. the best place is when i wif u, but the most comfy for us is a place wif a/c, so u feel alright :) eheh, it's oni right when i caleld back, cos tat sounded quite urgent n bad. but tat time, u msg mi, den 30 min later i call u back, tat time i den feel so paiseh...

yup, i guess i still not good at socialising. sometimes first move to others may b a hitnt at u like them. n at times, pretty hard to keep contact via hp/sms tat i dun feel like getting their contacts. online like msn/icq/frnster, all contain my gay stuff. not easy to let colleagues know. yes, i did try to join them, but the ger, maybe she really 2 not-used-2 new guys, she not receptive to asking guys out for lunch. for S, i'll call him oni when he's the oni person left. ya, i'm frnly, but at work, haha, dunno wat to say or chat up wif colleagues at times, esp when ppl from other dept comes.

heeh, why shld i let u wait, when i can meet u in an instant? nex ttime, will eat soemthign first (the sour snack ? hehe). ahyaha, so now, u know the intimacy level of us lao?? haha... err, as long it makes u happy, i'll still blog for u :) replied ur commetns liao... tmr den reply ur blgos :) hehe, ai de zhu da ge?

heeh, these days been going out wif my boi. but frankly, i dun have many ppl to hang uout wif though. usually is ask my msian frn. or else, will be to ask some seldom jio out frns. oh, back to topic. cos now often go wif out my boi, end up, get home, my first thign to blog is how i feel about the trip :) can say i never felt this happy beofre :) at times when we not toking, i'll try to think of soemthing to say, but i gradually feel it's not needed, cos as long we enjoy each other's company, it's the most treasurable n enjoyable moemnts =D *a flying kiss to him... jus wanna do it, even if it sounds gross*

on way home, i do have some flash backs n hold backs. my past relns all dun last more than 1 mth. this time, mi n boi tok on blog for 2 mths, n went out for almost a mth oso. thru our restless communication via blogging, i really hope this time, verything will work out fine. i am protective of him at times, n from hwo he react, seem like i'm the protective n caring n ready-to-fight kinda guy siazz!! cos, today, we went for some jap food again, n was once again served "crab". den got 1 guy n ger in offce wear come in to sit. as they were shown seats beside us, i heard guy ask, is there seats other than here? 2 bad none. so he sat.

den somehow, i feel that the guy n ger are actaully raising their voice to chat. it's as though they in kopitiam n can tok as loud as they want. kauz. wat an irritating pair. i den raise my voice oso. boi felt it, n ask mi to lower my voice. ok loh, i did.

this morning, raining oso. soemhwo, haha, ok am i getting 2 confi of myself? cos on bus to work, got 1 lady, walk all the way to the end of the bus to stand at the seat i at. my impression is, she loojing at mi. den for lunch, had wanna ask ppl from other depts out, but 2 bad, i need to go early lunch. think aybe tmr i try again. for lunch, got ppl doing flag day. i donated 10c to a ger. den on way back, got a cute boi wif earphone, i donated, n asked some boliao qns haha. donate 20c lah.

i muz say the temp guy good at PR. he can click well wif the ppl inside. even for lunch, can say 4 ppl, including him, went together. for mi, i feel tat i'm starting to open up myself for chatting. den hor, i gelled my hair, n was actually teased by the young lady: u using wax, careful later it rains. later i went to meet up my boi

haah, went all way to meet him from his office, den went further down for dinner. jus den, sis called mi for urgent help. hha, he went all the way wif mi to find sis siazz. quit nice of him. was thinking of getting him to rest there, while i go find sis. den hehe, made a fool of myself in front of him for dinner =D n wah, dinno my boi can take HOT n SPICY stuf! once again, he bought some thigns for mi. sighzz, dun think i can stop him from buying thigns for mi, but can oni dissuade him.

on way home, oso kinda.. haha, made a scene of ourselves.. in such way tat, no 1 dare to face us hahah... every1 jus crowd either 5 steps before or after us ;) hehe, by now, i wonder if i shld stil take all the time to blog. cos, i feel tat, my blog is for him to read haha... ya i know some other ppl oso reading. i'll see wat i can do.

was feeelin pretty ok, and aboutt o reply all my blogs n blog today oso. but suddenly, after toking to my boi for a efw mins, i started to feel tired in my mind, on the verge of falling asleep. is the radiation affecting? i mean, i was really able to tease n tok cock wif him at start. enjoyed the time. but later ,i gradually grew pretty exhausted. laid on bed to chat. no use. stood up, same thing. later had to stop the chat. he ask mi not to blog, sicne i tired. but eheh, since he enjoy reading my blog, and it makes his day, why not. guess i gonna make him qi4 gan3 jie1 fei1 =D

anyway, been having a bad feeling abt my job. felt tat, will i have bad reviews of my work performance, cos i talked back to S colleague? make mi sound like i not compatible wif the team? beenhaving this in my mind till i got to work. oh ya. damn heavy rain. got to work 20-25 mins late. the sup was calling out my name, n luckily,. i reaqched on time. so DAMN cold.

but later, at work, got back my job security feeling. cos i managed to still resolve cases, by not calling S. but at times, it's so damn sianzz there. n 1 thing i know abt the young lady n jnr colleague. Jnr is kinda scaredy cat. watever sup say, she'll accept all, without thinking. young lady, will stand to her position and reply thigns calmly. cos got 1 time, i was asking if 1 thing is possible. she then started to explain the process flow. goodness, i oni wanna know the ans. u tell mi process flow for wat?

den was on way home. kept my promise to keep my eyes off guys. so any1 walk past, i see 1 time, den refrain from looking again. a bit not used, but ya, jus need to get used to it. guess tat all. pretty tired these days. dun wanna force myself to reply blogs yet. sleep more better. oh ya, on way home, simply felt i need somethign in my mouth to spice up my taste buds. heehhe, so i foudn tat ice cream peddlar not selling, den went to buy curry puff.. piping hot :)

tuesday blog. surprisingly, i managed to catch the early bus. forgot the chronological order of events. but somehwo, i realyl feel like, i'm not good at making frns. esp at work. will usually focus on wokring, den may not wanna tok wif colelagues. tat younglady i often tok abt, we din tok today. at least i dun rmb calling her name. my snr colleague, today, she did say out, mi n her lunch time same, n i thot she'll this time ask mi out for lunch. but nope, seh still went off first.

den after lunch, S colleague team all go out, leaving S there oni. so i caleld him for help. he sonded so reluctant. den later he came over. i told him i need his help. he bochap. i reminded him, he xcame over, but chatted wif others. so i did my own stuff. later he stood behind mi. he din say anythign, so i din bother abt him oso. later, he was in other office. i call him in. ask him my questions. kauz, he gave mi AP!! tell him abt 1 prob, he say he cant get to the person, gave him another number, he called n slammed the phone when no 1 pick. when he slammed, he messed up my desk.

i ask him dun throw his temper at my desk. den 2 qn, he oso push to mi to do. 3rd qn, he told mi wat i supposed to check wif user frst. i reach boiling point liao. i went to discuss wif my snr. dun chap S anymore. if he want it this way, alright. for work's sake, will still call him, but wun b frnly anymore. if he take my jnr's words tat he's my "lover" seriously, be it. sometimes,i wonder if i'm 2 stubborn for my own good at work. but since i know my stuff, why shld i b pushed around? i know if something shld b worked in a way, it has to b. i respect tat. but not when our interests conflict.

will any1 who's good at office politics or making frns at work tell mi where i went wrong?

den i decided to go visit my pub frn, roger rabbit. went to style my hair. haha, my snr colleague made a joke on mi. she tried tog et the young lady in, but she gave some non-sensical reply. i smiled. n told her, "there's no 1 to style up for, since no client to meet". jus den, i saw my boi's sms!!! kauz, sent at 6pm, i saw oni 630!! i had wanna ask him go wfi mi to see roger, but was scared to let roger know. why? dunno. but i still decided to ask him along. jus tat at last min, i decided to gob ack home wif my boi, instead o him making trip here. for a few reasons.

1) dun wan him drink
2) he may feel outta place
3) duinno how he'll react when we are together int he str8 pub
4) dun wan roger to feel odd to see 2 guys so intimate

den wif my boi sending mi home, i was pretty much under influence of alcohol tat i dunno wat i trying to say at times. but we did enjoy some wodnerful moments. wif our intimacy, we really got all sorts of stares. got 1 guy wif 2 gfs, standing beside my boi,. i wanna help him gain more space, but he dun wan, sayign he know wat i wanna do.. hahah...

today i wnana sleep early. will blog my reply, tmr.

on monday, had wanna blog, but simply, dun wish to make the efoort. on monday, did the laundry, n met up wif the agent. he drives a car, and sent mi to mccafe. he look quite good for his age. i even took his pic wif my cam, but he din turn out good in my cam. in fact, he look like some actor, but i dun rmb. oh ya, his first child "coming out" in 1 mth.

been toking thigns other than insurance. n even toked abt work, and my experiences n etc. he was also amused at my thots. he seem to b quite a nice frn to know. but i wonder, other than being client, can we actually b frns? n go out? anyway for lunch, went to eat choy fun. this time, the ppl seem bit cold liao lei. no more asking if rice enuff anot. well, i take it it's the weather. cos it's REAL DAMN HOT! luckily my boi not wif mi, fi not, i wnna bring him ice-skating, or go a/c places.

all the way till 7pm, been clearing my mails, n checkign on my boi. felt so bad tat he stayed wif mi, eve though he not well at sun dinner. at night, he sms mi he's down, n i immediately called him. know part of story, n offered my consoles. and the despo hsewife is so real, n direct siazz. dealing wif all sorts of prob tat can coem to life. i forgot wat made mi fall in love with the ep, but wat i can think of is, if i lov my boi, i'll do all i can do protect him from harm. ehhe, funny, wanna sleep early, but stil lend up sleep after 12. i think i need to readjust my hearts in fridae...

email from a mailing list. sighz, did not read my mails for 3 weeks. If not, i may go for it.

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Dear All,
Singapore I-Lien Drama Society is looking for actors/ actresses for it's upcoming Mandarin production, Ma Lan Hua, which will be staged in July 2005.

Synopsis:
This is a popular children?s play adapted from the widely circulated folk legend. A villager who fell off a cliff is rescued by a flower deity, Ma Lang. As he is interested in marrying one of his two daughters , he gave the Ma Lan flower to the villager and will take the daughter who accepts the flower as his wife. The elder Lan rejected the flower as she hates living in the mountains while the younger daughter, little Lan accepted the flower and lead a happy life with Ma Lang. Gradually, Elder Lan gets jealous of their happiness. Edged on by an evil old cat, she killed little Lan and assumes her identity. Luckily, Ma Lang sees through her evil plot and revives Little Lan. They lived happily ever after.

Requirements:
- fluent in Mandarin
- age 25 years and below
(those who appear to be younger than 25 years old may also apply)
- acting experience and able to sing is an advantage

Performance details:
Date: 22 to 23 Jul 2005 (Fri and Sat)

Venue: Victoria Theatre

Rehearsal Schedule and Remuneration:
Rehearsal is scheduled to start in June. As we are a not-for-profit drama society, we can only give each cast member an honorarium to cover food & transport costs.

Audition Details:
Audition will be on 15 May (Sunday).

Looking forward to see you! :)
Regards,
Singapore I-Lien Drama Society.

Been a real long time since i last blogged. well, i had spent a wonderful 40 hours, whcih was totoally enjoyable :) Had done many of my firsts during this period. but strange thing, n i not paiseh or afraid to say it. seem like, ever since i have a boi, visits to this place has gone down a lot.

anyway, sunday had family bfast as usual. but somehow, when i oni 5 mins walk away from home, mum called mi tat i shld wear proper clothes, cos they going restaurant. n my aunt coming oso. ok i heard tat. but in my mind, i thot: wah liao, now den tell mi?? wat am i suposed to do? my usual timing is 10am-1030 i sure get home. den they call mi 1022am? cant they jus inform mi earlier??

den when i reached home, i grumbled loh. den later mum threw in: u not home, how i tell u? i refuted: den how come aunt know?

den, my sis oso told mi my future sis in law family oso going. i was bewildered. at tat time, i got 2 choices: 1, dress sloppily n tell ppl i not told of the meet, n thus no time to prep. 2, try my best to make a proper outfit from my current ward of clothes. i chose the latter. if i have the means to make the day, y not? n i dun wan make mi, or my family to look bad. later, i did tell my mum, she shld at least inform mi earlier, at least before the timing i usually get home, so tat i can prepare myself.

when we got to the restaurant, such a big crowd i really stunned n bored. allt he adults there dicussing marriage. mi n sis n aunt nothingt o chip in siaz. felt tat time is so heard to pass. haah, our first dish came: porridge. dunno how come, when dad ask us to take our share, i, by instinct or watever, told him n mum to take first, cos they elder.

i was dressed in specs n orange T n dark brown 3/4. the ger's side got a kid bro who dress similar style as mi. i wodner if i look his age siazz. but i sure i muhc older. here, mum tried to be concerned n told mi, "this got scallops, u dun like, dun take this 1". my sis n i were wondering, why she say tat. i even asked, how does she know tat. den i refuted: oh, den i dun take siew mai oso, u can have it. i den told my sis "if she wanna embarass herself, let her be".

den, went to my frn's place for dinner wif my boi. heh, they so kind n noti to leave us "alone" n went for grocery. frankly speaking, even though i know my boi may be sad to read this, but it's simply in my mind. over there, got 1 30yo guy in short sleeve shirt. wif his dressing style, i was thinking how his body will look.

n it's so funny / fun. in the hse, we kinda behaved in couple's manner. when ppl appeared, we moved away haha. oh ya, i think this part, i'm being gracious. i invited a guy to sit beside mi, as he may be afraid of intruding our privacy, but tat's pure frnly. den later, in the lift, we were holding hands, n the lift opened, a lady came in. we or maybe i immediately moved our hands in such an awkward manner, as though we doing soemthign immoral LOL. but i bochap, i still tok to my boi is sweet manner hahah. luckily, my boi still has transport home. if not, i will feel bad, n most probably send him home in taxi.

as for mi, i stil lgot bus home. haha, jus a lil twist. as i resting on the bus, a teen boarded bus wif his frn. den my eyes were closed mah. i heard a "ei". i belive it's not directed at mi. den tat teen bumoped my shoulder lightly. i woke up, he was looking sideway. i stared at him, he din see. i stood a bit n gave another stare. he either thinking, he in wrong, bo chap, or i peeping at him. i den shifted my bag to make a distance between us. when i got home ,i simply, 2 tired to wash up. wif my gelled hair, i dozed off. wanna JO first, but i decided to skip it.

will post monday blog later.

tuesday: hehe, u wanna by my side ah? so fast think og co-habitating?? yup, nice tat we can sms n tok in so many ways. but cos my hp dun have free incoming, i cant manage to tok eferyday on hp wif u, muz either via blog, or meet up. sms is ok lah, but calling more personal n faster mah. ur frns wanna see mi? thot they know mi in sgboy n fridae??

the direct stuff i wanna say are those teasing lines. cos they are supposed to tease, i dun wan u to keep thinking they are directed at u. mroe to add spice to our chats. as for the surprises, as i said, will try to let u know some things lah. cos u dunno wat i thinking, thus worried abt wat i have in mind. cos i dun like to tell thigns so directly n open.

i look fierce when saying seriosu stuff?? not stern n serious look?? ya loh, still rmb on the bus, i was luffing so hard tat i MUZ control it, if not, may jus giggle for god know how long. u look fair?? u got tanline liao mah, but maybe u not happy wif ur physique, so the tanline u not happy oso? muz beg for muaxies??? aiyo, den muz get some protection for my knees siazz.. ;) who say my dryness nothing to do wif u?? u suck away (haha, use this word on purpose!) all my moisture n blood, so of cos veli dry!

no lah, although we are seeing each other, frns is still impt, u still need new/more frns. if he really keen on u, up to u when u wnana tell him abt us. huh?? i mean i knwo the quotes are abt mi lah. hehe, if i'm easily taken away, den mi is not worthy of my boi's LOVE (",). oni Vir n kenneth are couples?? thot got 2 couples? excluding blog owners. wat happened to u in the gym?? u wrote on tues, so u hurt on mon gym. how come?? wah liao, dinno ur blog tok abt synopsis oso :)

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wednesday: i can stil sleep lah, cos jus feel stomach empty. still can slp. i'll try to ask for increment loh. TRY. i take those teasings as spices lah. but u often kena attacked, unable to defend. i think i shld toen down on it. later someone find it 2 sour to cope liao... :) but, hehe, i'll still think of how i wan reply, n grin, but dun tell :) haha hwo u gonna find the missing screw?? yup, i did feel u getting tensed up abt the hp chat. anyway, it's over =D well, jus feel like givign u a hug to let u know i stil care for u.

hehe, dinnno u take the time to write out tat encoded msg msn nick :) wah u win liao loh. really say we having seafood buffet!! but other than marina bay, i dinno jap food serve such "seafood" buffet oso =P so now, u got phobia of crab liao? LOL. ya loh, duno y shoes can 300$ siazz. brand, material, or cutting?? why muz those successful bizman go for them?? haha, ya loh, someone created a scene after he bought a soft toy oso!! kena check by SO even!! LOL so paiseh!! dinno soemone have a "3rd arm" LOL.

dun think the salesman pissed off. shoes muz buy somethign tat we like, n comfy mah :) ehhe, even if shoes not to my liking, oso will buy, cos it's hand picked by him heheh. alright, this is sweet talking, but frankly, ur choice will take priority over mine :) but i mus like it oso lah. if sat got LAN, den the sentosa thing hwo??

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thur: dun worry, i wil sleep early if i rally need to. not enuff slp, can catch on bus in morning. i got 2000 min free talktime in off peak hrs. if everything goes as planned, umm, u'll read tis oni on tues, unless u go LAN shop... u'll either knwo my surprised on fri n sunday itself, or u oredi know by the time u return office :)

hey, why u keep saying u dun appeal at all?? although i keep saying abt "personality n character", dun mean u dun attrract mi. u r cute at times. but the P & C are most crucial in LTR mah. i still look at guys cos i do look around n observe. if see some nice looking dudes, i will oni look once. although i failed today. maybe 'cos i 2 bored? was on bus from work, den noticed tat 1 guy seem to always look at mi, i looked a few times to determine it. i not changing lah, jus dun wan let u worry abt mi. it's not mi to not look at ppl, but i wun keep looking loh. dun wan my boi feel insecure.

how come ur boss so bad 1?? everytime muz sabo u?? wat reason she give for cancelling leave?? my jnr colleague, tat "young lady" is quite protective of her stand. she once again, "it's the quality of work tat coutns, not quantity." "as long my work is done, i can go, no need stay too long". gosh, i dinno u din take lunch today. i guess i shld have msg u to check if u taken lunch. err, whose sms woke u up? right now, i thinking it's ur dream guy? we ended call abt 1230am. wat time u went to slp again?

u sure ur next update is tues??? LOL *evil grin* haha, first tiem to finish blogging b4 12am :) sleep liao. these days been taking lotsa hot thigns, like vege goose, n curry. wah liao, rainy season muz take them meh?

upon knocking off time, i feel as though this place is not as nice as it seemed to b. i am even starting to feel outta place. not tat i'm outcasted, but jus tat the kiddy politics is driving mi siaoz. we have 2 timings for lunch. 1 from 12-1, den 1-2pm. sometmies the gers will go before 12. n we go when they are back. today, the gers went off jus b4 12. den, our batch, some snr ppl, by 1240, were oredi complaining why they are not back yet. so late oredi. i was thinking, wahliaoz, jus a short while will kill?? den they even called the gers, asking wat time they come back.

den when the gers came back, tat young lady who matured EARLY n daring n outspoken wif her words, said to mi, "aren't you hungry? we're back. go n eat loh". i den replied CALMLY "not yet". she "not yet?". wah liao. muz she b so HARsh wif her words?? at tat instant, i was thinking "hey young lady. do mind ur words. do not b so harsh. i'm trying to maintain good working terms n not b so str8 wif my words. if u don't deserve that, i can slam u down." den along the way, i was thinking, at work, maybe i dun have to be so honest. i can say n do diff thigns.

cos, the gers later even went to the extent of "counting wat time we leave for lunch n come back". den durign my lunch, discussed abt the thigns at work, n some more politics. the politics here still quite open, not those u hide from mi, i from u. as the snr are chatting abt it, 1 other dept guy ask mi, abt my observation at work. i tell wat i saw. aftr tat, i start to regret. i think, i shld go wif the group. cos i realise tat, i not fully accepted into it. i guess i shld start to learn some things abt pol.

after work, err, gotta confess lah (jus now my boi called mi, but i bathing n when call back, hp off, so i think ... err, but he tmr off. watever.) i went to visit a frn at his work place - pub. tat roger rabbit. but he's off, so i go str8 home. on way home, am i really so much better looking these days? or my attitude is eye-catching? somehow, on the bus, i can feel tat some guys/gers r peeping at mi. got to family, but dinner is so disappointing. curry drum rice OR braised pork rice. sianz. i ate the drum n went outt o eat.

anyway, snrs n mi did discuss our pay, or rather mine. they seem to be getting my pay as well, but not sure if they telling truth. anyway, they oso wun know if i telling truth. oh ya, almost forgot. tmr i going movie wif my boi. n due to this apptmt/expectation/plan, i actually keep waiting for tmr to arrive. wah liao, wat a logn wait! in past, i oni waiting to go home n watch tv, reply mails, blog etc. oni looking forward to knocing off. den this tiem, from tues look forward til now, so jialutz!! like time pass so slow like dat!! in future, i think i shldn't give such an expectation to myself. jus make time harder to kill.

n finally, i gonna reply comments :) although my eyes... so droopy

this post may sound stupid, but i stil lwanna say it. back from supper, i saw a giant cockroach lying on the pavement. i den used my sandals to flip it over. it ran off. den at my void deck, there is another cockroach, almost leaning onto another's corpse. at tat time, i'm not sure if it's feeding. but they don't feed on such thing right? so, my other guess is, they are a couple. was, are, n will be. the living 1 seems to be hugging the dead's corpse, mourning over its death. wat on earth could have caused its death?

the last time, i saw the dead roach, was when it was flipped over, barely struggling. i even haf the chance to hold it's feeler n flip it over. den it was toppling onto 1 side. i knew it's injured.

although.. i promised my boi to sleep early, esp after our 1hr hp tok (phew it's local call, not to OZ!!!). but i dun wan let him, have an incomplete day, so i still wnana blog. wah liao, i had my dinner at 7pm, den now this hr, i hungry again. growling some more.

over our chat, my way of surprising him is diff from wat n how he wanna. well, i accomodate him loh :) let him know wat he wanna find out :) without giving out 2 much into :)

wah liao, nowadays, every morning, always seemt o rain. so, this time, i actually left my bed slightly later, n resulted in mi leaving hse later. kinda purposely even to take a later bus. so i was late for a few mins. ok 15mins. but it's ok over here lah. tat S colleague of mine, i wonder, if he's influenced by how my jny colleague say thigns, so right now, he's quite cold n jus frnly colleague, instead of the usual chatty personj wif mi. cos today, he gave us some additional info, but it differ from wat we usually do, so i ask him why. he got pek chek n gave some boliao ans.

either this, or he really not gonna stay in thsi job too long. cos, ok, maybe i over sensitive. cos got 2 cases from mi, i passed it to him. he told mi his clleague YK (female) is taking voer. but when i found YK, she say she din call user yet. check wif S, den realised no 1 got backt o her yet. So, either he's really not keen anymore, (cos he gave those boliao reply, n such work attitude), or he dun wanna do much wif mi.

for lunch, today i dunno if it's luck, or really good thing. i was tokignt o user. nearign lunch hr liao. den i done liao, n snr colleague at the same time wanna go lunch. so we went together. den along teh way, chatted wif them, n both are more open n chatty. hmm, was wondering, cos i had bought snr colleague some snacks n din get money from her yet, i dun think i wanna get from her, since things seem to get better. n to think my jnr coleague is confirmed for her job, but snr colleague think jnr is not up to it yet.

den somehow, my jnr colelague, sometimes really like fear i overtake her position. cos when i know something more than her, n let her know, she will seem dun wanna listen much. ok. wat's more, i feel she really has NO STAND. S guy (S colleague) say 1 thing, den she so fast jump to accept wat he said, n din care wat was the prev agreement. KAUZ! surprise...

den later, went to aunt place to help her fix PC. sianz! din manage to setup the new prolink 8k series. even messed up. luckily XP got the system restore. ahha. first time i feel XP is useful. umm, these days, istill find myself looking at guys who appeal to mi. but sicne my boi dun look at those who appeal to him, i guess, i will refrain oso. duno how. slowly? look at them, den dun see anymore. dun stare at them.

i go supper.

although had dinner n bubble tea, i actually still feel like eating soemthing more.. addicted, habit or hungry? no idea./

this morning, once again, the bus queue super long. n i actually forgot today got wkly meeting. woke up on time for normal office hrs. luckily, they din say anything, cos my jnr colleauge jus arrivd oso. den the mee3ting started. nothign much to do, but some sms'es made mi so blushing. lunch time, the temp guy told mi something "honestly": last night, i took time off to fix pc thign right? he told mi the office later gossip tat i actually have prob wif my dsl modem, n took time off for it. n said i shld have jus said something happen at home, n need to rush off.

perhaps true, but i dun see the point in lying. n the sup did give permission. they complain oso no point. but i doubting the temp guy's words. later went to shop for shoes. hehe, got many shoes to choose from siazzz.. but decided to buy later ,when my boi is wif mi. err, haha, dunno wat else to write. nothign interesting. ok, 1 last thing. jnr colleague passed probation, n got confirmation letter. increment? dunno. so i guess when my prob over, shld get similar txtmt. AND by tat time, i will wanna ask for pay increment.

deb later ,went out wif my boi. been pretty enjoyable n fun :) n realised some things abt myself. for a long time, i've been unable to luff such a big deal n way. n when i'm 1 screw missing, i get kidy, n lose my logical reasoning. n at times, when i'm enjoying my time, i tend to lose myself, n dunno when to stop beign so funny n insensitive abt my words. lastly, when i'm wif him, i forget my unhappiness, n jus wanna relax myself hahah. but soemthing did happen jus b4 we part. luckily we talked it over... haha,,, oh ya, i bought my new shoes, n will wear it on friday :)

haha, jus now, at my blk, i saw a dying cockroach. i used my shoes to flip it over but failed. after 1 min, i picked its feelers n turned it over. it seem dying stil..

how come u reply 2 times? if u login n reply, i think u can edit. ya tat sms, i can oni suppose it's u, cos got ONI 1 person who have my number, but i dun have his at tat time :) if u keh keh, i will be veli paiseh loh. tat y tat time, i decide to b daring n BLIF u r him hehe. sms mi anytime oso ok, jus tat i may not reply veli fast. i am BZ man :P but now, i find antoehr adv of blogging. we can save on sms fees LOL. when we not meeting, we can blog. sms for short msgs =D dunno how it gonna b, but shall see ahah. if u have other means, we can oso try.

u cna alwasy sms mi loh :) i dun mind, but i'm financially conscious, so sometimes may be 2 stingy. wah!! u buay paiseh!! my frns r ur frns, and ur frns r my frns. haha, ur parents r mine 2, n mine urs LOL. maybe we jus take blogging/hp/etc as it goes, n see where we end up. not tat i not comfy telling u things. but i know tat, our first time meet, if tell u 2 direct stuff, u may not take it well. i prefer to, when we closer n more stable, den i tell u directly.

arghzz, mi kena suan liao. when i recall my thots, i cute?? when u asking mi serious replies, i do give it a thot first, b4 i reply. dun worry lah, if my lungs cant take it, u got to do CPR liaozz. jus scared, u may do CPR in wrong place hahaha. ask mi tmr if u dun get mi :) i can take my lufter lah. i can control if i cant take it. i hit u in eyes. tat tiem u seem alright, so i din take it to heart. but if really hurt, u'll see a red cross on my forehead :)

how u define nice tan? oh ya hor, now no begging at al, n someone gave muaxies auto liao hor? =D ya, when we part tat vening, i really din realise i din wash face, till i reachign home n i find face sticky n dry. *replying to parts of ur deleted comments* hesitate when reply 'cos i wanna think n analyse b4 i ans. dun wan to jus give ans anyhow. hiding, perhaps, cos wan u to more confident n us stable before i can really b truthful. if not, i think u may feel -ve. ahah, we'll know if we can express ourselves verbally tmr :) wif wat happen on sunday, i scared tat we create a scene siazz ... LOL

ur blog say u exchange email addy. hehe, i wonder how long it'll last. from exp, email last at most a week. :) ur quotes hor, now i think r writing abt mi siazz..!! huh?? u say lotsa thing abt mi, den ur frns may kajiao mi?? thot they shld know where n how to find mi... eheh, i thnk ur next sentosa outing may really b couples outing :) hey, ur last quote, muz pay mi royalty for using my line hor!!

monday almost blue.. n i'm still broke. woke up, raining, ahah, din have the mood to work, but still dragged myself to work. but i slept thru the journey. workload pretty fine. for lunch, my snr went off first. den i went off. din expect them to ask mi to join them saizz. n chatted wif them a bit oso. somehow, i feel tat, my jnr is a bit scared tat i getting better at problem solving. cos she was bit cold to mi. even got 1 time, i ask her if getting the user to come down will solve the problem, she jus went ahead to tell mi wat the basic troubleshooting steps r... wah liao... waste my breath.

den later went to the PC shop there to fix my thing. along the way, i really thinking hard, howt o explain to them ,so tat probably can get them to exchange for mi. but they wanna test out first. den got their tech guy come down. heheh, the guy was kinda broad-shoulder type. spec, n blond hair. not good looking, but his body size, when he try to fix the prob, i almost felt like hugging him from the back haha!! but i was thinking: wah liao, sound so gay! but in end, they wanna let mi upgrade my ting, but need to pay 20$ extra. aiyoz, i decline. n they refuse to let mi have it for free, or exchange for good of similar value. bobian, i decided to report to case. i din tell them though.

den i on way home, n along the way, bought ice cream wif bread. forgot to order, so end up got 1 scoop of choc, straw, n yellow stuff. i ate like a kid siaz!! n browsed thru the shoes. 20$ for 1 pair, but FEW designs. so went home. on the train, 1 guy sitting beside mi, seem so petrified of getting too close tat, there was a gap of 5 cm between us siazz!! the lady beside her, i think, can fel his skin liao haha. at my mrt, i looked at the shoes oso. bata = $30. croc is $20. whcih shld i buy? ask mum, she say buy quality 1. the shoes gonna last for years, for a good pair. croc is my daddy era LOL. i think tmr, i gonna buy a proper shoes liao.

haha, 1 last thign, quite amusing. after shopping, a lady stopped mi for a survey of a few qns. she is good at "pick-up lines". she ask abt my job, saving, n my age, and commented i look so young, but is older than her haha. den we tok a bit, n i was in hurry to go. dun wan gimme her name card, n i dun wan give her my number oso. IT'S A GER! WAT FOR I GIVE NUNMBER! n u know wat, the paper tat she write my details, she thanked mi for time, byed, n tored the paper, n her face turn black. LOL... so prac.

a reply to his comment. ahah, wonder if i will still need to reply siazz, since the fairy tale is ending soon. or will there be part 2?? with more characters joining in?? haha.. other than u, oni my close frns in my mind ;)

now tat we've met, not veli sure how to rpely ur blog :LOL: somehow, now i know why u wanna tell ur frn something thru blog haha. so, jus tell u something, cos first time meet, dun feel alright to tell u 2 much, but in future, shld b ok. dun tell u 2 much, cos dun wan u feel -ve :) but i oredi told u most ofthe thigs. jus tat i'm more attracted to ur person. rmb, person/character is more impt. n ya, i did enjoy our time. and shall see how things go, when we go on our first outing haha. at times, i hesitated in reply, cos i need time to think, dun wan give u any direct ans, cos i prefer to say with responsibility hehe...

for a long tiem, i've not had a hysterical n kiddy smile. those tat can make mi giggle till i cant compose myself type. ahah.anyway, tis morning, went for family bfast. gosh, they still leeting the dog walk around. i den suggest to put the dog in the balcony, so at elast can limit his movemnts. den the bfast, kauzz, oni mi n parents. make mi the limelight siaz!! kena treat like a sec sch boy. even when i ask daddy to order Tea for mi, he ask "Tea got milk 1 u know?" i was puzzled, n amused. den when i order my bfast, my parents keep telling mi wat the dishes available there.

GOSH!!! although they dun have much to tok abt, do they have to focus so much on mi?? den later ,when i almost done, they, yes they, volunteered to claer my plate, n i felt like, in public, they treat mi like a kid siazz!! ARGHZz... i so paiseh! den later , daddy go otu take a breather. den later, mum oso same thing. wah liaozz, i suddenly feel like, they nopthing to tok, but they still wanna fidn chance fo some pte moments. n the rest is history, till i meet my prince Caring with a tanned skin LOL. unique desc hor? :)

yup, went for the haircut. the stylist wanna try new style on mi. i ok. cos she saw the style in mag, n thot it suits mi LOL. sure? dunno. but i game for new thigns :) den the person bring mi to wash my hair. a lady. i den asked if kido is around. she den took the initiative to ask if i wanna kido. haha, i replied "cos last time i came, his skill is not bad" "ok, i ask him do" "paiseh leh.." "it's ok" =D

den later, he took over :) last time, he was in white T. tat time look quite decent n proper. this time, he wearing black T. tight fitting type. look like those toned bod. tat feeling he gave mi is gone liaozz. but his touches still quite nice :) den, i went to check my hair. look quite ok.

den rush down all the way to buy IT things. wah, i so kisiao. run here there to check on the prices. bought 1, but dunno if it works. it's jap brand. supposed to wait for aunt to com, but 2 bad, she bz. den had wnana take direct bus home, but find it's too time consuming, so went all the way to city hall there togo home. haha, i take abt 45min to walk there siazz!! to my busstop!! it's tat far!

jus when i took the bus, i calle dmy aunt, she at home, so, i transitted over. haha, like so fun like tat. DEN, hehe, in for a surprise! got a chubby cutie :) i walked past him, den stood behind him. LOL. looked at him all the while. oh ya, as i on way to buy the cmputer thing, oso got someone wearing a adidas singlet, those swimmer body type, tanned. his bod look 2 nicely shaped to match his decent specs haha.

den siao, i stayed at aunt's there from 5pm till 10pm siazz!! until my hp total die off. on way home, i kinda realise something. non-locals tend to take the ez way by taking mrt. locals, knowing the roads well, take buses. tat why, sometimes i'm pissed at the AP of some commuters. n hor, i saw tat, this new hair indeed make mi feel more relaxed, freed, carefree. n vibrant? somehwo, i sense tat a number of ppl r taking note of mi, be it ger or guy. some daring to look, some peep.

oh... ehhe, long time no sms all day to someone special liao. haha, thinki need to get the hang of it. but i felt so BAD tat, i din msg him as my hp low batt n die off. make him worry n uncertain. but we gonna meet tmr LOL.